#m34n$p0

[sm4lestspeckofdust]

don't feel like going to the gym? just imagine that back f@t of yours being squished and dug into when you tie your bikini string. you should probably get your lazy ass up.

[xoxos4dgirl]

you can always be thinner, look better 𐙚

[y0ugiveth3flv]

if you’re not feeling hungry after a mere 24 hours of fasting…

it just means you have a lot more work to do to feel the change

[bitsbonesburning]

found on ig

[makethisendpls]

Not me thinking i'm d!s0rdered when i literally have a c4l limit of 1215 and have a gw of 50kg/110lbs and treat anything lower as a nice bonus.

I mean how stupid am i????

[doorandchairs]

Pretty girls do not eat.

How many times do we have to tell you.

[vxm1tcxre]

Lemme take a moment to deromanticize 3ds, if you don’t mind.

I have severe bul1m14. for years now, I have been trying to quit bping, only to get progressively worse as time has gone on- to the point where I get lucky if I make it through a single day without binging and pvrging once. On bad days, I will do so up to 5 times. Hell, I even have ever-so-slight bruising on my knees from spending so much time kneeling in front of bags and toilets, among countless other symptoms and places where my 3d has left it’s ugly mark.

Today was my birthday party. A celebration of my life. I had friends over. We visited a fun place in my city. They gave me gifts and we played games.

And did I get to enjoy it? Did I get to have fun with my friends and appreciate spending time with the people I love? Was it a good day? Will I remember it as such?

Of course not.

Like clockwork, I b1ng3d on the pizza and cupcakes my mom bought for me and my friends. I have consumed approximately 4800+ c4lories in a single day.

I have spent the last three hours after my friends went home locked in my room, trying to pvrge, but since I have abused my body so much, my gag reflex barely works. All I managed was to cough and choke up thick, viscous mucus and tiny chunks of pizza crust.

I am so full I can’t move without excruciating pain. I swear I can feel my bloated stomach pressing against my ribs, pushing them out. It feels like I’m about to explode. I want nothing more than to v0m1t- not only because I fear the weight gain, barely at this point. But because I am in such excruciating, unbearable pain and I just want this alien invader of carbs and sugar out of my damn body.

I have shoved an extension cord, the eraser end of a pencil, and the dirty toothbrush with bite marks on the handle from exclusively using it as my tool to pvrge because my fingers no longer suffice as far as they can possibly go down my throat to try and get some relief. Nothing.

I swallowed 3 heaping spoonfuls of baking soda and chugged seltzer water to try and give myself sodium poisoning.

I swallowed about 8 of my adhd pills and whatever antidepressants I had left, hoping they’d make me sick and push the food out of my stomach.

Nothing has worked. I am sitting in my bathroom, because I can’t lie down without acid flooding my esophagus, and praying that my stomach doesn’t burst open from the sheer volume of food I’ve shoved inside myself, begging the universe to not let me die.

I don’t want to die curled on the bathroom floor around my horrendously distended stomach, next to the scale I’m terrified to have to step on tomorrow morning. I don’t want my heartbroken parents to look through my things after I’m gone and find the bags of cold, rotten v0m1t hidden around my room.

Today was my fucking birthday party.

And instead of looking back fondly at this day, looking forward for things to come, I’m crying on my bathroom floor because I’m so fucking f4t and in so much pain I wish I could just sl1c3 my stomach open to remove a single ounce of the pressure against my insides.

But I can’t.

It will never stop.

I will never be able to enjoy days like these.

[ghostly-goals]

I need someone to bully me into losing weight

[princesswiggles4evameow]

the choice is yours the choice is mine

[sm4lestspeckofdust]

౨ৎ pro 4n4 tip:

every time you get a cr4ving, do not give in. log each one you get throughout your day in your notes app and before bed calculate how many c4Is it is. you’ll be able to see how much f4tt3r you could have been today without self control.

[oli-the-dolly]

October I was supposed to lose ten pounds not gain them!

Anyways I’m now at the highest I’ve been in months so yeah I really need to get back on track so please give me the biggest m3ansp0 you can in the comments🙏🙏 I need to lose as much weight as possible before November 9th (my b-day)

[xoxos4dgirl]

soft pink m34lsp0 ୨୧

[lifeofaprettybitch]

just because you have to eat doesn’t mean you have to clean the plate you pig.

[t00th-butter]

Worst things about fasting vs the worst things about being fat <3

- the headaches. the disgust people feel looking at you, looking at your rolls full of fat from years of binging

- feeling lightheaded. never being able to find any cute clothes when you go out shopping with your friends

- not thinking as fast as usual. the jiggle your thighs make as they rub together, fat inside of them.

- not being able to shit. all of your friends skinnier than you, playing games and sitting close to each other, while your fat oozes over and spills into the gaps.

Which one is really a sacrifice, when being skinny will make you happy? Food is nothing but an addiction.

[being-the-dust]

The best meal is the one you don't eat

[skinnyinsomniacsstuff]

Dm me if you wanna join my Life fasting circle!