#Homeless penguin

[keeperofallmasterofnothing]

Do you know? Do you know what it’s like to have no one? No one you trust, no one you can talk to? Do you know what it’s like to want to be seen? Really be seen. Do you know what it’s like to be so terrified of being let down, you don’t let many get close to you? Do you know what it’s like to sob quietly so that you don’t wake anyone? Do you know what it’s like to fall to your knees in the shower and wish to God you had never been born? Do you know what it’s like to lose the only person you have ever loved? The only person you could feel every cell in your body vibrate when they kissed you. Do you know what it’s like to hurt and let go of the one person in your life you can’t live without? Do you know what it’s like to feel your heart breaking inside of your chest and know there is nothing you can do about the pain? Do you know what it’s like to know that another woman is touching and kissing all that your heart desires and can’t have? Do you know what it’s like to sleep with your head on their chest and listen to their heartbeat knowing those beats are only yours and that no one else will ever hear them? Do you know what it’s like to look in someone’s eyes and feel the breath leave your lungs because you can’t believe you could love someone as much as you love them? Do you know what it’s like to kiss someone so deeply that when you open your eyes, for a few seconds you can’t see? Do you know what it’s like knowing you walked away from the laugh that calmed your heart, the eyes that saw your soul, the hand that made you feel safe, the one person you have dreamed of your whole life? Because you have a child that needs you and that responsibility does not allow you to keep your one true love? I do.