#so im feeling accomplished and hopeful!

[neonacidtrip]

i hope you've been well

Thank you! I hope you have been well, too!

[choccy-milky]

💖🎊the end, & thank you for reading!!🎊💖

im so thankful for all the support i got on this story, and i wouldn't have finished it if not for all of you, and for the love i got for seb and clora. so thank you again for giving me the motivation to write this 600k+ monster, and to see it through to the very end. LOVE YALL💖🫶 (ao3/wattpad)

[bananafire11]

1 How do these Caine transformations work, is it slow and painful, or is it a quick thing (Jax's for example) and how did he react to seeing himself like that?

2 Jax still does, even in that form, he still continues to be playful sometimes? And then there are also adventures for them to distract their minds?

Caine likes to take his time when it comes to 'designing' his circus cast. The process of transformation is slow and drawn out, as Caine rearranges and adds onto his newest creation. It's all trial and error.

(Using jax as an example here) caine will elongate, stretch, shrink, ect. as he goes along, one limb at a time. Ofc he can perform acts that wouldn't be possible in the real world as it's digital so he has some liberties.

For the first ask's second question; adventures are moreso 'field tests'. Caine throws his cast into a predicament to test their abilities and how they will overcome whatever he throws at them. This isn't as common as in canon, though

And for the second asks second question, Ragatha had been 'wretchified' before Jax arrived to the circus. Both she and Kaufmo tried to keep him hidden as long as possible, only prolonging his determined fate.

[moeblob]

thinking about their civilian clothes.... and also thinking about how in the vanguard armor his chest looks much larger (valid, it's armor) and I think he deserves to keep that chest.

[tetzoro]

eeep !! good morning friendz and happy happy monday ! it’s a brand new day !!! and a brand new week !! i’m waving my lil wand and spreading a lil magic in hopes that everyone has a good one ^_^ ♥︎

[stormblessed95]

So jimin spent his birthday with Yoongi the whole of yesterday and proudly showed us the snacks yoongi prepared for his birthday.. But he couldn't spend it with his supposed "boyfriend" Jk😪..Lmao jimin is putting himself out there showing who he cares about and spend his free time with and it's yoongi not your ship,But yet you jokers are still holding on to fake ship,jimin would spit on you shipping him with a family man like Jk who has a pregnant girlfriend at home. Stop being so embarrassing and give it up. Yoonmin is real and jimin truly loves yoongi not who you are shipping him with. You keep denying yoonmin relationship but guess who keep debunking y'all? Jimin exactly haha Such losers! Anyway happy birthday to jimin

Lol your hostile anon post worked! I'm converting! This is official a yoonmin blog (let's all just pretend that everyone who follows me doesn't already know that yoonmin are my biases so it lowkey can already feel like a yoonmin blog anyway)

Yoonmin is real! Yay! It's so nice that my biases are now also boyfriends. Good for them!

[the-cookie-of-doom]

for a while now, I've really been doubting my career choices with nursing. I know a lot of it is burn out and depression, and being so overwhelmed between work, school, and clinical, that I didn't have time to breathe. I was in the hospital/on campus for 60 hours a week last semester, and that's not counting the time I had to study outside of that. It was awful. I quit my job because of it, I was almost involuntarily committed because of it.

But the scariest part for me has been how much I've hated clinical. It makes me miserable. And that's terrifying, because once I graduate? That's what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. So if I already hate it now, what does that mean for my future?

Sometimes, though... Sometimes I'll have a clinical that is just so good, it reminds me of why I'm doing this. Why I'm putting myself through the pain and suffering of becoming a nurse, which is honestly one of the hardest careers a person can have. It's mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting. It destroys your body and your mental health. Most of the time it's thankless. It doesn't pay nearly enough for what we go through.

Despite all of the reasons there are not to become a nurse, there are some patients that will remind you why it's all worth it anyway.

Last week, I had a crotchety old bitch of a patient. She had been in the hospital for 10 days, was refusing all of her treatments, screamed at anyone that came in her room, and demanded dilaudid around the clock, despite having no injuries to justify it. Everyone hated her. Her own nurses went in her room as little as possible; I think in the entire 12 hours I was there, her nurse spent maybe a total of 20 minutes in her room. I was in there for hours. A couple minutes at a time in the beginning just so she could warm up to me. Then I spent 2 straight hours at her bedside just talking to her. Letting her tell me her life story. Which was tragic, of course, and no wonder she was so run down and bitter and wanted to get high off narcotics. She was miserable, lonely, and in chronic pain from a body that was deteriorating around her.

So I spent as much time with her as possible. Sure enough, she didn't ask me for any pain medications a single time, once she realized she could trust I was going to look after her. I Explained her medications and her treatments, and the reasoning behind them. I offered to reach out to out chaplain when I noticed she was hyper focused on some televangical broadcast. I got her to call her son to come visit her. I got her to agree to take her medications and allow us to take blood sample for her labs, which were days overdue. I got her up and working with physical therapy so she could start walking again.

By the end of the day, that patient loved me. Not a single complaint all day, she wasn't screaming down the halls and cursing everyone's existence. She was still crotchety and mean in that way old hillbillies are, but she wasn't angry. She wasn't lashing out. She was finally being cooperative. All because I took the time to talk to her and offer her company.

Tonight, I had a shift in our mental health unit. There was a patient who I noticed was very withdrawn and avoiding everyone, mostly just standing in a corner at the end of the hall, by a window. I went down and talked to him. Kind of stilted at first, but slowly he opened up to me. I really only meant to talk for a few minutes, mostly for my own sake, to get used to interacting with mental health patients like this.

Instead, we talked for hours. Nearly 3 hours straight at the start of the day alone, and then more throughout the day. My feet were killing me by the end of it, but it was completely worth it to see the way this poor guy came to life. We talked about everything from social topics like music and movies, to his medications and treatments, and how to manage his depression once he leaves. Something I was able to connect with him about on a personal level in a way his nurse hadn't, because I've been living with depression for a decade, I've been on antidepressants, and I understand. I think that was the point it clicked for him, when he really started reaching out to me, instead of answering when I prompted him. Because humans need connection and understanding.

By the end of the day he was talking freely and smiling nearly non-stop. We'd made plans for him to get back into an old hobby he hadn't touched in years, and he seemed genuinely excited to start it back up again. He was nearly bouncing in place when I went to say goodbye to him at the end of the night, and thanked me for talking to him all day. Even the staff nurses noticed the way his demeanor had completely changed.

Another patient (my actual patient for the night) started the day very combative. To the point she had to be redirected to her room (not locked up, just strongly encouraged to go and cool down). She was screaming at everyone, having some very serious and severe delusions. Same story; I talked to her throughout the day, little bits whenever she was feeling calm. I noticed she had a tattoo from an old semi-niche XBox game I used to play, and we bonded over that. By the end of the shift she loved me. Kept asking me if I'd gotten lunch/dinner, made sure all the other patients on the unit got their snacks, told us all to get some rest once it was curfew for the unit (we had to stay another 2 hours) and said we could use the spare bed in her room if we needed. Which sounds really weird but coming from her was incredibly sweet. Again, total attitude change.

I am very cognizant of the fact that the way I approach my patient care is largely a privilege of still being a student. It's easy for me to stand at a patient's bedside for 2 hours straight and listen to her life story when I have nothing better to do, let alone 3 other patients to take care of. But that nurse didn't talk to her at all. Even when she was in the room, she dismissed everything the patient said. The mental health nurses? Most of their time is spent in the nursing station gossiping and messing on their phones. There's no reason for them not to put in the extra effort of spending time with their patients. And especially there, it can have such an impact.

All of that is to say, I love the relationships I'm able to build with my patients. It's so important for me to be able to connect with people like this, to make them feel seen and cared for and important. No one wants to be treated like an inconvenience, especially not while they're in the hospital, sick and hurt and exhausted and in pain.

Nights like these are why I'm going into this field. I love medicine and I always knew I would end up in the hospital, I've always wanted to be able to save someone's life. But I think now that I've grown up and I'm actually working with these patients, I've come to see not only how rewarding it is to save someone's life, but to nurture that life, too.

[ryuseitai]

guy that likes being independent when he has to do stuff alone

[theriverdalereviewer]

everyone jumping to team kamala we will never experience true freedom in this country

[fatuismooches]

greetings, miss smooches ~

it's such a delight to finally send something in your inbox after a long while of wanting to do so ( and my deadass realized that i haven't been following your blog... oopsie ). regardless, hello hi!! how are you? i hope all has been well for you <3

i wanted to say thank you ever so much for feeding us harbinger content like ?? queen, your shoulders must hurt from carrying the "i love me a villain who's only soft for his lover" community, here's a virtual cup of tea and the crown you deserve.

may i add, as a scaramouche simp, reading through your masterlist for the past two months has been such a joy and an energy boost for me <3 the variety made me experience every single possible emotion; from the sobs to the giggles to the "bro got me twirling my hair fr" — really, such a joy. your kabukimono series is delightfully soul crushing and i'd like to thank you for inspiring me to actually start on mine that i had on the back of my mind for a while now! my huge love for kuni aside though, i did read through a few other fics in your m.list for the other harbingers and i am as equally in love <3

you don't have to answer this ask in all honesty, feel free to do whatever you desire with it. i'd like to apologize on how lengthy this ask is as well like omg ;; this is why me bringing up kuni is a bad idea /nsrs

i hope all is well for you dear, remember to hydrate and treat yourself to whatever you crave. you deserve it very much <3

— signed, ayame.

OH MY GOSH... okay first of all, I sincerely have to thank you for this ask, because you genuinely motivated me to open the fic and finally finish lesson 8 after like almost two months 😭😭 No joke you inspired me so much that i finished writing it in only a few days lol ❤️

But omg hi!!! Thank you sooo much for reaching out this was super sweet of you 🥹🥹 I am well, i hope you are too 😊 AND PLEASE THERE'S NO NEED TO THANK ME 💗💗 I'm more than overjoyed that you like my writing so much <3 I'll happily accept the cup of tea!! My favorite drink!! But only if you join me too ❤️ AM I REALLY WORTHY OF A CROWN THOUGH?? I'll still accept it though, thank you <333

Hearing you enjoy my masterlists/works so much is truly such a compliment, i don't think i can match your words. I'm really so glad i could provide those feelings for you, i don't really know how better to express my sincere thanks <3 And i am so honored i inspired you to write your own series! That's amazing and i hope you have lots of fun writing for this hat guy, i wish you the best and make sure to take breaks when writing! Don't burn yourself out! (And I totally understand, whenever i talk about Scara i too have to restrain myself 😭🫶)

Much love to you, i will keep this ask in my pocket and giggle and kick my feet to it. Please make sure to take care of yourself too!!

[napping-sapphic]

I’m sure you get this allllll the time- but you are literally so adorable!!! My heart every time I read one of your posts just- 😩🥺<3

AGSHFJGKH???? Thank youuu😭😭❤️❤️ I’m happy you like my posts😭😭❤️❤️ I hope your day is good, I want you to have a good day today you deserve a good day <3!! :)!!!

[feeling-kinda-sad-ngl]

just sent an email asking to cancel my application for school next semester because i got an email notifying me that im no longer eligible for the financial aid i was eligible for when i applied lol

pretty bummed. telling myself it works out because im having surgery in the fall too so i'd have to request time off from school anyway.

[sampilled]

im going to get my hair dyed blonde!!!!!!!

[iinaminottennight]

beginning to understand what iketani meant with working on your own car makes you fonder of it bc i just replaced my brake discs and brake pads all on my own and the sense of pride and love for my car is unlike anything ive ever felt man

[3416]

just wanted to say thank u for introducing me to the leafs, and specifically to mitch and auston 🙏 will forever be supporting the leafs now

KFJSKDLFSDKL this is truly the best news, and you are so so welcome. ❣️❣️❣️❣️ sports and hockey specifically have jsut really added something to my life, even though the obsessive parts can get me bogged down every now and then, but it makes me haPPY TO SPREAD THE AGENDA!!! and to know it's working, esp about 1634 bc those are my favorite boys and the narrative is compelling <3

[smol-being-of-light]

i had a surprisingly enjoyable evening going to a house warming party with people i didn’t know, the only person i knew well left really early

and normally that would be a very anxiety inducing situation but it went really smoothly and i spoke to everyone and i didn’t feel like i had to force it

there’s good in this world and the right things will come naturally