#Fuck you for trying to change the meaning of actual important words btw.

[drunkenclown555]

HUGE AND HONESTLY PROBABLY REALLY TRIGGERING RANT/VENT UNDER READ MORE

Person(s) this is about are blocked so if they see it then that's their own fault for bypassing the block to stalk me.

Also tagging @greasy-ugly-nasty because he's my boyfriend and he defended me through the entire ordeal.

TW/CW: Harsh language, addressing "you" but not targeted at anyone who is supposed to be reading this, ableism and sanism, SA, CSA, grooming and conditioning, rape, incest, abuse, mentioned drugging, misusing feminism to silence male abuse victims, mentioned transphobia and general queerphobia, mentioned triggering (CPTSD, OCD) and flashbacks (CPTSD, DID), dismissal of (trans) men (feelings, experiences, trauma, opinions, identity, ect), guilt tripping (and emotional abuse), ableism/sanism against systems, sanism targeting mania, gender essentialism, mistreatment of male abuse victims, victims being talked over, villainization of grooming and conditioning victims, villainization of "bad" victims, villainization of disabled/mentally ill people, villainization of "bad" trauma responses, probably more so read at your own risk and take care of yourself, thank you.

^ Woman who called a male grooming, rape, abuse and incest survivor an enabler* and misogynist** while he was actively having a mental breakdown about people being absolutely disgusting*** to male abuse victims

* Also called my bf (grooming, abuse and rape survivor) an enabler (because shes convinced you should just be able to snap out of it and man up or whatever the fuck)

** She tried to make it out like I was "talking about misandry when I specifically said " people who call themselves misandrists" (two very different things, which is why I specified)

*** See: victim blaming, justifying/celebrating abuse, shaming, vilifying, minimizing, ignoring, silencing, sexualizing and romanticizing, ect ect, so on so forth.

Insane superiority complex on this lady I dont even fucking care anymore, stop acting like your shit doesn't stink, you aren't a feminist you're just repackaging misogyny and using it against people you deem evil or lesser (cough cough, men, especially vulnerable men and queer men, cough cough). Gross as all hell. Rich people piss me off sooo bad, get off your inebriated equine (high horse).

Bringing this beautiful poem back too because it really fucking fits this whole "I know more than you about the very thing you've experienced because I am smarter than you and if you disagree then you're aggressive/stupid/childish/bigoted" mindset she has going on.

Imagine trying to faux-intellectual therapy-speak "I know more than you"-argue with a mentally disabled person with dyslexia and dysphasia. Thinly veiled ableism at its "finest", truly. Also telling someone with moral OCD they're a bigot for finally standing up for themselves? Dude just slap proud sanist in your bio and gtfo you're disgusting.

I'm so happy I dont have to tiptoe when talking about literally anything and walk on fucking eggshells anymore, I'm so happy I'm not waiting for you to yell at me for being dumb or selfish or whatever, I'm so fucking relieved this stupid "friend"ship is over. You didn't give a fuck abt me at any point, I was just an obedient doormat and attack dog. Using me like your fucking token transsexual, the fucking audacity to pretend I didn't respect you when you could literally blame me for shit that wasn't my fault and I'd apologize because of how much I respected your judgement.

"This friendship isn't built on respect", yeah no shit, it sure as hell isn't me disrespeting you tho. Writing off me having a mental breakdown as me being sensitive/unreasonable/aggressive and acting like the only thing you did wrong was "Mix two different friend groups". I didn't (and honestly probably still don't) have a problem with your friends (except Rhaa for the thinly veiled transphobia). Acting like I was being aggressive when I asked them not to react to me venting with question marks when I specifically went out of my way to not be mean Oh you fucking hate my guts lmao.

Continuing to push me to "talk" (argue with you) after I told you like four times that I was actively manic and having a mental health episode that made me unable to express what I was thinking and that I didn't want to talk (argue with you) because I was manic and then saying I should have "thought about that before I said inflammatory shit/vented at all"??? Like idk if you know this miss "I'm better than everyone" but when you are actively having a manic episode and a mental breakdown you dont really fucking think too much!!! Considering the fact YOU'RE MANIC AND HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. Not even mentioning the fact I WAS trying to be calm and collected and articulate myself despite how hard it fucking was. Like way to out yourself as not knowing shit (or giving a shit!) about severe mental illnesses. You dont fucking know shit so stop pretending you do, its embarrassing and quite honestly ableist and sanist. Fucking get a grip.

Also dont even get me started on the "well he should have thought about it before talking" when my BF told you I was especially sensitive about the topic you were arguing at me about at the moment due to the fact I very recently formed an alter who literally only exists to make me relive being sexually and physically abused and most likely fucking drugged. How fucking dare you honestly! You don't know what DID is like! You don't know what C-PTSD flashbacks so vivid you cry and scream and puke are like! I fucking hate singlets so much!!! How dare you, as a singlet, try to claim that a system needs to "calm down" after YOU triggered them! I'd be impressed by how confident in yourself you are if you weren't being such a fucking dick! The nerve, honestly!

Your comfort when talking about things you haven't experienced and TALKING OVER people who HAVE experienced it is fucking concerning. The fact you, as a cis woman, felt so incredibly comfortable talking to a male rape, grooming and incest survivor like you knew more than him on the topic is actually fucking nauseating. You aren't a man, you aren't a male rape survivor, you aren't a male incest survivor, you aren't a male grooming survivor.

I know damn well this whole fucking mindset you have is because you dont think men can be victims, you wouldn't have said shit if I was a woman or if the topic was about women. Pretending you're a feminist when you're actually contributing to the exact rape culture your swear up and down that you hate is fucking disgusting. This mindset is the exact reason boys and men who are raped dont speak out, because people like you think they're "lesser" victims. You are contributing to the culture that made ME refuse to open up about being groomed and raped. That is the culture YOU have chosen. The one you are so proud of that you're willing to berate a grooming, rape and incest survivor because he DARED to disagree with you. You are a horrible person and I want you to realize that before you go full fucking gender essentialist "men and boys deserve it."

TLDR: The person claiming I'm an enabler because I got groomed is an actual enabler.

[tothegirlwiththemousyhair]

Worries

Wade Wilson x Reader <3

Reader is panicking about Wade while he's out on a mission even though he's literally immortal.

Themes: Fluff, comfort, pure tooth-rotting sweetness.

Word count: 881

Wade had spent most of the day out of the house, it isn’t weird at all for him, but what’s weird is that he hasn’t sent you a text this entire time. He was out on a couple of low-effort missions, his favourite time to send you dumb selfies or opinions about what’s going on. Memes, bad outfits, a bad guy cowering in fear, anything that could make you laugh was sent but not today.

You assumed that maybe the mission was more difficult than Wade thought, someone found a way to murder him, there’s no signal, he’s just busy… etc. You definitely weren’t slightly worrying about him. Definitely. “Whaaaat? Meee? Why wouldn’t I be!” were your specific words to Logan when he walked into the kitchen and asked if you were alright because you were staring into your phone aimlessly.. He gave you your space and went back to what he was doing (I love Logan, but this is a Wade fic.) 

The downward spiral you were stuck in kept advancing and pretty rapidly. In an attempt to calm down your panicking state, you curled up into a ball in the corner of your couch, and watched your favourite show. 30 minutes passed by and you realised you missed a lot of the plot because your mind tuned the show out, and instead spent that time thinking “What if someone actually did find a way to kill him? What if he couldn’t heal fast enough? What if he’s just stuck on a tree trunk somewhere in the forest like a shawarma?”. You knew it wasn’t all that likely to happen, but it’s human instinct to worry about someone being stabbed... or skewered. Especially if you love them.

Inbetween all that worrying, you fell asleep on the couch. Hours pass, and Wade comes home wrecked but the adorable sight of you curled up on the couch definitely compensated for it. He snuck over to the bathroom silently, dumping all of his gear into the “hero-suit hamper”, something you insisted on after 'bad guy blood' got on your cutest pjs. He took a quick shower, getting all of the grime of the day off of him (mostly other people’s blood.) If it was up to him he’d just change into pjs and worry about showering in the morning, but he knows you have a different standard for hygiene.

He finishes showering and he heads over to the living room where you’re still asleep. There’s a moment of silence where he’s just admiring you and then realises that this is most definitely not the most comfortable sleeping position. He scoops you up, resting your head in the crook of his neck. You stir awake for a moment, “Wade? Heyy you’re backkk”, then press a barely-there kiss to his jaw. You go back to your sleeping state, definitely a lot calmer now that you’re sure nobody murdered your boyfriend.

When you wake up in the morning, there’s a slightly concerned Wade Wilson sitting at your side. “Honey, why were you panicking yesterday? Logan kinda told on you btw” Oh fuck now you have to deal with telling him and you’re going to sound delusional and- “Baby? You ok over there?” He interrupted your state of panic because your silence combined with the face you were making were very obviously at least a tiny bit panicked. “Ok so… I went into a bit of a downward spiral thinking about how maybe someone figured out a way to kill you. I know it’s very impractical and it’s silly to even consider, but I mean what if you don’t heal in time, or they cut you up and put the pieces of you really far apart?”

“It’s always great to hear that you’ve been thinking of all the ways to get rid of me honey, but I really doubt that’ll happen. Also it’s fairly hard, I’d know! I tried!” He replies, trying to get you out of this loop of horrid thoughts. “Wade, all that does is remind me that you were suicidal.” You snuggled closer to him, trying to feel that he’s still there. “Were! Past tense! It’s a very important tense how would we speak withou-” you interrupt him holding his lips shut with the tips of your fingers. “I’m just worried because you can be careless sometimes, alright? I know I sound insane.”

He pries his mouth out of the smushed-shut position you had it in, “First of all, you don’t sound insane, you sound very caring and I think that’s sooo cuteee." He presses a small kiss to your forehead. "Second of all, I promise to be a bit more cautious in missions for your sake, alright?” You cuddle into his chest, your head in the nook of his neck similar to last night, and he hears you murmur a small ‘thank you’, his arms naturally wrapping around you to hold you close to him.

There’s an extremely rare moment of completely silent peace between you and Wade, which of course he ruins, “Also if my parts were split and spread, do you think I’d reform into several mes? Like a lizard?” Earning a small chuckle from you.

As annoying as he was, he made your heart swell, and that’s all that mattered.

[indras-wife]

ahoy! It's the anon who requested the one where the uchiha's s/o saw them in a woman's body :>>

I was just wondering if u were able to make one where the uchiha's and their s/o (seperately) switched bodies, and in order to make it seem like nothings wrong they try and continue with their day, but the uchiha has to go on a mission that they cannot avoid, so in their place s/o has to go. I feel like that'd be a very interesting situation.

If not then it's alll goood ^v^ I love your writing btw and keep up the great work!!!

Hello Hellooooo💖💖💖 I truly missed seeing these beautiful requests🥲🥹Thank you also for the kind words and your support!It means so so much for me truly💖💝💖

Thank you for this wonderful idea btw! I can already imagine the shock some of them will experience hehe. I included only Indra, Madara and Izuna, but feel free to request others too! I am still under lots of work and some writing block so excuse the short writing🥹💝🙏

Indra

Life could not have truly picked a worse time to fuck with him! Why today did he have to wake up as his s/o instead of his real body? He had a very important assigned mission to take care of, and with the body he is in, he will be unable to do it. In fact, his s/o who is in his body will be unable to do the mission!

He hurried to the Ninshuu compound to find his s/o, but to his shock she was not there. “Oh Indra-sama has left early in the morning. said he had some mission in the borders to take care of? I am sure he will be back soon though!” said one of his students, not knowing he is actually speaking to him.

“Damn it…” he mumbled. He had to go there himself and help his s/o. The mission was after all a dangerous one, which could lead to a full sale war if not negotiated correctly. And his s/o knew nothing about it(according to him at least)

Indra hurriedly ran back to the house to get some necessary medical stuff to carry with him during the journey. It wasnt long form the house, but he had to hurry to make sure his s/o would be safe. He gathered the bag full of supplies and ran out.

Due to his surprised, as he was running up the hill, he saw his s/o, in his body, going down with few students. “Oh this is bad…” he thought. He hurriedly ran to them. “What you doing here s…Indra-sama?” he was very close to calling him by her name in frong of the students, but luckily he didnt. His s/o smiled and gestured for others to keep moving and that he will follow them.

As soon as the students were at safe distance, his s/o hugged him hard. “I did it…! I negotiated with them darling! They will not be planning any attack on us! Instead they even want to form some type of an alliance…? Can you believe I did it!?” she kept saying happily. Idra was surprised by that, not even knowing what to say. He never imagined that his s/o can actually negotiate with an “enemy”. And form an alliance…? Even more surprising. He was planning to intimidate them, scare them off or simply put them under a genjustsu to be done with them, but this outcome was not what he expected especially from his s/o.

When they returned back, the students kept praising him, telling how amazing he was and how smart he was. The ‘enemy” was even left speechless. They kept announcing this to everyone, while Indra himself was standing next to his s/o, not even knowing how to react. That same day, as they changed bodies back, Indra was summoned by his father, who praised his wisdom and different approach that he had shown. Of course this added more shock to him, knowing well how is father never praised him and his choices.

After walking out of his father’s room, Indra instantly decided to go to his s/o’s house. Not only to know ALL the details, but also to reward her.

Madara

He found out about the change on a very terrible time! He had a very important council meeting yet could not find his mind in his body. Once again, he found it in his s/o’s body, trapped on such an important day.

As a sly and intelligent man, he was already planning how to get out from her house and return to his, as well as how to change their bodies back, but little did he know that it would be impossible. His s/o, being a princess of her clan, had more responsibilities than he could imagine. Classes, trainings, etiquette lessons. He hated how long those lasted.

The worst for him was the man who was taking her body sizes. For a kimono obviously. Even if it was an old man, known for his craft all over the village, he still hated that idea of a man touching her body like that. He had to hold himself back from insulting the poor old man. Not to mention her mother was there too so it was out of the questions.

There are not any women that scare Madara, but his future mother in law was a pretty terrifying one. In his opinion of course. He always found himself wondering how can his s/o be so sweet and feminine, while her mother is stoic and heartless? Of course, many other call him like that too but he believes its normal for a man.

Her mother made sure have her daughter’s day full of activities that will help to shape her be the perfect princess. She was making meetings with Madara very difficult to be arranged. Madara partially understood her and her actions, but keeping her away from him forever would not be possible no matter what. He wanted to confront her, to ask why she disliked Madara that much and did not approve of their relationship but he had something more important to do: to escape and go to the compound.

After multiple hours, the classes were over and Madara now had the chance to rest. Of course he instantly took the carriage and went to the compound. His heart was beating fast, his nervousness showing on his s/o’s pretty face. Maybe if he gets there on time, they can find a way to swap bodies back and he can do the council meeting?

When he got there, he was greeted by his s/o who was in his body. They hugged hard and instantly started to discuss their actions. Madara was nervous, desperately finding a way to switch their bodies. “You should take it easy love~ I already concluded the meeting. As well as I took notes to give them to you so you will be updated what we discussed.”

Madara looked at her weirdly. Notes? Concluded the meeting? How come? It was supposed to be the council meeting where the clan elders discuss their future actions. The ones that benefit the clan and the members. What did she say during the meeting…? As his mind was full of questions, his s/o kept chuckling and shaking her head. She found him too cute. The fact he was sin her body was adding more to the cuteness as well!

As they went to the garden, where his s/o showd him the notes, Madara could not help but examine the notes fast. And to his surprised, everything looked…PERFECT. Everything was written beautifully and without any errors. It almost looked like he was the one who wrote it all.”Surprised love~?” his s/o asked. “You wont believe it but all the lessons i took and your lectures as well served me nicely as you can see. I used all the information i could remember to make the notes or the report perfect”

Madara was truly lost for words. He knew his s/o was a smart woman but he did not expect her to be this talented and…brilliant. He would definitely find a way to repay her back but now, there was only one thing in his mind: to switch their bodies back and get that woman to marry him as soon as possible!

Izuna

Izuna usually was not always trusted with important tasks as his older brother. One of the reasons was of course because he is the younger brother and had other tasks to do. Some more relaxing ones. After getting critically wounded in one of the battles, Madara strongly was against of putting his little brother’s life at risk. So he would only give him the easy tasks.

Izuna at first was not very thrilled about this change, as he thought his older brother does not consider him strong. However his attitude slowly changed when he realised how much free time he has and how much he needed it. He was now able to meet with his girlfriend, go places with her and just enjoy her.

Their first body swap was exciting and funny for them both, yet also educational. Izuna thought that they will get the body swap again so he decided to train his girlfriend, in case she needed it. He was gentle and sweet with her, but his s/o wanted him not to hold back. Izuna respecting her word, decided to do as she wanted. They not only trained and improved their combat skills, but also started to discuss clan issues, war strategies and many other things.

Despite not fighting, Izuna was a perfect war tactician and was helping his clan come up with the right strategy. He was going to attend the weekly meeting, but his plans changed when he discovered him in his s/o’s body that morning. He would usually stay calm, knowing his s/o can deal with it, but this time he was little panicking. After all, they were preparing for a large scale war and their strategy needed to be perfect.

He quickly dressed up, taking into account what his s/o loves to wear, and ran out. Unfortunately he was also late from the meeting as he overslept but he was sure he can still make it. As he entered, he saw how the men were gathered around him, carefully listening how he speaks and plans the startegy for the war. He was in his s/o’s body, but since other knew of their relationship and how close they are, they did allow his s/o to enter.

Izuna wanted to interrupt and suggest some changes, but he didn’t. When he heard what his s/o’s plan was, his eye lit up, his chest filling up with pride and joy. He was feeling like a proud parent who is seeing their child exceed others for the first time. The way his s/o was speaking so confidently, so full of aura that he himself forgot about their bodies being swapped. He had hearts in his eyes and his chest felt like it was going to be ripped apart by his pounding heart.

His excitement and pride lasted for days and even weeks! After the meeting he took her to the garden, loudly stating how amazing she was and how hot she sounded! He could care less that others didnt know their bodies were swapped! He wanted to shout for the whole world to hear how amazing she was and how proud he was of her. His excitement tripled when they returned back with perfect victory, following the plan she made for the clan. Of course, he was going to reward her for being so smart and amazing, but he was going to do it in his own way.

[oscconfessions]

TRANSFEM TISSUES PROPAGANDA ATTACK!!!

why do another nonbinary arc when you can do the transfems justice? sure, we already have lightbulb, but lightbulb happened in between seasons and it was never even canonized! wouldn’t it be great to finally make the transfems happy and give the world an actual transfem arc?

tissues is easily one of the contestants i have the most problems with. firstly— the way their sickness is made fun of when it’s genuinely a disability. let’s add more to this walking ableist stereotype and build on that! make them have niche interests— since they’d probably be bedridden a lot, maybe make them a super geeky person! make them like fandoms and spending their time drawing fanart for their favorite shows— make them have super geek freakouts when they learn someone else has heard of their favorite obscure anime!! make them an enjoyer of horror media, or make them an otaku!! make them indulge in media so that they can imagine themselves in a world where no one makes fun of them for their condition!

my next point is to make them have an arc where people realize that there’s more to them! have one of the new contestants reach out despite their illness! make them learn all about who tissues is, make them learn about tissues’ rich inner worlds that they’ve built up to escape the reality of their sickness. make them become really close with tissues and make them share their interests with them as well. make them open up to eachother— i could see this happening with cabby or clover, maybe even tea kettle! …and then have one of the older contestants refer to tissues as “the sick one”, or some other dismissive term that references only their condition. make tissues’ friend angry at that contestant for only seeing tissues for their disability, make them yell at that contestant and let them fucking rant. and make tissues be in the background, hearing all this and realizing that they… really don’t deserve to be treated like that, do they? make them realize that all this time they’ve been trying to escape when in reality, they can stand up and fight. just like their favorite heroes do. just like their friend did for them.

(btw its very important that their friend is a girl i should mention this)

let them get more confident over time, starting with them glaring at people who joke about their condition. then have it escalate into them taking a stand against anyone who says mean shit against them— have them tell people off for being ableist fucks (not words used in the show most likely) and make their friend be proud of it. make them grow closer with their friend over the course of the show, and have a scene where the two are alone. tissues would ask “…what’s it like to be a girl?” their friend would be a bit confused, but would explain it to the best of their ability. “…huh.” their friend asks why they asked “…i know… that some people don’t feel like the gender they were born with… and i always kind of identified with that.” “i was wondering because… because i felt strange about being a man. and i… i feel exactly like what you said.” Have their friend realize that. oh this guy is a girl actually. Have them offer the best advice they can, whether it be analytical or motherly or even a little awkward. and i want tissues to feel inspired to change. i want tissues’ title to change from The Sickness to The Adapter. someone who can change and grow no matter the situation— if only they try.

please consider this

-🥜🪶

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[bee-named-alex]

So episode 6 of IWTV s2. My thoughts? Many. Enjoy them, I'll try to make it as coherent as possible in my current state. Spoilers and my mental breakdown below the cut

Fuck this. I cannot wait for a week after this episode, how am I supposed to be normal after this???

So I guess I'll start from the start? The tension is in every word and I get why Daniel's getting afraid for his life, I mean I am afraid for his life rn and he's not even real.

The Dubai scenes, they contrast really well with the first couple episodes of this season. The cracks in Loumand relationship are very apparent now, they can't even decide on what painting to have in their house. And I read a post that was like "season 1 was music, season 2 is art" and it's so true and this means like their relationship is empty i guess or something. Maybe just that it's falling apart.

And the way they began this season holding hands and sitting so close, acting like everything was perfect, ready to fight Daniel and now they sit as far away as possible, fight like all the time about everything and Louis and Daniel (and even Rashid I think) keep on further unionizing against Armand... I think that's just great.

And Armand knowing that they know and from the start trying to spin it. I'm not sure how the sentence "Why do you ask, love?" from Louis is like the coldest thing ever but it just is.

I'll talk more about Dubai later.

But now to Paris. Claudia's diary "Fuck these vampires" - girl's so right (in both meanings of that word btw). Claudia was never really my fave, but out of everyone I feel like she deserves a happy ending the most (not counting daniel here) and fuck, she's not getting it. i know but it still hurts like hell.

Her and Madeleine's relationship is great. Inbetween all the plotting and manipulation and murder this feels like one of the only peaceful things. In the scene where Claudia reveals herself I though that she's like Madeleine's guardian angel. But also an angel of death. But Madeleine doesn't mind and I think that's very important, that she doesn't really see Claudia as a monster - or maybe she does, but it doesn't change what she feels (after all, she thinks that she's a monster)

Then the turning. First Louis trying to convince Armand and him not obeying- as Daniel says "maitre only when it's hot or convinient" (it was hot in the art room btw and it's so not fair that we didn't get to see at least a little more i mean that whole scene was inexplicably so hot and i need moreeee).

But it also reminded me of another post, the "Armand is a willingly leashed tiger" because like yeah, Louis has the power up until the point when Armand no longer wants him to have it. (also Louis persuasion being "imagine me without the burden of her" sucks, like sorry but this hurts, even if you didn't mean it and yes it matters if you meant it. But his later method - aka kiss to shut him the hell up - seems much better.)

Then I got a little pissed or perhaps confused at his "Are you asking or making me?" because we know that Louis can't actually make Armand do anything, not when he is 100 % sure he doesnt want to. Because if he could, Armand would've turned Madeleine. (speaking of, Armand not having turned anyone is pretty interesting, but i guess that that's how it was in the books and it was important so sure why not)

Also Louis' "It's ok, it's ok" here reminded me of "Of course, of course!" and also "It's fine, he's fine, we're fine" and it's just so funny how they all think that if they say things over and over again they'll convince themselves that they're true.

The turning itself was beautiful, as Louis said it would be. Like it wasn't violent, there wasn't fear, no tears. Just love and devotion and I'm so sad that Claudia's and Madeleine's beautiful dream didn't last longer.

Louis not caring afterwards is just another exampke of his dissociative state and I worry about his mental well-being. (All of their mental and physical well-beings tbh)

In Dubai again, Armand finally talking about the erased memories and how they both hate on him for it and they're right. Like what do you mean Daniel doesn't have the right to be angry, of course he does. It's fun to see Daniel delighted about fighting Armand.

But also... Louis asked him to get rid of those momeries (if he believe him. And I, in this episode more than ever and despite my better knowledge, do believe Armand. Maybe it's just because of Assad's phenomenal acting but I believe his words and I believe his tears. Which actually makes this all worse btw.) and that makes the whole situation suddenly much more complicated.

Other Paris plot - Santiago (fuck Santiago) and his coup -, yeah that kept me on my toes for the entire episode. Like Armand says that he was in love and Louis says that he got lazy but I just think he must've been blind to not see it.

I feel like Dubai kinda reflects this (Louis and Daniel unionizing as we've said and so it's like Armand losing his power over his people again) but also. Paris and it's aftermath was the biggest crisis of their relationship, must've been (followed by San Francisco and Daniel I'm sure). But now as the recount it they are also reliving it and are also in a full-blown crisis and i hope this one doesn't end in a fire.

And the ending of it all. Fuck. I was near tears watching it.

The double-date in the cafe felt like a dream, they even said in the episode insider that they wanted it to feel surreal or something like that, like a romantic comedy. And for a few minutes it does. They let you believe that they could be happy. You know they won't, you know that shit's about to go down and everything will end in ruin but this single scene makes you beg, no please, no don't fuck it up, just stay happy, like this, it can be good. And despite knowing what's coming, you stick your claws into this idea of happiness like a lifeline.

And then it hurts that much more when this perfect bubble pops.

I admire all the actors because idk what Armand was feeling the moment he stepped outside but through Assad's acting I felt it too. And as Louis looks around, seeing the world stop, here I know exactly what he must've felt- the realization hits, the betrayl and then the immense worry for Claudia and Jacob portrays it so beautifully.

"He chose." This breaks my heart. Because what did he choose exactly, or better yet, what did he choose over? I mean this is terrible, the trial, but what was his other choice? He calls himself a coward so maybe it was Louis and Claudia and Madeleine or him that the coven would go after. But maybe this was actually the better choice idk.

But like you see the regret in Armand's face in Paris but especially in Dubai and I trust him. I believe him that he regrets it, I believe him the tears and as I've said that just makes it so much worse. Because he chose this and now they suffer for it and he suffers for it too and blames himself (rightfully so), but it still hurts.

And then Lestat. Fuck. I knew this was gonna come (I just couldn't help myself and because of my recklessness saw a spoiler, that he's gonna be there) but that in no way did that knowledge diminish what I felt when I saw him. Because, hell, idk I'm just so excited to finally have him back because I love him but also I hate him and am so scared as to what he's gonna do. He's gonna testify against Louis and Claudia sure but what if he won't? Does he want to kill or fuck Louis? Will his and Armand's past play part in this or is that a box to remain unopened until later?

"You cannot script a hurricane" they said and so this means Lestat will go off script. But to what extent? At least to which it results in burning the theatre down.

The preview didn't help my state, quite the contrary actually. Louis in Paris is scared that Lestat's gonna come. Santiago's laughing. What does Armand feel? Who knows not me, I'm just scared. And excited. I feel like I won't fall asleep for two days after this but it's fine. I'm fine, everything's fine.

[emmetofthestars]

king is egotistical as hell right. its hard to say. he is, but im always thinking about things besides his ego. from the very first moments that i played we love katamari reroll, he felt so much more different from katamari damacy reroll. yes, they added a replay mechanic, and they incorporated it by king asking if you want to try again - but he asks. he asks if you want to go home now or if you want to try again. its something so miniscule but means alot to me. everything of his attitude changes in we love, like hes really thinking things over now (he himself says hes, well, busy thinking about the future.) and its very strange. in my head theres still a great disconnect between katamari damacy king, and we love katamari king. from the outfit to how he talks to what he tells the prince. egotistical sure. but why in we love is he suddenly "softer"? the game over screen is in no way less violent or hurtful in either game, but in katamari he outright disowns prince, or atleast refuses to acknowledge him any more. in we love he insists, he shouldve been better. he shouldve tried harder, shouldnt have been a let down. look what youve done to the fans (our admirers! our source of validation!). the whole thing about katamari in general is how hard it is to dance around that whole line of the games tone. you cant take any of the games completely seriously, but there is also merit in what happens and what king says, and it seriously kind of hurts my brain to think about it.

what im saying is- its hard for me to even take we love katamaris cutscenes seriously. with kings occasional fourth wall breaks, it makes me think he doesnt take it seriously either, which is extremely hard to process for me. when i got papas mask present, he hands it to me without another word, which seems to be clear he has unresolved feelings about him, but also, this is katamari damacy, so does it actually MATTER? in the game where king and queen met because they had a meet cute (bumped into eachother and fell in love)? a game depicting physical emotional abuse in what are honestly very melodramatic cutscenes, next to king popping and saying "he cant wait for the next episode"? you cant exactly say they wanted people to actually take them seriously- instead its more like a sort of story thats supposed to inspire emotion on purpose, with intent, in the sense that its MEANT to be cheesy and overly emotional. its fucked up when king cries and kneels to papa in a literal tone, but in the story its meant to be their honest reconciliation, given the cutscene right after is papa, king and queen reunited. SERIOUSLY it makes my brain hurt. i love stories but i know that to convert something like that into an actual deep narrative seems like it would betray author intent, and would also just make me feel in the wrong.

at the same time... if im going to make comics and writing, how the hell do i translate this? king is abusive. but its clearly a result of generational trauma, nevermind being in the royal family. he has no idea how to live like an adult because he was never taught that. what with his pondering in we love, it makes me think hes starting to regret some things, but its hard to tell whats going on in his head at any point. its no wonder hes so opaque, of course. not just his upbringing influences him, but the tone of the game, because theyre not going to have king ever be 100% honest about his deep feelings- itd betray the tone of the game in a way that feels silly. like, if he would break down talking about papa, itd probably happen in a way that you ALSO cant take it seriously. theres always some element of ridiculousness in anything katamari, right? alot of things i think about. of course, i can never see something like this and not start thinking about it deeply regardless. dont even get me started on my opinions about kings outfits and his style, which i consider way too important.

im excluding any game past we love btw. only katamari and we love were directed by keita, which makes them the only accurate representations of king, in my opinion. the "king beats the shit out of prince" game over from me & my katamari is also really fucked up, but ultimately worthless, because seriously, i doubt any of the games gets kings character right after we love- when they cant even get his style of clothing right.

[mondgewalt]

now i can finally talk about gender-hoodlum and explain what he said 😭

first off, here is the scene in question with a rough translation:

you might be wondering why i wrote Polizist*innen with an emphasize on innen instead of translating it normally, like i did when brawler said Polizisten. before i do that, i need to explain how the german language works:

unlike languages like english or japanese, german is one of many languages that uses grammatical gender. that means, instead of referring to everything with a single, definite article (e.g. ‘the‘) or none at all, german has a whole 3 of them (there is actually more but for the sake of keeping this short, i‘ll keep them to the 3 basic ones)! der, die and das. i‘ll only introduce you to der and die, as they are the most relevant right now.

der is the masculine version, used for words like der Hund (the dog), der Baum (the tree) and der Polizist (the police officer). as you can see, police officer is a masculine word, because it‘s a profession. professions usually use der, unless they‘re feminized and switch to die. every profession has a female equivalent (e.g der Arzt and die Ärztin, der Verkäufer and die Verkäuferin, der Feuerwehrmann and die Feuerwehrfrau).

die is the feminine version, used for words like die Katze (the cat), die Blume (the flower) and die Polizistin (the police officer). nothing about police officer changed in english, it still has the same meaning, but in german we‘re speaking about a female police officer. here is something important to note about die though: it‘s also always used for plurals. die Hunde (the dogs), die Bäume (the trees), die Polizisten (the police officers).

now since that is out of the way, you‘re probably still confused. why did hoodlum correct brawler? what the hell does *innen mean and what does that have to do with a political debate in germany?

what hoodlum did is called ‘gendern‘ in german, i think you know where the word comes from. it‘s a way to be inclusive in speech and writing by trying to refer to every gender instead of using the standard masculine words. for example, one common variation i see is Schüler*innen (students). i‘ll try to break it into parts and explain it

Schüler: der Schüler, the standard singular word and what is basically described.

*: a star to divide the noun and ending. when you vocally gender, this is a pause.

innen: die Schülerinnen, the plural and female word for Schüler. the ending is used to make it inclusive to female students.

btw i mentioned that gendern caused a political debate in germany… i think it‘s far bigger. while gendern has been a thing for years now (it just wasn’t called gendern back then) through other ways (e.g saying „Schülerinnen und Schüler“), it has caused recent controversy when *innen became popular. news broadcasts, some schools, etc. have started to use it and a lot of people began criticizing it:

“people who have been criticizing gender-inclusive language think: texts become longer and more complicated. There would also be no need for a gender-inclusive language. when someone is referred to as „Schülern“, it grammatically means everyone — boys and girls.“ text from https://www.zdf.de/kinder/logo/gendern-gendergerechte-sprache-geschlechter-100.html translated by me

controversy has been going so far that certain political parties even began to ban it from unis and other places.

so yeah, i can‘t explain it but seeing such a recent topic in fucking akudama drive, a japanese anime, is a little funny to me 😭

[winderlylandchime]

It has been an INSANE few months. Don’t get me wrong, while this man is not one for wanting kids or marriage, he is a giant marshmallow that loves romance stuff (even tho from past observations dating him is like doing bunch of side quests in a video game). That being said: I really really really wish you could see this man for the past few months. He’s still a giant dumbass, who has no filter and does dumb shit (last week he “borrowed” a plate from a restaurant bc he wasnt finished eating his spaghetti when dad decided that they were leaving, please try to imagine my dads look when he looked at the passenger side and realized my brother took the plate and fork) That being said, for the past few months he has been a blushing, giggling IDIOT! And he is still this way. I told Nick I know how annoying he can be in recovery and he went "idk what you mean, he's been very good" and I wanted to fight both of them. I HAD TO CHASE THAT MAN DOWN A STREET CAUSE HE WAS MAD AT CRAIG! meanwhile my boy Nick says "babe, maybe take a nap" and he goes "good idea but tv stays on so I feel like I'm winning this argument a little bit" ugh.

He really had zero idea what was happening until that pool/bar date and even that it was only because on the way home he stopped at his friends place and he was telling them about the “cool new guy he made friends with” and during the telling of the game and how he “let him win” he realized that he had Nick do the move that usually he would do on his dates. According to one of the friends there, it was like watching the oh…oh…OH..OH FUCK, in real life except he didn’t know he had the oh moment. (I asked btw, he had it while trying to sleep and out of nowhere he realized he actually likes him in a "gay way and not in an ALLY! way") (he is also upset about no longer being able to do the ally fist)

I do have to give my man Nick some credit tho. He found out about his qaf/Brian obsession and about the fact that bunch of strangers watched him react to it and he thought it was the most hilarious thing ever and I read him some of my brothers highlights and he actually found it adorable and funnt. Insane behavior if you ask me. It did however make me feel better when he learned about his Brian crush and went “you basically had a crush on him and you still thought we were just two bros hanging out?” And that idiot went “that’s no- OH MY GOD WAS BRIAN MY AWAKENING?!?!” (The answer from dad was ‘no, cause you were clearly asleep when you met’) Also his face was priceless when he found out that my brother played pool. It really was a dummy going on dates and not realizing it and a guy thinking he’s dating the most shy guy ever. He has since learned that my brother does not know that word.

I will have you know tho that about a month into their relationship we were having lunch and he looked at me in horror and went “oh no, they have that hashtag for me as straight brother. This will totally fuck it up for them” and I had to remind him that he is just a random guy and he got upset with me and went “yeah, but you can’t tell me that they won’t be at least a tiny 2% happy to know that I of all people managed to make Bri Bri proud!”  Btw the rimming joke actually made me laugh bc I was unfortunately a witness to him saying "Oh just like in quee-" and Nick going "yeah, no..let's not take inspirations from that"

SPOILER ALERT. Those following along, go back and read these in order!

Dear sweet anon, I AM DYING AT THESE UPDATES.

I snorted at the idea of him walking out of restaurant with a plate and a fork.

Nick is having it easy because your brother is still trying to impress him. One day he will see the full beast unleashed.

He can still make the fist about being an ally... just for other letters of the LGBTQIA community.

"You had a crush on him and still thought we were still bros hanging out" is sending me. Nick is a saint and I adore him already.

You and your brother are SO important. I do need to change the tag. And we are proud that my fanfic, QAF, and a matchmaker who clearly saw your brother better than he saw himself have all led to boyfriending Nick. I think this all counts for our recruitment numbers for the year.

[intertexts]

OH YEAH I SAID I WOULD BE IN YOUR INBOX ABOUT THIS. HOLDING OUT A REPORTER STYLE MICROPHONE. 🎤🎤🎤 roswell intertexts I challenge u to give me 5 things you like about your writing . metaphors u like or words u like using or piece of dialogue youre proud of.... ANYTHING. ABT ANY OF YOUR WRITING. but they have to be self compliments >:|

EVIL OF U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but u followed through so i guess i have to now >:(

man!!!!!!! ok. APPARENTLY i'm "good at characterization" but that literally just is me like. feeling my way through a dark room trying to figure out what all the furniture is in the dark so that doesn't count. <333 but i like the. umm. intentionality? of my syntax? i guess? sounds wild when i do in fact have Cannot shut the fuck up ever disease [see: how long this is LMFAO] but i love economy & density of language... there's one like, hemingway quote where he's like. you shouldn't be able to take any one word out of a sentence without changing the meaning of it. u shouldn't be able to take out a sentence without losing something important. which is smth i think abt frequently... different when i'm messing around in someone's pov bc people don't actually Think Like That? but. u know!! i like the way i put words together on the sentence-level. i think its good :]

what else... i enjoy writing dialogue & talking around elephants in the room & messy stilted communication. took "they would NOT fucking talk like they're in a therapy session" to heart!!! its fun when characters are trying to say things they don't have words for. & also i do think my dialogue reads pretty good by dint of "every single time i write dialogue i spend an hour saying it all back and forth in their voices in my head & if i can't picture/hear them saying it i change it & go over it for ages." <3

also i think my main objective usually is like, grounding character interactions in a physical setting? i fucking love when theres places. like. ashe sitting on the floor in wiwi's room & it's important that he's there, & it's a grey late winter afternoon light coming through the windows, & wiwi has a place hidden frm the window sight line & stuff, same w/ the post-grayscale fic in the bago. & i think i do pretty ok at that :] would love 2 get better n i think i am as i write more!! (<- wiwi mark fic is in the kitchen at like. 6am btw.)

i think my stupid fucking code switching when in the tranches vs doing Literally Anything Else is really fucking funny also <333 nice & thoughtful words reserved ONLY for gdocs everbody else gets 1 million slang & heart & kittycat face emojis & no punctuation!!! its fun. hehe. god. LAST ONE ok i think its just like. awesome that i'm writing again??? that i can??? regardless of quality or whatevr it's like, genuinely insane 2 me that i've written & posted >30k since may. thats fucking crazy dude. if u told a couple years ago me that i'd laugh so hard. being so serious when i say that i thought the long covid + insanely stressful three year Transitional Period + Other Horrors had fucked me up permanently i thought i was just like. Done being creative & my brain was going 2 be permanently foggy and sludgy and useless n stuff. fucking wild that its not!!! makes me so happy 2 be able 2 do this!!! :]]]]] also i love new haven wards & its so cool n fun n awesome 2 have a shared au that spams the serotonin button repeatedly & bounce shit back & forth w/ u n whiskey etc. not 2 be a weird loner or whatever but the last time i did anything like this was literally high school. so. yeag!!!!!!!!!!! <33333

[thekaratcake-blog]

Not intentionally being harmful and not being harmful aren't the same thing, it's really important to remember that some people may not see the harm in what they do, and it's incredible important that we're careful about doing stuff that may be harmful in the long run, it's nice and all to want to accept absolutely everyone but there are limits to it Like yeah a level of exclusion is important, we exclude MAPs for a reason, we exclude trans race for a reason, it's not a good thing to not exclude people, it's a good thing to not exclude people who don't deserve to be excluded And "it isn't hurting anyone" is absolutely enough of a reason to include someone, but we gotta protect that bar at least And to be super clear, it is harmful for things to masquerade as other things, for example, go nuts with your xenogenders kids, but it would be harmful to try and paint xenogenders as if they're on the same level of legitimacy as someone who is just trans or nonbinary, being trans is scientifically supported, being nonbinary is scientifically supported, autismgender is actively against the scientific consensus, suicidefluid is also absolutely against the scientific consensus, we should not conflate these things Wanna use funny labels? Go nuts, but don't try to put them on equal footing with well established and scientifically supported labels And contradictory labels just in general I think are an issue honestly, it's ironically excluding anyone in the queer community who feels some need to understand something, who lives based on, y'know, logic or evidence or, good reason to understand or accept something, it also makes everyone on the outside looking in, or even others within the community, question the validity overall and question the validity of themselves and their identities To see someone identify as something explicitly contradcitary, especially if it includes a label that you are actually part of in it, makes it feel like that those labels hold no real value as they're just being used and thrown around and smashed together for fun, labels do have meaning And finally, I often find people using these contradictary labels are using them to describe experiences there are already terms for, and in turn, invalidating people who've had those experiences and use the actual labels, or they're people who avoid actual science and reality because they think stuff like being trans is just an internal thing To be extremely clear, being trans or nonbinary is not a feelings thing, it's not an emotional thing, it's not a psychological thing, it's a physical, detectable, unchangeable neurological thing, it's part of your physical brain, science can and has detected and measured it, we're not playing games with terms here, trans people weren't accepted because people are just taking us on our word about it, and identities aren't being accepted just because The acceptence we see is because it is scientifically backed, and treating gender and labels as if it's something you can do whatever you want with honestly feels like an insult to that, gender cannot be influenced by autism, it cannot be influenced by suicide, infact it cannot be influenced by anything as it is an inherent part of your neurology, btw this isn't saying genderfluid people don't exist, even though we currently have no evidence for them, there is good reason to believe they do, but their fluctuations are likely caused by slight hormonal changes or alterations in their brain chemistry There's science here people, please stop ignoring it to call yourself whatever the fuck you want, it's an insult to people fighting to get acceptance on the grounds that this is a real tangible thing

are you truly a queer ally if you exclude or don't support the following?

queer people of color

queer women / feminine queers

queer men / masculine queers

amab queers

afab queers

intersex individuals

transgender individuals

non-binary indidviduals

any kind of non-conformity (pronoun, gender, label, etc.)

queer alterhumans

neopronominal / varipronominal / multipronominal / apapronominal / alterpronominal / nullpronominal / crosspronoun individuals

xenogenders

aro- / ace- / aroace-spec individuals

disabled queers

queer people who don't confirm with certain stereotypes of their identities or of queer people in general

the answer is, no, you really aren't. you're an exclusionist.

[nitkat360]

https://www.tumblr.com/nitkat360/646822526070194176/the-fandoms-yes-fandoms-in-plural-are-all-racist

You change the r slur to primitive but leave both in there? People with down syndrome are “primitive” to you?

Oh gods no! That’s not like that!! Folks with Down syndrome are human too!! Seriously that was extremely horrific and wrong on my part to say those worlds. Also navigating this absolutely dumpster fire of a blog (I use mobile btw) would have been a nightmare to find again. Listen that was

Listen pal I acknowledged what I said is wrong is wrong and horrible and believe me I stopped using those words hell when I went back to read the reblog I went:

“What the fuck was I thinking/typing at the time” and changed it to morons and dipshits. Thank you for bringing my attention to this so I can correct it. Listen bud Racists are well horrid people that did well horrid things to POC folks and an another of plethora of things. I just genuinely hate them with all my heart and was blinded by that fact and just left it there. Cause who in the FUCK think it’s cool hating on another person’s skin color on modern times!

I was 18 (technically it was very recent at the time) at the time bud (ADHD, but also coming to realize that I had Autism and was taking proper diagnostic stuff like a year later). So looking back on it using r slur was completely stupid on my part. Again thank you if bring up with this.

Also listen the internet is a scary and dangerous place folks have the idea of we must be saints or not cause if we make a mistake that doesn’t mean we’re allowed to change for the better. (well with the exceptions are pedophilia, grooming, abuse, again being racist or just being a horrible human being all together)

Listen again I’m sorry of I said at the time (would gladly punch my fucking face for that terrible mistake). Also I’m surprised that no one actually reached out to me sooner about what I said. Again thank you for bringing my attention towards this so I can make things right.

Again people with down symdrome are just human beings who are extremely different then others and are trying their best to liberate their lives. If any person was hurt by this please let me know that I’m very sorry for my language and over all rudeness towards folks with down symdrome!

Except Racists! Y’all have zero respect from me, I will call you everything single Insult in the fucking dictionary for the things that they done a said to folks but I’ll be careful about words that I’ll say to give yall a verbal beat down. That’s not a threat it’s a promise

Also it’s important to also acknowledge that fandoms have their problems too (listen young me was not properly that the bullshit that fandoms are capable of until I got tiktok and then Twitter later on). There’s an undertone of problematic aspects that needed to be known and addressed. This isn’t mean that all fandoms are terrible only the ones that are causing problems. Most folks that I interacted with are incredibly kind, amazing and passionate individuals ever that eventually became my closest friends. This isn’t directed at yall only the ones that cause problems for no reasons.

I’m sorry that this long for ya but I have to be transparent in a lot of stuff.

[whaogh]

shocked that he's still mad at me about this, which doesn't actually concern him in any way but I guess one must find a reason why the person they don't like is the "bad guy" in the situation. jesus christ. it's just. does he feel guilty and ashamed for not being able to provide the same base level of care others do for my disability? does he realize he's the one in the wrong? does that eat him up to the point that he has to find any of my wrongdoings to justify denying me basic care and empathy? is he just ableist, and will always throw others aside once they're not fun, once they actually show any symptoms of their problems? was I just supposed to get the hint at some point, but I didn't so he kept pretending that things were okay?

there's nothing I could have NOR would have done differently. I reached out, communicated openly, tried to find ways to fix things. And all I've gotten in return is someone incapable of confronting the situation, incapable of telling me upfront that he's not willing to change his behavior to be a better friend to someone who mattered to him at some point.

were they all empty words? was any and every "it was really nice to spend time with you" a lie because being polite is more important than being honest? when did that change- or were you always like that and I just didn't pick up on it. It's not like your actions always aligned with your words to be fair. wonder why I thought I must be the exception.

why does he try to pretend things are suddenly magically okay because of an apology? as if saying sorry somehow changes the material conditions, wipes away the past? what if I'm not sorry? what if I wholly agree with the choices I made given the circumstances I was in?

I mean I both do and don't give a shit about the words. Like yes it would be nice if he could own up to being unwilling to change, to make basic fucking accomodations and just be nicer instead of getting frustrated when someone has symptoms of their disability. when I ask you to slow down because I can't walk that fast, I shouldn't be met with a huff and grumbling. I shouldn't have to ask a million times to slow your pace so you aren't just walking 10 feet in front of me while still trying to maintain a conversation. when you invite me to an event, it'd be nice to take into consideration that I don't fucking function like you, that I'm having to drag my aching crumbling body around. Yes, sure, people are allowed to not be friends with people who are disabled because they can't cope with it and they can't accommodate them. But at least be honest with yourself and said disabled person about that fact.

Does he think he tried to change things between us? That because he'd remember to text me once in a while to invite me to something, or come if it was convenient for him when I needed support, that was his way of trying to fix things? But there was a problem in the actual communication and things said when spending time together: you can fucking tell someone that btw. Forcing yourself to spend time with them and then expect them to pick up on your nonverbal hints while you constantly reassure them that it's not them, it's just that you're having a hard time. Like what the fuck am I supposed to do here? I don't know which behavior annoys you. If you don't want to know about how I'm doing, because you know my life is hard, it's as easy as not asking! If you don't give a shit about hearing about my problems, don't ask me to tell you about them!!! It's not bad to be incapable of hearing rough shit, but it is your job to tell people so they don't fucking TELL YOU THAT SHIT. trying to change or ignore the person talking is rude, you can't avoid confrontation forever. Or I guess you can, but god what a miserable life you'll have.

I never asked you to fix my problems, my problems don't have a solution. I wanted support. I wanted to know that despite my struggles, I was still loved. I wanted to feel heard, to be validated. But all you could see was that you were powerless to help me, and I guess, you felt generally bad anytime you saw me because you felt like it was a personal failure that you couldn't do anything to help. I mean there were ways to help, but they weren't how you wanted to help. Helping others isn't about how you want to help them, it's about what that person needs to feel helped. Deciding that this type of help is superior to another doesn't magically change that a person is still not receiving your help if you're not giving them what they're asking for.

[moonspower]

💚💖

✨ @itscnlyfcrever. meme. still accepting!

💚 a negative is that he doesn't give second chances. i mean this goes for platonic relationships, too. he does not give second chances. there's a post i reblogged a while back that actually reflects this pretty well! here it is.....

one of the reasons i dont do second chances for anyone out of my life ever is that im huge into communication and if something is over, i have probably given it at least 3 genuine, heartfelt, sincere attempts at saving it and my efforts got thrown back in my face because people get to thinking you’ll accept any type of treatment just bc you are still there. and then the reality, when i cut them off, strikes, they’re totally dumbfounded as though i was actually a human being with thoughts and volition instead of a punching bag so they try to change their behavior after im gone but i dont accept day-late dollar-short type of love in my life.

first off, you're not making him look like a fool ass. his pride and unwillingness to sacrifice his own comfort because you can't keep up with his expectations to be a growing person is more important to him than you will ever be. like once you fuck up with him, it's over. if you don't hold up your end of communicating, it's over. you can't treat him any 'ole way and expect him to stick around because you beg for another chance. he's already given you chances. he quietly gave them, tolerated enough, and you don't get a do-over.

can't talk your way around it. not ' im different ', not ' im sorry ', not anything remotely close to those topics. be cordial, be polite, move the hell on up and over it.

btw i don't think this is a negative lol. i think more people should make and stick to the laws of their own land and stop letting people walk all over them. but it can be perceived as strict by others, so ive been told.

💖 with that said, virote's really thorough and thoughtful! i don't think its a trait thats appreciated as a positive because it can make him seem intimidating, but he's very good at discussing things and defuse situations. it's kind of the flip side of this negative side in this other answer over here. like yeah virote's really direct and he's not shy in confrontation, but at least you don't have to be left wondering what the fuck is wrong because he's definitely bringing shit up to you first. right to ur doorstep!!!!

he always approaches topics with a sense of clarity and self-control that's... kind of admirable and soothing. if there's an issue in a relationship—and i mean issue, not u disrespecting him and thinkin u can get away with it—he will give u the podium and space to talk and keep it peaceful.

virote always chooses his words carefully... lmao that's probably from years of public speaking and being a co-director and organizer of several functions. he has to be good at speaking. like he doesn't tiptoe, but he always considers the repercussion of what he's about to say. and if it benefits the situation.

also you knw what...

him being grandson of mercury, the astrological body of communication and speaking and the written word, well... it's just kind of his given to be a pro at it...

[nyazai-osameow]

btw the take of “Dazai is very remorseful of those he’s killed and his history in the PM (which is why he’s a good person, actually)” is a take that literally spits in his, as well as the whole of BSD’s, face. in this essay i will

its a bad idea to try to make this post right now because MAN disorganized thinking and speech is kicking my ass currently. so heres your warning. but i must speak. the truth deserves to be spoken

first i want to make it clear that the take itself is not inherently wrong or ““problematic”“ (please bear with me accurate and precise words are not in my vocab rn). because i mean... who fucking knows with Dazai and his feelings. he COULD be remorseful of all that. or he could not. i mean more evidence points to the lack of remorse than feeling remorseful, but this post is not about that.

what then makes this take so Bad is when its argued for the SOLE purpose of trying to defend him and convince people that he’s a good person actually and deserves to be where he is.

whether or not Dazai feels remorse for everything he’s done literally doesn’t matter. and trying to put so much importance on this also flies over the point of so much of BSD and its characters. its not a prominent point brought up ever BECAUSE it does not matter. its not supposed to matter. and the watcher/reader must recognize that this is deliberate to help you come to the point that is trying to be made with so many characters.

the message that is trying to be broadcasted is: "it's not about who you are, but about what you choose to do". its about your actions in the present moment. what you are choosing to do NOW is what matters.

and hes choosing to work for the good side and help people. “but that’s only because Oda told him to--” NOPE DOESN’T MATTER! the reasoning does not matter. the motivations for the actions are not supposed to matter. its the actions themselves.

Oda himself’s whole deal was this. the one person that Dazai at that time saw as unarguably a good person. he was choosing not to ever murder people again. not because he felt bad or any remorse for having taken those lives, but because he literally just wanted to become an author. that’s it. that was his sole reasoning. that seems like an absurd motivation to anyone not him, and that’s what makes him such a good character and good guy. he was not trying to atone for his past. he just wanted to be able to write a book.

did this reasoning make Oda’s choice of refraining from killing any less sincere? no, it didn’t! it was still 100% authentic and everyone could see that.

the first major arc of BSD as a whole was about this message. Kyouka, who had been working as an assassin for the PM and had so far killed 35 people, decided “hey, i don’t want to kill anyone anymore actually”, and with the help of Atsushi made the decision that she’d help people from then on and would try not to resort to violence and hurt people again.

then again in season 2 after Dazai encouraged her to not let her past define her, she made the decision to use the last bit of freedom she thought she would ever have to save Yokohama from being destroyed by the Moby Dick.

the antagonists in BSD are the antagonists because they are continually choosing to cause harm in the present moment. even if they were good or neutral in the past. they are doing harm NOW which makes them a problem.

STORMBRINGER SPOILERS

in Stormbringer Chuuya makes the choice to give up what he and everyone else thought was his last hope of finding out for sure whether or not he’s truly human, because it doesn’t really matter as long as he’s continuing to live as himself. he’s Chuuya because he can strap Dazai to a lamppost and spin him until he gets sick. he’s Chuuya because he gets to have tea with Kouyou. he’s Chuuya because he visits The Flags’ graves every so often.

STORMBRINGER SPOILERS END

ok im tired but i think you get the point.

change da world my final message. Goodb ye

[rayshippouuchiha]

*deep breath* OK SO-

An important aspect of Undertale that makes it so fascinating is the way it turns classic RPG mechanics on their head, and at times even uses them against the playe. It masterfully hands you little tidbits that help you figure out the truth very gradually, until you are hit in the face with the unavoidable truth only near the end.

Deltarune is much the same, but it targets a very specific aspect of RPG gameplay - the player's control of the main character. It's something we think about so little, since it's so ubiquitous to nearly any game, but in Deltarune it is made increasingly clear that something is... off about it. Initially, you set off on your adventure with someone you don't know very well and meet a bunch of new people and nothing seems strange there. However, once you make it back home, if you take the time to talk to your neighbors and friends, inconsistencies start to pile up.

People will start to mention how the main character, Kris, looks very pale or sick, is acting more extroverted/strange than usual, and other such things. At one point, you can try to play the piano and apparently their skill level has changed?

Then, at the very end of the 1st chapter, it is implied very strongly, in a rather dramatic fashion, that Kris and the player are two separate entities entirely, and Kris might be trying to shake off their control.

The differences are made even more stark in Chapter 2. When given dialogue options at certain points, sometimes the other characters will comment on how Kris' tone doesn't match their words, making it clear that some of the player's choices are made against Kris' will.

Later on, you can return to that piano from before with a friend in tow, and they will comment that Kris looks frustrated at their inability to play to their usual level of skill.

Then, most damning of all, Kris will freak the fuck out after they encounter a puppet-like character, who seemingly dies when we try to set them free.

I was left with so many freaking questions. Kris can seem mean at times, but their reactions when made to take actually "evil" actions make me doubt they are completely evil themself. They clearly want to be free, but then how did they become like this? Did someone FORCE our connection to them? Will we be split from Kris by the end of the game? Were they actually the villain all along? It's all so intriguing and exciting, and I can't wait to see where Toby Fox goes with it from here! There's ton of hypothesizing online, tons of people making theories about Kris' real personality based off of the little crumbs given to us by the dialogue options. It's a lot of fun.

I also love how the game makes me think about the implications of this for other RPGs. It may even be possible that the same is true of Undertale, but because the main character there is a complete stranger to everyone they encounter, no one was able to tell whether they were acting off or not.

In any case, while I initially thought Deltarune Chapter 1 was just "pretty good", Chapter 2 blew my entire mind. The visuals were upgraded to an outstanding degree, the plot Thickened(TM), the OST reached Undertale levels of Amazing, the battle mechanics were improved, and I fell in love with literally every single character new and old. There are other mysteries buried in there besides this one, as well as some of the best humor I've seen in a game for a very long time. It had me crying from laughter at least 4 separate times. I really recommend playing through it. Both chapters are available for free on Steam, give it a shot if you have the time I promise you won't regret it!

Btw, if you do play it would be good if you looked up Let's Plays of a certain... Weird... route afterwards. I don't know how he did it, but Toby Fox managed to inspire an even deeper level of emotion in me than in Undertale's no mercy route with that one.

Not gonna lie, I live for your enthusiasm

[waifu-13]

wish you were sober

kakashi angst.

an- lolz didnt mean to be depressed then dip anygays here more angst btw Kakashi is based off a real person in this situation not how I perceive Kakashi, I know yall like my writing for how I do a good job at doing things based off the character , anyways for every relog I may get a minute of their time :)

tw- mentions of alcohol.  fighting, 

This again, a constant loop of lovely days now mixed with the smell of alcohol on his breath. The words he manages to say in full sentences is just lies at this point, you nod simply knowing the out come of it all. not remembering an sober days of him or if anything he says is alcohol endured lies

"all yours this weekend okay?" Kakashi says mid slur

"ok" you coldly respond, please as If he meant it this time. he said it before what will change. 

“nowww nigh my dear” he leans in to kiss your forehead to which you move out of the way leaving him confused 

“goodnight Kakashi”  you respond shutting down the conversation for the night

and as the days come and go, Sunday night  arrives you were right, he forgot or simply didn't care. As he walks in you look at him and walk into a different room locking the door. After a few minutes you hear a faint knocking on the door 

“babe please I'm sorry, here next weekend I swear this time ill be all yours now please open the door” his voice faint through the door 

“sure you mean it, now goodnight. you could of let me know you got busy” you didn't open the door, to hurt to face him. you just wanted alittle bit of his time which he didn't seem to understand or care enough about your feelings. Going to bed upset and in a different space then him. 

Once again the days pass with some slightly regular conversation happening between you two but just like last time you watch Saturday come and go then Sunday nigh hits and you get a text

“sorry babe, I know you wanted to do something today, Tuesday we’ll do something” you doubt this, you doubted all of it from the start but for once you wished you wrong, you hoped he actually meant what he said but all the doubt you have you still wait for Tuesday. 

Monday finishes then Tuesday morning arrives and you wait...and wait, then send text and your left on seen.. he didn't care enough to tell you anything. As midnight hits you hear a knock on the door. you get up to open it only to see the gray haired man standing in the doorway. 

‘no, go away” not even wanting to hear a pitiful excuse for him 

“hey no, listen please? “ 

“yk what? sure tell me how you kept fucking up please fucking tell me what's more important to you then following through. or even fucking caring to tell me what's keeping you away? “ slightly raising your voice trying to breakdown, he lost the right to see you so vulnerable 

“ dear you know I'm busy, I'm sorry. I know you've been lonely, c'mon one more chance?’‘ he leans against the doorframe. does this man really think he’s in the place to keep asking for favors? 

“why do you think your in the place to ask me for anything? yeah I've been fucking lonely and hurt. just fucking go. ill pack your shit. it will be by door in the morning . don text me, call me, anything. now step back please” Kakashi steps back trying to process what just happened, you close the door and turn off your phone. He wasn't worth the pain he kept putting your heart through the countless nights you cried yourself to sleep. the countless “ you did this to your ex tho” comments after mentioning the problem,. All the times you put your feelings second to be there for him or the time he put your pain second to ask to borrow money. You did what you needed... from now on its you first. 

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      Honestly you always let me down

And I know we're not just hanging out