#amy’s ⭐️ving adventure

[miss-ery-3]

i just spend 40 minutes eating a half filled bowl of food. don’t underestimate the power of eating w a teaspoon😗✌️

[moonlightmaria]

I wanna get thin so I can be delicate and cute for him.

I can't literally imagine how embarrassing would it be to sim him struggling to pick me up. Horrible.

Be skinny for your love life <3

[miss-ery-3]

i fucking did it!!! my longest fast EVER at 35 hours!!!! i am so proud of myself🥹🥹🥹🥹

[miss-ery-3]

i literally can’t wait until the day i’m comfortable in my own body

this flesh prison is hell

[miss-ery-3]

all these fucking thoughts in my head are making me loose my appetite (as well as making my stomach, my head and my heart hurt, but that's not really as cool)

[miss-ery-3]

religiously looking at thinsp0 to reach the end of my fast🫡🫡🫡🫡

[miss-ery-3]

i’ve begun triggering myself by listening to the music i listened to when i was at my lowest a couple of years ago

it’s super weird. but it works???

whenever i listen to my old playlists im like “damn, i was so skinny back then. i’m not hungry anymore”

just a lil tip from me to u

[miss-ery-3]

i literally want to throw up

my boyfriend is very supportive of me running, counting calories, skipping meals and shit - which is fine

but he is also never impressed with my progress, when i drop weight he's usually like "ok. I actually think that I also lost some weight. look how big my pants have become." and it kinda sucks that he never takes the time to recognize my achievements, but only talks about his own

but now he's gone and done it

when i set a new 5K PB this thursday, he was (to say the least) unimpressed. when i proudly told him, he looked at me silently for about a minute and then said "and you're happy with that time? or?? did you think that was a good time?" and when i said yes, he was like "ok. well, good for you then, i guess"

when i ran my first 10K yesterday, he was like "wow, cool. I think I wanna go for a run tomorrow too." and he just now called me to tell me that he ran 11K and that he "ran the last km just to piss me off" and that he has not been training like me and tha the is in very bad shape. but that it was "so easy to do"

it made my fucking blood boil

i still said that he'd done a good job and that he should be proud of himself, but then i hung up and just started crying

now i feel like my achievements aren't big or good or really... achievements at all

and the fact that he did it just to show off and make me feel bad

it pisses me off but it also makes me so sad and fuels my self hatred so much

now i'm just gonna curl up and cry in bed

[miss-ery-3]

turned down any and every snack my parents threw my way tonight. haven't had much else but salads all day

i feel great (only physically ofc)

[miss-ery-3]

anything < scrolling tumblr to get through the fast

[miss-ery-3]

hii guys⭐️ just out of curiosity: how many kgs do you have left until your ugw?

[miss-ery-3]

i just looked at my bodych3x from just 2-3 months ago and jesus christ i’ve gained so much fucking weight

i seriously can’t stand myself right now. i want to crawl up in a ball and cry

all that hard fucking work i did and it was all for nothing, because i’ve wasted it all away in just a few months

at least i know that i can drop about 5 kgs in 2 months, so that will be what i’m gonna do

tomorrow i’ll try to fast until i have to go to a birthday in the afternoon. wish me luck

[miss-ery-3]

a few days ago i saw one of my friends who also suffer from an ed, and she is...... so f*cking skinny now. the moment i saw her, i felt horribly about myself and didn't eat anything except a small salad for dinner. i know she is in a very bad mental place rn, but i just want to look excatly like her omgggg

she is about my height, but i think she weighs maybe like... 45 kg... my actual dream...

i heard from some other friends, that she doesnt eat at all, or b/ps like crazy

my roommate is seldomly home, which means i might actually be able to p*rge someday, if i do b*nge........ i just have to teach my gag reflex to be more sensitive hahaha

[miss-ery-3]

i've begun to kinda see my ribs at the top of my chest🥹

and my collarbones are now very visible at all times😎

[miss-ery-3]

i just realized that i’ve dropped 1,2 kg in less than a week….

i’m only 0,3 kg away from my 1 gw!

🥹🥹

[miss-ery-3]

i keep thinking about food... but i'm literally not hungry... the thought of eating makes me nauseous rn... why the hell do i keep thinking about it tho