#thank god for my psychiatrist

[briarmae]

So, I have autism. One aspect of autism and/ or adhd is RSD, or Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It's used to describe a type of emotional disregulation.

I accidentally made a relatively popular post (for me). (It currently has 2,900 notes. My next most popular post has 100.) 2,900 notes, and of them, only about 12 people who responded were negative and/ or confused. I was CONSUMED with feelings of anger, anxiety, rejection, and sadness about those 12 people. 12 out of 2900.

RSD is ridiculous.

But my psychiatrist added a new antidepressant, and suddenly those feelings are blunted, and I can let go of things that cause me anxiety. But I can still experience joy, etc. It's like... my emotions are less overwhelming, but I can still feel them? I hope I'm describing it well enough.

Is this how *normal people feel?

(*Normal, of course, is relative. In this case, it refers to people who are neurotypical and/ or do not suffer from mental illness.)

[triglycercule]

killer should know about dumb video game meta stuff ike i-frames and animation cancels and critting amd breaking out of bounds and use it to his advantage in fights. maybe he learned it from chara in something new as a silly little thing to try out because theyre already teaching him all this bullshit on killing so whos to say a video game character cant learn a player's cheats?? he's already interacted and collaborated with a player before i think its fair he knows tricks on how to cheat undertale's fighting system

everything's all fine and dandy in a fight against killer (no it isn't) until you see him glitching around and somehow phasing through your attacks. he looks ridiculous but it gets the job done

[morrigan-sims]

Been flying through making poses today, and here's one of my favorites so far...

(if you're thinking "Morri, is that another "suitor tucking Fallon's hair behind her ear" pose?" then the answer would be yes. Sorry.)

[sassmill]

Hey it’s absolutely buckwild how quickly one little seed of an intrusive thought will have me fucking spiraling

[graveyarrdshift]

it's just me and my mood swings against the world

[qqqqqqqqqqq0]

i've been having some trouble falling asleep lately

[t-ierrahumeda]

Took another day off. My manager is gonna murder me but what can I say. I love living on edge <- anxiety gone up by 60%

[kikis-writing-service]

I don’t make enough money to have these many health problems so early in my life

My body needs to get its shit together or something

[twinkskeletons]

boy why are you so problems

[godsiick]

I made my appointment. Got prescribed literal ketamine. Got home safe.

[spiiderpunk]

thinking abt how i was very close to being an alcoholic

[realityphobia]

You know its bad when you mention your work frustrations to your psychiatrist and they, a layman in your discipline, say "wait how are you supposed to do that."

[lesbianhallieparker]

wrote out a calendar for my next two weeks bc i am so overwhelmed and dysfunctional rn and even scheduled when i’m going to shower

[lumashoes]

me when im fatigued and ill and the meds are making it worse and im dizzy and crying and constantly overwhelmed

[albonium]

my colleague made a comment about how I seem out of it lately and said that I struggled to make myself understood because i'm always searching for my words to the point someone said I talk like a child I want to off myself

(this wasn't during my presentation thankfully bc stress makes me function somehow)

[ishouldsleepbut]

so we came home with no antidepressants but we got a shit ton of supplements and tears :)