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I would love to understand why my brain and body are desperate to not shower in the safety of my own home but perked up at the offer to go shower at the gym that’s full of people I don’t know and men who could pin me and locker rooms with open doorways and less control over cleanliness than I can get in my own apartment. Something something the years of swim practice and swim meet locker room showers being safe I guess?
#I’ll allow it#I’ll even encourage it if it can help me get over 6 miles walked per day again#but can I please fucking shower? I feel so gross#I have never in my life had as hard a time showering or bathing as I have this year and it’s been killing my self esteem#I feel like everyone knows I’m gross and I KNOW I need to shower#it’s important#and I don’t want my hair greasy or anything#but I go out of my way to avoid it except for an occasional hair wash or body shower when I need to go to an event#and it’s driving me CRAZY#cleanliness is really really next to godliness in my family and also I know everyone in the world views hygiene as a moral issue#and I CAN SHOWER I did it for YEARS I even did it daily for years I used to be SO good at always always doing at least the minimum#even if sleep deprived or sick#but now it’s like I’m stuck SCREAMING and slamming my palms bloody in a containment cell somewhere in the center of my concept of a body#BEGGING to just stop being so gross and to do a daily face routine and use lotion and keep my teeth healthy and keep my hair clean#and it doesn’t even matter#I’m so ashamed all the time#but my brain doesn’t give a shit about it anymore#it views the endless shame as a lesser evil and god I hope I figure out how to get that stopped#I don’t even get triggered in the shower!!! I don’t know what’s wrong! my brain just does everything it can#to keep me from undressing and showering#no matter how much I hate it#and this is so tmi sorry oh god#I’ll probably delete this later#but#shh katie#add to journal#is it the dissociation? is it the adhd? is it the ptsd?#FINALLY my POTS symptoms chill out for the winter and now THIS?
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Jason travels to an alternate universe where Bruce only cares about being Batman. He took in each of his kids to serve the mission, not be his children.
Now, faced with alternate versions of his family, Jason has to grapple with the fact that his Bruce does care, that he is his father. Because the man in front of him now, trying to send him home, isn’t even close.
#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#redhood#batfam#batfamily#this bruce went one of two ways 1) running his kids into the ground and they’re basically unrecognizable to jason or 2) worked them so hard#they couldn’t take it and left the business entirely and he’s completely alone except the JL which doesn’t like him but he is necessary#sure crime is down but bruce’s crusade is just that an actual crusade because he treats his sons like soldiers and everything comes second#to the mission. i don’t even know if damian exists in this universe because the idea of bruce having romantic relationships is laughable#although here he might be more closely aligned to talia because they’re both mission oriented and having a legal heir for their literal#legacy might appeal to him idk. just that jason shows up and it’s like his brothers have military ranks instead of names. none of them have#real jobs or even friends because they eat sleep work live at the manor and would never leave the batcave if it weren’t for public#appearances. it’s insane to see dick without his personality or tim who really does act like a robot and not a person. i don’t know if steph#cass and duke would stick around for this (or alfred for that matter i’m 50/50)#but when jason does get back everyone is shocked that he sticks around the cave and manor for a couple weeks checking in on everyone and#making the effort to do things unrelated to mask business. he has to write a report about the incident and he struggles to even put into#words how wrong it felt. his arguments with bruce also skew slightly because he can’t claim bruce doesn’t care in general just that he#doesn’t care about him or express it enough or in the right way. a far cry from the usual spiel and bruce is concerned so they talk it out
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i’m just gonna come out and say it
if luke comes back in a future book, i hope percy is taller than him now.
#like a good few inches taller#if you can’t relate to this thought process then keep on scrolling#call me toxic#call me petty#call me stupid#i don’t care#i know damn well that height doesn’t matter and doesn’t make one man better than another#it doesn’t represent dominance#percy is the better man because of his bravery and his loyalty and his unwavering goodness#but i’m so loyal to percy that literally anything that gives him any sort of edge over luke gives me satisfaction#LEAVE ME AND MY PETTINESS ALONE#unless you ageee#then please join the club#i swear to gods if even one person calls me toxic or says i’m encouraging double standards i WILL delete this app and im not bluffing#THAT IS NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT#YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND#short kings i love you don’t even worry#this is between me and luke#and percy and luke#percy jackson#luke castellan#pjo#percabeth#heroes of olympus#percy jackson and the olympians#annabeth chase#rick riordan#riordanverse#pjo headcanons
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continuing my bones cartoon heart print boxers agenda
#heart print boxers black shirt pjs it all adds up guys.#star trek#star trek tos#leonard mccoy#leonard bones mccoy#doctor mccoy#bones mccoy#proportions are kind of fucked but it doesn’t even matter man the point is heart print boxers so. whatever#what’s in the glass. choose your own adventure
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oh I need my poor little reader girl working as an internet installation technician and being filled with dread when she shows up at her next appointment only for a huge, shirtless masked man to answer the door. Clutching her stupid company owned ipad to her chest and asking in a stuttering voice if he’s the owner of the house, praying that she’s got the wrong address.
#doesn’t even matter if he was on her list or not - he’s letting her in#ceil writing#ghost x reader#ghost/reader
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reminding everyone that the in-universe problem with The Doctor and The Master isn’t “ooo horrible nasty enemies who hate each other and don’t get along and fight all the time but are also in love”
the problem is that they get along. the problem is that they can’t stop themselves from falling naturally into a rhythm of riffing off one another and enjoying the other’s company. THAT is the problem. the problem is that it works and that’s the thing that caused all their issues. they like one another. they just click.

#doctor who#thoschei#the doctor and the master#the master#twissy#they’re also the two worst people on the planet(s) l#lol#it’s the person you can’t help having chemistry with#they almost don’t have a choice#they both know it too#sometimes one of them will pretend it isn’t true but it is it’s the very much mutually understood truth#the problem is they just like one another a lot#not even in a romantic way#even tho it’s romantic lol#they just LIKE one another !!!#what was that thing stephen moffat said#companions bring it up all the time too. it doesn’t make sense why the doctor lets them get away with so much. it frustrates every companio#when they see that the truth of the matter is that the doctor just LIKES the Master#the two kids every teacher sits intentionally far far far away from one another lmao
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Bro I🤦🤦
#I love using them as warm up doodles#like this is hideous#but it doesn’t matter bc it’s a warm up#life is good#also#I KNOW I’m gonna get flamed for making papyrus a bad cook#but guys listen#it’s a MEME#a JOKE#a JEST even#blease leave me alome#Papyton#papyrus#papyrus fanart#undertale papyrus#mettaton fanart#mettaton ex#undertale mettaton#mettaton#undertale#undertale fanart#fanart#artists on tumblr#my art#utdr fanart#utdr
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People when a character is aromantic or aromantic coded: Wowie! They’re aroACE! Because they aren’t interested in romance! Look at how aroace they are!
People when a character is aroace or aroace coded: Isn’t it cool that this character is asexual? Asexual icon! They’re such great asexual representation :)
#aro#aromantic#ace#asexual#aroace#alloaro#it feels like there’s this weird mindset of#if a character is aro then they MUST be ace too#and if they’re aroace then the ace part is all that matters!#and of course aplatonicism is never even mentioned as a possibility in fandom spaces (even with characters like Saiki who is apl coded af)#hell. even with real life people who have come out as aromantic#if someone comes out as aromantic they’re assumed to be asexual as well#and if someone is openly aroace it’s very common that people emphasize the ace part over the aro part#and while I get that some people do talk more about their asexuality than their aromanticism#it’s still weird to me that like#for example#Yasmin Benoit is one of the most prolific aromantic activists AND one of the most prolific asexual activists#yet I rarely ever see people mention that she’s aromantic or aroace. Everyone always just says “oh she’s asexual” and leaves it at that#her aromantic activism seems to just get ignored even with how much of it she’s done#when trying to find news sources talking about aromanticism for a research project about half of them were interviews#with Yasmin Benoit! she’s done so much work for the aromantic community#yet even in her Wikipedia article which describes her as an “asexual and aromantic activist” in the very first sentence#the section on her activism doesn’t include the words aromantic or aromanticism even ONCE.#like. yeah she does emphasize her asexuality a lot more than her aromanticism. but her aromantic activism should be acknowledged too
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Sukea stuff
Extra: realization

It’s been a while
Panel 1: smile

Comic 2: Caught red handed

you’re his son
Extra: conversation

he just picking on him
Comic 3: You’re grounded.

#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#obito uchiha#sakumo hatake#sasuke uchiha#sakura haruno#naruto uzumaki#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#I like the idea of sakumo no matter what will always recognized his son#even if kakashi hides everything and it just reaches to a comical point#like he could change his WHOLE appearance and scent and whatever and sakumo takes one glance and goes “that’s my son :D“#where obito doesn’t realize it until WAY later on (it’s like a nagging feeling but he ignores it)#I like to think both gai and obito would share the mindset of “I’ve seen this man somewhere but where???“#Sukea (Kakashi) immediately gets self conscious when near Sakumo#because some people will put it together if they stare long enough at their faces next to each other#team 7 would absolutely go to sakumo to spill the tea on what his son is doing to them#and somewhere in the village Kakashi is feeling impending doom#sakumo ends up just messing with both kakashi and his genin team (though he’ll just lightly reprimand his son)#btw kakashi is not sorry (next training lesson he'll have his petty revenge)
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okay idea

like does this make sense
idk my brain was bored even tho i wanted to keep drawing my sonadow fankids this weekend but i don’t think that’s gonna happen
ok but fr tho my mindset changes from “pure fluff sonadow so cute soft” to “i need to make a doohickey right now” like phases of the moon it’s fucking crazy and i don’t like it actually
#my stuff#idk i wouldn’t call this art lol#idea#eureka !#does anyone have an old pair of switch joycons they wanna give me?#it literally doesn’t matter if there’s crusty bugs on it i just need them for the hardware lol#if not i will soldier on through ebay#okay ebay isn’t actually that bad it’s just that i’ve customized multiple switch controllers before just with the simple shells#but when i order a used pair of joycons that claims to be nintendo legit#it turns out it’s not bc the PCB isn’t even the right shape for the inner shell basket thingy dawg#idk the words rn i’m tired oops#oh uh#3d modeling ??#engineering student#how about that i think that tag fits here
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Supernatural September - Day 4 | Glitch
Canonically, Dean never said Cas’ name after the fake phone call in 15.19. Canonically, while Bobby said Cas “Helped” revamp Heaven into a Heaven that Dean “deserved,” Cas never showed up. Canonically, Dean left that heaven, which contained his family, to go “find family.”
There is a glitch that is Cas-shaped, and Dean knows it.
#spnsept24#dean Winchester#castiel#spnfanart#Destiel art#spn art#wiggleart#this is a little thingy that speaks to at least my personal flavor of chuck won#where I don’t believe cas was ever in heaven#and the heaven that dean deserved as Bobby puts it#was actually a prison chuck threw dean in with no cas on purpose#bc cas exists outside of chucks narrative#and having those two near each other threatens chucks livelihood#dean never says cas after that phone calls in 1519#and cas never shows up in heaven#‘but misha said’ no doesn’t matter. Misha also to#told me that jimmy was supposed to be at the bar dressed as cas#which makes sense. cas should still be in the empty. there’s no reason why he should be out#and Dean isn’t even in heaven anymore as per the Winchesters#heaven contained his dead family at least and Bobby and supposedly Jack but yet he still leaves#in pursuit of finding his family#there’s just one family member unaccounted for [not counting Sam who just isn’t there uet]
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Shout out to @tessasilverswan for reminding me of the fact that I’ve never actually drawn mary even though she haunts my every thought.
#I have this Headcanon that despite what marry says Neil has a lot more incomon with her (both physically and in how he acts)#then he’s given credit for#she’s in the way he stands#in the way he holds himself#she’s in the shape of his eyes and the set of his brows#it doesn’t matter how much like his dad Nathaniel looks he will always have more Mary in him#even if she was a shit mom at least she cared about him enough to see him live through his childhood#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#the foxes#neil josten#aftg fanart#andrew minyard fanart#nathaniel wesninski#mary hatford
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Hmmmmmm kitte
#jetey#my art#before anyone asks: no I absolutely don’t see them as familial.we must combat the headcanons put on fat characters/neurodivergent charcters#and let the fat ND cat have friends to lovers dynamic with the boy he was friends with in economy living and prison#sorry why am I rambling here about something that doesn’t even matter
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It’s not Powder vs Jinx.
It’s past vs present.
When Silco says Jinx needs to “let Powder die” he’s not trying to get Jinx to “kill her inner child” or that he only wants Jinx to be Jinx. Cuz Jinx and Powder are the same person.
He means you need to let the past die. Move on (or at least gaslight yourself into thinking you’ve moved on). So that you can become stronger and more capable from overcoming it. Untether yourself from the past so that you can accept who you are in the present.

So that the past can’t hurt you anymore.
And Jinx’s choice between the Jinx chair and the Powder chair isn’t about her choosing between two split personalities. It’s about her wondering if she can ever go back to the innocent person she used to be. If she can shrug off the present and revert to the past.

But this is of course impossible. She has grown up to become a very damaged person. You can’t just flip a switch and go back to the way you were pre-trauma and pre being raised by a guy who enabled all your self-destructive behaviors.

And Vi cannot enable Jinx the way Silco has. She won’t shoot Caitlyn for Jinx. There’s no way she would have “passed” Jinx’s messed up test. And even if she had, enabling Jinx’s violence would never have brought Powder back. Because Jinx is just who Powder has grown up to be.

Silco is right. Her name is Jinx. She’s not that girl anymore. Vi is still holding out hope that Jinx can revert back to her past innocent self. But things have changed too much. Some things can’t be undone. There’s no way to go back to the way things were. So might as well embrace the present, no matter how tragic and shitty it is.

So here’s to the new us.
#arcane#silco#arcane silco#jinx#arcane league of legends#arcane jinx#arcane vi#arcane season 1#silco and jinx#jinx and vi#arcane analysis#and then s2 doesn’t even let this descision hold any fucking weight#arcane critical?#it’s funny cuz Silco preaches abt moving on from the past but bro did no such thing#he just convinced himself that he had and so he tells jinx to do the same#but the whole burying the past shit doesn’t work when your sister you thought was dead comes back after 7 years#the past literally came back from the dead#so jinx now has this back and forth wondering if she CAN even Go back to the past#and in the series finale she tragically accepts that she cannot#they just live and accept the people they have become#jinx doesn’t kill her past self like silco tells her#she embraces her present self and who she has become#Jinx’s arc is NOT about ‘killing powder’ it’s about accepting change no matter how shitty it is#paranalysis
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I am so sick and tired of seeing all these “I know biden is bad, I know biden has done some bad things but vote for biden because trump will destroy our democracy” posts bc a) clearly our democracy is a sham and b) STOP DEFENDING BIDEN, STOP DOWNPLAYING WHAT HE HAS DONE! you do not need to, nor should you, defend biden to any degree. you can say that we cannot let trump win without that other bullshit. biden is pure evil, he is scum. and part of what makes him so horrendous and disturbing is the charade he puts on like he’s the good guy and trump is the evil, the bad to his good. quite literally the only thing that he has going for him is that his opponent is somehow even worse than him. that his opponent has no pretense of even trying to act like he doesn’t want to fully be a dictator. stop fucking defending biden. stop fucking downplaying all the horrendous, despicable, evil things he has done and is continuing to do. he is fully funding and supporting and enabling a genocide. it helps no one.
and if/when biden loses, he only has himself to blame.
ideally we would all rally behind a third party candidate and the electoral college wouldn’t exist. ideally these wouldn’t be our “choices”. idfk what to do because trump cannot win but how can any of us in good conscience vote for biden’s evil, fascistic, decrepit ass ??
what makes biden so different from or better than trump? nothing!!
- he is unconditionally supporting netanyahu and his genocide of Palestinians
- democrats have done nothing to protect nor help us as roe v. wade was overturned, we still have student loan debt, the cost of living is unaffordable and the minimum wage remains unchanged, biden has increased police presence and funding for police (more so than in 2020, despite the eruption of BLM protests and the murder of George Floyd and his promise to George Floyd’s family that he wouldn’t let his murder become just another number, another hashtag), and so. much. more.
- biden is building off of trump’s policies - specifically and most recently, biden has just announced an executive order to deny asylum requests. the increase in police funding and the further militarization of police was also built off of trump’s policies
the u.s. is an evil sham of a country.
as ethel cain said …
#I think i’ll vote third party. we have no real fucking choices.#we can’t not vote but we also can’t vote for evil genocide joe#but also it’s like#it doesn’t even fucking matter bc it’s all a sham and they’re not even trying to pretend that it’s not#every fucking day they further rub it in our faces that our so-called democracy is a complete and utter sham#one prime example being the violent suppression of peaceful pro-palestine protests#where are the debates? where is any of the bullshit from previous election years??#genocide joe#FREE PALESTINE#CEASEFIRE NOW#END THE OCCUPATION#signal boost#gaza#tw cussing
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had a couple more thoughts about socrates-esque!reader and anaxa, which i thought i may as well share:
you get a bad rap around the grove of epiphany, because you are, admittedly, rather annoying — anytime somebody’s finally submitting their thesis, you’ll butt in, ask a few questions, and suddenly three years of hard work goes right down the drain because oops, there’s a little oversight which, if you go down deeply enough, actually undermines the whole argument of the essay.
(people are genuinely beginning to leave herbs and offerings in front their doors in the hopes of warding you off. they do not seem to be working.)
point is, you’re infamous, and as a result are altogether treated pretty badly by the majority of other people; they’re rude, even though you respond to them civilly and politely, they make personal attacks on you instead of responding to your point, and so forth. (to be fair, there are some people who admire you—the majority is convinced you’re an evil messenger of some sort sent by zagreus to mess with everyone.)
you don’t care, of course—your interest lies in uncovering the truth, not what people think about you (in fact, were you concerned by people’s perception of you, you would have stopped questioning ages ago)—but funnily enough, there’s somebody who does get irked when they hear people badmouthing you behind your back (or indeed in front of your face), and this person is, surprisingly enough, anaxa.
he’ll never admit it—gods forbid, he’s far too prideful—but it really just… gets on his nerves when he hears all these nasty rumours being spread about you. if you’re going to criticise someone, especially in a debate, you criticise their position, not the person; it’s basic intellectual honesty and etiquette, and yet so many people forget it the moment you step into the room.
part of his vexation arises from this behaviour; part of it arises from a certain… fondness, one might say, which he has inexplicably developed towards you while he wasn’t looking.
so, whenever he catches people saying this kind of stuff, he will confront them. not in a particularly aggressive way, not in a way which betrays that he might, gods forbid again, actually care about and respect the subject of criticism, but he’ll go up and very flatly ask them to repeat what they said, provide evidence for their claims, and when said people inevitably come up spluttering for words, leave, and feel a tad more satisfied about it than he should.
tldr; anaxa has actually got your back, although he’ll never admit to it. nobody would guess it, considering how much you seem to get on his nerves with your constant challenges and questions to whatever he say, but it’s true. you were mildly surprised yourself the first time he spoke up from the sidelines in the middle of a debate and told your interlocutor to shut their mouth about your method of questioning and answer the question they’ve been so obviously avoiding.
anyway, let’s just hope you don’t get sentenced to drink hemlock. that would really piss him off.
#anaxa respects you goddammit#and he doesn’t respect a lot of people#he admires how brazenly you confront people for the sake of truth itself and how you’re open to being proven wrong and learning from others#and humble enough to properly consider what other people suggest even if you know tons more about the subject matter than they do#(which is usually the case)#it’s something which is ironically and sorely lacking in the academic environment#…praying right now that i’ve got his characterisation more or less right#otherwise this may age poorly. who knows#anaxa x reader#anaxa
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