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sp00kysk3lly · 9 months ago

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Not one person fought for me in my life.

Not my teachers (primary and secondary), not my doctors (former and current), therapists.

Neither of them have fought for me to receive the best care, treatment, help that I SEVERELY needed.

There was one therapist, one person, who contacted my doctor, and said “I think this child has autism and an assessment should be made.” What my doctor did? Ignored it. Didn’t even respond. So one person KNEW I had autism and wanted me to have a referral, but GAVE UP trying once my doctor ignored her!!!

I always find myself, fighting for people in my life. Especially my friends. But they never do the same for me. If I messaged them and told them I was done and that I’m going to end it. They wouldn’t even respond. They wouldn’t say “no! Don’t do that, don’t even dare do that. I’m here. If you need to call me, or video call me, then please do it but don’t do anything so severe.” They’d just ignore it or read it and never respond.

They wouldn’t tell me they miss me. They wouldn’t tell me that they love me and that they will fight for me to stay on this planet. But no. I get nothing like that. Not a single thing.

I’ve seen it when I post things on instagram, (they’re not attention seeking. But I guess they sort of are because I just want my friends to reach out to me and ask me what is wrong). But when I post them no one is in a hurry to message me. No one is commenting telling me to message them.

Like recently I gave my so-called “best friend” a piece of his own medicine and read his message and never responded for a week. He then messaged me Sunday night and just spoke about when he could come here and see me.

No “how are you”?” No “are you ok?” No “I saw you read my message and didn’t respond, is everything ok?” Nothing. Just dates to when he could come here.

I don’t even want him here. But I have no choice. I can’t confront people. I can’t do that. It’s not in my personality to do that. I wish I could though. I wish I could tell him and everyone else in my life who pretends to care.

I wish I could tell them that you’re a shitty friend. I don’t want you round my house because all you want to do is play on my new PlayStation to see if it’s worth it. And when you do get a PlayStation, you will ONCE AGAIN not want to play a game with me.

This friend use to play GTA 4 and GTA 5 with me. Then he just stopped for no reason. I asked him to play and he just was like “I can’t be bothered tonight.” And this friend use to sleep round my house every time he stayed here, now he doesn’t? But he can go around his other friends and sleep there. Why not my house? Why don’t you want to anymore? It makes NO SENSE!

But yeah, no one has fought for me. The signs/traits of autism were right there! Right in front of their fucking faces! And now, 21 YEARS LATER I have to watch my own nephew get the help and fucking support that I should have got. And it makes me angry. It makes me want to murder those people who failed me and set me up to fail and never fought for me.

I was called fucking ODD by my DOCTOR! My own fucking GP called me ODD from when I was a toddler to when she retired in 2016! What fucking doctor does that? I am AUTISTIC! Not odd or weird or a freak.

And I’ve looked up the definition and the synonyms of ODD, there’s nothing good. There’s not one fucking word that is associated and used as a replacement word that is positive or good!

I think I might end it. I really do. I don’t want to be here anymore. Everyone and everything is getting worse. Worse and worse. It’s never going to get better for me. So why am I waiting around for that “better time”? It’s not worth it. It won’t get better. It will only get worse.

I’m done….

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cait-sith · 27 days ago

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Day 15: Spark

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #jorm scribs #inktober #october24 #fullmetal alchemist #fma #fma: brotherhood #fma brotherhood #fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood #roy mustang #fmab #fma fanart #fma art #I missed october 3rd so I wanted to make up for it a bit #It's one of my top 5 anime/manga ever so it's about time i did some proper fanart #the fire fought me a bit but I'm very happy with the rest of this #flame alchemist

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pissfartboy · 3 months ago

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Amazingphil Video colon-three

#this ones for you...12 year old me #i don't wanna hear it you guys #time is a circle or whatev the first piece of fanart i ever drew was of this guy im being so serious #dan and phil. you don't even know how i fought for you. you don't even know how i defended you against the gay allegations.#i was wrong of course but its the thought that counts #i just believed no one would ever LIE to me on the INTERNET #amazingphil #amazingphil fanart #dnp #dnp fanart #dan and phil #dnp art #dan and phil fanart #phanart #my art #phil lester #phil lester fanart

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httpiastri · 3 months ago

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i'm actually so pissed that i don't even know where to start..... i've been trying to ignore this for hours but i just can't ☹️

dear everyone on f1blr, i kindly ask you to take franco's name out of your mouth if you don't know him. do not talk about his story if you don't know it. do not call him a pay driver, do not compare him to drivers whose dads are the owners of an f1 team. do not talk shit about him if it's all going to be made-up rumors.

you may hate james vowles as much as you wish to, i don't give a fuck. williams are doing some real random and stupid shit. but is any of this franco's fault? no!! if you'd actually seen him and taken more than 5 minutes trying to learn about him, you'd see how sweet of a person he is and how much he deserves this opportunity, so don't go around spreading lies about it.

#this is not me saying that i think its a good choice (for logan or franco)#this is not me supporting the decision #this is just me saying dont hate on the poor boy!! hes done nothing wrong!!!!!#im so mad at everyone on here whos said something bad about franco #im actually really disappointed #do we not know better than this? it's never the driver's fault #s i g h #like. this is just a poor little kid who's just gotten his biggest dream fulfilled #and yall are shitting on him??? he's been working towards this goal forever and ever and fought through so many hardships #only for you to call him a pay driver??? shut the frick up #logan sargeant #franco colapinto #williams racing #f1 #formula one #formula 1

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swampybogg · 1 month ago

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#vampire hunter d #vhd #art #sketch #also I’d like to thank the person who commented on my Gold D WIP #it’s what led me to this direction 🥹💖#but uh yeah #Byzantine mosaic of the past #Baby Byzantine mosaic D just dropped 🗣️ Fought for my life trying to make it not look middle aged 😭🥹#There’s the intention that the one behind D and hidden is Sacred Ancestor #also sorry that I make the least consistent D ever #I just change his appearance to fit the mood of the piece really 😭🌚💖#procrastinating my homework 24/7 </3 #And tired #🥲

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moodyvoid · 3 months ago

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If you sincerely think Shigaraki would be an abusive partner, I’m going to assume you read the manga with your eyes closed.

#he helped Mr Compress get back at Overhaul #and avenged Magne #he promised to protect their ideals #he fought an entire army because they kidnapped Giran and were playing with Twice’s emotions #he used the newly found money to buy compress sushi after Mr compress made one single comment about it #he made sure the PLF members knew that the League members were just as important and are to be treated as such #one of his last moments was him declaring how he cares for the league and how he wanted to make the world better for them- to be their hero #he wanted Deku to comfort spinner- his best friend- bc he new he’d need it #do you honestly think…. he would ever mistreat… someone he is IN LOVE with???????#sorry I needed to rant lol #he would be so pathetically in love are you kidding me #bnha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha #league of villains #shigaraki #tomura shigaraki #tomura #shigaraki tomura

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lazylittledragon · 8 months ago

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question for ghost fans who were there for the transition from terzo - copia (or before), how did you. deal with that. because i've only been a fan while popia has been around and i think when he dies/moves on i'm going to be genuinely emotionally devastated

#ramble #ghost #ghost bc #since he announced that it was actually his last show i've been like. preparing myself #which sounds stupid but ghost is so special to me #like the butterfly effect that happened bc i started listening to ghost is crazy #listen to ghost -> buy festival tickets Just to see ghost -> start listening to other bands on the setlist -> find my favourite bands ever #-> make new friends and go to a LOT of gigs -> go a little batshit and start dressing exactly how i want to -> become happier with myself??#wack #idk ghost is one of those bands who makes me understand why girls in the 80s threw their bras at the stage and fought eachother for tickets

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coldshrugs · 5 months ago

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countdown to dawntrail - stormblood

hear me, hero. endure. survive. live. for the rush of blood, for the time between the seconds─live.

[alternate shot below the cut. i liked both]

#ffxiv #azia gposes #io laithe #(count)down to dawntrail #it's after midnight here so i think this is allowed #this is one of my fave things i've made i think!!#hi :) she's just fought and kissed zenos and is questioning every decision she's ever made #SB is a bad headspace for io but SUCH a fun time for me #her deranged arc. it's fine.#sabrina carpenter's please please please plays in the background #oh my god i'm just seeing i forgot to turn her wrist............... sloppy T^T

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softavasilva · 2 years ago

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now how do i normally go about my day after having read this

#warrior nun #avatrice #warrior nun cast #wn txt #'breath her in' they said and alba understood it to be 'look at her with the most yearning of eyes with a treat of an almost kiss'#alba is fucking insane she almost let her intrusive thoughts win #i owe her my life actually #every acting decision she has made for ava is so crucial and profound to her characterization #im so fucking thankful simon fought for alba as ava #no one can portray her like she does and no one can ever fill she shoes #now back to this unhinged information???? wtf jcndjndjd theyre chemistry is so intense they have to be like 'ok wait chill not yet'#also thinking about that time kty said there was supossed to be another kiss in the last ep #so ur telling me we could have gotten a total of 3 kisses?#im gonna fucking throw up #i love this cast this crew this director this whole team so much #no one can do a show better than them

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strawglicks · 8 months ago

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the toons' reactions to both misty and chips fights are soso important to me. they don't dance at the end of misty's and they are visibly sad when they leave chip's office, and even try to stay with him until he kicks them out.

despite being in a war against these cogs and seeing them as pure evil, they get a glimpse into some of these individuals and the suffering they endure due to the company. enough of a glimpse to feel sympathy for their biggest enemy

#toontown #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #misty monsoon #rainmaker #chip revvington #chainsaw consultant #hi guys i finally fought chip for the first time today. i did not care abt him until now #the toons reactions at the end is one of the most important aspects to me...#i wonder if the war will ever come to an end . if toons and cogs can ever be friends #its easy to forget during these silly shenanigans in this goofy toony town that this situation is tragic for everyone #toons and cogs alike #and they both suffer

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patolemus · 3 months ago

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wrote 1.3k words today. i'm incredibly proud of myself. i'm also so fucking behind on my assignments

#somebody sedate me #who ever decided college was a good idea anyway??#i wanna read and write about my silly little gay men doing silly little things #like battling monsters and kissing #is that too much to ask?#*she says even though it's been 60k+ words and the characters haven't even held hands yet*#at least they've fought some monsters #anyways i finally got a move on my plot so that's great #we're one panic attack closer to finish this fic #to clarify it's not my panic attack. i just use stiles' panic attacks and mental breakdowns as landmarks for my fic #sterek #stiles stilinski #derek hale #my fic #writing #my writing #rewrite the lines au #teen wolf #wip

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hauntingblue · 24 days ago

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CAUSE THIS IS THRILLER (bark), THRILLER (bark) NIGHT

Usopp's outfit is so funny for reals

He got the whole squad laughing

Luffy enablers at it again.... (Robin.... I know.....)

The humor panels so far have been so good!!! God this arc is so funny

HE SAID IT‼️‼️

They look like birds 😭😭

It's just too good... luffy taking cerberus and zombies what can't he do

It's just banger after banger what can I say

Franky feeling for other people because of his guilt complex and sanji lying through his teeth and pulling out the women excuse to seem unaffected... yeah

Look at them.... look how they ate

Omg joyboy reference?? (No)

Sanji is rubbing off on usopp.... also chopper noticing that is sogeking's weapon akdhaksjak

ANOTHER SLAY!!!!!

Their priorities: I'm not strong enough, there isn't enough food, and nami isn't here

Franky going from wanting to kill brook for his jokes to making a joke like his after he hears his backstory... exactly (Robin was already enabling him before the backstory even fdagjsfha)

Sanji is altering his body and actually being on fire to communicate to us how fucking mad he is..... I need more of him going insane I do I do

My god what is he doing ALDJALAJALA

AHSAHAHQHAH THEY ARE THE SAME!!! naaah sanji wouldn't force a woman to be his wife

You cant see me but I am nodding my head in agreement over and over

You don't understand he altered his body to communicate to us how mad he is. He inploded himself and then reconstituted again. Those germa 66 genes are insane

You tell em usopp!!!! The first of many girls you've scared into defeat!!! Akdjqknql

Zoro zombie regressed to not trusting robin akdjaks he's still in there

ROBI-CHO SUPLEX??? HELL YEAAAAAH

There is zosa- [GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT]

Super frapper gong.... he is doing combo shots with frobin... omg.... parents....

Everything is so fun I'm having such a good time reading.... and then zosan angst like damn I am being fed well here

#in the anime the guys didn't say they wanted to die aldjlajala for the kids luffy just wants to turn into a clam #thriller bark is so funny.... 'worst arc' my ass.... it's funny as hell and then we get zosan angst. best thing ever #same with skypiea but there we got really nice relationships betwen characters and nolan x calgara homoeroticism for the ages #and LORE for the ages. not like the kuma incident won't be talked about in the history books but yeah #everyone calling absalom perv salom... yeah #sanji in that fucking penguin never gets old.... also HELLO LOLA #moira fought against kaido and lost akdjsksnks is that why he became a warlord? just like whitebeard defeated crocodile?? out of spite??#also what is the land of ice where moira got oars? he also mentioned it before too... i thot he was referring to ryuma so it was wano but n #the legend of the continent puller who built a nation of villains.... okay okay oars....#oars was killed 500 years ago.... ✍️✍️ this somehow feels important bc of its closeness to the void century etc #zombie luffy oars wanting sanjis food.... 🚬🚬🚬 of course.....#oars luffy maintaining his dream... yeah yeah. also namis outfits for this arc are so sickening.... i miss them already #the zombie generals being at absalom's wedding... thats so funny..#luffy oars is so funny aldjslsn just making himself a hat and steering his giant ship... of course #you guys think they are going to make sanji mad about the clear clear fruit in the opla or completely ignore it bc his reasoning is bad #like it makes sense with the wci backstory it does but that would be spoilers lmao. so its either he wants to peep on women or nothing #i love the greek chorus of the two zombies telling the audience how they are both as bad in that regard. amazing #did ryuma use french for his attack.... there is zosan everywhere for tho-[GUNSHOTS]#zombie ryuma's design is also cool as hell.... his blood is literally fire.... come on now....#also zoro says he wants to act like this fight didnt happen... is that why he says fuck all in wano to hiyori? damn. he said i put shame #in you and your country but i will keep it quiet bc you gave me a cool sword and fight and i am actually so honorable. thats him yeah...#zombie zoro and sanji remaining tfait being that they hate (love fighting) each other... there is zosa-[GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT]#i forgot how much oars destroyed them... after enies lobby they seem untouchable but without their captain there... the gears are turning..#also btw i cannot believe im gonna get an answer about why the skypieans and the shandians have wings. thats insane #i am enjoying luffy oars so much it is so fun. trying to enjoy it bc i know i won't be laughing anymore once sabaody kicks in.... fuck me..#usopp and franky wanting to wait for luffy to beat oars down but zoro and sanji know... and they will KNOW soon enough....#i forgor kuma asked about ace to nami... what is going on. kuma coming from the warlord meeting too.... did he want to warn him??#he wanted to inform moria about balckbeard becoming a warlord omg here we go.... also moria being racist towards kuma hello???#and he strictly follows the government.... until here bc he lets luffy go.... christ.... he asks about ace bc he knew what blackbeard did..#reading one piece

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alexjcrowley · 5 months ago

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I am all against the "social" social media (that's why I almost esclusively used tumblr) but I think TikTok should have existed in 2009 to make very shirt aesthetic edit of Jenson Button at Brawn being sad during the entire second half of the season + montage of various people Luca di Montezemolo saying he's not world champion material/he doesn't have that one extra bit with the audio "There's really no way of winning/ If in their eyes you'll always be a dumb blonde"

#jenson button #brawn gp #f1 #formula 1 #'he's not Schumacher or Senna or Prost' WELL I KNOW THAT LUCA DI MONTEZEMOLO #I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU THAT #BUT CAN YOU STOP BEING BITCHES FOR FIVE SECONDS #I am not dumb I know. I know just because you win a championship doesn't mean you're at the same level #of everyone who has ever won a championship #I'll be the first to say that even though Jenson has a wdc I think he's a worse driver than Kimi Räikkönen who also #only has one wdc #but it breaks my heart to realise there are - in every area of life not just motorsports- first degrees champions and second degrees ones #I know it's normal #I know this is really said to highlight the extraordinary talent of some rather than to punish a vast majority #but imagine. You win. You win the wdc or whatever prestigious title you're chasing in life.#many have tried and failed. You made it. Without a doubt.#And that's still not enough. Yeah here you go your title and your prize. Wow you fought reeeally hatd to get them.#maybe a little too hard. If you had to put that much effort into it maybe you weren't made for it.#Your victory is unremarkable. Nobody cares. You may have your shiny trophy but you'll never be one of the greats.#Somebody sedate me #this is why nico rosberg will always have my deepest respect #'it was a lucky championship' I am in your wall and I will bite your head off your neck. Cunt.

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cecilsrandomeverything · 11 days ago

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Who else up wanting to be objectified because then at least you’ll be wanted and chased after. You won’t have to chase after others anymore, you can let it all go and trust that you’ll be carried and not dropped. No one?? Okay….

#> hey cecil says a thing! <#vent #I love him. I know he loves me. but sometimes I want to be the one being controlled.#shout out to the scam bot on one of my photo posts. blocked but thanks anyway.#I don’t want to be a person anymore. I’m not a person. I’m just an object.#and if I’m an object I want to be a pretty one. one to fight for. one to possess.#no one has ever fought for me. daydreamed about me. wanted me.#I’m always a second thought. an ‘‘oh um well I guess’’.#never chased after. never wanted beforehand. never seen and craved.#I know it’s wrong to want that. to want to be objectified or catcalled or whatever else.#but then at least I’ll know I’m good enough to be enjoyed.#yeah alright go ahead #send me creepy asks and DMs and shit #I don’t care anymore

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runefactorynonsense · 1 month ago

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