#IM FUCKING SCREAMING I NEED ANSWERS
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Emotions are high and the vibes could not be better today!
"Pretty awesome. Lot of emotions. Feels pretty hefty but like, fuck we're Stanley Cup Champions!"
When asked who the Cup is for? No hesitation, the fans.
"They sponsor us. It's for them. It's for them. Like they deserve it, they've been waiting for it, like it's for them."
how do you endear yourself to the fans? i think chugging a brewski while they chant your name will do it! and also complimenting them that too oh what a darling
CBS News Miami | 6.25.24 (x)
#niko mikkola#florida panthers#at this point im gonna need a seperate tag called “mikksys drunk adventures”#i dont think this man has been sober since the eve of yesterday#HIS VOICE IS SO HOARSE FROM ALL THE SCREAMING AND DRINKING#him saying fuck on cbs news miami is so iconic of him YES KING#also he mightve said “hefty” or “heavy” as in referring to the weight of the cup but both work so like pick your own answer#NIKO NIKO NIKO#have you heard anything more beautiful#“fuck we're stanley cup champions” THATS ACTUALLY MORE BEAUTIFUL#ALSO “its for them [the fans]” 😭😭😭#MIKKSY I JUST STOPPED CRYING DONT MAKE ME START UP AGAIN#first year here and he knows how to work some heartstrings WHILE DRUNK#is it funnier hes more coherent in english whilst drunk versus sober#aka his inhibitions are gone and hes not carefully measuring his words anymore and by god its beautiful#he has a tendency to trail off a lot in eng and end with yeah despite the fact he wants to say a lot more#YEAH MIKKSY YEAHHHH#hes such a hazard to himself hes WATERBOARDING HIMSELF COME ON MAN#tags running long i just love ma wifeeee
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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .
#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH#jay screams into the void#(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions#suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for#(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions#and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good#but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it#like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That#and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits#but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell#and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that#ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart#but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck#anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch#i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it#i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally#That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks#Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service
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*starts laughing nervously* i'm not the type to usually let my drafts (20) and asks (14) pile up..... but alas..... this sickness really got me huh............ how d'y'all not stress out about this tf,,,, i usually answer things quickly but lately i cannot,,,,, y'all are so strong for not having a nervous breakdown at bigger numbers than this fdkgjhghd this is the most ive had hoarded since, well, ever.....
#&&. ivy speaks.#my health has just been terrible LOL#its gone extreme hospitalizing back pain -> repeat -> repeat -> deadly cold -> gastro -> awful cold -> awful cold / all while dealing with#extreme blood loss every time i fucking sneEZE because my nose bleeds (caused by a blood disorder) are Extreme and Horror Movie Worthy#i JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SCREAMS#IM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#blood tw#also i dont need more sympathy or anything yall have been Amazing Gems and ily all#i just need to scream and rant into the void sometimes#im hitting a breaking poooooooooiiint#i didnt even get to do anything for the holidays with ANYONE because i was sick#and its gonna be the same thing tmrr on my bday like bro........#ALSO I LOVE GETTING ASKS AND THREADS SO PLEASE DONT STOP THEY MAKE ME HAPPY#I NEED THAT SERATONIN#IM JUST NOT GOING TO ANSWER VERY QUICKLY
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bro why tf doctors don't respect ur time 💀
#i understand that u cant estimate how long a patient might take#BUT. if u have a telehealth appt set up.#and its within work hours.#and not only do u call nearly 2 hours after i was told when u would#but that u would CALL ME BACK#AND NOT TELL ME WHEN???????#context also: i cannot have my phone on the work floor.#or rather. i have it. but i cannot answer it#and im so far away from the exit that by the time i get over i need to call back.#but also context context#what happened is that i was supposed to get ultrasound results back#but it seems that they never sent the results to my doctor#hence the calling back#bro. if he doesnt call back before the break ends im gonna fucking scream
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its quiet. its really dark in here. my eyes are closed and i tied my sweater around my head for good measure. its so cramped. its okay. im okay.
@mirrormannequin
listen.
#[lucy is curled up in a tiny secret nook in mordred. curled up in the same pose as she died in.]#[her hands are clasped together. she holds her hands to her thudding heart. she prays.]#baron. the answer to the riddle. you said i have it.#i was right. i didnt send it the right way.#know im praying it. im praying it.#i love you. we pushed too hard. i love you too. change can come slow. i love you. you can be anything.#we are going to end this now. i love you. i was here before but im not letting it happen again.#i was here before. im not here anymore.#i love you. change can come slow. i love you. your stepmom is the goddess of conviction and she loves you too.#your mother may be the goddess of doubt but i fucking refuse to doubt you#my baron. my baron. come back.#i love you. you can change slow. you can be whoever you want forever.#please. please please please#babys breath and pitcher plants.#chocolate cake and cartoons.#ill write you a thousand poems ill sing you a thousand songs.#ill pray it ill say it ill scream it#if you need me to give myself up i will.#come home. come back. please.#it cant happen again. i cant be here again.#you saved me from seeing him. you made mirrors good.#please.#i love you
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ppl will send me asks to my inbox for my art blog and side blogs just telling me to draw things and my immediate response is always "don't fucking tell me what to do."
#i HAAAATE when ppl just try to tell me what to draw it feels so demanding. does my time mean nothing to you#''i need you to draw--'' YOU DON'T NEED ANYTHING FROM ME YOU AREN'T MY BOSS#idk if I'm being unreasonable for feeling this way or not#cuz like?? i know I don't need to answer the asks so getting mad about it might be stupid#but also i don't wanna be treated like a fucking content machine. everyone getting to see my art is a PRIVILEGE.#when i complained about this on my splatb*nds side blog i got a hate ask.#like god... I'm just asking for ppl to be more respectful and considerate before they send me asks. phrasing makes a world of difference#like instead of ''draw [blank]'' saying sumn like ''hey here's this idea‚ i think your art would convey it well'' would work MUCH better#with that example i don't feel like im being bossed around AND it makes me feel like my style has it's own worth.#i just don't wanna feel like I'm being used for my art and not being appreciated as an artist#weed screams
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any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that
if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it
#snap chats#no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game#oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH.#id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k#OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think#my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious#rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final#HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE#i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that#i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki#someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it#like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but#i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital#the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe#cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion.#yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3#its a real head scratcher ...#a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think#it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little#and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened'#im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways....#sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly#idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me#THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED#i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell#is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form#i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments#BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow#im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE
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the LH group @ Taylor
CRYINGGG😭😭😭😭😭
#I LITERALLY JUST SAW HOW SMALL SHE ACTUALLY FUCKING IS BECAUSE OF MY SISTER ASKING ME FOR NAMES FOR MOVIE NIGHT#IM-#CEYING#I ACTUALLY SCREAMED AT HOW FUCKING S M A L L SHE WAS COMPARED TO EVERYONE ELSE IT IS 3 AM😭😭😭😭#AS IM MAKING THISS POST#PUTTING IT INTO DRAFTS FOR NOW#GIRL BARELY FITS ON THE FUCKING SCREEN😭😭😭#Taylor Little Hope#Little Hope#LH#Supermassive Games#tiny#tiny tiny#teeny tiny#pick her up easily#she weighs less than a feather#GITLS PROBABLU SMALLER THAN ME AND IM S M A L L#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#FINALLY POSTING THIS IT IS 5 AM UMMM#i will interact and answer my moots later i NEED SLEEP.#😭😭😭
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IM GONNA THROW UP.
#sorry besties I need to scream.#WHY CAN NOBODY IN THIS HOUSE WASH A FUCKING DISH. ITS EIGHT OCLOCK I HAVENT EATEN DISHES THERE ARE TWO (2) DISHES IN THE ENTIRE PILE THAT#ARE MINE WHY RHE FUCK DID NOBODY ELSE WASH THEM???????#I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!#WHAT THE FUUUUUUCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyways I am going to get VERY high as soon as I’m done showering and WASHING OTHER PEOPLE’S DISHES.#and try to answer the backlog of boromir asks I have before I green out#trying so hard not to say kms but FUCKING KMS#IM PAYING SO MUCH RENT TO THESE PPL AND ONE (1) PERSON IN THIS HOUSE APPRECIATES ME AND I STILL GET COMPLETELY FUCKING OVERLOOKED HERE.#oh yea it’s strider well just leave the PILE OF EVERYONES FUCKING DISHES for HIM to figure out AT EIGHT OCLOCK AT FUCKING NIGHT#what the fuck is wrong with people I wouldn’t care if I hadn’t been NOTICEABLY FUCKING GONE FROM THE HOUSE BUSY DOING SHIT
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Otávio or Francisco Conceição 🤭😔🍭
my friend….you’ve made this difficult, no? fds… listen….i love my porto manlets DOWN! they mean everything to me
Chico…thee best nepo baby…he puts in shifts like no other when he’s on that pitch, he really goes out there playing like every game is his last…we love him for it<3
Otávio…meu rei, our leader…loved pissing rivals off…the chaos… he gave us chora bebe…he gave us everything…it has to be him💙
#answered#these two porto divas sjdbsj not just players but porto LOVERS….please🧍🏽♀️#Otávio….we need to get him out of that fucking saudi league AGORAAAA#im acc screaming we have a friendly scheduled with his team n i already know im gonna die#has to be meu amor like who else speaks our language#alliepop🍭
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4 + 5 + 8 + 40 + 34 and I) G) F) for Cyrus Becker my beloved 🧡
afternoon idle!! oh my god questions galore *cracks knuckles* cyrus get your ass over here youre up
4. How easy is it to earn their trust?
Very difficult, and at the same time easier than youd think. he definitely doesnt entertain everybody, but hes not unreasonable. hell hear you out if you give him enough reason to (or if he thinks its beneficial to get to know you. do you see why he gets attached to people hes supposed to be manipulating so often). ortega and mortum required him to establish a relationship, which is how they got so close to eachother so quickly. herald got by because cyrus thought hed be a useful contact in the rangers. chen couldve earned his trust a long time ago, they had to work with eachother a lot back when he still ran with the rangers, but chen squandered it on his suspicions and its been too long for cyrus to have any interest in patching up their relationship. argent has largely flown under his radar, she hasnt piqued his interest more than the passing curiosity of why she wanted the regenerator.
5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?
the default is mistrust. sorry yall, hes not taking any more chances than necessary. hes a telepath, he knows all too well what secrets other people hide, and hes not interested in giving people a chance to prove his suspicions wrong. but after hes grown to trust somebody? its... embarrassing how difficult it is to lose it. even though his trust is much shakier nowadays, you still need to have fucked up Majorly to get him back to mistrusting you. if you somehow manage to do that,,, uhhhh. what do you want on your tombstone? (ig its technically its possible to not die and even earn that trust back??? ortega managed, but thats ortega and hes statistically more likely to kill you or ruin your life. depends on how badly you fucked up. id say theres a good 5% chance youll survive the experience without the need for intense psychotherapy)
8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child
listen. follow orders. be exactly who we need you to be. cyrus was a deeply rebellious regene, but he wasnt stupid about it. hed go against the mission in secret, and just enough that nobody wouldve been able to trace any problems back to him. that doesnt mean he was never caught, but he was too competent of a regene to be scrapped, which saved him multiple times before. those few times did cause handlers to keep a closer eye on him though, just in case. handlers would usually keep a harder grip on cyrus, hold him to stricter standards. it contributed a lot to his own self talk. SPEAKING OF WHICH:
40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?
you must imagine me holding him and looking lovingly into his eyes while i dump a gallon of insecurity and perfectionism on him. hes a proud man, he thinks hes better than what other people are capable of, but that arguably makes things worse when he does make a mistake. he of all people shouldnt be like this. add the puppetmaster scar on him and its a hefty load of 'i need to make sure every single step of my plan goes exactly right Or Else." the worst thing about him is that a lot of the petty flaws he thinks apply to him arent correct. AND HE CANT EVEN NAME HIS ACTUAL FLAWS. cyrus you are so smart and walking around with zero self awareness, its the best. please consider stepping into acid.
34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?
hohohohoho. well. the first step is to get him to feel guilty in the first place. traditionally immoral actions arent going to get to him, obviously. the thing that springs up guilt for him most often is themmys death. he has. a Lot of survivors guilt about that. especially because hes convinced himself he couldve done something and *gestures to the ask above*. guilt will haunt him for life if it doesnt get resolved in a healthy way, but hes gotten good at burying his emotions a long time ago. even when he feels like that, he reserves a specific time to think about it, otherwise itll impede on his plans in the long run. that designated time is. usually when hes supposed to be sleeping. his sleep schedule is just a little bit messed.
I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?
oh dude i Love putting cyrus in aus. its so fun to poke him with a stick and see what happens. the first one i put him in was a band au, it helped me figure out how he would interact with herald. basically cyrus was a masked guitarist (for backstory reasons) for a band daniel happened to be a fan of, except the two of them managed to meet at just regular old work, with cyrus not realizing daniel was a fan and daniel not realizing cyrus was from one of his favourite bands. it led to fun, mlb-esque shenanigans between the two lmfao. the second one i put him in was the becker siblings au, which i still have thoughts and emotionsTM about. that au let me indulge in the 'cyrus is an older sibling' headcanon and i will forever be in debt to it for the amount of protective cyrus i got. third and current au im obsessing over is a 'cyrus survives hb' scenario, where ortega managed to stop him before he jumped out the window. i am getting! so much ortega x cyrus content out of that au! and so much survivors guilt cyrus. cyrus 'using' ortega to forget about heartbreak my beloveddddd. he also says 'i love you' to ortega in this au and canon ortega is SO jealous. also x2, hes an alcohol vice step in this au. heartbreak hit hard and the tequila hits different.
aaaand i still like his canon version better. its just so very much him. out of every step ive got, hes the one i get to stay closest to how i envision based on the choices the game offers. plus he caught me completely by surprise suckerpunching me with an obsession over him and i cant Not respect that.
G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?
not sure whether this means on a character creation level or as a person, but ill answer for 'as a person' because im overall pretty satisfied with how he turned out! but like. god what is there to not be bothered about. my manipulative little shit of a son. ig the trait that frustrates me the most is his self destructive tendencies. like. Sir. are you at all aware of the fact that people care for you and want you safe? and that you can respond to that concern with something other than "i can use this", "sucks to be them", or, "no theyre not"? sir. sir answer the question. hes so empathetic and also literally a telepath but somehow cant compute genuine concern at him. as frustrating as it is though, i cannot deny that it is deeply funny to watch him fumble so badly.
F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?
normal. the ones where people look at me and think "wow, that is a person who is having (a) regular thought(s) about their character! very cool!" you will never see a person who is more normal about their guy than i am (i am grabbing him by the teeth and shaking him like a dog with a very strong kill instinct).
truly though, thinking of him gets me buzzing. hes like a puzzle, i keep breaking him apart and putting him back together again to see how everything works. i have this thing where ill often think about showing character analysis to the characters themeselves, just to see how they would react, and i undeniably do this the most with cyrus. i want to explain step by step (hah) why he is the way that he is now, like the whole timeline is plotted inside my head and its so!!!!! i am!!!!! chewing on him!!!!!
questions from here!
#herald is a lucky bastard#he messed up twice in a row (asking cyrus about his sidestep days+picking him up without consent) but asking for help training saved him#cyrus was straight up being sadistic about it he just wanted to fw herald after those two times and saw training as an opportunity#it wasnt supposed to lead somewhere#anathema vision wouldve fucked him and his guilty ass Up. good thing cyrus is a bastard and abandoned argentine before they crashed 🫶#and because i have an excuse to talk about them again heres some things that ive been thinking about lately:#1. it is So fucking funny to me that all three of them are trans afabs in some way#scientists at the farm in charge of the becker sibling batch: wow look at these three new girl regenes!#cyrus (trans man)/fawn (nb)/river (trans man): . well-#2. brother-madds buckley. just the whole thing. im going to start screaming and punching the floor here#3. WHO WAS THE HG SIBLING THE ORTEGAS SAW IN THE PHOTO. was it just somebody that looked enough like the three to assume it was a sibling#or did it happen to look exactly like one of the siblings. or did they find three photos with siblings that looked like each? I NEED ANSWER#cyrus' is very emotionally intelligent towards everybody but himself#when it comes to himself hes wearing a blindfold and earplugs and pretending nothings wrong#the whole time i was answering that last ask i was thinking about my post talking about how many posts of his were in my queue#god bless that man he never leaves my brain#thank you again for the ask idle :DD#cyrus becker#sidestep#fhr#pulp answers#ask game
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god i hate my fucking tutor so much
#if I could I would tell everyone thinking of having him as a tutor not to do it he’s the fucking worst#my thesis has been done since November and it’s February and I cannot hand it in because he’s a fucking asshole who does not care and won’t#even answer my texts#all I need him to do is to sign one fucking note and I even offered to use a scan of his signature that I already have so he doesn’t even#have to do that#and he will not reply even though I keep double texting explaining why it’s so important for me to hand it in#and im so fuckin sick I can’t even move or do anything and I just want to scream at him#im ranting and nobody cares but I’m sooo mad#uni#personal
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someone needs to brand "i am cringe but i am free" on my brain maybe then i will truly embrace the cringe
#marlo’s stuff#screaming at myself#all the time#i appreciate the ask about my ocs but i so conveniently forgot the fact i want to explode (/neg) when i think about the lore i came up with#I WILL ANSWER IT BUT I AM GOING INSANE RIGHT NOW#i am cringe but i am free i am cringe but i am free i am cringe but i am free i am cringe but i am free i#I NEED TO SHOOT WHATEVER PART OF MY BRAIN CAUSES ME THIS MUCH SHAME 24/7#SOMEBODY FUCKING GIVE ME A LOBOTOMY OR SOMETHING#PLEASE#IM LOSING IT
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if people j love could stop flaking out on me and completely disappearing and refusing to answer messages ect that would rock. it would rock so hard if people stopped doing this to me.
#if you need a day. if you need a week. thats fine#thats fine you dont have to answer messages constantly#but jesus christ months?#MOTHNS???#or longer?#why does this happen so much with so many people WHAT AM I DOING WRONG#god fucking damnit im going to scream
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im ggonna fucking. horm.
#if i have 1 more dream connecting me to my past traumas im going to do sometjing trastic#i did NOT need to be reminded about the drug bust OR the multiple car incidents. thwnk you.#god fucking damnit i can still hear the screaming#hhhhh#it sounds so much like them#hey google what do you do when youve long since lost trust in the person yoube seen as a mother figure for majority of your life years ago#but then still have traumatic dreams about losing her. ones that pull you back to being in the back seat of a cop car at the age of 3#screaming your lungs out desperately for your mom#hey google. google? answer me google
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I take it all back i know 0 languages now
Grug sad face grug no talk words more
#pov post portuguese quiz i totally forgot abt#bought 10mins of emergency study by asking a complicated question she had to look for the answer for but uh#grug drop out college now 👍 (joke)#distinguishing between knowing to use which verb form I HATE YOOOUUUUUUUU#DEATH BY A MILLION KNIVES#what hope do i have in port if its been 5yrs now and i still fuck up preterite and imperfect in spanish *kills self*#i forget imperfect exists and then i start using fue for everything but then i remember and start saying era when i should NOT be using era#and just *cries and cries and cries and cries* FUCK YOU PAST TENSE!!!#that wasnt even what my quiz was on (it was imperf vs imperf subj) but it reminded me of that and SCREAMS#and i know i keep doing it bc i notice after. esp in my lit class when i answer a question using era and then the prof repeats my answer fo#the class with fue... literally need to explode like when youre right but also wrong at the same timeeeee screams#why cant we just have 1 past tense. is that so much to ask for.#also keys im gonna respond to your comment after i get out of classes mwah#entonces no preocupes si tomo mucho tiempo para responder <3
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