#i just wanna die

[scramratz]

Missed this week's tshot. How the hell did I live like this before? This body is a prison and my brain gives no reprieve

[justxdemixokay]

Everyone is acting differently towards me..I can feel it...I don't know what I did..I'm sorry I'll make it better..just please.. don't abandon me..I can be better, honest.

[syn-ch]

i'm so ready to fucking d1e

[p4inkllr]

Me lately

[strvem3now]

Fuck you.

[moe-moe-kafkyunnn]

Night does change , maybe a little too much

I remember last year, I suddenly saw I weighed 50 kg. My world shattered, two years of 3d for this?

Then it was 48-50 for two months, a hell, only shifting and never settling.

My high achiever mindset went out of the window.

I tried triggering my 3d, a lot, nothing worked and I kept on gaining weight.

Then girls around me started their honeymoon phases.

And I realised I'll never be happy again.

Low weight or high weight, I've lost the ability to be happy completely.

I listened to subliminals and they all had "Twilight soundtrack" and to trigger myself, I read "winter girls"

The me who used to study at night went to bed early. But failed to sleep. And when I felt everyone out, I sat in my living room, looking out to the main roads where heavy trucks went on and on, making terrible sounds.

And I read wintergirls, with the twilight soundtrack in my ears.

Winter, it's a season that always pains me. And I never had a single winter without an ed.

Yet I thought I was sad last year, it was nothing. Losing my academic achievement, losing my entire memory out of depression, gaining more and more weight, parents growing frustrations about my grades, my "friends" sudden change of attitude due to my losing beauty and not being the center of buzz anymore.

Life sucks.

[revolvingdoorwhore]

Gotta love lying to my medical team. Yes I'm doing well, no im not restricting, yes I'm sleeping good, no I don't have a plan or intent

[theunattainable]

I always fuck shit up..

[leviiackrman]

I have got yet another fuckin infection.

[sandyisswag]

TW:VENT!

I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF EVERYTHING RN SERIOUSLY I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE LITTERALLY EVERY SINGLE DAY IS ALWAYS THE SAME NOTHING EVER CHANGES AND MY PARENTS DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME LITTERALLY THE ONLY TIME THEY TALK TO ME IS ALWAYS A COMMENT ON HOW I LOOK LIKE SERIOUSLY WHY DO THEY NOT CARE ABOUT WHY THE FUCK DID THEY EVEN MADE ME FOR WHAT FOR FUCKING WHAT? WHY MAKE A CHILD IF THE ONLY THING YOU ARE GONNA DO WITH THEM IS YELL AT THEM AND TREAT THEM LIKE FUCKING PETS I AM NOT A GODDAMN PET WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING LONELY ALL THE TIME WHY DO THEY HATE ME WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG I DON’T THINK I SHOULD EVEN LIVE AT THIS POINT I AM SO FUCKING USELESS LITTERALLY ALL I DO IS ROT IN MY BEDROOM I HAVE NO OTHER PURPOSE IN LIFE I JUST WANNA DISAPPEAR I HATE EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT THIS PLANET I WANNA FUCKING DIE

[jacksonthereaper]

TW// Suicidal thoughts, mental exhaustion, lack of self worth

Doubt anyone's gonna see this but fuck it i might as well drop this in here

I'm so tired

I'm 15 years old male in 10th grade and i'm just so tired of everything. Tired of doing so much and putting in all the effort i can only to be criticized at the slightest mistake, tired of always trying so hard to be nice to others yet only being noticed when i'm rude or doing something bad or embarrassing, tired of this garbage world filled with wars, pollution, genocide, hunger, poverty, discrimination, disease, etc.

I feel like i'm losing more and more motivation with each and every single day that passes, beit for doing things i like, things i don't like, things i have to do, etc. I'm not particularly angry or sad or scared or frustrated, i guess i'm a little melancholic but overall i'm just exhausted, numb, and, most of all, bitter.

I still feel some amount of joy, but it feels so vain and empty. I eat something delicious, i listen to some music, i watch something funny on YouTube, on TV, etc., then i go right back to my misery. I just want someone to hear me calling for help. I just want to feel like someone actually gives a flying fuck about what i have to say, or wants me to feel better, or even just cares about my existence at all.

I don't even know anymore man. I'm just running out of options. I'm probably just experiencing burnout, which coupled with the fact i live in what is essentially a small village in the middle of nowhere, really just makes me feel hopeless.

Fuck this shit, man.

[justxdemixokay]

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Like you guys make my day SM better 💖💖

[vikvampir3]

my two moods are suicidal and horny, usually I am both at the same time

[loserfurry]

I wish it wasn't so scary living in the U.S. right now

[strvem3now]

I hate my €d so freaking much GOD

RANTING ABOUT MY BREAKFAST

I was trying to eat my breakfast which I NEVER DO. I made eggs and toast. And as I was making it I was SO confident that I’ll eat all of it becaue I was like “fuck this ed imma eat whatever I want and not feel bad about it” and then I made my breakfast. I looked at it when I sat and I just stared at it. THE GUILT WAS COMING. Now I physically can’t pick up the fork becaue I’m scared, why? I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT THE HECK IM GONNA SCREAM.

Update:

I ate half of it then throw the rest in the garbage. I put on a video to watch as I ate becaue I wanted to distract myself.

[guildedguilt]

Doesn’t matter, nothing matters, I don’t matter. I should just kill myself.