#s3lf harm tw

[puppy-b0y-prince]

Bloody Angel

[hecateash]

I hate that period of time after cvtting when I have to wait for them to heal to cvt again 😫😫

[1twlaccc]

i wanna cut i wanna cut I wanna cut i wanna cut. i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut i wanna cut

[0pt1m1st1c-4n0r3x1c]

I am 200 days clean from SH, and I've never felt worse. Now I know how much it's an addiction. It's all I think about, I plan when I could, when I can't I just don't know, I miss it so much.

[dioradd1ctbitch]

why is sh so expensive wym i need to buy a new bl4de every three times along with plasters and steri strips???

[klusiawikusialol]

czasem sie zastanawiam czy gdybym z dnia na dzien znikla to czy osoby ktore sa dla mnie bliskie i ktore kocham beda za mna tesknic czy beda plakac czy po prostu nie przejma sie "strata mnie" i beda zyc jakby sie nigdy nic nie stalo

[yoonbum-xx]

I HAVE A SH GROUPCHAT ON IG dm meee to be addedddd

We post our photos but u can also. Rant about shiii if ur chill like that hmuuu :333

[skinnib1txh]

almost 2 months. i have no real reason to do it again but I really really want to. but I also don't want to. its so hard not to

[urm0msb0ngwtr]

cvtting instead of eating >>

[puppy-b0y-prince]

Bloody angel

[wh1temonst3rsuprem3cy]

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I can't find my bandages.

[1twlaccc]

I love styros sm

[skinnybutterflywithnowings]

Haven’t cut in a minute because I have no energy to but the urge to is so bad I just can’t seem to get myself to do it..

[misetiverecon]

It's supposed to get better. I've seen it time and time again, and all it does is annoy me .

When am I ALLOWED to get better? When is it enough? When do I stop punishing myself for things that happened almost a year ago? When do I get to be happy without feeling like shit after? When do I get to eat and not worry about weather or not your treating yourself right? When do I get to feel human?

I'm so sick and tired of having little to no motivation. I'm tired of falling asleep with cut and bruised thighs, even if it's self inflicted. I'm tired of being and feeling powerless and useless. I'm tired of feeling like an emotional sack of shit. I'm so tired of feeling like I don't matter. I'm so sick and tired of feeling disgusting in my own body and mind.

What I've done and said to you cycle around in my head all day. What you've said and done to me cycle with it. Every single day I relive the moment when I first lost control. Everyday I feel guilt when I remember you saying that you'd feel bad for me if I didn't kill myself. Every fucking day, I'm forced to go back to that room that you almost died in. It doesn't stop. Sometimes the cycle will pause, but always starts again. Sleep is my only escape.

I still cry for you and what you went through. It tears apart my heart to know I could have and should have done so much better. I hyperventilate over the fact that I'll never be able to get back what I lost when you ended our relationship.

I knew we were toxic together. But we thought in the end everything would be fine. You and I overlooked every red flag because of it. Instead of solving our issues, we ignored them. We only talked about how we could have avoided things after a breakdown. We never told each other what was really wrong until after we blew things to pieces.

You say you knew we wouldn't last long, but I trusted you when you made promises. I believed you when you said I'd be yours forever. I trusted you when you said we'd truly be together one way. I was naive and stupid, but I still feel like you led me on. I also feel bad for thinking it, and I'm angry with myself because you felt like you had to protect me from the reality of what was happening.

I know I hurt you, and that what you did back, I deserved. But the time you called the cops on me, the time you lied to my mother... I can't over look those. You trust me with so many things, yet I can't trust you. It's always double standards with you. You'll tell me to be safe, but at the same time be hurting yourself every night. I know it's not your fault. I know you have mental health issues. But still upsets me. You have such low standards for yourself.

It makes me feel like crap that I can't help you. That I can't fix your problems.

I hate how you've moved on, while I'm still stuck here in this never ending loop. I want it stop, but the only way to do that is to end my life. I know you don't care weather I'm alive or not. You've said that to me directly. But if you don't care, why do we still talk? Why do you still want to know how im doing? You say so many things that contradict over things you've said. I know you don't mean to be, but your so goddamn confusing.

All that said, I'm still in love with you. Unlike you, I ment it when I said I'd love you forever. But God, I wish I didn't love you. It hurts to love you.

[klusiawikusialol]

jablko z najbardziej blyszczaca skorka nie bedzie piekne jesli w srodku jest zgnile

[dxfxxltxx]

Am I the only one who sometimes works to reach x days/weeks of being clean/sober only to break it at that exact time like is it just me or...?