#Sirius and Lily

[that-bitch-kat3]

sirius: it’s totally normal for me to want to be touching remus at all times of the day and be really upset when i see other people doing it! that’s just friend stuff

lily: oh yeah? you feel that way when someone touches peter?

sirius: well no

lily: what about james?

sirius: …no

lily: i’ve got news for you and it comes in the shape of a flag! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈!!

[terymlxyrstdus]

My new favourite headcannon is Regulus and Lily being good friends, bonding over the fact they’re both younger siblings and feel hated and abandoned by their siblings. Lily is always trying to make Regulus see that Sirius is nothing like her sister and that he cares for him and she keeps on telling Sirius to fight for his brother.

She knows that Sirius is nothing like her sister until the prank. For the first time she thinks, she might have been wrong.

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

"the room is on fire and she's fixing her hair" and it's lilypad as roommates

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

Sirius didn't like Lily Evans. She was this annoying girl for him. A girl that used to be "Snivellus" friend, so she was not trustworthy. She was a teacher's pet, so she was boring. And she used to reject his best friend and make him suffer which was a Capital Sin.

When Lily started dating James, she easily became friends with Remus and Peter, but Sirius was the hardest one to reach to. Sirius teased her sometimes stepping over the line and being mean. Even if Lily tried so hard to be nice and gentle with him.

"Why doesn't he like me?"

"He does, I'm sure"

"James, your best friend in the whole world doesn't like me: your girlfriend. I have to fix that"

She tried everything but Sirius was stubborn. And Lily was determined to end up being the best friend of her boyfriend's best friend. James used to say they were his two favorite people. Didn't they ought to get along?

Then Lily had an idea. Sirius loved leather jackets? She was going to get him one.

"This one was my father's"

It was actually a cool 70s vibe jacket that her father used to wear in his youth. It was old and torn apart a little. But it smelled of cigarettes and beer and stories.

"He didn't wear it since he married mum, he started dressing like the typical dad, but he kept it safe like a treasure"

"I cannot accept this, Evans"

"It's alright. Since he died it had been accumulating dust... And mum never liked it anyway. Petunia doesn't care. So I guess I could give it so someone I actually like"

Sirius was speechless "What about James?"

"He doesn't wear this kind of stuff it is not his style" Lily said "And he said himself you would like it"

"I like it"

Lily smiled "Alright"

Sirius was silent then, hugging the leather jacket for dear life. Lily let him. He didn't say anything else.

"Right..." Lily tusked "I guess I'll leave you..."

Then Sirius surprised her with a hug. It was the first time he actually touched her.

Lily beamed. She was very excited about being in Sirius’s okay list.

"Thanks Evans" he said as he put it on. And damn he looked good in it.

"You're welcome" Lily didn't say anything else because she didn't want to jinx it.

Later Sirius was showing the boys his jacket.

"Evans gave it to me"

"How nice!" James exclaimed "Generous my girlfriend is. Always looking out for others"

"It is very nice of her. Who wouldn't like someone like that?" Remus added. "Lily is gold"

"Best of James's girlfriends in my opinion" Peter chanted.

"Oof and she is hot as hell" James exclaimed.

The three of them agreed with yes and nods.

Sirius blinked unaware that Lily was hearing everything from a corner.

Sirius shrugged.

"What do you think of her, Pads?" James asked "Do you like Lily?"

"I guess she is not that bad, yeah"

That's when Lily jumped into the room screaming and jumping excitedly.

"OH MY GOD! YOU LIKE ME!" Lily squealed.

Sirius watched jump and laugh like a maniac.

"Did you hear that? SIRIUS BLACK LIKES ME. HE LIKES ME! OHOO!" and she began making a silly little dance.

Her happiness was so contagious that it made Sirius smile.

"Whatever you say, Evans" he walked away.

"The jacket looks good on you!" she said after him.

"I look good in everything!"

Lily beamed once more. She hit Remus's and Peter's palms and kissed her boyfriend passionately.

[forestdeath1]

“Do I take everything off?”

Sirius arched an eyebrow at her. “What, feeling shy?”

Art for Scandalous by @annabtg

[moonyswarmsweaters]

Lily: That was McGonagle calling. Apparently, Harry has been using some very creative language today

Sirius: Oh? Do tell.

Lily: Well, he called her Potions homework a "cluster duck" and his professor a "mother flunker"

Sirius: [amused] Did he call anyone a "sock sucker"?

[Lily looks at him, pissed]

Sirius: What? It's just someone who sucks socks.

Lily: I can't believe you're teaching my son loophole swear words.

Sirius: In my defense, "mother flunker" was entirely the little deviant's creation. And very clever of him, I must say.

[ghosteccedentesiast]

*Sirius being sick of everything *

Sirius: *Points at Severus* Fuck you

Sirius: *Points at Barty* Fuck you

Sirius: *Points at Peter* Fuck you

Sirius: *Points at James* Fuck you

Sirius: *Points at Remus* Fuck me

Sirius: *Points at parents* Especially fuck you

Sirius: *Points at Lily* Fu- uh hi?

[lilyslark]

thinking about sirius and lily finding the siblings that they lost in each other. sirius losing his younger brother and lily her older sister. both of them gaining a new perspective about what it must have been like to be the other sibling. sirius having a sister for the first time and lily a brother. sirius teasing lily about being a few months older than her—sirius having a younger sibling again and lily an older one.

thinking about sirius losing his baby brother for good. thinking about petunia suffering that same pain when she loses lily.

[antarescamusxo]

In prison, sometimes a boy with messy hair and a charming smile appeared. In his mind, the boy sat next to him and talked about his past, present, and future. The boy on his mind leaned on his shoulder and talked about quidditch and courage, and sometimes, he became an asshole. In his head, Sirius was warm when the boy appeared.

Then he was gone, and someone else came. Sirius knew then and there that he had been hallucinating because the cell room started to smell of strawberries. Unless the dementors had started to wear perfume, he knew he had lost his mind. The fact that he knew that he had lost his mind didn't make the girl leave. She sat behind him and wrapped her arms around his shoulders, and started to complain about his, well, his everything.

Sirius listened. He listened. And he wished he'd go a little insaner, so he could see them more.

[that-bitch-kat3]

lily: asking me to pick a favorite taylor swift album is like asking a mother to pick her favorite child

sirius : cruel but you definitely have one?

lily: yep and it’s red (tv)

[mrauderspoll]

don't you guys luv it when the blog revives :)

remus & lily, bookworms? sirius & lily, sibling angst???

welcome back to mrauderspoll for the beginning of the duos tournament!

[vomits0cutely]

Just a reminder, James, Lily and Remus (and Peter) were planning a birthday party for Sirius but it never happened. Ans Sirius will never know because he never knew, because they could never tell him about it. He spend his birthday alone in a cell. No cake, no candles, no presents, no love, but in the cold and dark.

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

sirius: look, lils, you have to treat a bike like you treat a woman

lily, raising a brow: go on.

siriu, afraid: ... no, i sense i've made a mistake of some kind

[beli-eve-ing]

I NEED more people to write and talk about lilypads friendship because I really believe that they would be best friends

[jameskinniesrise]

Lily: Severus Snape, you have the right to remain

Sirius: A fucking loser, hah!

[moutainrusing]

And IF (only if) you would be willing to write one more for me I request a trick 🎃 as well.

Lily/Sirius (romantic or platonic) Prompt: St Mungos

Happy writing! ✨️

With a shaky hand, Sirius lifted the potion to his lips, the one which would give him him. “Tastes bitter,” he rasped to Lily while she watched with the typical concern of a Healer. ‘How does the potion make you feel? Side effects? Is it working how it should?’

Lily looked at all her patients that way. Sirius wasn’t special. Lily cared about everyone to this incredible degree, giving them all her utmost best, and that was why Sirius cared about her the most.

Lily gave him an amused smile, rolled her eyes, “Want me to put sugar in it?”

“Yes, actually,” Sirius croaked, wincing when his voice cracked. It didn’t sound like his voice, even though it was his. His voice used to be lighter, and he couldn’t feel it in the way he swallowed, but now, his voice had deepened, rumbling in his throat, and he had his Adam’s apple, which he could feel bobbing up and down. Up, down. Even though his body was becoming the body it was always meant to be, he still felt down. A man could have a high-pitched voice and still be a man. He used to have a high-pitched voice, and he was always a man.

Plus, the cracks felt like shards of glass piercing into the cold, stiff silence of the wards at St. Mungos. Hospitals were pallid, sickly places, grey-scale monotony, bright, white lights, and Sirius felt like a lab experiment. He probably was, because all his data would be collected to aid future transmen; he probably was, because people stuck needles into him just to see the effect on his body; he probably was, because no one cared about him as an individual. In fact, he was definitely some monstrous disease which should be purged from the world of clean, he was wasting resources by being here, a waste, a pain, inhumane. The Healers simply cared about everyone, believing that they had some duty to make the lives of all people healthier, happier, longer.

He wondered what they’d do to him if he admitted he was a monster. He wondered if anyone would ever see him as a man.

“You’re all done,” Lily beamed, taking the vial from Sirius. “Now, get some rest, I’ll see you in the morning.”

“Yeah,” Sirius nodded agreeably. He hoped it was agreeable. “Thanks,” he added. Sirius could never do nearly enough to thank Lily for all she did. He struggled to say thank you, but for Lily, he wanted to say it again and again, paint it on the sky above her head, he wanted to split open his chest and show her how he was composed solely out of gratitude for her. Sirius wanted to do so much for her, and it would never be enough.

Their days in Hogwarts, when Sirius would break down every time he got his period, and Lily would hold him, never questioning the issue. She’d buy what he needed even though he had the money to do it and she didn’t, because Sirius didn’t want to look after a body he didn’t like, but Lily wanted to look after any body Sirius had. She looked after Sirius.

But no one could look after him forever. Lily liked men, proper men, not whatever Sirius was. He was a man, he was and he was but he wasn’t a person, he was a monster and he was strange, contaminated with something that made him wrong.

Lily watched him for a second. She frowned, eyes lingering over every feature of his face, and Sirius wanted to curl into himself. He knew he looked weird. All the changes. “Do you want me to stay?” she asked softly.

Sirius swallowed, “Don’t you have to get back to James?” A proper man. James embodied everything Lily wanted, and Sirius was so similar to James, yet there was one major difference. Lily chose James because he was a proper man.

Lily shook her head, casually shrugging, “Always bros before hoes, right?” She grinned at Sirius, and Sirius forced a laugh. It was kinda funny that James was her hoe. But Sirius would always be just her friend. It was nice of her to value friendship, but down the line, as the responsibility for her relationship grew, that would change.

Sirius would be nothing to Lily. He smiled, “No, he’ll miss you too much.” I’ll miss you more.

Lily laughed, “He needs to learn to survive a couple hours without me.”

And I need to learn to survive an entire lifetime without you.

“Go, Lils, I’ll just be sleeping. Have a fun night, that’s an order,” Sirius pointed with a stern finger. That still shook a little.

Lily wrapped a hand around it and pushed it down gently, “As you wish, Sirius. I’ll be wishing you were there, though.”

No, you won’t.

Sirius rolled his eyes, “Focus on your man, Lily.”

“But you know you’re the real man of my life,” Lily clutched her chest exaggeratedly, and that hurt.

Sirius fell silent. Lily’s hand was still in his, and he pushed it away. “Do you… do you think anyone would ever… want to love me?”

Lily grabbed his hand again, passion taking over her expression. “Of course!” she cried vehemently. “I love you!”

“You know what I mean,” Sirius sighed, fiddling with Lily’s fingers. “In that way.”

“Yes,” she stated matter-of-factly. “You’re perfect, Sirius Black.”

Sirius closed his eyes. He didn’t know how to respond. Well, he did. If I’m perfect, then why aren’t I perfect for you?