#tw vent blog

[puppy-b0y-prince]

Being hypersexual means I'm paranoid some person is probably jacking off to another version of me. My abused younger body lives on forever in those pictures he took.

I'm constantly harassed by vivid intrusive thoughts of my male friends, hurting me. Being used, and abused once they realize how easy it is to take advantage of me. Nothing sweet or romantic, just an object, so small and helpless but a pretty object, at least.

I have learned to put my body on display, like a doll, like a wind-up toy. And now I'm attempting to regain control and restore my autonomy through self-sabotage and self-harm.

The reality is that I want to be hurt, or even killed. I want to feel something, but also to feel numb. Wanting to feel in control, but also to be dominated. And I think I want to have a “connection” to another human, while at the same time to deny that I was even human.

 I want to be hurt, I want to be killed, I just want someone else to do it. I have been taking risks and putting myself in dangerous situations for years, and have been hurting myself in the more commonly known ways for even longer. Nothing ever seems to work for long, and I feel so alone. I feel so disqusting. No matter how many baths I take im tainted.

I want to die, but I don't want to die alone.

[bluebutterfliez]

can someone just give me a virtual hug please? i’m battling like 3 wars of mental illnesses at once and i’m just so burned out. i feel like nobody is there for me.

[all-ive-ever-known-were-holes]

If someone talks to you abt cocsa and you go on abt normal child experimentation at a gottem. Just genuinely shut the fuck up

[sooooorealllll]

I love all my friends but I want them to go so I can be alone and sad all by myself

I feel stupid i should move on with the sa shit

He did that freshman year and looked at me recently

Why am I sad over a man

[4ng3l0fgl4ss4ndb0n3s]

"hot girls eat" I'M NOT A GIRL

[1-4m-th3-pl4gu3]

intro<3

My name's astrid.i vent on this blog please view with caution.i tag all posts. posts may contain topics of self harm overthinking rsd and suicide . I have anxiety and rsd .

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all posts will be tagged appropriately.

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[letmesleepandnotwakeup]

Oh my word they hate me they hate me they hate me they hate me i dont care but at the same time i do i shouldn't have messaged then i should have just stayed away for a bit longer why tf did i reveal i was there i ruined the moment and now they're gonna hate me

[c4ndyd0gg0s]

Ugh...I feel like crap...

That gender dysphoria,body dysphoria and period cramps have teamed up against me to make life harder..

[bluebutterfliez]

i was so fucking stressed out yesterday and i don’t know why. i just got mad at the smallest things and kicked chairs and kicked tables and wanted to kick someone who traumatized me back in 7th grade. i cried 4 times that day. i don’t get it. i cant let go of the past. i just can’t. sometimes i think my trauma isn’t enough.

[starvyanamia]

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

i will lose weight before summer

[all-ive-ever-known-were-holes]

When you slowly loose connection with a close friend and you know you will never ever attain the same bond you had with them with anyone else and you just have to live with that

[sooooorealllll]

I miss the hits

I miss everything I was happy then .

I always wonder if I’m happy now

I just wish someone likes me the way he did

I just want to be asleep forever

[4ng3l0fgl4ss4ndb0n3s]

Intro post/first post

You can call me Alex, Angel or Will. He/they

BLOCK DON’T REPORT!!!!!! This blog is connected to my email address which my dad can view so if you do report it as concerning or get it taken down he’ll be able to see that, which I do not want.

This is a vent blog. I am a minor but I do not feel comfortable saying my exact age.

boundaries: no nsfw. I will not be answering asks for donations, I feel sympathy for you but I do not have a bank account and cannot donate.

My main account is theenemyod, my sh specific blog is @bl33dingd0ll

Current stats:

158cm tall

sw: 60kg

cw: 51.7kg

gw1: 55kg ✅

gw2: 50kg

gw3: 45kg

gw4: 40kg

ugw: 35kg

I post a lot about s3lf h@rm and 3ds if you’re in recovery or sensitive to that I’d recommend blocking me. Same with issue’s about family and sa and hallucinations.

I’m autistic and possibly have other mental illnesses but autism is the only thing I have diagnosed.

If you want you can send an ask or dm telling me to cut and show it and where if you don't say where I'll chose myself idc really but if it's somewhere I don't want to show ill not respond probably

[officialhaterblog]

logically I know it’s good that people I don’t like are recovering and making friends, moving on with their lives. But emotionally I wish everyone knew what you did. I wish you felt bad. I wish you had ever thought about it at all. I wish you could hurt the way you hurt me, I want everyone to leave you because what will you do then when nobody likes you anymore? Everyone forgives you because you’re recovering and getting better-but what about ME? I was doing good and then when I wasn’t you fucking left!!!

[whatdwellsintheabyss]

[lostwoodsnco]

Hello! My name is Raven and im a system, ive been living with this disorder for most of ym life and I wanted to start documenting my experiences. I lose a lot of my day, so I thought keeping tabs like this might be good, and it might help other people as well. I have a sizable(?) system. I am a victim of r@pe/CSA and inc3st and those topics will be mentioned on my page as I will vent, i will NEVER go into detail, but I will vent. Im diagnosed with C-PTSD, DID, and Major Depression I am the primary host, our other primary host is Bunnix, she usually fronts for work related activities while I front at home to take of more home activities. Most of our system are women, and we don't usually do well around men I deal with a lot of amnesia, obv tons of dissociation, i don't switch a lot since ive moved into my own place/same with splitting, though we do split easily from any kind of stress because we're not the best at coping even with current therapy helping (thought we've improved a lot since our teen years.)