#collective ptsd

[tomorrowusa]

^^^ Not necessarily. The country may currently have collective PTSD – ironically from the Trump years including the pandemic which was greatly worsened by Trump's botched handling of the early COVID-19 emergency.

So some voters idiotically think that the best cure for the national sour mood is to bring back the varmint who caused it in the first place.

Speaking of the pandemic, a reminder of how then President Trump reacted to the very first case of COVID-19 to appear in the US in late January of 2020.

The US political economic cycle...

Republicans fuck the economy.

Republicans then lose power and Democrats make decent progress fixing it.

Republicans vociferously complain that Democrats aren't cleaning up the GOP mess fast enough.

The lesson: We'll do a lot better reminding voters how Republicans screwed things up in the first place than pointing out the progress we're making now.

[ahalliance]

how is ETOILES the most normal person out of the French currently HOW DID THAT HAPPEN

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly I think people on here really greatly under acknowledge and recognize the large impact / large trauma that comes from intergenerational trauma from colonization, systemic racism, and not-white America centered trauma. And I know that likely has to do with how massively white tumblr dot com is, but it really isn't until I was around my writing partner that has known me for more than half my life and talking with another peer with Chinese-Indonesian background did it really occur to me how intensely pervasive intergenerational trauma due to US involvement in SE Asia is and how it plays / impacts my life.

A lot of non-America centered trauma and abuse really doesn't fall into any of the real common ways people talk about abuse, neglect and trauma because a lot of that sort of trauma is way more complex and nuanced because a lot of the nature of HOW / WHY that abuse, neglect and trauma occurred is inherently tied a lot more into a history of community / collective trauma and abuse and the ways the individuals from those areas 1) had to survive and 2) the resources that they had available to work with and 3) the inability / difficulty for individuals who are transmitting that intergenerational trauma to realize that they are not in that situation anymore and thus not unintentionally recreate the environment / mindset / trauma for the kids going on

And I'm saying "inability / difficulty" in this case because while I agree that the rhetoric of "it doesn't matter if an abuser has trauma, they could have not continued it" is true in most cases, in my experience especially with my own intergenerational trauma, some people have systemically been stripped of basically any real resources or aid or opportunity or space to really "stop the cycle of abuse" and even at their obvious BEST attempts, they still end up in a position where they systemically really can't prevent it from passing on

It was a joke - a very real joke, but that is something I appreciate with my close friends because it reminds me to check my anxieties against reality - that I "act like I still am in Indonesia" (which for the record, I have never been in Indonesia, I'm the only one in my family that hasn't because I wasn't born when they were there) as a call back to when I was commentating on the complex and dynamic financial situation my family had growing up to which my friend told me "Yeah, but it doesn't matter if you had money or not if your dad constantly lived like he was still in Indonesia" which like... 100% true

And its honestly a really fucking hard thing to work through and overcome. Factually, ON MY OWN - ie not including my fiance who is ALSO in a similar situation on his own, I am financially pretty well off. Every month I make good savings and I have a pretty fat cushion in case things go bad, and so I very much CAN afford to buy myself a $6 fidget toy, but spending that $6 feels like fucking death itself a lot of the time.

I honestly don't know if I'll ever feel as if my financial situation is anything other than broke, not because of income or anything, but just because the factual amount of money I make isn't what controls if I feel financially comfortable / well off or not. I could probably have a half million in the bank and still be sweating about spending $6 on a fidget toy.

And honestly, I was watching 90 day fiance with my friends when I was traveling, and one of the dynamics (for those that know Ashley and Manuel) REALLY made it apparent how disconnected multi-generational Americans can be towards immigrant / immigrant families that have had to come to America for a chance at a better life. It's an experience - a trauma that a lot of people who are not an immigrant themselves or a first generation American to wrap their head around and fathom.

And honestly, I wish there was more talk about it. I wish there were more people with that history talking about it.

(I 'lowkey' start venting under here so Imma put it under the cut since it detracts somewhat from the point but its also worth stating)

I wish there were more people openly discussing how absolutely fucked it is that the US gets to come into countries, INTENTIONALLY fuck it up as a CONFIRMED and ADMITTED method to 'instill democracy / capitalism', and then the same people that from the same country that the US fucked over - for PURE survival - have to immigrate for a chance of living a life that is anything other than rough and a constant struggle.

Some people really wonder why it is that our system has such a foul taste in our mouth for America, I know some people think that because before fusing, >I< wondered why XIV was so deeply and intensely bitter about all things American, and I absolutely get it.

Indonesia was literally intentionally and systemically fucked over by the US Military. That fucking over resulting in immense trauma to my dad that not only immensely translated to me, but also made him EXTREMELY subservient in a "keep your head down, lick the boots of the most powerful person, and enjoy living under the boot of those in power because its the only way to have peace" which is something we - specifically XIV in the past - had internalized deeply which is why were were pretty far down the right wing path and why - when XIV looked at it closer and immediately saw past it - flipped to hard Anti-America values. Because its FUCKED that the US gets to come and ruin a country and then have the victims come and having the same victims "thankfully" licking the boots of the US for giving them a "better life".

Its honestly awful and literally no one talks about it and I know its not just Indonesia that has this. Its the fucking US's modus operandi and its fucking awful.

The US is a place you can come "to get a better life" largely because they fucking ruined most of the other places ability to have a good life.

[psychotic-system-culture-is]

Psychotic (traumatized) system culture is having regular hallucinations and delusions that our abuser has found us, is in our house, is watching us, etc.

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[heavenfell-au]

You'd be angry too.

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[the-ghost-bird]

Hypervigilance and Paranoia; I wish I could blink.

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[moonilit]

Tiny Jote doodles, you can tell me 6 yo Jote ‘nursed’ a comatose Joshua all you want SE that what SHE thought she was doing because she was a kid

[the-inheritance-games]

I know we all agreed we don’t want grays love intrest, aka Lyra, to have red hair, and I agree, but have we considered a CHERRY red head 👀

I honestly think it would be funny if she did have cherry red hair too 💀

[detentiontrack]

I talk a lot about the amphibia finale episodes, but something they did right was the depiction of PTSD in the Plantars when they were faced with the giant herons.

[ashes-onthewind]

your boy just got the official autism diagnosis (his girlfriend said she agrees he does have autism) so you best believe I'll be making so many autism jokes about myself.

[rottenteeth]

It's important to remember that we need to be gentle with ourselves and others with this disorder.

It is normal to be stuck in fantasy and to want parts to be more separate. That's what kept us safe as children.

What's important to acknowledge is that those symptoms have to be diminished during recovery. And it will be uncomfortable! Just because something is uncomfortable doesn't mean it's harmful!

But it's okay to have hard times and feel that alters are genuinely not connected to you. It's part of the disorder.

Both things can be true at the same time!

Be gentle with yourself and with others, we are all prone to fantasy and suggestion.

[dazedpuppydairies]

I guess I accidentally deleted my original intro post. Yeah, not really sure when that happened XD

Welcome to The Dazed Puppy Diaries!! I'm Fawn Hagstone a 21 year old, queer, disabled, neurodivergent, anarcho punk. I really enjoy counterculture and I also really like discussing different facets of my identity. I started this blog because I need a place to dump info about my identities, interests, experience, etc.

Things I'll Probably Be Talking About

Being trans/nonbinary, asexuality, aromanticism, and generally a-spec stuff, ethical-non monogamy, disability and neurodivergence/mental health stuff (OCD, Generalized Anxiety, Agoraphobia, Depression, Trauma, Dissociation, Plurality (I'm the host of an OSDD-1B system though we're still not super comfortable talking about it online yet), Autism, ADHD, Dyslexia etc) Counterculture, punk(especially folk punk and queercore), alterhumanity, goth, emocore, j-fashion, etc, leftism, anarchism, disability justice. Generally just stuff pertaining to my identities, interests, experiences, etc. Posts pertaining to my special interests and hyperfixations. I'm pretty crow-brained and I like collecting things a lot and I've made a few posts about dolls in the past. Might wanna make some posts about media at some point in the future too. Also I'm a furry.

[themetalvirus]

shadow's autism is SO important. if he doesnt act super autistic what is EVEN THE POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! his autism!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[leonsies]

I’ve had this post Re6 Chris going back for Piers and saving him and how he recuperates headcanon story ish thing in my mind for years now and I think I need to just suck it up and actually write it. Unfortunately there is a hater who lives in my brain who insists that writing fan fiction is too cringe to even begin to do. Help TT What do I dooooooo OTL

[simonsoys]

Another night conceptualizing Swap and Fell as if they were slight deviations in events in the 100 years since Asriel/Chara died, that led the characters to different roles/attitudes, rather than being core personality changes... 

Everyone is still who they are, but in different stages of desperation

hghghg everyone needs a hug still

[authorbertslechner]

A look inside my upcoming poetry collection about surviving, healing from, and thriving after abuse. This poetry collection releases August 6th, 2024. Writing it helped me so much in working through my emotions after escaping an abuser, and I really hope reading it will help other people get through their own healing journey.

Special thanks to Fido for allowing me to take photos with him.