#ACTUALLY WAIT IM NOT QUITE DONE
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Hey what if instead of Ralsei's suspicious behavior being the result of some grand plan with the prophecy, it was the result of a core flaw with how he attempts to treat discomfort, both his own and others'
Do you think sitting alone for god-knows how long with nothing but your thoughts wouldnt lead you to dark mental spaces? what do you do when all you have to spend your time on is wait?
I can speak from experience to some degree. You spend your time by trying not to think about it. because when you think, you realize how much time is passing.
Its perhaps not a stretch to assume the guy who says "I just wish I knew what being [me] like means" is a character designed to explore dissociation.
#strange troubling questions arise from a frightening encounter with a man who knows more than he should? just dont think about it.#hes just a corrupted program. The words he spoke dont mean anything. Dont worry about it. Worrying is going to make you upset and thats bad#the only time he seemingly has the 'difficult conversations' is with Kris. The only one who can never escape the situation they're in.#And he puts us away somewhere else. because he wouldnt want us to worry.#Its almost kind in a way. He knows we wouldnt want to be in the situation we're in if we knew what was happening to Kris#deltarune#ralsei#deltarune analysis#ACTUALLY WAIT IM NOT QUITE DONE#This is also why he does things like only bring up the roaring when its absolutely necessary.
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phinktober day 8: tatinof
wtf a whole week done already???? i haven’t drawn this consistently since i was in high school 😭
bonus bc idk when to stop
#again don’t love this one as much as the others but i’m settling into some semblance of a style finally and learning to work w that so#i’m pleased#and i’m actually quite impressed at my development already i was a sketch portrait artist for years i forgot how much i love sketch-style#think i’m getting a bit better w anatomy without being completely dependant on grids#hmm#anyway i have a headache from trying to get this done before midnight im gonna go have a cup of tea#and maybe water idk when last i drank water#art2 and craft2#dnp#dan and phil#phanart#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#tatinof#the amazing tour is not on fire#wait he was still dinof then#danisnotonfire#i feel like i’m missing a tag but idc i need a cone#FOR FUCKS SAKE I MEANT TO POST THIS 4 HOURS AGO AND LEFT THE APP AND NEVER PRESSED POST#AAAAAAAAAA whatever it��s still tuesday somewhere
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thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up
#really long Tag rant down there#one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything#and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it#because hes so weak he cant handle it#them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives#morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally#just likes him thats it. and he never knew it#also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time#stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but#then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af#er day#and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and#how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad#and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene#n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime#did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die#Breathes in#im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard#odiespeak
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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So we have 17 work days till we're closed for the rest of the year (tentatively) but we have about a million and one things to get done in that time. So chances are everyone else is gonna have all those extra days off, but I'll be forced to work cause my boss is so fucking bad at scheduling anything
#we have 4 online stores that dont close till the 26th so thata a huge chunk of the work i wont even be able to work on until at least 2 days#after that caise he has to order the shirts and wait for them to be delivered#amd i know 2 of those stores are already at over 200 shirts#plus we got another fucking order for this company that i hate so much#they always order at least 700 shirts and its a 4 location print job#so that will take AT LEAST 5 days to print alone#theres just no fucking way we can get that done before Christmas#along with all the other stuff that should take priority#so yeah ill probably have to come in on days where everyone else is off and im pissed#if i dont gst paid a HEALTHY bonus for this i might actually quit#cause im so tired of being screwed over like this
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If any of them were actually to die (full tridential regicide i mean) i think the fact that the heart or the brain can still be active for a while even after the person is dead would be pretty terrifying for Heart and Mind
#it might depend on the death but i cant quite recall atm#but like fucked up if so#Had he actually done the tridental regicide#Soul would be the first one to go so Heart and Mind would just be left for a couple of minutes just being like#welp were fucked#what now#god the 'wait no please wait' in TMR is a lot more fucked up if you think about it that way#since its only Mind and Heart saying that line#tw death#?#i think?#im not good at tags#please tell me if i need more i have no clue#chonny jash#chonnys charming chaos compendium#cj heart#cj mind#cj soul#cj whole#moss post
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Gencon is very busy...!!!
Ummmmm highlights of the day..!!!
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I maybe bought 4 Naruto figurines. Thankfully not individually expensive (though perhaps a little expensive all together...) see I wanted Sasuke but I also wanted Kakashi and I couldn't have Sasuke without Naruto and well it would feel wrong to have the 3 of them without Sakura and so I somehow. Got all 4. Haha. I'll most likely post pics later, whenever I end up opening them. I'm still at the convention center rn lol
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I was on the field of the Lucas Oil Stadium, aka the stadium that the Indianapolis Colts play at. I've attended all of One game here (not professional football, it was a high school game lol) so I've felt the size of it, but it's still fucking crazy being on the field. It's so BIG...... and obviously they've got the grass covered rn, but it's still pretty cool!!!
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I maaaade dice!!! Pretty precise process it seems, & definitely would require a Lot of work (after the sanding and the painting etc etc). I do still wanna get into it, but if I wanted to spring for stuff like the vacuum chamber or the pressure pot...
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Yeah, it'd get expensive. Add in the fact that I don't have a good place to do this away from the cats & it really is not feasible to start rn. But!!! Eventually!!!! I think I'd really enjoy it. I just need a dedicated workshop space where I can spread out without worrying about poisoning my cats lol.
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Here's some cool game set stuff I saw in the event hall. This picture is maybe... hm... a fourth of the event hall? And then when you consider that the vender hall (connected to the event hall, though it's closed right now) is maybe 1.5 times as big as the event hall?? Give or take a little...
Aka just imagine booths upon booths upon booths... I'm gonna have to take a pic of it tomorrow. I was there too briefly to think about taking a pic. Honestly I maybe managed to get through like a tenth of the whole vender hall in an hour of wandering. It's fucking huge. And So Many Dice... I bought one set of 14 (I think it was) dice. Aka an extended set. And then I got a random set bag of dice (just a basic 7). And then a d20 with a cat on it. And a dice of LETTERS. Aka I guess a d26 (I totally did not have to double check that there were 26 letters in the alphabet)(I have 702k words written & posted to ao3)(😂😂😂 I'm very tired) but with letters instead of numbers. And it's glow in the dark!!! And I found some hxh buttons, and a mighty nein poster, and uhmmmm. A cute lanyard. And that's all I bought. Which really is such restraint for me. (Omfg I just saw a dragon cosplay)(someone just dressed as a dragon)
OH YEAH I saw a fucking. Persona 5 Ryuji cosplay. Hanging out with the biker lady from Durarara. Featuring the Ryuji holding her scythe hfksbfmd which was such a funny image. I was too shy to ask for a pic but just trust 🙏 i saw this
Anyways yeah the only real big thing I bought is the naruto figurines. I'll show pics later once I got the stuff again (I dropped it all off in the car earlier)
Omfg literally as I've been sitting here (on a bench at the side of a main hallway) someone stopped by and gave me a handmade bracelet !!!
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DND's 50th anniversary!!! So cute!!!!
#speculation nation#not Too much anime stuff. tho i clearly found some stuff. no trigun yet unfortunately 😔#which i already walked thru the artist area (as much as i could)(i was getting a little stressed by how crowded it was)#so idk maybe i missed a booth or smth but it'd definitely be less likely to see elsewhere in the vender's hall#but WHO KNOWS it's a wonderful massive world in there.#im actually sitting outside it rn and staring longingly at the closed doors. tomorrow... i will be able to Actually peruse it more...#and i will quite possibly wear some ear plugs next time bcus i was getting Stressed Out!!! overstimulated!!!!#pulled in a million different directions!!!!! aaaaaaa!!!!#anyways yeah my events are all done for the night. just kinda hanging out now waiting for my sister's game to be done.#gonna collapse into bed as soon as we get back. so i should probably eat some more.#i had an overpriced and underwhelming sandwich. but there is pizza somewhere. maybe i should eat pizza.#i actually... still have the keys lol. from when i dropped the stuff off at the car earlier.#which is weird. I have the ticket to home with me. but i still wait. bc it would be a dick move to leave with them lol#and also. while i Can drive. i do not have my license. so that would be. a bad. idea.#my shoulders Huuuuurt but thankfully i dont have any combat classes tomorrow#hurting shoulders is more just from my bag bc my shoulders fucking suck. but it makes me glad i can rest more tomorrow.#oh yeah i did the sword knife and longsword today. might get bruises from that knife one. it was very focused on parrying#swords. swords. swords. swords. the longsword class made me really want to own a longsword. i dont own one. yet.#i could. i could. i could. sometime. eventually. i want a longsword. i think i technically just own uhmmm um um#a rapier? a machete? a uh. i dont know what that cheap anime convention sword is actually. OH YEA AND CANE SWORD#no longsword though. i really want to own a katana too. someday i'll own both. someday.#real swords are unfortunatelly really expensive. thats why i only have uh. uh. uhhh. oh yeah i do have those 2 swords from mountains trip#i dont really know what those are either. you know i really should know what bladed weapons i own. i dont though.#i own cool swords and knives bc oooh fun pointy things! wheeeeee!!!#i'll study up on it later. lol.#anyways i guess i should go look for more food. i have rambled enough. bye!
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well the fic is getting somewhere
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#still dont quite know what the reception to it will be but hey im still having fun writing#this fic is def much more conscious on world and character building with actual environmental descriptions#(i give pantalone's living quarters an actual real layout this time)#we'll see if that's a positive or negative#i still want to finish the entire thing before posting it in batches and i got quite a chunk to go still#tomorrow i have some time for writing but i'll devote that to the MG novel#Thursday can be split#and then Satruday my friend and i are going to a cafe to get work done so i can really churn out some more there#miscellaneous#i guess there's positives and negatives to posting a fic as you write or waiting to post until it's finished#you get responsive feedback the first way and motivation from comments#but me personally i then feel beholden to a posting schedule to keep reader retention#which made me speed through some chapters when they probably could have used more polish#eh it worked for the first fic but we're trying different approaches here#Anyway! time to wind down for bed#ive been going through a 5 hour video on wizards of waverly place lmfao
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like not to double post but. how it feels to be the only person in the office who has to sign up for the non supervisors session (which is not the session for leaders btw!!! because you can’t be a leader if you’re not a supervisor obviously!! 🥰🤪✌️) when i am quite literally a supervisor just a) not formally / exclusively in this current moment (in part bc that’s not how we even do supervision) b) only of student staff.
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#purrs#i want to punch the walllllllll this is the exact kind of situation that makes me dandrously mentally ill to the point where i consider#quitting and lying in the street also. i know it does not matter i know im being absolutely demented over nothing but ummmm… tfw da#circumstances and situations make you feel belittled abandoned negated etc etc even when they are not the ones that actually matter and#everyone else who knows and cares about you sees your worth and wants you in the room and stuff. idk. lol im so miserable#delete later#the violence of being inbetween in so many ways… the way this has been my experience for 1 year and also 5 years and nothing can be done but#wait and fight it slowly and suffer in the meantime bc it’s the long game but it’s killing me. lole 💖
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went outside today! was quite fun ^^
#we went to the place we've been going to for... about six(?) years now#its either five or six.#they recognize me by now!#my dad had gone there while going back from work and was waiting for us#while me and my mom were going she went into her little yarn store (shes in love with crocheting/knitting) so i went ahead of her.#when i went in they were like ''is your mother not coming?'' which was very flattering account of hehe im recognizable#i had chicken wings! which means i ate like a feral cat that hadn't eaten in two days#the only times i shimmy with joy when eating food is when i eat chicken wings. by god they're so good#only if its made like my favorite little places do it. i've gone to burger king once (1) and i absolutely refuse to try anything chicken#theres many of the mainstream english-speaking-country places in super markets but i will never go there. never#they could never do it like this tiny little place we've been going to for years that have an average of zero customers at any given time.#by god i love that place. hope i get to go there for my entire time in high school#we want to move to yenibosna after im done with high school...#we were actually living there when i was an infant! we had to move due to Landlord apparently.#which happened for most of my life.#honest to god i moved every year when in elementary#which means i got to experience four (4) different elementary schools! quite an experience.#the first one i went to elementary in was all the way over in acıbadem (near other side of istanbul on a metrobus)#ahh reminds me of my best friend in first grade. her name was sümeyye i miss her but at the same time i could not care less#it was fun! it was fun. we sneaked out of the elementary during break time to go to the adjacent primary school we used to go to#reminds me fourth grade! there was a primary school next to that one too#is it called a primary school? its not a kindergarden...#oh! sorry. preschool#what was i saying?#well only god knows i cant read my tags. goodbye forever#♚ — rambling !#oh i should talk about my day!#today in english class the teacher did a .. shoobadoowhatsit. can i stop forgetting words#is it called a verbal quiz? verbal exam? verbal something. you understand#hi i ran out of tags. i'll continue in a reblog
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Just got a light bollocking for not doing something that someONE ELSE WAS ASKED TO DO BC I WAS AWAY AT THE TIME
I AGREE IVE BEEN MISSING THINGS BUT THAT ONE ISNT IT? THAT JUST. WASNT RUN? BC I WASNT THERE AND SO EVERYONE JUST DECIDED NOT TO DO ANY OF IT??!
#delete later#im peeved bc it was presented as a#you missed this when i was away#with an undertone of#i can't fucking tell you to do everything#when in FACT IT WAS MISSED WHEN I WAS AWAY AND THEN NO ONE INFORMED ME ABOUT IT#i checked my emails. saw it was askee when i was away. AND ASSUMED THAT SOMEONE HAD FUCKING DONE IT#from now on I'll be asking if everything thats my responsibility has been done or if there's anything that was left for me to do whenever i#come back from time off.#ive fucked up plenty over the last few months that my aunt was dying and then passed. im fine with accepting that. this one isn't#only a me problem and im annoyed that it was thrown at me like that.#on the upside all rubbish was taken. thank you bin collectors i appreciate you greatly. and had a lovely chat with the water meter man#i have a flat inspection sometime in the next two hours. snd then a monthly progress meeting this afternoon#so cant wait for this mistake to come up. EVEN THOUGH ID ARGUE THIS ONE ISN'T ME CHIEF#but arguing is rude so i won't. i will simply raise an eyebrow and carry on#im actually quite annoyed by this though. quite annoyed. a rare occasion where it wasnt my fuck up
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okay sooo 1. once little man is done with my laptop i need to do the ssn shit bc i have the letter 2. in an hour i need to switch my laundry to the dryer and at Some point i need to sleep preferablyyyy i oush as long as i can its been 28 hours i Think? since i woke up i dont avtually remember its all kind of a blur i do have a headache and my fuckshit tooth is bothering me but whatever . once i get the ssn login thing done im pretty sure i can get a new card like right away and then once that gets here i can go and get my permit And by then my new glasses will be here which is epics and ummm at some point not today bc im tired and have a headache aka not at my best. so once those 2 things r not the case i need to do the science and math ged practice tests ive been putting them off bc im scared ill do bad SKULL.but i need to get those done ... and omce i have the permit and everything thennnnnn i can go do my actual proper ged tests and once those r done ill have my ged and an id and thus can start applying for jobs again And ill be so brave and ask my mom to teach me how to drive . YIPPEE
#im not a tually very tired i kind of just want to scream nd explode and run around the neighborhood or something. but its okay#and once i get a job and i e saved up umm i think my rule is 1000 then im allowed to go to the dentist for my fuckshit tooth and im allowed#to go to the um whatsit called for my fuckshit hormones and im allowed to maybe find a psych again and see if we can get things cooking up#there as in i think i rly srsly need medication . bc i dont think im going to go for talk therapy like ever again bc its kind of useless to#me which is funny bc god if theres one thing i do its fucking talk . but whatever.i think i need to see a proper psych and not one that im#like. going to With my mom and thus am obviously not honest#and i can get a gp of course probably thatll be the first step but irs so like. i dknt understand how yr supposed to get a gp#not a gp is it. pcp thats what i meant#primary care physician i need to find one I tried in wa but i didnt like. idk i think im a tually deeply atupid and not made to livenin the#world but also rhere was a lot of shit working against me up there LOL .so yeah omand then once i do all that i will work and work and work#and work and save up money i wanna save like assssssss much money as i can b4 i move out just in case theres like. issues. + like ill be#buying furniture and stuff and itll be lotsies like. since i dont rly have any furniture i think will be coming with me or nothing ....#so yes . this is connors 8000 step plan for being a person again and once i get all of this done then i will maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe#maybe be stable enough to start making friends again. so see me in like 1-2 years and we will see how its going#thats probably dramatic. but like idk i think itll take me at least a year or so From now to like. save up minimum amt for apartment#not that i have a ton of expenses or anything but some of my mkney will probably be going to my parents just to help with everythang#and idk how much ill be making of course. less than wa one presumes bc its umm#cheaper here . you know...#ok. i just wish i could do it all today and i didnt have to wait its always always always waiting i hate it#why cant the world revolve around when i get my sudden bursts of energy#ohhh but whatever. ill have my apartment and maybe even a car depending on how the whole driving thing goes and i can name my car and#get like stickers or something from my car Probably not a tually that a tually scares me quite a bit bc the idea of somebody seeing my car#and being able to think something abt me from it scared me quite ferociously i dont rly know why its not like a Oh what if they FIND ME !#im just a control freak and i hate that ppl can see like#a thing abt me and then make an assumption abt who i am as an entire person bc i need everybody to understand every facet of everything abt#me so that im not misinterpreted or misunderstood or whatever Which is an impossible thing and i need to get over that and i shouldnt be#reaking out abt a sticker on a car oh my goddd.#but also like this may be a lie but i was told it when i was like 10 soive been assuming it was true but when i was 10.somenody told me#car stickers r like permanent and like logically im thinking abt it idk how true rhat is but they do seem kind of a bitch to remove and what#if im like oh ill get a picture of like idk smurfette or something and then like idk smurfs company comes out and theyre like I actually
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so the language of the additions on this post was very consciously influenced by my experiences living in countries with laws and cultures dominated by Islam and Buddhism, respectively.
Yes I grew up in an oppressively Christian culture, but Western Christianity is not solely or even necessarily singularly oppressive, and is certainly not the only religious structure that leverages shame in a dangerous way. And we do the world at large a disservice by acting like other major global religious institutions are harmless simply because they aren't Christian. Religious trauma comes in many forms, foreign and familiar.
not to be anti-religious but i do wonder if teaching children that they are innately flawed and sinful is, perhaps, not a healthy worldvi
#not a shitpost#when i say 'not to be anti-religious' i quite literally mean#'not to open myself up to attack for criticizing not just christianity but also other religions beyond christianity and western familiarity#... BUT'#anyways other religions aren't benign or 'exotic' or 'exciting' or 'enlightening' just because you personally#weren't raised in a society entangled and altered and grappling with their inextricable sociopolitical influence#anyways yeah the original post was christian-centric (bc that's where my firsthand religious trauma comes from)#but the additions were written very much with other major world religions in mind#westerners forget: there are actually other MAJOR world religions in existence#and by major i mean large powerful and yes potentially quite harmful. like with most major power structures#this will shock and amaze you but many MANY human beings deal with annoying ridiculous awful religious oppression....#and that religion is not always christianity! because western experiences are not universal!#if you've never heard someone raised (for instance) in an Egyptian conservative muslim family go on a RANT...#... it's educational! they have a lot to complain about!!!#ANYWAY.#just because it's not your oppression doesn't mean it's not oppression. end rant#posts I'm going to lose followers for...#no wait im not done yet: to me religion is similar to a business or government#no it's not *innately* harmful. but it IS a power structure#and therefore highly vulnerable to abuse/misuse if preventative measure aren't taken as it grows#and the fact that it's promoting specific worldviews...the very basis on which we build our understanding of the world and morality...#and that it's so wrapped up in human emotions and spiritually...that makes everything more delicate. and individuals more vulnerable.#so yeah i think religion owes a duty of care to its members to acknowledge this and actively work to protect the communities it influences.#and yeah kids especially! hence this post
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first post :P
#just another outlet for me to ramble openly#im not a huge tumblr guy so idk if i’ll even use this that much#but i thought it might be nice to have an alternate place to ramble that isnt quite as insular as a priv account#while still not being all that public either#and im going full clean slate. not telling anyone abt this#if anyone stumbles on this acc somehow then. hello!#never done the fake name thing before actually wait this could be silly#jk i cant think of a good joke name#i ruined the bit. FUCK#just call me crom i guess
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Hey so like
Battling trainers
Is it legal to have a code for your attacks during official league matches???
Like saying them in your own language can't be illegal surely
But what if youare a code, or a series of hand gestures or something??
What if you set up a system where the attack that you say isn't the attack your Pokémon does?? Like if I shout at my Garchomp to use dragon claw and he uses surf? Or I tell my Talonflame to use roost and he solar beams? Is that legal???
I haven't actually fought in an official league battle before, so I've got no fucking clue what the rules are. I know the standard fair numbers and banned Pokémon, but like,,, I dunno what the trainers are allowed to do during battle.
#pkmn irl#unreality#pokemon irl#pokemon#rotomblr#rotumblr#pkmn#id ask hop but im not getting up that early to see him tomorrow before he leaves and im not waiting two days for answers#maybe my dad knows??? he used to do league battles back in the day#he did fairly well in the kalos league back when he was a teenager#he travelled around a bit during the summer before he met my mother through a mutual friend from school#he was like 17 and he got into the top 25 which is quite impressive for his first avtual league#well... only actual league#he didnt actually do any others after that#he just did the one and said yeah im done#so all his pokemon are retired battling mons#also yes I use TMs on my pokemon what of it#my dad has a bunch saved up from when he was younger and theres some from my m in there#i guess they used to be cheaper back in the day#or maybe these are pirated copies???? they had friends that got us pirated DVDs of films i watched as a kid#so i wouldnt be surprused if they had friends who made off brand TMs#these seem legit though so theyre probably just old
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tattoo my heart - carlos sainz
pairing: carlos sainz x tattoo artist!reader
genre: smau
faceclaim: maggie lindemann
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f1: it’s a paddock debut here at COTA for the smooth operator’s new body art
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charlesleclerc: looking good mate😉 didn’t think you’d actually go through with it
carlossainz: a bets a bet🙂↕️
landonorris: save a horse🤤
carlossainz: aye cabrón not in public
pierluigi_della_bonna: caliente chili🌶️
user1: god he looks so good with tattoos
user2: fell to my knees in a walmart when they showed them on the broadcast
user3: he is THE Ferrari driver of all time tbh like just look at him😭 he’s like a walking ad (no hate to Charles ofc!!)
scuderiaferrari: that’s our driver🌶️
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yntattoo: in honour of race week I’m doing a new f1 themed flash at 50% off this weekend❤️
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oliviarodrigo: gorgeous gorgeous girl💜you’re making me want a tattoo
-> yntattoo: omg please!! it would be an honour my love💜
calumhood: these are sick yn! will need to come and see you again soon
-> yntattoo: cal!! you better
user12: the Ferrari ones?? ok im obsessed😍
user17: making an appointment as we speak
user14: oh to be going to COTA so I could also get tattooed by yn sigh😭
user9: omg imagine if she was the one to tattoo carlos user55
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“carlos you surprised everyone in the paddock this weekend with your new look, what can you tell us about it.”
“well i have been thinking about getting one for a long time and a friend of mine knew a girl who was running a special on f1 tattoos for this weekend so i called over and she did an amazing job.”
“charles, will you be following in your teammates footsteps any time soon?”
“definitely not. carlos of course looks very good but I do not think I could pull it off as well as he does.”
“aye that’s not true cabron, I think a full scale on your chest would be quite eye catching…”
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(pic 1: best day with my girls tattoyn, yourbsf) (pic 2: 🏎️)
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yntattoo: forza ferrari sempre❤️🏎️ thank you for inviting me scuderiaferrari
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scuderiaferrari: so happy to have you with us❤️you’ll have to come back and give all the team matching tats
-> yntattoo: say less admin🤭❤️
yourbsf: hottieee😍 had the most amazing time with you
-> yntattoo: love you so much girl
oliviarodrigo: ferrari girls🏎️✨
alexandrasaintmleux: it was so lovely to meet you girls❤️
-> yntattoo: you too Alex!!
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charlesleclerc: finally got the girl?😉
-> you know it mate
yourbsf: take care of my girl
-> I promise Bella
alexandrasaintmleux: that’s MY wife!!
-> stop trying to steal her from me you have Charles
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ynpriv: my man my man my man my man my man my man (ps the tramp stamp is fake…for now🫣)
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yourbsf: iconic, legendary, never been done before
->ynpriv: that’s you💋
alexpriv: my ferrari wifey❤️🥰
->ynpriv: run away with me xx
carlossainz: princesa❤️
->ynpriv: love u papi😼
charlesleclerc: can you give me the tramp stamp next win?
->ynpriv: I’ll hold you to that leclerc
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📍mexico
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liked by carlossainz, charlesleclerc, yourbsf, oliviarodrigo and 100,346 others yntattoo: who would have though a tattoo appointment would bring me you❤️ congratulations mi amor
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yourbsf: making me believe in love again
oliviarodrigo: omg you’re the mystery girlfriend and not me whaaat!?!
->yntattoo: wait no i thought it was you??
carlossainz: gracias mi amor❤️ couldn’t have done it without you by my side
->yntattoo: ❤️
user33: yn is really living my dream life huh tattooing carlos sainz and then ending up as his girlfriend
user50: wattpad protagonist vibe
user27: I wonder if carlos is gonna get more tattoos from her??
->user92: he shouldn’t be with someone messy and skanky like her, she’s not Ferrari girlfriend material…
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carlossainz: my good luck charm
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landonorris: the other woman🎶
->yntattoo: hands off my man norris I will punt you into the sun
yntattoo: panties fell off at the sight of you on the top step🤤
->user3: YN??
->user12: i know ferrari pr are screaming rn
->scuderiaferrari: yn🫣👀 training being scheduled as we speak
->yntattoo: boooo!! they hated me for being right😔
#abby's writing#f1#f1 fic#f1 fanfic#formula 1 fic#f1 smau#f1 x reader#carlos sainz#formula 1 fanfic#cs55#cs55 x reader#carlos sainz smau#carlos sainz fic#carlos sainz fanfic#carlos sainz x reader
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