#adhd med student

[medschooldiary1]

I have just started thorax and hopefully I can catch up to the heart part today . Totally realistic expectations 🤡

[internalresistance]

Decided to pull an all nighter . The decision was sealed while completely taken over by adrenaline spurge at 7 pm upon my system's realisation that it has successfully sat through multiple 1.5 hour sessions without continuous flinching . Due to feeling undefeatable for a second there , here I am , planning what I must consume every coming hour to keep me fueled and wagging .

I had to relearn this bitch of a derivation in the middle of the long physics lecture cuz bitch inseparable and absolutely pathetic tbh .

Bye chatgpt is currently hooked at throwing me derivation problems to solve and submit like yess sir homeschool me right away.

[a-is-away]

transitioning into mcat studying

my finals are finally OVER. now i begin studying for the mcat on june 15th. i've been doing some light studying throughout the past few months but now is really the time to hit the books

the goals/plan:

study 7-8 hours every day, with half days on sundays

take a practice exam every week and a half

focus on uworld for the first two to three weeks, then change to aamc content

do a daily cars passage

i really want to make higher than a 510, but my dream score would be a 518. realistic goal is 512 but striving for a 520+ always

shoot for the stars, friends. happy studying.

- a

[medstudy09]

I'm surprised I might pass!!!

Now for tomorrow's paper....

Wish me luck.

[akinoor-studiesmed]

I need to find more study accounts who are in med school and actually diagnosed with ADHD and/or autism. Because help me— what do you mean you have short attention span and can work/study for long periods of time and make yourself avoid distraction?

Don't you get restless and bored? Like? Don't you feel like you are running out of time because you can't focus? Doesn't it feel like you are dragging yourself so hard you can't even describe what it feels like.

Please let's switch places. For real. I hate the system that doesn't accommodate people like me or atleast made available resources that made things easier.

But to know that you struggle like this while others don't. Its very lonely and isolating. It's defeating. I don't wish this struggle on anyone else, I just wish I had resources to recognise that this is what I have and resources that made it easier to have this.

Indian med schools are just hell. Thats what I will say.

[ineedfairypee]

Fml 🙃

Trying to study without meds feels like trying to build a house without mortar. It can work on a day when the weather's really good but even then it can all fall apart so easily, let alone if there's wind and rain!

I've studied med free before and I'm sure I can do it again but whether I'll achieve all that im capable of is another thing entirely!

Time to stock up on good diet and exercise and other compensatory strategies, take cover and hope for the best! 😩

[flygonscales]

2 weeks at uni and I’ve already reached peak procrastination. I found masking tape and somehow decided that the best use of my time was to make a tiny Belphemon-sleep.

[duckyfann9871]

This brain that’s failing quizzes and can’t hold attention to anything can’t be the same brain that would speedrun textbooks and scored top of my class in college/undergrad

[hinotorihime]

you'd think that someone, somewhere on the internet would have posted something about how jewish med students navigate sabbath observance in relation to the hospital schedule UGH am i just not searching the right terms

[fridayyy-13th]

wow. not even a week into college and i'm already behind on work. fucking lovely.

[nonfictionalacademic]

February 5, 2025 || Wednesday

Things Achieved ✨

✅ Laboratory Work - Expt. 1 questioning

✅ Laboratory Work - Expt. 1 + checking raw data sheets

✅ Buy adhd meds to my go to drugstore

Things Yet to Achieve 💪🏻

➡️ Laboratory Work - Expt. 1 Data Analysis + recording of questions

➡️ Skyrim (bc I deserve it 🙂‍↕️)

➡️ laundry (I need my jackets clean so I have something to look forward to tomorrow)

🎧 Silence by Before You Exit

📚 n/a

🍄adhd got so bad that I can't even read a one whole book IN skyrim. Yk how short those things are??

Nevertheless, I've stacked enough meds before my next appointment. I swear I'll try to dedicate one whole day to just reading books. I miss how it made me feel lmao.

Also, my groupmates and I finished the experiment earlier than expected. This day is kinda 💯

[the-fictive-haven]

We hate having to do this, our system is all about being independent. But $300 in our bank account is only going to go so far once we're completely on our own.

On September 20th we will be moving for college, the first time we have ever lived away from home and the support of our family. We'll have to pay for our own medications, and we have a lot of prescriptions that will add up very quickly.

Our gofundme page is here.

We'll be trying to do commissions once we manage to get enough art pieces done to start advertising - we know nothing comes for free and intend to put as much effort into giving back to the community as we can. But for now, while we have no safety net, please consider sharing or contributing a dollar if you can spare it.

Thank you.

[internalresistance]

"I have to order my book I have to order it. It's just two clicks away. I have to do it, my exams are nearing".

And yet I felt paralyzed . It's not the biggest decision I might have had to take . Rather it is uncomfortable, I haven't asked myself enough about why , so now I shall .

Was I scared I might waste money on the wrong thing ? But it's much needed for the syllabus , for the finals .

Was I scared that the ordered book might end up eating dust from the unpolished ceilings of a decade, repeating the history of its mates on the supposedly same desk table ? But I have changed , I am more serious than I was last year , I have learnt some of the lessons .

Was I scared I might be looked down upon due to my decision of starting late and not even looking sure about building my pillars of success? I hear the murmurs all the time c'mon it's not new .

Innocent nostalgia has changed into an aggressive obsession of floating in the past at all costs , and none of that brings anything but more misery to the story.

[orcelito]

Oh yeah, I'm going to get into crochet. I'd been thinking knitting originally, but in looking it up, I realized crochet would be more in line with what I want to try to make. I want to learn how to make cute little yarn animals. & I need to learn a hands-on hobby besides Legos, bc as fun as Lego model building is, it's not exactly sustainable as a main hobby 😂 too expensive. Fun treats when I get a new model! But I'd like smth to just Do with my hands while I'm watching things or w/e. It's calming. I think it'd help me a lot.

[medstudy09]

The conference where I was going to present my research paper is 3 days before my final exams..it take minimum 6hrs to go there so I decided to take back my entry and informed my professor.

This was something I wanted to do since the first day of med school. The only thing I was looking forward to this year and yet I can't go. I feel bad about it and to add insult to the injury my professor told me that my paper had been selected.

I'm so done right now.

Wake up in the morning...go to the hospital....write exam in the afternoon....attend college fest stuff right after....come back...study for the next exam .....repeat.

It's exhausting and disappointing. Next year I'll be having my finals during the conference so that's also not possible.Final year I won't even have time to breath so that is out of question. I'm just so done.

[akinoor-studiesmed]

Hi everyone it's been a while.

Truth be told I didn't have the strength or the intention to write anything here or any other place for a matter of fact.

I feel sad. I feel sad all the time. I'm hurting all the time. I know whenever I write there is nothing happy about it so writing here always felt like I had nothing good to say but what's really difficult is that even when I'm smiling I feel sad. Sadness that pervades everything and anything. It's not new to me. I have lived with this forever since I can remember. However things had gotten a bit easier during that time but now it's back to what it used to be. It's back to the same difficulties.

Things feel meaningless, suffering through pain feels meaningless and having to do everything despite never feeling better feels meaningless. How many people can understand when I say this?

I don't know how many people will understand when I say even laughter comes with pain. That it's there in everything. One couldn't right?

And I stay mute. The past three months I have almost cried everyday. I don't know what to do about it. It put everything about my life on hold. I couldn't bring myself to fight. I'd been defeated. A resignation. It felt like a chokehold. Yet I couldn't feel much. So studying was far from something that was happening in my life.

I can't believe that my ability to sit and study has reduced to five minutes at a time. ADHD and depression at the same time is something I wish I didn't have to struggle with. I have developed strength over the years but to tackle two things that can devastate you at a time is different. It's difficult.

I don't want to make excuses but what's the point of suffering when no one knows right? Why suffer alone? Why hide?

Why does it have to be like this?