#IMAGINE the survivors guilt-

[yesthefandomfreakblr]

Hi I think Ripred struggling with intimacy in all forms or any sort of vulnerability, having identity issues, self destructive patterns, complex residual trauma, and overall a lot of internal angst and being incredibly fucked up is so so delicious. Let him push things away rather than face them. Let him overthink it in the worst ways til he's sick when he does look into it. Mwah. Delectable. He's more fucked up than any of these kids he's just champ masking/deflecting/disassociating.

[attyrocious]

survivor's guilt

[sysig]

Rainbows (Patreon)

[rolanslide]

Thinking about Fabian and Gorgug on their first day. Fabian attacks Gorgug for no reason, and gets hit back twice as hard. They both get detention, and even though Fabian refuses to apologize, Gorgug offers him a flower and an apology. They get into combat in the cafeteria, and a severely injured Gorgug goes out of his way to save Fabian before falling down dead. Gorgug wouldn't have even been there if it weren't for Fabian. Gorgug wouldn't have died at 14 on the cafeteria floor if Fabian hadn't hit him. Fabian thinks about that every day I think.

[kusanagihaku]

anyway thinking about haku again,,,,,

his artefact is the flute - it lays spirits to rest. the power of artefacts don’t have to have anything with their stigmas (see: ritsu bopping people on the head with his thickass book).

his family-inherited abilities include seeing spirits and ? laying them to rest.

the chancellor uses him as an examiner to test other ghouls’ stigmas. by holding their hands, he’s able to ? ascertain what their abilities are? (what did they do to test stigmas before haku enrolled?)

taiga also said haku can also (try to) resolve curses if he has access to the anomaly. maybe his stigma has something to do with seeing someone’s supernatural history, like their curses (and their demonic pacts) -> understanding how it has affected them -> knowing how to solve it -> actually solving it, if he has the means to do so?

(which makes sense with one of the theories that he used to be in clementia before the clash and his transfer to hotarubi? understanding how something is cursed can help him exorcise things, after all?)

rui also says haku helped him a lot with advice about his curse early on. accumulated knowledge about curses / supernatural stuff might come about as part of his upbringing, or might be part of his stigma?

if haku’s stigma is something along these lines + the theory going around that your stigma is related to your pact, would haku’s demonic pact then be related to being able to understand and resolve curses?

it ties in almost too well with his family business. did he make his pact because he wanted to help those who came to his family’s shrine for help? did he make the pact because he thought it would help his family’s shrine (given that shrines are in the supernatural business)? was it a last ditch effort to prove himself useful to his family / to prove he wasn’t irresponsible?

given how hard he works for hotarubi (he says in bs-log that hotarubi is understaffed + his official profile says he’s often cleaning up other students’ messes), i refuse to believe his family’s view that he’s an irresponsible heir... if he did make the pact to help his family’s shrine… how much more does he have to do / how much harder does he have to work or how much more does he have to give away before he can live up to their expectations?

[mayasaura]

For some reason, the dnd:hat movie has been living rent-free in my head for over a week. Xenk is just rattling around in there right now, having a long talk with Kira about morality, mortality, personal sacrifice, and being a child who saw the Beckoning Death unleashed on their home.

I feel like Xenk would have a lot to say that Kira needs to hear, and be a good listener for the things Kira needs to talk about that she can't tell her dad or Holga. He'd probably benefit from talking to her, too. Kira almost experienced the same tragedy he did when he was her age. It would be cathartic for him to help her through that, knowing he helped save her from ever experiencing what he went through

[sunwyrms]

May we have more Loopdile please?

(typically i dont do requests, but i suppose i can humor you since you were so polite~)

They do this every morning. Nobody has any idea why. Bonnie is sick of it.

[id in alt]

[silverthelovebug]

Okay, so, who do I have to commission to make a “Yaz dies from the Mosasaurus” fic?

NOBODY GIVE ME WEIRD LOOKS BECAUSE YOU GUYS LOVE MAKING BEN ACTUALLY DIE TO THE PTERANODONS !!! I’ve seen the fics ,,

The scenes happen back to back too, so it’s like — almost equal amounts of angst !! Because when Yaz breaks her ankle and Sammy runs over to her, she’s still pissed at Sammy, so imagine the guilt Sammy must feel if she watches Yaz die in front of her without ever making things right ??? Not to mention Ben’s guilt of feeling like he caused her death bc he was slowing them down with Bumpy. Maybe even Kenji too for not pulling her to safety fast enough with the feeding hook !!

Which is an ironic name..

I’d write it myself if I had the motivation to finish things ..

[pumpkinnkidd]

“ so what am i to you? “

[maxblonda]

swirls - maxlie

the older man groans in annoyance once he throws off the last layer of his stained costume, and it's then and there when charlie sees it: a ghastly pair of scars that adorn his sides like an ornate little joke the universe played on him. scars on a part of the body he can't even look at properly. it's like nothing she's ever seen before: a pair of large, atrophic scars that lightly kiss each other against the spine that rounds outwards at her when the magician bends down once more to reach for something else to wear.

such peculiar scars. marks that are simultaneously alluring and hard to look at. there's an inky black at their core that she can't tell is a consequence of the dim lighting or if these were strange aesthetic choice. a tattoo cover up job gone wrong... or something.

she wants to ask maxwell what happened to him that earned him those dark sunken marks, but something tells her that after fumbling the last performance and getting ink all over his nice suit that maxwell would not be inclined to answer. it doesn't even seem like something he'd want to answer had the performance gone perfectly and charlie had exceeded his expectations. even a great mood and a nice meal would not guarantee maxwell would share much about himself.

she sits at the vanity, staring down at the lines in the wood to keep from looking where she shouldn't have been in the first place. it seems like she has a knack for that kind of thing: poking around in places she shouldn't be and being given a reason to regret ever sticking her neck out. she can hear her sister nagging her in her mind, telling her how she should have been more careful and how sometimes its better to say nothing at all about a person's appearance if what you're going to say isn't something someone can fix in five seconds.

there's also the fact that there's no way maxwell would have ever exposed any part of his body beyond the wrist if it wasn't for the urgency required to keep the ink from soaking through more than just the first layer of his clothes, and there's no way charlie would have been there to see it if it wasn't for her insistance on following him as he left the stage to apologize profusely. those suits don't come cheap.

it's quiet in the dressing room. usually she fills the air with whatever words she can, turning around occasionally as she puts her makeup on to check if the silence means maxwell is thinking or laughing quietly. but this time around, she knows not to say anything. staring at the wood grain until the darker lines begin to swirl into the lighter ones. and to think about it, she could have sworn the longer she looked at his scars, the darkness within them had began to swirl too.

[krizkrozapplesoz]

Thinking about Cletus having some kind of survivor's guilt after the whole trilogy

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Me, trying to write a sanguine: What would Chester Arthur do?

[caveiratimida]

He used to cry some nights As though he lived a dream

Pete Mitchell in Van Gogh's At Eternity's Gate

[void-spells]

Plotting the Accidentally Immortal Cal fic is going well

[fellow-fandom-fruitifier]

Wukong is a good person who has made horrible mistakes. I think ppl just kinda forget that good ppl can do horrible things and bad ppl can do great things, life isn’t b&w bestie. SWK has done stupid and horrible shit but he’s also trying, which is a lot more than most ppl can say, also he never rlly did anything w/ a malicious intent? It was always 2 protect ppl or bcz he’s a stupid impulsive idiot

I’m not excusing his actions nor am I saying it should b a forget forgive kinda thing (I think it’s perfectly valid if the ppl he’s wronged don’t ever wanna forgive him) but I am saying he’s not a horrible person. He’s not a bad person, he’s a good person who’s done horrible shit, there’s a difference

[crossover-enthusiast]

I think it’s kinda funny how the moment Kevin gets something nice in his life (i.e. Streber), it’s introduced offhandedly and put through more torment than Kevin himself has experienced on the show thus far.

Dude just can’t win