#tw 3d rant

[d3cay1ng59]

MY STATS since my other acc got banned 😭😭

[elis-abyss]

I don’t have an ed but I don’t not have an ed… anyone else?

[needyjirai]

sh my savior...

safe foodz my savior...

nicotine my savior...

[mantastarray]

No bcs I haven't felt dizzy and had my vision go dark everytime I get up in so long I NEED to get worse

[nhltzmhslp]

Here's some th)ñ$pö to make up for it xx

[quietphobic]

I wish e/d Tumblr wasn't this weirdly romanticised and sexualized echo chamber of "ana motivation" and "thinspo." Y'all are fucking weird and disgusting. And have I mentioned awful?

It'd be GREAT if I could post about my own struggles with an eating disorder and find community with others struggling who WANT to get better instead of getting hounded by the dumbest fuckjng people on the planet. Idk who convinced y'all that this shit was cool and quirky and that being anti-recovery was the way to be, but I hope whoever it was fucking dies. And I hope y'all grow up and recover and realize how terrible you were being and how much damage you did to yourself and others. And I hope you feel shame and regret.

I want to be able to share my struggles and frustrations with being nauseous whenever I try to eat without every other post in the fucking e/d tags encouraging killing yourself via starvation. All of you go fuck yourselves

[velvetwish-22]

💞💞💞💞 86 hrs bitchessssssss

Im afraid to weigh myself later - I really hope I’m 131 lbs or lower like FUCKKKK

having a white monster right now!!!

Update after the gym 🥰🥰🥰

[orbitofneptune]

i haven’t been posting too much recently, so i thought i’d share a little update on how i’ve been going…

so first things first, i’ve not been going too well the past week or two, especially the past 3 days when it comes to binging, however that’s going to be changing from this point onwards, i really cannot be complacent… and i can blame it on being sick, getting my period and the weather being horrible, but at the end of the day, it’s all on me for being weak and falling into my temptations.

so i’ll be officially having a reset at the beginning of feb, with a whole new weigh in and goal set based on whatever happens, however i’ll be starting from today because the earlier i get ahead the earlier i reach my goals… but im having a big reset for february where i plan on being consistent especially with my exercise and eating!

i’ll also be changing up how i post a little bit to see how it goes, just need some change because it really wasn’t it this past couple days.

anyways i hope you guys are going well

[skinnnforme]

it's just hunger. Ignore it. It's not worth it.

[vanillachaiilatte]

Coming back after i swore i was healing, because my family pulled out a scale for new years and well…… 170lbs

[maybeitwasmee]

Anyone have any tips on how to loose a lot of weight in like a month?

I get rlly tired and low energy and so rude really fast so idk what to do anymore. I always end up eating and it doesn’t feel like anything’s working

[moonlighthobi]

just saw the skinniest girl run past me.. i want to look like that so badly

like she was so skinny, literally b0nespo! her thighs was probably only the size of a can of soda

i bet even an xx small is way too big for her ugh

[punkslovingskunks]

ACTIVE JANUARY 2025~~~

Hello!! My name is Arlow, and I use whatever pronouns :) I’m 21, and really am uncomfortable with minors, so 18+ ONLY! I am manic-depressive !!! If my tone swings wildly one way or the other just know it’s a silly mood swing. Also autistic, unlabelled gender and sexually queer, and take meds for attention deficiency. I study life sciences and technology for my bachelors, specialising in pharmacy !!

TW ED below the cut, but here are some non-ED fun facts about me before that:

1. I love to read. I have read a lot of classics from the likes of Dostoyevsky, Ursula K. Le Guin, Tolsoy, Kafka, Murakami, but am trying to read more contemporary works. I tend to read shorter stories due to time (think: Tolstoy’s novella, “The Death of Ivan Ilyich” at the longest), but I genuinely try to read longer works.

2. I love fish!! I have fish bowls, fish vases, a fish tattoo, it’s 90% of my diet, and I grew up next to water and was born on an island!

3. I am from 3 countries. I am Filipino, Lebanese, and Nigerian. I love all the cuisines and cultures from each of these countries, and can speak (or at least understand) multiple languages (English, Tagalog, French, Lebanese Arabic, Yoruba, and learning Dutch for university)

4. I am terrified of water. But I love the look of it, the smell and sound of it, and can thread the surface without my hands for well over an hour.

5. My favourite colour is yellow. Despite wearing all-black and being heavily gothic and emo, I love bright, tropical colours, and I am a generally upbeat and energetic person. It used to shock me whenever people younger than me would interact with me in highschool and then say I wasn’t as scary as I looked.

6. I am a good cook, and I love cooking and hosting dinner parties. I love spending all day in the kitchen.

My GW is 47-50 kg depending on how I look and feel. Once I start working out and gaining muscle and weight, I’ll start working in measurements and standardised clothing sizes. I don’t want to be underweight or bonespo, and I’m actually a bit sad my ribs, sternum and chest bones are starting to show. (I do think bonespo is hauntingly gorgeous though)

Eating habits:

> I strictly eat an OMAD with no snacks.

> Eat 3 hours before bed for best calorie utilisation

> Forget about ana!!! Don’t obsess over food and you learn to forget about it.

> Try not to finish the plate. Finishing plates is binging. Eating anything outside of my plate is subhuman.

> All veg is <100cal/100g, usually eat white fish and shrimp due to low cal. Chicken and beef is a rare treat. Pork is disgusting.

Tags:

These will follow me if I ever get termed !

#aipluttbintrash -> my weigh ins tag, stands for “Arlow is putting logs under this tag but is not trash”

#arlowyapsaton -> my rants and raves ! Happens quite a bit because of my Ritalin and this is like my diary.

#aimadeadlinesetup -> sometimes I try to challenge myself and lose a specific amount in a specific timeframe. This are for me to go back and see those.

Stats:

Height: 1.66m

BMI weights (in kg / lbs):

28 -> 77.00 / 169.76 (HW)

25 -> 68.89 / 151.88

24 -> 66.14 / 145.81

23 -> 63.38 / 139.73

22 -> 60.63 / 133.66

21 -> 57.87 / 127.58

~~CW~~

20 -> 55.12 / 121.51

19 -> 52.36 / 115.43

18 -> 49.61 / 109.36

17 -> 46.85 / 103.28

16 -> 44.09 / 97.21

15 -> 41.34 / 91.13

14 -> 38.58 / 85.06

13 -> 35.83 / 78.98

[velvetwish-22]

⭐️⭐️69 hrs into my f4st 😍😍😍💞💞💞💞💞

Had broth & Diet Dr. Pepper

Going to bed soon!!!!!

Weighed in @ 134.8 lbs (⬇️ 3 lbs total)

I was hoping to be down like 6 lbs by now what the fuck 😔😤

Maybe I need to increase my steps tbh I only did 8 K today and barely did anything physical over the weekend…..

I better be 131 lbs tomorrow night.

Fuckkkkkkkkkkk

I’m not eating until I get to 126 (GW for this week).

So 8.8 lbs to lose by Friday guys!!!! Let’s do it.

[gothicbutterfly33]

knowing about c4lories is a blessing and a curse

[lov4lybutterfly]

help pls!!!

i always tell myself i’m going to do a super long fast and then i fail :( sometimes im just too weak mentally and i give in. other times it’s because im eating with family/friends.

how do you guys get out of eating with other people? and how do you stay so focused during your fast?? i know it gets easier after a while but i just need help getting there :/

when i do fail a fast, it feels like the end of the world and it just makes me wanna binge on everything </3

any advice is appreciated !