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Sanemi failing NNN but it’s okay cuz it’s his birthday!
-⭐️ Anon!
happy birthday nemi!
“its still november, sanemi.” you chuckle, feeling his slightly chapped but plump lips press against your skin and collarbone. “yer’ awfully eager, baby.”
“can you blame me?” he grunts, a hand to your thighs and squeezing. “you do know its my birthday right? that shit dont apply to me no more.” he corrected you, as always. maybe he was right— should cut him some slack since he became twenty two today. you sigh through your nose, nodding and allowing him to unbutton your dress. “there you go, just let the birthday boy take his present and his cake.” you snort at his jokes, a hand wrapping around your throat softly and his lips suckle your nipples. “havent gotten to come in damn near a month.”
“you were always exempt, knowing your birthday was coming and thought i wouldnt catch on.” you remind, moaning softly when he leans down to your folds and spits. “moving so quick, huh?”
“you know i waste no time when it comes to you.” he groans, watching your clit jump when it feels the waft of air. “she also missed me, so quit yer’ mouth.” a finger presses inside, a sudden moan rippling through and he moans along with you. “so creamy in here.. guess you were also participating huh?” you nod, feeling his middle finger curl up to your gummy spot and he chuckles. “ damn..”
he was seriously not wasting time, immediately crawling ontop of you after the first three spasms around his fingers. “sanemi—“ you choke, feeling himself press up against you to bite your neck softly. “really bad this time.. huh?”
“stop talkin,” he mumbles, groaning softly when he meets his cock with your cervix— god it had been so long, he missed this. he missed his slit of his tip leaking inside of you and then pulling out to slap his heaviness onto your clit. “ bet youve been wanting this more than me, little baby.” he chuckles, licking up your skin to your neck when he moves his hips in a slow, excruciating pace over nd over nd over until you start to shiver.
“nemi..” you whimper into his neck, biting at the flesh.
“if yer’ gonna bite me, do it right.” he growls into your hair, his thumbs digging into your hips and he groans again. “acting like a damn fleshlight for me..” his breath hitches, swallowing thickly until his eyes rolled back. “fuck.. fuck this isnt gonna be long, pretty.” you didnt care, your nails digging into his triceps and shoulder-blades that he worked so hard for. “yeah? wanna show me how good it feels?”
you nod, him holding you down and thrusting into a new angle. you squeal temporarily, a mean laugh from above down to you and he licks his lips wet— all the while he takes a hand to your jaw and punctuates each thrust. “say happy birthday to me, mama.” he growls out, “say. it.”
“ha—ppy, fuck..” you whine, earning a light smack on the cheek to make you focus. “happy birthd—ayy,” you force yourself to say, earning his grace to allow your core to flood his shaft and soak his heavy balls.
“thats my good girl.”
#dvorahasks#sanemi x you#sanemi headcanons#sanemi shinaguzawa#sanemi smut#demon slayer sanemi#sanemi x reader#kny sanemi#kimetsu no yaiba sanemi#sanemi shinazugawa#sanemi x black!reader#gamblersdoll
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im so addicted to drawing its become Detrimental to my wrist health (both of them at that?? somehow??) and im maybe three+ months into dealing with recurring discomfort whenever i support my weight on my hands or have to do something requiring more strength.
this is giving chronic illness (on top of like my bones making snapping cracking sounds like 15 times during the day as i move and feeling that sort of recurring pain also in my Ankles) and im very not chill about it.
i could probably see a physiotherapist about this huh
#miesozernacma#rant?#vent?#im kinda not okay physically#also my Spine hurts. i think because im back in school and my backpacks weight is actually Diabolical#and i dont fucking know how to not make it this heavy#because i need that bunch of the stuff#anyways its 11pm on a Sunday and i have a 5am alarm#that could also be a factor for why im not okay#here i thought i had psychological issues...... now im entering fucking#chronic illness central before i even turn 18!!!!!#i will not be sarcastically enthusiastic about this i want to cry and die in a hole rn#vent#rant#vent post#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#chronic pain
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with the obvious addendum that act 3 isn’t out yet and we can’t form true opinions until the show’s officially done, i’m still really feeling like it could have maybe benefited from a third season. they’re hitting all the right plot points and those moments are full of really intense emotion, but everything in the middle feels so underwhelming in comparison and so much of it still feels rushed to me. idk
#arcane#arcane spoilers#i could kinda deal with it act 1 bc there was a lot to cover through the fallout after s1. but act 2 i'm reallyyyyyy feeling it#like dont get me wrong it's still so so so good#and i guess that's what makes it so much more frustrating#like you can see all the ways it can be just that littlest bit even better#but i guess if the biggest complaint viewers have about your show is that they want more then that already says a lot you know#anyway#it's the warwick / isha plot that bugs me specifically bc isha (love her to death) feels lowkey like a cop out#introduce a kid just to heavy push the 'cycle of violence' 'find your humanity again' character arcs only to kill her six episodes later#like EVERYONE was saying 'ive never seen a character so obviously created to die'#the subversive thing would be to have her live and show the cycle of violence is ending or something#but here's another broken kid killed by the system here's more proof that jinx is. well. a jinx.#idk idk idk#and warwick. i wanted so much MORE#heavily build up warwick all through act 1 just to have him die end of act 2#we barely got to see him at full power.#we barely got to see him with vi and jinx.#we barely got to see him reckon with the man he was and the monster he is now.#we got next to nothing before he's just dead. again#and again those scenes hit SO GODDAMN HARD. THEY ARE GOOD. but they couldve hit even harder if they just had more time to flesh it out !!!!#but again again no act 3 yet so who goddamn knows at this point#they aint dead til we see the bodies and even then they might not be dead bc thats just how arcane works#but fuck i just wish we sometimes had time to sit and FEEL things before the next new thing starts#ok im done rambling i just had to say something somehwere because its driving me insane#my posts
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i truly have no tolerance for this fandom shittin on random fans personal trans headcanons. someone saw themselves and their experience in this character, isnt that beautiful? why dont you mind your business and focus on your own fan stuff? wouldnt that make you happier? someones headcanon doesnt negate yours. what the fuck is wrong with yall. its playing make believe x2. its just a headcanon. real life trans folks are in active danger right now and some of yall are wasting all your energy abusing others over which pronoun set figments of someone elses imagination 'should' be using
#our t#this is *any* trans hc it doesnt matter the flavour of the trans headcanon. i dont have time for that shit i have real problems#if i see one more fight over jegbert or dave on this site i s2g#if june happens on screen like if we SEE june happen on screen then that will be canon. even for a single panel she will be canon#but genderbend aus have existed since the dawn of fuckin time and an au isnt gonna suddenly blast june's canon transness outta existence#like what are yall TALKING about.#and im saying 'if' w/ a heavy fuckin sigh bc while the hsbc team has stated that they have plans no one knows#when or where or how thats gonna happen. i want it to happen & i have my own hopes for how it will but we'll just have to see#but this aint abt rep yall just want justification to punch e/o in the face & call it 'fighting against ur intercommunity oppressors'#or whatever cause none of yall are brave enough to get organized#and actually try to make changes in ur communities.....headcanons will never be actual representation#as for dave. yall know that transmascs and cis boys also struggle with masculinity right? esp hegemonic pressures and ideals?#thats kinda what LE is about? thats why so many trans guys see themselves in the striders. thats why i think theyre supposed to be cis#but thats ALSO why so many transfemme folks see themselves in dave. and that should be rlly beautiful!!! we're not so different!!!#its almost like that power structure harms everyone in different ways bc of how we treat e/o inside of the structure!!!!!#i cant TELL you how many of my cis guy friends have cptsd from just not being allowed to express sadness or joy in an acceptable way#and davepeta being nonbinary only adds to this!!! davepetas existence in contrast to dave DIRECTLY MIRRORS roxy in meat/candy#but yall are never gonna be fuckin ready for that so what the fuck ever i guess#i just feel constantly forced outside of this fandom or scorned as a Bad Tranny bc im very literally in the middle of this shit#and i dont believe one style of presentation is inherently better or morally righteous than the other. like what are yall expecting#are yall expecting to be let into tranny heaven bc u wear a skirt and say 'haha yeah all instances of mascness is grossss' be for real#just rlly highlights the fact that no one in this fandom wants to care abt intersex trans ppl or hear them talk or try to#contribute to gender analysis. its not girlboss enough i guess. sorry for not drinking the radfem rhetoric thats embedded itself#into this site i suppose. hope the fandom gets better but idk i dont think thats gonna happen anytime soon#stop treating femininity as smth inherently Morally Good its all 'divine feminine moon phase' bullshit slightly repackaged#to include transfemme folks. which none of yall should want. its a direct pushback to actual feminism but ok all mascs evil bc LE i guess#im not missing the fact that this fandom cracks down hard on queer mascness & tries to 1:1 equate that hegemonic cismasculinity either#yall aint slick at all. sorry im just. fucking tired. feeling like i dont exist & my words dont matter
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Emotions are high and the vibes could not be better today!
"Pretty awesome. Lot of emotions. Feels pretty hefty but like, fuck we're Stanley Cup Champions!"
When asked who the Cup is for? No hesitation, the fans.
"They sponsor us. It's for them. It's for them. Like they deserve it, they've been waiting for it, like it's for them."
how do you endear yourself to the fans? i think chugging a brewski while they chant your name will do it! and also complimenting them that too oh what a darling
CBS News Miami | 6.25.24 (x)
#niko mikkola#florida panthers#at this point im gonna need a seperate tag called “mikksys drunk adventures”#i dont think this man has been sober since the eve of yesterday#HIS VOICE IS SO HOARSE FROM ALL THE SCREAMING AND DRINKING#him saying fuck on cbs news miami is so iconic of him YES KING#also he mightve said “hefty” or “heavy” as in referring to the weight of the cup but both work so like pick your own answer#NIKO NIKO NIKO#have you heard anything more beautiful#“fuck we're stanley cup champions” THATS ACTUALLY MORE BEAUTIFUL#ALSO “its for them [the fans]” 😭😭😭#MIKKSY I JUST STOPPED CRYING DONT MAKE ME START UP AGAIN#first year here and he knows how to work some heartstrings WHILE DRUNK#is it funnier hes more coherent in english whilst drunk versus sober#aka his inhibitions are gone and hes not carefully measuring his words anymore and by god its beautiful#he has a tendency to trail off a lot in eng and end with yeah despite the fact he wants to say a lot more#YEAH MIKKSY YEAHHHH#hes such a hazard to himself hes WATERBOARDING HIMSELF COME ON MAN#tags running long i just love ma wifeeee
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terrible awful realization
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arisveah: and the surgery scene was so much more piercing seeing it from a different angle like omg now we have the idea that he was screaming the whole time omg.
best friend: RIGHT
arisveah: (referring to a previous comment about the exposure) "nerd" okay star wars. what am i supposed to do with the knowledge that charlie was screaming for half an hour what the fuck. what do i do with that? poor boy. if he ever escapes his voice is going to be absolutely shot. and plus saying all that (referring to the horror of promoting a future sex channel with your voice and not your authority) on stream- poor man might never say anything again (if he gets out) :(
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#generation loss#genloss#slimecicle#genloss charlie#mute genloss charlie#the founders cut#u ever get such a foggy brain in public that your mouth speaks without your consent and now u said something very violating about yourself?#now imagine that its been streamed in front of thousands of people and you can’t stop your mouth despite your best efforts#and before you know it youve made promises you know youll be forced to keep#because you didnt make them the people controlling your life did#and now you just have to wrestle with the reality of keeping these promises while your legs run with a boy. you know will die#and your eyes are too heavy to tell where the camera is focusing#but youre pretty sure its already focused your butt after you were forced to eat people and you dont know what else mightve happened after#terrifying#poor fucking gl charlie slimecicle#and he thought he was in the sanctity of his home too#maybe im reading too much into it#but my heart cries for that character man#he needs a hug and a warm blanket BADLY#i will give him hot chocolate and a Gun and he will be safe forever slash platonic#i want to steal him and niki and sneeg and vinny and carry them away to a safe little house on the prairie where they learn how to be human#and they farm carrots and wheat and charlie and sneeg go vegetarian while niki joins the police force and vinny works as an accountant
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Not a request, but after the past few posts I wanted to let you know that I saw the Detective Conan 4D / live action show at USJ last week and that was my first official introduction to the series. Seriously considering going down this rabbit hole now.
go forth and enjoy batshit insane detective stories. ignore the fact that theres 1125 chapters this is a normal manga that will definitely end someday
#this is the best & most complete version of it ive found! it does use the localized names tho. so. jimmy kudo rachel moore etc etc#you can get the anime too ofc but the dub is um. interesting shall we say. it does have jerry jewell who is a national treasure#but they uh. make some interesting localization choices. and ive never watched the sub so idk how good it is#anyway once again fair warning this manga is batshit fucking insane ridiculously long and incredibly text heavy#but i love it <3 so#edit: nevermind the chapter i just read pissed me off dont read this manga#how do you write this many murder mysteries and not know that theres a very clear difference between entrance and exit gunshot wounds#THE GIMMICK DOESNT EVEN WORK. YOU CANT MISTAKE AN EXIT WOUND FOR AN ENTRANCE WOUND ESPECIALLY NOT AT POINT BLANK RANGEEEEE#sigh. being american sucks i wish i didnt know enough about guns to pick out the problem with that. anyways skip chapter 555 it sucks
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um personally i think that if your girlfriend is insecure over you being friends with another girl you should run far away really fast. but i may be misreading the situation. i don't think i am though.
#i may be misreading. all i know is she got pissed at my friend while we were hanging out but friend has mentioned that she's 'got#trauma over being cheated on' which is understandable but we have been friends for a year and also i go out of my way to try and make this#girl understand i want to be her friend and i'm not trying for anything. i have a fucking bf. she has met my bf. she has seen how i am#around my bf vs around her gf. we r legit just friends. what the fuck man. please be normal and don't stress ur gf out like this. it's mean#:( idk all i know for sure is she said something that upset her while i was out of earshot but im using context clues and im not stupid.#genuinely i think she is misreading some stuff. yes me and her gf/my friend get along really really well but it's like.. two kids who met i#a playplace kind of way. we do shenanigans and talk about stuff. i do not want to fw her. i am not willing to fw such a heavy smoker.#i love her dearly but sometimes i think she is- love and light- incredibly pretentious in a way that irritates me a little. fine for a#friend. intolerable in a partner. many reasons why i would never. also I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. THAT I AM SO SERIOUS ABOUT.#insulting to me. honestly. but i could be misreading but i don't think i am.#and insulting as fuck to her gf who is head over heels possibly blindly in love with her my god.#idk i just don't trust that she isn't still insecure about me. and i don't like that she said something upsetting while we were having fun.#i don't like it.#girl i dont want your gf for so many reasons. also i am in a relationship what the fuck girl. what the fuck do you think of me. and also#have some fucking trust in your own gf. insane behavior. insane. she would never ever cheat on her she is possibly one of the most honest#and like. morally sound people i have ever met. she would never. it's so fucked up to think that of her.
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thinking about them and banging my head against the wall again whats new. they are making me so emo. god. what the fuck
#ann plays fates#theyre like all i can think about rn#its that time of the year#i mean i think about them both constantly separately but its always when september comes#do i get hit with the laslow/nyx rarepair brainrot i think#that just lasts through fall and winter#not that im complaining. i think eventually i will have posted the entire fucking conversation#i cant help it. each part gives me a segment of dialogue to be ill about#i have ‘but with burdens so heavy dont you think we can lean on eachother a bit?’ on my wall#ROMANCE. TO ME (girl who is aroace)#also underrated thing about them i like how nyx flirts back#its more prevalent in their A support but shes so fun with him even beyond the bonding over traumatic pasts#i think with laslow he does a lot of flirting right bc hes laslow but a lot of the time its like#no ones matching his energy#i was gonna say match his freak but i dont think he has any freak if im so real with u#if he does its buried beneath five metric tons of shame and embarrassment#and i like how his… laslow-ness kinda gives nyx space to let loose if that makes sense#like he can match her maturity because he. you know. all of that#but hes still young and so she can find a little bit of reprieve from it all in his attitude and blah blah blah#if that makes sense#they r just so perfect. TO ME#ive only ever written and posted one thing for them but i have like five million (like six) things in my drafts i need to get back#into writing. rarepair hell gotta feed myself#also that was like two years ago it kinda sucks a bit but thats fine its called growth#i just miss them. i dont really have the brainpower to play fates but i have enough to think about them#i mean i played a little but ive mostly just been doing dumb shit with the class system and not rly playing the game#we’ll get to it#im supposed to be sleeping
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Opinion on chubby butches/butches with stretch marks?
sweetheart. if my header werent what it is, it'd be "dad bod butches please call me"
#yeah i would say this water is pretty wet. what? yeah the sky is still blue too#i dont wanna joke on you too much. i know it can be hard to believe sometimes. but fat butches make this community what it is#chubby butches. fat butches. butches w thick soft arms and those rounded faces and warm tummies. theyre my friends. theyre my lovers#theyre Sexy too. i think its Hot to see a butch all shirtless with their belt n jeans kinda diggin into their stomach. i like how they can#stand kinda squared up and look Big. taking up space . i like how they feel on top of me#i like their hands! i like how bein kinda chubby can make fingers thicker.#she speaks#anon#asks#are you the same one that asked me if i like butches with top surgery scars. be honest#like. i DESIRE and SEEK butches who are thick and heavy. i think their body types add to the butch look in a way that makes my mouth water.#besides like. idk man im not super skinny either you know? and im disabled. when you have an alternative body type you just... its hard to#give a fuck about beauty standards like weight on other people. you feel me
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once again thinking about the mass effect x sw prequels crossover that exists entirely in my head where during ME3 they find another prothean beacon but when shepard activates it, it teleports her halfway across the universe
and she lands directly in the middle of the clone wars, smack between the 501st and 212th facing off against a droid factory
after hurried introductions, they find out that shepard's black widow rifle can take out droidekas in like two shots, so she's immediately on the team. she is fascinated by obi-wan and anakin's 'invisible biotics' and they are fucking horrified when she releases a biotic lash-charge-nova combo that takes out literally a hundred droids in under 10 seconds
#shes like 'hey yall havent seen any ancient glowing beacons around have you? kinda have a galactic apocalypse to prevent'#and the jedi are like uhhhh this is awkward like usually we'd help you look for one but we're kinda all tied up in our own galactic war#so sheps like fuck it ill help you end it then bc i dont know how to use any of your technology#she meets palpatine and gets IMMEDIATE udina vibes off him#and they end up calling her in whenever they need a heavy hitter#clones just calling in for backup and shepard drops out of a ship and lands directly on top of droids with the biotic force of a nuke#spoiler alert: they win and palpy dies :)#and they let shep take a lightsaber back home with her when they figure out how to get her back#due to time/space shenanigans she arrives like half a day later than she left#immediately makes out with garrus then whips out her new laser sword#mass effect#sw prequels#clone wars
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i am slow cooking the most delicious of concoctions in the kitchen rn
(my tags are so long lol whole half ass recipe down there)
#idk its some bastardized recipe for something called mongolian beef#well can it really be called bastardized when i actually fuckin improved it#like all there was originally was fucking soy sauce garlic brown sugar and onion#LITERALLY NO SEASONING#so i took my earned skills and actuallly made it good#the sauce is now flavorful and doesnt taste like garlic soywater#(the meat gets slow cooked in the sauce thats how i know how the sauce tastes)#added a teeny bit of mustard powder and cumin(half TBsp) added some ginger and onion powder(TBsp) and upgraded garlic to black garlic(TB)#it contained 1/2 cup of soy and 1/3 cup of Brown sugar#also replaced the water with beef broth(half cup)#theres also some oil(i did reg Veggie oil cause i dont like Sesame/ 1TB)#you serve ontop some seasoned/fried rice and mixed peppers/veggies thatve been lightly seasoned and fried in a skillet#the meat(1 1/4 Lb.) gets cleaned and sliced into strips#you leave the strips in a heavy salt solution to leach it/tenderize it(you can use other methods but this was what i had on hand) then rins#(you leave it in the solution for ATLEAST 30 minutes)#pat the strips down dry and using a 1/4 cup of Corn starch you coat the strips entirely#you then put the meat into your sauce and stir it around until the meat is entirely covered in it#then slow cook for however long you want(im doing 8 hours for some REAL tender shit)#alot of these measurements were eyed balled (except starch and liquids)[im skilled at this]#i will update yall once ive tasted the finished product#i went a little light on the seasoning but i dont have certain ingredients i want/can obtain so i had to make do(plus my parents cant shiit#DO NOT ADD EXTRA SALT TO THE DISH#leaching the meat and the soy sauce already has enough salt content#THE STARCH IS NECESSARY PART OF THE DISH#you can achieve black garlic by slow cooking regular garlic FOR WEEKS#longer = better#also i recommend using minced Ginger instead of powder for better flavour
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im not handling it well folks
#im going to try my hardest to take a break from tumblr#funny. on oct 15 i said: no more tumblr. too much hate and discourse.#and ...#it was very comforting the first days but now im just so sad? i seriously cant move on and i think its bc of me being here#i see liam and im sad#i see any of the boys and im sad#i see posts from before oct 16 and im sad#i see posts from after oct 16 an im sad#any 1d mention#any death and grief#everything is hitting me bad#i see other celebrities i get sad#liam was finally on his way to make more music he loved. and sharing it with everybody. he should be here. alive.#i still have hotel and balcony filtered#i saw some weird blog investigating liam's passing???? what the fuck#im just so sad#im scared of checking facebook and insta. also knowing theres still ppl talking about this in a disrespectful way. people hating.#im trying not to let it get to me but it is affecting me#i dont know if me avoiding social media and any 1d mention will help#i tried reading fic bc i love fanfics so much (just hl i cant really read the other boys) but i couldnt#i still felt so heavy#pehwjkrhfkjhgg how do you do this#it really will hurt a lifetime#i will try to check in when zayn starts tour#goddddd poor darling#im saaaaaaaaad#much love yall <3#it did made me happy seeing you guys reblog stuff with love and fond. keep it going<3#will stick with youtube and twitch lol#🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
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how it feels to want to dress very fancy and accessoried but unfortunately have the autism where i think im supposed to just be lounging in a field naked or in like. a plain linen dress. and any accessory or makeup or nail polish or ehat have you makes me want to rip my skin off
#cant wear rings bc they make my fingers feel heavy cant wear bracelets bc they move when i dont want them to same with necklaces cant wear#dangly earrings bc they r heavy cant wear small earrings bc they poke me sometimes and also headphones and also my ears r only barely#pierced. cant wear makeup bc it makes my face feel fake and also im bad at it and also would only wear it in weird freak ways cant wear#nail polish bc if it isnt perfectly smooth or chips At all i have to rip it off. cant wear tight or fitted clothes bc they restrict movemen#cant wear super loose flowy clothes bc sometimes the fabric bunches up weird. this is the hell im in#i just have to like. pick my bsttles. bc every clothing is slightly stressing but i can like. sometimes handle having more of the things#like if its a rly good day and a bunch of other autism specifications r met i can handle wearing a bracelet. but if one thing goes wrong i#start getting so insanely overstimulated -_-#bc do you know how difficult it is that i want to wear like. historical dresses. and other very structured clothing#but to also know that i get insanely stressed out wearing anything other than loose pants and big shirt. and even loose oants and big shirt#sometimes stresses me. im like currently being stressed out bc my sports bra (only type of bra i can wear) is a little bit too tight. UGH#idk. maybe magically like an 1890s gown is exactly the type of clothing that would suit my delicate idiot constitution. i wouldnt know#also disclaimer i couldnt be lounging in a field naked or wearing a short linen frock bc im fucking allergic to some varieties of grass. and#i get itchy. -_-
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how the fuck do u wash a weighted blanket
#text#am i gonna have to call a laundromat pathetic style and be like 'hey can ur washing machines handle my 15lb blanket'#i might make my mother call#ive never been 2 a laundromat we have a washer and dryer in the basement + when it breaks we just handwash stuff#which sucks btw. especially in winter cuz u cant even air dry stuff outside#we have like ........ i dont know how to explain this room. we ghave a room in the basement that has counters (?? for some fucking reason)#and a shitty old freezer from the 90s (unsure how it is still functional) and it has stuff piled on like every single surface and its#fucking tiny right. well my parents put up hooks n shit and strung yarn btwn them to dry stuff when our dryer broke once and like#it WORKED i GUESS. but yarn is not good at holding many items. and we didnt have clothespins so stuff would slide to the middle of it#tldr IT WAS ANNOYING and ABSOLUTELY CANNOT HANDLE A 15LB BLANKET#we have a. curtainrod functioning as a closet rod thing but not in a closet . in my twin brother's old room. that maybeee could handle it#but then the blanket would drip water everywhere and also we;d have to get it UP there. do u know how fucking HEAVY a wet weighted blanket#would be. answer is VERY#id LIKE to dry it AT the laundromat but the tag said to air dry only#so i might just ask them if i go or if my mom calls#ive been thinking abt this literally all week as u can see#my fucking duvet as well i gotta wash that too#i have so much bed related laundry to do
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i hate being fine all day & then all of a sudden feeling miserable
#what the fuck am i doing with my life lol#it doesnt make me want to d*e but it makes me feel so fucking heavy#like im just not doing what im supposed to be doing. my peers are still ahead of me despite the fact that im 22#i cant drive yet i dont live on my own i dont work right now theres so much i dont know how to do and its overwhelming#i feel like ill never catch up because im sitting here constantly fucked up abt what was happening to me 10 years ago#it makes me want to fucking cry and im so tired of feeling like that so often#it never truly ends#milo murmurs#csa vent#i get angry too bc i know none of my abusers regret what they did to me#it doesnt keep them awake at night. it doesnt pop into their mind randomly. it doesnt interfere w their daily life#it didnt give them chronic fucking pain!!!!!#but at the end of the day im just sad im like this bc i dont know how to fix it
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