#and we're the ones who specifically and purposefully ended it this time so why the fuck are we complaining! it's our fault!

[lesboylycan]

man i'm just pathetic aren't i lol

[undead-moth]

I gotta say I forgot until rewatching The Bear recently how much I hate Claire. I don't mean as a character. I understand why her character was introduced and the purpose it served and she's an integral part of the overarching story being told -

But as a person, if she were a real person, I hate her so much.

She bumped into a childhood friend she hadn't spoken to in years, right? From what I can tell, she and Carmy were never close friends. They went to the same school. Their social circles were in close proximity, maybe even overlapped to a degree - but the two of them, specifically, were not close friends. Not even close enough to be friends.

And she bumps into him after years without speaking to him, and basically asks for Carmy's number. Carmy's in a social situation where it would be somewhat rude, and very awkward, to deny her, and Claire is aware that's the case, and purposefully exploits it.

Then later, she finds out he gave her a fake number. She's an intelligent person. She knows it wasn't by mistake. And what does she do? She goes to fucking Fak and gets his real number, which she knows Carmy doesn't want her to have, and then calls Carmy and asks him why he gave her a fake number as if that isn't? Self-explanatory? Why do people usually give fake numbers, Claire?

And once again, she's putting him in this position where it would be very rude, and very awkward, to say, "I didn't give you my real number because I didn't want you to have my real number." She's already aware that he wasn't able to bring himself to do the rude and awkward thing the first time - she knows he won't be able to this time either. And then she has the audacity to tell him not to "make it weird," and ask him if he's actually okay with her having his number, when she knows he wouldn't feel comfortable telling her the truth!

What is wrong with her? If she were a male character we would all rightfully hate her. We would all readily recognize that this behavior is inappropriate, stalker-like behavior. And what's most infuriating about it is most women have been in this situation before, where a guy has asked them for their number and they didn't feel safe or comfortable outright saying, "No." Most women have given fake numbers, especially young, conventionally attractive women like Claire. You can't tell me that Claire has never given a fake number before.

And then? What does she do? She excuses her own inappropriate behavior by telling him that the only reason she's calling is to ask him to help her move? Are you fucking kidding me? First of all, "Can you help me move?" is the kind of question you generally only ask people who are pretty close to you, because you're aware it's a laborious and unenjoyable thing to do. But on top of that, she's supposedly asking Carmy because she knows that Carmy at one point owned a truck and might still own that truck. The same truck Neil Fak could just as easily drive! Why the fuck are you asking Carmy to help you move in case he still owns that truck, when you could ask Fak, who you are much closer to? Like? You're really going to ask someone you haven't spoken to in years, who you just happened to bump into, and who very obviously intentionally gave you a fake number, to help you move? When you already know he's not comfortable turning you down?! What is wrong with her? How fucking entitled is that?

And one thing that is frustrating is how even though we are meant to root against Carmy and Claire's relationship, and there's purposeful foreshadowing of its end, and even narrative hints that Claire isn't right for Carmy, and that she's an antagonist in this story - I don't think we're supposed to have a problem with her behavior. I don't think any of this was meant to contribute to us not liking her, or not wanting Carmy to be with her. I really think we were supposed to be endeared by all of this and think it's all perfectly normal flirtation, and not manipulative and predatory behavior.

What's more is that the heart of this story isn't about a man opening a restaurant, or a man falling in love - it's about a man learning to recover from trauma. If you found the lowest common denominator of this story and simplified it, that's what this story would be about. A mentally ill man healing.

I just rewatched the freezer scene. It is alarming - but all of it says more about how Carmy perceives himself, than how he sees Claire, or their relationship, or love. All of it is a neon sign advertising Carmy's severe mental state, and it is obvious this man needs help. He needs support. He needs reassurance from loved ones.

I understand why Claire hearing what Carmy said would be hurtful. I understand why she would be upset. I understand why she would be questioning their relationship.

And still, I think, you really just heard Carmy, this man you supposedly love, say all that - and you're just going to leave him like that? You're just going to leave and not reach out again at any point?

And especially with Claire, who is a medical professional working in the fucking emergency room. I would bet on a daily basis she gets people in the emergency room who are in a state of mental distress. Who are thinking about killing themselves, or have attempted to kill themselves. She knows what mental illness looks like, how it manifests, and the way it makes people think!

And she just left! She just left because she took it all personally and made it all about herself and how it affected her!

You can't tell me that woman ever loved Carmy. You can't even tell me that woman ever knew Carmy.

And if this was all it took - one single glimpse into Carmy's trauma - to make her leave, she was never, ever going to be right for Carmy. She was never, ever going to be what Carmy needed. She was never, ever going to be "healthy" for him, or "peace."

Sydney has glimpsed Carmy's trauma on multiple occasions now. She glimpsed it in season 1, when she and Carmy had only begun to have a mutual respect and investment in each other on an acquaintance shared-workspace level - and even though Syd left too, she came back. She came back even when Carmy's symptoms then were being purposefully directed at her and others - whereas Claire was never supposed to hear what Carmy was saying in the freezer. Syd came back even though they weren't committed in the same way, even though she wasn't supposedly in love with him, and even though what she got was worse. And she's been in that same position multiple times since, to different degrees - but nonetheless. She always knows her worth, and what she deserves - but it never means abandoning Carmy completely. It never means making his problems about her.

Fuck Claire so much, honestly. I'm so glad she's gone. This is just another way it is so obvious it was always, always going to be Sydney.

[reimeichan]

hi!! I'm curious about how your system works - what does it mean to you to be fully fused, but also operating as multiple/as alters? (as I've seen from your posts, so correct me if I'm wrong!)

is it similar to how functional multiplicity is generally understood? is it more being able to work in harmony, while maintaining an individual identity? something else entirely?

thank you!

So historically, I've used the term "functional multiplicity" to encompass a pretty wide spectrum of my own experiences, from "I'm definitely still experiencing a lot of daily dissociation and my system is still very divided but I have strong coping skills and resources to manage it that I no longer am struggling and in fact am thriving despite all that" to "I am so incredibly fully integrated with every single part of me that I'm more or less a single identity, but I can still identify and even interface with the world as specific individual parts". And that latter one is more or less what I'd also call final fusion.

When I'm in a fully fused state, I feel connected to and in sync with all the other parts of me. It doesn't even really feel like "working together" because that implies we're putting in effort to communicate, it's more like we're all of the same mind and everything is automatic. I've used an analogy of comparing my experiences to individual atoms of water connected to each other all flowing together in the same direction without interruption, and that's still pretty akin to how I feel.

However, if I dig in deeper, I can definitely still see the individual parts of me, and I like being able to still notice these parts of me and honor their existence. Sometimes the me who interacts with the world is more Green-coded, so I'll tell everyone "hey guys I'm Green", while also knowing that just because I'm acting very Green-like doesn't mean I'm not also Cyan and Purple and Gray and everyone at the same time. Sometimes I will purposefully dig into my psyche to interact with the various versions of me internally to better understand myself.

I guess for me, once I hit a certain point of "functional multiplicity", the jump to "final fusion" was really more of a perspective shift than necessarily doing any more further integration. Do I see myself as various alters working together? Are these things that I'm experiencing something from another alter or do I accept that it's all me? And I regularly will go from one perspective to the other that FM and FF basically are two sides of the same coin for me and it's why I actually kind of hate using those terms for my own experiences. People often talk about FM and FF as if they're wholey separate end goals that you cannot possibly achieve at the same time, and that's likely due to the strict ISSTD guidelines for how FF is defined (which, in turn, is due to how narrowly Kluft defines Final Fusion). I honestly find this framework limiting as it doesn't allow for or encompass all the possible ways integration in DID can look. For me, I prefer to call it "full integration" - because at the end of the day, the divide between FM and FF feels so arbitrary to me that trying to pin myself as one or the other would actually do my experiences a disservice, and I feel like "full integration" encompasses both FF and FM experiences while also filling in that nebulous ill-defined middle area.

Trying to explain my internal experiences is kind of difficult so I hope that helped a little, anon!

[gold-rhine]

fontaine is so interesting to me because it's on one hand got very interesting and well written quests, both lore wise and storywise, but it's also the first nation I feel we're leaving without making it Better. sure, there's no tsunami coming any longer, but the country itself? All the societal issues - from extreme wealth inequality, to a laughing stock of a justice and court system, and the most dire children in danger crisis the game's ever presented us with - have gone largely unresolved. even the ending of arlecchino's story quest with house of the hearth felt like just sweeping the actual problems (orphanage preying on the vulnerable children in fontaine and exploiting the dangers in order to train them as child soldiers and spies for a foreign government under the guise of giving them a home and family) under the rug. inazuma's ending wasn't well done either, but at least there was actual societal changes; the vision less husks became themselves again and the traveling decree was lifted, allowing families and friends to reunite. it's just so strange to me that genshin used fontaine to introduce really dark themes, but also never actually wanted to engage with them beyond "look at this really fucked up thing we did to these children" and "yeah, the justice system is fucked. we're not gonna show its improvements though, sorry"

sorry, this was a bit of a ramble, and maybe i've gotten it wrong. just wanted to share and discuss:)

ok where do i start.... dont take this as confrontational, im just not sure how to phrase it

the fact you see entire country not being dissolved into water, the actual god dying and ruler of country changing as less of impact than ppl getting visions back and being able to travel while raiden is still an absolute tyrant ruling by fear is like. interesting perspective.

in my personal taste portraying large societal changes as immediate result of one boss battle is silly actually. fontaine justice system being fixed in a moment by like. killing a whale would be very silly

that being said, neuvi did very much say he's going to reform fontaine and justice system specifically in the epilogue, he even postpones archon warcrimes trials and celestia war for that.

art can critique things without offering solutions on how to directly fix them and create utopia. like. to "show societal improvements" is not like, definitive goal of any piece of media critiquing societal flaws. the goal of this kind of satirical critique is to highlight and deconstruct these flaws by exaggeration. like, we don't say "why is The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas doesn't show child being freed and society being reformed?? Why doesn't black mirror show how to fix flaws of technology???" like. spending story time on giving step by step solutions for problems of fictional society created to be purposefully over the top caricature of irl systems would be kind of. missing the point tbh

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Okay this happened a couple years ago and I'm mostly over it but I Need to know who was in the wrong in this scenario once and for all.

So me (24F) and my sibling (25NB) have always had a tumultuous relationship. We both grew up in an abusive household and had undiagnosed mental issues growing up so we were always fighting. I don't wanna get into the nitty gritty of it all, just wanna set up some context for our relationship. Just trust me when I say it was BAD on both of our ends.

Fast forward to Feb 2021. We're both moved out of the house and have a slightly better relationship. We talk on the phone and text and only see each other a couple times a year. We're currently in a fight (I don't remember why. Something about me not living up to their expectations? Idk it was a while ago) so we haven't talked in a bit. I'm having a tough time bc it's almost been a year into the pandemic so I'm severely depressed and severely poor. My school just took $200(? again it was a while ago) out of my account due to a fuck up with textbook rental returns. They thought I never returned them bc my friend returned them for me and so they posted them under her account. I make a donation post on here to try to get rent money bc I know I'm not gonna be able to fix this mess before it's due. It gets like. idk 30 notes tops. I think I get $50, almost all of it from friends.

A couple days later, my friend tells me someone is accusing me of scamming on my post. I check the notes and my sibling is accusing me of lying about the book rental issue saying that I purposefully didn't return the books (I made a joke about this to them months before bc I didn't know how I was gonna return them with no car during a pandemic, hence my friend doing it for me) and that I'm making this all up to take money from people, specifically black people bc its black history month. I guess in their head they believed that me making my post took attention away from other people's donation posts? Idk. It's probably important to note that we're both white. Anyways, I was completely fucking floored at this. I was also kinda pissed that they said this in the notes of my post instead of over text and hurt that they would immediately come to this conclusion instead of trying to clear things up first. We end up having a stupid fight in the notes of my post and we block each other.

We haven't talked since then. Apparently this was the straw that broke the camel's back. I don't regret going no-contact. The only reason why I'm asking this is bc I know they still believe they're in the right about this and there's always going to be this small part of me that worries they might be right.

So uh. Yeah. TLDR aita for asking for money during black history month

(Hey E if you're seeing this feel free to tell your side of the story in the notes. Maybe this'll be an eye opener for one of us)

What are these acronyms?

[something-pithy]

Heyo, glittercats and kittens! So chapters 6 and 7 of an echo, a stain are up! And starting this week, I'm going to start including story notes along with the link.

I'm a note writer lol. Part of how I even begin to keep track of all the wildness of writing something longer than a grocery list is to write about it before I start writing it, if that makes sense lol. Character sketches, ideas about why certain things are happening, backstory, setting details, etc.

I'm pretty verbal about my writing process because -- well,  I like writing about writing a lot, and also, I think it improves both the work and how I get there. Anything might end up here -- character sketches, ideas about why certain things are happening, backstory, setting details, etc. I don't really wanna be leaving like eighteen thousand words of notes on every chapter, so here we are!

Sometimes I think they might add some interesting context for readers, sometimes it's information that I think is important but it's too much for the notes section on the story itself, and sometimes it's just so I have a document of my progress for this story. So here are my notes for chapter 7! ---

Chapter 7's title is from "Come to Me" by Bjork, which is definitely one of my Astarion / Tav falling in love themes for when I'm up in these flashbacks, back before Astarion Ascended (and he still had a soul loool).

The notes from previous chapters had promised a Shadowheart & Tav conversation in this chapter. This is not the Shadowheart & Tav chapter I promised, but it is the one that continued to demand to be written until I capitulated. 

And also, honestly, the one that's going to benefit that other chapter that was supposed to be 7 and the story as a whole in the long run, so I hope you like it! 

I was getting really stuck with my original plan, and so I just started writing -- well, this. And the chapter after this. And possibly the one after that. Loooool there is a LOT going on at this point in these kids' lives.

The original plan is still 100% happening, but I think I needed to 

1. explore the foundations of who these people have become (by these people of course I mean Tav and Astarion, but also friendship is magic, so our beautiful OG friendgroup babies) 

2. what the relationships between them look like and 

3. some clues, at least, as to how they got there. 

(tl;dr we're purposefully time-jumping, and I'm having fun with it, so I hope you will, too!)

But never fear, Shadowheart and Tav will of course be chatting when we return to the story's present. And it won't be in just one chapter.

OR

hey y'all, we're gonna be doing some purposeful (and hopefully at least coherently executed) flashing back and jumping forward (or up! or laterally! OR WHATEVER) in/on/around this story's timeline!

Final note, but an important one, on Tav's identity: 

I tried to keep Tav ambiguous for the first few chapters because I know that sometimes a really detailed and specific-looking or backstoried Tav can make people disengage from the story because they don't relate to the identifying details provided. (also, it's me, I'm people, or at least one of the people lol)

But at the end of the day, as soon as I started even thinking about writing a BG3 fic, I started really digging into and developing this Tav, who does reflect the dialogue, action, and relationship choices I've made in my current playthrough of the game with her, yes. But in having spent / continuing to spend some time thinking and writing about who this Tav is.  I'm not going to lay them all out here, but I think when you want to play in a sandbox as fucking ginormous and intricately, infinitesimally detailed as Faerun / The Forgotten Realms / DnD,  a little story/character-relevant contextual frontloading can help readers have as much fun with it as the writer does. 

Also, and I'm just going to say it, Tav is a queer, first-generation Baldurian child of two immigrants. She's the Faerun / Baldur's Gate equivalent of a BIPOC, with parents who were born in places very different both from Baldur's Gate and each other's home cities / kingdoms. Also, she's mixed-heritage elf (sun, moon, sea -- yeah, I'm that guy, come at me bro loooool). All this context is key to who Tav is as a person, as a creator, as an adventurer, and just in general.

I want anyone to be able to read Tav and be able to understand who she is, if not be able to relate to some small part of her -- but in my mind, people like Tav are essential to the story of a place like Baldur's Gate, and I really enjoy exploring what that looks like.

I'm having fun with it, so I hope you will, too!

[liliallowed]

Weird how even though I love Dust sans, I don't like his Canon and hate the fanon versions of him. I try to ignore it most of the time because I know I won't be able to enjoy anything, but I feel so conflicted. I have see Dust sans so differently from everyone else it makes it so hard to enjoy any type of fan creation ;-;

(I feel bad most of the interpretations you share I mostly disagree- but I can't do anything because it's the majority)

Not sure why I'm ranting about this, I guess it's been on my mind too much-

lol it's fine!

I personally related to certain aspects of dusts mentality. a bit... too much. as a kid I wasn't in a best head space.

I clinged onto dust for a sense of understanding. a sense of comfort. something in me felt understood. aknowledged.

not sure if it was the self sabotage or the irony of yourself becoming your own worst self fulfilling prophecy with your doubts clouding your judgment...

or if it was his choice to take fate by the neck and say FUCK YOU I QUIT to the script, turning the timeline on it's head to what's got to be the coolest uno reverse moment.

something clicked with that. I don't know why dust specifically. I'm not like that with killer or horror or insanity. it was just DUST that I felt a small kinship towards.

I knew how he hated himself. that he purposefully sabotaged his own life just to be right about the shitty person he is and that irony would only feed itself.

he is stuck in a cycle. I to this day still feel like I'm stuck in my own cycle of improvement then I fall back to my worst then back up then worse goes on and on and onnnn it's never going to stop.

I'm not GOING to wait for it to stop I'm grabbing life by the neck and DEMANDING it to shit the hell up while I pull myself together.

like... I basically grew up with this au.

I was there when ask dusttales ask box was open. I read the entire thing like a deranged fan hoping to unravel secrets of the universe or stuff like that...

if we're comparing personal feelings and obsessions with dusttale... I've had A LOT of it.

but I've learnt that this projection onto fictional characters while therapeutic and helpful can actually harm others or make you sound like an egotistical jackass who thinks they know said character better than anyone.

it's parasocial... and I don't want to be mean to anyone I disagree with. when I don't enjoy others interpretations I try to focus on their positive side.

like, the fic I was ranting about?

that one legit had good grammar and the pacing was great. I liked the world building and the side characters! it wasn't bad! and I don't hate them. just a bit annoyed.

pick certain aspects you enjoy and put it into your own work! if you hate what others do? explain why and reason it IN YOUR STORY/ART/AU.

one of my fics was literally made out of spite to a dust x y/n soulmate au! (Thornbound souls)

just do what you like bud.

I like both canon AND fanon dust. but the plot has to make sense and he has to act in character accordingly in both situations.

my inmate au has a canon and fanon side! fanon side is for shipping shenanigans while canon inmate dust sans doesn't even MEET other humans or monsters.

I think you're allowed to enjoy both. in the end everything is just inspration for more things.

checking canon dusttale lore can be quite bland, mix it up with a bunch of head canons like... having dust occasionally spend time reading when he waits for resets.

as for fanon? do whatever you like just make sure you don't stray too far from dust being... well you know. dust.

classic ship of Theseus dilemma. though I won't ramble much further. just look for things you like!

and if it's under appreciated? CREATE IT YOURSELF!

I'm sure there are others who will gravitate to your head canons!

[4lph4kidz]

3, 4, 17, 18, 26 and 36 for the writer ask game. :3

3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?

i play ridiculous music when i can't concentrate and need stimulation. running in the 90s. mad rat monday. spamton CD. this kasane teto song which i have seen (accurately imo) described as penis music.

4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral?

i can't really... think of any? there are words i like but i wouldn't say i hoot and holler if i see a chance to use them, or see them crop up in someone else's work. themes and ideas, yeah! specific words... idk.

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

i've been doing a lot of probably entirely unnecessary research for my latest WIP which is... hm! how about i dm you about that one.

on the subject of research, i'm under no illusions, catabolic seed is sheer scifi nonsense (affectionate). i've purposefully held off from getting too in the weeds with it because i know i would stress too much about complex worldbuilding and scientific accuracy, so a lot of stuff that isn't directly relevant to the plot is broad strokes stuff. as per the main inspiration, wolf 359, i'm leaning more on the workplace comedy at the start (because, haha, i have a job, he just like me fr) but i may develop the sci fi elements more once its time to fully bring them into the story. what i do have is: detailed bios and job descriptions for each character, a rough layout of the spaceship Hemera, notes on robotics and spacefaring technology, rival factions within the worldspace, some alien biology stuff... i'm a pretty big science nerd, and i enjoy good hard sci fi! but we're not doing that here, we're putting guys in situations. this is about genre. verisimilitude. you're getting good old fashioned technobabble.

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.

alright, how about this part from ch1 of catabolic seed! i made some pretty big last minute changes to the beginning of the fic because the pacing wasn't working, and i ended up pulling in a scene from much later in the story to serve as a dirkjake meet cute.

i like set up. establishing tone, creating atmosphere... the way you introduce a character, even one known already to the audience, is something i think is important and i enjoy playing with that a lot. originally jane was present and dirk was going to be pulling a bunch of wires out of the wall, which jane described as 'disemboweling her spaceship' but at some point i decided him popping out of the vent and scaring the shit out of jake seemed like a more fun idea so i ran with it. this establishses dirk as a potential threat, which leads to the stupid kabedon moment later, which leads to the jokes about the disney cruise liner and the engineering section flooding... i didn't have time to think it through all the way but as far as choices made on the fly go i think i made it work!

dirk being in the vents was also pulling from wolf 359, specifically referencing the character captain minkowski who i felt was kind of comprable to dirk in terms of her neuroses - it wasn't till i got someone else's eyes on it that they pointed out that i'd introduced dirk exactly like a fucking xenomorph, which was perfect, so i scrambled to insert a textual reference to the alien movies and doing some hasty worldbuilding while i was at it.

in general i think exploring the relationship from jake's point of view is super interesting. in an au where they don't already know each other, dirk is an interesting figure for jake to 'figure out' - aloof, mysterious, other - classic love interest stuff. which is perhaps less interesting than their deal in canon, but hey, i'm having fun running with it.

26. How do you get into your character’s head? How do you get out? Do you ever regret going in there in the first place?

hm, i don't know. i hyperfixated on the alpha kids pretty hard so i think i already have quite well-formed interpretations of their personalities and perspectives, it's not hard to dredge those up when i need them. i won't pretend my writing is for sure an accurate reflection of canon characterisation or anything but i'll go read passages from canon when writing and refining dialogue especially. and hmm. i do end up going to dark places sometimes, and nearly every fic ends up quite a bit darker than i mean it to... i'm totally fine. don't worry about it.

36. They say to Write What You Know. Setting aside for a moment the fact that this is terrible advice…what do you Know?

be bisexual, eat hot chip and lie

aside from my aforementioned interests in genre fiction, or biology, i can see what i'm grappling with as a person reflected quite clearly in what i end up exploring in my work. i have the past experiences of being a queer teenager who had no idea what was going on, grappling with mental illness and feeling incredibly alone. or i can draw on my experiences as an adult, finding myself as a person, going out into the world, and all the struggles therein.

[prettyflyshyguy]

Ok place your bets how angry am I going to get at spn for their handling of S4 Sam because Dean's right.

"So far all you've told me about is a manipulative bitch who uh, screwed you, played mind games with you and did everything in the book to get you to go bad."

Yeah babey I'm tired, it's my day off, and I've braved myself up to tackle the tumultuous S4 because it's giving mixed feelings!!!!

You know the drill. Unhinged thoughts, commentary and screaming under the cut. I've been in full media analysis mode for the last week so it might get a little academic too, who knows.

A warning - I'm not enjoying the Heaven x Hell sub plot. I know, I'm sorry (not really.) I will persist as long as I can but you can't rip seasons 1-3 out of my cold dead hands because I'm clinging to them too strongly. They just hit the spot near perfectly. World's biggest fandom member disappointment, and proud, over here.

Anyway commentary bellow!

S4E9/10 - I Know What You Did Last Summer & Heaven and Hell

Ok so, this is a real topic, and I'm going to tread lightly here, but I appreciate the sinister undertones of Ruby coming onto Sam and him actively pushing back - he's vulnerable, abusing a substance, and she's actively taking advantage of that and doesn't stop after he makes it clear he's uncomfortable the first time. A boundary is broken and pushed through. Very icky. I have seen spoilers for Ruby's character (unfortunately!) and like, have to say, she got me. But I think I'd start to really clue in with this episode that something is deeply not ok - based on that one scene alone.

I am however, deeply worried, that the emotional manipulation is not going to be handled with the consideration it needs (especially with regards to a woman coming onto a man and being too pushy) and it'll be played off lightly. I guess we'll find out. But I'm getting defensive already. Appreciate that Dean clocks it immediately however.

On a lighter note - go psychic boy go

Anytime Dean makes this face I go mental. He looks like a concerned version of the Eyes emoji. Top 10 expressions I have too much fun trying to replicate in art. Buddy being dead for 6 months must've sucked you've missed so much Oh No.

Supremely embarrassed that it ONLY JUST CLICKED that they're doing a whole Sam's with the Demons, Dean's with the Angels thing.

I'll focus in on the most specific shit and then something so blunt will fly over my big idiot head. Amazing.

Ironic of course, and clearly intentional that its cause Sam was always appointed the 'better one' but that's only cause Dean purposefully inserted himself as the moral-fall character as a way to try and protect Sam. Obsessed with that concept, not so much with the heaven v hell stuff.

REGARDLESS, two angels rocking up and Ruby's immediate response being to turn on the demon eyes makes me wonder - is this intentional - did she choose to do this, was an otherworldly force compelling her to do it?

No I'm not just asking these cause I'm cooking up ideas for Sam to get more demonic nooooooo what're you talking about noooooooo

Hilarious that Cas and his mate rock up like "Hello we are literal fucking angels, we want this human woman please we're going to kill her now, please hand her over"

like they can't just yoink her regardless.

And this is starting to stray into "Why Shy really isn't enjoying the heaven-hell stuff in spn" - which I should save for an entirely separate post, but most of it boils down to the stakes don't feel serious anymore, the comparative power levels of character's feels unbalanced, it takes away ANY weight to Sam's personal faith as a character trait, and--

I'm sorry I just cannot get behind any of it. Really dislike it. Unfortunate. Oh well. Sozzles.

Heaven and Hell was a real hard episode for me to watch for a number of reasons and overall, I deeply disliked it, but the ending scene of Dean breaking down was extremely well done so huge props for that. Fantastic writing and acting all through. Much to consider!!

S4E11 - Family remains

The summary for this one looks. Fun.

"And what am I running from?"

"What you told me. Or are we pretending that never happened?"

OUGH. OUGH. AUGH. OOMF. ACK. AUGH.

I appreciate that unlike every ghost hunter I've watched on youtube, this show recognises that EMF readers cannot be completely trusted. 10/10 thank you supernatural. One small little line about the needle being wacky, and Dean noting that there's power lines right next to the house. Love it.

Nice.

I can sense I'm going to enjoy this episode.

I LOVE A GOOD GHOST-HUNTING EPISODE!!

Also love that this episode forcibly made the boys reconcile with the confliction of killing humans vs killing creatures, but the humans were in a way like the creatures (monsters), the same way the monsters can be like humans.

Anyway, tonal whiplash, yet again with this show:

S4E12 - Chris Angel Is a Douche Bag

The Winchesters need worksafe inspector fake ID because It'd be perfect for this episode specifically

I LOVE the three older magician characters. These guys are great.

WHAT

Anyway this is a good bit. This is a really good bit.

Yeah Sammy what kind of kool aid are you drinking?????

That was.... A weird one but a fun one.

Anyway I'm really starting to feel like I want to cherry pick eps but I'm going to hold off. Till I hit S5 at least.

Like I rabidly consumed seasons 1-3 like a starving animal and now I'm reluctant to watch episodes cause I know there's good shit in here, and each episode has some important development moments for characters, or relevant plot that I want to know about so I don't feel like I can start picking and choosing episodes based on descriptions yet. But damn. Lot more misses than hits for me this season. Seriously considering buying a dvds of just S1-3 cause GODDAMN. Loved almost everything about the first three.

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

wigfrid wednesday in my brain. something i tend to think about a lot when it comes to maxwell and his abductions is that it seems as though most of them are very purposeful. and the more of them we see, the more this proves to hold true.

wilson is probably one of the only people with the tools and the lack of disregard or fear to build to portal he built in the first place. wickerbottom was put into a situation by maxwell to force her into making a choice under the assumption it was her own free will. wes. ok well wes was an accident but maxwell was purposefully trying to drag somebody in, so the point still stands.

the voxola products and who does or doesn't have them may throw some randomization into the mix, but it really seems like maxwell knows exactly what he wants, and he'll stoop to nearly anything to get it.

which raises the question: what the hell did he want or need wigfrid for? for seemingly being one of the FIRST survivors to enter the constant, she seems like the most bizarre and unnecessary choice. but everything he does points to him wanting her specifically.

the only other time we canonically know that he revealed a shadow of himself was when he was convincing wickerbottom to take his offer. but its very obvious- with how much she knows and is capable of- why he would want her inside of his little universe. for how useful wilson was and proved himself to be (being the ONLY survivor who ended up ultimately rescuing him), he didn't get the privilege of seeing max's 'physical form'.

AND. if we're to believe maxwell fabricated/exaggerated the news to put her in a more vulnerable mental state, then who knows HOW much time and effort he invested playing the long con. but like?? for what? what the hell did he see in her maddening fall from grace that made her such an essential asset to him?

[icharchivist]

What the frell. They decided to tell Cagliostro she wasn't trans. The one who made her own body and purposefully chose her own gender. Who respects someone similar to herself decision that she wanted to stay in the body she was born in. That great person. Wonderful person.

What the heck.

YEAH I KNOW RIGHT

tbh it adds to my general frustration that happens every once in a while on how, gbf's lgbt rep is actually pretty good, but every once in a while it will breach containment and every. single. time. i get to end up hearing the most bad faith takes ever from people who don't even bother making a google search.

with Cagliostro it's always downright erasure. Just, people refuse to believe she's trans. I've seen other people say that since her transition was magical (ie: putting her soul in other bodies) it didn't count. As if it mattered when we have Cags for example having a panic attack when she was drowning because it was reminding her of her original, sickish body that she felt dysmorphia about. Like, it's not like they're NOT tackling important themes with that either??? like COME ON.

then we have anytime someone outside of the fandom learns about Ladiva where there's always an uproar about how her design is insulting, and honestly kudos for the fandom to always come in drove about it like "why the fuck are you insulting our mother."

It's like you can't win. You either have a trans character who passes enough that people are constantly denying the validity of the trans narrative of their characters, or they don't pass enough and it's a hundred threads about why this character is the worst possible type of trans rep ever.

and it's double frustrating when you actually have both of those characters discuss about dysmorphia and the idea of passing to start with. That you see the two of them having radically different approach and feelings on the matter and conclude that both of them have a valid approach about it and they love and respect each other regardless because even if the way they live it is different, they're still both living through the same experience.

And as fans of those charas it's always so frustrating!!!

And it adds a layer on frustration of constantly having to defend if they're good trans rep or not while, on top of just that, they're fully fledged characters in general, and yet we're always there having to argue about a basis that is not ignored by canon but not even the major focus of each characters. Like oh my god i'd love to be talking about just how great No Rain No Rainbow's theme was in regard to Ladiva's savior complex at her own detriment or the complexity of Cagliostro's arrogance be confirmed by the narrative as completely earned because literally no one is as smart as her and she's one of the people you can always count on with preventing an apocalypse because she laughs at the face of gods and she earned it. But instead we just constantly have to get back to those people like "no, they're not bad characters because you are drawing conclusions over the validity of their trans narrative by their designs alone", it's so frustrating.

It feels like running in circle and it's so tiring.

On this specific case it was just a poll, so it's not like i expect people to do researches about the characters they don't know about. But it's so frustrating to see this narrative of still erasing the fact Cagliostro is trans from people who've never heard of Granblue and how it happens aaaalll the timmmeeeee and it's so annoying. so damn annoying.

We can never win somehow.

But it's okay, /we/ know what's up. We know Cags is the best. (and Ladiva too). Can't be fooled by people who just don't know what they're talking about.

I'm just going to be constantly frustrated with people drawing conclusions about our girls just because they want to assume the worst out of a niche saga to start with. sighs.

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#5

DREAMSMP CHARACTER DYNAMIC POLL ROUND 3 FUCKERS

HEY IT'S HERE I DID IT.

ROUND 3, YOU GET HOWEVER LONG I SLEEP TO DO IT. PROBABY 9 HOURS. VOTE DISCDUO. DISCDUO SWEEP. LET'S GET DISC V CLINGY.

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hi. techno calling out to the tech crew during the whole theseus speech part. he goes to do his speech, and the light isn't on him so he's like 'hey light over here please i'm gonna look so cringe if it isn't right' and then the light moves to tommy and he's just like 'NO. light HERE i'm the one doing the speech i gotta look dramatic.' and it goes back and forth until it lands on techno and he just goes on like none of it happened.

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DREAM SMP CHARACTER DYNAMIC POLLS ROUND 4

Fucking kill me it's 2:30am and i'm out here making this shit. I've got school in the morning.

Here's your round 4, have fun. Also if we get disc v clingy i will write smth a little special for all of us to have a ready read of yk???

Rig it. Do it. Just reblog when you do.

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FOUR CTOMMY FINALE STREAMS AND CCLINGY LORE!?

855 notes - Posted October 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Okay fuck it I'm making this post.

So, we all know the dsmp fandom, especially on twitter, has a bit of a problem with leaktwt and often lots of controversy springing from stuff obtained by kiwifarms. I'd like to talk about this, because it's been pissing me off for months and it's getting ridiculous.

Please stop trusting information like this, or at the very least be cautious with how you interact with it, take it with a large grain of salt or maybe even a handful, don't take it at fucking face value and consider to yourself: why did they obtain this information and how did they obtain it.

Especially the how, because I've noticed the amount of illegally obtained data, from information unobtainable without some form of hacking to a lot of cases of spear phishing. Spear phishing, for those who don't know, is a targeted form of phishing against a specific person; phishing is often described as trying to obtain personal or sensitive information, and here the definition is applicable as digging through years worth of information otherwise inaccessible to the average user without purposefully searching everywhere for it, specifically information from or about a specific person.

This happens a lot, we see many cases, from the people who keep doxxing ccs, to the more recent things with certain information from Steam about Wilbur being made public despite the fact it's inaccessible without some sort of digging or manipulation, and now with (I believe, idk i've not really been looking at it for obvious reasons) the whole Tubbo thing and I believe that was leaked private messages of a friend, I could be wrong there. Either way, there's been so many cases of doxxing, leaked private messages, information inaccessible on the front end of things and it's getting to a genuinely worrying point.

And this isn't because I care about content creators, but I do care about upholding data privacy. Yes, even if they've said shit in the past, please don't go digging and digging because that does fall into spear phishing, and at the end of the day it is very dubiously legal at best. This is something we're taught about in fucking cyber security courses, for even further perspective on how bad it is. Not to mention, often this information is dug up by infamous leaktwt or kiwifarms, which are pretty known for bad faith digging up of shit.

These people dig it up for clout, they dig it up for attention, they do not care who gets fucking hurt and often bringing up old shit is going to harm more people than it fucking helps. It's even worse when you try to hold someone accountable for something someone else did, especially years in the past like it's their fault.

Just, please, stop supporting this, stop circulating this shit like morning gossip, because you're not only hurting people for no good reason, it's also often spreading illegally obtained information from people who commit cybercrimes on the regular. It breaks data protection laws, it breaks someone's fucking privacy.

Content creators are people. Respect their privacy, for fuck's sake, and stop egging on leaktwt/kiwifarms, because at the end of the day you're just telling them it's perfectly fine.

And their campaign of digging things up and harming people in bad faith doesn't end at your favourite cis white boy. They will harm minorities, and they already do, just for clout and fun. Stop it while you can before it gets out of hand, and make it clear they aren't welcome, because the fandom doesn't make it clear enough.

This isn't, of course, to say you cannot be critical of information found about ccs, but please don't allow a side effect to be encouraging or inadvertently making leaktwt/kiwifarms believe it's safe for them here, and that they are supported. Be critical when your fav is found to have said awful shit in the past, give them time to clarify, but also just... be a little critical about how accurate that info is, and who is supplying it. If you find yourself thinking 'now is this really legitimately obtained?' then maybe don't spread it, because it could be fake but a lot of the time it's already been addressed and is simply spread in bad faith.

And sure, they're exposing shitty stuff right now, but what happens when they doxx someone's address for fun?

Data privacy is important, it affects everyone, and even the worst people deserve to keep it. Sure, law enforcement and courts might be able to obtain this stuff, but you're not law enforcement nor a court and you're not entitled to personal data whenever.

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[slimeywooper]

Labmas AU - Unintended Consequences

Chapter 8 Part 3 - Meeting

Remembering what you heard when you first awoke, you remark, " You were talking to someone earlier, but I couldn't hear them."

"Oh, you heard that?" He has a somewhat apprehensive look on his face, but explains, "Since I was a child, I've been able to speak with various spirits. Dr. Colress doesn't believe me when I tell him. I try to only talk with them when I'm alone as to not disturb anyone. I figured you were still sleeping at the time, so it wouldn't be an issue. My apologies."

Looking him dead in the eye with an intense gaze, you interrogate him, "Are you pulling my leg? Have you met any famous ghosts? What do they talk about? Are there any here now? Who was talking to you while I was asleep?"

Nobori blinks a few times, taking in all the words you had thrust upon him. "Well, I am not 'pulling your leg,' nor have I met anyone famous to my knowledge. Their topics run the gamut from life lessons to regrets." Folding his arms, he continues, "Not all of them speak, either. Sometimes it's just an intense emotion that follows them. Usually negative. Those specific entities don't typically have a physical form I can see, they just make themselves known through their intense emotional emanations. I've found it's best not to interact with them. There are not currently any spirits here now, but I have become quite adept at tuning them out."

"Woah…" Out of all the things that have happened today, this was the most mind blowing. Someone with the ability to talk to ghosts. Next you'll meet someone that can talk to Pokemon. "So, is reincarnation real? What about God?" The questions keep coming.

"Yes, I believe reincarnation is a possibility, but not a guarantee. Though, be mindful, not every spirit I speak with is truthful or forthcoming. Some will tell lies to purposefully confuse or misguide. What I'm telling you now is information I have received over the years that I feel is—" he pauses looking for the word, "—credible. But, it could still be incorrect. God is more of a mystery. Something is beyond our world. What, or who, that is, I cannot be sure. Out of all the spirits I have spoken with, the ones that complete the move to the realm beyond have not returned. So there has never been anyone that can honestly answer that question." A strange beeping noise begins to sound. Nobori pulls a pager off of his belt and eyes it. "Dr. Colress is requesting my presence. Rest here as long as you need. I must be going now." He stands up from the chair and returns it to the desk.

You find his pager quite perplexing, so you wonder aloud, "Why doesn't Colress just call your phone?"

"As odd as it my seem by today's standards, I don't own a cellular phone." Nobori adds, unfazed.

"Oh…" Your plan to exchange numbers is now defunct.

Cocking his head to the side, Nobori notes, "You seem somewhat disappointed by this."

Thinking quickly, you offer an excuse, "Well, I was kind of hoping to get your number sometime." Nobori is giving you a deadpan look. You start to feel extremely self conscious. "You're always so helpful, I thought maybe if I had an issue, or needed help with something, I could just text you. Instead of running around trying to find you, or having someone else deliver the message for me." You end your explanation abruptly, waiting for his reaction.

His facial expression softens, and he smiles. "I see. That doesn't sound like such a bad idea. I'll have to consult Dr. Colress about acquiring a phone from Plasma headquarters."

"About that…" You hop out of bed and stand near him. "If it's possible… can you not tell Colress that we're exchanging numbers? I have a sneaking suspicion he might have some choice words for me if he were to find out."

Nodding lightly, Nobori affirms, "Yes, that would probably be for the best. He can get… intense at times. Though he's very good at hiding it." Making his way to the door, he turns to address you again, "I will let you know when I have a phone. Then we can remain in contact. Please, take more time here if you need it. It's already late so Dr. Colress isn't expecting you back tonight, but I'm sure tomorrow, he will be waiting. You'll probably be cross-examined about what happened with Kudari. So be ready for that. And only inquire about Kudari's ability to leave his room if you are willing to become his keeper. I would do it myself, but I'm never sure when I will have to leave. Kudari also isn't usually fond of being stuck with me. He doesn't like having a 'baby sitter' as he puts it."

Slightly stunned by the suggestion that the hybrids aren't always on good terms, you ask, "Won't it bother him even more if he's stuck with me?"

"Well, it sounds as if he has placed great significance in your friendship with him, though you have only just met. He will likely deem being with you as 'hanging out,' as opposed to being 'baby sat.'"

You acknowledge his reasoning, "Okay. That makes sense. Either way, I think it's worth a shot. Colress will likely complain, but I don't think he likes me very much anyway."

"He likes you well enough. Trust me, you'd know for sure if he didn't," Nobori says with sincerity.

"Sorry, I know I'm keeping you, but next time we talk, if I ask something that is painful for you, don't feel obligated to answer. Just let me know if you're uncomfortable. I'll understand." You smile softly at him.

"I will try to keep that in mind. Good night (Y/N)." He leaves the room after giving you a final nod, returning your smile as he does.

So much for getting his number, but at least he said he will get a phone. Though the information you discovered about spirits was fascinating, and you were beginning to wonder more and more about who exactly Ingo and Emmet were, there was a much more pressing issue. Your main concern now was getting Kudari out of his room on a more frequent basis. Convincing Colress was going to be a difficult task. He's smart. He'll definitely know if you attempt to manipulate him. Being honest was probably your safest course of action. Now to brainstorm what exactly you are going to say to persuade him that letting Kudari out isn't such a bad idea.

[sarahthevampyrslayer]

BOOK REVIEW : DO NOT DISTURB BY FREIDA MCFADDEN

Heads up: This review includes spoilers

★★☆☆☆

This is the second book I've read from this author, so I'm not that familiar with her work. But I can conclude that she definitely has a specific style to her writing. I've just realized it's not a style I mesh well with.

The book starts off from Quinn's POV. She just killed her husband and she's trying to figure out what she's going to do next. It starts off pretty compelling and has a good pace for the first few chapters. I could have done without the author's need to remind the reader almost every chapter how handsome or sexy the male characters are; it's said like it's important to the story but it's not important enough to be mentioned a dozen times, by literally every character.

An issue arises when we first switch to Claudia's POV, Quinn's sister. Chapters 16-25 are completely useless and unnecessary. Especially if we're to take the "twist" towards the end seriously. This is supposed to be from Claudia's POV, her inner monologue, and it comes off as if she doesn't know anything about her sister's husband. It comes off as if she loves and cares for her sister. Then in chapter 39, when we come back to Claudia's POV, she's all "that's right I hate my sister, that bitch!" and "I've been the one sleeping with Derek and I loved him!" It is always when we learn that she's the one who stabs Quinn outside the motel BUT that makes no sense because earlier, when we first get Claudia's POV, Claudia acts surprised she found her sister's wedding ring in the side table. Saying something along the lines of "so my sister was here, but where is she?" Like.. that makes no sense. This isn't written from a third person point of view. It's basically Claudia's inner monologue. Why would she ask herself this is she just stabbed her sister and stuffed her in the trunk of her car?

So that big plot hole is why the twist makes no sense. It feels like the author purposely lied to us and then tried to be like "gotcha! you had no idea!" Well, yea we had no idea. The character's own inner monologue didn't allude to her hating her sister, wanting to kill her sister, or sleeping with his sister's husband. It actually went out of the way to imply all these things weren't true. And it's not like she was implying these things to convince other people, most of these thoughts and actions happened when she was alone. 

Also, the entire motel owner and his wife storyline was so pointless. And I clocked the creepy old lady as the killer of the unsolved murder, related to the in (a pointless subplot), the moment she made a big deal about Quinn being at the motel. 

The story was okay at the beginning, it gave off Wattpad vibes with the writing but otherwise the actual plot was an interesting concept. However, the entire first POV from Claudia was a cheap way for the author to pull a "gotcha" moment, that wasn't even a clever one because we were literally just lied to for almost 10 chapters. Purposefully mislead, which would have worked if this wasn't written in the first person.

I don't feel like I completely wasted my time, the book was entertaining enough that I was able to finish it in about 2 days (it's not very long either, so that was helpful). But the switching between POVs, rehashing the same information over and over, without adding much new information. Plus, the author's obsession with the attractiveness of the male characters. It left a lot to be desired. I wouldn't recommend this book to anyone, and I won't be reading it again.

I'm on goodreads

[endless-hourglass]

I believe so?

Yes (We're FTM and have several feminine alters)

Yes (We have a couple alters with ages ranging from the hundreds to the billions)

It's possible for a little to be a protector. The internal age of an alter usually does not hold too much bearing as to what roles they can and can't be

Can be a bit of anything. They can choose to front, they could have been dragged out by a trigger (positive or negative), they may have been asked to front to do a task, or maybe they just. happened to end up fronting for no reason. happens to us a lot.

Just in our experience, we only rapid switch in intense distress or if we're using many positive triggers at once. If multiple alters are close to front at once, we get really dissociated and its like a weird game of "fronting tag"

Yep. Alters can front for days, weeks, months at a time even. Some people would consider this "frontstuck" but it depends on how often you switch in the first place tbh.

In our experience it depends on why we're switching. If we're switching in response to a trigger or in order to do a certain task there's heavy dissociation involved, but if its a longer, more gradual less obvious switch its less dissociatey

It depends on how far along you've gotten in lowering amnesia barriers as a system, and in our case, how personally close the individual alter is with the host. If I (one of our co-hosts) were to switch out with my brother SAINT, chances are he'd share memory/info of what happened while he was out or I'd get a better picture of what happened easier, but if two alters who know nothing about each other at all were to switch, it's very disorienting, but we've grown to just Roll With The Punches and go "shoot i don't rememeber the last 12 hours. oh well"

Yes! I'm sure the Science or anything behind co-consciousness, but alters can pay attention to whats happening in the front even if they aren't fronting, or the fronting alter/a co con alter can inform them on what's going on. And it is absolutely possible for alters to communicate like a bit of a "subconscious", if that's how a certain system communicates internally.

In my personal experiencing with "backseating" fronters, it feels like im standing next to/behind the alter in the front and watching things over their shoulder. I can comment on what's going on sometimes and its when I'm co-con/co-fronting that I can communicate the best.

Again, depends on what amnesia barriers in the system are like and how close the switching alters are.

Yes to both! Sometimes it may not cause much of an effect but it can also be a bit of a roadblock in communication.

Just...whatever the individual's brain deemed traumatic enough as a child to justify blocking the event away with dissociation. Maybe some traumas are more common than others, but there's not many limits.

I can't say for sure cuz at the time that our system was first developing (ages 6/7 for us), it was purposefully keeping itself hidden. I imagine that's the case for most other systems too.

In our cases alters get (positively) triggered out most often by their favorite songs, but in specific cases: A protector might get triggered out to handle a dangerous situation or to help a vulnerable alter/alter in a bad situation. A trauma holder might get triggered out by things relating to the traumas the system endured, or to keep a different alter from learning about a trauma, or in response to distress. A little might get triggered out by "childish" things like toys, kids shows/movies, etc. if they're the kind of little who likes those things, and if they have any other role they might get triggered out to perform those duties.

I hope these answers made sense, i'm a little tired

Dominic (He/Him)

I wanted to educate myself more about DID, so I wanted to ask some questions I have about it to further understand what it’s like. I do not have it myself so I will word these in a way to avoid accidentally offending anyone or any confusion:

Is it possible for someone diagnosed with DID to not regularly switch alters? Like almost little to no switches

Do some systems with a trans host have alter(s) that are their AGAB and vice versa?

Is it possible for a system to have an alter that’s much older than the host, like 30-40+ years old or older?

Is the protector alter usually near the age of the host or is it possible for a protector to also be a little/young alter, or are little alters usually not protectors?

How can an alter switch? Are they triggered by an external trigger or switch whenever they want?

How does rapid switching happen?

Can an alter front for more than one day?

Does a dissociative episode happen every time a switch happens or only sometimes, or is it also sometimes immediate?

How does an alter switch back to the host? And I’ve heard that when an alter fronts, the host has a gap in their memory from the time the alter was fronting. Does that memory gap ever get filled or is it just never told to you?

Do the alters share information with other alters if they aren’t fronting? And can they talk in the background like a subconscious? (It’s a silly question but I’m just curious)

What is backseating and co-fronting (I think that’s what it’s called) and what does it feel like?

If the host meets someone like a friend while fronting and a switch happens, does the alter recognize/know who the person is, or do they think they’re a stranger, since it wasn’t them who met them?

Can an alter(s) dislike/hate another alter/the host and does it cause any problems with the system?

What type of trauma usually causes DID? Can it be any physical/emotional/SA related event or does it usually affect a specific type? (Sorry if this question is worded poorly)

How quickly does DID start developing and what does it feel like when it first starts?

How is a protector alter triggered? How is a trauma holder triggered? How is a little alter triggered?

If anyone can help educate me on this topic I’d really appreciate it! Feel free to put your answer under a read more

[deanismysavior]

one of the main reasons why I think Byler is going to happen (aside from every narrative element and evidence) is that they really didn't have to make Will in love with Mike and drag this for seasons and make it text in S4 without any resolution and carry it to S5.

Because... why would they choose Mike (obviously Mike and Will have a special relationship but that's besides the point). They could have introduced an entirely new character on the show. Heck, they did introduce Argyle and Suzie (for Dustin). Like. It really would have been so easy to give Will a boyfriend back in Cali. Some Milevens compare this to Dustin's one-sided crush on Lucas but that's literally entirely different. Dustin has a crush on Max, but that got resolved pretty simple and early and he was given a different love interest: Suzie. Whereas Will's love for Mike has been building up for seasons and they still haven't resolved it.

Not to mention... they could have easily made Will be in love with any other character on the show. Heck, maybe even with Lucas and Dustin instead of Mike. But they chose Mike as the person who Will is in love with. Why? I mean obviously, Mike and Will have a special relationship but again, we're talking about narrative choices here. They specifically introduced this storyline and made Will IN LOVE with Mike and this has been building up for seasons only to... end up in rejection? It doesn't make any sense, I'm sorry.

There were millions of different ways to address Will's sexuality without involving Mike in it, yet they didn't do that. They purposefully made Will in love with Mike. And now they've written themselves at a corner.

They chose to make Will in love with Mike BECAUSE they have a special relationship that has been built throughout all 4 seasons. And they made Will and Mike's relationship special BECAUSE they were planning them to be in love the whole time. They absolutely did this on purpose and the only way it makes sense is for my boys to have a childhood best friends to lovers arc.