#and not general life anxiety

[hillerska-official]

(Ignore me I just gotta scream a bit before I lose my mind entirely)

[moomoorare]

click for better quality? tumblr loves to compress images worse than dudes repressing gay urges

Art I made for my second work in the Scales of Fate au (Blood In The Wine) featuring The Ocean Queen and her new knights Dame Gem, Lady Pearl and Earl Cleo 🌊💗

[lyliah7]

Leaving a comment makes me fucking anxious and for some (stupid) reason I always feel guilty leaving a short comment so I often just skip commenting. But you know what? @justleaveacommentfest motivated me to get over that and it feels so fucking good to leave comments on fics I enjoy. So far I've posted, I think, 3 comments today? Which, sure, isn't a lot, but for me it's huge and it's stressing me out but I will keep doing it because authors fucking deserve it

Thank you fanfic authors for sharing your work with us and making us smile (or cry) with your works 🤍

[hpnextgenthings]

Scorpius: HEY DAD! I got a new pet

Scorpius: *walks in with a white ferret*

Draco: *leaps across the room*

Draco: *presses against the wall in terror*

Draco: gEt iT oUt

[thatsbelievable]

[mentalnote1]

Anxiety - Poetry

Shhhhh

You will not embarrass me today

We’re walking inside

Don’t bother anyone

And do not!

Knock anything over!

Go inside

Sit down

And shut up!

[surrah698]

[k1tty5]

hello :D please tell me more about your mezalian (is that how you spell it??) smalletho I will forever be indebted to you

(they are gorgeous I love them sm)

hey hi !! it would be my pleasure … (and I’ve been spelling it mezalean ??? but i have no idea LOL. there might be a canon spelling but i havent watched joels esmp1 since… probably since it ended. i will have to check sometime)

apologizing in advance because i will probably get very ramble-y!!

ummm. Oh god. How to start. Lets see. WELL. In this silly little au (i guess it has become a bit more than just me doodling designs LOL) in my head they have like this sort of zelink dynamic? obviously without all the zelda lore & stuff, just that kind of … okay forgive me I haven’t brushed up on my zelink lore for a good many years but. Like the princess and her personal knight that doesn’t really talk much sort of thing.

this made more sense in my head. But yeah. They have the vibes of zelink ? At least if i remember zelink right, I have a really bad memory :’) not exactly the same, i do think etho talks to joel (whereas if iirc link never really talks) - especially after getting to know him a bit - but just. they have the Vibes. You know?

I reckon Joel’s definitely very into sculpting in this au, maybe dabbles a little in painting - I imagine mezalea to be very heavy on art and expression in general. think you’d especially see lots of pottery and textiles all around the place. He probably also has an interest in some form of like. um. whats the word. Some sort of … fighting. lmao. Specifically thinking of fencing, i had this idea in my head that he’s watched Etho practice outside the palace at some point and is just absolutely fascinated and enamored. by both the practice and etho himself haha.

and for etho… talented swordsman? he is Not washed. i dont really have many ideas for his character in this au To be completely honest, mostly just of his personality. Although, I alsooo think he’s probably not actually from mezalea? I like to draw him with those pointy elf ears, and i think mezaleans are just humans. I cant remember if thats canon or not but um. mezaleans have human ears, so i’d imagine etho’s probably from like.. rivendelle? Is that. What it’s called. The elf guys? Are they elves??? Goodness I cant remember. Grimlands would make sense too since i THINK they’re kind of like. technical engineer guys? but i dont know what species they are um so ,,, yeah,,,,

i think joel’s probably a bit put off by etho at first, mostly just because he’s not super enthused about the idea of a personal guard, but also because the guys a bit odd, you know? but he’s also probably suuuper intrigued by him. he wants to figure this new guy out, and when they start talking a bit more, i think. They are both incredibly charmed by the other. head over heels? possibly.

most of my ideas of this au are just little scenes that are cute and silly but dont follow any main plot. I would love to write some one-shots of some of the ideas i have in the future, but as of right now im experiencing a bout of creative burnout and am busy with the holidays - spending time with family, so… not right now lol!

hopefully this is what you wanted,,,, i tend to get very ramble-y when talking about literally anything, so i do apologize for that haha, i am Not good at explaining things in simple ways, as i’ve said many a time before.

[daylily-diary]

Somewhere between then and now I lost the ability to be free. Or maybe I never had it; I can’t seem to remember the last time I had no worries. I don’t remember much of anything before my first obvious sign of anxiety, the time in 1st grade when I started crying hysterically because I didn’t think I would finish my worksheet before class was over. As far back as my mind will let me understand, I have been so very afraid. Of what, I don’t know. I was raised on fear and complacency, not just because I was being controlled, but also because my mother was so intensely filled with anxiety that she projected it onto me. I was 6 years old with more worries than any child should ever have, all because of my deeply fearful and selfish mother. I wish so dearly that my childhood had not been ripped from my tiny, trembling hands and moulded into some sad excuse of a happy life. I think I will live out the rest of my days in a minute panic, forever sick with envy for the children who were simply allowed to be just that.

[unfilteredrealities]

Struggling with Psoriasis since I am 2 years old is a different kind of hell I do not wish upon anyone not even to my enemies.

Each goddamn year when winter season hits my body decides to go BRRR in Flare.

Each summer my body partially decides ok let’s be sort of ok and let’s heal but not completely so she can’t wear short pants in summer due to deep rooted shame.

I got bullied in school being called a “contagious Monster” due to my Autoimmune Disorder.

I have trauma still from that to the point I can’t wear short pants because I’m too ashamed and scared that people would not want to be around me anymore.

I see people stare at my legs whenever I wear flowy pants in summer that when a gust of wind blows it reveals my legs and they will stare.

Im chronic in pain and agony and fatigued due to my body constantly fighting against itself against its own skin. Its 24/7 growing too much skin as if it feels pressured to change my whole skin layer not every 7 years but faster 😭

Be kind to people who have skin issues they can’t control.

Be nicer. Don’t be an ass.

[dotsz]

I actually do not want to be a graphic designer I want to be paid a living wage for pencil drawings and that’s it omg. I cannot do this I cannot make a logo I’ll throw up on you

[chadlesbianjasontodd]

Closely connected to the act of name signing was the act of writing poems on walls. As scholars have already pointed out, with beginnings traceable to the Six Dynasties, wall poems (tibishi) were already very widespread during the Tang. By Christopher Nugent's count, well over one thousand entries in the Complete Tang Poems had titles indicating that they began as inscriptions on some surface other than paper or scrolls. These surfaces included walls at places of gathering and transit, such as post stations, scenic sites, inns, and increasingly in the latter part of the Tang, Buddhist temples, which also served public roles for lay gatherings and performances. (100)

In one anecdote, a latecomer casts aspersions on a first writer's literary skills, comparing him to the general Xiang Yu (232-202 BCE), who was infamous for having learned just enough writing to manage his name: "Li Tang signed his name on a pavilion in Zhaoying County. When Wei Zhan [jinshi degree 865] saw it, he took a brush and dashed off a taunt: 'The rivers of Wei and Qin brighten the eyes, / but why is Xiren short on poetic spirit? / Perhaps he mastered only what Beauty Yu's husband could / learning to write just enough to put down his name.' " ... It would not be a stretch to imagine the sniggering of those who read this inscription in a frequented pavilion. (102)

For a degree seeker in Chang'an, these circuits of information and judgment received more discussion than the actual examination itself. Tang literati wrote copiously about activities such as name signing, public exposure, and triumph. It would not be an exaggeration to say that in ninth-century temples and popular recreation areas, the vertical spaces were teeming with verses that clamored for attention. (104)

selections on poetic graffiti from linda rui feng's city of marvel and transformation: chang'an and narratives of experience in tang dynasty china (university of hawaii press, 2015)

[doueverwonder]

Indiana became a state in 1816 aka the Year Without Summer; and while it didn't become a state until December of that year I will be using this for 2 wttt Indiana hc;

A. Indy is always cold, main reason he's the premier hoodie thief in the statehouse.

B. because it was such a horrid year for crops Indiana, who I think was about ten physically when he *popped* into existence, spent their first while on the planet rationing food & regularly going to bed hungry. This developed his lovely habit of hoarding food, and being the worst offender when it comes to the "you're not leaving the table til you've cleaned your plate". None of these habits were helped by the fact that (according to me) he was raised by Virginia who is the same way because of the Starving Time.

[dddemigirl]

How do I make friends when I’m anxious, chronically ill, awkward and I’m worried that people will call my interests childish? It’s so hard to make friends as an adult.

[melodymorningdew]

I will no longer be taking criticism from people I would not ask for advice. 💅🏾 ✨ 😌

[shredsandpatches]

had a conversation with my mother yesterday in which she was very clearly looking for reasons to be convinced I'm going to lose my job any minute (taking vacation time, spending too much time on performing arts, enrollment being down because of FAFSA issues, just being generally unsightly) and it really makes me feel like confirming her priors about education and Liberal Hypocrisy and nobody wanting to look at fat people is more important to her than my continued success and happiness in life