#ventblr

[jishoumushoku]

that moment when you’re empty and nothing matters anymore . you don’t even know who you are anymore but it’s okay it doesn’t matter , you just want to disappear .

[sunny1sdead]

I hate when people are better than me.

[actuallyverynormalbtw]

Seeing my vent blog turn into a recovery blog

[stargirlanthem]

[strawberryfairyflower]

I can’t even make my mom’s idea of me sound realistic

“You have changed unrecognizably and completely abandoned all your morals and are so different and I want my daughter back” (paraphrased bc that talk was actually really sad to me)

What she thinks I do: Drugs (because I drank a Monster ONCE), alcohol, sex (lots of all of that)

what I actually do: Sit in my room daydreaming about fairies and, when I’m not too exhausted to move, decorate my room cutesy and journal and play cute games and cut

[pixlefritter]

i just want my problems to be enough for someone to care about

[the-real-loser-otaku-girl]

I was born like this so its all i know. So why would i want to get better? What if i become boring! Im fine being "crazy" or a "landmine"

[ritualrabbits]

Paranoia

[iveeaten3humanorganz]

Whoa Crazy User boxes. But for mentally ill people (ME IM PEOPLE!)

[ayaisnotokay]

I have a lot of one sided friendships. I'm also the one starting conversations, suggesting plans, or just trying to share things. It rarely feels like it's returned.

I want to believe people care, but how can they? Surely you think about someone you care about? You should want to reach out with them and spend time together.

I'm tired of fighting for seconds of my friend's time when it feels like they wouldn't willingly take a minute of mine.

I guess I finally understand the 48 laws of power a little bit better. They say you should be distant and present your presence as a rarity.

if your time is a commodity you can't treat it like air. When something is so readily available, it's inevitably taken for granted. It seems that in being forever unavailable, your time is preciously coveted.

I suppose that's why people never come to me when they're free. Maybe I'm trying too hard. So they just figure, "she'll be there tomorrow," but tomorrow never seems to come.

[jishoumushoku]

when there’s so much going on in your life that you don’t even know how to vent about it anymore .

[sunny1sdead]

I don’t understand why I can’t talk to others like a normal person.

[actuallyverynormalbtw]

It is so fucking hard to be so isolated. It started because of the abuse and addiction. I’m out of that hell now. But it feels impossible to rebuild the sense of belonging I once had. I am not close with really anyone anymore. And I find it hard to truly want that closeness with anyone, because of the vulnerability that requires (and the potential each individual has to use that vulnerability against me).

[sillyxister]

☆ — Hello! I'm Lyra, but you may know me as sillyxister! I was originally never going to make a public platform for my followers to communicate with me on properly, but I decided to finally give it a chance. If anything goes wrong though, expect me to vanish for my own safety.

♡ — Anyway, for those that don't know who I am, I'm sillyxister, but please call me Lyra. We're a DID system, so refer to us collectively, please call us SPS and use they/them. However, for me, Lyra, just use she/neos. I am the primary fronter and the host of the system, so I do most of the profile decorating and everything for our system.

♢ — We're profic and darkship! We're more well-known on AO3 because of our writings in the Dead Dove community. We decided to make this account to just finally let our followers communicate with us properly! We're also yumeship and plan to use this to make stimboards! We just want to have fun here and see some gimmick accounts with prompts and much more for proshipping and yumeshipping!

♧ — We have NSFW themes, which will be tagged under "NOT SAFE". So please make sure to tag that out if you wish to not see that and follow us. We hope to make some friends and have fun here! We don't have DNI, we just simply block someone if we don't want them to interact with us. We interact with several tumblrs, but the ones tagged are the ones we mainly interact with! Hope to make some new friends!

♤ — We stay out of any discourse relating to syscourse and more, so please don't involve us in that. We don't care if people interact with us though that are in those discourses, we just don't want to be involved. We only mainly involve ourselves in shipcourse, but it's just likely a few reposts besides us just the general darkship content. This is meant to be a positive place for everyone, so please don't cause any extreme discourse here! This even includes antis and neutrals that are nice, just don't be mean.

[healingcoldog333]

Keep it together

How far will I bend till I break?

[strawberryfairyflower]

I am unfortunately insane and everyone probably secretly thinks I’m annoying and WON’T TELL ME BC EVERYONE COMMUNICATES SHITTILY