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[twnothealthy]

eat for the body you want not the body you have <3

[vxm1tcxre]

Pvrging harm reduction masterpost (from someone who’s had severe bul1m14 for 3 years, and who wishes they’d gotten this advice)

I get asked a lot and see posts asking for “tips” around pvrging.

I absolutely do not condone it. It’s a horrendously dangerous, unpleasant, and addictive behavior, and often a slippery slope to full-swing bul1m14 (and trust me, that is not something you want, for the sake of your wallet and sanity).

However, I do acknowledge that that doesn’t get in the way of the urge to do it. It certainly didn’t for me. That’s not how 3ds work. Being told how dangerous and horrible something is often is just more enticing. I know people are going to try it regardless. And frankly, I’d much rather focus on tips to stay safe over just telling you “don’t do it” like a Christian parent preaching abstinence. Harm reduction is king, especially on a platform like 3dblr.

So, here is a list of things to help you stay safe.

1. I feel like I should reiterate this again- if you at all can, don’t start. It’s not the c4ls-be-gone magic spell it might seem to be. Starting is what ended my r3str1ct1v3 phase. I thought it’d just be a last resort for when I ate too much. Fast forward to now, it’s been 3 years since my first time and I consume a good 6k+ c4ls every single day, have g4ined a ton of w3ight, feel like shit all the time, have no control around food, am constantly broke, have done things that would make people gag, and have all the risk with no reward. Ultimately, you will not l0se w3ight with pvrging. It gets harder and less effective the longer you do it. While the “you can only get rid of 50%” you often hear is a myth, being bul1m1c destroys your control, and eating maintenance in addition to whatever c4ls you didn’t manage to pvrge will inevitably lead to w3ight gain over time. It simply isn’t worth it.

2. DO NOT USE FOREIGN OBJECTS. It is legitimately so dangerous. Massive choking hazard and generally terrible for your throat. If you can’t get a response with your fingers, don’t do it. I promise, getting rid of some chicken nuggets is not worth getting a plastic fork lodged down your throat and almost dying. (Yes, I am speaking from experience)

3. Some people are simply incapable of inducing v0m1t1ng. It’s more common than is talked about and is completely normal. Frankly, if you have urges to pvrge and find that you can’t do it, consider it a sign.

4. Do not brush your teeth directly after. This is because the bristles of your toothbrush will rub the acid into your enamel, increasing the chances of decay.

5. Baking soda is magic. Swish about a teaspoon with some water in your mouth to neutralize the acid. Swallowing some (significantly less- about 1/4 to 1/2 tsp) is also an easy remedy for acid reflux. Get checked and have your teeth cleaned at the dentist’s regularly- if damage starts occurring, you can catch and mitigate it early.

6. Maintain good dental health as much as you can. Continue to brush and floss regularly. Keep in mind, however, that you can’t avoid tooth decay forever. It’s inevitable with long-term pvrging.

7. One of the biggest risks is electrolyte deficiencies. You often hear of people dying from cardiac arrest. This is because thr0wing up depletes your potassium, which helps with muscle contraction. Your heart is a muscle. If it’s unable to contract, it will fail. After pvrging, replenish your electrolytes. Coconut water, Gatorade, pedialyte, anything that contains the nutrients you just got rid of.

8. Also remember to stay normally hydrated. Even just drinking water is better than nothing. pvrging dehydrates you.

9. DO NOT FLUSH. It’s one of the most dangerous games you can play.

10. Try and eat something safe after the fact, especially if you’re having symptoms of low blood sugar (shaking, dizziness, sweating, a rapid heartbeat). This can be easier said than done but it’s crucial to getting back to normal. Something easy on your stomach with some c4rbs is ideal- toast, rice cakes, crackers, etc.

11. Avoid hot showers or baths or exercising directly after. You will lose more water through sweating. Wash your hands and face- especially around your chin and mouth, pvrge-induced acne is a real thing- and rest for a while.

12. Warm drinks or cold foods like popsicles or ice cream are very soothing on the throat. Throat coat tea and hot chocolate are quite nice. The former may be best if your stomach isn’t feeling well.

13. You will bloat like crazy whenever you eat if you pvrge long term. It’s hell on your digestive tract in general. It’s one of my biggest struggles and pet peeves. Honestly, you can only really wait for it to go away. Remember that it will with time, and do something to distract yourself from it. Some things that in my experience have made it less severe are to eat at a reasonable pace, chew your food thoroughly, and sip drinks rather than chugging them.

14. L4x4t1v3s absolutely aren’t worth it. You don’t really get rid of anything and it’s a fast track to dependency and being horrifically constipated whenever you don’t use them. Stay away. If you must, opt for natural remedies like teas, fiber-rich foods, chia seeds, etc.

15. If you take medication, wait several hours before pvrging. It obviously won’t work if you just get rid of it.

Feel free to reblog this with any advice of your own. I hope this helps some of you; stay safe out there.

[beelightasafeather]

✨🎀Some pictures of me from today🎀✨

I do want to specify my torso does NOT look that skinny standing up (yet) but for me it’s a sign that i am making progress because I can see them more

[emma4nastuff]

Some Mealspo For You!!

[small-bunny-bones]

Remember

you are not a dog. you do not need to be rewarded with food.

food is not a reward. it’s the reason you’re doing this in the first place

(not my pic)

[anadisciple2000]

Purg3d yesterday for the first time in years. Is it weird that it felt like coming home?

[sug4rfr33jell-o]

My tips on how to avoid binging based on my experience

Since I just screw up after days of neglecting some of these things when I'm normally doing pretty good lol

High volume low calorie food. I usually eat a bowl worth of steamed broccoli which is pretty filling. For dessert frozen berries are my go to! This definitely helped me being satisfied.

The food above are food I enjoy. I add sriracha sauce on my steamed broccoli to make it more savory. It doesn't have to be broccoli or sriracha sauce, but you get the idea right? You can look up high volume low cal food and for ways to add flavor without adding much calories if at all. Being able to enjoy my food really helped me have less cravings.

Plan ahead. It just feels so much safer for me to have an already established meal plan as it helps setting a clear limit.

Be reasonable. Stick to a plan that you feel confident is within your reach. After a binge, don't try to restrict more cuz chances are you'll just binge again! Accomodate yourself in a way that will help you stay consistent. We're all different, not everyone can fast or restrict the same amount and that's ok it's not a competition. If you need to (I know I do) avoid looking at others' food logs and WIEIAD. Focus on what works for you.

Popular one I know but it's a good reminder, filling up on water and safe drinks of your choice (there's kind of a debate when it comes to some of these drinks so I won't name any but just go with what works for you)

Did you know? Eating less than 50 calories won't break your fast! Knowing this definitely helped me during my fasting periods. Sugar free Jell-O is usually my go to (*looks at username* how surprising) and pickles are good too when I want something crunchy. Having a safe food under 50 calories actually motivates me to fast cuz I can look forward to that specific food I allow myself during that time period. Perfect when accompanied with a safe drink! Again, doesn't have to be the same food as me but you get the idea.

Please note that these are my personal tips. You don't have to do exactly as I do but I felt like sharing these could help a few.

I kinda wanna insist on the one about being reasonable tho. What good is a diet if you can't stick to it? Consistency is key, right?

Also if I share these it's not to encourage anyone to self harm but on the opposite, it's to help them not hate food & themselves more than they already do. The amount of times I saw someone posts about hating themself and never wanting to eat again after a binge is so real and I totally understand how it feels.

[mychemicallover]

edblr is so much more triggering than edtwt

[lablakelystress]

Vent no. 20 ( tw: m3@nsp0‼️)

Guys…down to 100 but now after almost 3 days of being with my parents and not skipping lunch, I’m looking awful. I felt kind of ok when I was losing w3ight but now I feel worse just like before confirming my belief that the only way to stay mentally stable is to restrict and try and reach my gw ( honestly I can’t even believe I felt ok, bc I still had all of my problem areas except for maybe my stomach so idk what I was thinking. Either way though, GOTTA LOSE MORE ) that’s all.

Affirmation to self :

You are f a t.

You are u g l y.

You are r e p u l s i v e.

But go ahead, lie to yourself and say you feel ok.

You will only look decent once you reach your gw.

[beperfectalways]

@na please help me find a friend who is overweight with an ed trying to be skinny 🙏

[im-b4cc-b3nch3z]

Reason #2 to be skinny; no more 'are you sure that'll fit?' or 'here have this I'm full and know you always have room for more' or 'I know I can always borrow your clothes, they're so big on me!'

[twnothealthy]

I want people who talk shit about me to be able to call me that one skinny bitch

[vxm1tcxre]

“what does it look like”

It looks like garbage bags painted with the muted, slimy, unappealing colors of the food in your pantry. It looks like the silvery sheen left on the water even after you’ve flushed. It looks like shaking fingers with the cuticles chewed off. It looks red. The red of your knuckles, the red of the vessels in your teary eyes, the red of bl00d crusted under your fingernails, the little red steaks that come out of your throat when you’ve abus3d it just a little too much. It looks like piles of dirty dishes and empty wrappers in your room that you move around and stack together to try and make it seem like there’s less than there really is. It looks like hands smeared with snot and tears. It looks like ruined makeup. It looks like half-eaten food that just barely missed the coffee grounds or milk or applesauce next to it in the garbage can.

“What does it sound like”

Gagging. Sobbing. Chewing. Crunching. Boiling. Sizzling. The crinkle of wrappers. The hum of the microwave, the opening of the fridge door or the creak of the pantry that lets you know you’re back here again. Screaming but only inside your head, screams no one can hear, screams you lock behind your slowly-r0tting teeth. Silence. The silence after you’re done with the b1ng3 or you’re done with the pvrg3 where you just sit and think about what you’ve done, taking a second before you finish what you’ve started, delaying the inevitable. The music you put on to cover it up and the music you put on to comfort yourself through each repetitive day, the music that understands in a way you can’t imagine anyone would. Lies. Those words you utter to everyone around with the guilty tinge of dishonesty that only you recognize.

“What does it taste like”

Everything. It tastes like everything. It tastes rotten and dirty and bitter and repugnant. It tastes nostalgic and beautiful and relieving and delicious. It tastes like eating something and knowing what it tastes like when it comes back up. It tastes like coffee in the morning and carefully-measured meals as you tell yourself you’ll get back on track. It tastes like disappointment. It tastes like failure. It tastes bland on your burnt, acid-ruined tongue. It tastes like the water and baking soda you swish around to try and minimize the harm. It tastes perfect like nothing you’ve ever had and you don’t want the taste to leave even if you know it’s festering inside of you and turning you into a monster.

“What does it smell like”

It smells old. Pungent. Sickly-sweet. Dairy that’s curdled with st0mach acid. It doesn’t smell like much because you’re blind to it now, and it barely spends enough time in your st0mach to take on the sour tinge of real pvk3. It smells like the candles you light and the perfume you use to cover it up and try and feel normal, to make your bedroom stink less like the corpse you’re becoming. It smells like sm0ke swirling around and breathed out your window. It smells expired but you still eat it because it doesn’t matter anymore.

“What does it feel like”

It is pain. Pain even when you aren’t feeling pain because the emotional pain of just being this way is a pain that fills you. It’s the twist in your gut when you h3ave on an empty stomach, not quite believing it to be so, wanting to be sure. It feels like the weak ache in your head and chest like TV static when you stand on unsteady legs, the dread that comes knowing you’ll have to eat something again in order to feel normal enough to burn whatever c4l0ries you left behind. It’s the feeling of a horrendously bl0ated stomach whenever you even try to eat normally because you’ve ruined your digestive system and you have to cope with how disgusting it is to be full. It’s a pain in your throat like it’s swelling closed, acid flooding your chest and esophagus, sores on your lips and acne on your chin and an ache in your head that just won’t go away. It’s guilt for everything that’s so horrendous you can’t imagine ever forgiving yourself

[beelightasafeather]

“Wendy Whaleiams is a fat whale”

Hey so I know it’s been awhile but i’m back. I’ve worked my way back to my old habits but about halfway through my vacation I gave in to all the pressures to eat and I gave in hard. I’m super ashamed and even tho I’ve gotten back into my habits I couldn’t bring myself to get back on here until I got back to the same weight I was before I left. But I’m back now, any sweet/mean sp0 is appreciated bc it’s almost summer and I CANNOT fall back again

[emma4nastuff]

Some 4na Websites!

https://www.edsupportforum.com/forums/anorexia-discussions.62/page-2?sorting=latest-activity

http://fadingobsessions.com

https://fortheloveofana.weebly.com

https://strongerinana.weebly.com

https://piaed.weebly.com

https://silentscreamsandskinnydreams.weebly.com

https://www.angelfire.com/me4/sumofallparts/

[small-bunny-bones]

i’m obsessed with this picture (not me!!)