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A Better Marcus Than Marcus
It all started when my sisterâs boyfriend, Marcus, did a complete 180. The guy used to be your textbook finance broâstraight-laced, all about stocks, cryptos, and protein shakes. He was also the type whoâd casually flex his "intellectual superiority" at family dinners like he was the human embodiment of a TED Talk nobody asked for.
Then, out of nowhere, he turned into this fun, carefree dude. He started to grow his hair and beard and constantly walk shirtless, showcasing his unfairly perfect pair of pecs and set of abs. He even tattooed his armâsomething I would never expect from him. It wasnât just a change in style; it was like he had become a totally different person.
I couldnât shake the feeling that something was off. Then it hit meâmy sisterâs ex, Dylan, a scrawny hippie who couldâve been the poster child for essential oils and âlove, manâ vibes. Dylan and I had gotten along great back in the day, mostly because he shared a little secret with me: a drug. No, not this kind of drug. This stuff could turn anyone into a bodysuit. Yeah, you heard me. One hit of this thing, and you could empty someone out, leaving behind a perfectly usable, skin-tight vessel. Thanks to him, I solved my bullying problem at school by wearing the jock leader's body.
Then, one day, Dylan disappeared from our lives after my sister dumped him. No warning, no goodbye, nothing. I thought that was the end of it. Turns out, it wasnât.
Fast-forward to tonight. Weâre having a family dinner at my parentsâ house, and Marcus is here, all smiles and carefree vibes, making dumb jokes with my parents. It was the perfect chance to test my theory. I waited until everyone was distracted with dessert and pulled Marcus aside to a quiet corner of the house.
âI need to talk to you,â I whispered, trying to keep my voice low.
He cocked an eyebrow but followed me. Once we were out of earshot, I didnât waste any time.
âI know youâre not really Marcus,â I said, crossing my arms. âI know itâs you, Dylan.â
For a moment, he just stared at me, then a wide grin spread across his face. âTook you long enough, bro,"
He opened his robe even more to show me his muscular body, looking like he was showing me an outfit and not another man's skin, âYeah, itâs me. Poor Marcus never saw it coming. Injected this asshole with the stuff after he dropped your sister at your house, and bam! Marcus went to bodysuit city.â He chuckled darkly. âIâve been living my best life ever since and with the love of my life."
Iâll admit, I wasnât surprised. But hearing it confirmed still left my mouth agape.
"So, what now? You gonna rat me out to your sister? You wouldn't do that to good old Dylan here, would you? Not after I helped you turn your jock bully into a bodysuit. I even helped you out at faking his disappearance, I had to drive to another state to get rid of that bodysuit."
I smirked. âThat depends. Whatâs in it for me?â
Dylanâor Marcus, I guessâlaughed. âAlright, how about this: I let you enjoy Marcusâs body anytime you want, as long as you keep your mouth shut.â
It was a twisted offer, but letâs be realâIâd had a thing for Marcus since day one. The chance to have him, even under these bizarre circumstances, was too good to pass up.
âDeal,â I said, extending a hand.
âYouâve got yourself a deal, bro,â he replied, shaking my hand. Before we could head upstairs, my sister caught us in the hallway.
âWhere are you two going?â she asked.
Thinking quickly, DylanâMarcusâflashed his charming smile. âYour brother wanted to show me his collectibleâŚuhâŚvinyl record collection. Said heâs got some rare finds.â
She bought it. âWow, bonding over music. Finally. Iâm proud of you two. Don't take too long, we're going to have karaoke." She leaned forward to give Marcus a kiss and walked away.
As soon as we were in my room, the facade dropped. I locked the door, and he turned to me, that sly grin back on his face. âAlright, bro,â he said, taking off his already unbuttoned white shirt and letting it fall to the floor. âLetâs see what youâve been fantasizing about.â
I immediately pushed him down onto his knees, grabbing a handful of his long hair to assert control. âYouâre going to start by sucking me off like a good slut,â I whispered.
His grin widened as he complied, reaching for my pants and pulling them down. His warm mouth quickly wrapped around me, and I let out a satisfied groan as he worked his tongue expertly. Once my cock was slick and throbbing, I pulled him back by his hair, forcing him to look up at me.
âGet on the bed, on all fours, now! You're my secret boyfriend slut now,â I ordered. He obeyed, taking off his pants and crawling onto the bed completely naked with his huge ass waiting for me. It was the sight I've been dreaming of ever since my sister introduced Marcus.
I walked over to my desk and turned on some rock music to muffle what was about to happen.
Climbing onto the bed behind him, I gripped his long hair tightly as I positioned myself. Without hesitation, I thrust into him hard, using his hair as leverage. Dylan moaned as I filled Marcus' ass. This wasn't our first time together. When Dylan was wearing my hot bully's body, he let me fuck him as a final revenge before he dumped the bodysuit in another state.
Marcus' back arched, and he let out a muffled moan, the sound drowned out by the loud music. I didnât let up, pulling his hair like reins as I pounded into him mercilessly.
I leaned down on his back as I filled Dylan'sâMarcus' ass with my cum. âYou make a better Marcus."
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Bidding for trouble
Yandere!Sugilite x Assistant!Reader
Working under Sugilite was nothing short of an experience. It wasnât the workload that drained you, no, you had handled more demanding jobs before transferring to his department. It was the way he worked. His approach was... unconventional at best, completely insane at worst.
And today?
Today might just take the cake.
âYouâve got to be kidding meâŚâ
With a deep sigh, you set the paperwork down on his desk, rubbing your temples as if that would somehow soothe the headache forming.
Across from you, Sugilite leaned back in his chair, sipping his coffee with the usual, infuriating calmness. He had allowed you to be more casual with himâsomething few employees in the Strategic Investment Department could claim. But at this moment, you werenât sure if that was a privilege or a curse.
âUnfortunately, Iâm notâ he said smoothly, placing his cup down with a soft clink.
Just moments ago, he had casually explained his new plan to deal with a planet in deep financial debt to the IPC. A plan that, for some ungodly reason, involved you.
âI have to be auctioned? Seriously?â You gave him an incredulous look, half-expecting him to say this was all some elaborate joke. âBoss⌠donât tell me youâre already tired of me. Even so, donât sell me like that.â
That earned a full, unrestrained laugh from him. A rare sight.
Sugilite was usually composed, his amusement measured, but you?
You always managed to catch him off guard. It was part of the reason he kept you around, despite the constant back-and-forth.
After all, work was far less dull with you in it.
âWho said Iâm going to do that?â he said between chuckles. âYouâre my precious employee. Just follow my orders.â
âButââ
âNo but.â He waved a hand dismissively, already moving the conversation along. âBesides, what makes you think Iâd sell you off to someone else?â
You hesitated. âWell⌠a few colleagues of mine said Iâll soon move under Opalââ
Sugilite nearly choked on his coffee.
âOkay, stop right thereâ he cut in sharply, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
You blinked.
âYou can go home now.â
âButââ
âIf you say one more word, Iâll cut your salary.â
That was enough to send you bolting for the door, offering a quick bow before making your escape. As soon as you were gone, Sugilite let out a long sigh, pinching the bridge of his nose.
Opal? Seriously? The nerve of those gossiping employees.
He wasnât about to let that happen.
The Strategic Investment Department wasnât known for taking the most ethical approach to problem-solving. But when it came to Sugilite, the term ethical might as well be optional.
Which explained why, after days of preparation, you now found yourself standing in the center of a lavishly decorated auction hall, as one of the items up for sale.
Sugiliteâs plan was simple: infiltrate the underground elite of this debt-ridden planet by letting you play the role of an âexclusive product.â You would be the bait, drawing out the highest biddersâcorrupt politicians, shady financiers, and the type of people the IPC wanted under control. Meanwhile, he would work from the outside, pulling the necessary strings to ensure the debt was paid back in fullâin ways the bidders wouldnât like.
And at first, it all went smoothly.
Sugilite played his role perfectly, making business deals, exposing financial fraud, and manipulating the planetâs economy in real time. He always had a sharp tongue and sharper instincts, and as you watched from your designated position in the auction lineup, you knew this planetâs leaders were already falling into his hands.
The moment his name was announced in the VIP section, the entire hall fell silent.
Then came whispers.
Nervous murmurs.
Everyone knew the IPC didnât just send high-ranking officials to small, struggling planets without reason.
Sugilite took advantage of that fear, leaning back in his seat as if he owned the place already.
It was going well.
Until it wasnât.
Sugilite expected you to be exactly where he left you.
But when the auctionâs proceedings finally wrapped up and the planetâs debts were effectively handed over to IPC control, he turned to retrieve youâ
And you were gone.
His eyes darkened, the casual amusement from earlier draining from his expression as he turned to one of his men.
âFind them. Now.â
The operative hesitated for only a second before scrambling to follow orders.
Sugilite tapped his fingers against his chairâs armrest, gaze sharp as he considered the possibilities.
Had someone figured out who you really were?
Had they seen through the plan?
Orâ
His jaw tightened. Or had someone decided they wanted to keep you for themselves?
That thought did not sit well with him at all.
One way or another, he would track you down. And when he did, whoever dared to take what was his would regret it.
Your Perspective
You should have expected this. From the moment Sugilite suggested this insane plan, you knew things would go sideways at some point. You just thought youâd at least get a warning before that happened.
But, here you wereâbound at the wrists, being dragged through dimly lit corridors by a man whose breath smelled like stale liquor.
âDidnât think Iâd be getting such a prize tonightâ the bidder sneered, his grip tightening as he shoved you forward. âYou were supposed to be mine from the start, but then that damn IPC agent had to get in the way.â
This guy had tried to bid on you earlier in the night, but Sugiliteâs very presence had sent him and others into a panic, forcing him to back off. He must have gotten desperate.
You glared at him. âYou really think youâre going to get away with this?â
The man scoffed. âYou think the IPC cares about a singleââ
A low beeping sound cut him off.
He frowned, reaching into his coat to pull out his comm device. The moment he glanced at the screen, his face paled.
CRASH. The wall exploded inward.
Dust and debris filled the air as a figure emerged from the wreckage, stepping through as if he had all the time in the world.
Sugiliteâs Perspective
It took less than ten minutes for his men to track your last known location. And only five more for him to personally break through the underground facilityâs defenses.
The moment Sugilite spotted youâalive, unharmed, but bound like a prize, his usual easygoing demeanor vanished.
âAh⌠Boss!!â you coughed, waving at him weakly through the dust. âYouâre early.â
He ignored you.
His gaze locked onto the pathetic excuse of a man still holding onto you, now trembling like a leaf.
âIâItâs a misunderstanding,â the man stammered. âIââ
Sugiliteâs smile was slow, but there was nothing kind about it. âYou know,â he said, taking a deliberate step forward, âI really hate when people try to take whatâs mine.â
The man barely had time to scream before Sugilite grabbed him by the throat and slammed him into the wall.
You winced.
Someone was definitely dying tonight.
The man barely had time to sputter out another excuse before Sugilite lifted him higher, letting his weight dangle uselessly.
âYou really thought this was a good idea?â Sugiliteâs fingers pressed down with a slow, deliberate force, just enough to watch the bastardâs face turn shades of red.
âP-Pleaseâ!â the man choked out, clawing at Sugiliteâs wrist.
Sugilite tilted his head, watching with mild amusement before sighing. He was already bored.
âNot even a minute, and youâre already begging?â His grip tightened. âDisappointing.â
âBossâ your voice cut in. âMaybe donât kill him immediately? Iâd rather not be classified as collateral damage.â
Sugilite flicked a glance at you, taking in your disheveled state, the dust clinging to your clothes, the slight tension in your shoulders. You were fine, but that didnât change the fact that someone had dared to lay hands on you.
His grip tightened further.
You groaned. âCâmon, at least let me get out of the blast radius before you commit murder.â
Sugilite chuckled.
âFair enough.â
And with that, he slammed the man into the ground hard enough to crack the concrete. The body twitched but didnât move again.
Sugilite rolled his shoulders, satisfied, before turning his full attention to you. âNow, onto more important things.â His eyes scanned you from head to toe, sharp as ever. âDid he hurt you?â
You exhaled. âNot really. Just manhandled a bit.â
He nodded, then reached out, far too gently for a man who had just nearly crushed someoneâs windpipe, to untie the bindings on your wrists himself. His fingers grazed your skin briefly, lingering for a second longer than necessary before pulling away.
âYou really had me running around, you knowâ he said, stuffing his hands back into his coat pockets.
You huffed. âItâs not like I planned to get kidnapped.â
âMm.â He tilted his head slightly, his gaze unreadable. âMaybe I shouldâve raised you higher at auction. Then no one wouldâve dared to touch you.â
You blinked. âThat is not the takeaway here.â
Sugilite only smiled, his amusement evident as he gestured toward the exit. âCâmon, letâs go before the rest of the idiots show up.â
Later â Back at IPC Headquarters
You were so close to clocking out for the day.
But of course, Sugilite had other plans.
âYouâre not going home yetâ he announced as soon as you reached your desk.
You stared at him, tired beyond belief. âWhy?â
âYou still have paperwork to fill out.â He smirked. âYou were technically âpurchasedâ tonight. We have to make sure youâre properly âreturned.ââ
You dropped your head onto your desk with a loud thud. Sugilite laughed.
At least one of you was having fun.
#yandere x reader#yandere#honkai star rail sugilite#hsr x reader#sugilite hsr#sugilite#yandere honkai star rail#yandere hsr x reader#hsr x you#honkai star rail
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so youâre telling me starting this thursday, Iâm gonna have to deal with the loss of 4 (four) shows, STILL no date for our skyy 2 and only friends and being left alone with just my thoughts??¿¿?
#my school president#the warp effect#moonlight chicken#thanks i hate it#why are they doing this to me#i need my comfort shows#pLEASE#i hope at least boss and babe will be good#which i doubt#but who knows#dkjshgkjdf#like do they expect me to deal with my problems now????#extremely disrespectful#but ok#i guess
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)
but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!
so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"
....
my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!
SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!
#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has#autistic#autism#actually autistic#adhd#neurodivergent#audhd#school#school problems#yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change#if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great!#but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities#ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you!#ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper!#(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back)#i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and#suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all#and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of#the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape#too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed#the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly#without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick#accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing#disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers#and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars#and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all#fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something!#offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling!#i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help!#THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN đđđđđđ#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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i used to not relate at all to the existential dread that's sorta ubiquitous for a lot people my age, which is mostly bc i've been dying for three-ish years, so i had fully made my peace with my life being over soon. like i was in a mindset a lot of people enter in hospice care where my body was winding down and i was just getting as comfortable as possible and being content with the life i'd already lived.
however.
now. that it looks like i could not only have, but also Enjoy... another 50 or 60 years on this earth.....
......HOOOOOOOOOOO BOY.
#GOOD GOD A LOT IS GOING TO HAPPEN WITHIN THE NEXT 60 YEARS.#I KNOW NOT TO BORROW GRIEF FROM THE FUTURE BUT LIKE#I DIDNT EXPECT TO DEAL WITH ANY OF IT AT ALL. I WAS NOT GONNA *BE HERE*#literally every night for the past week i've lain awake with my heartbeat in my throat just thinking#I Am Going To Be Here . For So Much Shit#Oh God. Oh God . So Much#and i CAN'T SLEEP#this post brought to you by an hour and a half of me trying to sleep and now being exhausted and still So Anxious#like. CHILL. GIRL. IT'S FINE#YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!! PROBLEM FOR FUTURE YOU!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!! OH ! MY ! GOD !!!!#autoimmune tag
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iâm back temporarily, bc itâs my birthday in an hour and a half, and iâm having a mini breakdown, hehe x
#thereâs also so much pressure to make it a good day but that might also just be me honestly#iâm kinda having a quarter life crisis? a tiny bit?#like just thinking about time ya know?#i was looking at my baby pictures which is a super good idea when youâre going through a crisis#but it feels insane that that tiny human is me#and i feel so bad#iâve been so hateful to myself and i think about that little girl and iâm crying#but iâm trying to fix things but itâs not i can completely make everything perfect#iâll still have the same problems itâs just finding new ways to deal#anyways happy (early) birthday to me i guess#as for me using this blog again?#idk really#just trying to pop in and try to keep it fun and staying away when itâs not instead of forcing myself#i half want to just get rid entirely but i also donât#but idk my reasons for staying donât feel very right#itâs just not fun anymore#and trying to make it fun again just feels like forcing the issue#so i really donât know#iâm just trying to figure out the right thing to do#i donât have the energy to deal with it all right now#just donât expect to see me around a lot#iâm sticking to my detox for a while#again if you want to reach me you can add my discord or whatever
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love waking up to my mom giving me an ultimatum and ordering that i have to give up my (admittedly expensive) apartment 1n 2 weeks and move back home for good. i had stuff to do today but i guess being gripped by dread and anxiety works too
#i had been thinking about moving to a smaller one too. but now she's ordering me to do that#and expects me to move back home#when my university and all of my two friends are in the city.#and i have TWO WEEKS to live here if she wants me to move before summer because i have to go back home anyway in early may#for my summer job.#like sure i wouldve understood like a hey. my child. your financial situation is oretty tough so i have some suggestions that could help#but she was like okay here's whay you do: option a) [something i couldnt do before fall] b) find a cheaper apartment and live in two weeks#c) move home for good and commute over an hour any day you have university stuff to do and also essentially lose access to your#friends and all and any independence you have managed to cobble together so i can treat you like a child and yeall at you#the last part wasnt included but it's what she does anyways so i assume it's part of the deal#then i would have to commute or drive an hour any time i wanted to see either of my friends. after every summer im already#tired and desperate to come back to my apartment to get to be on my own. and now she's saying i have to never do that again#and here's the fuckin thing. her husband is planning on fixing my car. my mom pays my phone bill. i know what a loser i am whatever.#she actually owns my dogs and my childhood home. i cannot. piss her ofd too much. because then i'll lose all of those#phone. whatever i can get a new one. car. slightly more heartbrwakin but like i still own it. but the house?#my dogs?? i think i would rather die atm if im being honest#so what the fuck am i supposed to do. huh.#maybe i should just walk into the sea foe good i feel like that would just so neatly solve all of my problems
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The people that have abandoned me really need to stop talking to me like they have any right to tell me what to do, or I swear to God, I'm gonna get the FUCKING hammer.
#inspired by my bitch of a mother sending me a text that basically said u need to get ur life together#as i always say! LET HE WHO IS WITHOUT SIN CAST THE FIRST STONE!#this woman's life is a dumpster fire#and she specifically said 'i won't financially support u. i'll always be there for u but that's a conditional statement'#which is INSANE because that don't make no sense AND she has NEVER financially supported me? genuinely why does she think she has any#fucking right...đđđ#meanwhile. my dad. during the shitstorm that has been my family's existence lately. is being way more lax about me getting a job and moving#out than he has been in the past. because some fucks despite being shitheads aren't total assholes#this post is also inspired by my insufferable sister who fucked off to another fucking continent when i was 7 and treats me...well. exactly#how u would expect an upper middle class dumb jock to treat her awesome nerd little brother. and is always telling me i'm making#the wrong fucking decisions and judging me.#these ppl r so funny bc they think this is normal and that i will endure it bc the power of love or what the fuck ever. wrong! i have been#on the brink of cutting off my entire family since i was fourteen. now that i actually have the power to do some cutting off i'll be honest#i feel pretty great#it is all of course a horrible nightmare and i wish things were different etc etc etc. but in the words of supernatural. i was always going#to end up here.#while i am thinking about such things what's my other sister's deal? she has not reached out to me for years. it was like i turned 18 and#she was like ok who cares abt this dude now#which was incredibly bizarre and makes me feel like a stupid idiot who did something wrong but i know i didn't. and she was always the most#supportive of my siblings. i don't know what her problem is#in her defense her life has been weird lately. but 'lately' has lasted long enough that it's just her life now. and whenever i try to be th#one to reach out she basically gives me...nothing.#while i am thinking about such things i will acknowledge the slays. my one totally kickass sister who is the only other one of my siblings#who understands anything. i am rly grateful for her and she has been so good to me for so long especially during the recent shitstorm#she is moving very far away and that has brought up my abandonment issues but i genuinely am so happy for her and her family and she is ver#adamant about me visiting and PAYING for the visit (or at least doing the scamming that pays for the visit so i don't have to pay lol) and#making sure i'll be ok.#it's not all bad! i am going to be ok! there r so many people in my life who love me and love me in a way that makes sense to me and doesn'#make me feel like the world's worst man#personal log
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oh im actually going to kill someone literally the first thing i thought was that the files must be transcribed weird. I WAS FUCKING RIGHT WHY IS IT TRANSCODING SHIT IN REAL TIME AT THE ABSOLUTE MAX POSSIBLE FUCK OFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!! THAT SETTING WAS OFF!! omg is it the files i got or something i thought they were fine. i feel like an insane person rn why is all my shit changed. if u literally told me someone broke in and changed a bunch of small things to make my setup work badly i would believe you because what the actual fuck. i was gonna say i need to listen to myself but i fixed like 3 other problems by not fixing what is probably the main fucking issue and itll be faster than before now but holy shit holy fucking shit oh my god
#WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY#pain and suffering and pain and suffering and pain etc#replacing these files asap i fucking knew it :/ i will have to go into the server settings and verify that nothing else is fucked up first#cuz idfk why its even doing that??? it should never do that???#converting the files remotely for now because im not dealing with that shit tn#<- i always say that and then keep working on it though :/#is that a regulation thing why do i do that. like when ur definitely not gonna go for a walk ur just gonna put ur coat on and stand outside#haha oh thank god i dont need to deal with that rn. *calms down* okay let me deal with it right now#mentally i am already not doing and done with the task simultaneously this is the only way to do the task#i should revisit the mastery section of my dbt skills i think#context i feel confident in my ability to fix tech problems i know it just requires persistence . so its easy to recover and jump back in#even though tech issues get on my nerves very fucking quickly. i can use little mind tricks like that to regulate w/o thinking about it#but i struggle to do that when i lack mastery. the outcome isnt assured so it's harder to not get stuck on details and give up#i think so anyway idk maybe im thinking about it too deep. i'll go over it again anyway though now that i'm looking at it#ive been trying to catch when im doing stuff like that more often because i know i have a LOT of tricks like that that feel intrinsic to me#i dont think about them its just how i function. so its invisible to me unless i tune in#i was thinking about that yesterday when i was smoking bc i realized a huge part of socializing for me is overthinking...#but its literally necessary? i am SO prone to saying the exact wrong hurtful thing. if i didnt turn things over in my head before i spoke#i would hurt people a lot and not on purpose. i catch myself at least once a day and think jesus god i'm glad i didn't say that#that gets misconstrued as social anxiety when its like no i LITERALLY just need to do it unless you want me to say very hurtful things#i think most people do not need to do that..? like i cant just Be Myself that bitch is a hugeeeeeee cuntttttttttt lol#and still a lot of stuff gets past because i dont realize the implications of what im saying...#thats why i cant fucking stand people who dont say anything when theyre hurt or just expect you to realize without expressing it#maybe they're scared of confrontation but i dont need people around me if theyre just passively miscontruing me as a careless asshole#i am an asshole! but i care! i try not to be one like really hard i swear to god#if you cant speak up when you are hurt you should not expect anyone to hear you thats how i feel#okay my file are done bai#z
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So I've calmed down. After today's events I find myself even more vindicated in my hatred for my family, but that's neither here nor there. I'm not trying to vent so often on this blog (feels too oversharey), so instead I'll let y'all know that my birthday is in two weeks! Specifically the 24th. So that's cool.
#unma rambles#ignore the tags below I was only going to mention the uni stuff and then things just kinda started rolling out and now it feels like a-#waste to delete them#I'll be heading to uni on the 22nd for orientation on the 23rd though#so that's another year in a row of depressing shit happening around my birthday#at least this time it's something somewhat good (uni) and not my dad shipping me off to a camp I insisted I didn't want to go to#to the point that he forcibly packed my things and made it so I couldn't go back home otherwise that Sunday#which I still haven't forgiven him for#(man every time I think about them I remember something that makes me hate my parents. funny how that works.#It's almost like there's nothing good to remember)#fyi the uni is a christian university that requires attending service for credits which is why I'm not happy#reminder: I'm agnostic but was raised christian in a christian family#and an acquaintance from church is also going to that uni. and attending the same course#which isn't the end of the world but I can't help but feel bummed out#because I just know someone's gonna use her to see how I'm doing since I never answer phone calls#wow I said I wouldn't vent but here I am#tbf my reaction to this is more disappointment and mild annoyance than the depressive spirals I used to deal with#so I guess that means I'm improving#or that it's not big enough of a problem for it to trigger that#oh well#all of this means I'm not exactly looking forward to my birthday but I've never looked forward to one since I was 10#so that's just typical at this point#hm come to think of it the camp thing isn't the only thing that happened near my birthday and resulted in depressive spirals huh#kinda sounds to me like my birthdays have just sucked#at best they were meh and at worst they sucked to the point I look forward to one where nothing happens at this point#that happened once#my birthday had nothing done for it because of reasons (I don't blame my parents for this they had valid reasons to do so)#and I just forgot about it#the tags of my post that was supposed to be about my birthday was not where I expected to unpack my shitty experiences with past birthdays#but here I am I guess
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So Danny got summoned by a cult the JL failed to stop. Problem, he's a little too hungry to care
I had 2 ideas for this so you can choose which one you want.
Danny had forgotten to eat for like 24 hours when doing ghost king shit, so when he finally got some food and felt himself being pulled into a summoning he decided that whoever it was could deal with him eating, so he grabbed his plate and kept eating. To say the cult and JL were expecting to see a massive eldritch king of ghosts and space sitting cross-legged like a teenager and eating (insert the most random food you wouldn't expect a regal king to eat) would be a lie.
Danny, with food in his mouth: You're the ones who summoned me while I was in the middle of eating, so you get to deal with it.
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Danny had forgotten he needed food, again, but just as he was about to sit down to start eating he suddenly got summoned by some random cult. So now he's standing in the middle of a summoning circle that's surrounded by cultists and heroes, but he doesn't care, he's now just disappointed in the world and a little sad.
Danny, looking an ancient god and king of space and terror, in the most pathetic and sad voice: My dino nuggies D:
#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#ghost king danny#danny phantom#danny fenton#eldritch danny#justice league#batman#superman#wonder woman#green lantern#flash dc#dc x dp#dp x dc prompt#Danny got summoned#but he's too hungry to care#he's just a little guy
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#ya boi be fucking around and FINDING OUT.#do yall remember (no) that text post i made back in november saying i am so sexy and fast there will be no rammies from this#anyway high key still dealing with the rammies and next month doesnt look great either REGARDING : the rammies#anyone: oh hey a few times i saw u were dating someone but u dont really ever talk about it#yeah dude because of how good of an idea it was and how its going and the choices ive made and how good its been for my life#that whole thing started in january but it only happened because of my november stuff if ur following along#anyway im single and soon nobody will be living with me and i CANT get into it all its so messy and ive been so silly#getting thru this work day with grit and spite and protein shakes. someday ill be able to stomach food again haha#its just that what would be in my way if i didnt manually create several difficult roadblocks for myself in quick succession#i would have to learn to identify sources of road blocks that are not ME something i have prior to now not had a lot of experience with#(due to that 95% of the roadblocks are placed in advance by me)#anyway lakevida voice if i speak with fewer than 4 layers of metaphor a sniper will shoot me thru my hoop earring so this is all u get#unless u are my sister which none of u are#NOT sure which substances r hanging out in my system in what ratios at this moment due to the sort of choices ive been making in the last48#but my boss is ALSO doing about how i am and we're both like. we left the problems at the DOOR of the BUILDING.#now what we have are the SYMPTOMS of the PROBLEMS and we are going to treat them with MANIC COMPLAINING#its gotten us thru a full hour of work so far but if i make it to lunch without throwing up i think they might throw me a party#anyway expect 4 more of these in the next hour due to the previously referenced substances
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â WHAT HAPPENS WHEN TWO YAKUZA HEIRS ARE FIGHTING OVER WHO GETS TO MARRY YOU ?? â
⧠pairing: yakuza!satoru gojo x f!reader x yakuza!suguru geto
⧠summary: you had no patience for the yakuza lifestyle your grandfather had -- you wanted to live a normal life, but when it leaks that your grandfather is in talks to have you engaged to one of two yakuza heirs -- you realize you're in deeper than you thought -- especially when they both fall in love with you.
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, fluff, inspired / dialogue / scene concepts taken from the manga âyakuza fiance,â (which the fic is named after), reader's age is ambiguous, but all are 20s+, violence (as expected from mafia / yakuza stories), blood, stsg have tattoos, implied satosugu (just a passing mention of dating briefly), stsg have sadomasochistic tendencies, a little ooc, switch! gojo (very sub gojo), switch! geto, oral (f + m), deepthroating, handjob (m), fingering (f! receiving), double penetration, sex (p in v), creampie, poly relationship implied ending,
⧠wc: 18,476
âI donât want to marry either of you,âÂ
And your statement is met with confused stares â and normally stares like this wouldnât be terrifying to the average person, but these were not average men you were dealing with.Â
Satoru Gojo and Suguru Geto were anything but average â in many ways.Â
Both were incredibly handsome â Satoru was blessed with a piercing blue gaze of the heavens and snow white locks that could stun any person into silence, and Suguru was no slouch either â with long inky black locks tied into a neat bun and his sharp features and his almost all too alluring smile â the two of them looked like they belonged to a modeling agency. Both were also brilliant, attending one of the best high schools in Tokyo, before going to the best university, leading in their respective specialities (Satoru studying physics, while Suguru chose literature).Â
And, the two were both the heirs to two of the most dangerous Yakuza families in all of Japan.Â
But right now, they are your biggest problems, personified.Â
Their families were both vying for your hand in marriage â thanks to your meddling grandfather who shipped you off to Tokyo to get a would-be Yakuza husband â your yakuza family hoping to broker peace after decades upon decades of fighting with one of the other two biggest yakuza families around â the Gojo and Geto families respectively.Â
âExcuse me?â Suguru speaks first, a single eyebrow raised, arms crossed over his crisp white button up.Â
âIâm not here for this yakuza bullshit. Iâm trying to live my own life â and Iâm not in the mood to get swept along in my grandfatherâs wishes for me to get married,â your hand is in your bag, fingers curled around your collapsible metal pole, âand I donât care to know either of you, I donât really care to stick around you â especially because all its earned me is the disdain of all the other students who have crushes on you â so how about we simply tolerate each other for this year?âÂ
Satoru whistles, âhow disappointing,â his eyes raking over you from head to toe, âyouâre worse than your reputation â we heard you were a stuck-up, spoiled rich girl that would do anything to get her way, but turns out youâre just normal,â he sticks out his tongue and makes a gagging noise, âhow boring,âÂ
âTruly tiresome,â Suguru hums, his bangs falling in his dark gaze, âI was looking forward to a woman who could match up to us â maybe fuck me up, punish me, and strip away my dignity â type of girl whoâd ruin my life, do you understand?âÂ
You stare at him, lips parted, brow furrowed, âWhat?âÂ
âIn other words, we were hoping you were much more interesting than you were â as you are now, youâre just useless,â Satoru sighs dramatically, his pink lips curled in a smile, âbor-inggggg,âÂ
âYou might as well go back to Osaka, or wherever it was you came from,â Suguru shrugs, hands in his pockets, as he pulls a cigarette and a lighter, âyou could stay, but as it stands, you would be better off back home â maybe it would even start a war â that could be fun, Satoru,â he remarks, his grin growing more sinister by the minute, as he places the cigarette between his lips, and lighting it.Â
âLetâs actually not be so hasty, Suguru. She could have some use,â he holds out his fingers to frame you between them, âcould be worth something if we have her work at one of our families clubs â selling her body. She could make some use for us,â he says cruelly, âOtherwise, go back home, and let them know weâre the ones not interested in you,â he says, brushing past you along with Suguru.Â
And you couldnât decide which one of their smiles were the most bone chilling â and why you couldnât quite find your voice in that moment. And you didnât â not until you finally reached home, your phone ringing.Â
âHowâs it going, dear granddaughter?â you could hear the grin of the old coot even over the phone â and how could you tell him you wanted to go home now? You had hoped to go there to give two rejections â not earn two of your own. You hoped to stick out the year before leaving this place behind, if only to appease your grandfather.Â
âIâm fine, but I thinkâŚI think Iâm homesick,â you sit on the edge of your bed, hunched over, hand holding your head up, propped against your knee.Â
âWhyâs that? Did something happen?âÂ
âNothing, I justââÂ
âYouâre not coming back home,â and your hopes fall, âone year, you have to stay one year no matter what. Donât care if you have to fight with every bone in your body and fiber of your being â last a year,âÂ
âBut whyââÂ
âMake those boys fall for you, and then break their hearts, heh â your grandfather is a heartbreaker and I know you can do the same,â and you know his lips are curled in a smile not too dissimilar to the two men you met today, âdonât forget where you come from â and what youâre worth,â and he cuts the line, as you stare at your phone, before tossing it away and lying back.Â
Well, you know what you had to do.Â
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âMorning,â you know whereâd they be â the only free period they had together that they spent in the dining hall with their entourage â including some girls who had been harassing you about how you knew the pair â ones you had suspected in fucking with your locker, smearing mud all over your shoes. A small retaliation for capturing their precious crushesâ attention.
The two heirs only stare for a moment â it had been two weeks since they had seen you, âthought I had gone home?âÂ
âSurprised you didnât,â Suguru remarks, utterly disinterested from the look in his eyes, despite the smile plastered on his lips, âguess I lost the bet, Satoru,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow at Satoru, âyou thought Iâd stay?âÂ
âThought you'd stay to take me up on my offer to sell your body,â he holds out his hand as Suguru slaps a stack of bills in his palm, âdid you?âÂ
âI did actually,â your lips curl, as their gazes slide to one another, before you drop a bag on their table, âone kidney, 5,000,000 yen,â and you take delight in the smiles that slide off their expressions, as they stare at you, Satoru looking over the lip of the bag before you knocked it over and let the stacks of money spill over the table, âit took two weeks since it took a while to arrange and recover, but it was well worth it,âÂ
The pair only can stare â expression unreadable and words seemingly stolen from their mouths, as you only smiled down at them, your gaze digging into their faces like daggers.
Suguruâs eyebrows knit together, âHow did youââÂ
âFriend of a friend,â you shrug, âIâll have to be on a low sodium diet and probably do blood work a little more frequently but you were right about one thing â I was being weak,â you lift up your shirt to show the bandage on your side, their eyes wide, as they can only stare, âI wonât be making that mistake again,âÂ
And you place your foot up on their table, leaning in, as the mask slips from your face, and your anger surges forth, âlisten here, you masochistic fuckers, Iâm not scared of either one of you. I donât care if I have to crawl home choking on my own blood, Iâll be sure youâre choking on each otherâs as I drag you both to hell. Iâm staying here, whether either of you like it or not,âÂ
âYou canât talk to them like thatââ one of the girls pipes up, her lips twisted in a frown.Â
âI can talk to them however I want - do you know who I am? I come from a family just like thereâs but we actually know how to cover up our crimes,â you chuckle, head tilting, âdo you know how easy itâd be to get rid of you two?â Your gaze slides to the other girl, âitâd be all too simple â and trust me, Iâd get my hands dirty if itâs the two of you,â your lips curl into a wide grin as you add, âafter all, you guys did me the favor of dirtying my shoes already,âÂ
And the two blanch white, all indignance replaced with genuine fear â and you had never known someone could look at you as someone to be feared.Â
And you didnât know you would like it so much.Â
You staple the smile on your face again, as the two heirs still sit speechless in their seats, eyes glued to you, âWell thatâs all,â you slide back, âI have to head to classââÂ
But then your wrists are caught â pulling you back, as you find yourself pinned on either side by the two heirs, your body tense, before your gaze slides between them, âWhat?âÂ
âMarry me,â they both say simultaneously â and you gape at them.Â
You are pushing them back, palms pressed against their chests, but find yourself met with two immovable objects, instead trying to squirm out of their grips. âWhat?â And their grips loosen enough for you to take a step back, but their hands remain around your wrists.Â
âI have to have you,â Suguru presses a chaste kiss to the back of your hand, dark gaze lidded as he looks up at you, and a shiver climbs up your spine, âIâve never been so terrified or turned on in my life â it must be love,âÂ
Satoru is the same, mesmerized with eager words, âI want you to do what you promised, Princess â ruin my life,â Satoruâs lips curled in a wide grin, âwant you to completely fuck me up, dominate my entire life â and thereâs only one way to do that, marry me,âÂ
Suguru only scowls at Satoru, âYou know Satoru, itâs very rude to propose after your best friend does,â Suguruâs gaze slides to him, âsheâs mine,â and his other hand finds your shoulder, pulling you against his chest, even as you struggle against their grips, âher family reached out to mine first,âÂ
âFuckers, I swear to god, let me goââ but they act as if they canât hear you, a current of possessiveness sweeping their thoughts away.Â
âSo what? Her family decided to ask for my hand â looks like yours wasnât good enough,â Satoru only grins, pulling you against him instead, his breath warming your flushed skin, as you grimace, âand Iâd make her happier than you ever would.âÂ
âWant to take this outside, Satoru?â Suguruâs glare sent chills down your spine, but Satoruâs lips split into a smile so wide, you were afraid his head would crack in two.Â
âWhy? Feeling lonely? Go by yourself,â
And finally you stomp on Satoruâs foot before elbowing Suguru in the stomach, drawing groans from both boys, as you stumble away from them, whirling to face them, âDonât treat me like your goddamn property or that Iâm a prize to be won,â your words slip like venom from your lips, âdonât ever fucking touch me without asking,âÂ
âOf course, weâre sorry,â Suguru only grins after, holding his stomach, but he still looks all too delighted, âyou should reprimand us like the scum we are, isnât that right Satoru?âÂ
Satoru nods, pouting, âYeah we deserve more of a punishment,â and your skin crawls at their eagerness.Â
âI donât know what the fuck is wrong with you two, but I donât want anything to do with it,â you walk away, hiding your dumbstruck expression, but the two only followed you.Â
âYou canât just walk away from us, you have to decide who you want,â Suguru calls after you, their long strides meant they caught up all too fast, and youâre armed with your collapsible pole now, pointing it at both of them.Â
âTwo minutes ago, both of you thought I was normal and boring,â your eyes narrow â was this another plot to just sell you to some club?Â
âAnd Iâm sorry about that sweetheart,â Satoruâs arm is around your waist again, while Suguruâs fingers intertwined with yours, âwe were clearly wrong â and you have to take responsibility,âÂ
You stare at them, âfor what?âÂ
And heâs leaning to whisper in your ear, âIâm so hard for you right now,â And youâre whirling on them with the pole, but they both expertly dodge your assault, before youâre hurrying away. But they let you go, watching after you with a grin.Â
âThis is going to be fun,â Suguru remarks, looking at his best friend, âI canât guarantee I wonât kill you for her hand,âÂ
Satoru only smirks in reply, âYou stole the words out of my mouth, Suguru.âÂ
~~~
It had been a week â a week of you trying skillfully to evade the two yakuza heirs.Â
And you had failed. No matter how fast you left your classes, where you hid, where you sat â the two always found you. And now you have resorted to sitting outside to eat your lunch, being careful to avoid any stray glance of your presence. You sat, back against the building, as you held your head, bento box in your lap â how long until they would get the message? How long until they figured out you wanted nothing to do with them?Â
Your grandpa had told you to make them fall for you, but you didnât think you had too much more to do with how the two were following you around, dogging your every step.Â
How would you last another year?Â
You opened your bento â at least for once, you could enjoy your lunch without one of themâÂ
âThere you are,â and your lunch nearly goes tumbling out of your lap, but you grasp it, keeping your food from spilling out of your bento, and you turn to meet the gaze of Suguru, leaning against the windowsill, âyouâre a fast one, sweetheart,â his head tilted and lips curled in his signature smile.Â
âHow the fuck did you find me so fast?â you stare at him, brow furrowed, âitâs barely been five minutes, and this campus is huge,âÂ
âItâs the power of love, of course,â you cringe, and he laughs, bringing his knuckles to his lips, âoh rather, itâs the power of the tracking device I slipped in your bag,âÂ
And you blink, âYou what?âÂ
He shrugs, âWell how else would I have found you so quickly? Iâll slip it in your shoe next time,â and he sighs, as you dig through your bag, before turning it upside down and letting your things spill out on the grass, âbesides, thereâs a good reason Iâm tracking you,â and you find the tracker before stomping on it, digging your heel into it, crushing it into the dirt, âthereâs been a kidnapping of another Yakuza heiress,âÂ
And your eyes flit to him, and heâs still smiling at you, âWho?â you continue to collect your things, shaking out textbooks and examining your things for any other hidden trackers.Â
âYouâll learn tonight â come to the compound tonight â youâve been formally invited by both my father and Satoruâs father,â and heâs hopping out of the window, fingers brushing yours as he hands you your pencil case, and heâs all too close now, his warm breath warming your lips.Â
âAnd if I refuse?â and his lips curl in a smirk.Â
âYouâd be offending not only my family, but Satoruâs as wellââ and heâs rising to his feet, offering you a hand, âand it might end in an all out war, but that would be just fine for us â would it for you?âÂ
You glare at him, taking his hand reluctantly, as he helps you to your feet, and you brush the dirt from your skirt and legs, âFine, what time?âÂ
âAfter school, Satoru will be waiting by the gates for you,â he smiles, as he settles next to you, pulling out his own lunch, and you tilt your head, âoh are you curious about me? I have my own business to attend to,âÂ
âIs that what the other bastard is up to?â and he chuckles at that, taking a bite of his food.Â
âSomething like that.âÂ
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âTook you long enough, pretty,â the Gojo heirâs eyes drag over you like spotlights as he leans against the gate outside, the other students staring as you two speak, whispering as they walk by, slowing down to either catch a longer glance at Satoru or hear a bit of your conversation, âwith being so quick to leave for lunch, I thought youâd be just as quick leaving the building,â and heâs offering you a drink from the vending machine that you reluctantly take.Â
âWell, I wasnât exactly looking forward to being a spectacle,â you grumble, as you power walk away from the burgeoning traffic jam that Satoru was causing, and he follows behind, âwhy do they all stare anyway? They know you're a yakuza, donât they?âÂ
âPart of the draw,â he shrugs, the hiss of his own soda filling the air as he pops it open, âeveryone wants what they canât have, but donât worry, I only have eyes for you, sweetheart,â you grimace as he sips at his soda, raising an eyebrow, âso what canât you have?âÂ
You both finally reach the heart of the city, bustling with people left and right â the one thing you couldnât get used to from the quieter life you led, âSome peace and quiet, apparently,â you adjust your bag on your shoulder in a tighter grip, if only you could lose him in this crowd and be done with all this shit, but it wasnât that simple, and then it occurs to you, âdid you put a tracker on me as well?âÂ
âNah, I just used Suguruâs,â he smiles, as he downs the rest of his drink with his head thrown back, before crushing the can in his hand and tossing it away in the recycling bin nearby, âplus, I didnât have time, been busy with other things, unfortunately,âÂ
âWhat things have youââÂ
And youâre suddenly tugged into an alleyway, an arm around your neck and a hand clamped over your mouth, âDonât struggle, it will only make it more difficult for you,â the man whispers in your ear, as another two men draw closer to your sides, âweâll kill you if you do,âÂ
You canât scream, but you donât need to â because the man who grabbed you screams first.Â
âWho the fuck areââ and he screams, his hands slipping from your side, the thump of his body against the pavement making you flinch, as you slowly turn to find Gojo, as he only glares at the other men, before his gaze slides to you, softening with a smile.Â
âSweetheart, itâs okay, come here,â and you swallow, before taking shaky steps to his side, and heâs pulling you behind him, âwait here,âÂ
It happens far too quickly.
Or maybe itâs just a blur now. Because now heâs beaten the three men into submission, their scarlet blood splattering against his uniform, the wet squelch of their flesh as he punches and kicks them, his shoe digging into their sides. He winds his fist back again.Â
âThatâs enough,â you say hoarsely, swallowing thickly, âtheyâre barely alive,âÂ
âMore than they deserve,â he mutters, before sighing and grabbing one by his shirt, fabric straining against the dead weight of the man, and pulls him close, his hand connecting with his face as he slaps him awake, âYou hear me? Listen,â he shakes him, until the manâs eyes blink open, bleary, âYou see me? Donât forget my face. You touch her again â and itâs the last thing youâll see before the afterlife, got that?âÂ
âYes,â the man slurs.Â
âThatâs my girl,â he jerks his head at you, âsheâs mine and if you or any of your stupid friends or family see her, donât talk or touch her, much less even look at her,â and his lips curl again, âor I promise my family and the Geto family will slaughter you â until thereâs nothing left.â and he drops the man onto the ground, âletâs go,â he mutters, shaking the blood off his knuckles, before using the inside of his uniform jacket to wipe the rest off.Â
âYour uniform, it'sââ and he glances at the blood seeping into the fabric of his jacket and crisp shirt, and youâre digging through your bag, âI have my hand towel and someââ and heâs shaking his head.Â
âI have a sweatshirt I can wear in my bag,â and heâs tugging off his uniform jacket and unbuttoning his shirt, and you canât look away fast enough â not before seeing the tattoo littering his back.Â
A large lion against his back, seemingly roaring, against a backdrop of bamboo, stared back at you, as your breath catches in your throat â he wasnât just a spoiled heir, he was a real yakuza. And what he did to those men â his eyes met yours again, as he tugged the sweatshirt on, lips still in that ridiculous smile â it was likely the least of what he could really do to them.Â
âOh, sorry, guess I never told ya,â he pulls the orange sweatshirt down, pulling a pair of sunglasses on, and your horrified expression in the circular black rims stare back at you, âsorry for scaring you, sweetheart,âÂ
âYouâre reallyââ you cut off, heart caught in your throat. Yeah, you had spent too much of your life surrounded by men covered in tattoos, but these two â their auras â were on another level that was simply â terrifying.Â
âA yakuza?â he finishes, peering at you over the rim of his sunglasses, âSurprised it took you this long to figure out â thought you had that pieced together a while ago â what? I assume your family shielded you from that kind of violence â probably had guards on you 24/7 so no one would mess with you. Well you arenât in Osaka anymore,â his fingers intertwined with yours, his larger hand engulfing yours as he tugs you along away from the alley, the faint groans of the men disappearing into the ambient noise of the city, âStay close, princess.âÂ
And you flushed, biting your lip. There was a lot you didnât know, but you knew you better learn â you spare one glance back at the alley â and quick.Â
~~~
You both arrive back to the compound, as youâre funneled into a room, you get a glimpse of Suguru in an adjacent hallway, his clothes as bloodied as Satoruâs was, if not more. His dark eyes catch yours and his lips curl, as he holds his hand up as a greeting, mouthing, âYo,âÂ
Youâre shepherded away to sit, and soon enough, Satoru and Suguru join you, as you fidget in the middle of the room, the three of you sit on cushions, while another cushion directly in front of you. Your fingers can't help but toy with the ribbon on the front of your uniform â what if this was just a ruse to sell you off? Maybe they even found out about you selling your kidney? Anxiety swirled in your mind, dragging down your body to even the tips of your toes, your body buzzing and stinging with thoughts.Â
âThis really is just a talk to discuss the missing Yakuza heiress,â Suguru cuts through your thoughts, as you stare at him, slack jawed, and he only shrugs, leaning back against his hands flat on the floor, âyouâre not hard to read, sweetheart,âÂ
âBesides, if we wanted to kill you, why not let you die in that alleyway?â Satoru chimes in, ever so helpful, as you glare at him, before his gaze slides to Suguru, âdid you take care of that like I asked, Suguru?â and he nods, and before you can ask a question, the door slides open.Â
Instead of the heads of the household, a yakuza comes in, sunglasses stare back at you, his dark brown hair slicked back, shaved on the sides of his head, as he stared down at the three of you, âThe heads wonât be able to make it to this meeting â something has come up,âÂ
âYaga, good to see you,â Suguru chirps, while Satoru only sighs, hands behind his head.Â
âGlad to see you havenât gotten yourself killed since youâve been away, old manââ and Satoru earns a fist to his head, âow!âÂ
âKeep it up and youâll get something worse than a whack to the head,â Yaga grumbles, taking his seat, âyou must be the girl,â he eyes you up and down, âIâll get straight to the point â the Akazawa heiress is missing. Sheâs assumed to be kidnapped,â he hands you a photo of her â shoulder length black hair, her eyes look past the camera, her head tilted downwards, but her hazel eyes pierce through the picture.Â
âHow long has she been gone?â Suguru asks, âany chance that she just ran off?âÂ
âThereâs a chance sheâs been sold off for a couple hundred thou,â Satoru remarks, crossing his arms, âpeople would pay a premium for a yakuza heiress,â and his eyes slide to you, and you glare back.Â
âWe donât know â maybe she ran off, maybe sheâs been sold, maybe thereâll be a ransom coming in at one point or another, or maybe sheâs deadââ and you bite your lip, âbut we canât take the risk, especially since we have a similar heiress under our care now,â Yaga says, crossing his arms with a hefty sigh, âthat being said, youâll be staying at the compound until further noticeâ your things have already been brought here,â you gape at him, mouth nearly hanging open, âand youâll have Satoru or Suguru with you at all times â their schedules have been rearranged to have class with you,âÂ
âButââ and Yaga shoots a look at you that silences your protests.Â
âThese orders came from the three heads, including your grandfather, would you like to defy them?â And your mouth clamps shut, your head falling.Â
âNo, sir,â Yaga rises, leaving, but not before ordering the two heirs to show you where youâll be staying, âand any real threats to you appear, and your classes will be made online and you will remain under guard in the compound,â Yaga adds before disappearing behind another door.Â
âIt wonât be that bad, Princess,â Suguru grins, as they walk you to your room, ânow we can really get to know each other before weâre married,âÂ
âDonât you mean before weâre married?â Satoru says, as Suguru only smiles back at him.Â
âI would rather not marry you, Satoru, dating you for a week was enoughââ and Satoru opens his mouth to reply.Â
âIâm not marrying either of you,â you rub your head, feeling the beginnings of a headache creeping on your temples â you barely could make it through the day with enduring the amount of insanity these two already inflicted, you were sure youâd murder one or both of them if you had to spend 24/7 with them, âwe should be keeping a low profile from now on, not going outââÂ
âExcept for the dates we have planned,â Satoru says, offering you the key to your room, and you unlock the door, stepping inside.Â
âEspecially not for those.â And you slam the door shut and lock it.Â
Your eyes take in the boxes that surround you, full of the things from your apartment, and sigh.Â
Fuck, this really was your life now, wasnât it?Â
~~~
âWhy are you staring at me?â you canât ignore Suguruâs stare in the subway, even when you refuse to meet it. The light from the windows flooded into the subway, flickering as the carts sped by, as the two of you hung onto the grab handles. Your usual peaceful ride to university was now impeded by Suguru who stood by your side, his eyes seemingly glued to you.Â
âI see that your left side is slower to respond than your right,â and you shift under his gaze, âthatâs why your bag is always on your left side, so you can spot a threat easier and have a stronger grip, smart,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, âHow did you figure that out?âÂ
He shrugs, âFrom observation â I also move a little slower on my left â I even blink slower,â and you face him, staring into his eyes, trying to notice any difference between the two eyes. The only thing you could see is how pretty they really were â dark and lidded, not as bright or striking as Satoruâs, but just as mysterious.Â
âI canât tell,â you tilt your head, and he only smiles.Â
âThere isnât a difference, but I got you to stare into my eyes, didnât I?â and you glower at him, your remark cut off by the influx of people flooding into the cart. Fuck, you never had seen it this full before. You forced yourself not to cringe under the tight quarters â you could handle this, it wasnât a big deal, even as the people sandwiched themselves all around you, anxiety biting at your nerves. And then youâre knocked around by the crowd as the cart jerks, but then, Suguru is pulling you lightly so your back is pressed against a wall and heâs caging you in, his body protecting you.Â
Your breath catches â heâs so close, âYou donât have toââ and your gazes meet again, your breath catching, your bag caught between your bodies. Heâs nearly pressed against you, the heat from his form seeps into your own. And he smells good, despite the sticky heat of the summer lingering â something musky but sharp at the same time â what was that scent?Â
âYou seemed uncomfortable,â he says, his hand holding onto the grab handle above, âthis seemed like the easiest solution, especially so I can protect you â it would be much easier to shield you with my body this way,âÂ
âShut up,â you grumble, as he chuckles, before youâre sighing, âIâm not used to taking the subway â I used to have a car that took me back and forth,â you chew your lip, âI didnât want you to think I couldnât take care of myself,âÂ
âMakes sense to have you driven â as a yakuza heiress, they wanted precautions,â Suguru nods, his eyes sliding around the cart, âyou never know,âÂ
âIs that why your eyes keep scanning the subway cart?â you raise an eyebrow.Â
And his lips curl, âI did say Iâd protect you with my life, didnât I?âÂ
âDid you mean that?â
A chuckle escaped his lips, a noise that makes your breath catch, as the cart jerks again, pressing you both even closer, âI never say anything that I donât mean, princess.âÂ
~~~
âIs following me around really necessary even after classes?â you hadnât bothered to pull your usual disappearing act â it was counterproductive in multiple ways (the first being that either of them would find you and the second being you had to be glued to one of their sides at all times), âitâs not like someone is going jump from the shadows and kidnap me on campus.âÂ
âYou donât know that for sure, do you, princess?â Satoru drawls lazily, as he twirls his dinner knife around his fingers with a skill that said heâd done it a million times before â probably instead of doing the thing he was supposed to be doing, âa man comes up behind you while youâre studying or shopping, presses a weapon or gun to your side, just out of view, and heâs got the perfect hostage,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, âYou sound like youâve done it before,â and the knife stops between his middle finger and pointer, the tip pointed at you, as he looks at you over the rim of his sunglasses.Â
âDonât get jealous, sweetheart, youâre the only girl Iâd want to kidnap,â he leans forward and swipes a mochi from your plate â even though he had already ate his own â and you scoff, as you turn your attention back to your neglected dessert, choosing to use your brain cells to focus on your food instead of this psycho.Â
âHow lucky,â you mutter, as you stab your remaining mochi instead of your escort, âdo the two of you have to take shifts like this? Iâm surprised the two of you arenât glued to my sides 24/7 together,âÂ
âWe thought it was only fair the two of us split our time â and as much as Iâd like to spend each and every hour with you, we both unfortunately have other responsibilities to tend to,â and he takes a bite of the mochi, âplus, this way, we get to spend time with you alone without the other interfering, and trust me, if I saw you with Suguru,â his lips curl, âIâd interfere,âÂ
âWell you donât have to be worried about that, because I donât plan on being with either one of you,â you reply, âIâm here to finish school and go home as soon as I can,âÂ
âYou wonât be saying that once I make you fall for me,âÂ
You get to your feet, as you pull out your wallet â but Satoru waves you off, already pulling out his card for the waiter, âYouâd have a better chance making me fall for you if you tripped me,â you roll your eyes, as you round the booth, and quick as a light, you trip right into his arms, your body bumping against his chest as his arms steady you. A hand tilts your face up to meet cerulean eyes filled with mirth, âdid you tripââÂ
And then you spot the chair leg you had tripped over oh-so-gratefully, âI donât need to resort to those measures to make you fall for me, princess,â his finger traces your jaw with a featherlight touch, âI have plenty of other ways to do that,âÂ
You get to your feet properly and shove him away, as he chuckled, as you rolled your eyes, âMaybe in your twisted dreams, butââ And Satoru is tugging you away from the booth â a tight arm around you waist, as you stammer, âwhat the fuck are youââÂ
âGuyâs been following you â just spotted him from a distance,â he murmurs, and your shoulders tense, resisting the urge to look back, âjust keep walking with me, donât worry,â his arm gently squeezed you, âwonât let anything happen to you, princess,âÂ
âDonât call me that,â you murmur, as he leads you back inside the closest building, âwhere are weââ and heâs pulling out his phone, texting several people.Â
âGetting us a ride in case I need to get you to safety, and letting Suguru know of the situation,â he offers you a small grin, âI could send you back, but that would be that and you will be on lockdown. Things might be getting a little more interesting from here â so itâs your choice, will you stay or go?âÂ
You considered your choices â you could run away from this, go back to the compound, but going back was a guarantee that you would be stuck 24/7 in the compound and stuck there for the remainder of your time here. And these two would take full advantage of that. Plus, your mind wandered to the girl who had been taken â you wanted to know more about what happened to her and why you were being targeted next.Â
âLetâs go,â and his lips curl. The two of you round several street corners, Satoruâs arm remains tight around your waist, as he leads to a more and more secluded corner of the city, âis this the right move?â your hand wanders into your pocket, fingers around your collapsible pole.Â
He sighs dramatically, âDo you have such little faith in me, sweetheart?âÂ
âConsidering the two of you are insane, yes, I do,â and he clicks his tongue at you, âwhereââÂ
And someone punches you, fist connecting with your left cheek as you stumble sideways into the wall of a nearby building. You hear the cock of a gun, your eyes catch sight of the weapon pointed at Satoru. You caught a glimpse as your eyes flicker open, several men stand behind him, all bearing weapons of some sort.Â
Your ears ring, as you clutch at your head, as you struggle to get your balance, your vision in your left eye blurry from the impact, âCome with me, and your girlfriend wonât have to watch you die,â you feel something warm run down your nose, and you touch it â scarlet stains your fingers.Â
Fuck.Â
Your eyes flicker back to where Satoru stands, eyes flickering to you, a shiver running down your spine at his hard gaze â not a hint of euphoria left â his lips a thin line, and his fists clenched, âIâll fucking kill you,â his words leave in a whispered hiss, and quick as lightning, the gun is knocked from his fingers, and Satoruâs got him pinned down, fist winding back to punch his head in. The other men donât hesitate to join the fray, just as Satoru doesnât hesitate to take them down, blood spilling from their bodies as they fall one by one.Â
You said you would be stronger â that you wouldnât let this happen again. You werenât some person who needed to be sheltered away. Your fingers clutched at the pole in your pocket, pulling it out, as you slowly uncollapsed it â you were a yakuza heir, just as much as these two were.Â
One of them got up to shaky feet, lifting up his knife to stab Satoru from behind, âDIE!â and you slam into his side, hitting over the head with the pole â a grisly crack as the pole nearly snaps against his skull.Â
âFuck off and die!â the words leave your lips as you taste your own blood dripping from your nose. And you can feel Satoru turn to see you, eyes wide as he stares â your words burn as much as your head hurts, as you wipe the blood from your nose.Â
And the men are all down now, as Satoru walks over to you, and his fingers reach gently for your face, as he examines the blood dripping, âitâs just a nosebleed,â you say, and his gaze softens ever so slightly, before darkening, as a groan comes from the man that punched you.Â
âAre you sure youâre okay?â your heart flutters at his gentle touch, the calluses of his fingers against your cheek, as he pulls tissues from his pocket to wipe the blood from your nose.Â
And his eyes linger on your face for a moment, before he turns to the culprit, fingers clenched tightly around the napkin soaked in your blood.Â
He drags the man up by the collar, shaking him, a gurgled groan leaving his bloody lips, âYou might want to go, sweetheart â I have to make sure I let this one die for ever laying a hand on my womanââ and you clasp your hand on his shoulder, shaking your head.Â
âHeâs half dead already â you donât need to finish the job,â and he pouts, shaking the man again for good measure.Â
âYou said he should dieââÂ
You shrug, âPeople like this arenât worth the trouble of killing. And you donât need more problems on your hands â so if youâre doing this for me, donât bother. Letâs just go,âÂ
And you see his lips slowly curl into a grin, as he pulls you into a hug, arms around you waist, as he runs his fingers through your hair gingerly, âI didnât realize you cared, sweetheart,â and you frown, âdonât want me getting in more trouble, huh? If itâs for you, Iâll oblige, but you owe me one,â and his fingers slide under your chin.Â
âOi, is the party over without me?â A familiar voice calls, Suguru walks over, several other Yakuza in tow, his sleeves rolled up, as he takes a once over of the situation, seemingly uninterested in the scum, his eyes falling on you and Satoru, lingering on the blood that still was trickling from your nose. His eyes narrowed, âwhich oneââÂ
âItâs already taken care of, Suguru,â Satoru rubs the back of his head, âbut for your information,â he kicks the one who had punched you in his side, forcing him to roll over, a slight groan escaping his lips, âthatâs the one who hurt her,âÂ
Suguru nodded, stepping over the bodies as if it was nothing more than a spill that had been yet to be cleaned up, as his hand brushes over your chin softly, drawing close, a sharp gasp leaving your lips when his fingers decide to travel to your nose, âItâs not broken, just bleeding, but I should still get her checked out at the compound,âÂ
âYou?â Satoru furrows his brow, âyouâre going to leave meââÂ
âTo clean up your own mess? Yes, I am,â Suguru smiles, âbecause itâs my turn to keep watch,â as he shows his watch, already well past midnight, âand I should be getting her back to the compound,â the two glare at each other, a tension settling over the scene that you were far too done with.Â
You sigh, stepping past both of them, walking over the bodies splayed out on the floor, âLet me know when you both decide,â you yawn, hands in your pockets now, âI need sleep,â and Suguru follows behind, and you donât see him turn to smirk at Satoru.Â
~~~~
You swore someone was watching you.Â
A presence loomed over you, hovering slightly, as you shifted in your sleep, a sigh parting your lips as you turned, still caught between in realms of deep sleep as you drifted in and out, eyes fluttering open a moment, and caught sight of a shadow.Â
No, it was nothing. It was nothing. And then youâd wake to sunlight filtering through your windows, eyes fluttering open, but you would still wake with the lingering touch of someone else against your face.Â
But each morning youâd check the locks, and it would be locked, with no signs of tampering â and youâd be left wondering if it was a dream or not.Â
It had been like this for the last week â youâd sense a presence, for a split second of what you thought was consciousness, and then it would be morning again.Â
And finally, you decided to stay awake, a knife you had pilfered away from the kitchen under your pillow. You let your eyes drift shut, drifting in and out of a half sleep, until you hear it.Â
The slow slide of the door opening, and the soft close of the door behind. The person takes nearly soundless steps towards you, before leaning above you and you feel the faint brush of hair against your skin, before leaning back with a quiet sigh.Â
Suguru?
And his fingers slide through your hair softly. He watches over you, quietly, until you turn to face him, eyes open.Â
âYou know itâs really creepy to break into a womanâs room in the middle of the night,â and Suguru blinks, before his lips curl in a small smirk, âand itâs even weirder when you just sit there to watch her sleep,âÂ
âJust trying to make sure youâre safe, sweetheart,âÂ
âIn a locked room?â And he shrugs.Â
âI broke in easily,â and you scoff, as he rakes his own fingers through his hair, âwho else would keep an eye on you?âÂ
You sit up, crossing your arms, âSurprised you and Satoru arenât in here,âÂ
âWe take turns,â and you stare at him, as he leans back against the wall, âall we do is keep watch princess â would you have let us in otherwise?âÂ
You open and shut your mouth, before you find words again amidst the haze of frustration, âIâm not so fucking helpless that you both need to sit here and watch me sleep,â
âWe have been doing this since the threats began nearly and you only noticed recently,â he points out, his eyes catching the faint light of the moon, as cautious and patient as Suguru was â his expression as indiscernible as a new moon was, âand itâs only because Satoru had gotten sloppy,â he shrugs.Â
You rub at your temples, âyouâre not the only one who is a yakuzaââÂ
Suguru tilts his head, âPrincess, you donât know what it means to be one â not even your fingers have never been bloodied, and it should stay that wayââÂ
Your fingers close around the handle of the knife as you lunge at him â you snapped. You were tired â tired of the men in your life running your life â your grandfather, these yakuza heads, and these two idiots â all of them treating you as if you were spineless.Â
And you werenât.Â
His hand darts out â and it happens quickly. The knife clatters against the hardwood, and heâs pinned you underneath him.Â
You glare, embarrassment licks at your cheeks like flames â you had placed your fingers on the stovetop and what were you expecting other than to get burned? You canât meet his gaze, and youâre expecting another lecture or sanctimonious attitude, but instead, his fingers skim your cheek, âYou should pick your battles wisely, sweetheart â because not all of them will let you off the hook,â and he leans close, breath warming your lips, as your eyes canât help but squeeze shut.Â
Only to wince after a sharp flick to your forehead.Â
And his weight leaves you at once, your head turning to find him examining the knife you had stolen, âYou should also choose a better weapon than a kitchen knife â especially one as dull as this one,âÂ
You scowl at him, âWell, how else will I defend myself?âÂ
And he smiles, shrugging, âIsnât it simple? Use the weapons already at your disposal,âÂ
Your brow knots together, âWhat weapons?â And his hand is sliding the door open, as he casts one more glance over his shoulder, lips curled in that insufferable smile.Â
âThe ones sworn to you.âÂ
~~~~Â
âYouâre staying home tomorrow from class,â the thermometer is plucked from between your lips, the white haired yakuza scrutinizing your room, cerulean eyes catching the pile of tissues you had failed to stuff properly in your trash bin, âhow long have you had this, Princess?âÂ
You lay bedridden and pouting as you draw the covers over your face â you had not been feeling well this whole weekend, but you developed a fever last night. You thought it would be gone by the morning, âJust since this morning,â and heâs tugging the covers away, his brow wrinkled, and then you see it, bandages on his forehead, âwhen did you get hit on the head?âÂ
And he blink, fingers running through his hair, âThis? Itâs nothing,â and you raise an eyebrow, âif you must know, itâs just my punishment for taking you into the thick of things the other day,âÂ
Your brow wrinkles, âWhoââÂ
He waves you off, âItâs not important â the important thing is that you get better â canât have my future wife succumbing to the flu, now can I?â And you scoff.Â
âIâm not your future wife,â you mumble, and you hear a small chuckle from him. And then your muscles begin to grow heavy, eyelids fluttering shut under the weight of exhaustion, and your skin feeling far too cold for your burning insides, âGojo, Iâm notââÂ
And you slip into darkness.Â
You can feel the world around you move, the sounds of wind brushing against your skin, and the flicker of lights in your eyes. Your lips part, a desert inside your mouth with no oasis in sight, âwhereââ
A voice quietly shushes you, fingers raking through your hair gently, lulling you back to sleep. Was it your grandfather? No, he never coddled you like this. Not even he had his yakuza to look after. You were expected to care for yourself â- you couldnât show weakness.Â
Not as an heir â even if you were just a kid.Â
And when you do wake for a moment, itâs with some prodding, a voice whispering for you to open your mouth at the press of a medicine cap to your lips, and your eyes flutter open to catch a glimpse of blue eyes â so you do, swallowing it with water.Â
You fall into the arms of sleep again, only waking to your head slightly aching, and a distinct void in your stomach. You reach around blindly for your phone, and find that itâs still Sunday, nearly the evening. Your eyes adjust as your gaze spots the last glimmers of the sunset in the window.Â
How long have you slept? Like four hours? You sighed, slumping back into bed, as you stretched. Your fingers pressed to your forehead, still a slight fever, but it was definitely lower. Maybe you could sleep for a bit longer, and you turn on your side only to find a familiar, not-so familiar sight. Your lips canât help but curl a little. Again there is someone in your room, but instead as your eyes flutter open you see that Satoru has dozed off.
You hold back a chuckle, as you slowly get up, drawing a little closer. His head was against the wall, slightly tilted, soft breaths leaving his lips, arms crossed. He had a prescription medicine next to him along with a water bottle. Your fingers reach for the medicine, and you glance it over â seeing that it was prescribed earlier today for you.Â
Your brows knit together, when did youâand then it comes back to you slowly â the lights, the sound of wind and cars â he drove you to a hospital. And his shoulder starts to slipÂ
And then you reach for him, trying to make sure he didnât hurt himself.Â
Thatâs when he grabs you â his eyes fly open, as he grabs you by the wrist, pulling you close, his hard topaz gaze cuts through you, until it slowly fills with recognition. His fingers digging into your wrist loosen ever so slightly, as he blinks.Â
âSorry about that, sweetheart,â but his fingers donât leave your wrist, âare you feeling better?âÂ
âI am,â you admit, as his other hand reaches up to brush against your forehead and then neck, sending hest crawling up your skin for a different reason.Â
âLooks like the medicine worked,â he sighs, leaning back, âguess I can scratch beating up that doctor off my list,â and you furrow your brow, âit was a joke, Princess,âÂ
âWhy did you take me?â You asked and he tilted his head, âI mean you could have had me looked at here, so why did youââÂ
âAs much as my father pays for these services, they donât work weekends, usually â we do have an on-call physician, but,â he shrugs, as his thumb brushed back and forth against your wrist, right where your pulse was, âI didnât want to wait,âÂ
And your eyes slide to the bandages around his head, âbut you couldnât get that checked out?âÂ
âWorried about me? Iâm touched, Princess,â and your fingers reach for the bandages and brush against his locks, âhey, youââÂ
âItâs coming loose,â you lean over and slide your hands until you find where itâs coming undone and tie it tighter, fingers brushing against his soft locks â noting the undercut you hadnât noticed before, âthere,âÂ
âThank you,â he murmurs, as your eyes meet his and your breath catches, your face an inch or two from his. And he looks different in the dark of the room, illuminated by the last vestiges of sun that were quickly fading into the night â softer.Â
âWhy did you take care of me?â And he blinks a moment, taken aback and he tilts his head, âsomeone else could haveââÂ
âI wanted to,â he cuts you off gently, âwhy would I let someone else do it when I could? It was the least I could do,â and it was your turn to tilt your head, as he adds in a whisper, âI let you get hurt. I should have sent you home,âÂ
âIf you had tried, I would have stayed anyway,â and he chuckles.Â
âI know,â he murmurs, âand I know what itâs like to tough through things as if youâre invincible â as if nothing can touch you â and itâs only a matter of time until it does,â and your fingers brush against the bandages on his head, as you dare closer, less than a breath away.Â
âMaybe I should make you take your own advice,â you whisper, and his lips quirk upwards in a smirk.Â
âIâd love to see you try, Princess,â he adds with a grin, âyou know Iâd love to submit to you anytiââÂ
And you swallow the rest of his sentence with your lips, a chaste brush that leaves your entire body burning for more â a spark to kindling that you told yourself you wouldnât start. But, your lips part his to see his soft gaze meeting your own, before finding your lips again, how could you not?Â
âIâm going to get you sick,â you manage between kisses, lips meeting and parting, as he chuckles against you, a vibration sending a shiver that definitely wasnât from your fever.
âYouâre worth it, Princess,â but he kisses you one last time, noses brushing, before your stomach rumbles loudly in the relative silence of both of your soft pants. You flush, and he canât hold back his laugh, as you smack his shoulder. Â
âShut up, I havenât eaten since breakfast, thanks to someone,â and heâs still laughing as you try to smack him again, but he catches you by the wrist.Â
âDonât forget, I really like it when you punish me,â his lips press to your wrist, your breath catching for a moment before you hit him again on the chest regardless. And he laughs, leaning on his hand, âoh what will I do with you, sweetheart?âÂ
You scowl at him, rolling your eyes, âYou can start by getting me dinner,â you grumble, and he repents, getting to his feet, âSatoru?â And he pauses, eyes flickering back, âthank you,â you manage, biting your lip all the whole, unable to meet his eyes or see the smile on his lips.Â
âAnytime, Princess.âÂ
~~~~
You hadnât seen Suguru or Satoru all week.Â
Once a sought after rarity l, but now a foreboding concern. Satoru had been away on business â you didnât care to know what, but you knew heâd come back only more clingy than ever. You chewed on your lip â especially after the kiss.Â
Fuck. You kissed Satoru, you buried your face in your hands, what the fuck were you doing? Could you use the excuse that your fever had rendered you momentarily insane? No, Satoru would only crack a joke saying that heâs crazy for you too.Â
What was your plan? You were only trying to bide your time for a year â not become further entangledÂ
You lay back on your bed, as you scroll through your phone â but Suguru was a different story. You heard from Satoru that he had returned. Yet now there was some random yakuza checking in each hour â and even worse, keeping you confined to the compound.Â
And a small part of you did worry for them as you tossed your phone aside â those fools may have death wishes but that didnât mean you wished the same.Â
You leave your room, sighing as you explore the compound. You had done your fair share of exploring, but you had never wandered into Suguru or Satoruâs quarters. You had been told by each of them where their rooms were, only for you to glare at them for providing you the implication. But nowâŚmaybe it was useful.Â
You walked through the halls â seemed like most people were away at the moment. When Satoru had captured those people who had attacked you both, there was information learned about who was targeting you and of where that girl who was taken could possibly be. But itâs not like you were able to find that information out â unless you went looking yourself.Â
Satoru and Suguruâs rooms were close to each otherâs â but Satoruâs room was locked, as you tugged at the door to no avail. You glared at the handle as if it was the white haired idiot itself, before turning to Suguruâs door.Â
You pressed your ear to the door, it was silent, not a single noise inside. You pull at the door and it opens. You step inside â the room is neat, a desk in the corner, along with a bed on the opposite side, but not much else. There were a few other things â a dresser with a few containers tucked beside it and a small bookcase against the wall near the desk lined with books on each shelf.Â
It wasnât what you expected â though you didnât know what to expect. You stepped into the room, glancing around, as you approached the desk first. You rifle through the papers, finding nothing relevant â only papers from class and a few scattered notes that had nothing but addresses and initials scribbled.Â
And then the door opens, you freeze, before you slowly turn to see Suguru, his clothes tattered, blood dripping from his arms and soaked through his white button up. His gaze is dark and heavy, until he finds your eyes, his brow wrinkled.Â
âWhat are you doing?â no âsweetheartâ or âPrincessâ â just a question.Â
âI was lookingââ but you bite your lips, as you watch his shoulders slump, âwhat happenedââÂ
And he draws closer, as you slowly take steps back, until heâs looming over you, his arm pressed above you, âPrincess, you shouldnât get involved in these things, unless you want to end up like this,â and the smell of death rolls off of him, the heaviness of his gaze could drag you down to the depths of hell â but you didnât care.Â
âSit down,â and he blinks, before youâre pressing him onto the bed, âIâm going to get a first aid kit and some bandages,âÂ
âSweetheartââ but youâre already out of the room, returning with a first aid kit and bandages, âwhere did youââÂ
âWell after that first time Satoru and I got jumped by those people, I figured it would be good to stock up on things,â you pull out scissors and tape, and you dampen a washcloth you had stored in the kit with a water bottle you had grabbed. âTake off your shirt,â he hesitates, âgetting shy?âÂ
Suguruâs lips curl, before he sighs, unbuttoning his shirt, âYou know I rather you hurt me than take care of me,â and you scoff, as you busy yourself with preparing the materials to tend to him.Â
âWell it looks like someone else already did that for you,â and your eyes meet with his bare chest, the red and black ink of his tattoos encroached onto his shoulders, but more than that â bruises bloomed on different parts of his body, scars from old wounds of various ages littered his skin, and dried and fresh scarlet clung to his skin from fresh cuts.Â
You take the washcloth, slowly starting to run it over his body, the white cloth marred with his blood, he doesnât flinch even as it cleans his cuts or wounds. Â
âWhy are you doing this?â And your eyes meet his, his amethyst eyes cut through you.Â
âBecause youâre hurt,âÂ
âJust because Iâm hurt doesnât mean you have to help,â you sigh, as you urge him to turn so you can clean his back next, the sight of his tattoo on his back unsurprising now as you continue to clean it.Â
âDoesnât mean you donât have to either,â he gives a soft chuckle, âwhatâs your goal here sweetheart?â You urge him to turn again, as you begin to clean the blood from his arms.Â
âDo I need to have a goal?â And he turns to face you, leaning even closer, as his black locks fall in his eyes.Â
âEveryone has one â didnât you have one for coming in here?â And your hesitation is all the answers he needs, âcurious about whatâs going on with those people after you, huh?âÂ
There wasnât any use lying now, âWouldnât you be?âÂ
âI would be, but I wouldnât get caught, now would I?â and you scoff, as his lips curl, âwe have been tracking the group that we suspect has the heiress, and we have been interrogating the people that you and Satoru secured,â âsecuredâ â more like nearly murdered by the way Satoru acted.Â
âAnd where were you?âÂ
He sighed, âDealing with some loose ends â and some other business that my father had me deal with,â and he adds, âI had to make sure a message got out â so no one would ever attack you like that again,â
And why does your heart squeeze at the thought, âWhy are you so willing to tell me?â And your hands begin to clean and wipe his palms. And you set the washcloth down, beginning to bandage some of the larger cuts and wounds, and his fingers intertwined with yours, as you glance up.Â
âBecause you deserve the truth,â he shrugs, âand even if I lie, youâll figure it out, so why not tell you to begin with?â And he leans even closer, fingers skimming your cheek, âplus I donât keep secrets from my future wife,âÂ
âIâm not marrying you,â but you donât pull away, as heâs even closer now.Â
âWell, you said never before â and Iâve worn you down to a ânotâ â itâs only a matter of time,â and his words make you want you to pull away, to scoff at his words and leave, but you donât.Â
Why canât you?Â
âAnd I thought Satoru was the one full of himselfââ and his lips find yours, his kiss was more insistent, his fingers find your jaw, featherlight before it finds purchase on the back of your neck. You could taste the faint taste of blood, lingering on his lips,Â
âAnd you also thought Satoru was a good kisser,â he smirks, as his lips ghost down your jaw, nose brushing against your cheek, as you pause â how did heâ âwell now you know what a good kisser is actually like,âÂ
Your eyebrows knit together, âGetoââÂ
âSuguru,â he corrects you, he tilts his head, his thumb cupping your chin, and your lips find the otherâs, his forehead pressed to yours. Then his phone rings, and the momentâs broken. He pulls away just as fast, as he turns to answer his phone, âHello?â he listens, a manâs voice on the other end, âI understand, okay.â and the call ends, as he offers a smile to you, âI have to deal with some business, but Iâll be back later. And then it looks like Iâll be your escort while Satoru is away.âÂ
âWhat businessââ but heâs brushing past you, going to his wardrobe to grab a fresh shirt, buttoning it swiftly, before pulling on another jacket, as he turns to glance at you over his shoulder.Â
âYou know better than to ask me that,â
âBut you said you would be honest,â and he shrugs his shoulders, a smirk on his lips, as he heads out of the room.Â
âI didnât say when.âÂ
~~~~
âWe have to tell her,â Satoru stood, hands in his pockets, leaning against the wall of the compound. Suguru clicks his lighter again, flicking it on and off â he had quit a few months ago when you had told him that you hated the smell. And he didnât miss it, but he still carried the lighter â old habits die hard, âthe pictures we got â they are getting better at tracking her without us noticing. And these other fires weâre being sent out to deal with â itâs leaving us with less time to protect her,â
âDo you have to?â Suguru asked, flicking his lighter closer, the silver outside glinting in the low light of the moon, âisnât it safer for her to stay in the dark for now?âÂ
âStaying in the dark doesnât mean she wonât put herself in danger one way or another without us knowing,â Satoru shrugs, âshe said even if I had sent her home that day that those men were after her, she would have came after me,âÂ
Suguru gives a terse chuckle, âI donât doubt that she would,â he sighs, gaze towards the inky darkness of the sky, dotted with faint stars that he couldnât see but knew were there â just as these threats were, âif she found out that her grandfather was threatened too? Thereâs no way she would wait,âÂ
âSo what do we do?â Satoru scratched the back of his head, âwe could send her back home â she might be safer there than here,âÂ
âHer grandfather told usââÂ
âI know, but what choice do we have, Suguru?â he sighs, and Suguru canât help but quirk his lips.Â
âYou know if we do this, we may have to fight her grandfather to stay engaged with her,â And Satoru smiles, shrugging.Â
âI know, but we can handle it, canât we?â Satoru leans back, âweâll just have to fight him on it. Why? Are you afraid?â Â
Suguru gives a short chuckle, âSince when have you known me to be afraid of anything?â And he turns his gaze towards the door, âso when should we tell her?âÂ
But they donât notice that youâre pressed against the door, your fists clenched. And they were right about one thing â you wouldnât wait.Â
~~~~
CRACK!Â
Fuck, your eyes burned as you tried to open them, the sharp pain in the back of your head radiating all over, as your eyelids refused to open. What happened? You tried to hold your head, only to have your wrists strain against something rough â rope? The fibers dig into your wrists as you try to stand, only to find them bound to something else.Â
âFinally awake?â it was a womanâs voice â and your eyes still canât quite open â fuck, this wasnât part of your plan, âtake your time, they said they wanted you in pristine condition so I canât have you falling apart on me later on,â she scoffs, her footsteps receding away, and you could hear the quiet murmurs of other voices â men, by the baritone.Â
Your eyes burned as you adjusted to opening them, still fighting the urge to flutter them shut under the pain. The dim light swung overhead, a warehouse from the bare floors and even barer walls and ceilings overhead, barely illuminated in the flickering exposed lightbulbs hanging over the middle of the room.Â
âWhere am I?â You choked out, voice wavering in a way that made you want to grit your teeth and chide yourself for the fear that seeped into your words.Â
The quiet click of heels came closer, âDonât recognize me? Well I suppose you never did see my face in person,â and you knit your brows together as she stepped closer, leaning in far too near for your comfort, âI should thank you for your efforts in trying to find out what happened to me. It made it far easier to kidnap you,âÂ
Her hazel eyes were even more startling in person.Â
âThe Akawaza heiress,â you stare at her â her hair had grown a little past her shoulders now, ends slightly curling at them, âI thoughtââÂ
âI was missing? I was,â her lips curled, running her sharp lacquered nails through her black locks, âbut it was my choice,â the screech of chair legs scraping against the floor makes you flinch ever so slightly, as she sits in front of you, her legs crossed, âIâm being rude â how is your grandfather?âÂ
âFuck off,â you spit, and she clicks her tongue.Â
âAnd here I thought you had manners, but I suppose the cityâs changed you, little princess?â she hums, leaning back, wood of the chair creaking as she did, âor maybe your boyfriends did,â you say nothing, scoffing, as she sighs, âor knowing your grandfather, you probably didnât have any to begin with,âÂ
Rage fills your veins, lava bursting from them as the venom leaves your lips, âDonât talk about my grandfather like thatââÂ
âWhy shouldnât I? You never cared for the yakuza before, right? Is your grandfather not included in that equation? Or maybe it was because he kept what he did behind closed doors, and never bothered to tell you the truth,â and youâre not fast enough to stop your brow from furrowing, and she latches onto it, âOh he didnât tell you, did he?âÂ
âYou really love the sound of your own voice, donât you?â you murmur, and she laughs at your remark, her nails clicking against the forearm of the chair â lacquer on wood that began to grate on your nerves, âcan you get to the point of all this shit? Why the fuck am I here?âÂ
âBecause your grandfather is picking and choosing who he favors â and so I decided to take his heart, and Iâll only give her back if he gives me what I want â �� and then you see the way her lips curl and her jaw is cut, and it occurs to you.Â
Your grandfather had said he was a heartbreaker.Â
âYouâre his granddaughter,â and she smirks, her nails falling still.Â
âDo you see the family resemblance?â she leans against her hand, elbow against the arm of her chair, âit would be nice to meet you â if I didnât have to possibly kill you,âÂ
âSo you want to be the heiress? I never wanted to be one in the first placeââÂ
âDo you think that matters?â she scoffs, âwhat matters is the choice your grandfather makes â and heâs chosen you â with no regard for the other children he has had,â her gaze falls downward, âdo you know what it is like to watch your mother vye for the approval of someone who never truly cared for her in the first place?âÂ
Your gaze falls downward, âI donât know,â you admit, âbut is all this worth this? What do you think he will even do for me?âÂ
âHeâll meet my demands, and each hour he doesnât, heâll get another finger of yours,â she pulls a knife out, the blade glinting in the dim light, as she rises to her feet, your body straining back as she draws close to you, running the flat of the blade down your cheek, âshould I start with your left hand or right?â she pulls the blade back, and you smile, âwhatââÂ
And you lean your head back and smash your head against her own. The crack of your skulls colliding rung in your ears, along with the knife clattering to the ground, as you felt warm droplets ran down your face, and she stumbles back, clutching at her forehead, scarlet staining her face and fingers, âItâs funny you think that I came to you without a plan â how do you think I found you?âÂ
âIt wasnât on her own,â and a hand on her shoulder, before sheâs pinned to the floor. Satoruâs eyes slide to you, a smile on his lips, as sheâs struggling, trying to look for her men, âlooking for your goons? Suguru has taken care of them by now, unless he needs my help,âÂ
âAkari isnât the only one who likes to hear herself talk,â Suguru runs his fingers through his hair, âSatoru, you havenât even untied her,â his footsteps echoing as he approaches you, bending down to pick up Akariâs knife.Â
âA little busy at the moment, Suguru,â Gojo has Akari pinned with one hand, âunless youâd like her to get away,â and Suguru shrugs, as he slips the knife under your restraints and cuts them off, âare you doing alright, sweetheart?âÂ
âIâm fine, just my headâs aching,â and Suguru pulls a cloth from his pocket, wiping the blood from your face, your eyes closing and nose wrinkling as he does, âdid you call my grandfather?âÂ
âYeah, I donât have a death wish,â Satoru replies as he hauls Akari up and hands her off to his associate to take her.Â
You get to shaky feet, âHold on,â you walk over, grabbing Akari by the front of her blouse, silk wrinkling under your grasp, âfuck with me or my family again, and I wonât be so lenient,â you shove her off, and then you add, âbut Iâll talk to my grandfather about some sort of possible arrangement for your mother,âÂ
And then you wave the yakuza off and they take her away â assuredly to Kyoto to be dealt with by her grandfather.Â
âAre you really going to talk to your grandfather about her?â Suguru asks, raising an eyebrow.Â
âItâs the least he could do since he caused me to be targeted,â you grumble, rubbing your wrists, as Satoru takes his suit coat off and places it around your shoulders, before a smirk pulls at your lips.Â
Suguru tilts his head, smiling, âWell, how would he feel if he knew you got kidnapped on purpose?â And you shrug.Â
âHe doesnât need to know that.âÂ
~~~
âIâm surprised you guys agreed to my plan,â you hiss as Satoru takes a damp cloth to clean the dried blood from your face, while Suguru is knelt, bandaging your ankles â their rough and bruised hands somehow still gentle, âI thought you would never let me wander into danger,âÂ
âWell, we knew we had to do something when we realized you were listening to us, didnât we, Princess?â Satoru snorted, and you could hear the smile gracing his features â even with your eyes shut â âand this was the best way to ensure you werenât hurt,âÂ
âRelatively,â Suguru adds, as he finishes bandaging one ankle, âdid she do anything else to you?âÂ
And Satoruâs hand pauses as they both wait for your answer, and you shake your head, âNo,â and Satoru pulls the washcloth away, your eyes fluttering open to meet two skeptical gazes, âreally, Iâm fine,â your lips curl after the two of them look away, Satoru turning to grab a bag of ice for your forehead, while Suguru busied himself with bandaging your other ankle, âis this threat the reason my grandfather sent me to Tokyo?âÂ
The timing had lined up â Akari had started the threats not a few months before â after she had reached legal age, the perfect age to contend for the position of successor to her grandfather. And by sending you here, your grandfather thought he was putting you out of immediate danger â but he didnât know Akari would make her way to Tokyo.Â
âMore or less,â Satoru sighed, as you flinched when he pressed the ice pack to your head, the condensation from the bag already clinging and dripping down your face, âthe geezer wanted to find the source of the threats against youâand by sending you here, to your potential fiancĂŠsââÂ
âI would be safe protected twofold by two of the biggest familiesââ and you blink, pulling the ice pack away from your face, âthe engagements â thatâs why they were leaked â it was to protect me,â you mumble, âso that meansââÂ
âYou can go home if you want, Princess,â Suguru says, looking up at you, expression as inscrutable as it always was, âthe engagements were only pretense,âÂ
âYou both knew?â And Satoru sighs, scratching the back of his head, and why does it feel as if his nails are carving out a piece of your heart.Â
âThe old coot swore us to secrecy, we didnât haveââÂ
âBut, everything, the two of youâŚthe engagementâitâs over,â you say slowly, gaze falling downward. You should be happy, relieved, thrilled â you could go home, what you wanted to do from the start. You could get your own apartment or transfer to a different universityâand leave this behind, a bad dream washed away by the events of a new day. So why?Â
Why did it hurt?Â
âDonât tell me youâll actually miss us, sweetheart?â Satoru teased, a force more than anything â bittersweet worded coated in a sugary sarcasm, âbecause I very well may propose here and now,âÂ
You almost scoff, but Suguru beats you to it.Â
âA proposal now? Seems like finishing early isnât what you just do in bed, Satoru,â Suguru scoffs, as Satoru shoots a glare over his sunglasses, âsheâs only eager to get home now isnât she? "If she isnât so eager,â he adds, âthen she would stop the one she wants from leaving her room, wouldnât she?âÂ
And Suguru is slowly getting to his feet, while Satoru also turns to leave â and you donât thinkâbut you were sure that you truly hadnât thought a single sane thought since you had arrived in Tokyoâ
You grab at the fabric of both their shirts, fingers clutching at it, as your lips curled when they glanced back at you.Â
âWho said either of you could leave?â
~~~
��Youâre going to have to use your words,â you murmured, fingers ghosting Satoruâs jaw, a delightful shiver parting his lips as you smiled at him, sat spread at the edge of your bed, âwhat do you want?â You stepped closer, between his legs, daring even closer.Â
âSweetheart, you know what Iââ and a low groan leaves his throat as your fingers slide to the nape of his neck to tug at his snowy locks, âpleaseââÂ
âI know you love this,â you murmur, leaning to press a kiss to his throat, smiling against his skin, âyou said you wanted me to hurt you, so it looks like youâre getting your wish,â your eyes slide to the other, sat in a chair, âI know you like to watch, Suguru, so you must be enjoying yourself,â and youâre further unbuttoning Satoruâs shirt all the same â crisp white button up definitely creased and wrinkled as it fell open, tugged out from his slacks.Â
Suguruâs fingers flexed against the grain of the wood of the armrests, his muscles taut, his lips a tight line that only matched the fabric of his slacks straining against his erection. The corner of his mouth twitches, and you smirk.Â
âI didnât hear an answer, Suguru,â and youâre placing another kiss on Satoruâs neck, a whine leaving his throat, while your eyes find Suguruâs amethyst gaze darkened to nearly black, his knuckles white against the wood, as you lean down to lick a stripe up Satoruâs neck, who bites his bottom lip.Â
âIâd enjoy it even more if I could touch you, or me,â Suguru adds through gritted teeth, âPrincessââÂ
And you click your tongue, âYou had such patience when you were watching me sleep â so whereâs that patience now?â Your fingers graze Satoruâs erection through his slacks, and his head is falling back, as Suguru shifts in his seat, not so subtly adjusting himself.Â
You undo Satoruâs belt, unbuckling it with ease, as his cock slaps against his stomach, and you didnât know it was possible for a dick to be pretty, but Satoruâs was â a deep flush settled over it, pearly beads of precum dripping from the ruby tip. And a distinct heat begins to throb between your thighs.Â
âYou can touch yourself,â you tell Suguru, his legs twitching to get up, âbut you canât cum until I tell you can,â you run a finger up Satoruâs cock, teasing the weeping tip, a groan leaving the snowy haired manâs lips, âstrip, Suguru,âÂ
And he does, you hear the click of his belt, the sound of fabric rustling, as your fingers tease the slit of Satoruâs cock, gathering precum on your fingers, drawing a grunt from his lips. You can hear the distinct sound of Suguru spitting in his palm, his hand beginning to work at his own cock.Â
âBoth sâgood for me,â you murmur, as you stroke Satoruâs cock in earnest, the quiet moans from both their mouths sending a ribbon of need to your already dripping cunt, âcanât wait to fuck you both, make you my toys,â and youâre pressing a kiss to Satoruâs tip, his pretty, pink lips parting, as his head rolls back again, âbut youâd both like that wouldnât you? Maybe I shouldnât let either of you cum, make you beg me all night,â as your tongue traces his lovely vein up the side of his cock, âwhat do you think, Toru?â And your mouth finally closes around his dick, sucking hard that draws a hiss from his lips, fingers fisted in the sheets.Â
And Suguru isnât doing much better, the sounds of his hand squelching and the moans leaving his lips growing louder and louder.Â
âPlease, Princess, Iâm close, I canâtââ and you click your tongue, a pout on your lips, as you pull away your touch, âbaby, IââÂ
âCanât let either of you cum so fast,â your eyes slide to Suguru, his cheeks flushed a lovely pink that reaches even his ears, as his hand slows, his cock twitching in his fingers, âgotta make you earn it. Itâs only right after all the shit you put me through right?âÂ
Itâs a cycle, a cycle of you bringing them both to the edge of orgasm, only to tell them to stop. Their sweat slicked brows wrinkled, as you worked them up once again and again and again â you had lost track of how many times.Â
âPlease, please, sweetheart,â and you knew you could get Satoru to beg, but you didnât think it would be this easy, and you let his dick brush against your throat, as you let him fuck your throat, hips jerking, âfuuuuck, I need toââÂ
And youâre pulling your lips from his cock with a pop, glancing at Suguru whose black locks are beginning to come loose from their neat bun, more of a mess now than he had been fighting yakuza earlier, and all because of you.Â
âSuguru? Wanna cum?â you ask, smirking as his gaze raises to meet yours, a desperate look that tells you everything you need to know, âbe a good boy and tell me,âÂ
He swallows, adamâs apple bobbing, as pre drips down his knuckles, âfuck, Princess,â heâs shaking his head, â I want to cum, please â I needââÂ
And your lips curl, âcum for me,â you murmur before youâre wrapping your lips around Satoru again, his tip brushing against your throat, sucking hard, his fingers finding purchase in your hair. And heâs cumming hard, his hot release slides down your throat, nails digging into your scalp, nearly never ending â even as you pull away, his cum paints your face and lips, and drips onto your clothes. His cerulean eyes glazed as he looked down at you between his legs, a string of spit and cum connecting you to his cock.Â
And Suguru was no better. He had cum hard all over his hand and the floor, his cock still somehow half hard, his body slumped back in the chair, as his chest heaved. His hair tie had long fallen away, his long black locks brushing against his shoulders.Â
You lick your lips clean of Satoruâs cum, wiping the rest away with the back of your hand, âMade such a mess,â you tsk, as you get to your feet, slipping off your shorts and shirt, before leaning down to kiss Satoru, and heâs still sensitive by the way he jolts against your touch, before melting into it, his tongue parted your lips with ease. And fuck, you hoped he couldnât see how wet you were â nearly dripping down your thighs at this point.Â
And youâre pulling away, your thumb dragging down his lips, as his teeth try to catch the finger between them, but youâre too quick. You turn, a smile on your lips, you make your way over to Suguru.Â
Youâre wiping up the mess on the floor with your shirt before kneeling, âmade such a mess, Sugu,â and heâs staring at you through half lidded eyes, his fingers brushing your cheek, âdid I say you could touch me?âÂ
âYou never said I couldnât,â he murmurs, and god, his voice is far gone, raw and nearly guttural, as his fingers found purchase in your hair, âand I think I earned it after your little performanceââ and he hisses when you lean in, tip of your tongue teasing his slit and licking the dripping cum off his half hard cock, âfuckââÂ
âNot yet,â you smiled, as you started to lick his cock clean of his cum, âbut maybe if youâre good,â he grunts as you sink is cock into your mouth, tongue swirling around his length, licking and sucking â and fuck, he was already twitching in your mouth.Â
And then heâs easing you off his dick with a tug of your hair, and youâre glancing up at him, a question on the tip of your tongue, but heâs swallowing it with a kiss, as his hands slip down your body to haul you nearly into his lap. Calloused palms find their way to your hips, squeezing lightly, as he pulls away, cupping your chin with his thumb.Â
âSuguruââ and you yelp as he picks you up with ease, placing you in Satoruâs lap whose hands wind their way around your waist, his fingers already beginning to tease your hardened buds through your bra, a gasp leaving your lips, as Suguru placed his on your neck with a smirk as he murmurs:
 âLet me show you how good we can be, sweetheart.âÂ
~~~~
âTell us what you want, princess,â Satoru murmured in your ear, his warm breath doing nothing to help the needy heat between your thighs, the one that Suguru was knelt between, his large palms spreading you before him, âis she as wet as I think, Suguru?âÂ
And Suguru catches your gaze, a wicked smile on his lips as he replies, âWetter, sheâs a mess, arenât you?â you bite your lip to stop a whimper from leaving your lips as his fingers graze the growing wet patch on your panties. And your squirming only makes Satoru grunt, his erection pressed against you, the friction doing little to help either of you.Â
âFuckers,â and Satoru clicks his tongue, a smile on his lips as he turns your head.Â
âThink I have a better use for that mouth of yours, sweetheart,â and his lips find yours, right as Suguru toys with the elastic of your panties, snapping it against your skin, Satoru swallows the small noise that escapes your lips, his tongue slipping into your mouth as it does.Â
And god, you already canât even think straight.Â
Satoruâs fingers are pushing up your bra, teasing your nipples, as Suguru pressing a kiss to your dripping cunt through your soaked underwear.Â
âSo pretty,â Suguru murmurs, and Satoruâs lips part from yours, gaze darkening as he drags his thumb down your kiss ruined lips, and he tugs your drenched panties down, âand your cunt is even prettier, isnât it princess?âÂ
And you were â your gorgeous pussy was glossy with your pre, dripping all over his fingers when he parts your messy folds, âBet sheâs even tighter, isnât she?â Satoru murmurs, as his dick twitches against your ass, â
You whine as his words warm your aching pussy, your eyes flickering downwards, as Suguruâs lips graze your inner thigh, and you already know Satoruâs pouting.Â
âYouâre taking your goddamn time, Suguru, when do I get my chance?â He grumbles, nose brushing against your neck, as you canât help but chuckle.Â
âYou got your turn, and now itâs time for you to watch,â and your giggle turns to a soft gasp when his lips press a kiss to your clit, âand sweetheart, canât wait to see how youâll punish me for this later â because Iâm not stopping until you beg me to,â
Your lips part with a reply, but he pulls a moan from your lips instead as his tongue drags up the length of your weeping entrance. God, fuck, how did you taste this good? His tongue flicked against your puffy clit, drawing lazy circles, your slick already drenching his chin and lips.Â
âSo fucking good, baby, sâgood fâme,â and your fingers are threading their way into his dark locks, pulling him even closer, his lips closing around your clit to suck, âcould live in this pretty cunt,â he grunts, the tip of his tongue teasing your entrance.Â
Your head falls against Satoruâs shoulders, a groan fell from his lips as his cock dragged against your ass, your slick drenching his thighs and cock alike, âcanât wait to sink my cock into you, fuck,â Satoru murmurs, the wet squelch of your cunt rang in his ears, and he could imagine how wet and warm youâd be once he sunk into you, inch by inch.Â
And he couldnât wait â he needed to do something.Â
Satoruâs fingers found their way down your body, tweaking your nipple before one large palm dragged slowly down your front, until he found your clit right above Suguruâs face.Â
âToru,â you gasp, as his fingers pinch your clit and Suguru glares, pulling his lips away for a moment, only to sink a finger back in insteas, drawing a moan from your lips, âSuguâfuckââÂ
And itâs too much, one more touch and youâre cumming, body falling back into Satoru, as Suguru fucks you through your orgasm. Your release runs down their fingers, as Satoru lifts his hand a moment to lick his fingers clean.Â
God, youâre too pretty for your own good, Satoruâs eyes drag over you â your kiss ruined lips, skin shiny from your sweat, and the way your eyes were lost in an endless pool of lust.Â
âSuguru was right, youâre the sweetest thing Iâve ever tasted,â Satoru grin, gently turning your head, and youâre panting, nose wrinkling ever so slightly at his words, and he tuts, âdonât believe me? Well I can fix that,â and his lips find yours again, letting you taste yourself, swallowing your moans, as Suguru continued to finger fuck you.Â
Suguruâs finger stretches you open, fluttering, knuckle deep, as your precum drips down his fingers.Â
âRemember whoâs fucking this cunt, sweetheart,â and Suguru is, another finger parting your needy folds, and between Satoru rubbing your clit and Suguruâs fingers curling to find that one spot, drags against your insides, âfuck, how are we going to fit, Satoru? Sheâs still so tight,â Suguru grunts.Â
You pull your lips from Satoruâs, a whine leaving your lips, âMore, please, I needââ and a third finger joins the other two â but itâs not Suguruâs.Â
âFuck, youâre so fucking soft,â Satoru groans, pressing soft kisses to your skin, only serving to make you keen at their touch, and your walls flutter around their fingers.Â
âFuck, weâre trying to fuck her open and she just keeps getting tighter,â Suguru grunts, while Satoruâs lips find your earlobe, sucking, just as he adds another finger, a moan escaping your lips again.Â
Suguruâs fingers fuck at a steady pace, fucking deeper and deeper, while Satoruâs are faster, pistoning in and out while dragging against your walls â and itâs not long until they are working you up to a second orgasm, itâs too fucking good â and they both find that spot in you that has you seeing stars.Â
âIâm gânnaââ and Satoru finds your lips in a sloppy kiss, saliva slipping from the corner of your mouth. And you cum, even harder, your swollen folds clamping down on their fingers as they continue to fuck you unendingly through your orgasm. Your lips pull away, only to moan their names, again and again, until they finally slow down.Â
âGood girl,â Suguru murmurs, pressing sweet kisses to your thighs, while you come down from your high, walls flutter around nothing at the praise, while Satoru nips at your neck right above your racing pulse. And your eyes find Suguru lazily palming his weeping erection, as you lift your bare foot to rub against it, making him hiss, while you rub against Satoru teasingly.Â
âDonât forget whoâs in control,â you kiss Satoru again, before biting his bottom lip, and heâs melting into your touch, âand, you were good,â your foot rubs against Suguruâs cock again, drawing another pretty groan from his lips, âbut now itâs time to be obedient.âÂ
And they are â as you have Satoru sit back against the pillow lined headboard, because if it was anything you knew now â Satoru loved to be controlled, while Suguru liked the illusion of control, even if he didnât have even a bit of it. So you have Suguru kneeling behind you, as you climb into Satoruâs lap, a small groan leaving his lips as your cunt grazes his hard cock.Â
âSuch a good boy, arenât you, Toru?â your fingers run through his hair â and god, his undercut was so fucking hot, as your fingers found his cock, letting the tip tease your soaked folds, as you line yourself up, âtell me what you want,âÂ
âFuck, princess, yâknow what I want,â and a whine leaves his throat when you let his tip sink into you, only to pull out.Â
âCome on, nothing else to say? You always love running that mouth, donât you? You wanted this, wanted me to ruin you, didnât you? Well here we are,â you hum, as you press a teasing kiss to the corner of his mouth, âbeg me,âÂ
And his dick twitches, painfully hard, and the words spill from his lips, âPlease, please, sweetheart, use me, use my cock as a toy, want you to fuck me so bad, make me yoursââ and youâre sinking onto his cock, his length parting your folds, as moans fall from both of your lips. And he bottoms out, your hips meeting his as you do, and you can feel every vein, every ridge, every inch notched inside your walls.Â
âToru, fuck, sâgood, sâbig,â it feels too fucking good, and heâs so long â god, he was brushing against places you never even dreamed of reaching. And your pussy clenched at the thought of how deep he would go when he would start thrusting.Â
âSure you have space for me, Princess?â Suguru leans back over to press kisses all over your face, before finding your lips in a heated kiss, âmight be too tight of a fit,â his nose brushing against your cheek.Â
âIâll make you fit,â you murmur against his lips, your hands against Satoruâs chest, as you shift to cup his chin, âget behind me, Sugu,âÂ
Suguru smirks, slipping behind you, pressing himself against your back, dragging his cock teasingly against you, âSo needy â youâre worse than Satoru,â and Satoru makes a noise of protest, but your walls flutter, making his back arch, âwant me inside you, sweetheart?â And his tip teases at your entrance, brushing against Satoruâs cock, causing all three of you to moan, âtell me how much you want us to fuck you, how much you want both of us inside you,âÂ
âFucker, I swear to god,â you turn your head, your glare undercut by the desperation on your face, âjust fuck meâÂ
And Suguru sinks into you, your head falling back against him, as both of their cocks stretch your cunt out. You were so fucking full. And the way your walls clenched around them was nearly enough to make them cum. Their groans come in unison.Â
âFuck, Princess, you donât have to break our dicks off â weâll fuck you again,â Suguru grunts, his rough palms sliding to your hips to squeeze them.Â
âSâgood, sweetheart, so fucking right for us,â and you canât think straight with the two of them inside of you, and youâre moaning.Â
âPlease, moveââ and they oblige, beginning to fuck you. You moved against Satoru, riding him as best you can, while Suguru fucked you from behind, his balls slapping against your ass.Â
Suguru drives into you at a steady pace, causing you to rock against Satoru, your hips pressed against his, as they both drive deeper and deeper into your wet cunt.Â
âSâgood, so pretty,â Suguru presses sweet kisses to your neck, while Satoruâs eyes flutter open to meet yours, âIâm close, SatoruââÂ
âMe too,â Satoru manages, and his hips begin to meet your thrusts, âyou gonna cum for us princess?â And he finds your gaze, the fucked out expression enough to nearly make him cum right there.Â
A whine leaves your lips, as they continue to fuck you, and you know youâre so close. And then they find that spot in you again, and youâre falling apart, lips parted in a moan, both their names on your lips. You clamp down on them, toes curling as you cum, and neither of them can last. Their hips stutter as they give sloppy thrusts, until they both cum,Â
They groan your name as they spurt their thick cum inside, notching themselves as deep as they could, continuing to fuck their cum inside you with messy thrusts.Â
A whimper escapes your lips between pants, as your arms and legs shake from your position, utterly fucked out. You three stay like that for a moment, both of their sweet nothings they murmur to you falling on deaf ears.
And then finally they are shifting you onto the bed, pressing soft kisses to your face and neck, as your eyes flutter shut. Thereâs shifting on the bed, as one of them leaves for a moment, and you make a noise, only to be reassured that heâll be right back.Â
Your eyes finally flutter open to find Satoru and Suguru cleaning you up with a wet washcloth, and your gaze finds both of their own. Your lips curl at the sight of them, their gentle gaze enough to make your heart ache.Â
âCome back,â you whine, and they both chuckle, as they begin to finish drying you off, before tossing the washcloth into the wastebasket, and crawling back beside you. They help you pull a shirt on, before settling in.Â
âSo needy,â Satoru murmurs, pressing a kiss to your forehead, even as he buries his face in your chest, his warm breath tickling you as you run your fingers softly through his white locks. And Suguru presses himself to your back, pressing a soft kiss to your neck, his arm around your waist, and yours resting on top of his.Â
âWhat will we do with her?â Suguru mutters, and you can hear the smirk in his tone.Â
âShut up,â you mumble, your eyes beginning to feel heavy, as you give into the warmth that enveloped you from their bodies, as it lulled you to sleep. And your lips curled into a smile, a smile that had you wondering right before you slipped into sleepâ
When was it that you fell for them?Â
~~~~
You couldnât do this. Not to them.Â
Thatâs what you had decided come morning â waking up between entangled limbs and soft breaths against your skin â how could you? You felt Satoru shift closer to you, as you leaned into his touch, running your fingers through Suguruâs black locks. You were addicted to their touch only after one night, and now you had to spend the rest of your life without it.Â
It was the only way.Â
This whole thing was ridiculous to begin with â you never cared to be involved in the yakuza to begin with. You wanted a normal life â or at least as normal of a life you could have with who your grandfather was. You had never expected to end up wrapped up in all of this â and in both of them.Â
But you didnât know if you could choose between them â and you knew, you had to. It wasnât fair to either of them â not when they had asked you to choose last night and they had indulged you in both of them. And now, you didnât want to let either of them go.Â
So you had to let both of them go.Â
You shifted slowly to sit up, Your fingers traced Satoruâs cheek lightly, as you toyed with a strand of Suguruâs hair. They both still stayed fast asleep, quiet snores filling the silence of the early morning, deep in the embrace of sleep after the events of last night and the last few weeks. You didnât want to be someone like your grandfather â you didnât know what you wanted and that was enough of an answer wasnât it?
The two shift in their sleep, and your body grows heavy, your back still aching from last night, as you lie back down beside them, running your fingers over both of their arms.Â
Even if you had your answer, you didnât have to face it for another few hours. And their bodies shifted, Satoru burying his face in the nape of your neck, while you rested against Suguruâs chest. This was enough â enough to last you a lifetime, wasnât it? Your eyes fluttered shut, sinking slowly back to sleep. You had told your grandfather youâd break their hearts âÂ
âbut you didnât know you would be breaking yours as well.Â
~~~
âWhat do you mean sheâs gone?â Satoru narrowed his eyes, crossing his arms, as Suguru stepped aside to show the empty room you had left behind â a bare husk with nothing left behind, not even a note.Â
It had been a day.Â
When Satoru had woken up beside you, he could have sworn he was still dreaming, even as he grazed your skin gently with the back of his knuckles, he still couldnât quite believe it. And when he spotted Suguru pressing kisses to your cheek, he knew it was real.Â
âHow long have you been awake?â Satoru raised an eyebrow, âitâs not fair to have your fun while we were asleep,âÂ
And Suguru rolled his eyes, as he rubbed the back of his knuckles gently against her cheek, âI just woke up, and all I did was kiss her, you idiot,âÂ
âNot fair, that means I have to kiss her too,â Satoru murmurs, pressing gentle kisses to your forehead and cheek, and one even to your nose. Your nose wrinkles in your sleep, and Satoruâs lips quirk upwards, âsheâs so exhausted from last night still,âÂ
âShe is,â Suguru hums, as he tilts his head, âwhat are we going to do about last night?âÂ
Satoru pauses a moment to consider, âWell, what is there to discuss? She chose us both, didnât she?â Satoru leaned close to you, to press a kiss to your head.Â
âShe did,â Suguru props himself up with his elbow on his side, âI thought you werenât one to share,âÂ
And Satoru shrugged â he wasnât one to share, he wanted what was his to be his alone, but with you â the more people to protect you, the better, âIf itâs what makes her happy, I donât mind,â and he adds, âand I donât mind if itâs you that Iâm sharing with,âÂ
Suguru raises an eyebrow, a chuckle on his lips, âIs that so? Well, good,â as he runs a finger through your hair, âbecause I feel the same.âÂ
But Satoru supposed you didnât.Â
âWhen did sheââÂ
âMy father told me she contacted her grandfather this morning, and let them know she was leaving â and her single request was to send us away on business so we wouldnât be able to stop her,â and Satoru gives a bitter chuckle.Â
âSo thatâs it?â Satoru crosses his arms, âwhy did sheââ and he cuts himself off, âhave you tried to callââÂ
âIâm blocked, I assume you are too,â Suguru shook his head, a silence settling over the two of them that Satoru chose to break.Â
âDo we go after her?â And Suguru pauses, his brow wrinkling a moment, before he sighs, shaking his head.Â
âIf she comes back, it has to be her choice,â Suguru slid his hands into his pockets, âotherwise, weâre back to square one,â and he adds, âand I donât think I can go back after last night.âÂ
Suguru steps away, heading back down the hallway, and Satoru follows.Â
No, Satoru thinks, sparing one glance at the empty room, before pulling the door shut, neither could he.Â
~~~
âWhy did you come back?â You set another box down, wiping the sweat from your brow, your grandfather simply watching as you brought your things back into your room.Â
âWhat a warm welcome,â you scoff, as you head back out to pick up another â the other staff had offered to help, but you had waved them off, lifting another box, your back still aching â and now you were starting to regret it. But you knew if you didnât do something to distract yourself â your phone taunting you on the top of your desk â youâd do something youâd regret.Â
And youâd already filled your quota for the next six months at least.Â
âDonât get me wrong, kid,â the geezer sighed, as he watched you bring the last of the boxes in, âIâm glad youâre back and the matters are all settled â but,â he tilts his head, âyou seem more miserable than before,âÂ
âIâm just tired,â you reply, but his furrowed brow says heâs unconvinced, as you grab a box cutter and begin to open up the boxes, beginning to sort through your things, âand still trying to wrap my head around the fact you lied to me,âÂ
And he sighs, âthis isnât about me right now â itâs about youââÂ
âHow convenient,â you mutter under your breath.Â
âYouâre in love, arenât you?â And you canât help but freeze for a moment, until you force yourself to continue unpacking, pulling out some of your clothes from the box, âwhich one is it?âÂ
The question stabs between your ribs like a well thrust sword between the ribs, finding the center of the problem â along with your heart.Â
âGrampsââÂ
âSo itâs both of them?â and you whirl on him, your eyes narrowing, and he chuckles, holding up his hand, âI didnât spy â I just took a guess,â he sighed, as he pulled out your desk chair and took a seat in it, âand it looks like I was right,âÂ
You swallow, your eyes falling to the floor, âI didnât cheat, if thatâs whatââÂ
He laughs, âI know you arenât like me, little one,â he leans back in the chair, hands folded in his lap, âyou arenât one to lie â because I know thereâs more you hate than liars,â and his gaze grows a little sadder, âAnd Iâm sorry I had to become one of them,âÂ
You grit your teeth, âIâm not mad at you â Iâm justââ you choose your words carefully â because youâre angry, you were upset â upset that he felt as if he couldnât trust you, âwondering why you didnât tell me the truth,âÂ
He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck, âMy past isnât something Iâm proud of, and I wanted to deal with it without involving you,â he sighed, âafter everything with our family â I didnât want to give you another reason to distance yourself from me,âÂ
âLying to me isnât a better option than that,â he rubs the back of his head, âyou have to make it right for Akari and her mother â as well as if you have any other kidsâI donât need to know,â you add, when he opens his mouth, âit isnât fair to them,â and it would be no fairer to not choose between Satoru and Suguru.Â
âYouâre right,â he raises a brow, âis that the problem? You canât choose between the two of them, eh?â and your gaze refuses to meet his, âhave you talked to them about it?â and your silence serves as an answer, âthen I think you should take your own advice and talk to them about it,âÂ
âWhat will that do?â you murmur, âthey still will want me to chooseââÂ
âDo you know that for a fact?â he crosses his arms, âI think you owe it to them and to yourself to talk to them, and to your grandfather who canât stand to see you this miserable at home,âÂ
âDo you think it will change anything?â and he shrugs.Â
âMaybe it will or maybe it wonât,â he tilts his head, as he pulls out his phone to call you a car, âbut if itâs a chance for you to be happy, isnât it worth taking?âÂ
~~~~
âI want to marry you both,âÂ
And again, your statement is met with confused stares, as you had all but pulled up to their compound and entered to find them seated together discussing business in a side room â and their stares were still anything but average â but to you now, they meant so much more.Â
âNot marry you right now, but maybe eventually,â adrenaline was surely pumping through your system, right? Thatâs probably why your hands were shaking and your mouth was dry, but even so you knew you needed to say it before they spoke, âIâm sorry for leaving the way I did. I told myself after we first met I wouldnât be a coward, but I was when I ran away, and I donât have any excuse,â you swallowed, âbut I know what I want â and I want both of you, as selfish as that feels,â guilt crawled up your throat at the statement of that sentence, as if begging you to swallow the words that spilled from your lips back up, âand I donât know how either of you feel â but if we were to do this, I would want us to be honest andââÂ
And the screech of their chairs takes you aback, and you felt your cheeks burn, was this it?Â
But instead of brushing past you, they stand in front of you, one of them tilting your head upwards to meet their gazes.Â
âTook you long enough, sweetheart,â Satoruâs lips curled, his hand cupping your cheek, âI know we said we wanted you to hurt us, but not like that,â
âSent us away just to ghost us,â Suguru clicked his tongue, his fingers still under your chin, âIâll have to plant a tracker on you again,âÂ
You shake your head, âWait, what? Are you both okayââÂ
âWe did say weâd kill the other for your hand, but,â Suguru presses a kiss to your forehead, âBut now we realize the more eyes watching you, the better, and,â he shrugs, âwe donât mind sharing if itâs just with the other,âÂ
âAnd I know youâll prefer me sooner or later,â Satoru adds, earning a glare from Suguru, as you only chuckle, âSuguru is always so grumpyâow!â Suguru smacks on the back of the head, as the black haired yakuza wraps his arms around you, pressing your back to his front.Â
âAnd you are always too busy running your mouth,â Suguru replies, pressing a kiss to your cheek, âsure you can handle both of us in your life?â and you pull Satoru close too, letting his lips brush yours, before turning and pressing a kiss to Suguru.Â
âShouldnât you be asking yourselves that?â you say, as the two of them wrap an arm around you, âI am supposed to ruin your lives after all.âÂ
⧠a/n: so this has been a longtime coming. i was supposed to be working on prof geto (5) + my nanami celebration fic but this took over my life and wouldn't let go until i finished. so i hope you guys enjoy!! and this is my reminder why i don't write multi partner scenes like this often because its....difficult. thank you to @gaylatteart for reading and putting up with me <333
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It really does suck how hard it is to get a doctor's appointment in this country, but there's a certain humour to successfully getting one before your mum and the first thing she does when you walk in the room is call you a bitch in the same tone as when you just ate the last of the good chocolate.
#lmao she's gutted#I'm BAFFLED how fast they got back to me like genuinely#I did NOT expect that#so I'm like :O this is great! while mum mentally rattles me like a box of tictacs lmao#she's never regretted saying 'oh I'll do it tomorrow I cant be arsed right now' more in her LIFE#it sucks cause she has an actual problem#not to say I don't but she has an actual problem that needs dealing with and I just walk in like heehoo got one#I ALSO walked in with the sandwich she made for me last night so I ALSO made enemies with dad today cause mum didn't make him one too#so I just walked into the room and felt the comedic wrath of both parents at once and I think the only one not mad at me in the room was-#the dog lmao sdfsdfs#rip mum I will try and help her get one of course but for now this is pretty funny#I probably got the last one of the day#firefly life#anyway that's how my life is going so far today lmao how're you guys doing
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