#m34n$p0

[xoxos4dgirl]

you can always be thinner, look better 𐙚

[y0ugiveth3flv]

if you’re not feeling hungry after a mere 24 hours of fasting…

it just means you have a lot more work to do to feel the change

[wlfawnbby444]

m3alsp0

[bitsbonesburning]

found on ig

[makethisendpls]

Not me thinking i'm d!s0rdered when i literally have a c4l limit of 1215 and have a gw of 50kg/110lbs and treat anything lower as a nice bonus.

I mean how stupid am i????

[vxm1tcxre]

Lemme take a moment to deromanticize 3ds, if you don’t mind.

I have severe bul1m14. for years now, I have been trying to quit bping, only to get progressively worse as time has gone on- to the point where I get lucky if I make it through a single day without binging and pvrging once. On bad days, I will do so up to 5 times. Hell, I even have ever-so-slight bruising on my knees from spending so much time kneeling in front of bags and toilets, among countless other symptoms and places where my 3d has left it’s ugly mark.

Today was my birthday party. A celebration of my life. I had friends over. We visited a fun place in my city. They gave me gifts and we played games.

And did I get to enjoy it? Did I get to have fun with my friends and appreciate spending time with the people I love? Was it a good day? Will I remember it as such?

Of course not.

Like clockwork, I b1ng3d on the pizza and cupcakes my mom bought for me and my friends. I have consumed approximately 4800+ c4lories in a single day.

I have spent the last three hours after my friends went home locked in my room, trying to pvrge, but since I have abused my body so much, my gag reflex barely works. All I managed was to cough and choke up thick, viscous mucus and tiny chunks of pizza crust.

I am so full I can’t move without excruciating pain. I swear I can feel my bloated stomach pressing against my ribs, pushing them out. It feels like I’m about to explode. I want nothing more than to v0m1t- not only because I fear the weight gain, barely at this point. But because I am in such excruciating, unbearable pain and I just want this alien invader of carbs and sugar out of my damn body.

I have shoved an extension cord, the eraser end of a pencil, and the dirty toothbrush with bite marks on the handle from exclusively using it as my tool to pvrge because my fingers no longer suffice as far as they can possibly go down my throat to try and get some relief. Nothing.

I swallowed 3 heaping spoonfuls of baking soda and chugged seltzer water to try and give myself sodium poisoning.

I swallowed about 8 of my adhd pills and whatever antidepressants I had left, hoping they’d make me sick and push the food out of my stomach.

Nothing has worked. I am sitting in my bathroom, because I can’t lie down without acid flooding my esophagus, and praying that my stomach doesn’t burst open from the sheer volume of food I’ve shoved inside myself, begging the universe to not let me die.

I don’t want to die curled on the bathroom floor around my horrendously distended stomach, next to the scale I’m terrified to have to step on tomorrow morning. I don’t want my heartbroken parents to look through my things after I’m gone and find the bags of cold, rotten v0m1t hidden around my room.

Today was my fucking birthday party.

And instead of looking back fondly at this day, looking forward for things to come, I’m crying on my bathroom floor because I’m so fucking f4t and in so much pain I wish I could just sl1c3 my stomach open to remove a single ounce of the pressure against my insides.

But I can’t.

It will never stop.

I will never be able to enjoy days like these.

[ghostly-goals]

I need someone to bully me into losing weight

[lifeofaprettybitch]

just because you have to eat doesn’t mean you have to clean the plate you pig.

[skinnyinsomniacsstuff]

Dm me if you wanna join my Life fasting circle!

[fatanaboy]

I hate when Mia decides to make a guest appearance again after 2 weeks of strict Ana. I feel so guilty, I was barely able to throw anything up and now I don’t want to eat for a week again. Obviously I can’t be trusted with food

[brklnbabyy]

i hate the feeling after i eat. i wish i could control myself and not listen to my cravings. fucking fatty.

[xoxos4dgirl]

soft pink m34lsp0 ୨୧

[oli-the-dolly]

October I was supposed to lose ten pounds not gain them!

Anyways I’m now at the highest I’ve been in months so yeah I really need to get back on track so please give me the biggest m3ansp0 you can in the comments🙏🙏 I need to lose as much weight as possible before November 9th (my b-day)

[wlfawnbby444]

guys can you pretty please send me M34nsp0, I'm so hungry but I cant eat lunch so please please please be mean

[waikuo]

there are some people who eat less in a day than you eat for breakfast. still hungry?

[ana-babes]

this is why i never understand ppl like ana coaches or ppl who post f@t$p0 or m34n$p0... like how do they not feel guilty or sad about it 😭

Is it just me or does anyone else struggle with immense guilt posting about your 3D on tumblr because what if I affect another person with my words. Like, I’m here because I want the encouragement and to feel safe…but I don’t want to tr!gg3r anyone…ya know?