#he’s scared his life was a waste

[44cowboycryptid44]

I hate my rotten mind and how much it worships you

-olivia rodrigo, lacey

[al-luviec]

juvie buddies

[opikiquu]

aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE

[silusvesuius]

i legit love when a character's gender is so integral to their personality (and perception obviously.) like so concrete that if genderbent their whole shtick would just be absolute dookie. anyways i'm just writing this text so i can talk in the tags (My beautiful safe haven)

this 14 minute song is soooooooooooo FYRE

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

[presidentcircles-assistant]

you’re just like your father

[ID: A digital drawing of Trey, a stylized original Flatland character, done against a beige background. Trey is an grey Isosceles triangle with dark brown markings, dark grey limbs, a blocky, dark grey eyebrow, and a single grey eye in his center. On his legs, his ankles have small triangular spikes.

He has markings that consist of two curved lines across his bottom two angles connecting his bottom side and his other sides, two thin triangles curving slightly inwards right above his eyebrow, and a curved line connecting the two sides below his top angle.

He is slighting facing to the right, looking down at the camera. He is standing with his right leg to the side and his left leg facing slightly outwards. His left hand is held in a fist at his side, and his right hand is resting, held slightly behind him. His top angle is thinner than the rest of his body and slightly chipped. There are uneven lines around his body and his left fist to show he’s shaking.

His eyebrow is pulled down and his eye is squinted in an angry expression. He has a slit pupil and there are tears in his eye.

Behind him, stretching out like a shadow, is a faded Isosceles triangle named Easton. He has a single closed eye. There are two curved lines connecting his sides above and below his eye, creating a circular center. His center is light grey, and his bottom half and top angle are dark brown.

End ID.]

[vanweezer]

very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out

"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"

thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms

[termagax]

like i think to fish theyre just both people who shouldve died a long time ago and now they arent allowed to. because they need each other. and they both crave that and resent it.

[artsymyargentavislove]

Monsuno: Below Zero

Marianas VS Deepsix

Just finished a scene for a Monsuno episode concept and I'm very, very pleased with the results. Later I will color it but right now my hand needs proper rest.

Episode concept:

As Monsuno essence is further drilling into the earth's core and sismic activity is rising, Team Coretech is on the desperate task to contain it for as long as possible, just enough for Jeredy Suno to complete his miraculous board which is the key for humanity's salvation.

Their search leads them to desolate frozen lands where a lone Storm base named 'The Aurora' is reported to perform drilling activities in search for resources hidden under the ice, such as oil deposits and Monsuno essence.

Hacking into their security systems, the heroes learn that the deposit of Monsuno essence Storm is after is not only under extremely unstable barriers but also the efforts to obtain it put the surrounding waters at great risk of contamination. Such an event would result in catastrophic proportions, risking uncountable lives as well the delicate balance of the local wildlife and bodies of water.

Infiltrating the greatly isolated base seems like a piece of cake, disarm the main drill and render Storm instalations useless to prevent disaster by brute force their specialty.

Until the team finds out way too late that the classified archive which they got the information is a faux code name for the Driller and undefeated Guardian of the Aurora base:

Marianas. The deep diving Monsuno.

[themarychain]

attachment disorder go brrr

(uhh tw for tags if anyone cares to read)

[imwritesometimes]

my brother and I crowding around my phone like a couple of fuckin nerds, not breathing, vibrating at frequencies that could rattle our roof tiles, watching the Indiana Jones trailer

[ilovetodrinkwater]

i’m frustrated that i don’t really have control over when he shows up in my life. like when he was the one who worked with our best friend i definitely showed up perhaps unexpectedly and now i’m the one that works with them so he came into our restaurant instead so i guess i can’t talk shit but i also can’t help but feel that it just does not have the same derailment effect on him that it does on me. i’m mad that like now i have to think about it for a couple days. i’m certainly not going to end our mutual friendship over it but as long as we are both still friends with them i will never be free and will always have shit like this pop up and make me think for a couple days. i hate that my hatred has waned and now i’m like Would. but i wouldn’t. would i. it’s a good thing the opportunity does not present itself. but i wish it presented itself much less

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

when i don't study for too long i get haunting dreams about everyone finding out about what a loser time waster i am and just everything falling apart and me desperately trying to save my image

[mayspicer]

Mmm nothing like a good old full blown panic attack, I haven't had one in years. This time at least I have access to medication to make it stop a lot faster, but I have 6 pills left for the next 2,5 months and the recent trends in my mental state are not looking good.

[fettery-fetterie]

Post cancelled it was #tw bad

Except this:

Tostito: *head in hands* oh my fucking god

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

I mean I'm not goin back to him I'm not(!!!) but at this point I got no idea why

Literally just screaming into the fucking void

He already broke me to the point where all the shit he's said are my only core beliefs n even if I try to shut down the voice in my head repeatin it all I still believe every damn word

So no matter how long I cut him off for it's always there just the same. But no one else can always be there to make it go away. W/ him I at least go from a total waste of oxygen to the one thing I'll ever be any good for. It's an upgrade I can almost live with.

So what's the point? What do I or anyone gain from me stayin away?

I've been tryin so fucking hard n it's just not getting any easier. I don't know where to put all this fucking self loathing, I can't keep pouring it onto other people. I always need to keep so damn much inside n some of it still spills out n that's already bordering on too much. I don't wanna be a burden. I know everyone is, to some extent, but not like this. Not all the time. Plus they have something to give in return, I only have things no one else wants, just Val's happy to take em if offered.

I still feel the pull all the fucking time. It's like the chain he used to have around my neck but I know he's not doin the pulling, he doesn't care if he has me or not anymore. It's all me now. I'm the one who keeps wanting to go back. The rational part of me is screaming no cause I know he'll just hurt me n find new ways to cut even deeper but. What's left that he hasn't already done?

Maybe this time he'll make the feelings n the noise go away. Maybe this time he'll make it all quiet.