#unspecified depression

[imthat1boy]

I'm so fucking tired of "Just sleep" or "There's no reason to be stressed" or "Just do it"™

But that ISN'T how things will always work. I can't just sleep, I'm fucking horrified to sleep, I can't just calm down, I can't find my motivation I Don't Have.

I'm not mad at the people who say this, not really, just hurt that it's non stop. That it makes it near impossible to get help.

And then, school isn't done for people who can't even find energy to brush their teeth daily or people who cry anytime something good happens because they can't understand it. No. School is for the privileged mentally and neurologically. I'm making it through with so much effort and my intelligence. That's barely working, it wouldn't seem that way, but I make it through by just a thread.

[imthat1boy]

<3

I have difficulties with hygiene and just simple things.

I am smart, sure, but it's hard to feel that matters when I can't do anything with it, I can't even talk to people, how am I supposed to get into college?

So thank you for the reminder<3

Gentle reminder that disabilities are disabling.

You're not some awful, bad person for not doing things that able-bodied people can do without negative consequences.

Sometimes, you haven't showered in a while.

Sometimes, your room is a mess.

Sometimes, the dishes pile up.

That doesn't make you a failure or deserving of less respect, support, and kindness.

Being disabled, having disabilities, and things that result from said disabilities, don't change the fact you deserve to exist. You deserve peace, and love.

[thedrotter]

as a little treat i am sharing with you little Aya doodles I've done over the last few days to unwind ww just little expressions based on lines in-game because those are always fun to draw. nothing too special just biscuit

it's Aya because upon doing bizarrely throughout playthroughs of the game for still unspecified project purposes I've gained a soft spot for her she's my daughter now my mental tier list on my favorite characters is so confusing right now

[disorderedvry]

I am slowly getting worse and worse everyday, and eventually I’m probably just gonna stop getting up from bed to take care of myself and just lay there to rot.

[azurecanary]

Is euphoric depression a thing?

If so then that's soooo fucked up

Side note: I'm quite self destructive in this state

[cannondisabledcharacters]

Today’s disabled character of the day is Sunny from Omori, who has hikikomori syndrome, depression, an unspecified trauma, selective mutism, Arachnophobia, Aquaphobia, and Acrophobia. He is also visually impaired (route dependent)

Requested by Anon

[Image Description: Drawing of a boy with medical wrapping around his head and right eye. He is drawing with blue lines with a faint blue background. He has short black hair and black eyes. He is wearing a white hospital gown.]

[true-equal]

it's been fun.

[ghostsandfools]

Shoutout to all my depressed homies :D

Fr. Shout out to all my absolutely depressed homies. Shoutout to all the homies who drag through life waiting patiently for it to end. Shoutout to all my homies who cry themselves to sleep at night, or hell, just get so anxious they don't sleep at all. Shoutout to all my homies who only feel better when they feel worse, fr. Shoutout to all my suicidal homies, I hope you make it through this. Shoutout to all my homies who wake up every day despite their lives being awful. Shoutout to all my homies who only see disaster everywhere they go. Shoutout to all my homies who still haven't figured out how life works and don't understand any of the people around them and have to live like that every single day. Shoutout to all my homies who don't have access to healthcare and cannot feel better until they get some. Shoutout to all my homies who have a phobia so strong they can't live their lives normally anymore. Shoutout to all my homies who get called selfish every day despite going out of their way to be nice. Shoutout to all my homies who get told they aren't doing enough.

Hope you all are doing okay.

[drugbinges]

only got barely an hour and a half of sleep and had possibly the most detailed, surreal and psychologically devastating dream i've ever had in my life

[pleuvoire]

eiji is a great character but i kind of have to ignore his backstory it's so goofy and insensitive

[kresnikcest]

continuing from lrb, i actually am SUPER into lara as horrified/confused outsider pov. i find it very funny if like, either in victor's fd or in the ludger ending, ludger/victor just sometimes think of their first elle whenever they talk about their daughter and it makes sense to the party and julius (if they're alive, for victor) but just sounds weird to anyone who wasn't in on the loop.

i can even envision ludger maybe still being in touch with nova and nova being like "oh..." about daughter!elle and lara is SO confused, what does everyone else know about her daughter that she doesn't?

and if it's victor, it obviously never gets enough to be a problem before victor goes off and murders everyone, but i still like thought of like, lara being thoroughly creeped out by the fractured dimensions, by knowing they're fractured, by knowing what victor is capable of.

if it's the ludger ending though, she probably never finds out...

[trannydean-moved]

need to make a list of stuff that's wrong with me so i can go to the doctors about it when i move out

[burinazar]

Whenever I'm sitting and working on furthering my career by seeking out opportunities and contacting people etc there is a constant, constant feeling of rising horror at how much of my life I've already wasted, how underqualified I am, how pointless the ways I've spent my years are. (If you’re one of the people who happens to know part of my volunteer work stuff I do involves equipping others to seek out career opportunities in a constructive and efficient way, yes, I see the irony...my actual job is sort of ironic in that way too, I’m sending the kids off to uni way better equipped to take advantage of and thrive during their time there than I turned out to be...) 

Anyway. The sense of shame and horror builds and builds and when it reaches a tipping point I have to stop for the day. It's really goddamn taxing but other than pushing forward thru it I don't see how I'm ever going to manage to change my situation and achieve a career trajectory that brings me something other than shame, disappointment and exhaustion. It'd be cool if I could find a way to do it that's less mentally exhausting and doesn't sometimes lead to literal suicide ideation as the concluding point of the day, a la 'aw fuck, no this is NEVER going to happen and i need to literally kill myself, that way when the people I’ve crossed paths with wonder how I’m doing, ‘that person killed themselves’ will be a less shameful reality for them to find out about subsequently than ‘that person made nothing of their life’ and they will be less disgusted by the fact that i fell out of touch and didn’t achieve anything' But...like...*not* doing it was just leading to literal years of stagnation at a dead-end job...like this is probably the good outcome, the fact that I'm doing it. Maybe I’ll get desensitized? ‘Make yourself cry every day while job hunting’ is probably not Good but like, Don’t Do The Thing is not an option any longer.

[morbidmushroomsart]

Doodles on a post it matter

[eccentricastrologer]

I'm trying to be happy. All I can think about is my past experiences in a psych ward today. I just hope the memories, go away.. Just for today.

𝐻𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑤𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛’𝑠 𝑑𝑎𝑦!

[cannondisabledcharacters]

Today’s disabled character of the day is Basil from Omori, who has depression and other unspecified mental illnesses

Requested by Anon

[Image Description: Drawing of a boy with short blond hair and blue eyes. He is wearing green knitted sweater vest over a white button-up shirt, beige shorts, and black shoes, He has a pink flower with a single green life in his hair. He has a small blush and is looking off towards the side of the frame.]