#Tw vents

[wishtale-blogs]

Tw vent

Ok, imma be frank with y’all. My mental state has gone into the trash. (More like it’s been there for a long time now)

I mean, life has been a mess. Almost everything I knew and every norm in my head has either changed or been proven very bad and/or traumatic in the span of a year.

Doesn’t help either that it took me going through multiple very difficult situations for me to realize that my mental trauma is actual trauma, and that other people’s trauma can effect me mentally. (Sometimes I still don’t recognize my own trauma and still invalidate myself)

Plus the religious trauma I didn’t acknowledge for like ever (no I will not go into details bc I’ve talked abt it enough)

And just generally being around people that are very depressed and/or negative constantly hasn’t helped anything.

(Honestly there are so many other things I could mention but I’m too tired to lol)

[rainbowdelicsunshine]

Me when a former acquaintance cuts you off for a witch hunt callout post made on you YEARS ago that said acquaintance forced you to show them said callout post (I was very uncomfortable with that cuz I knew they would pull what they did) with the cost of our friendship (??) and promised would still be there and not judge

But then months later comes and victim blames you for what happened in the callout post, saying they can't be associated with me anymore because of the "mistakes" I made (even though they even said in the same sentence I was tricked, coerced and bullied into that position)

(and yes, said callout post was made by that Fucked Up Muppet Kin Discord Group I was in during my late teens I spoke of before)

[lanadelreyrexii]

i feel ashamed that i have an ed and i am not skinny

[saddi3grl]

[professionallyunstable]

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere.

[bloomdoom1]

[onevibrant]

Pants getting loose is so fun but also unsettling like wdym I used to be fat enough to fit into those?

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

[cherriestrawberrie]

you have the ability to gain 10 pounds, right?

which means you also have the ability to lose 10 pounds.

you're just lazy.

[leoandreeda]

Me, a delusional: 40yo Zoro puts 2 swords in his mouth out of sheer willpower and people confuse those with demon fangs

[wishtale-blogs]

Is it bad that I feel nothing? I feel completely empty.

There is nothing, no empathy, sorrow, anger, or really anything.

[rhiandoesfandom]

The mind numbing anger of chronic fatigue is getting irritable because you're so fucking tired but you really feel like you SHOULDNT BE.

You SHOULD be able to sit at a desk and do work. You SHOULD be able to just watch a freaking YouTube video. You SHOULD be able to just eat fucking lunch.

But you can't. Because your eyes are closing and it's like temporary death is taking you.

[petiteballerinaxx]

ED rule that help me lose weight

Don't eat when you don't need energy.

Eat only before important things like exams, driving car etc or eat when you feel really bad but I mean REALLY bad.

Eat to live not live to eat.

[ventblog-777]

i’m being serious when i say that my life would be 100% better if i was skinny. like genuinely. i wouldn’t have to worry and spend an hour and a half (sometimes more like??!!) trying to figure out what to wear just to go buy groceries. i wouldn’t have to overthink that my bf might find me heavy. i won’t have to be anxious going to parties. and i can wear whatever the FUUUUUCCCCKKK I WAAAANT and look good STILL

[charlie-vents-ig]

my mom: oH wOw I wOnDeR wHy My DaUgHtEr Is DePrEsSeD

Also my mom: you're so fucking nasty you better fix your life or I will