#have i mentioned that i’m scared?
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I hope they keep some of the dialogue from “The Wizard of Oz” in Wicked Part Two because the new context and double meanings would be so funny and yet so sad at the same time.
Galinda: “Rubbish. You have no power here. Begone, before somebody drops a house on you too.”
Galinda: *weakly waves her sparkly training wand at Elphaba*
Elphaba: *looks visibly hurt by the comment*
Galinda: *silently apologizes and pleads with her eyes and she continues to wave her powerless wand at Elphaba*
Elphaba: *continues to look grieved and angry and hurt*
Galinda: *desperately tries to cover her sadness over Nessa’s death with confidence as she continues shaking her glitter wand in Elphaba’s direction while silently warning her with her eyes that her comment was a warning, not an insult*
Dorothy: *goes from looking terrified to looking progressively confused as she watches their silent emotional exchange while Galinda waves a useless bubble wand at her super powerful best friend like a child*
Galinda: *frantically shakes her useless sparkle wand one more time while the munchkins watch in nervous anticipation*
Elphaba: *sighs and pretends to be helpless against Galinda’s power*
Elphaba: “Very well. I’ll bide my time.”
#I love how many of Galinda and Elphaba’s fights are just Galinda being like “I know I can’t defeat you Elphie and I don’t want to”#“But this needs to look convincing or the wizard will have us both killed not to mention Fiyero!”#And Elphaba having to pretend to be scared of Galinda#It’s funny but also so sad and unfair#“I’m warning you Elphie. I have magic now. Powerful magic.”#“you make bubbles” “they’re pink and Powerful bubbles”#elphaba thropp#galinda upland#dorothy gale#wicked#wicked 2024#wicked the musical#wicked movie#wicked elphaba#wicked part two#wicked part one
144 notes
·
View notes
Text
I just want to remind everyone that Wallace is canonically the worse one to sleep in the same bed with.
Scott can be a bad roommate in every other aspect but GUYS Wallace is the one that canonically snores and kicks in his sleep.
Scott sleeps like a princess with his back against the sheet lying perfectly straight (and also taking all the covers) and Wallace sleeps semi-on-his-side and apparently just fucking punting Scott in the leg every so often (not to mention he talked in his sleep too) and I don’t know why this is important to me but it is.
Because when people draw them cuddling in their sleep it’s always Wallace being normal and Scott turning and snoring and shit but you’re missing out on sleepy-cuddly Wallace turning and snoring on Scott. Let that cringe-fail 25 year old be annoying. Istg.
I’m talking to the Mobillace people too btw. Not that I’ve seen anyone draw them cuddling in bed (which is a CRIME btw. Draw that. For me.) but like imagine how funny it would be: Mobile stays the night for the first time and the hot-weirdo is a bed-menace, snoring and kicking and tossing and turning and suction cupping for warmth and Mobile is like “I want him to be my boyfriend” THATS FUNNY! LIKE-
#scott pilgrim#scott pilgrim vs the world#scollace#scott x wallace#scott pilgrim takes off#wallace wells#mobillace#mobile x wallace#mobile scott pilgrim#I’m sick of the cringe-fail erasure of Wallace#he might be more mature than Scott but that fucker ain’t mature#(however yes generally he is the voice of reason for Scott but anyone can be a voice of reason to Scott. Scott has no internal reasoning /h#I made an analysis post at one point about how I believe the primary reason Wallace manages to do half the shit he does#is because it’s easier to get the motivation to do them if he’s telling off Scott for not doing them#we know DAMN WELL that he is scared of their landlord#considering he got plastered the night before they had to go#(he seems to drink when he’s anxious)#and because of how uncharacteristically timid he was in his office#(and can I mention he said the line ‘it’s not our fault we can’t afford rent’ and like. I don’t know it feels important to point out lol)#but he tells Scott that they *have* to go and there landlord is all bark and no bite#despite being visibly nervous around him#so. the reason he dragged Scott to see him with him is because it would make him feel less nervous to see their landlord#if he focused on dragging Scott to see him instead of his own worries#but I never posted that analysis lol#but all this to say#um#i don’t know#but I’m saying something for sure!
258 notes
·
View notes
Text
I want yall to know that it was technically Torbek’s entire character that made me realize what Kremy and Gideon’s character arcs are, and that they even had character arcs in the first place
And I have an actual explanation for this. I’m not just pulling this out of my ass here.
Torbek from the get-go is everything that Kremy and Gideon are not. He is honest (or as honest as he can be), kind, compassionate, morally decent (I’d say the goblinoids are the 2 party members with the highest morals), and is incredibly emotional (and forthright with said emotions).
Not to say that the husbands are incapable of being any of these things—in fact, Kremy and Gideon both have repeatedly shown signs of kindness and compassion, both to their friends and to strangers. But also…im not gonna sugarcoat it, they’re not good people. They steal, they destroy, they murder (and actively enjoy the murdering process—or at least Gid does), etc. Kremy’s whole character is built on lies (literally his part of the opening poem says “when turned to words, could only lie”), and Gideon is very emotionally stunted (I’ve made a separate post going into this fairly in-depth, so I’m not gonna get too into it here, but he clearly hides behind a mask of anger whenever he feels genuinely sad, nervous, frightened, etc).
Anyway, I didn’t realize that Kremy has been going through a sort of character arc regarding his lies until they met Pincushion, where Kremy tried lying and bullying his way into getting what he wants (and it not working), and Torbek tried being kind and truthful into getting what information they needed (and it working wonderfully).
#yall im gonna have a fucking field day analyzing these fuckers once S2 starts#yall think I haven’t shut up about them now#I really won’t shut up about them once the hiatus ends#if it ends#*sigh* someday they’ll return#also I do eventually wanna go really in depth about frost and the goblinoids character arcs#since I know I haven’t mentioned them at all except in passing#but theirs I feel like I need to wait until the campaigns end#since I have no idea what a couple of their character arcs are or where they’ll lead#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#kremy lecroux#gideon coal#torbek#also unrelated but I’m scared Torbek might be doomed by the narrative#but that’s a discussion for another day#anyway goodnight
62 notes
·
View notes
Text
I felt so seen when I first read pjo and it mentioned Annabeth’s arachnophobia. I used to have so many nightmares when I was younger (probably started when I was around five or six), I would wake up in the middle of the night and be so terrified of moving because I thought there were spiders all over my bed. The shadows on my popcorn ceiling looked like spider figures and I remember just laying there sweating and not making a sound because I thought it would attract the spiders I guess? It was routine for me to shout for my mom—poor her, she would be woken at 2 in the morning like thrice a week— and she’d always shake my sheets and lay with me until I feel asleep. She would also take me to sleep with her and my dad in their massive bed (who was I to say no to the invitation?) and it got to the point where I was embarrassed that I couldn’t sleep a whole night without someone. Occasionally, I still have these nightmares about spiders and I just turn on a light, go to the bathroom, come back, and pretend it never happened.
Idk, just thinking about that. I kind of had forgotten about those nightmares but I don’t play when I see spiders because I know it means I’m going to dream about them.
#just a snippet of my life#tw mentions of spiders#arachnophobia#unfortunately got it from my dad he’ll freak out if he sees one#when I say I’m scared of spiders it’s not bc they bite or bc they’re bugs#it’s bc they’re the culprit of me being scared of going to sleep since I was 5#I deadass have to cover the screen whenever a spider comes up on a show or article#those tv sitcoms that always had that one episode with a spider crawling over someone’s back actualky leave me paranoid to this day#I always get startled when I see my hair and think it’s a spider for a second#‘the price of being small’ sorry but I’m not that kind of girl#anwyays#annabeth chase core#annabeth chase#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#I also got panick attacks as a kid#bc for a short period of time I was convinced that if I was around glitter or flour or sand I would inhale it and die#I was in first grade#I swear I was born with anxiety#nightmares#tw spiders#childhood#I legit could not do sleepovers for this reason#I don’t play about where I sleep in because I actually get scared if the sheets have a certain texture#annabeth and arachne#percy jackson#heroes of olympus#hoo#randomly sharing#random post
57 notes
·
View notes
Text
A loving god wouldn’t let such a filthy creature exist.
#critter rambles#I DONT KNOW WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO ME😭😭😭#cw god mention#tw god mention#postal 3#postal 3 dude#theres something so deeply wrong with him……….#🥹he scares me so much /silly literally why does he look like that eww#Galaxy gas enemy number 1 please save me😭🙏🙏🙏🙏 and yes.. he slurps gas#(my galaxy gas enemy is p2 dude)#cw drug mention#tw drugs#i need to stop rambling now or else I’m gonna have to put more trigger warning on this post#I have very strong opinions on this guy#Number 1!! He looks scary and uncanny to me that man is so terrifying#numba TWO!!!! Why his forehead so damn small.. like I got nothing against small foreheads i mean like I got a regular forehead#it’s just that like….. that thing is so damn small in comparison to the rest of the dudes……. Rip#Number 3- OK IM DONE SORRY
52 notes
·
View notes
Text
With the announcement of two new original stories by Rachel herself, I’ve been oscillating between “let her try cooking again” and “we’ve already seen what she did to the Greek pantheon she should be relegated to lunchables”
#lo critical#anti lore olympus#rachel smythe#text post#i’m scared#unpopular lo#lore olympus critical#anti lo#unpopular lore olympus#lore olympus criticism#lo critique#lo hate#plus this brings up a bunch of other questions I have#Eleanor’s deathbed mentions gods but obviously not from what religion#and I don’t know if I want her to stick with Greek mythology and further fuck it up or fuck up a new pantheon of gods#another question I have is do I want to fuck up my blood pressure again and engage with these new stories or preserve my peace lmaooo
67 notes
·
View notes
Text
*breaks the nearest door down* hello, I have come up with some more (Bloodmoon) lore for the EAH-SAMS au
@achickennamedcheese GET OVER HERE—-
Ok so, there’s The Twins (still unnamed, sorry my bbs) and then there’s Bloodmoon, as in Original Bloodmoon, as in the one who’s already gone through the story, that one, they’re The Twins’ parent
The Twins get to go visit Bloodmoon fairly regularly despite the fact they are a serial killer, they still need that parent in their lives after all, even more so when they’ve both been treated as if they were serial killers since they were born. Bloodmoon is a decent parent, they love their family very much and make sure The Twins know how much they care for them, they also teach The Twins how to fight and use weapons and stuff— which to everyone else looks like Bloodmoon training their kids to be killers which— no
So generally— and ignoring Bloodmoon’s living conditions —things are pretty wholesome!
Tho there is one thing, a habit of Bloodmoon’s
They will sometimes watch as The Twins sleep and wonder if it’d be better for them if they just killed The Younger Twin
They can never bring themselves to do it of course, that’s their kid, and regardless of age the loss of a twin is devastating, they can’t do that to their children. But the thought haunts them.
They’d give anything to prevent The Twins from following their destiny
#tw mention of death#boy do I love making these guys suffer#sorry?#sams au#sams bloodmoon#tsams bloodmoon#sams bloodtwins#crossover au#I’m too scared to tag for EAH sorry#oh yeah forgot to mention#The Twins do have the bloodthirst curse but they’ve never killed a person before#and honestly I don’t think they will#not consciously at least
19 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hey! i'm new to the twst fandom, and i love ur work! is there any blogs like urs, that does art or writes /reader fics that u would recommend?? i'm trying to find some more to follow! thnx 💕
AAAGHGJJ THANK YOU SO SO MUCH THAT MEANS A LOT ANON 🥺💖
and welcome to twst fandom!! i hope you have fun during your stay and find the perfect corner of the twst fandom that is right for you!
also i'm so happy that you trusted me with recommendations??? 🥺🥺🥺
im not sure if you lean more into my general twst stuff (and by general i mean 99% jamil LMAO) or my oc x canon stuff
i guess i'll get you started with blogs that i personally like!! and i hope you can go from there, especially since i don't know what type of content you're particularly into 🙏
anyways i rambled on for too long ;; let me get to it below the cut:
(i'm not going to tag anyone i'm too shy and terrified so i'll just link to their profiles instead; also they are not recommended in a particular order)
(and if you see yourself here uhhh hi ily guys (platonically) 🫶🫶🫶)
(i wish i have the words right now to individually gush about each and every one of them but the brain is not brain-ing right now and i really shouldn't hold this ask hostage for too long 🙏)
/reader fics: - natsukishinomiyaswife - viperwhispered - diodellet - rooksamoris - twstbookclub - twstowo - kalims - yaksha-lover
art/ocxcanon: - midnightmah07 - jovieinramshackle - oya-oya-okay - skriblee-ksk - cheerleaderman - boopshoops - twstgo - fell-fell - egophiliac - terristre - thecoolsquirrel - rizdoodls - cheekinpermission - flipppyflopp - daily-trey - medicine-san - pointy-spiral - mintmoth - lico-arts - offorestsongs - 0honeybones0 - ashipiko - r-aindr0p
honorable mention to these blogs too if you'd like to read info about twst in general!
- raven-at-the-writing-desk - yuurei20 - mysteryshoptls
these are my admittedly not-100%-objective recommendations bc half of them are friends/mutuals and i genuinely enjoy their content <333 and i tend to particular about stuff that i like 😭
so like i said, i encourage you to look for others beyond the blogs that i recommend! and don't forget to have fun while you're in the fandom!! 💖💖💖
#[—✦ chatting#HI HELP I’M SO SCARED OF TAGGING PEOPLE AAGH PLEASE DO NOT PERCEIVE ME LIKE THIS ---#in any case if i forgot anyone i'm sorry these are the ones that came to mind at the moment 😭#but just know i love a whole lot of twst blogs here 🥺💖🫶#thanks again for trusting me with recs anon!!#i have never done this before so hopefully you'll find blogs that you'll like that i mentioned here 🙏🙏🙏
40 notes
·
View notes
Text
by the way im like nearly halfway through season three of mob psycho and I see what the serizawa/reigen people are on now. like yeah you know what i do think two cripplingly lonely probably definitely gay guys in their early thirties would end up with Something happening if you put them in a room together for long enough. don’t get me wrong i honestly think it would suck at least a little bit, but there’s Something There, i hear you. there is a possibility of me getting more invested depending on how they interact in the future…there’s Stuff here i need to like place them next to each other and observe them. put them in like a petri dish.
#also I know reigens like what. 29? but serizawa’s exactly 30 I think and like#yeah that’s on the Edge of early thirties but like. they pass the vibe check.#lemon speaks#OH ON THE OTHER HAND whatever the fuck ritsu and sho have going on is very entertaining#Like what do you Mean you told him he looked good in a maid dress and said it Like That like..?#sho do you have something???? to say???????#not even mentioning him practically seeing ritsu from afar and being like. you. I like you.#for seemingly no reason other than…he…seemed…interesting???#that just stinks of ‘oh he kinda cute let’s see what’s happening over there’ like I dunnooo#fascinating#you know my only critique abt this show is that I do really wish there was more women#I need yuri to complement my yaoi#like a charcuterie board#serirei#yeah I’m not tagging this with like anything else I’m too scared
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
Post ref-
#danganronpa#trigger happy havoc#yasuhiro hagakure#aoi asahina#ani speaks#I made this for a specific reason if you guys have been keeping up#but uh#I’m scared to mention it now
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
What’s been going on, a summary
Hello everyone I have finally decided to speak about something that’s been happening with me lately.
I’m tired of scooting around it and being vague.
For nearly the past two years, I’ve had a stalker. Stalking my blogs, what I say in public servers, what I say on other websites, etc etc.
I left servers over them, i even gave up servers I used to run because of this.
I often turn off my ask boxes and DMs at random to avoid getting harassed further or to attempt to “stop it” for a short amount of time. Just for a moment of peace.
Earlier this year I left all servers and whatnot after receiving a threat of doxxing me. I got afraid and stressed so I just left without saying why. I cut off social contact for the most part without saying why. I was scared and stressed and overwhelmed by it all.
But yesterday, after getting a onslaught of messages spread across my blogs. I was in fact, doxxed and received several threats on my partners life.
We are fine however. My partner is fine and I am fine (as I can be given the circumstances). I just wanted to state that, we are fine.
We have support and are dealing with it behind the scenes. We are fine aside from me being (reasonably) a bit emotional over it.
I do not know who the individual is. I’m primarily harassed and sent threats via anon or burner accounts. So, it’s led to me being quite paranoid around people and what I say and do.
Hence why I left servers and why I don’t talk to anyone anymore. It’s made me paranoid and afraid. Because I just! Do not know who. I just don’t know.
I don’t know what I even did to this person. I don’t know why they haven’t chosen to just block me if they don’t like me. I don’t get it and I’m tired of trying to reason with them or understand.
So. As of now.
All my inboxes are closed to asks for the time being. As well as making my DMs to be “mutuals only” since there isn’t entirely a “close DMs” option.
They won’t be closed forever and I do still plan on answering any asks/interactions I’ve already gotten. I just am keeping everything closed for a bit. I am merely trying to limit how much they can harass me for the time being. I hope you all understand.
So that’s, what’s been happening with me.
I’ve been trying to avoid speaking publicly out of fear of being doxxed, but that happened anyways.
So I don’t know what’ll happen after me posting this, if it’ll get worse or not. Whatever happens, happens I suppose.
Again, I want to reiterate that my partner and I are fine. We are dealing with it and handling it behind the scenes.
I’m just, speaking publicly about it now to explain my rather, erratic behavior over the past year.
Sorry for the long and sudden serious post, but after discussing it with others, we think that maybe me posting about it publicly will help.
Again, apologies for dropping this suddenly, just unsure on what else to do here.
I’ll still be around, lurking and quietly working on content. But I’m just going to have my asks/DMs mostly turned off to hinder the amount of harassment I can get for the time being.
— —
TLDR: I have a stalker, they doxxed me and sent specific threats on my partners life. If I close my askboxes and whatnot, it’s to attempt to avoid further harassment
#ooc#mod jazzy#delete later#stalking mention#doxxing mention#I’ll try to avoid constantly posting about this#I feel bad enough for the sheer amount my family and friends have had to hear about this after all this time#but I’m also tired of being vague like I’m some kind of riddler#I kept quiet out of fear of the worst happening BUT it happened anyways#ngl!! scared shitless posting about this!!!
77 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok i cannot find the original post/deleted the reblog i need for context so. doing with an old screenshot ig (cw for talk of sa)
so like. y’know how there are men who assault women they aren’t even attracted to, women they see as beneath them and this assault as a reinforcement of that status and nothing more, or especially like. military/war situations. defeating/destroying your enemy. that’s what i mean w the degrading & hurting thing in the tags
post linked in the og
#ok sorry it’s the third time i’m trying to post this and then getting scared and deleting it. someone hold a gun to my head and force me to#commit to one decision lmao#but also. just my interpretation/hc and my explanation of why i have it you don’t have to agree :)#bg3#cw sa mention#cw sa#tw sa#tw sa mention#baldur's gate 3#enver gortash#gortash
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
Can I be mega autistic here and vent for a second and ask if anyone else is lowkey scared for whatever the next RE game is HSBWHDNDJ
#having hyperfixations/special interests combined with a PARALYSING fear of change SUUUUUCKSSS MAAAAANN. IT SUCKS ASS#like realistically I KNOW it’s silly and I KNOW I’ve got nothing to stress over BUT ITS STRESSING ME OUT BAD AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO#RE4R/Luis has been SUCH a massive comfort of mine and turned into a full blown special interest and I guess the thing I’m most scared of is#the fandom moving on and forgetting abt re4r/luis as a whole which again I KNOW is silly but I can’t control my brain!!!!#and also combined with the fact that Luis probably isn’t coming back to the franchise at least anytime soon is HEARTBREAKING man. like thats#my special interest!! that’s the thing I’ve poured hours of my time into!!!!! I’m scared to see people move on#he’s already a fairly unpopular character in the wider fandom too!! and the fact that the content we do have of him is ALL we’re gonna have?#I dunno that makes me so much more stressed out and anxious than I should be which. again. I KNOOOOOOWW IS SILLY BUT I CANT HELP IT MAN#THE AUTISM!! THE AUTISMMMMM#I dunno I’m expecting Capcom to announce their next game this summer fest and it’s genuinely stressing me out sm which I hate#I hate being so afraid of change it sucks so much man#anyways sorry for the massive vent I just had to get this off my chest cuz it’s been weighing me down massively and making me more anxious#than it has any right to BCNDNENDJXJ#and again the fact that there’s a solid chance we may never see him again at lest not anytime soon is so so so so so devastating to me it#again makes me so much more upset than it has any right to HDNSHENDJDJ#not to mention people who are already weirdly mean and nasty to people who DO like him. I’m Not having a Time rn
49 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m about to be an annoying queer narnia fan so don’t mind me
Ok but I will say that c.s. Lewis wasn’t as conservative as some Christian’s like to believe
, fun fact he had sex outside of marriage and was into bdsm to a small degree but don’t quote me on that I’ve only seen it touched on once by a lewis scholar
He had gay friends and while his views he talked about were in line with traditional sexual ethic I’d say he was fairly open for his time. At the very least from what I remember he was less clutch your pearls when it came to sex as a topic.
He didn’t like casual sex very much as like, a concept but also that doesn’t mean in this fictional world he made it would never be possible, one of the books a main plot line is an asshole Prince wanting to kidnap Susan to force him to be his wife and if that’s allowed I’m sure people were out there getting it on. Sex is a thing people do, authors can have things happen in their worlds they don’t condone (even though he didn’t in this case and that’s good cause it would make narnia not for children, I’m talking headcanons, theories or even just stuff that can and has been built upon in fan content)
even if aslans laws involved waiting till marriage (not in my headcanon but let’s just say it is cause of the author) not every citizen of that world would have had the same beliefs
Also everyone brings up Father Christmas showing up but I think we need to talk more about bacchus/Dionysus and his followers showing up in the Prince caspian and doing a g rated romp (because there were children present) like it’s very funny to imagine that C.S. Lewis wrote this world with Satyrs fauns, dryads and water spirits and was like “and every citizen of narnia was straight and waited until marriage”
also regardless the world of Narnia itself (specifically the country Narnia within that world, like narnia amongst archenland, calormen, the eastern islands) is quite open and wild and despite authors intentions can read as queer in general. It’s wilder and has a big diversity in its citizens (also the one country where arguably men and other creatures are truly equal)
Also this is tangential but I saw some comments along the lines of “weren’t they the only humans???” the first generation of narnian monarchs wouldn’t have been fully human probably, after the first two their children I think married dryads and stuff. But then also by the time the pevensies showed up and especially once they were well into their reign the surrounding countries of Narnia had plenty of humans, Narnia is actually the outlier of being a country not primarily populated by humans.
#don’t take this too seriously#narnia#I have a weird thing where I don’t engage in comments anywhere but tumblr#I’m too scared of being perceived#also it’s not that serious so I just go here in my corner to engage my thoughts#narnia is embedded in my bones#c.s. Lewis#like you bring up narnia and I’m THERE and I’ve been that way since I was six#smosh mouth#narnia headcanon#don’t come at me please#I’m scared of certain narnia fans#do I need to tag this with a warning?#tw: sex mention#queer fandom#queer christian#mythology in narnia#exvangelical
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Genuinely debating just deleting all my accounts and starting new doing something else because I am miserable. The Castlevania fandom is the worst fandom I’ve ever been in my whole life.
Vent under a cut. Read the warnings in the tags.
First time I started being a fan of it I was a young teenager. At the time I was heavily suicidal, playing SotN is what got me distracted enough not to do it. Started out with Instagram because that’s where I heard most people went to start an art portfolio and do commissions.
First few months of being a fan of the series the hashtags were frozen due to the election happening, so I, a suicidal teenager, was immediately subjected to graphic gore porn of my favorite character (Simon) who I turned to looking up for comfort that was stuck there until the hashtags were unfrozen. For months I could not turn to my source of comfort without seeing that, and turned to dissociating even worse than I already was instead. That was the first red flag.
After this I had some sincerely good experiences with some live streams. Genuinely nice people doing cosplay and gaming. But there was one person I watched who did not end up as good as everyone else. This person followed me, liked my outfit stories, talked to me in chat. I was still in high school. Not gonna go into details for anonymity’s sake, but long story short I got groomed. And at around the same time I had made another “friend” in the fandom who turned out to be homophobic and would take out all their problems on me, a teen, while they were a grown ass adult. Instagram continued to get worse. Found out someone I was close to made some racist rant behind my back. Found out another was a MAP. So on and so forth. And the worst part is how many people I knew who were close friends with these people, people who would not have believed me if I’d told them. Especially since some of them were more popular than I.
So I gave up on Insta, stopped posting, stopped talking, and I got a discord. Which started out fine! Found a small server of nice fans, made good friendships I still have. I had Reddit for a short amount of time and found out how dogshit it is when a smaller server I thought was cool started bullying a small artist for drawing gay fanart. I use it purely for game dev and vocaloid help questions now. Eventually I got the courage to come here, to tumblr. Months into that move I run into CP. And then several TERFs. And then a necrophile in the main tags. And then misogyny. And then racism. And then defending CP. Then a surge of transphobia. And then I get shit for getting the courage to call out CP. I try to go to YouTube to find content and escape— run into out in the open slurs and people bluntly claiming albino people aren’t human in comment sections about Juste. I try to watch videos and see the art of my groomer being used everywhere. I am constantly reminded that I am outnumbered.
I go back to discord. The main mod of it ends up interacting creepily with minors and is transphobic to my friends. Whole server blows up. Large amount of people take the mod’s side and blacklist us from a large amount of servers, gossiping about everyone involved to completely unrelated people while not telling the whole truth, all while being horrifically transphobic about a friend. Someone else in the server turns out to be an abusive piece of shit. I don’t even try making a twitter because it’s a hellhole anyway, and someone I’d know about from most other platforms I’d been on harassed a friend of mine on there. Not to mention the transphobic roleplay account that’s still around somehow.
I swear I have to block a new person in this fandom every. single. day. I swear some bullshit happens in this fandom every. single. day.
I want to draw a vampire hunter and not be absolutely thoroughly terrified that I am going to run into more vile shit and dangerous situations if I talk to anyone. I want to draw a vampire hunter and not be deeply afraid of meeting new people in this fandom. I want to draw a vampire hunter and not have my paranoia confirmed every day. I want to draw a vampire hunter and find comfort in doing so again.
Is that too much to ask.
#vent post#cw vent#tw vent#this fandom sucks#I am so fucking scared and stressed CONSTANTLY#I can’t even enjoy something I love but I can’t get rid of the love I have for it either#doesn’t help that I’m stupidly attached to my username and use it everywhere so I’m stupidly easily findable yay#it makes me terrified about what making a game is gonna do#what kind of people are going to find a safe space in it#what will I be subjected to constantly if I make something public#text post#incoherent rambling#I don’t know if this should be on the main tags#probably not#ugh I’m so tired#tw pedophila mention#tw grooming#tw rasicm mention#tw transphobia mention#tw homophobia mention#tw suicide mention#tw gore mention#tw terf mention#idk that probably covers it#I love these games so so much they’re why I’m alive#but it’s just so hard#ugh
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
the last chuck e. cheese location in my state that had animatronics just got rid of them so i made an oc to ship myself with helen henny to cope
anyways rip cec animatronics in milwaukee 1983-2024
#that’s right#posting cringe on main time#mutuals don’t look#chuck e cheese#self ship#oc x canon#i’m not adding anymore tags i’m scared#i’m genuinely so devastated that they’re getting rid of the animatronics#i’m going to the volo auto museum in april so i’ll probs be able to see them then#does volo even have cec animatronics??#ugh idk#it’s almost midnight#and i have school tomorrow#BY THE WAY I HC THE KING AS A BUTCH#OOPS FORGOT TO MENTION
18 notes
·
View notes