#I’m just in awe of some anons other blogs get about this

[fairyleiii]

oh shoot I send my ask early by accident uh if I wasn't on anon please just screenshot the ask! my main blog is sfw and I have friends and family who know the blog so I don't wanna end up exposing myself! Also I didn't manage to send in the full ask I'm so sorry but I really liked your konig fic and if you don't mind writing for Konig again, could you possibly do an NSFW fantasy or medeval au with him? King konig is always fun but knight konig would be interesting as well! If fantasy or medival stuff isn't to your liking A fic with cockwarming would be nice too! If you're okay with that of course! so sorry for all my fumbling!!

✧˖*°࿐ knight konig x royal reader note: hi bb anon!!! ur so cute and dont say sorry for fumbling ily! I’ve never written medieval au before, but I tried just for you!! sfw for now just because I’m not familiar writing medieval sex lol but I’ll get there. for now, just a blurb. 

knight!konig that’s all stoic and closed up regarding every aspect of his life ... except for his feelings about you.

it’s really quite scandalous, a mere knight and a well-respected royal such as yourself, but he couldn’t give less of a fuck

he’s your personal knight, at first you butted heads, believing you didn’t need some big-headed buffoon such as him guarding you 24/7

however, when you said that to him, he didn’t simply grunt in response like all the other guards before him, his armour made an awful ruckus as he hinged forward, leveling his helmeted face with yours and let out a boisterous laugh, genuine and from the chest.

before that moment he had simply stood watching you constantly, with that signature smirk and a straight, rigid back

you had almost jumped in fright from how loud and sudden it was, unexpected too.

he was known for being brutal and ruthlessly mean on the battlefield, but you bring out that spark of kindness in him.

after that, you began to joke with him more and more, in an attempt to hear that laugh again, and he always gives you what you want.

[rafesbabygirlx]

Hi angels (this is gonna be long)

I ramble because when I feel big feels I don't think straight, but please read 🤍

I'm posting this now because I just need to get it out. This has been weighing heavily on me. But I doubt anyone will read it hahah

This is really hard for me to say, but after a lot of thought, I’ve decided to wrap up some things I have left, complete some more requests and step back from writing anything new—at least for now.

I’ve been contemplating this for a while, trying to push past the feeling, but I’ve reached a point where I can’t ignore it anymore. Writing has been such a joy for me, and I’ve loved being part of this little community. You all welcomed me with open arms, and I can’t express how much that means to me.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m in the right mental space for it right now. As much as I love creating, I’ve found myself constantly doubting my work, comparing my writing to others and thinking that I can do so much better, and overthinking every detail. It’s a cycle I’ve fallen into on my own, and it’s taken a toll. On top of that, I feel like my blog has lost some of its spark, and my writing isn’t going anywhere and not growing. I’ve also gotten some nasty anons the past few weeks that I ignore but they still haven’t helped with my thoughts. 🫠

With my final semester of college also weighing on me, everything feels like it’s piling up. So, I think I just need a short break. Ew I feel like I sound so insecure. I think I’m just too hard on myself, especially when I get overwhelmed and burnt out.

I feel really guilty stepping away after working so hard to build this space and gaining so much support. The last thing I want is to let anyone down. But right now, this is what I need.

Please stick with me and don't forget me.

That said, I truly love being here, and I don’t think I can stay away for too long. Honestly, I might still post every now and then if I feel inspired. I also won’t be going completely dark - I want to stay engaged and continue supporting the amazing people I’ve met here. I’d love for my moots to keep me updated on their posts, and I’ll still be around to chat.

Sorry if none of this makes sense. I really hate that I've gotten to this point. I still have some things I want to complete and then I plan to take some time off from writing. But I will be around. We can still interact. I don't want to completely lose what I have here. 🤍

I want to go through some more requests and I have a couple of parts left of The Pen Pal. I like to finish what I’ve started and I’m committed to that. I'm posting this and I have a couple of drafts ready to post tonight and then going to take a break for a day or 2 after posting this (because I feel awful and I want to avoid it)

I’m hoping that this will bring me some relaxation but I’m also hoping it will bring me some inspiration too. I have a series I’d love to restart and a lovely anon gave me a great idea for a JJ AU I’d love to do at some point. I hope those ideas would excite you just as much too.

I think right now it will just be a couple of weeks off just from writing. To refresh, heal my mind, and finally breathe. I’ve already expressed it slightly in some posts but I’ve been really thinking about it.

I already can’t wait to be back because this community has been so good to me. I appreciate every single one of you. What’s that corny saying? It’s not goodbye it’s see you later? I love you guys, and I’ll make another post when I officially take my break.

I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE. IT ALL DOES IN MY HEAD. JUST A LITTLE BAD AT EXPRESSING MYSELF.

I wanna thank everyone who has supported my writings and I LOVE every single one of you.

I also wanna thank some of my moots! You all have helped me incredibly since I've joined. You're all so kind hearted and probably the best group of people I've ever connected with on the internet. I’m still here so please don’t stop tagging me or reaching out, I’ll still support all of you when I’m on a break. Forgive me if I'm forgetting anyone- not really thinking right now. But this goes for all my moots. 🤍

@rafesheaven @cameronsprincess @inthelibrarybtw @littlelamy @leather-n-velvet @writingroom21 @ivysprophecy @maybejj @rafescokewhore @nemesyaaa @rafescvntyclubgf @angelicameron @tanjamikaelson @starkeynation @quinnsbabygirl @frankoceanluvr11 @httpsdrewstarkey @v3n1ce-bxtch @zyafics @whytheylosttheirminds @rafesbuzzcutseason @maybankslover

[toothtalk]

I've got no where else to ask this so I'll ask it here.

If I haven't brushed my teeth constantly (meaning I literally have no memory of brushing but I may have) for over 4 years do I still have a chance at saving my teeth?

For some context I have had awful depression for most of my life and it's made dental hygiene almost impossible to maintain.

thanks for reaching out anon! i’m so sorry you’ve been struggling with depression. i know how hard it is, and i just want to say first off that i’m so proud of you for still being here and for trusting me with this question.

as for saving your teeth, there’s so many factors that go into it that it’s really impossible to say definitively yes or no. the best thing you can do is to see a dentist and let them determine the next steps and help you get back on track. i will say we’ve had patients in that haven’t seen a dentist in 15+ years that have been able to keep all their teeth, so it’s absolutely possible!

red flags to look out for that may suggest some teeth are not savable are pain, mobility, and swelling. if you’re experiencing any sort of pain or swelling with a tooth, or if any teeth are loose, see a dentist ASAP.

i know how difficult it can be to maintain a consistent care routine when you’re dealing with depression, and i would encourage you to focus on what you can do rather than what you can’t. maybe you’re not in a place where you can brush twice a day and floss every night. but, the next time you’re in your bathroom, maybe you can brush then, even if it’s not “the proper time”. maybe you can brush in the shower. maybe you can keep some waterless toothbrushes on your nightstand and brush while lying in bed.

the beautiful thing about it is that having a cleaner mouth will actually make you feel better. it might not seem like it will make much of a difference, but taking steps, even small steps, to care for our bodies has a massive impact on our mental state. i’d bet you’ll feel a lot less depressed after getting a professional dental cleaning to remove the buildup and give you a clean slate to work with.

and, more than anything, please try to be gentle with yourself. i know this stuff can feel embarrassing and shameful, but you’re not alone. beating yourself up for it will only make you feel worse; all we can do is start from where we are. you are worthy of clean and healthy teeth.

i hope this helps!! please don’t hesitate to reach out if you have any more questions!

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[thewalrusespublicist]

Hi! Your blog is so well-researched and thorough, going through your tags is a delight. I’ve been going through a rabbit hole reading about John and Yoko in the late seventies, and I’m morbidly fascinated but it’s so sad. You make me want to read Dakota Days, but I’m afraid it’s going to be really depressing.

Do you think John’s journals (1975-1980) will ever come out, assuming they haven’t been destroyed?

Because I feel that the best piece of evidence we have that all was not well during John’s househusband phase is that the Estate has chosen not to publish them. Not that I think that there’s anything wildly scandalous in them: in fact, they’re probably pretty boring. I just think it will paint the portrait of a deeply depressed man, paralyzed by his mental illness and pathologically jealous of other pop/rock stars (Paul). It’s not positive for the Estate, and it’s not positive for Paul, because it will make people question once again if John even liked him. Given all that, I can’t think of a good reason for Sean to publish them, except for money, lol.

But if he does, I can totally see it becoming a watershed moment in the fandom. It’s an extreme comparaison, but bear with me: I remember when I was in university and Heidegger’s black book was published. All of a sudden everyone was like did you KNOW he was wildly antisemitic?? And like, yeah. We already knew he had a card in the nazi party. But his stans could always rationalize it in a way that becomes very hard to do when it comes in the words of the man himself. Ironically, considering the mild nature of the material, I can see his journal striking a worse blow to John’s reputation than Goldman’s book, or May’s, or John Green’s or Seaman’s.

Hi anon!

Thank you so much for your lovely message!

Late 70s and John and Yoko is endlessly fascinating. They're almost like a gothic tale mixed with absurdist satire served with a side of good old-fashioned dysfunction. John's whole existence at that time seems akin to a 1970s remake of The Yellow Wallpaper and its crazy to see how the gap between reality and PR started to widen as the decade wore on. On that note, I would highly recommend Dakota Days. True, you are being taken round on a journey by a con-man guide who does everything to lure you into his perspective as well as twist events to frame himself as the ultimate truth-sayer and voice of reason. Nevertheless, the picture he paints to me is so consistent with their characters in the 70s that it seems at worst a bang on parody of their true personalities and I believe the skeleton of his narrative is accurate.

On the diaries, I do believe that at least some copies or illegal copies are still out there in the world. Whether the originals have been destroyed ... I don't think so BUT, they are probably locked in a safe in the heart of the Dakota at this point considering they got nicked twice (like how, how??). I also believe that the manuscript for Peter Dogget's book will still exist somewhere (even if it's just on Dogget's laptop) and will probably be published at some point/things will leak out about it.

As for how I feel about the contents and them getting released, I'm conflicted on near every level. I get your comparison totally. From what we know of the contents, whilst some passages seems to have contained endearing elements of love, self-improvement and self-reflection, a lot of it seems to be dripping in self-absorption, delusion, lust, paranoia, narcissism and petty, jealous thoughts towards others. And it's disappointing, there's no other word for it; mundanely, day-to-day, deep bone disappointing. It's hard not to feel an exhausted disappointment when Robert Rosen talk about John wanting Yoko to get back at Paul by buying a really nice cow. It's hard not to feel disgust over John allegedly gloating over Paul's arrest. From the sounds of it the diaries go further than showing a human being with flaws: they show a pretty awful, weak individual. (To be clear I'm not saying that's who John was, just what the diaries apparently present.)

Therein lies one of the ethical problem with releasing the diaries because is that really fair? If you really think about it, most people have passing unpleasant thoughts and for a lot of people a diary is a form of venting where they only write about a fraction of their actual thoughts and feelings down and often their most anti-social ones. Is it fair to judge John on probably his most base and aggressive thoughts and impulses; impulses that are likely being fueled by severe, untreated mental illness and an abusive dynamic?

The whole private venting aspect also leads on to the other question of is it fair that anyone should even be seeing the diaries as John never intended unedited publication? In any normal circumstance I would say absolutely not, these are private thoughts that should be kept private. The unique issue with these circumstances though is that this isn't just anyone, this is John from JohnandYoko, the couple who presented their lives as a glass case to look in, who taped their own therapy sessions and miscarriages for public consumption and who most significantly presented themselves as an aspirational marriage. It's exhibitionism but significantly, it's artificial exhibitionism with the faux candidness and lack of boundaries being a smokescreen for the actual dynamic and what was going on.

It’s a bit of an ethical quandary, how far is reasonable when it comes to refuting a lie? If we are invited and encouraged to see an intensely intricate albeit false view of their relationship, should we also feel entitled to the real deal? Or should we just accept the inaccurate PR about the couple as that is what his widow wishes to present, even if we know that it isn't entirely true? Should we be okay with attempts to refute the established narrative being sued out of existence on feeble legal grounds and occasionally by illegal means? The recent David Sheff Yoko bio apparently still perpetuates the idea that John's life did not have happiness nor meaning before Yoko. Is a claim that controversial and arguably demeaning to John's life and work pre-Yoko fair to have out without any allowed pushback? Crucially, would the diaries be kept from publication if they were mostly positive as you raised? (I think no, and that's part of the problem.) If you disagree with the idea that the Lennon estate narrative should go unchallenged, does it justify using the personal and private ramblings of a long deceased man who can't consent to support the argument? Like you said, we know enough to know that the diaries are the smoking gun that all was really not well in the depths of the Dakota and that the PR of the blissful latter half of the 70s was a fantasy. Is it just enough to know that the diaries exist and their outline, do we really need to hear any greater detail? These are questions I wrestle with and don't have any solid answers to, save the gut instinct that Dogget’s work should not have been blocked given the situation John’s legacy is in.

In any case I think handling and discussing the diaries would require nuance, care and a level of emotional detachment that I think would be difficult for nearly anyone interested to achieve. If they ever do get released, I can't imagine the backlash to the contents being anything but seismic.

(Adding to all this is, if the diaries are released in full, I really hope it's, NOT in Paul's lifetime. He seems to have finally got to a good place with John's memory post-Get Back. The last thing he ((or anyone)) needs to see are literal novels worth of their best friend's mental illness induced obsessive rants about them. It would be heartbreaking and disturbing and just cruel at this point in his life.)

[the-blue-fairie]

Art by @shes-an-iso – commissioned by me and posted here with permission

Realization.

It is ten years ago and I am watching Frozen.

It is ten years ago and I am watching Elsa transform herself into her truest self, watching her spin threads of blue around herself, seizing power for herself – radical self-actualization.

The glint of Elsa’s ice dress reflects in my eyes as I watch Elsa strut into the sunlight – and I do not have words for why I am so moved.

I do not have words, but the shimmer stays.

It is ten years ago and I am choosing to become a part of the Frozen fandom.

I have lurked in fandom circles before, but never posted a thing, never made an account.

It is my first time being part of an online fan community – and, as awful as fandoms can be at times, this fandom – for me – ten years ago – is truly a community.

I begin to make friends in the Frozen fandom.

Some of these friends are trans.

The gleam of Elsa’s hair in the rose-gold dawn shines again in my eyes, and shyly, I begin asking questions of my friends.

Realization is nothing without the words to process it – and my friends give me words, my friends help me to understand.

I am a trans woman.

It is in this online space that I first take the name Liza for myself, since this online space is the only place that I can allow myself to be.

I build for myself. My blog is my own ice palace. What I cannot sculpt in daily life, I carve within online spaces – offering my writing, my thoughts, my edits, my soul to the world.

Everyone here knows me as Liza.

Even as I’m in the closet to my family for years, in here, I am Liza. My friends know me as I am, and as Liza is all they will ever know me.

But I am in the closet. For years.

(It’s why Do You Want to Build a Snowman still breaks me.)

In the closet more out of some misplaced sense of duty to my family than out of dread, though I am scared. Always scared. And then in the closet because I feel it’s better if I bury this. Not better for me, but for them. If I’m bleeding inside, it doesn’t matter. I can put on a show. I have fine-woven gloves. Well-taught decorum. Be the good girl you always have to be, etc.

(Maybe it’s my fault I’m in the closet for years. Anons on this site have told me that in the past. I don’t have it as bad as others in the closet, I’m just a coward, the fault is mine, the fault is mine…)

Fuck off.

(People blame Elsa for the thirteen years in the same way, placing the blame on her and not the tutelage that trained her, because her parents loved her, you see, and love becomes a convenient means of shifting blame to the victim.)

In June 2016, after the Pulse shooting, I make a post about how I’m never going to come out. I am terrified, heartbroken, mangled by grief – but my friends are there for me. My friends send me messages of support, of compassion.

I still cherish the memory of those.

Years pass. When I finally come out to my father, I can barely say the words, barely look him in the eye.

It is ten years since Frozen and I have come out to my family – far too late. I have been on HRT more than a year now.

(My dad still misgenders me when he thinks I’m out of earshot. He resents when I get frustrated with him over this.)

It is ten years since Frozen and I am Elsa on the North Mountain, staring into the whirlwind of an uncertain future, defiant and scared.

And I know – I know – that I didn’t process I was trans because of the film – it was because of the friendship of fellow trans people, trans people who happened to be Frozen fans a decade ago – but my journey of self-realization, my time in the closet, my creation of a sense of self, are so entwined with memories of Frozen that I can’t help but think of it when thinking about my own transition…

Can’t help but think of Elsa, hips swaying, arms outstretched, flashing, radiant –

Happy tenth anniversary, Frozen.

And thank you. Thank you.

(This is okay to reblog. In fact, please do. It is a sliver of my soul that I offer to the world.)

[xoladybella]

this fandom has become so toxic. I’ve never seen a bunch a grown women say such awful things about other women. People calling Nic foolish , people saying Antonia trolled the fandom , no real proof. I dare someone to upload the post her mother liked talking about Nic. Wait, people can’t bc it’s rumors and lies. You really think Nic cares what trolls and bullies think of her - no! Because they are not real fans. It would be cute and so adorable if Nic and Luke were a couple, but you people aren’t speculating anymore- some of y’all are obsessed and down right nasty!!! Do you all teach your daughters to be bullies. People think it’s funny to call her a bug or toilet twerker, but you all are immature. Luke and Nic do not owe this fandom anything when it comes to their personal life. If you don’t like who they are with stop stalking their page, family page and any SM site that talks about them. Just bc you see love between people doesn’t not make them compatible. It takes more than hugs and kisses to make a relationship. Nic and Luke have a lot similarities but nobody knows what they think or want in a relationship so people should stop feeling like they are entitled to run their life. So don’t be mad at Nic and Luke if they are besties, be mad at the blogs y’all let trick you into thinking NDA’s exist. Remember, those same blogs said Luke broke up with Anotina and then she popped up at the boss event. Now he could have just went with her as a friend, but the same blogs said she was OUT his life. They keep pushing the NDA fulfillment date back, people wake up- there is no NDA and this date will always get pushed back. It’s no problem to ship them but this is not what Nic and Luke had in mind. People wanting to control and dictate their life and be upset when they realize Nic and Luke are healthy, happy and living their life.

Hi anon, thanks for sharing your thoughts. I understand the frustration.

I’m not sure who you’re referring to when you say toxic. I know there’s a small majority who take it way too seriously but over here we’re all good vibes and just having fun. No one I follow or who follow me is ever disrespectful towards Nic and Luke. If you’re seeing blogs who are, and this goes for everyone, make sure you report and block. Everyone has their own opinions and some can be aggressive unfortunately. It’s apart of being involved with a fandom. If people are finding themselves being mad at Nic and Luke then they need to reevaluate themselves. My blog is pure speculation and what I believe to be true. I’ve stated on here that I don’t believe in the NDA theory. Also, please don’t come onto my blog accusing me of being obsessed and nasty. My blog is for me to express my thoughts I have on Lukola and I have never said anything nasty about them and neither have my followers. If you’d like to share who the blogs are who are being nasty towards Nic and Luke please do and we will all go report them.

I completely agree that Nic and Luke don’t owe us anything. I’ve never had any post insinuate that I or anyone else thinks that. The majority of this fandom don’t think that. Again, there’s always going to be some rotten eggs in the basket and it really sucks because that’s not what Lukola is about but unfortunately we can’t do much about it besides reporting and blocking.

Hopefully the nastiness you’re seeing will die down soon. Shipping is suppose to be fun and light hearted which is how I keep my blog and there’s others who do the same. As I’ve stated in this post and in previous posts, my blog is mainly speculation (with some actual facts thrown in) and I’ve never claimed for my speculations to be truth.

[lilislegacy]

I feel so bad for you. You have always been so scared of posting controversial stuff on here because you dont want to offend anyone or get hate but we kept on asking for it because you’re takes are always so amazing and spot on. And then you got some of the worst hate I have ever seen. I mean 2 blogs posting about you, with full comment sections calling you names, attended by awful anon comments in your ask box with death threats and personal attacks. Like what kind of twisted forces made it so that YOU were rained down with that shitstorm when you are maybe the most level headed pro percabeth poster out here?

I kinda feel bad because WE encouraged you and begged for it and we all told you it would be okay. And then it wasn’t okay and you might be in a really bad place now mentally because of it. So just know that if you want to stop with the hot takes that you were already nervous about in the first place, we understand. I love everything you post not just the controversial stuff and you will not lost a follower or a fan in me if you change it up. Buttt if you want to keep posting that stuff and it does not hurt you do not let them hold you back. You did nothing wrong and you have a right to say how you feel. The vibes they are giving off is “it is not what she said it is the way she said it” which seems extremely dramatic and hypocritical to me lmao but you said to not insult them so I will stop there

Just know that I am here as a follower no matter what you post. I feel like we kind of got you into this and gave you a false sense of security. So I’m sorry for that but I’m always here liking your posts and supporting you! And even though you think its your fault and you walked into it, people on here argue and battle and criticize each other in such dirty ways all the time and the way you did it was very very respectful in comparison. Like you called them out (and you were right by the way) but also legit said that you appreciate them and told people not to attack them. You are clearly a great person and did not deserve any of that

One more thing: To the antis who called a first responder weak and told her to kill herself, take a step back and look at your life plzzzz

First of all, I want to thank everyone for the kind comments and asks. I have received so much support and it definitely has helped kinda pull me out of the place I was. I’ll be totally good soon. So thank you all and I really appreciate everyone ❤️

Now onto this specific ask. Thank you for your nice words. Pease do not feel like it’s anyone’s fault but my own. I’m NOT saying those asks sent to me were okay, but the other stuff I did in fact walk into. And again, the posters were not mean at all and the comments in defense of them are no different than the pro-percabeth ones left in my own comment sections. The only difference is that their comments were targeted towards me specifically, but again, I walked into that one. Plus, a few of them said they were blocking me because of my views, so I don’t think I need to worry about them lol.

You guys did NOT make me post anything. I asked what you wanted and then I willingly wrote posts talking about my opinion.

I have been getting mean asks and messages since day 1. It’s not because of what you all asked me for. In fact, the REASON I responded to that ask with the link to someone else’s post in the first place was because I had been receiving such awful asks that I kinda snapped and chose to directly counter a specific anti-annabeth argument for once. I tried to be respectful, but anytime you respond to someone else’s post, you sign up for some backlash. So don’t feel bad!! My other recent post calling out Percy was also because I was tired of being told Annabeth is awful and Percy is perfect. I was just saying how I feel. It’s not like you guys trapped me into it! I’m a grown adult and I make my own decisions.

That all being said… I am gonna take a break from the hot takes for a while lol. I mean, I get anti-annabeth and anti-percabeth asks regardless, but usually they’re much less harsh and personal. Now, that is not me letting them win or get their way, and I will at some point get back into it with the hot stuff. But for now, I feel as though I’ve said everything that I needed to say. I don’t want to become a blog of animosity or constant arguments against another side. If I post anymore about it, it’s gonna start to feel real repetitive. So I’m moving on for now. I’m also super embarrassed about being involved in drama and want to move on from all this LOL

Again, thank you everyone so much for the support. I love and appreciate every single one of you, including all the respectful anti-percabeth people, and I hope you all are doing well! 🫶

[stormblessed95]

I’m so sad today, I’ve seen some awful things from solos about Jimin and JK, such homogeneous takes and hatred. How do you cope with seeing things like that? It makes me feel invalidated as a queer person. Seeing someone say Jimin is straight when imo from his art, that’s obviously not the case..

or that from a jkk, if he is with JK he’ll leave him for a women to have a baby he apparently so desperately wants, and bc his society won’t allow that relationship with JK. But as a gay person, seeing that take makes me feel like I’m wrong somehow. 😔

I really can't do anything but empathize. Tell you I fully understand. That I've cried about this exact same thing to some friends on here before too. That sometimes the anons and other blog posts can get to me. And send you hugs and love and tell you to just do your best to roll your eyes at the homophobes. They don't deserve your pain. Easier said than done. I know. Sending you so so much love friend.

[certifiedsexed]

ah, oof — i was the one who sent that ask asking you to elaborate on misandry, and i 100% agree with what you said, i just had never had it explained like that before and found it really useful. thank you for that! but i’m so sorry that it’s led to you getting so much hate, that’s really awful. sending hugs<33

definitely not a requirement (i know this site really hates people with moral ocd sometimes, i’m not letting this be one of those times too), but… maybe, do some of the followers of this blog wanna share something you like about it, or appreciate about it? i think op’s amazing for running it and it’s definitely one of my favourite blogs on this site; i’d love for them to hear these kind of sentiments instead of hate.

i’ll go first: i love the effort you put into sourcing posts; i have post dates enabled and some of your posts go back over a decade. with tumblr’s bad search function, i can’t imagine how much time and care you take to source those, but i love that you do that, since it reintroduces them into the ‘posting ecosystem’ so that more people can read the advice in them:)

Oh, I'm glad it helped! You're welcome. 💚 And that's so kind of you, thank you. I'm not unused to hate online (perks of being Black and many other things lol) but it does get kinda frustrating sometimes, so I appreciate that.

😭😭 Aww, this' so sweet. It is incredibly hard to find the older posts so its actually weirdly nice to know someone notices and appreciates that, ty, Anon. That'll make my week. 💚 💕

(As Anon said, no one has to do the compliment thing, I just really wanted to post this because its so kind of Anon and I really appreciated it and wanted them to know.)

[hislittlestar]

Hi! First, I want to start by saying I really like your energy and your blog. My mom is an eclectic witch, so I've been exposed to the stuff my whole life, but every time I try to get more into my practice, something happens where I just feel stuck. But this time around, I am determined to not be deterred.

I've recently been really interested in the various religions (I was a practicing Catholic over the summer but stopped), and the lore behind Lucifer. He's actually been on my mind so much these past weeks that I think I want to start devotional work with him (not this second, of course, I don't I'm in a good space to start that).

So I have some questions for you, if you dont mind.

How did you develop/practice your clairaudence? It's a skill I really want to learn, and I think honing that skill will help me to communicate with ✨️beings✨️ better.

Can deities/spirits hear your thoughts? Do they get upset by them? (I have OCD and a lot of my intrusive thoughts are sexual and I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable).

How do I communicate with deities? I understand you can divination tools to receive their messages, but do I just talk and they'll understand me? If I say or do something weird, are they going to be upset with me?

How do I show respect to a deity (other than just basic decency you'd show to anyone)? Do I always call them by an epithet or Lord/Lady/King/Queen?

Sorry if this is weird ❤️

Hi, Anon! I’m so glad you like my energy and blog! I’m happy to answer your questions ♡

How did you develop/practice your clairaudience?: For me, this has been one of the most interesting and important parts of my spiritual growth. It is still something I’m working on and haven’t yet perfected, but I have made a lot of progress thanks to Lord Lucifer’s help. What he had me do is get into regularly practicing meditation, specifically working on developing the ability to clear my mind into a trance-like state. I have ADHD, so this has been quite difficult for me. Lucifer also had me get into listening to hypnosis files so I could learn what trance feels like.

To listen to Lucifer, I take time at night when it’s quiet, my lights are off, and I have white noise playing, to try and clear my mind of all things except for internally repeating Lucifer’s enn: “Renich tasa uberaca biasa icar Lucifer” over and over again. I clear my mind’s eye of all other images, only thinking of his sigil. At some point, I start to get new thoughts that don’t feel like my own, it kind of feels like mentally tuning into a radio station. At this point, I can start to receive full sentences from him.

He’s also taught me how I unknowingly experienced clairaudience a lot already, I just didn’t realize it was clairaudience. When receiving words from outside entities it can seem like your own thoughts, but it may be thoughts completely irrelevant to what you were previously thinking or doing and it may be in words you wouldn’t normally use. It’s not like having another person’s voice in your head. Though with practice, you can give that other entity’s voice its own pitch and accent.

Can deities/spirits hear your thoughts?: Yes, deities can hear your thoughts. Though I think they only start hearing your thoughts the more that you think about them. Like, if you think about a deity’s name just one time they aren’t going to care. If you start thinking about a deity regularly, they’re going to have more access to your thoughts (this is just my theory). I honestly struggled with this at first, it seemed like a real invasion of privacy. But, I’ve gotten used to it and even find it really sweet that Lucifer still loves me with all the insane thoughts he’s probably heard in my head lol.

Do they get upset by them?: Luckily, this isn’t something to be worried about! I also have OCD and struggle with intrusive thoughts, but deities can tell the difference between normal thoughts and intrusive ones. Even if you have the most awful intrusive thoughts, they won’t judge you or care. We also have to remember they aren’t human, they don’t experience emotions the same way that we do. They aren’t looking for petty fights with humans.

How do I communicate with deities?: Yes, divination tools are great (I prefer a pendulum with a letter board and tarot cards), but the best way to have a conversation imo is with developed clairaudience (Well, the actual best ways would be either astral projecting with a full out of body experience with the deity, or talking to someone who is channeling the deity, but those are harder circumstances to obtain). You can also just talk to them, but I’d recommend waiting until you feel their presence first. I’ve also seen that some practitioners write letters to deities and then burn them. Deities aren’t really judgmental, they’re super old and have seen their fair share of weird shit. And like I said, they don’t feel emotions the same way humans do.

How do I show respect to a deity?: Each deity has their own personality, so this answer will vary depending on the deity. Some wish to always be referred to as their proper title (I’ve heard this about King Paimon), while others don’t care much about that sort of thing. A common VPG is that Lord Lucifer is generally really chill. I tend to just use his title Lord the first time I refer to him in a post. His demeanor is quite relaxed and he tends to not even ask practitioners for offerings. I feel like the rule for any deity is to respect them like they’re your boss at a job. Some bosses are more lenient and easygoing than others, but they still should be respected. (I’m not saying your relationship with a deity should be like a boss + employee relationship, just that the deity should be held with high respect)

Oops, I yapped a lot, but hopefully this helps! I also recommend checking my #information tag and joining the r/DemonolatryPractices subreddit.

[justalittlerandomartist]

Ask: this is a request you don't have to do if you don't want to, but teen! reader that wants to strike a deal with Lucifer, but with all the work he has, he asks Charlie to go instead. but when she goes there, she realizes that it's just a kid that wants to get away from her awful family. So Charlie helps her and then they get closer like siblings and then when she dies (either due to an accident or by doing it herself) they go to the hotel and there she meets everyone and bc Charlie helped her, she stays and helps out with the hotel by doing things like cooking, cleaning etc. I'm kinda rambling but I hope you get the gist.

-Anon

•Charlie Morningstar x teen! reader

•platonic, no horny

•what if…there was a kid who worked as a butler at the hotel

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You ran. As fast as you could. Your mom was going to send you away. Somewhere far, far away. You couldn’t take it anymore.

You were going to make a deal with Lucifer in order to have a safe space. It was the only way. You couldn’t survive in that house. You had to summon him. The only problem is that when you did summon him….

she showed up.

Charlotte Morningstar, daughter of Lucifer and Lilith. She helped you. She gave you a safe space, a little hole in space time that she could visit you in, and you could access without her. If only you didn’t have to go back to that dreadful home at the end of the day.

Over time, Charlie became like a sister to you. You would celebrate birthdays together, watch movies, laugh, and just be…happy. You cared about Charlie, and she cared about you. She didn’t understand why you would sell your soul, but accepted it nonetheless. But atleast if you didn’t, she wouldn’t have had a cool new younger sister.

but….on your thirteenth birthday, when she showed up with a cake….

“Y/n? Are you there? I brought you a birthday cake.”

Poor sweetheart found your suicide note on the table. She was heartbroken, but knew you would be in heaven. Oh boy, was she wrong.

When you woke up, you were in this really bright place. It was on fire, and it smelled like a bar and dried corpses. But worst of all was the way you looked. You were fluffy, with a bright pink maids dress, white fur, pink hair, a little cotton tail, and…bunny ears. YOU WERE A FREAKING BUNNY KID! That’s worse than being a spider(angel dust slander).

You tried to look at some tv’s, hoping to find a news broadcast that could tell you about this weird afterlife. Instead you saw an ad for a dumb hotel-wait. Is that Charlie? HOLY SHIT, ITS CHARLIE!

You rushed to the Hazbin Hotel as fast as you could, and you were greeted at the door by none other than Charlie herself. She scooped you into a bear hug and showed you to everyone in the hotel.

Once Charlie told you about her mission, you were eager to help. You were too young to do much though, you simply helped clean and cook. You always smiled through the work, just like your mom taught you. A smile was safe. When you smiled, you didn’t get hit.

The hotel is better with you in, you always bring in a bright atmosphere, and you cook the best meals though. Sometimes you miss your friends in the living world, but you wouldn’t want to get your new friends sad, so you kept smiled. Although, someone might see through it.

___________________ Lmao this was so rushed.

I have this and a few other fanfics saved in my drafts on my main blog so they’ll get posted there then reblogged on @thathastagbiotch bc that’s my fanfiction blog so follow that account not this one

I’m so sorry this is so late

[sleepanonymous]

Something im curious about (and you by no means have to answer), have you ever had bad reactions for being In The Know? Ive seen people who also know their identities say theyve received threats from others, and ive seen various things said to people in spaces where identities are talked about calling them bad people or other awful things. If im gonna be honest, I myself feel anxious at times that I might be one of the "bad fans" for the ways i approach the anonymity personally or approach the band in general, but i wont get into all that rn. From what ive seen youre respected here, but im curious

If I’m being 100% honest I created this blog fully expecting to get hate and harassment. I think because I’ve always respected the band’s anonymity publicly, it hasn’t been an issue? Then again I know some people who aren’t even running Sleep Token blogs that have been harassed simply for knowing identities. It's so strange to me because I'm over here with a steady stream of people asking me questions in DMs or just having casual discussions about the guys while the people getting harassed are just trying to stay in their own lanes.

People have talked shit before about a certain fan space I’m a part of, but never about me directly, so it’s easily ignored. Worst in that aspect isn’t even an interaction, but I’m blocked by the Instagram STMeme account somehow. Literally never heard of that account until another person realized they were blocked and then the whole group found out 😂

Funnily enough the worst interactions I’ve had have come from being mistaken for a prominent figure in the identity side of the fandom, including interactions directly with that same person.

Anon, in regards to what you said about being anxious if you're a bad fan or not: as long as you're not publicly revealing identities, telling people who don't want to know, or unjustly getting upset at people who do know but are minding their own business, you're fine. The anxiety alone should be enough to tell you that you aren't one of those people 🖤

For the record I am not Corey, [First Name][LastName]Archive, Sidium, Burning Cathedrals, .under.world., or whatever other usernames they’re using now.

[almacambiondaughterofsaleos]

Sigh* here we go again with the mentally deranged stans… I mean I’m shocked that they’re still going on with their crap despite you and several people recording/archiving their behavior for the world to see. Anon or not. Imagine that they got caught for such nasty behavior.

Tw: nasty words & suicide. Reminded me of the time where someone was more mad that he didn’t go out with his gf. Even though he was one of the harassers getting caught and arrested. Hopefully that lady broke up with his ugly ass after she found out about why he was going to jail. I think it was about the Steven Universe fan who attempted suicide long ago… for a couple of links on that post not working, just use the web archive site to see… https://www.reddit.com/r/HobbyDrama/comments/hbxau7/tumblrsteven_universe_zamii070_aka_the_leftwing/?rdt=57164

Unsurprisingly, TVTropes would have uber defensive fans on the most popular and widespread franchises.

Most fandoms seeing jokes, critique and hate: “Um ok, you’re getting a block from me because I don’t like the way you said it. I ain’t going to start a harassment campaign by sending that to the stans. Nobody wants to have a reputation of being a drama monster over petty minor issues.”

“Sigh* why are some of these tumblr “critics” accusing those fans w/out evidence? It’s just fanwork y’all don’t have to call them this or that… As tempting as it is to throw them to the wolves, I wouldn’t want to be labeled as a traitorous liar or snitch.”

“You don’t like what I like? Sure, that’s your opinion since I’m not going to hate bomb every upload/post you make. Besides, that’s only reserved for the worst not regular folks just having preferences.”

“Oh my god, I’m trying not to explode laughing in public… ppl are looking at me weird now.”

Vivziepop stans to joke posts and critics actually making great points: “STFU! If you don’t like it then why are you saying such awful things huh!?”

“I feel attacked!”

“My feelings are hurt by these haters!”

“You don’t like Stolitz!? You’re a homophobe!”

“Pathetic Crying* I’m going to create a post about exposing you!”

https://medium.com/@temp536228/vivziepop-a-story-of-caution-9924211bdf7b Everytime someone makes a critique vid, post or blog, there’s always going to be a Stan acting like a little bitch. Again, viv and her stans are the definition of being unable to take criticism to the point of acting like victims thinking their shit only matters.

Again, I haven’t seen several other creators and communities going that far. Cuz they are rational enough to stick to the positives and not jump into drama!

Stritzo anon being observant and open minded like anyone here

👏

[harrywavycurly]

Not to piggy back on the other anon about grandpa Wayne and Dotty, but nowwww all I’m thinking about is Eddie taking her to the park and all the moms are like, “Awww, dad babysitting today?” or “Giving mom a day off?” and Eddie is just irritated because no. He’s not babysitting. He’s not giving mom “a day off”. He’s taking care of his kid, like everyone else at the park!

Hiii babes!! Piggy back away that’s what this blog is all about 😂 ohhh yes I can see Eddie not having it at all when the Park Moms come and go “awe giving mom some time off? Gotta love babysitting huh?” 🙄🙃

-find all things One Night Stand Eddie here✨

“Okay princess wanna go swing for a little bit?” Eddie asks his not even one year old daughter who is just staring at the world in front of her since she’s currently strapped to his chest in a carrier. Eddie smiles and nods at the other parents at the park as he walks over to the baby swing and begins the process of getting Dotty out of the carrier.

“Oh she is precious.” Eddie turns and looks as a woman approaches them, she’s holding her little girl’s hand and heading for the swing right next to the one Eddie is putting Dotty in. “Giving mom a day off huh?” Eddie raises an eyebrow as he begins to gently push the swing making a little laugh escape Dotty’s lips.

“Excuse me?” He asks as the woman puts her daughter in the swing, she just smiles at him and looks from him to Dotty.

“Just saying it’s nice of you to watch her for a bit while mom gets alone time.” Eddie almost gets smacked in the chest by Dotty’s feet as he glares at the woman standing a few feet from him.

“I’m not watching her for a bit.” He snaps as he gently gives Dotty another push. “She’s my daughter. I took her to the park because she likes to swing and I’m her dad so doing things she likes is kinda my job and no it’s not a part time job it’s a full time one because I’m not a fucking babysitter.” The woman’s eyes go wide as she stops pushing her daughter on the swing, Eddie just turns his attention back to Dotty and gives her a little smile making her laugh. “What? Don’t have anything else to say?” He asks as the woman gets her daughter from the swing and begins walking away. “No wonder your mom hates this park so much.” 😂💖

[billowingangel]

Why are you "new to the harry potter fandom?" Why would you intentionally get into something made by a violent white supremacist terf

Hello Anon,

I would say I did not intentionally get into harry potter. I had read the books as a kid like most other people and to be frank I wasn't a fan of them or her writing. But I began to really attach myself to some of the characters from that god forsaken bookseries. I would daydream of self inserting myself in that world so I could interact with him, I used it as a coping skill.

At times my attachment to said characters returns in a wave. And I've been wanting to write some fanfiction about said characters. I never have before because I was ashamed I liked any characters from harry potter.

But on this Tumblr I've been trying to let go of shame and guilt I feel for liking certain problematic media.

I would like to write some fanfiction, look at some fanart, of characters and ships from harry potter and meet others who also like it.

I know I shouldn't like Harry Potter because JK Rowling is a disgusting and repulsing person but I don't want to surpress this because, personally, that leads to me liking the media even more and obsessing even further. This will pass and the enjoyment I feel for these characters will dwindle until the wave comes again.

I would like to make it crystal clear I do not like JK Rowling. I despise her.

She's an awful horrible person whose comeuppance is coming.

I do not condone or endorse JK Rowling.

I have not read any of her newer books, the cursed child, any of the side books, or anything like that. I know though by talking about Harry Potter that is spreading her proweress even further and I am sorry.

I’m sorry I am doing something fucked up on my fucked up blog. I don't want to like Harry Potter, fuck I don't even like his character, but I do and I don't want to hate myself for that.

I don't want to feel ashamed for like Harry Potter or Hetalia.

If the fact I want to engage in the fandom of Harry Potter makes you uncomfortable-

Please block me

I apologize if any of this sounds like an attack, or that I was being too defensive, for years now I’ve hated and hidden what I like even from myself and its tiring. I am also exhausted so I am longer winded. I have reread this to try and see if it makes any sense but it may not and it is what it is. You may think of me as a horrible person for liking something made by a horrible person and that's ok! You may despise me and that's ok! But please let me just enjoy something.

I am sorry that I made this post about me instead of being about how awful and disgusting Joanna K Rowling and I am sorry. She disgusts me, I looked her up just now so I can spell out her name because she shouldn't be able to hide behind the initials of JK.

Anyway anon I hope this post is a sufficient explanation as to why I was looking for friends who also like this shit from an awful and disgustingly ignorant violent white supremacist transphobic person.

I fear I could keep just going and rambling because I am tired and my words just keep flowing. Please know this too anon, I am sickened by myself for liking this as well.

Edit 1: 10/21 09:40 - I'm sorry for how long this is and how passionate I sound in it, and if I sound all "oh pity me" it's just for years now I've had to hide and suppress the things I like (hetalia and harry potter). I was told liking either (especially hetalia) was problematic and made me an awful person. So I'm a bit sensitive about all this.

[saveahorserideaneddie]

I think part of the problem I have (and this may be an unpopular opinion) is all the hopes and opinions and ideas people (fans) have about the new season. And I don’t just mean things like the “mustache = obvious gay Eddie” that’s happening. But thoughts on Bobby, his and Athena’s living situation, Gerrard as captain, let alone Buck, Eddie, and others.

I know a lot of spec is just for fun, but some people take it quite serious. And I know I’m newer to this fandom but sometimes I read serious takes and go “….but that would never actually happen?! I know many of us don’t trust Tim and the writers but realistically that would never be a storyline on a tv show.…that’s a fanfic.”

So I can’t blame you for your pessimism or want to avoid spec. I hope we don’t get a lot of bts stuff either too, because I feel like fans will be trying to (over)analyze everything to figure things out. Only to likely be disappointed because I don’t trust these writers to write/do anything half as creative, original or logical as fans come up with. Expectation is the enemy and I’m afraid a lot of fans have theirs set too high for this season already

anon i have disgraced you by leaving this burried in the inbox and i feel awful 😭😭

i think fandom in general (and i mean any fandom not just 9-1-1) have this tendency to blur the line between cautious optimism/spec and actually convincing themselves of something happening…

i think a lot of people (and if you are one of these people this is NOT a dig at you) still want to have faith that the writers are actually going somewhere with the story, and they do so by speculating and putting actual thought into what the overarching storyline could be but unfortunately after 6 seasons of waiting, i’m getting tired of the whole thing being dragged out.

it’s no longer a will they/won’t they between the characters for me because multiple times they’ve reached the point where they don’t need anymore of that build; the only will they/won’t they is in terms of the writing team actually going somewhere rather than continuing to bait us

i have no issue with spec/theorizing (i may not wanna see it but i just filter out the spec tags) but my issue lies with some of the more popular buddie blogs having this whole “i can sense that buddie is happening” and then treating people who are validly apprehensive towards getting our hopes up like we’re brainless idiots who don’t know what we’re talking about

even though we literally went through the same thing of buddieblr being like “s7 is our year i can FEEL it there is no way they aren’t going canon”….. just for them to not go canon bc the writers (yet again) changed their minds last minute when they got an early renewal and realized “oh- we don’t actually have to commit anymore, we can just keep baiting snd dragging them along— and they technically can’t call it queerbaiting anymore bc buck’s bi now!”

like everything surrounding this season has been screaming to me (NOT anything from oliver and ryan— ive spoken before about how i think they are where we’re at in terms of being strung along by the writers every season) that we are just being baited again.

and as far as the over-analyzing, i’ve seen so many people saying things like “omg oliver and ryan posting candids/photos and tagging each other buddie is obviously happening”……. as if oliver and ryan aren’t friends…. like i fear the two of them posting eacg other doesn’t really mean much if anything when they’ve done that throughout their friendship.

and just because there are some deranged people on the internet spewing hate about them being friends doesn’t mean that their posting is a sign of anything either other than the fact that they’re probably blocking the lunatics and posting each other anyway…. it’s not some gotcha to anyone in the fandom, it’s not a sign that buddie is coming, it’s two castmates being friends, and doing things that friends do all the time

overall, like i said, i have no problem with people (other than myself) engaging in spec and at this point the people who are getting their hopes up will only have themselves to blame if we’re let down again… my issue mainly lies with some of the bigger blogs being dicks to people raising valid concerns over the new season and not trusting the writers when the writers haven’t done anything to earn that trust; in fact having only done things to the detriment of that trust.

anyway, sorry for the super delayed and super long response, anon 😭😭 i’ve been neglecting my ask box lately in lieu of a spike in temu stans sending me hate yet again but i was just scrolling through and noticed this one and wanted to make a response!