#ventblr

[jishoumushoku]

that moment when you’re empty and nothing matters anymore . you don’t even know who you are anymore but it’s okay it doesn’t matter , you just want to disappear .

[sunny1sdead]

I hate when people are better than me.

[kazu-sagi]

try not to think that everything is a sign that they're upset at you challenge (impossible)

[neuroticboyfriend]

Alternatives to Self Harm

Please use discretion and don't do something that will trigger you further, including triggering trauma or sensory issues!

Aggressive activities (Adrenaline-focused): Do not use sharp objects if you can't trust yourself around them in that moment.

Tear apart paper or napkins

Cut up boxes, plastic, or paper

Stab boxes or foam

Angrily scribble

Throw rocks at the ground

Scream into a pillow, or punch it

Passive activities (Adrenaline-focused):

Watch something scary (scary game, thriller movie)

Watch someone get angry (Youtube react videos, gamer rage)

Watch an action movie

Watch a fails video compilation

Sensory grounding

Hold an ice cube or splash cold water on your face - take a cold shower if you're really feeling it

Smell a strong scent, even an unpleasant one

Have a nice warm or cool drink

Any kind of strong pressure that won't injure you (weighted blanket, cuddle with your dog)

Listen to music or white noise

Use a heating pad or take a warm shower/bath

Creative outlets: (if you need the similarity, use red ink)

Draw on yourself or body paint

Do SFX makeup

Finger paint

Journal about your feelings honestly, even if they're negative

Make a moodboard

That's all my ideas for now, so if anyone has any more, feel free to add on.

[stargirlanthem]

[ayaisnotokay]

I have a lot of one sided friendships. I'm also the one starting conversations, suggesting plans, or just trying to share things. It rarely feels like it's returned.

I want to believe people care, but how can they? Surely you think about someone you care about? You should want to reach out with them and spend time together.

I'm tired of fighting for seconds of my friend's time when it feels like they wouldn't willingly take a minute of mine.

I guess I finally understand the 48 laws of power a little bit better. They say you should be distant and present your presence as a rarity.

if your time is a commodity you can't treat it like air. When something is so readily available, it's inevitably taken for granted. It seems that in being forever unavailable, your time is preciously coveted.

I suppose that's why people never come to me when they're free. Maybe I'm trying too hard. So they just figure, "she'll be there tomorrow," but tomorrow never seems to come.

[pixlefritter]

i just want my problems to be enough for someone to care about

[jishoumushoku]

when there’s so much going on in your life that you don’t even know how to vent about it anymore .

[francisabernathyforever]

the pain of loving to learn but hating to study

[sunny1sdead]

I don’t understand why I can’t talk to others like a normal person.

[iveeaten3humanorganz]

I need more mentally ill friends who aren’t “I want to get worse” or “I want to get better” like where are my homies who are on their 5th round of depression or trauma and have just gone “fuck it. Idc anymore I’m just gonna exist with it” yk? Like where are my existers?

[unfamiliar-ghostly-girl]

the most confusing part of having mental health problems long term is that The Not Good becomes your default and normal so that when you finally do get help you can't even pinpoint what The Bad is. it's just all you know.

[actuallyverynormalbtw]

that dissociative glitch when your brain mashes Your Conciousness with Another Alter's Behavior.

feeling like the most specific frankenblur in the world

[klusiawikusialol]

czasem sie zastanawiam czy gdybym z dnia na dzien znikla to czy osoby ktore sa dla mnie bliskie i ktore kocham beda za mna tesknic czy beda plakac czy po prostu nie przejma sie "strata mnie" i beda zyc jakby sie nigdy nic nie stalo

[ilovamp]

sempre me pego pensando em como eu seria se não tivesse tido acesso a internet desde os oito anos.

de todos os conteúdos que eu consumi, acredito que o twitter e o tumblr tenham sido os mais prejudiciais. faz pouco tempo que eu percebi que não era nem um pouco normal ter 12/13 anos e ter uma conta onde eu detalhava o que eu sentia vivendo com um transtorno que eu sequer sabia rotular na época e que foi desenvolvido por estar nessa mesma rede social onde eu desabafava.

acho meio bizarro pensar que todos os meus gostos foram moldados através do que eu tive acesso nessas plataformas porque foi de um jeito muito precoce e eu nunca consegui me desvincular de nenhum desses interesses.

[pixlefritter]

ah, ok.