#maybe it’s the seasonal depression maybe this is it for me who knows

[deepinthegroves]

. ݁₊ ✶ MY MHA DR . ݁ ˖ˎˊ˗

Kayama Hiromi, niece of Midnight, aspiring hero-in-training. She has known Bakugou Katsuki and Midoriya Izuku since they were young, and constantly intervenes whenever Katsuki decides to bully Izuku, much to the former's irritation. Despite that fact, he is still friends with her, and they train together religiously, both striving for the #1 hero spot.

Throughout the years, Hiromi has honed her quirk, Zoomorphosis, and can use it efficiently. She passed the entrance exam easily, and was admitted into Class 1A. There she meets her old friends – including Izuku, much to her surprise – and made some new ones, growing especially close with Sero Hanta. The two of them bonded over their shared love of Spiderman, becoming fast friends.

quirk summary:

Zoomorphosis allows its user to morph their body into an animal's, taking upon desired traits and abilities. It is a transformation type quirk, and requires its user to have the comprehensive knowledge of the animal beforehand in order for the body to shift to that form (e.g. how claws are formed, how canines would elongate). Not only that, if it is the first time the user tries to shift, intense visualisation and focus is required, for an incomplete shift may occur.

Extra practice is required for the user to transform partially, but all transformations are stored via muscle memory, and can be activated at a moment's notice when done right.

When Zoomorphosis is used over a long period of time, there may be a buildup of animal hormones in the body, causing the user to be stuck in a semi-transformed form till the hormones have been metabolised. some instances include: wings not retracting, the lower half of the face stuck as a snout, patches of skin stuck as animal hide.

most notable usages of Zoomorphosis are:

Hiromi using crocodile skin to withstand Katsuki's explosions while sparring;

Hiromi using scorpion book lungs to avoid breathing in Midnight's sleeping gas

Hiromi adapting the glands of her wrist to shoot out spiderwebs

(some) changes i've made to canon:

note: i have ditched canon almost completely and just kept what i like. i have only watched mha till season 6, and could only sit all the way till around season 4-5 when i rewatched it – i couldn't put myself through watching everything after. honestly, i'd rather watch a whole season of filler episodes when it comes to mha. i AM kinda aware of what happens in the epilogue though.

revised some deaths... (e.g. toga, tenko, touya/ dabi, MIDNIGHT, maybe twice, etc.)

changed hero rankings... (mr. bakugou katsuki is the #1 hero, followed be me, shoto, etc.)

make it a LOT less depressing... (basically whole arcs are taken away, and that includes a lot of the violent and (in my words) 'depressing' plotlines.)

changed villains' backstories and endings... (e.g. dabi isn't dead/ in a coma and though the physical damage done to endeavour is still the same, he has also lost the respect and admiration from the public and his team, etc. and he is now forced to rely on whatever money he had from before to support himself – like paying for a caretaker – because i am NOT sentencing rei to that)

and a lot more. (canon is so mangled at this point, just consider this an au (which it technically is LMAO))

notes: this is like a brief intro – i doubt i'll expand on this one a lot here but my script's been ready since 2022-2023 so here! i scripted out mineta and took his place in class 1A. though i know some people keep him around for comic relief, just watching him in the show makes me super uncomfortable. while yes, i can script that away too, it feels weird keeping someone who is basically an author self-insert (on mineta's page, horikoshi self-proclaims himself a "pervert" and basically said as such [my interpretation]) made to creep on his female characters.

divider credits: @/strangergraphics

[disorderedvry]

I am slowly getting worse and worse everyday, and eventually I’m probably just gonna stop getting up from bed to take care of myself and just lay there to rot.

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

men are so disappointing in so many ways i know i shouldn't expect most of them to be dignified humans but it's crazy. i need to get over this guy he's making my sense of self crumble even faster than it usually does. like he's just so unlike my usual type and i'm pretty convinced he's stupid and slutty and not discerning whatsoever. not to mention boring like i know even if i did have a chance with him he wouldn't Get Me at all so it's a bigger waste of time that usual and i'm actually pretty tired of men in general and definitely tired of parasocial relationships because they drive me insane for months typically. thankfully it's only been like 2 weeks if that at this point. idk. sigh. i know literally virtually nothing abt him as a person and ofc liking any public figure who you know nothing about is only setting yourself for heartbreak and disappointment to begin with bc you already know nothing is gonna come from it but. in a way it's almost addictive to become obsessed with someone and not be looked at with the same level of scrutiny. i don't think anyone in real life would ever try to get to know me as much as i try to get to know people who i'll never even meet. lmao! but that's the thing... idk... i have a lot of love in my heart and it consumes me and i reject my pride usually when i'm into someone. i want to know more... like VORACIOUSLY consuming anything with information about them involved simply because i think knowing someone is a very deep form of love but of course you can never truly know anyone. not completely. and that scares me i think which is why it's always probably been easier for me to never really TRY to be with anyone or have anything real. idk. this turned into me psychoanalyzing myself real quick but SOMEONE needs to bc i need to understand what the fuck is wrong w me.

[goldlightsaber]

you don’t have to be orphaned to be missing a family! and to go wander around looking for it with desperate longing! and finding it in all the wrong places because “they love me back” is often not a criteria! though you don’t make that decision consciously!!!

[wickedhawtwexler]

another karaoke post: the number one thing i'm angry about right now is the fact that ms. love shack (my karaoke pal who always sings love shack with bartender bestie) hasn't been to thursday night karaoke since SEPTEMBER????? and according to one of her coworkers (who comes to thursday night karaoke also and who i'm pals with also) says it's because her new boyfriend (who she started dating not long after i started dating my boyfriend) hates karaoke??? like bitch leave him at home and come alone????????

[candycryptids]

It’s the time of year where I think ‘I should get out of bed and eat something’ and this happens approximately 18 times every second for 5 hours until I finally manage to get out of bed

[starstruckodysseys]

hnghhhhhh

[spaghett-onaplate]

i don't think i really get angry, maybe a bit annoyed sometimes, but mostly i just get sad instead. i had a long conversation with my friend about how our minds work and also became conscious of how quiet my mind is. kind of numb. idk it used to be loud but i think that could just have been being a kid

[phagodyke]

this is like my fourth or fifth consecutive bad gym session I might as well just kill myself

[setaflow]

I can feel myself teetering towards the edge of the "I'm kinda sad so I'm gonna throw a ton of money and short-term serotonin boost buys until I feel better" hole and I know in my heart of hearts that it's 75% because my sports teams suck and it's making me backburner depressed.

[so-very-small]

also sorrey for vanishing it was the horrors. uh expect Content tomorrow

[rapha-reads]

Gonna be totally honest, I don't get how anyone can feel actual dislike towards Thirteenth and series 11-12. Indifference, yes, hatred/dislike? Why?

Edit: aaaand this got long, like most of my DW rants. Settle in, grab a cup of tea, a... Handful of dirt.

I just rewatched Praxeus and Can You Hear Me (12x06-07) and they're so interesting? So refreshing?

Edit: I'm mostly talking about Praxeus here because that's the aspect I want to develop, but Can You Hear Me is also very interesting to discuss in regards to another aspect of the show, less meta and more narrative. We'll get back to this later. Maybe.

First, Segun Akinola's score is beautiful. I already talked about it in another one of my posts (that I'm not going to look up now otherwise I'll be up til dawn), but it's subtler than Murray Gold's, but still very present and atmospheric. It's melancholic, and metallic, and ethereal, very 2020s, which totally suits Thirteenth. She's very paradoxical, Thirteenth, she's both very present and very distant, exactly like the music that surrounds her. I feel like this gif below, from Praxeus, describes rather well the feelings Akinola's music incite. The sort of wonder and nostalgic anxiousness at the beauty, force and fragility of planet Earth.

Secondly, the storylines in general are so much more... I wanna say heavy, but not in a negative or literal way. Heavy, as in, they get you to places in your psyche that you hadn't considered before, or in a long time. Which is something that Doctor Who has always done, by the way. But the feeling I get from having watched 2 episodes of Eleventh, one of Twelfth and 2 of Thirteenth in 3 days, is that previous narratives don't want to be too explicit about what they're about.

I'll explain. Praxeus talks about pollution, of the planet and of our own health. Other DW episodes have talked about that theme (though I cant think of one right now), but always in a manner that lets the viewer be reassured/distracted by the scifi elements. Praxeus is direct, and real. And I know what the critics are, "it's so preachy, it's so paranoid, bla bla". But... It's not? It's the actual reality? And what is science-fiction if not putting in the light our reality? What is Doctor Who if not a show about humans and Earth, at its core? And yes, maybe it's much more direct than before, but I invite you to look around you, look at the 21st century, look at these first years of the 2020s. The time for subtlety and gentleness is long gone, direct action, direct call to what must be corrected is what's needed.

And that's the strength of Doctor Who, I think, its adaptability to its time.

[luci-hemwin-evanson]

one of the things that will forever hunt me and make me feel bad about myself its the fact that I know the whole fcking backstory of the "I dont fit in and I dont wanna fit it, Im weird, Imma weirdo, have you ever seen me without this stupid hat on?" scene

I feel so bad, like I cant believe it, like people dont have to know I watched it when it came out but I know it and I feel sorry for my soul

it really gets me down

(sorry for the multiple missspelled words in the tags, Its late and I didnt doble check and Im tired and I dont think I cant re write all of that)

[giantkillerjack]

Infinity Train isn't the best counterpart to Last of Us on positive representation. Remember the only explicitly Neurodivergent character in Infinity Train became a villain and died brutally on screen?

No, I don't remember. But what I do remember is that the entire core concept of the show is basically "a train that puts people through magical therapy." And so I remember that nearly every lead character is clearly dealing with some form of mental illness or another. I don't need every character to be explicitly diagnosed onscreen to know that the show is chock-full of neurodivergent characters, so I'm quite genuinely not sure what you mean. Have I missed something?

[rhaenicentpilled]

It just hit me what I’ve been feeling for the past month(s)…DEPRESSION!

[rotisseries]

how did you feel about caitvi's relationship in season 2? because im thrilled that they got their happy ending (at a cost though,,,) but i feel like the execution of it in act 2/3 was lacking in some ways?

honestly I'm still mulling a lot of this season over in my brain (I'm also due for a rewatch overall. in like a week or 2 with my parents) and I'm very bad at having solid opinions immediately 😭😭😭 for a variety of reasons. so like. there's your disclaimer i could change what i say here at any moment.

but hmmm. I think overall I liked it a lot!!! (initially watched arcane in 2021 with only 2 pieces of info. 1 gorgeous animation, 2 lesbianism. they've delivered on everything I wanted) but yeah I don't think it hit quite the same this season, especially in the second and third acts, as I was expecting it to. and I can't really figure out why yet. I think it's mostly that we didn't get as much time with either of them individually as I expected? I expected to see more of cait and vi at their respective lowest points and whatnot. also was expecting a worse argument lmao😭😭😭 I love the drama. and a lot of that can be chalked up to them not having the screentime for all that this season (NOT weighing in on the discourse of if there should've been a 3rd season. btw) but when you're coming off of season 1, and even off of act 1 of this season, both of those were very contained? I guess. arcane has always been pretty fast paced and plot focused but idk. felt different. it initially felt like a story about some people in a fantasy setting, and then now it got this really dramatic expansion, becoming a story about the universe as a whole. which happens a lot in sff fiction and makes perfect sense remembering that this is a league of legends adaptation planning on leading into more adaptations, but nonetheless is a tone shift that always catches me off guard in sff even if I like where the storyline goes with that. not necessarily a critique just factual. as for their ending in particular I've always known logically that vi cannot have both jinx and cait, and in the end she'd always choose jinx so jinx made the choice for her to have cait. but I feel very empty about the loss of jinx and I think that's making it harder for me to enjoy the caitvi epilogue. I also think a lot of caitvi's dynamic is built on the class struggle, which was a far less prominent theme this season and could've contributed to a lack of satisfaction in certain story beats? idk. basically I had fun and enjoyed myself but also have this incredibly vague off feeling I'm trying to pinpoint. also I have genuinely sincerely no idea what I think of the sex scene happening in a prison cell and also right after jinx left to go kill herself