#tw vent post

[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

Jokes I don’t think are funny,

Jokes about when mixed ppl don’t look mixed

Jokes about how “borderline” or manic someone is acting

Jokes about “the voices”

When someone jokes about how they haven’t eaten all day, like okay??

When someone jokes about another persons mental illness when they haven’t gotten permission.

When someone jokes about wanting to go to a mental hospital, saying “I need the vacation” “silly people vacation” etc, treating it like it’s not severely traumatic. Stop joking about that shit.

Oh and stop fucking joking about having ptsd, it’s not fucking funny, shut the fuck up

I can’t stop anyone from making these jokes but can y’all shut the fuck up sometimes? Like unless you’ve experienced it, when you have the trauma it’s funny. But when you just say that shit for fun it’s so fucking annoying.

[zennotixs]

Please don’t be mad at me. Reply to me. I’m begging you I can’t handle your silence.

[bubblycherry07]

Tw Vent post!

I don't want to be this way anymore. I feel so shamed of everything I did, I knew what I was doing was bad. I don't believe I even deserve to live anymore. I am disapointed when I wake up and I'm still alive. I hate it. I hate being this way. I don't understand how anyone could love me. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without wanting to cut off every inch of my skin. I have burn marks all over my arms and stomach now from burning myself with a straighting iron. I can't stop throwing up my food. hate that my mom has to see me like this. It's not her falt I am a screw up. I just want to die already.

[puppy-b0y-prince]

Being hypersexual means I'm paranoid some person is probably jacking off to another version of me. My abused younger body lives on forever in those pictures he took.

I'm constantly harassed by vivid intrusive thoughts of my male friends, hurting me. Being used, and abused once they realize how easy it is to take advantage of me. Nothing sweet or romantic, just an object, so small and helpless but a pretty object, at least.

I have learned to put my body on display, like a doll, like a wind-up toy. And now I'm attempting to regain control and restore my autonomy through self-sabotage and self-harm.

The reality is that I want to be hurt, or even killed. I want to feel something, but also to feel numb. Wanting to feel in control, but also to be dominated. And I think I want to have a “connection” to another human, while at the same time to deny that I was even human.

 I want to be hurt, I want to be killed, I just want someone else to do it. I have been taking risks and putting myself in dangerous situations for years, and have been hurting myself in the more commonly known ways for even longer. Nothing ever seems to work for long, and I feel so alone. I feel so disqusting. No matter how many baths I take im tainted.

I want to die, but I don't want to die alone.

[idiot-mushroom]

keep hearing ppl on here saying shit (or talking abt what ppl said/say) like ‘csa is such a uncomfy topic!!’ or ‘ i don’t really feel comfortable with that stuff…’ or ‘kids shouldn’t know this adult stuff!’

guys, i’m a minor, a chunk of my ttnm iteration is literally about my experiences with sexual harassment, be it I don’t rlly show it via art, i do talk abt it, dude i made a whole fic abt it!! I even made a sequel to the fic!!

and yeah if it does make u uncomfy, i always tag trigger warnings, so you can block those tags or just ignore the post, but don’t say i have to stop talking abt something that is so common and ignored and misinterpreted in the present day. sure my experiences can’t sum up everyone’s experiences but that’s the thing! they’re my experiences!

thank fuck that ppl don’t say shit like ‘you should take this down’ on my vent posts abt this shit bc i would honestly block them and then have to think abt how fucked up it is that as soon as I actually try to really dive deep in myself and be vulnerable and show the world my experience and emotions and thought and my memories and raw feelings i would get shut down because it made them ‘uncomfy’.

[yourlocalbadgerscales]

That feeling when you’re scared to go home from school but you don’t want that be in school and you can’t wait for the school day to end but you never want it to<<<<<

[ionoreo]

Turns out I failed my health class from last semester! I know why I failed (because I HATED that fucking class and that STUPID inappropriate teacher and there was too much work for a burnt out idiot who hated herself and didn't feel pretty and hated hated hated it) and now I have to retake it next year. It's okay though Im not gonna have any friends next year though so that's a commitment i can drop for academic success

Starting to regret taking college classes when clearly I'm not mature enough for it and incapable of doing the work. I love it here and I would rather die than go to my regular dogshit highschool but man this is not the dream. Anime and entertainment lied to me man I thought id be doing great and looking good and having a high school adventure by now but what do you know I have failed an important class - my first class failure IN MY FUCKING LIFE I DONT KNOE HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS - and I might not make it throuh the school year

time to start working on the pull a Gianna D'antonio playlist

ughhhhhhhhhhhh

but I can't cry or else I'll ruin my makeup

[the-crystal-femmes]

This is probably going to be a long post and delves into mental health issues. Trigger and content tags will be applied but I'm putting this under a "read more". Please bear with me.

I think I'm tired of believing that I'm constantly intimidating my mutuals, or being a nuisance. I constantly tend to believe that the reason I don't usually get mentioned in posts is, for some God forsaken reason, I come off as a bitch when I ask not to be tagged in certain things. It makes me sad, I'd like to be tagged in silly little posts as long as they don't fo against my boundaries.

Ever since the.. Incident on my sideblog, I've always felt nervous or on edge here. I fear something's going to happen again, my paranoia constantly gnawing at me. I've considered taking a break from Tumblr, but truthfully, it's my only form of socialization. I cannot go outside and talk to others, I live in a rural area, and I feel much less safe on apps like TikTok, Instagram, and Discord. Tumblr is my go-to with talking to others, but as of late I've felt so unsafe and unwanted that it's actually effecting my mental health.

I just want to be able to interact with my mutuals and make little posts. I don't want to constantly believe that I'm doing the wrong thing, wondering why anyone is still following this blog, or having constant fits of crying because I feel like I've fucked everything up.

I'll admit this now. I love attention, I constantly crave attention, and a lot of my posts are me begging for attention, whether subtly or very, very bluntly. It's why I ask for asks in my inbox a lot, it's why I constantly try to interact with others. This isn't a trait of mine that I like, at all. I always feel lonely, I've never had an explanation for my thought processes or why I do any of this. I'm surprised that anyone actually puts up with my shit because truthfully, I've lost multiple friends due to my behaviors. And I want to work on them, but when I'm so emotionally distressed, especially with everything going on in my life right now that I just don't talk about here, the problems are starting to pile up and I'm doing everything as an escape, like my brain is desperately pulling at strings.

I just want this to cease. Not in a.. Depressive way but, I just want to be normal, not a whiny, sniveling brat who constantly begs for attention and gets mad when I don't get it.

I'm just sorry. To anyone reading this, I am very, fucking sorry you have to put up with my shit.

[feral-cockroach]

god i fucking hate cfs i hate it i hate it i hate it im so tired and there is so much to do and i cant do it and i hate it

[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

Tw bpd jealousy vent

Bpd jealousy needs to be talked about more. I have a pretty severe case of it. I get jealous any time my fp gets joy from anything especially anyone who isn’t me.

I know this is “toxic” but it really is something I’m trying to work on. I guess when they get joy from other things, it kinda makes me feel replaceable?

Like the joy I bring them can just be switched out with those other things. If I was out of their life it wouldn’t impact them and they would still be able to be happy.

But if they were out of my life I wouldn’t be able to feel any sort of joy. I feel like I’m always going to be jealous unless my fp hates everyone except me. Or talks to only me.

I really wouldn’t like this though. I want my fp to have a healthy social life. It’s just something I have to learn to deal with. At the same time my whole life revolves around my fp.

I don’t talk to anyone but them, and I really don’t like talking to anyone but them. I don’t think I’ll ever be satisfied until I know they love me the way I love them. I just wish I felt content. I hate being jealous so much.

I really am trying to work on it though. I’ve been working on it for a long time, I just don’t think it’s getting easier though :(

I really just want my fp to be happy

Does anyone have any tips to help jealousy pain?

[sappho-favourite-pupil]

Something nobody tells you about OCD is how angry it makes you some times. I experience these random moments of intense anger, that are completely unrelated to what's happening around me. It's just that i feel like if i can't control my own thoughts, i can't control anything at all in my life, and i'm powerless.

Anyone relates?

[bubblycherry07]

Tw vent post/ rant-ish

Bitch what the fuck do you mean I should kill myself? I already want to thanks for the reminder. Once I die I hope your girlfriend breaks up with you, you die, and then you'll burn in hell. You're already one of the reasons why I fucking hate school. Is it not enough that you fuck with my brain!? I fucking loved you at some point in my stupid ass life because you gave me attion (even though the attion was litterly bullying) and now you're telling me to cut myself and die !? You and your stupid ass little friends are already the reason I got an eating disorder. Can't you just leave me the fuck alone?

[everlastinghistory]

I’m honestly terrified that the life I want may genuinely be impossible.

Ever since I was a kid I’ve dreamed about living in a small town or on a farm, marrying the love of my life, being a housewife, having a chicken coup, raising kids who would genuinely have a happy childhood unlike what my parents did…

But it feels impossible, and maybe it is.

Small towns don’t really exist anymore and the few that do have major cities approaching them. Cities are getting built closer and closer to these small towns. They won’t last much longer. There’s places making laws that make it virtually impossible to have a homestead too. Nobody’s dating for love anymore. Nobody believes in marriage anymore. Nobody thinks being a housewife is an acceptable dream anymore. Nobody thinks having kids is a good idea anymore. It’s all impossible at this point.

I’m never really gonna find someone who wants all the same things I do and I hate that. I hate that this world is so messed up that you can’t even have a basic simple life. Maybe not having kids is for the best at the rate this world is going. If people really believe the direction we’re going in is good, do I even want to have kids who will be subjected to that?

I just want the life I was promised. The peace and happiness. But this world is literally designed to make it impossible and I am terrified it may never happen.

[zennotixs]

They hate me… I fucked up and I don’t even know what I did!! I hate everyone who gets to talk to her. Its not fair!! I should be the only person on her mind. What did I do? What did I do? What did I do?

[celestialudenburn7]

After receiving an...interesting(scary) ask in my alt account's inbox, just here to say that I absolutely despise straight men that sexualize lesbians.

[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

Tw bpd vent

I hate people who think they can fucking relate to borderlines. If you don’t have borderline you can’t relate can you get over it.

You’re not like me. You can’t relate to me. You can never experience what I have. You can never feel to the level I do.

Stop acting like you can just because you’ve struggled too. Get over yourself. I’m tired of acting like borderline isn’t a severe disorder.

If you have it you’re a severe case and you can only do things to help yourself be less severe. It’s not like other disorders that come in different levels of severity.

You just come rlly fucked up. I don’t care about how much you’ve been through.

I’ve met so many people who have been through similar life experiences as me, know I have borderline, and still shame me for reacting the way I do to things.

I don’t care how much you struggle, you’ll never be able to justify me. My reactions are big and unnecessary to you, they always will be.

Only borderlines can understand borderlines. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU’RE THE SAME AS ME, WE ARE AND WILL NEVER BE THE SAME