#NOT MY DRUG HALLUSINATIONS

[always-smileing]

I sure do love drawing!

(I want to rip out my fucking eyes.)

[zorara89]

mom daughter relationship

yesterday i cried my eyes out, i was watching the movie blow, where orlnado bloom as an infant is so affected by his mom's constant regret about lack of money and complaining to her husband and bullying him to get more money, that orlando bloom started dealing with drugs to never be poor and save his dad. at the same time, orlando cherished his dad, his dad was always playing with im, talking to him, prioritizing him, doing things he like with him, all the things that i feel im missing out with my daughters , i feel that i think more of me, and of the to do list i need to accomplish for me, that i forget how important play is for kids, how attention and love and personal play is what they want most from us. i feel am more focused on letting her become what i want her to be rather that what she wants to be and would like to do with me, please god remid me to play more with my kids.¨

moreover, it was devastating to see how dad can suffer from being deprived from their children. apart from the very few people who can really damage and harm their kids, many dad's are falsly accused by their wifes and the system the heroize catchig that bad and harsh man who is abusing his wife and kids. which leads to immense suffering and misfortune as well as trauma in the dads life. i was so much moved by the last seen where orlando bloom was hallusinating his dughter visiting them and telling her that she is the most important person in his life.

i pray to god to reuinite every kid with his parents especailly when they are falsly separated and are suffering from the distance between them

i pray for god to let me as well act from love of ivolving and being noble rather than fear and competition. i wanna accept my weirdness , what is weird about me is that i love to study and i love colors and that i am so childish yet very mature in my thoughts and views.