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briarmae · 6 months ago

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So, I have autism. One aspect of autism and/ or adhd is RSD, or Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It's used to describe a type of emotional disregulation.

I accidentally made a relatively popular post (for me). (It currently has 2,900 notes. My next most popular post has 100.) 2,900 notes, and of them, only about 12 people who responded were negative and/ or confused. I was CONSUMED with feelings of anger, anxiety, rejection, and sadness about those 12 people. 12 out of 2900.

RSD is ridiculous.

But my psychiatrist added a new antidepressant, and suddenly those feelings are blunted, and I can let go of things that cause me anxiety. But I can still experience joy, etc. It's like... my emotions are less overwhelming, but I can still feel them? I hope I'm describing it well enough.

Is this how *normal people feel?

(*Normal, of course, is relative. In this case, it refers to people who are neurotypical and/ or do not suffer from mental illness.)

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pikhachu · 1 month ago

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girls when their issues get dismissed as anxiety for the millionth time

#futaba sakura #persona 5 #p5r #p5 #fanart #futabadoodles #chat i am SO losing it #went to get diagnosed w adhd wasnt diagnosed because and i quote “it could be anxiety” omfg #neurotypical psychiatrists especially white ones die in a hole 🥰#also because i “wasnt struggling enough”#like hi so i have this thing called emotional intelligence a good support system and access to coping skills hope that helps!#god forbid a neurodivergent person has tools to manage their condition and isnt in hell everyday i guess!#hate her ass!!!!!!!#i wasnt looking to get diagnosed for medication or support bc i already use a lot of like adhd specific supports and shit #and w accommodations my anxiety diagnosis can cover what i need for the most part so it was rlly just a validation/confirmation thing #like idk yeah. i am managing. im not particularly struggling. because ive been selfdx for a while and have implemented changes in my life #and i happen to be in a very very good place rn and im very lucky. so like. ???#rlly felt like “you have all the symptoms but youre not struggling enough with anything to be able to diagnose ypu” ok thanks fuck you #cuz ppl w adhd can manage being unmedicated by choice i js wasnt officially diagnosed before i guess its deemed “okay” to not live in hell!#dunno im frustrated. i have difficulties but i manage them well and i am very lucky to live an easy life for now so like 😭??

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roetrolls · 3 months ago

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Sigh. I wanna do creative stuff but I really drained myself today

#got rly overwhelmed with some feelings i didnt realize i had while i was coming home from work #and been kinda out if it since #forgot i had a psych appointment and my psychiatrist had to call me #thank god he does tho #or id have missed it #i wanna draw but im so so tired #maybe it's time to lean into the traditional stuff ive been playing with #idk thiugh we'll see #might just watch pokemon vids or read nosleep stories

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morrigan-sims · 1 year ago

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Been flying through making poses today, and here's one of my favorites so far...

(if you're thinking "Morri, is that another "suitor tucking Fallon's hair behind her ear" pose?" then the answer would be yes. Sorry.)

#pose wip #delete later #I really really hope I can get at least ONE more RTQ post out before the end of the year.#that would make me SO happy. like that's my only goal for the rest of the year.#and now it looks like it might actually be possible???#THANK GOD for my new psychiatrist lmao.#the more I think about it this pose is SUPER similar to the one where Hermes put the flower in Fallon's hair.#but idc. it's CUTE okay?#let me enjoy my babies in peace

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velarisdusk · 4 months ago

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i took a break from kinktober writing to crochet a sweater (my first wearable project, im very excited) and i'm listening to the throne of glass audiobook while i do it (IT'S REALLY GOOD IM ANNOYED I DIDNT START ON THE SERIES SOONER??????)

BUT all this to say, i got the idea to - if this sweater goes well - make a velaris sweater :') with ramiel on it :') it's already a thing i know but ive wanted one since the first time i saw one on tiktok but i dont wanna buy clothes on tiktok bc im worried about wearing anything THAT cheap bc i have sensitive skin, and theyre WAY expensive on etsy, so i will make my own :D

#this has nothing to do with writing #sorry yall #i just had to tell someone #and no one ik irl likes acotar or crochets so like #yall get to deal with my ramblings about it #anyway kinktober days 1-17 are done #im sweating idk how im balancing everything rn #no sleep and hanging on by a thread?#5 classes this semester; 20+ hours a week at the lab; OVERSEEING INCOMPETENT PEOPLE AT LAB; PERSONAL EMOTIONAL TURMOIL #crocheting; writing; and somehow still managing to clean and cook and eat and shower and skincare and GOD #i know a lot of this is like...... normal stuff a person needs to do every day but like #im medicated girls.... and the wellbutrin is not wellbutrining rn #has not been for like weeks now #maybe i need to talk to my psychiatrist........#yikes oversharing now gonna go #i was gonna write but i simply do not feel like it #i am going to make my sweater and listen to tog thank you #this has been my daily pop in with you guys

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himblebo · 5 months ago

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Hey it’s absolutely buckwild how quickly one little seed of an intrusive thought will have me fucking spiraling

#the kind of night once again where I’m like ‘maybe I should talk to my doctor about a mood stabilizer’#but I probably need to find an actual psychiatrist first and confirm the tentative cptsd diagnosis from my therapist #and that sounds like a 95% chance of being retraumatized at the very first appointment #so no fucking thanks #hoooooo my brain #this is god keeping me humble I swear

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t-ierrahumeda · 9 months ago

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Took another day off. My manager is gonna murder me but what can I say. I love living on edge <- anxiety gone up by 60%

#i genuinely feel bad and I'm considering asking my psychiatrist to have a session tomorrow or today instead of next week #i have therapy tomorrow thank god bc this shit is killing me

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kikis-writing-service · 1 year ago

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I don’t make enough money to have these many health problems so early in my life

My body needs to get its shit together or something

#i have inflamed tissue in my feet that won’t get better without orthotics #and my insurance won’t cover that at all #and then I have to pay almost a grand to stop my teeth from wearing down #thank god my psychiatrist is nice and switched my medication to something my insurance covers #that’s one good thing in this financial shitstorm that is living in the US

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twinkskeletons · 1 year ago

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boy why are you so problems

#can i pleasee just look at my words and images without being reminded of how i’m gods most pathetic creature #txt #thank god im seeing a psychiatrist soon

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godsiick · 2 years ago

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I made my appointment. Got prescribed literal ketamine. Got home safe.

#mun;;#tbd;;#it all worked out. only almost missed one bus #caught it tho thank god (: it was scary #i didnt get my taco bell tho ):<#bc my stupid psychiatrist was busy on the phone and took too long and i didnt have time to wait on an order.

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momorikoz · 2 years ago

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thinking abt how i was very close to being an alcoholic

#mental health was shit and i went out a lot so i had access to alcohol #but now my parents and i are settled and they dont drink at all and i rarely go out so no alcohol #my psychiatrist called me up to check up on me #she made me realise how bad teenage alcholism can be but thank god im out that bad space #ask to tag #gaya.txt

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realityphobia · 2 years ago

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You know its bad when you mention your work frustrations to your psychiatrist and they, a layman in your discipline, say "wait how are you supposed to do that."

#that sounds incredibly unreasonable. you arent working overtime right????#jobs dont care about you you need to take care of yourself #my psychiatrist is very much a wham bam thank u maam medical relationship #he took 10 minutes without prompting to be like #lmao god...and i still ended up staying 2 hours over. but its prompting me to be more firm about boundaries at least #r talks

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temperate-rainforest · 1 year ago

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making this one binary. no ghost agnosticism allowed. but explain the nuances in the tags if you want.

#Honestly #I think there is no real answer #We can search for things to prove and disprove both sides #but there is a thing such as perception blindness #and like the reason kids are the most reliable sources for ghost shit #is because they see with unclouded eyes #Having no beliefs that contradicted reality #they just see what was there #I was one of those kids #and i wrote and drew everything down and talked about it and went to the psychiatrist and had very deep conversations about the brain #so like your brain literally can only see what it can believe and comprehend #if its too much for you your brain will just autocorrect it into a different memory #im not even joking #so a lot of people have seen something and just flat out forgotten it because it was too much and your brain just noped it #because you saw something that #contradicted reality and you're old enough that your brain can dissect that and go no thank you oh my gods id rather lie to myself #so yeah besides that its a cultural thing and a mental capacity thing #and I believe in them #ive seen some shit #dbdjdhdhhf

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rustinsscohles · 7 days ago

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i was looking up more dyslexia stuff tonight and just. how did it take 28 years you guys. how.

#and it's not just the cutesy “oh letters swap places” dyslexia #it's the fact that i was straining to read and comprehend basic english earlier tonight so much so that i got a headache #laid down to take a nap and fell asleep for an hour and a half but that's not dyslexia's fault #anyway. yeah. i'm just. idk! there are so many things that like. idk after talking with my psychiatrist today it was so funny #she hadn't seen the report yet and so i handed it over to her and she was reading over it and stopped and goes #“they marked you for a learning disability right?” and i was like yeah in reading and she was like “okay yeah thank goodness”#but like not in a mean way just in a “girl you saw these scores right? like someone went over them with you?” and i was like how do i tell #her that's the main reason i went to get diagnosed in the first place 😭 like yeah the adhd too but like. fuck! i cannot read!#my fluency scores y'all. like. again you cannot flunk those kind of assessments but i very much did flunk the reading portion #anyway this has been a lifelong thing so i'm glad we're finally getting it sorted but dear god #and i get it though because when you're a kid you're all learning to read so you probably can't catch it but when you're in high school #and all your peers are zooming past you because they're reading at the right level and you're still struggling? yeah.#i'm rambling again aren't i

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the-halcyon-effect · 1 month ago

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they should invent a bpd that doesn't ruin your entire fucking life

#aaauuuuaaghhhgagahgh #i had a really bad episode today while i was hanging out with my qpp and it completely ruined the evening #and like. even though i haven't fully slipped back into it yet it's still weighing really heavily on me #i just. god i wish january 2nd would come sooner so i could finally talk to a psychiatrist. but that's the earliest appointment he had open #and i have no fucking clue what to do in the meantime bc it's been really really bad lately #and also my qpp is leaving for winter break next weekend and won't be back for like 3 weeks. so that won't help #i hate that the only way out is through. this is gonna be a really fucking hard month #sorry about the vent. i couldn't sleep and needed to get it out #also btw clover if you're reading this: i'm ok #the episode didn't return i'm just still recovering from it #thanks for helping while you could <3

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shireduchess · 2 months ago

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'it's okay to miss the people that hurt you' goddamn what a wild sentiment, it's almost like i've been dealing with the exact same thing since january, since before then

#i've also got characters im super fucking protective of #what a shocker i know #personal #i don't talk about this on here at all but god. christ. jesus.#remarkable how much i've said today that healing isn't linear #wish i could be happy they achieved a dream. once i would have been ecstatic for them. beyond over the moon #and yet even now sometimes i can't believe that we aren't in each other's lives anymore #it's still jarring to me #because i also never got closure #and that's something i've talked a lot about with my psychiatrist (wanda i love you)#idk man idk #there's so much swirling through me it really is all cycles #thank god i'm medicated and living with people who love me #thank god i'm incapable of bottling shit up honestly

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