#I wish I wasn’t awkward
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I wish I wish I wish
#I wish I was pretty#I wish I was smarter than I am#I wish people liked me#I wish to be someone’s number one#I wish I was pretty I wish I was pretty I wish#I wish I wasn’t awkward
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I want to befriend Kaneki and meet with him and email him forever
#we should do everything together everything should be parallel play#and then when we go our separate ways at the end of the day I want to still email him things#like pictures of succulents and a glimpse under the amazon river#I want to email him pbs eons videos#I can show him coffee shop vlogs and ask “is this u”#in person I’d mostly let him do the talking and decide what to do#take me down the most intimidating alley on a whim after you said we were just buying lunch pls#I want to eat lunch with him so bad 😭😭😭🙏#it’d be kind of awkward though bc he wouldn’t be eating anything he’d just be sipping his coffee#being with Kaneki is the ultimate dream I wanna see his morning irritation I want to be pleasantly startled by him with his quiet footsteps#& get to ask him about what he’s reading#or how his training is going#or whatever he’s doing#I would ask him how he’d rate vacuuming out of 10 and if he gives it below a 5 will vacuum his house#I feel like he’d lie though and say he likes doing every kind of work just to stop others from doing it#unless he wasn’t in a state where he’s able to actively think about others like that#he should stop doing things and jsut relax imagine taking him on a nice tour trip up mount Fuji that would b nice#stay in a cabin make a snowman clap for him when he skis#he was so good at skiing in the TG calendar?!?? who taught him to ski#did he read “idiots guide to skiing” a day before and absorb all the knowledge like a sponge#he’s so smart. I wish I was smart. or at least smart in an applicable way#I want to try harder but I kind of can’t#or I get sort of frozen by something and can’t find a way forward unless I scurry around it (no one wants u to do this)#I love Kaneki he’s both literally and kind of metaphorically half human and I am too so if we combine we’ll have the power of one full human#we can be human if we stand close enough together#idk he might not want to stand next to me tho he has better options#kaneki time
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Ahh I wish o could invite my online friends to do things with me this is so dumb
#I also wish I wasn’t so socially awkward irl I wish I knew how to do things#kestrel calls#chitter chatter#text post#who wants to go with me to get a piercing
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dog was scratching at my door in this one lol hope this is hot content for you all
#wish I wasn’t so fucking awkward bud#chubby belly#soft feedism#soft feedee#weight gain#weight gain kink#non binary feedee#nonbinary feedee#fat belly#make me fatter#squishy belly#squishy tummy#soft tummy#soft belly#soft body
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my mom has been dating this guy and i just found out his son hosts dnd once a week at their house and i think i finally am gonna be able to join someone’s campaign and play for the first time in forever 🙇🏻♀️
#i was invited and my anxiety says no because idk anyone#but i’m also like sooo excited to get the chance to participate and use my character so maybe that will win over my anxiety we’ll see#it’s Tuesday night so i have a few days to either talk myself out of it or get more excited about it#wish i wasn’t so awkward and unsure about everything 😐#like to be 27 and still this anxious and weird about stuff is so 😐😐😐😐
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-chinhands- Lamond and Sven for character thoughts!
my best friends???? bet. i’ll enjoy this, ty
Lamond
What my Arisen thinks of him:
Syl wasn’t sure about him at first, almost like he got a bad impression, but not quite. Pawns kept insisting that Lamond might have something to share, should he get the drink he likes, which knowing their ability to travel to other worlds, means Lamond will have something to share should he get the drink he wants. Eventually besides the training he receives from the former Arisen, he got a solid friend. Lamond makes him laugh at times it’s too hard for Syl to even smile. And, Syl absolutely spotted the scar before Lamont told him he was formerly Arisen, Syl pretended to be surprised… It wouldn’t do well to let the man know he was staring, okay. Sylvas would sometimes go to the hot springs, only so he can stop to spend some time with Lamond. He appreciates the skills he taught him, and holds onto every affable advice the man says. Like every former Arisen he came to know, Syl hopes to make him proud.
What my Pawn thinks of him:
Winterheart met the Warfarer in multiple other worlds before her own Arisen’s, and she was eager for Sylvas to learn from him. So she might have hinted to him about the illicit means of which he can acquire some Newt Liquor and some locations until he finally learned the vocation. Beyond that, any friend of Syl’s is a friend of hers, and Lamond particularly is quite friendly towards her. She’s curious about him in regards of him being a former Arisen, even more than Syl is, but it isn’t like her to nose around asking questions. She feels concerned for the man sometimes, and at different points did she worry he’d be a bad influence on Syl, he isn’t. Winnie really enjoyed the times he travelled with them, for she rarely gets another warrior in the party and she has ideas. She appreciates the things she learned from him quite a lot, and thinks he’s one of the best maisters.
What he thinks of my Arisen:
Lamond quite enjoys finding a new way to mess with each new Arisen every few decades, Syl was no different. With every visit Lamond’s absent heart grew fonder, for Syl can give as good as he takes whether it came to quips or sparring. Developed some love akin to what one would have for a little brother, though he wouldn’t dare say the lad reminds him of himself. Mostly because it isn’t true, as Arisen… he had only wanted to get it over with and get his heart back, the singleminded focus on his charge had cost him many things, land lead to failure. Now if Syl was as singleminded, he wouldn’t visit him so often, so there’s a feeling of relief every time. He tries to be a bit of a mentor on things beyond battle, but he’s miserably bad at lecturing, and Syl seems to hardly need it, he’s got a good sense of duty already. Lamond thinks there’s nothing he can do to push away the gnawing worry, so he lets him be.
What he thinks of my Pawn:
He likes Winnie, she’s got… more soul than he remembers pawns having from his experience. It isn’t weird or worrying at all, oh no. He admires her skill and thinks her a very respectable warrior, often he teases Sylvas by saying he should be more like her, but Syl simply doesn’t like a heavy sword. He thinks she’s perfect as Syl’s companion pawn, from times he’s traveled with them. Lamond thinks Syl is very smart to always try his best to listen to the strategies and plans she proposes. Most of all, he thinks she’s a good friend.
Bonus: An extra headcanon I have about him:
He loves helping the Arisen after him, it gives him a purpose, and it may stop them from ending up like him. Though deep down, oh it would be nice for one of them to stick around forever.
SVEN
What my Arisen thinks of him:
Sven was the first friend Syl made in this new life, and in a way, the first (human) friend ever. He was happy to help him, and then very happy to run into him in the castle, of course it wasn’t a surprise that he was queen regent Disa’s son. That fact never deterred Sylvas, it might have urged him to befriend Sven harder. His trust in Sven was oddly unquestionable, but then Sven was helping him and Captain Brant, his trust was in the right place. Syl visits Sven a lot, and a lot, Sven is just so enthusiastic about Syl’s stories and he loves talking to him. They’d talk and talk until Sven forgets his urging for Syl to leave before it gets dark, only he’d remember once it gets dark. At the very least, sneaking out of Sven’s chambers at night has enhanced Syl’s ability at sneaking around the castle. In hindsight, Sylvas wonders why it took him so long to realize he was in love with the regentkin. Perhaps it’s the lack of a heart beating in his chest, Sven was patient til Sylvas braved a confession.
What my Pawn thinks of him:
Oh, nice enough lad. Though no one can be good enough for Sylvas, and Winnie believes that just because Sven wouldn’t hurt a fly doesn’t mean he can’t break her Arisen’s heart. Their relationship has cost her a lot of worrying over Syl, staying out of her sight too long behind the castle gates, once or twice he had entered through the gates and walked out of the gaol escape route after getting imprisoned. Alas, he would afterwards speak to her with a big wide grin, and at times, that’s all she needs to see.
What he thinks of my Arisen:
Befriending Sylvas was an act of rebellion from him as well. Of course, he didn’t know it at first, but it’s the fact that he didn’t push him away after finding out. And why would he? More reason why he shouldn’t, like helping Captain Brant uncover his mother’s plots.. He would ever hold the memory of his first meeting with Syl dearly, in a way he was too Sven’s first friend. Even if Syl knew who Sven is, he didn’t help or befriend him for his title at all. Sven tries to observe him closely through the stories he told, to see if he’s right for the throne or not. He is, undoubtedly. As were Sven’s feelings towards him, which he tried to push away a lot harder than Sylvas did, albeit he fell first. The last thing he ever wants is to put Syl in danger, and sabotage their plans, over feelings. Once they were out in the open, in the privacy of his chambers, it was a lot less difficult to deal with.
What he thinks of my Pawn:
Sven hadn’t many opportunities to get to know Winterheart well, and it isn’t at all because she avoids him, oh no. So from stories, he admires her and appreciates her for being such good partner to Sylvas.
Bonus: An extra headcanon I have about him:
Sven is a big gift giver, almost every little trinket he gets his hands on is given to someone he holds dear… even his mother. He really treasures the gifts Syl or anyone else brings him.
#dd2#syl & winnie#lamond#sven#sylsven <333#my thoughts so jumbled i hope this wasn’t a hot mess#lamond wish u weren’t this mysterious buddy i know you don’t try to be and the game is just half cooked at places#i’ll be like. source: my Heart#i promise you winnie doesn’t dislike sven. they only been in a room alone Once and it was awkward#syl & winnie: SHES A LESBAIN. HES GAY. THEIR 33 YEAR MARRIAGE WILL CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION OF LOVE
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Jace: Aemond, in your professional opinion, if news of my death happened tomorrow how would it happen?
Aemond: Murder. Political assassination, we never find your head.
Aegon: What about-
Aemond: You slip in the tub.
#I don’t know what this is but I know in my bones it’s right#canon? I don’t know her#this is actually when they’re having the most awkward sleepover in existence#not pictured: Luke sitting on Jace’s other side wishing he wasn’t there#house of the dragon#incorrect hotd quotes#jace velaryon#aemond targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#incorrect house of the dragon quotes
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Gf and I watched wish yesterday and I’m still marinating on it. All the misses just oozed exec meddling to me, especially w all the untapped potential we’ve seen in the art book. The heck happened here I feel bad for the people who drafted up some of the concept art what a waste
#wish#wish Disney#wish critical#knowing what I know now could have been a great number but it’s like#5 people hoorahing in a broom closet it felt so awkward#the songs catchy but goddamn I hated most of Asha’s friends lmao#I would trade the stupid goat the focus group tested merchandise star and Asha’s friends for the star boy lmao#it wasn’t Horrible movie but I wanna talk to whoever made some of these Decisions lmao#at all costs was a beautiful song but it absolutely did not feel like it was written for asha and mag
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🎀🌸🌷🌙💙🎼🌟☀️
TY SO MUCH AHHHH-
Wait my sense of humour is good?? O_o HELP chocked bdhiwiehwiqk
I already send it but still! *uno reverses anyways*
#I wish I wasn’t so dam awkward and socially anxious to have the balls to talk with people *crying on the floor*#im socialising#ru!
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Hot guy who moved into the apartment below me is outside chilling on the balcony plAYING GUITAR IM GONNA FUCKING D
#shut up nilla#I literally just took groceries up and him and his buddies were happily asking me if I played or sang I wish I wasn’t so fucking awkward
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why do I walk away from every social interaction feeling like an awkward fuck-up?
#lol#it’s even worse when the person is way better than me#I wish I wasn’t so awkward#and stupid#and lame#and mistake prone#oh well i guess#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#personal#my post
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Yeah The retconing did it for me, i wanted the ugly emotions with the raging confrontations but Hoyo just keep softening them up, and I can’t with it anymore
#Ironically what little i have experienced of kaeya’s hangout broke the little interest i had left#I wanted the yelling the cold anger the rage they both felt#You know all of that have been burning right under their skin but both tried to act like it wasn’t there#For the sake of mond#But now hoyo pulling on me a fan fic were ohh noo they always loved each other haha they just awkward haha witch true they do love each BUT#if this is what someone like good on them but im out#No thanks im not here to see this#Tried to revisit my favs in genshin and honestly#I don’t like what hoyo did one bit i wish I could take jean and kaeya with me and leave this game#kaeya#diluc#Genshin impact#so for the ppl who ask if im going to do more art for genshin#I don’t think I would unless i find a GOOD fic that actually take the conflict with all its ugliness and resolve it like adults do#Witch is a big request but hey
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i think i may be somewhere on the aplatonic spectrum
#i was going to say i’m not super bothered when i don’t make friends but then someone reminded me that like 90% of my vent posts#in the last couple weeks have just been god i wish i could make friends and wasn’t weird and lonely and quiet and awkward and-#but like. i think what bothers me is less ‘i want friends and don’t have them’ and more ‘i want to look like a friendly person but dont’#like it’s hard to come off as friendly and approachable when i cower any time im approached#but it’s not necessarily about lacking human connection really. like i Do Have Friends.#the friends who stick around the longest tend to be the ones who reach out first is all#idk#i really think i have avpd like even if i didn’t have the full blown symptoms before covid#like i think the trauma of the last 4-6 years has just ruined Other People for me in some ways. and it’s hard to bounce back from that#shoutout to my psychiatrists epic advice about that which is ‘just uh do it anyway’#like i get what he’s saying but. urgh.#like i genuinely feel like i need to bolt out of the room whenever someone makes small talk#and my mind just goes completely blank trying to figure out what to say next#and it’s humiliating like. god just ask them ‘how about you’ for once i.n your damn life instead of freezing#it can’t be that hard#and yet. it proves to be#punktalk#punkvent
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Weird feelings tonight but I’m growing a little sick of the unspoken connotation that platonic feelings are lesser, or a stepping stone for romantic or sexual ones. Like ugh, maybe it’s me but I don’t think anything quite matches the euphoria and the fuzzy feeling I get when addressed as a best friend for the first time, or when I hear the genuine laughter of a friend or when I visit to do chores for a friend because they’re sick.
I dread that the word ‘love’ has romantic implications because I can only describe this warmth as pure, unfiltered love. I feel sad thinking it somehow gets ‘better’ (with romance/sex) because honestly this is the best for me.
Someone has probably said this before. I’ve probably said this before. Just ranting because I wish when referring to someone realising their romantically into a best friend that we rather looked at it as wanting something ‘else’ from a relationship rather than something ‘more’.
#b0tstalks#maybe I’m sad I can’t tell my friends I love them#without it getting awkward#not their fault society and whatever#also wish love wasn’t so seriously taken#like I wish it was more casually embraced#and abundantly given#things change and love isn’t a contract#like today I love you!#and that’s okay
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#I decided to watch Wish‚ the Disney movie that just came out#honestly it’s not a BAD movie per se but it’s not a good movie.#it’s definitely not the quality I would expect for a Disney movie#it was very much just Disney references thinly disguised as a movie with AI written music#and I’m confident in saying the music was AI written because it did not flow like music should flow. there were awkward pauses and breaks#theough out all the songs and some of the lyrics were just not good or didn’t make any sense#before anyone gets mad at me for hate watching‚ I did not pay to watch it. Disney did not make any money off me.#overall‚ I wouldn’t recommend paying or going out of your way to watch it but it’s not like an awful movie. just very…hollow? I guess?#it’s hard to describe really. it’s missing something. something big‚ but I don’t know quite what it is it’s missing.#the animation was okay. I mean nothing big. the whole movie felt like Disney chose to go way too safe. especially if you look at the concept#art and original ideas. if Disney didn’t decide to water it down so bad I think it probably would’ve been a fantastic movie but they very#much shit themselves in the foot. overall I’d say 4/10. not bad but boringly safe with poorly written music#there’s only really 1 song I found myself even remotely liking and it still wasn’t even that good.#kisa rambles
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Hey google how do I low key haul out a shotgun mic and tascam to record background audio in a busy coffee shop without it looking fucking weird
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