#please send meanspo

[lay-me-in-the-marsh]

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[wh0rr4gutz]

Someone send me meanspo. I'm 5'3 and 119kg. I want to be shamed so bad that I cry. I want to feel pathetic and worthless and like I need to starve to be loved. So my dms are open and so are my asks.

[cal-by-cal]

Tryna lock in after the holidays is some how harder than staying locked in pre Christmas… please send meanspo i need it🙏

[sadstrever]

ok i’m sorry i contemplated not posting this because it’s almost meanspo so just don’t read it if ur triggered. it’s also just bad advice, don’t starve yourself and don’t be an (vodka) alcoholic.please recover love you i guess

first off i wanna preface this by saying FUCK YOUUUUU. if ur a little fat baby piggy no friends bitch i don’t want ur advice or opinions on my alcohol consumption while i fast😭😋!!! i’ve lost like 40lbs since i’ve started being an alcoholic and it’s had absolutely no impact on my weight, cuz just to irritate for the 100th time on this account: I NEVER EAT HOE! anwyays sorry maybe i’m just too drunk but that really pissed me the fuck off. like GOD OKAY RUIN THAT FOR ME TOO. like ok i never get any calories in except for alc but sure fuck it yk, because YOU said that alc has calories(you don’t think i know that bro?) i’m just gonna suddenly stop being an alcoholic. and now i just feel like shit because i consume calories from alc and someone thinks thats a “judgey” thing to say to me. now i feel fat so thank you. like if i could stop drinking that easily i WOULD and if i could start eating without gaining weight every time i do I WOULD. ur so dumb. ugh. i hate myself i’m sorry i’m so mean i love you people and i hope ur healthy and happy. i just need to put my anger out on someone lol. BUT also genuinely liek you guys do piss me off tho cuz you think it’s some crazy impressive thing to not eat for a week or eat like a grape a day…like guys… it gets worse and you will see and you’re gonna hate ur life. if ur ed is at that point PLEASE RECOVER AND RECONSIDER IT GWTS SO MUCH WORSE UGH. AND NO ONES GONNA LISTEN BECAUSE I DIDNT EITHER. i want to save you guys so bad. like i hate that people still get to romanticize it without all the pain and suffering every single waking moment of the day. also i’m officially underweight so someone send me a 0 calorie cake in the mail😝🙏

anyways this is somehow too related and will sound so fake but i swear on my whole life and my mamas and my brothers and my papas this is a TRUE STORY!!! i saw an old friend today and the first thing they said was “oh my god you lost so much weight” “like ur arms, face, whole body damn” BASICALLY LIKE THAT OBVIOUSLY I DONT REMEMBER WORD FOR WORD. but bro i have never felt so fucking seen in my life. like finally someone besides my family or best friend noticed my weight loss damn. AND SHE ASKED IF SHE SHOULD BE WORRIED FUCKKKKK. like no you shouldn’t cuz i’m never gonna get better but like fuck thank you bro. no one comments on people’s weight anymore and it pisses me offfff like i know it’s rude but i needed that comment to make me wanna keep starving!

am i a piece of shit? like genuinely did the eating disorder make me a horrible evil miserable person? i have this thought that even if somehow i recover physically(i pray to god i never get fat[by my standards] again ) that i’ll never recover mentally. i’ll always have this fucked up judgement of right and wrong that revolves around the stupid idea of being thinner. does it even matter? no. no it doesn’t. but it’s my whole world. my whole world is how skinny i am and it’s so tiring. the highlight of my day was being called worryingly skinny by an old friend who doesn’t care if i live or die. the second highlight of my day was the fact that i got 28k steps and burning 800 calories at the gym and bought another bottle. i’m tired of being a bad person. im tired of being annoying and stupid and dumb. such a fuckup. i’m sorry if i’m a bad person and you had to read this and feel like shit because you had to sit through reading my awful terrible judgment and thoughts.

LAST POINT:

tomorrow i have to eat my first meal in months(for real this time) and i am so scared and upset. it’s like a piece of myself dies everytime i eat. without starvation i am nothing. i am a shell of a person and when i eat i just become a shell that feels fat. i’m gonna take laxatives obviously and do some workouts but it’s never enough. i’m gonna make sure the meal that i’m forced to eat is as low calorie as possible because i’ll be drinking alcohol too and APPARENTLY i should just kill myself because it’s a crime to still be an alcoholic when you’re starving yourself.

also alcohol most likely won’t make you gain weight unless it’s beer or seltzers and it especially won’t if ur always drinking on an empty stomach. vodka on an empty(for months) stomach plus working out excessively won’t make yoh gain weight. shut up shut up shut up shut THE FUCK up you bitches piss me off.

FUCK YOU.

[nathanluvsblood]

pllllleeeease send meanspo in my asks!!!! i need motivation to starve

please. i'm desperate . it's not bad if i'm asking for it

[ananomsblog]

I am less then 30 hours away from completing my 5 day fast and today I want to eat because my stomach is upset and I have almost passed out at work. But I’m so close and stepping on the scale when I finish will be sooo satisfying! Please send me some motivation or meanspo to get me through this last day! 🙏❤️

[mysleeangel]

(Cw ED)

Please send me anon meanspo, I keep binge eating and I can’t fucking stop!!! I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!

[anachicxoxo]

If anyone has meanspo that they wanna send my way dm me pls! Please refrain from commenting bc it can be triggering for people who dont want to hear it but my dms are open :)

some th!nspo for y’all:

[highinhighskool]

Ello people that see this somehow.

I’ve realized that I’ve been gaining weight like crazy the last 2years because I can’t stop bingeing with my fattass self.

I’ve been feeling like shit, I’ve let myself down too much, I need to starve myself like how I did b4. I’m not good enough to keep wasting all this food on my big back body.

I need to get back into my restrictions, I failed once I went back to eating meat because of my partner. I’ve hated how I felt and looked since then. Growing every single fucking day, I’m gross.

I don’t know how my partner is still with me n even worse, touches me. They’ve told me we’ll hit the gym but we never do. I can feel they’re getting sick of how fat I am, and they’re not the only one.

So here I am trying to be active on here again. I miss being 220 and still working to lose weight. Now I’m in the 200’s and it’s making me sick I was so close to my ugw now I have to start all over again. I’m a loser for letting this happen, I got too comfortable. I need to be thin, thin is the goal.

Please if you have went through all this leave a meanspo or even better msg me abt your ed journey. I used to be in a group for fasting but lost it all when my phone broke n would love to have that type of community again, if you’re down to fast together send me a msg!

(I’ll be editing my acc and stats throughout the week)

[pretty-girlslim]

!!!LOOKING FOR SFW COACH!!!

-sending bodychecks

- steps

- what i ate

-meanspo allowed

- keep me in check

!PLEASE MESSAGE ME!

[miss-ery-3]

✨hello there✨

i am so bad at keeping myself accountable, and i thought pinning my stats might actually keep me motivated. please do not send any meanspo my way, as that does not motivate me at all.<3

name: amy age: 24 height: 164 cm

sw: 59,9 kg (dec. 4th 2024) cw: 58,1 kg😔 (dec. 9th 2024) ugw: 50 kg

let's do this😎

[multi-dudes]

Please do not interact/follow if you post pro-ed content (like thinspo or meanspo) as that is triggering to see repetitively, as well as physical self harm. It's okay if you post about it occasionally and/or with tags (we're only publicly saying this because we can handle talking about it) but if it is like 99% of your blog I just can't do it. I wish you the best though!

if we need to tag something for you or unfollow please let me know (or u can soft/hard block)!

Feel free to message and send asks and all interactions.

All pronouns in bio are acceptable collectively. You can say whatever comes more naturally to you.

Hi! This is a work in progress pinned post, but essentially, this is blog is my journey with plurality. I just found my first alter after doing several sessions of emdr therapy and I am showing some possible symptoms of DID otherwise. I am open to the idea it might be not that at all, but I genuinely do feel like separate parts are being unearthed from my head and resonate with system terms so far. I'm currently working with a therapist on this (although I've been too scared to talk about this yet and generally overwhelmed), but I also want to talk about my thoughts and experiences, but I don't think I can be open about this to anyone in my life yet. This is just to document what comes out of all of this and maybe talk others going through a similar circumstance.

Sorry this is so long, I'll trim it down in the future.

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I'm new here and to plurality in general, so if I mess something up, please let me know. Some of our alters use pseudonyms. Most of us use he/him but e/em and they/them pronouns are also enjoyed collectively. Body is in our 20s, all alters seem to be above that or identify with it well enough.

We are audhd and have BPD. Our BPD is pretty well managed in therapy right now but some of us seem to hold more symptoms than others. Same with chronic pain.

We try to tag for triggers, but this blog will have thoughts about emdr, micro trauma, and possibly my more extreme trauma (pretty unlikely but possible).

TAG KEY (mostly for our reference:

post type:

🗒️ : journal

known consistent system members as of now (not all of them have posted and not every alter I suspect existing nessecarily):

🥣 : (unsure/more than one for sure)

🌿 : (butch (the host) or unrealized fragment that identifies the same)

🌼 : (della)

🍊 : (timaeus / @plugin-fadeout )

💋 : (steph / @catskulldiary )

🥾 : (joey)

🦭 : (kami / @kabiiz )

🍠 : (ian)

💌 : ( @flutterbutts )

[4nx10us-4n0r3xic-3]

Somebody, anybody send me meanspo please.

[an4sb0n3s]

please please PLEASEEE send or comment meanspo, I'm losing motivation and I need to lose this before Thanksgiving 🙏🏻🙁

[needtoeatless]

can somebody help me with some motivation? meanspo, sweetspo, if anyone has any th!nsp0 pics please send them. my cw is 145 and a few months ago i was 130 lbs. i need to be 100. i need motivation!!

also, if there are any pr04n4 groups that any of you are in i’d love to join.

[shadowymetalhead]

Guys sort of my first body check

My stomach looks bigger than normal, because I didn't take this photo in the morning, instead somewhere after mid day.

It's not an excuse I know. Please roost me, I need it,or send meanspo I could use it.