#Cognitive Rest

[snakesong]

I wanna finish watching Sherlock so bad but alas I'm on cognitive rest for the foreseeable future.

Time to listen to those same 4 tracks from the s2 OST on repeat until my brain heals enough for me to watch TV.

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

[likeabxrdinflight]

tired of early 20-somethings acting like harry potter was never good or had no value in its day like shut the fuck up half of you weren't even there when it peaked

[15-lizards]

do you think the big 3 (rhaella, johanna, unnamed princess of dorne [she is loreza TO ME!]) matched their outfits. they’re bffs in my heart. and maybe they kissed sometimes.

Loreza now canon George told me in a dream <3 And yes big Homoerotic Codependent Friendships were happening in the red keep in the 270s AC this is real and true. Rhaella and Johanna always coordinated in their Tudor gowns and Princess of Dorne wore her sari and they never went anywhere without the others :) Rhaella in her red and black, Johanna in red and gold, and Loreza in yellow, red, and orange they were the Warm Color Sisters and sometimes when they were comforting Rhaella they would do super normal female friendship things that then required prayer at the sept.

[compassionmattersmost]

The Art of Pacing: Managing Chronic Fatigue Syndrome with Skillful Means

There is a rhythm to living with chronic illness, one that requires a kind of surrender. Those who walk the path with myalgic encephalomyelitis or chronic fatigue syndrome soon learn that pacing is not merely a strategy—it becomes an art form, a way of listening, of harmonizing with the body’s quiet whispers before they become cries. To pace oneself is to acknowledge the body’s finite energy, to…

[blinkbones]

i didnt really like the last scene of Primal (s2) but thematically it makes perfect sense and i can't be mad at it. Primal, besides being a visual delight of cartoonized gore & character design, is a story about the continuation of life. The second season could not make it more clear, with the emphasis put on the egg-laying scene, managing to imbue the long close-up of a cloaca with a sense of poetic wonder; and even more so, with the darwin episode, in which charles darwin explains primal theory before getting to play action hero. (this episode was honestly so shameless about having fun; it's a gem). This episode being the only one with dialogue that most of the audience would understand, as well as the only one breaking away from the main story, highlights its importance and makes it almost a demonstration of the series as a whole: one that openly chucks historical accuracy to the side to play with the concept of violence as a means of survival. what it doesn't mention, however, is the subsidiary theme of the importance of "family", aka the group one belongs to. It shines through with the main duo, and of course with the subplots of the giant and the vikings. With all this in mind, I can't argue against the thematic coherence and near necessity of the final sex scene--i may not have liked it, but it fits in with the narrative. As the caveman slowly dies from the wounds inflicted by the only being that could beat him (a godlike avenger), mira gazes at his paintings and gets a sense of his loneliness. They have travelled far together and while she may have found her village again, her previous lover is long dead. In many ways, they belong to one another and are "family" already (with the lizards too, of course). It's true that the scene, while quick, does not shy away in a classic fade-to-black--i'd call it off-puttingly intimate--but the series is very adult; it spreads intestines over just about every episode. And most of all, it's not grotesque or ridiculous--it's a tender rekindling of hope, symbolized by the dinosaur-riding daughter in the last images.

[sillimancer]

yknow when my therapist closed last week's session with a "so next week is the election please talk to me before considering dying" talk I kinda brushed it off but now it's two days away and there it is, that funny feeling once again.

[vintageseawitch]

i feel like i'm on "The Office" making bewildered faces at the camera while reading or listening to this batshittery. like, we know politicians lie; it's a stereotype for a reason but like... the cognitive dissonance is truly a sight to behold. there will never be a peak at their projecting because they'll keep making shit up that the Democrats are doing such & such horrible thing when there is actual evidence that it's MAGA & other shitty Republicans who are doing said horrible things. it's fucking embarrassing.

if any Democrat committed all the crimes trump has done & gotten away with i would be just as angry as i am now if they evade justice like he has. he's evil & those who are using him as the stupid, easily malleable puppet that he is are far worse.

we can't let them win. check your registration status often, talk your loved ones or anyone who is even CONSIDERING voting. vote early if you can. voting locally is also incredibly important. we can do this. vote blue 💙

[teachanarchy]

What staying up all night does to your brain - Anna Rothschild

[captorcorp]

every other week i start romanticizing getting a phd in my special interest and then have to beat my brain back with a stick like 'your burnout is bad enough already when you don't have that much to do and get paid better'

[kirbyddd]

ok that was a new one

[mummer]

finally bucked up and talked to my dad for like 45 minutes about israel palestine and it was like talking to a fucking brick wall and i had to capitulate a LOT but i do feel like i may have made tiny tiny little inroads i dont know.

[crunchybees]

goal setting for projectors:

instead of setting goals for physical, external things and burning yourself out or beating yourself up because you gave up before the finish line, try to set goals for ways of being. we've all come across something interesting that has improved the way we live, whether its for efficiency, health, understanding, or literally anything that makes life more enjoyable for us. i say, work on those things that will make your personal life better. i am a splenic projector, and recently i have found success in improving my bodily health. this has been in the works for several years (im also heavily saturn ruled and saturn rules the channel connecting to my throat center!). it started with a simple intention -i want to be healthier. but there was a lot of trying with no sticking to it. the main issue was that i could not find the right type of excercise. projectors are really iffy with excercise - we cant do it too often or too much or we get tired, and splenic projectors can get sick. i also did not have any generator to excercise with! and wow, trying to consistently exercise by yourself as a projector feels like seppuku. i have my heart and root centers defined so i could do any routine i had for about a month or so but after that i just completely lost interest and ended up feeling bad about it. like damn why cant i do that? well. thats just not how i work and thats okay. at that time i had a lot of other stuff going on, stuff that was more important than gainz, like going through the motions of being a high schooler who lives in her aunts crumbling basement. and yes i was trying to excercise in this crumbling basement - me, with taste cognition, crazy. so it wasnt the right time. but now it is. now i do have the energy to focus on directly improving myself and my life. it all started when i graduated. i immediately had a weight lifted off of my chest and i could function properly. well rested and able to focus on whatever came my way. i am a 1/3 profile as well, which means that the way i reach these goals is by first doing research (1 line), and then using my authority to choose what to take into my life and go through that trial and error process with (3 line). so from the beginning, i knew that the three things i wanted to work on, the three things that i knew were the most important, were sleep, food, and excercise. so here comes the research. and sometimes its unintentional. i didnt google search "poisons in food". but the state of food in the us led me to wonder what exactly these ingredients are doing, what effect are they having on my body? also saw stuff on twitter that triggered me to do research. i just get twinges to look further sometimes. and i saw a documentary last year about the effects of sugar and its substitutes. over time the knowledge builds up. i became pescatarian. i know what the nutritional content of almost every food i eat is. i found a partner to go to the gym with, just about once a week (i have wet kitchens environment as well). im still finding a good way for me to do reps and sets, cardio and strength, without me being absolutely obliterated by the end, but i am pretty close to finding that sweet spot. and rest has been so, so important to me over these last few months. ive been putting my foot down and saying NO if im tired, if i know something will wear me out. and my bed... after a long time of sleeping on a futon i now sleep on a beautiful cloud that begs me to stay. this is an indicator of success to me, as a projector. i didnt have a tangible thing that told me ive completed my goal. and its still not over - there is much, much more to life. but now i am able to take on the responsibilities and benefits that come with being this type of person and knowing this type of knowledge. master what you know is good for you. what benefits you, will benefit anyone who seeks your guidance. youre the one who is teaching people right from wrong here. youre the one giving them the map youve drawn from the lessons youve learned.

[telogen]

ur 20s are all about reclaiming all of the new wave music that your dumb potato bitch father ruined for u from age 0-14

[alliswyattonthewesternfront]

the same man who blocked me over my belief that invasive species need to be culled, also once told me that all music has always been terrible (??), and lectured me on blending my foundation into my neck in response to a photo where i intentionally did not blend (it was a silly costume thing. irrelevant) and told me not to feel bad because "foundation isn't typically blended into the neck, so you probably didn't know better."

i'm not saying those weird opinions are necessarily related. but i do think i'm going to set a limit for my casual acquaintances on how many bizarre dms they can send me before i cut them off. maybe i can prevent another man from telling me to strangle cats with my bare hands, and that killing an animal is the same thing as killing a human being. probably not. still.