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he replaced me like I knew he would. and he does not even care

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i just want my problems to be enough for someone to care about

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i feel like i talk too much, i vent too much, i hate myself. maybe i am slipping into depression like my therapist said.

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People really think I'm joking when I say my emotions get so intense that I believe the only way out is to kill myself.

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EXTREMELY torn between "pay attention to me pay attention to me pay attention to me" and "do not perceive me EVER"

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concept: your fp loves you, you know this, this feeling sticks, they care for you and you will always know that

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concept: you can feel happy for your fp when they have fun without you, you know they still love you and enjoy your presence, this feeling stays constant

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concept: your fp says they love you, you believe it, there’s no more doubt, everything is clear

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concept: you and your fp live together, you’re free from all trouble, distance, money, family, all of that has faded away, there is only you and your favorite person, you are happy, everything is calm, there is no splitting

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what even matters anymore

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they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

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ah, ok.

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kinda wanna leave. kinda wanna ghost everyone. kinda wanna rot under a blanket. kinda wanna feel loved. kinda wanna feel wanted. kinda wanna

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having a fp who is closer to someone else with bpd and who also has him as a fp sucks.

i was replaced.

i feel like he hates me now .

he does.

he likes hee so much more tgan me and it hurts so bad

i need to forget about him but It just hurts so bad I am so nauseous

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i wish i was over it. i wish i didnt sit around waiting for them to come back every day like an abandoned dog waiting at the front door for their owner to arrive while slowly starving to death

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Why can't I be someone worth loving?