#general autistic sensitivity

[laneboyheathens]

depression really does just make every tiny thing feel so much worse why tf am I crying about shoes

[cryptcatz]

i hate how much of my life revolves around asking myself “am i being overly sensitive/dramatic or are my feelings valid here?”. being so easily hurt and upset sucks. i feel like im too soft for this world

[magpiethepunkfairy]

Just a reminder because I know I needed it

Your friends don't hate you!!!!!

They don't hate you, their not ignoring you, they don't secretly wish you'd fall off the face of the earth

Their probably just busy, they've got work or therapy or family stuff

They might be in a really strong hyper fixation, or got caught up in a special interest

Their not wishing you'd stop existing, or mad at you, they don't think you're evil and horrible

They just forget to reach out sometimes, maybe they also feel like you might hate them

Maybe their having a flare up, or going through an episode, or dealing with a hundred other things

But they do Not hate you

I don't hate you

Take a shower, eat some food, maybe drink some water, maybe take a nap

Open a window, take a walk, go for a drive

If you're feeling really brave?

Text them, call them, send a voice message

I believe in you, I believe in us

[briarmae]

So, I have autism. One aspect of autism and/ or adhd is RSD, or Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It's used to describe a type of emotional disregulation.

I accidentally made a relatively popular post (for me). (It currently has 2,900 notes. My next most popular post has 100.) 2,900 notes, and of them, only about 12 people who responded were negative and/ or confused. I was CONSUMED with feelings of anger, anxiety, rejection, and sadness about those 12 people. 12 out of 2900.

RSD is ridiculous.

But my psychiatrist added a new antidepressant, and suddenly those feelings are blunted, and I can let go of things that cause me anxiety. But I can still experience joy, etc. It's like... my emotions are less overwhelming, but I can still feel them? I hope I'm describing it well enough.

Is this how *normal people feel?

(*Normal, of course, is relative. In this case, it refers to people who are neurotypical and/ or do not suffer from mental illness.)

[lupins-hehim-pussy]

i want top neuvillette who's still femme and a crybaby my god is that so hard

[aromanticduck]

Them: Yeah, it's got a little bit of (food you don't like) in it, but you can't even taste it, I swear!

Me, 3 seconds later:

[Image description: a white cat screwing up its face and sticking out its tongue in disgust.

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[spooky-scary-hedgies]

They're both canonically autistic

[swordsonnet]

idk how to phrase this in a way that doesn't come across as overly confrontational, but these posts that are like "even if you're autistic, you still need to eat lots of vegetables :)" kind of rub me the wrong way. don't get me wrong, i get that eating vegetables is important, but a lot of the time these posts are ignorant to how sensory issues relating to food actually manifest in a lot of autistic people, and end up sounding... honestly quite condescending. sure, most of them are written by autistic people, but usually with relatively mild issues around food that they could just "train themselves out of", and so they seem to assume that every autistic person can do the same, which is just not true. there's a lot of "i guarantee you you'd love this vegetable if you just cooked it the right way!" or "you need to buy better quality veggies, just go to the farmer's market!", but for many autistic people, how something is cooked or where it's sourced from doesn't make a difference. (not to mention that following more complex recipes or going to the farmer's market isn't always possible for disabled people in the first place. many of us rely on food that is easy to prepare and can be found at the local supermarket/ordered online.)

when i say i don't like a certain food item, i don't mean that i find it a bit dull. i mean that it literally makes me feel sick, that it tastes like biting into something rotten. and that applies regardless of how it's prepared or where it's from. i'm mostly sensitive to bitterness, so there's a lot of vegetables i can't eat, and likely never will. i still try to regularly incorporate the vegetables i can eat into my diet, but i'm just not able to eat a wide variety of them.

and that's an experience these posts rarely acknowledge, let alone understand. the thing is, a lot of us have tried everything suggested in them, or have been forced to try it by our parents/guardians/teachers/etc. it's not like those things have never occurred to us until we saw random tumblr user #277379 talk about them! we have tried different ways of cooking the foods we hate, buying different kinds of them, mixing them with foods we like. and they still taste like dirt to us! because we're not just "picky eaters", we're dealing with debilitating sensory issues.

i know the people making those posts mean well. i'm not trying to shame anyone here. but i think it's important to understand that for at least some autistic people, their sensory issues around food can't be "fixed" with a few simple tricks.

[maze-mind]

Why do people think they can ask about your diagnosis? Why do people think they can ask about your triggers?

I have never, not once, answered any of these questions in anything other than DMs. I'm not going to share my story, because people will go:

"Oh! That's bad! That all didn't ACTUALLY happen like you're saying it did!"

[arbitrarystrawberry]

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[waywardsalt]

Holy shit I will talk about Linebeck for FREE

I did skim the PH manga to see if I could steal anything, and uhhh it certainly made some Choices. I didn't end up taking much, just a few cues for how I wanna characterize Link and a couple ideas for how I wanted to handle Linebeck's backstory.

I thought the flashback scene with Linebeck abandoning his crew to escape the ghost ship was an interesting concept. It didn't quite fit what I wanted, but it was close? I like the survivor's guilt angle, like maybe he joined up with a crew of people he admired and he let them down somehow.

It's fun to talk about Linebeck hell yeah

The ph manga does certainly make some Choices, that's for sure. The backstory they come up for Linebeck is... it's interesting, but as I'll probably go over when I actually talk about the things I disliked in it, not a great choice in the greater scheme of things.

It's a good concept though, even if it's one I don't use. One of my favorite things about Linebeck is the sheer lack of concrete information we're given about him, so his backstory can be whatever the hell you reasonably want it to be.

The survivor's guilt angle that the manga touches on is really good, though. The idea of him joining people he admires and ends up letting them down in some form is a cool concept to explore with Linebeck specifically, I think, and you can tie it back to the story of phantom hourglass decently well.

I think that with the way Linebeck is in phantom hourglass, you can do a lot of things with his backstory. I think you can whip up a lot of different interesting events that lead to Linebeck acting the way he does at the beginning of phantom hourglass.

I've pretty much got his entire backstory planned out for myself, (I'm considering writing it out as a fic but it does contain topics that I would need to be careful handling) and I don't really do anything similar to what the manga does, instead opting for a more mundane but still tumultuous backstory centering more on the ideas of social isolation and struggling with identity and stuff.

I can't tell since I know exactly what parts of my fics relate to this backstory and what part of that backstory is referenced, but I'm curious about what people might piece together just based on clues and implications I leave in my phantom hourglass oneshots.

I have a handful of backstories for him because I like to come up with aus, so he has a different backstory in every story, but it's fun to identify what parts of the backstory remain static or share the same themes despite the backstories being in genres ranging from futuristic sci-fi to modern times or even just vastly different Zelda-type settings.

The phantom hourglass manga, I think, is a questionable choice for reference on these characters, although Link is enough of a fluid character that all of his manga portrayals are fine. Manga Linebeck is not nearly as good as game Linebeck though lol. I'm still angry about losing the second half of the game. We lost his letter, which I consider to be a fantastic snippet of characterization for him.

Anyways, Linebeck backstories are interesting since there's pretty much nothing that canon suggests about him. I'm interested in whatever you decide on doing with him!

[magpiethepunkfairy]

Struggling a lot with gifts for my friends here's a rant/vent about it

Like, both actually having the energy and resources and time to make them, and coming up with gift ideas and feeling like my ideas are good enough

My executive dysfunction is making it extremely hard to get the materials together and start the projects

I also feel like I'm somehow gonna offend/hurt my friends feelings if the gifts aren't good enough or all the same quality

I feel like I'm a bad person and a bad friend because of it, and because I'm having such a hard time coming up with ideas for some of them

My brain keeps trying to convince me that this is proof I'm a horrible person who doesn't Actually care about anyone (unless of course I feel the correct kind and amount of guilt)

Idk if it's the rejection sensitivity or anxiety or the potential ocd a friend mentioned thinking I might have

It's actually really upsetting and stressful and annoying

I'm writing about it cause I think I've just been dissociating from and ignoring it which, ya know, isn't great

[evelhak]

Not only can I recognize people downstairs by their steps, I can recognize them from the way the water hits the sink when they wash their hands and literally the sound of their farts. How dare people not believe me when I say there are mise in the walls.

[dandelion-system]

My mum: what was the point in me not seeing my mother again to protect from all these feelings of you’re going to feel them anyway?

Me, who has been her therapist about her childhood since I can remember, and subject to her emotional abuse because she never learnt emotional maturity

._.

[artificial-condition]

I’ve been hit with The Gloom

[spooky-puptarts]

GOD I FUCKING HATE RAYON!! I HATE "silky feel". FUCK!! I'll take. I'll take your goddamn fuCKING cotton poly blend as long as its not fuCKINg RAYON or some fuckoff elastic plastic shitass "oo look i can make this for 3 dolar and print on one side of it ' slimy clingy horseshit fibers