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kazanskys-mitchell · 10 months ago

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nothing like being left on delivered for over a day 👍🏻

#i’m so over everything #like can i just have one (1) good thing happen to me #PLEASE #anyway i’m gonna go be depressed now #see yall tomorrow <3 #jj rambles

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sofiaruelle · 4 months ago

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idk if there's anything you can do about it but someone is using your chappell hot to go art on teepublic & I thought you would want to know if u don't already :(

Nice. love this for me./s

uhhh anyways thank you for bringing this to my attention @hyuckieberry! I’m gonna try to figure out TeePublic’s DMCA takedown request. which is very frustrating since i am from the Philippines. and DMCA is very much bound to just the USA.

for now, if anyone sees this, PLEASE HELP ME REPORT the account.

If anyone is interested in buying the tshirt/design, please consider supporting me, its up on my Redbubble. the only place where i have uploaded the design.

Honestly, simply reblogging and liking this or the original post i made will help immensely.

#narwhal speaks #chappell roan #chappell roan fanart #chappell roan fan merch #I thought i was finally having a good day and i was so proud of myself because i finally managed to get out of bed #after having a fucking relapse #and now this????????#it fucking sucks because the more i look into the DMCA takedown request of TeePublic #which btw very labor intensive and full of legal jargon i am ill equipped to follow #ITS LIKE ONLY FOR THE US????????????#I am currently living breathing in the philippines unfortunately #anyways uuuhhh #i’m gonna go cry and maybe my rage/frustrations can help me figure something out #i’m gonna be sick #hopefully my rage and frustration will keep me from spiralling back into a depressed state lol.#is this what i get for bedrotting for months?#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #fuck me gently with a fucking chainsaw

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ennabear · 5 days ago

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finished melvika now it’s time to write some heartbreaking angst 100k words no happy ending

#to the anon who requested sevika angst based on amber waves #HOW COULD YOU and i love you…#i’ll probably continue melvika sometime later but i just wrote for them twice in a row i think they need a break #THEYRE NOT GOING AWAY FOREVER THO #ngl i’m SO excited to write something cruel and angsty and depressing #sorry if that’s mean but omg i’m gonna have so much fun especially because i’ve never really done it before #I NEED A NAP THO gimme a day or two and i’ll start… and then gimme another year to finish 😭#also i need to clean up my masterlist it’s kinda ugly and confusing #ok anyways that’s all if anyone cares… goodnight for now #enna speaks

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lesbiansanemi · 18 days ago

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Officially deciding I shall not be going to work tomorrow because of the snowstorm so…. Yay? Extra day off?

#driving home after work tonight was bad enough #and it’s just gonna keep snowing so yeah I’m good #if my fucking roommate tries to speak to me though we might have issues #I don’t think she realizes the precarious position not paying the bills put her in with me #like did I already dislike her and find her extremely annoying? yes #however I was willing to deal with that for another couple weeks #but now you have costed me hundreds of dollars #if you try to speak to me or get in my way and it’s not to give me your share?#it’s your own fault if I decide to maul you #I will say I find it amusing in an infuriating way that she constantly goes on and on about how I spend too much time in my room #and I’m wasting my life and ‘hiding won’t make things better’#cuz like. anyone with eyes and a brain could see I’m literally just avoiding you #I hang out with friends I go places I do things when you’re not home I chill in other areas of the apartment #I’m quite literally just avoiding your dumbass and you’re too stupid to realize so you lecture me on depression #like oh my fucking god……#anyways that was a tangent #snow day ig #will probably write some and watch a couple episodes of Gundam and haikyuu #kaz rambles

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mars-ipan · 3 months ago

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Tomorrow Is Election Day And I Am So Fucking Stressed

#marzi speaks #marzivents #hi folks. i haven’t been making much art lately. apologies! i want to be #unfortunately shit is Stressful in both my little world (i’m starting to get overwhelmed with my meds and refills and driving)#and on a broader more societal scale (if trump gets re-elected shit is going to go so fucking bad oh my god)#PLUS we’re in the It Gets Dark At 6PM Zone now #i think i’ve lowkey been catastrophizing a bit with all that’s been going on #i should probs look into those psych referrals my doctor gave me #she offered them bc the almost-dying earlier this year was Traumatic and i was showing signs of anxiety/depression #but i think they’ll just be helpful in general #god though i hate being on prescriptions. it feels like there’s a constant timer hanging over my head #refill these pills before this time so you don’t have to miss a day. woops! the pharmacy’s out of stock on this one #so you’ll have to come back at another less convenient time. fail to do so and the medication goes on hold #which requires a phone call where you speak to a Robot that may not understand the nuances of ur situation #grrrgh it sucks so bad. thankfully i refilled my prednisone the other day and have like 3 months’ worth now #and that’s the one i really can’t afford to miss bc steroid withdrawals could really fuck me up #but uggghhh i hate it. so much. bc it looms over me always #i hate keeping track of when i’ve taken my pills too. i keep a checklist for every day #so i remember what i have to take and if i’ve taken it #but god it sucks. i’m at the point where it’s basically routine now so i do it automatically #but i know if i stop monitoring i’m gonna forget if i’ve taken my steroid one day #and either double dose or skip the day. and that’ll fuck me up pretty good #anyways. hoping hoping hoping this election goes well bc idk if i can take it if our country tis of thee elects the fucking fascist #this one’s fine to rb. i think many of us share this sentiment lmao

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insanechayne · 3 months ago

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#my dad is starting shit with me again and just continuing fights and bringing up shit that has nothing to do with anything #and even when I try to calm the situation he just gets worse and keeps berating me #I want to get out of the house but my partner hasn’t talked to me all day or even checked our message chat #so I don’t want to bother them or just show up without them saying it’s ok #not that they’d have much problem with it probably but if they don’t acknowledge it I don’t want to startle them or something #and idk what if they are mad at me and that’s why they haven’t talked to me today? or if they’re having a bad day too?#they’re not gonna want to deal with my bullshit if they’re not having a good day either #so that’s another problem to contend with #and I’m also really tired and fatigued already because of some recent health issues and just packing my go bag is wearing me out a bit #I don’t really want to pack up the whole car and drive an hour to their house after midnight when I’m already not doing great #so I know I should just stay in my room and get some distance or do my own thing until I fall asleep #but God I just don’t want to be here anymore #tbh I do kinda wanna be dead and I wish I could do something about that #idk if I’m fully suicidal or anything but it’s like… I want to make my dad see how much he needs me and I want to get a fucking break #I want someone to take care of me and worry about me for once instead of giving up everything to him #I wish I killed my self at 16 like I wanted to so I wouldn’t have ever had to deal with any of this bullshit #I sort of wish I could kill myself now just to be done with all of this #but suicide takes too much planning and hassle these days so what’s the point anyway #I guess I’m just depressed and lonely and all that #I’m sure I’ll be fine in the morning #but right now I just really wish I had someone to talk to and cry on and tell me it’ll all get better soon #personal

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floral-hex · 6 months ago

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my therapist gave me a whole ass book to read before next week. I can’t even get myself to read the books I’ve already got, my dude!

#‘hmmm… he’s very depressed… better give him homework.’#jk I’m sure it’ll be fine. I just uhhhh don’t want to do it #I don’t got the reading juices flowing these days #he was telling me all about the book and inside I’m like ‘stop spoiling it! if I have to read this then at least keep some mystery!’#at least it’s not a self help book #not really a fan of those #to badly paraphrase another tumblr post self help books are full of really helpful info that you have to discover for yourself #otherwise it just feels like some random jerk off telling you what to do… or whatever. ya know?#or maybe… looking at it… it does sorta look like a self help book… but he made it sound interesting and I trust him to be cool so we’ll see #just been very…. not great lately #and now I gotta read this dang book #anyway… whatever… I’m gonna go eat some fried rice for dinner #ok I love you bye bye #you can ignore this #text

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always-smileing · 2 months ago

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I sure do love drawing!

(I want to rip out my fucking eyes.)

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44cowboycryptid44 · 1 year ago

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I hate my rotten mind and how much it worships you

-olivia rodrigo, lacey

#this show is fucking sickening #like what the fuck james #not only am I autistic #I am also wildly depressed #I can’t do this #the way it’s the most unhealthy relationship he’s ever had #and the only person he’s ever truly loved #and even at the end all he wants is to hear it back #he’s scared his life was a waste #so he begs house to tell him that he loves him #because if house loves him back #his life was worth something #anyway I’m just gonna go throw up now #mkay?#house md #hate crimes md #hilson #greg house #james wilson

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gregmarriage · 10 months ago

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i have GOT to stop cursing myself for my mental health not being good, or for having literal human emotions, (as if i didn’t suffer a manic episode literally two months ago and i’m still recovering and healing from it)

#okay but literally why was february the longest month of my life and march was five seconds long?#and now april is going fast too #my dad has being going on about our holiday for like months and now it’s less than two weeks away #i’m anxious about it tbh #it’s my first big trip in like almost five years #and like i wanna go i wanna live my life #bc i know if i stay home i’ll regret it #but every time i think about going i feel a little nervous #for reasons that i don’t even really know #residual manic depression feels and the internalised ableism that *reallly* got bad during said episode is making me feel sick with nerves #a lot lately and i don’t know i want freedom and independence and a life and i’m trying so hard and ehhhhh #idk i repeat the same shit a lot but it’s a big problem but it’s not something i can change but that doesn’t mean i just stop feeling bad #about it #‘healing isn’t linear’ yeah fuckin tell me about it #idk if i dip in and out that’s why #not that most people would really notice or care #but if you’re interested yeah wow gwen’s off on a weird one again! big surprise!#i take the piss to cope but anywaysssss #just feel like a clown lately like ‘honk honk’ that’s me #said i wasn’t gonna curse myself for feeling bad then immediately did #i’m trying to unlearn that amongst many other things sighsssssssssss #anyways whatever

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that-was-anticlimactic · 1 year ago

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students are filling out a teacher & course evaluation today,,, very nervous 😀 ik that ultimately it’s just their opinions and some of them will be pissy or mean bc they hate that they have to take the class, but it’s still kind of scary. idk like this is what i’ve been working towards, this is what i worked so hard for the past four years and like what if i’m Awful idk

#ik it’s silly to be so freaked out over it but ahhhhhh #like not to be depressing but like i’ve kind of been told that i’m bad at all the things i love/am passionate about my whole life #and i just finally wanna be good at something #and it’s so easy to say it doesn’t matter and i say that until i actually look at them and then suddenly i feel sick #ugh ik i’m making it worse for myself #anyways i’m on lunch now gonna go eat and try to distract myself 🫠✌🏻

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yoohyeon · 1 year ago

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I’m suppose to paint but my moral is so low right now…

#i Need to do it today cause I forced my dad to go buy the thing so I could do it yesterday (but I slept 5h I was afraid of making mistake)#but I didn’t so I need to do it today cause it will take more than a day and I seriously need to find a job #my health is on line two now I need to go for my eyes and that cost money money that I don’t have at all #i feel like my body is dropping me like how can it be possible to have so many problems at the same time ?????#like they are all pretty minor I’m not gonna d*e but it still really annoying especially when you wanna live your life #but you don’t have force to do it #Sowon also needs food again and I’m not sure if my parents can help me again… I’m loosing my mind #also my brother feeling depress and I feel like my dad cares so much about it more than mine ????#maybe he dosen’t realise it or maybe I don’t show it as much so that would be on me #but without having end up in the hospital I feel like I’m at pretty much the same level as him 😐#except that I force myself to enjoy what I love so I don’t end up worst than I am which he stopped doing #there’s already a gigantic favouritism on my dad side with my brother so maybe I’m just crazy and scared my dad end up feeling the same way #maybe it’s just being scared of it and not the reality idk but it’s messing with my brain so bad I’m tired #but also I can’t even tell my dad one of the biggest reason I got depressed in the first place but at this point he would tell me to get #over it I’m pretty sure 🙄#anyway I’m gonna go paint I guess #wish me luck for everything it seriously need to stop 😭#alex.txt #tw negative #tw negativity

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samuraisharkie · 1 month ago

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why the hell did my brain fixate on watching both Barefoot Gen and Grave of the Fireflies in one goddamn night, not to mention on the same night I was having major anxiety and depression in multiple directions. Also why did Grave of the Fireflies somehow both quell my fixation and settle me while it also made me of course incredibly depressed??? what is wrong with me man

#why do I fixate on depressing and horrifying things when I’m upset 💀#they were good to watch bc they’ve been on my list for years #and of course they’ve got some active applications #but also like. that is the opposite of trying to emotionall recover? I mean I guess one could say I was trying to get it all out or smth #brain had me fixated on not just those movies but a few of the historical accounts and anti war videos that go along with these movies #AND getting me depressed at the comments full of cruel nationalistic edgy morons who make up the majority #no clue why my brain did me like that. anyway I’m free now and wasted my sleep doing this. fuckin. ok #I have a headache now. I’m gonna hold a plushie and try not to cry some more

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usermoon · 3 months ago

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currently having the worst cramps ever since i was like 13 BUT after it subsides some im gonna edit my halloween post some more

#haven’t mentioned it yet but i sparked idea and made something #i was gonna use anika or terri but i made a whole new creature!#kinda wish i did more blood but it’s chill i might be able to add some in photoshop #proud of myself cause i haven’t edited in months but i was able to draw her ear over where the hair was clipping through and it looks normal #same for her hand in one picture #but anyways i am kinda okay with the fact that my blog is flopping #it’s a really weird feeling of being sad that i’m not creating but also being content with my life #well for the most part #my dad has cancer so that’s like the worst thing going on right now #cancer mention #i am convinced he will pull through but it did make me super depressed for the day after he told me #if i think too much about it itll just make me crazy so i am only thinking happy thoughts!#nonsims #grace talks #non sims #it’s been a minute idr which tag i use #period tw #period cramps #cramps

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finnstansonly · 5 months ago

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Love getting demoralizing world updates the second I wake up every single day

#maybe I should keep my phone away from me for 20 mins after I wake up so I don’t immediately feel the IMPENDING DOOM before I get up to pee #anyway I’m gonna update the progress of those funds in my pinned today once I actually get up #for now I’m giving myself 20 minutes to go back into a coma this shit is so depressing

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floral-hex · 7 months ago

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I’m so tired. I’m always tired. This suuuucks. and I’m sad and shitty. I know it’s only been a couple of weeks, but I don’t think remeron is a workin for me. Accidentally typed “wormin for me” at first. I wish it was wormin for me. Why won’t you worm for me?😔

#anyone against antidepressants and stuff just… I guess… don’t read this? or follow me 🤷🏻‍♂️#anyways… I haven’t been on tumblr much. just not feeling it. I’m gonna lose all of my mutuals.#I was supposed to adjust to it. instead uhhhhh ah just in bed #I’m always low energy now #and now im having anxiety about telling my doc I don’t want to be on this prescription #which is like… apparently this is his go-to drug. which is already kinda ehhhh maybe a red flag. preference influencing prescriptions #hey sorry your fav drug kinda sucks #blegh #this might be looking a gift horse in the mouth but I did get incredulous when the only acclimating side effect I got was sleepiness #ever other med I’ve tried has had more annoying side effects #which… god this sounds so stockholm syndrome… but you’d think ‘oh this is rewiring my brain so it MUST have some real initial side effects’#feels like I’m basically taking benadryl that lasts all day or something #funny I just posted saying it was okay a few days okay. yeah it’s okay. until you get tired of being tired all the time #body! adjust already!#I have an appointment with my primary this week so I’ll talk with him about it I guess #went to the movies the other day and almost fell asleep during #I’ve basically been in bed all day. tonight I got really depressed for no real good reason. this sucks. sucks butt.#you can ignore this #text

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