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do yall ever think about bruce/batman!clone danny standing in front of his bathroom mirror after finding out he was a clone and silently tracing his face. The slope of his jaw and point of his chin. The high angle of his cheekbones and the shape of his eyes, the curve of his brow bones and the shape of his nose. The volume of his hair and the way it curls and gets fluffy when it gets too long.
His hair is black the same way a crow's wing is black. His dad's hair is black the same way a black bear's fur is black. His dad's eyes are blue like the ocean is blue. Danny's eyes are blue the same way a glacier is blue.
His dad has a square jaw and straight flat hair, and he tans and gets a face full of freckles when he's out in the sun for too long. Danny burns like a lobster and his face remains untouched. Danny has a sharp jaw and tall cheekbones, and Sam says when he's not smiling there's almost something regal about him. You would never call Jack Fenton "regal" when he's not smiling.
Sam says when he's not smiling he looks scary the same way a stone statue is. Jack Fenton when he's not smiling looks scary the same way that german shepherd staring at you across the street is.
Do you ever think he grew up wondering if he was adopted. Because of course, he has black hair and blue eyes like his dad. But having the same color doesn't make you someone's child.
Or, worse, things he's heard from the other kids and the other parents and even some of his teachers growing up; that he was the product of an affair. And that his dad was just too stupid to notice. And Danny would defend his parents until the day he died, because Jack Fenton wasn't an idiot and Maddie Fenton wasn't a cheater.
But doubt comes in with fickle tongue. his parents swear up and down that he is their child when he asks about either. That Danny just had his grandparents' features, but he was their son and they loved him.
But Danny doesn't look like either of his parents. His mom's eyes are blue like an aquamarine and Jazz's too. And they burn like lobsters in the sun too, but Jazz gets freckles on her face and so does Maddie. And as Danny grows up he doesn't bulk up or get stocky like his dad did, and when he hits puberty he doesn't shoot up like a tree like Jack Fenton did.
He stays small, and they say he's a late bloomer (and he is), or that he just has his mom's height. But he's fast and has good stamina, and some days it feels like he's built entirely different from his family. That the things they went through growing up just didn't apply to him. Jack and Maddie Fenton both had acne and breakouts when they hit puberty, and Jazz inherits it and he's seen the amount of skincare products she keeps on her side of the bathroom.
And then he hits puberty and breaks out maybe once or twice, but his skin stays clear for the most part and the problems and changes his dad went through just don't happen to him.
And the truth is worse than all of the lies.
How horrifying.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is a clone#clone danny fenton#clone danny#thinking about the inherent trauma that comes with growing up as a clone and not knowing and questioning everything about yourself#thinking about the amount of effort and lying that Jack and Maddie would've had to to do if they wanted to pass Danny off as their bio son#the MEDICAL RECORDS#danny's medical history is completely different from theirs. any generational health problems the waynes have would/could be passed down to#danny and he's completely oblivious to it up until the reveal. he'd have no idea about any medical risks until they hit him before that.#so many little things and inconsistencies that would just build and build and build until it finally came to a head and the truth came out#forever and ever and ever fascinated by the underlying horror of being a clone. there's a horror in being cloned but there's also a horror#in BEING a clone. like yes he could've always known from the start and that comes with its own set of issues BUT. just. him not knowing#for the longest time. the lies and deceit and betrayal. you know how adopted kids come out and talk about how they didn't know they were#adopted for the longest time and how traumatizing and betrayed they felt when they're finally told 15-20 years down the line? yeah that#i imagine finding out you're a clone is a lot like that.#i read a book in middle school once abt a girl moving to a new town with her family and getting these horrible nightmares and noticing how#everyone was acting strange around her. one of her nightmares was about the 30yo police officer being a shambling corpse talking to her#and at the end of the book she finds out she's actually the clone of a dead older sister and the police officer was her sister's boyfriend.#and she was in gymnastics but quit and her parents were so disappointed bc the og sister was a champion/award winning gymnastics player#and i never did finish the book but god am i reminded of that.#i love reading the dpxdc clone danny posts and they usually have him brush off being a clone which is literally totally fine but duUUDE#just imagine his own horror over it. its SOOO good
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the rapture
it's a holy thing, in theory, a glorious celebration, where those who believe rise to meet the lord in the air. it's a day of joy, in theory, and maybe even of vindication for those who have always believed.
but no one thinks about how it's like to see the dead rise again—bodies clawing their way out of bolted wood and six feet of packed earth, bodies decomposed and maggot-feasted, nails stained with rot and dirt. no one thinks about the violent lurch of their bodies being jolted into the air by the stomach, gravity flinging their heads back down to earth as they struggle in vain to find footing on molecules and gas. no one thinks about those who don't make it.
no one thinks about the screams.
crowley hadn't thought about any of these things. he certainly hadn't thought about the angels that would be called back to heaven along with the believers.
here they stand dead in the middle of absolute ruin, the promise of heaven the only thing left to look forward to on the wasteland of this earth. the sky has opened up like the eye of god, watching over her people for the very first time, and crowley's black wings against the beams of light only remind him that he doesn't belong up there with the rest of them. crowley wraps his arms tight around aziraphale, squeezes his torso like he can maybe keep aziraphale with him through sheer will or, laughably, demonic intervention. like love could ever be enough. like love could stay.
around them, the cacophony of wails and mockingly exaltant trumpets scorch the earth in their intensity, clashing and agonising even—especially—for them, and words make no sound. but they hold on to each other, even as they shrink into themselves against the noise of the undying. i don't want to leave you either, aziraphale doesn't say, but his hands dig into the cotton of crowley's sleeve, and crowley hears the words through his fingertips.
he feels a stronger upward resistance against his embrace now, and he clings tighter, steadfast, even as aziraphale's grip falters. but he knows he can't hold on forever. he knows that nothing ever lasts.
trembling with something unspeakable, he lifts his arms from aziraphale's torso and covers the angel's ears with his hands. he feels more than hearing aziraphale's resulting sob, and he spreads out his wings to wrap them around their bodies. a shield, a comfort, a goodbye.
it's okay, the gesture says in silence. i'll see you in another lifetime.
#fearandhatred#fearandart#fearandfics#i usually don't say this but please zoom in i'm begging this took Effort#if the style of aziracrow looks really different from the background it's because i didn't know what i was doing#like literally don't even ask me how i did this bro i have no idea#also i know i wrote about crowley's wings but i would have rather died than drawn wings again so. leave me alone#this was originally gonna be just crowley and aziraphale in this pose inspired by cabin in the woods with no extra context#then eybe saw the wip and was like None of them are dying in this right. Right leanne. Right#so i said hey why not#i've had the rapture drawing idea in my notes app for a longgg time so i decided to combine the two#and then i wrote this snippet in the next 20 minutes#so thank u eybe#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#crowley#aziraphale#good omens fanart#good omens art#good omens fanfic#good omens ficlet
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shenanigans
#pizza tower#peppino#pepperman#the noise#gustavo#spicy hot#suggestive#ONLY A LITTLE#heehee i am FREE from my commission shackles. this is a threat AND warning#gonna post some of the ACTUALLY not sfw stuff soon i think; dont wanna make a twitter for it#they wont be in the main tags but ill put them behind some jokey joke meme pic and then a readmore#bc like even if u put a readmore to cover the images. when its recommended to others from a DIFFERENT post#the first image u used still pops up any way#and i dont want to put peptitties out for everyone to see LMAO#anyway#ive had this idea for ages; peppino getting stuck w pepperman on the their way to a gala#and pepperman is like do not worry my friend; i will simply call in a helicopter to come pick us up :)#and peppino is like WHAT?? dont do that !!!! its just a flat; i can fix that!#but i just now thought of adding the others lol i wanted an excuse to draw them w some fancy hair :)!#noise is like. um. theres no way I can sit here for 20 minutes and NOT embarrass myself. im going to find a rock to sit on#and not look at him#self imposed timeout and naughty shame corner#gustavos comment is from a tag i saw on a post that made me scream laugh#and pepperman watches intently bc that is his muse and he likes committing peppinos form to memory heehee
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name doodle
#clemart#ttcc#toontown corporate clash#mac opsys#brian ttcc#prethinker#i did this in like maybe 20 minutes normally i wouldnt tag it so much but im feeling rather shameless tonight#anywyas had this idea in my head but i didnt feel like actually drawing them in a situation#the operating systems (like windows and mac) are probably named different in tt but i think its funny if they weren't#toons who blatantly stole their name from something else#sorry kind of off from my usual style i just like having fun with this brush it has a nice feel. sometimes you just have to have fun
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Jashtober Day 20- Gothic
Its an Announcer design!!
wahoo
#i have a good bunch of sketches to post eventually as well#small idea of connecting him to THDPH especially Chonny's Inferno#would draw them digitally and post em with this but I have things to do tomorrow so i have to sleep correctly for once#anyways tho. im thinkin about giving him the nickname Ace#starts with an A like announcer + the pair of aces line from SUYS#also the microphone/microphone stand is sorta taken from the one CJ uses sometimes in Vol 1#specifically Storm & a Spring at least#the string of lights on it at least lol#chonny jash#cj gothic lit#cj gw#jashtober#jashtober day 20#cj announcer#uhhhh do i make a tag since he's a bit different & like had added lore/story?#sure why not#cj ace#ace announcer#-atlas art-
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Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.
#I’m resuming this tomorrow it’s been hours now I’m just mad#I’m home because my parents are moving to a different state and I needed to pack whatever was left#and for some reason we just keep old devices when we’re done with them#so I borrow an adapter to allow me to connect my ancient unworking iPad mini to my laptop#factory reset it. i have to reset an old email to access the old Apple id to fully reset it.#it won’t connect to the wifi so I have to reset the settings. i find out it’s too old to run pjsk.#i find an old phone that should work. i reset it as well. I’m able to download pjsk & it takes 20 minutes.#pjsk crashes everytime I try to open it. i attempt to run bluestacks on my computer. bluestacks doesn’t have 64 bit for mac yet.#i get a free trial of parallels and download windows onto my laptop. this takes 40 minutes.#i try to download and run bluestacks on that. m1 macs apparently can’t run bluestacks 64 bit through parallels.#i go find the final old phone that I had forgotten about. it takes forever to charge because the charging port is fucked up. i reset it as#well. it can’t connect to wifi. i try a hotspot on my current phone. service is too awful. i try to do wifi sharing from my laptop.#you have to be connected to the router via a cable for that to work.#at this point it has been like 3 hours. I’m giving up because I’ve been down this route before#when I attempted to run 32 bit steam games on m1 mac#(wine64 doesn’t exist for m1 macs yet -> attempt to run boot camp -> boot camp isn’t a thing anymore on Apple silicon -> attempt to run#several different programs that allow me to run windows on a mac. none of them work. ->#look into linux & give up. -> attempt to implement the unfinished/unbottled wine64 code thru terminal. ->#fuck up and delete some important file & have to fix that (misery inducing) -> keep trying. i think I downloaded a Mac coding program at#some point? i realize I have zero coding knowledge and this is a mistake. -> give up and purchase crossover. game doesn’t even work. ->#3 months later update to the latest OS so I can have enough storage to play psychonauts 2. find out the $60 crossover#purchase was a bad idea because ‘heehee crossover doesn’t work on that buy the new version’ (fuck crossover).#my toxic trait is my belief that I can figure out anything via google and sheer stubbornness. usually this is true. occasionally there are#exceptions to this rule. most of them are because owning Apple products is a mistake.#i think if I reset the router tomorrow I can solve this problem but I can also just go elsewhere with better service or wait until I’m home#now it’s a matter of pride. and also free 4*/I have nothing better to do because I’m stuck here until Tuesday.#<- this is all normal behavior by the way. who doesn’t spend 8 hours ramming their head against a problem every once and a while. enrichment#mine#oh I forgot. i also looked into cloning the app but that would cost money for something that might not even work.#‘just log out and make an alt’ and risk losing my account? I’m stupid enough to overwrite it on accident.
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One day I'll draw the ieytd cast with all the flower imagery i want
#i think. i think the fact that we all draw the characters so colour coordinated contributes heavily to this#i have SOOO many fucking thoughts you have no idea#specifically some starstruck ones I've had for like a year but blahblahblah im always thinking about them at least a little#it's my fucking that old man yaoi you can pry it from my cold dead hands#but also ughhh i hate the canon ages like SIDE NOTE#okay these tags are abt to go in a wildly different direction basically i am no longer yapping about florography#likeeee prism being 40 canonically makes it weird for me prism is more like. 45-47 for me and reggie is probably like 50-52#juniper also like i know a lot of people say mid 20s but for me?? he's like 37 and DESPARATE not do have a twink death#and then phoenix is probably around the same age as jj??#idk just working off the main 4 guys (to me) i guess but idk ive always had mild issues with the fact prism is canonically 40#it's just. naur.......nuhuh......................#i digress reggie being in his 50s is weirdly important to me and i have NO idea why. maybe I've just been jn this fandom for a while#<- been here on and off since before first class from ieytd 1#i more or less discovered there was a fandom in 2022 tho but sighs. ive been here a WHILE.....#at the very most j was here before seat of power i remember watching a playthrough of that when it released#but in terms of first class my memory gets deeply spotty but thats being a system for ya wayyyyyyyy#wow this ramble went in like 17 directions jf you're still here thank you??????????? why??? /lh#[words words words]#ughh anyways 🤩🤩 ieytd and flowers yeah it's intrinsically linked to me#idk might redesign them all surrounded by flowers but also i literally do not have the time for that <- just started art college
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just checked on scott's website and he's doing three buddy cole shows in LA this week!! and next week bruce, scott, and kevin are going to be at san francisco sketchfest with "the music of kids in the hall"!
neither of these are technically part of scott's 2025 tour (that won't be until spring) and as a result i'm not involved in these shows and i know next to nothing about them (i literally only found out about the buddy cole shows from instagram, and not even my own instagram since i'm still not back on the app. i found out about it from my dad showing me on his instagram. thanks dad.) but i'm very intrigued by the concepts and excited to learn more!! unfortunately it doesn't look like there's a livestream option for either show but definitely check them out if you're in the area!
#haven't heard from scott this month which definitely makes me miss him but it's also understandable#tho i'm definitely texting him once the shows are done to ask how they went#especially bc i'm SO intrigued by ''the last gloryhole'' bc unlike ''KING'' which was already mostly written by the time our paths crossed#(like with any standup-ish tour the material gets revised during the tour but most of the show was already written before me)#i've read at least 5 different drafts of ''the last gloryhole'' with like 3 different show names lmao#and helped scott rehearse it several times#and listened to his frustrations about wanting to take the show's concept new places but being unsure if the audience wants to see it#(if you look at the eventbrite description it mentions it features buddy realizing he's a fictional character and that's what that's about)#so i'm SO curious how he ultimately decided to bring in the buddy/scott dichotomy that he was interested in#obviously i'll know when i see the show like 20 times on tour but i wanna know now lmao#as for the music of kids in the hall apparently even bellini has no idea what the hell that means (or at least he didn't last time we spoke#so it's a total mystery. i will say iirc last sketchfest they had digital tickets available#so maybe the livestream will be announced the day of the show
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Today my couples therapy asked me: "so how long have you known you liked girls for and not liked men?"
Me: "a few months. It was a big surprise!"
Like I'm not sure people realize how much of a surprise it is to find out you're a lesbian at 29.
#he also kept refering to “like women like that” and “physical intimacy”#my dude#you're supposed to specialize in autistic folks#step out of your brain#and USE MORE DETAILED TERMS#also to be an old fart for a minute#“back in my day like you had to be worried about coming out to friends”#like im not sure the youths realize just how much the general thoughts towards queer folks jave changed in the last 20 years#i remember watching some Country Music Awards event and an interviewer asking the artists what they thought of the queer community#and most of them said they thought marriage should be between a man and a woman!#like granted im also viewing it through the eyes of someone who grew up pretty conservative#but like#i used to get grossed out at the idea of girls kissing#but i guess it could also be the whole “be pure of heart#thing#like i was EXTREMELY mormon#i did not picture myself at 30 (i didn't picture myself at 30 at all actually#because i wanted to die before i commited too many sins#but i thought i would be married#a stay at home mom with like 4 kids or something#so my message to the youths today is#HOLY CRAP YOU DON'T KNOW HOW GOOD IT GETS AND OH BOY AM I A DIFFERENT PERSON THEN I WAS WHEN I WAS 19
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I finally got to play dnd and holy shit I can't wait for the next session
#it was so fun but also impromptu as fuck which made me a bit nervous because i was not prepared lol#but it was still such a great time#i also realized how much i knew about dnd while helping everyone build characters#everyone was shocked when i was like oh yeah I've never actually played before#i have just consumed a concerning amount of critical role and dimension 20 and spent a lot of time looking at spells and subclasses lol#also i had like three ideas of characters to play and i originally settled on a grave cleric but the subclass was in a different book#so i ended up going with my wildfire druid who was pretty fleshed out but i realized i never named her#so i quickly tried to find a name in the middle of helping people build their characters#and when we actually started playing i straight up forgot my name and was oh shit that me lol#at least my wildfire spirit already had his name picked out lol#but that shit was so fun and we have a good mix of goofy characters and semi serious characters which is gonna make shit super interesting#although during our session zero trial fight my girlfriend did make me go unconscious but she fudged the numbers so i at least didnt die#at least my girlfriend is a gracious dm lol#personal
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I may seem very picky but honestly, despite having themes or dynamics i like or dislike, I'm able to love everything AS LONG as it has fixed dynamics of my preference.
No "switching as default", no "i used to too but now i will bottom for whatever reason", no "I'm bottoming now but I'm topping next time", no rapid character change just because there's stereotypes around what bottoms or tops act like. No. Just character preferring to be the bottom and default being seen and wanted as a bottom. That's it, that's all I want to be happy and all over someone's idea.
BUT IT'S SO RARE
#i had yby in mind but honestly its so many chars#yby jzx and lxc for example as the fixed bottoms#wkx as fixed top#honestly the whole 'switching is default and the only way to have a healthy relationship' bothers me#switching is as much of a preference as top/bottom exclysivity#irl i can only be a top otherwise the idea of bottoming turns me off even repulses me from the act#that got TMI but its relevant to my point#ANYWAY oftentimes i wish dynsmic based ship names returned#like difference between yexie and xieye or wenzhou and zhouwen etc#it saves so much time#and heartbreak#like this way id immediately know theres nothing for me to read#rather than click open 20 tabs then skim through and then close them after its the usual dynamic i dont prefer#or worse get invested and then get my day ruined when the sex scene happens#yes ruined because im Like That TM#hcs
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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane
(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)
#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school#so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away#i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute#and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with#someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over#so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job#not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people#and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie#or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired#i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family#but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying#and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home#logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do#i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out#and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years#i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year#i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out#even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times#and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable#i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something#plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later#vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space#and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year#and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends#so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything#i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything#but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know#i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to#vent
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Ok so ik that fanfiction often requires characters to act ooc but I've seen multiple (tbf like 3) accidental pregnancy fics in the bear tag....and I just want to have my own 'he wouldn't fucking say that moment' and say that there is not a single universe in which Sydney Adamu would ever carry an unwanted pregnancy to term. If the concept of abortion didn't exist my girl would invent it to not have to do that shit lol.
#like carrying her flaky coworker/boss's baby as a starless 20 something chef living with her dad? no way could that ever be her#I don't even necessarily view syd as consciously childfree or anything#more like kids literally cannot and will not exist in her mental conception until she has achieved her chef goals and owns property#also like ik ppl generally portray syd as the somewhat normal one while carm is completely detached from normalcy#but I think he's wayyy better with kids than syd is like#his childhood was obviously terrible but he grew up with siblings and all the neighborhood kids like claire tiff and the faks#so I think he has some mental conception of standard kid things even if basic/dated like ketchup and ghostbusters#whereas syd just had her dad and maybe grandparents and probably felt the need to grow up super fast after her mom died#and was the precocious and responsible kid that teachers loved but the other kids thought was weird/annoying#and has no idea what is normal for any given age#like don't get me wrong carm is also bad at taking care of kids due to being seemingly the youngest in the entire family until eva#but I think he can tell the difference between like a 5 vs a 8 year old whereas syd cannot#the bear#m.text
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my sincere reverence for people who regularly break like 20k words in something man, the minute i start getting near 6-8k i start hyperventilating and throwing up 😭😭😭😭
#IM EXAGGERATING OFC i dont actually start getting violently ill lmao... but ive realized its soooo difficult for me to break that 10k mark#i'd say like 3-5k maybe is my sweet spot? a lot of shit i write is around that mark#i do have some longer things but theyre generally still under 10k. bruh my final fuckign creative writing portfolio i had to turn in#WAS UNDER 16K. AND THATS COUNTING TITLE PAGES CONTENTS SHITS 😭😭#to be fair we did mostly do short forms throughout the term so if i did some sorta more advanced thing im sure maybe it would be different#but still. i struggle so bad already with my sweet spot so i have no idea how people write longer 😭 my respect man#the longest thing i ever wrote (was for school) was like 19 pages? NOT EVEN 20 and that was counting title page and citations#the day i actually do have to write something over 20 pages i think i'll throw up bro man i cannae do this... cougfhs#i am weak I KNOWW 😭😭 SORRY.#delete later
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cannot express enough how happy having visible fat makes me
#i have rolls and folds and they actually make me so goddamn happy it's unbelievable#my stomach no longer literally goes concave when I'm hungry#i have more energy and strength bc my body isn't literally eating my muscles to survive#I HAVE THE ABILITY TO GAIN STRENGTH BACK. like i genuinely thought that was off the table permanently#like i thought I'd never get the opportunity to build muscles bc of how often my body had to eat them all to survive#my bones hurt less!!!!!!!! I'm not slamming my skeleton against things!!!!!!! i have cushioning!!!!!!!#i can get injections in my arms again!!!! my arms aren't too fucking small for vaccinations!!!#i feel so much better about my body and about myself#ok mild side tangent but. when i was young i was told twink and bear were exclusively gay MAN terms so i couldn't use them#(fuck that idea. use whatever labels make you joyful)#but i DESPERATELY wanted to be a twink so bad. i called myself a butch for a while bc i was a skinny masc 'girl' but ive always been a twink#and back then i kept thinking 'i wish i could be a twink that grows into a bear by age 40'#but i always thought bear was off the table because of course i could never get fat what am i thinking#but like.#holy shit. i might actually be able to be a whole ass bear. i have facial and chest hair now. I'm not Fat but I'm getting fatter#i have another 20 or so years to get there. i could do it.#i think noticing that I'm getting fatter gave me the same type of joy that noticing my voice dropping or getting my first wheelchair did#it also oddly makes the 'coping with the fact that whoever we called the core/original of this system is long gone' a bit easier. lmao#the fact that we've looked so different over the course of our life#Bee (the 'core' i guess) doesn't even have the same natural hair colour as the rest of us
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Me every time I watch or read a rendition of a character and the OP has flown with the idea that "this character's lapse in judgement is actually a defining characteristic for their future interactions and defines them rather than being a poor decision the character made"
#mike wheeler#eren yeager#this is @ those two specifically#I've read so many “not my fault you don't like girls” as = homophobic mike takes that if I had a quarter for every time I'd probably have#over 5$ probably even 20$#mike??? the boy who clocked whats his face for being homophobic to will in s1??#like even finn said that the script literally said “like girls YET” and that mike doesn't KNOW will is gay#im not diminishing the fact that the current take has a wildly different impact#than how the script wouldve went#but the fact that people take everyone's actions at face value#rather than thinking about their reasoning or what they meant#and eren#omg#ive read a lot of toxic eren hcs or eren being a fuckboy#like bro#EREN himself literally said that what he did was a mistake#putting aside the wild actions he did in s4#like him being an ass was an ACT#isayama even said so#aot#st#a lot of this is based on interpretations on characters#but the idea that people can't go back to who they used to be seems to not be one that people like#sometimes change is deciding that you liked who you were#that you tried something new and didnt like it#sometimes taking two steps back IS taking a step forward#rambling#idk maybe i just see the soft side of characters more#that's not to say they shouldn't apologize for their action#but that one moment or string of moments shouldn't define someone for the rest of their lives
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