#tw health issues implied

[poisonousquinzel]

they deserved better idc 😐

[bloodyrosesnthorns]

this life thing is getting too difficult to continue.

[thelunarsystemwrites]

Lunar's mental health. An update.

TW: bad mental health, EDs, depression, s/h, personal stuff, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, vent, self hate, heavy topics.

Sorry I haven't been posting!!

An update on me.

...Hi, you might know me as Lunar, or, TheLunarSystemWrites! I'm just an artist on here, trying to do things I like.... right?

Well, unfortunately, real life doesn't really... care. It doesn't care if I have friends to talk to, art to make, things I like to do.

I've been exhausted, physically and mentally. I've been busy working a lot in our home. (Painting, building, packing, inside work, cooking, etc) and it's always stressful... we're starting to get a little tight on money.

I've spent majority of my time in my bed. I don't wanna face my family members, so I've hidden away. It's hard to get up every day, and try to find the will to take care of myself.

I also recently relapsed with Bulimia, a disorder that, essentially means I throw up whatever I eat. I've been purging since September 16th, 2022. But I had awhile where I only purged once a day or none, but I'm back at it with full force. So my body doesn't have any energy left. I've also now lost my periods do to it.

I don't sleep well. It's much easier to stay up all night than waste my only free time sleeping. So I have no energy from sleeping well unless I sleep a whole day away, which makes me groggy.

Self harm is also something bothering me too, I'm too tired to do it and yet I keep doing it. Wasting precious spoons on it, I literally can't be clean for a whole year this year, that dream is dead. But, I am a few days clean as I type!

Suicidal and intrusive thoughts have been.... pesky. But I can't just leave my friends, plus I have prizes to make.

But, I'm unmotivated. I can't seem to write or draw anything. All my art is looking... regressed, to me. Everything is repetitive.

I've hated myself now more than ever in my life, I'm in a pretty bad place and I hate how self aware I am.

SPEAKING of regression! I have like, regression block. My brain isn't working with me, isn't regressing unless Involuntary. So my main coping mechanism is.... out of order.

I've been angry at the world, really pissy and moody. Tired, hungry, sad, then happy but not much. Numbness is a huge factor, I'm feeling depressed.

Not to mention, there's drama everywhere I look. This creator gets bullied, that one turns out to be disgusting. People get doxxed over opinions... it's constantly anxiety that I'll be wrongly accused, ridiculed, or abandoned. It's terrifying that people will go at each other's throats. It's exhausting to deal with it and be dragged into drama with problematic people.

Every day has been the same for me for the past 3 years. I'm tired, bored, understimulation controls me.

My friends are my lifeline right now.

I feel uncomfortable in my own body all the time, unsatisfied with my art, everything is essentially falling apart in my life.

Depression, anxiety... not a good mix to wake up disoriented and anxious, then gave zero spoons throughout the day. I'm not in a good home situation right now.

So... I kinda just... haven't been posting, role-playing, answering DMs, answering asks, etc...

I'm burnt out.

I feel like I'm a walking corpse.

Useless even.

I don't feel like myself anymore, I barely have the energy to talk to friends, every little bad things sets me back. I just can't bring myself to really engage much anymore.

So... sorry. I'm sorry, if I wasted your time. Or if this isn't like what you wanted to hear. I'm just not okay anymore, April was the last good month I had this year. APRIL.

I just wanted to update you all, there's a lot of other stuff I didn't share because it's nit important. I swear I'll get to the prizes eventually, I just ain't up to it right now. Might not be for awhile, apologies in advance!!

Hope you guys can understand, I might or might not be back to doing art, who knows. But I'll definitely get things done before that if I ever stopped. It just doesn't bring me joy, I used to hope I'd make an AU people cares about, and I've barely achieved that ^^"

Hope you're all well!! Stay safe, take care!! Remember to hydrate and to try eating if you can, you're spectacular!!!

Daily clicks!! ^^

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[burned0utstar]

I miss him. So much.

It feels like I will never see him again. It feels like I can never hold him again. It feels like it's all over and lost.

I can't, I don't want to keep going like this.

[obsessionatthemoment]

Before I say this, I wanna say that this is not specifically Byler related. I really only go on tumblr for Byler related things, and have seen people put this on Byler posts or fanfiction, so that’s why I tagged Byler. Trigger warning for mention of people telling other people to hurt themselves.

I just want to say that I don’t think it’s funny to tell someone “kys” (whether the abbreviated version or the actual words) even as a joke. As someone who has been told by someone to do this to myself and as someone who has had these thoughts, it isn’t funny.

You never know how the person you are telling this to is feeling, even if you know them really well. Even if you mean this as a joke, they might not take it as one. There are other ways to express, or jokingly express your dislike.

This is a sensitive topic and it seems like people in society forget that (especially on the internet). Just remember that jokes can hurt even if you didn’t mean it to.

Thanks, and sorry for the rant. This just kind of hit a sensitive spot.

[lonelyandlostintime]

Please please please give me the strength to not relapSe

[ijustbesayinstuff]

Ever since I started eating like 10-60 cals my side has been hurting. It would only start after I eat something and or when I tense my stomach in anyway. I think it’s has something to do with my gallbladder because of where it hurts but should I be eating more vitamins or something?

[xxskyethetiredemoxx]

Why should I have to go through all the shit I go through on a daily basis when I could just kill myself? Like what's actually the point, when I can just easily do smth that'd fix all my problems? And I won't even be alive to see the consequences!

[kittyaccent]

Tumbling since 2️⃣0️⃣1️⃣3️⃣

Here to motivate myself to be the person I want to be ✨

⚠️ T r i g g e r w a r n i n g ⚠️

stay away if you're in recovery and stay strong! You can do it🩷

You're welcome if you also want to be

thinner

fitter

cleaner

cuter

prettier

stronger

lighter

hard worker

b e t t e r

🍄

my stats

height: 160 cm

SW/HW: 65 kg

LW: 42 kg

CW: 60 kg

GW1: 58 kg

GW2: 55 kg

GW3: 52 kg

UGW: i really don't know yet

❗️I do A LOT of meansp0 ❗️ And that's because I hate myself. Please block if it is not ok for you.

[bloodyrosesnthorns]

summertime sadness fr fr.

[aftgficrec]

Anonymous asked: Is there any new Nicky and or/twinyard centred fics or any Kevin wymack bonding ones?

Or wymack parenting the other foxes?

Here’s part 2, Kevin bonding with Wymack under various circumstances! - S

NB: Nicky/twinyards centered fics here, parental Wymack here

also see…

Kevin & Wymack bonding here

changes by ParkeRose [Rated M, 15588 words, incomplete, last updated July 2024]

After Tetsuji Moriyama gives him up at the age of fourteen, Kevin Day goes to his father with one letter in his pocket and infinite hope in his heart.

dreams fall hard by cloudberrysoda [Rated T, 1979 words, complete, 2024]

Part 2 of human behavior (do as you please)

"You look like shit, kid." Kevin talks to his dad (and accidentally reveals too much). Set during vanilla baby. Read that first

tw: implied/referenced alcohol abuse

These Green Eyes (Hers, Yours) by maydaykevin [Rated G, 1649 words, complete, 2024]

Kevin and David share a quiet moment.

tw: implied/referenced abuse

stamps by mostly_micro (mostly_maudlin) [Rated G, 100 words, complete, 2024]

The first arrives a week after Wymack gets home.

a lot's gonna change by neverlyxox [Rated T, 7347 words, complete, 2023]

Kevin started going to therapy at the beginning of the fall semester. It hadn’t been his idea, nor was he particularly happy about it. He could barely talk to the Foxes about his issues– and when he did, he definitely wasn’t sober– so how was he supposed to talk to a total stranger about it?

tw: alcohol abuse

boiling alive (at least it's what it feels like) by redinmyveins [Rated G, 1031 words, complete, 2023]

Part 2 of by the end of the day, we only have ourselves

Kevin Day is the best, but unfortunately his immunity system isn't and he ends up with the worst flu he ever had. By the way, that's also the first time David Wymack has to deal with the feeling of caring about someone of his kids sick. More specifically, his kid. His son. Or the first time David Wymack experiences one of the first experiences of being a parent: Having to take care of your kid when he's sick.

tw: negative self talk

one is chance, two is coincidence, and three's a pattern, (but let’s stop at two, okay?) by mistyrie [Rated M, 11396 words, complete, 2023]

It's the summer after winning championships when David Wymack gets a rude wake-up call. Apparently, an old acquaintance of his has passed and left behind a son in her wake — a son who may turn out to be David's... Another Kevin, so to say - and just as he and David are starting to figure it out together. – Because if it happened once, then why wouldn't it a second time?

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced alcohol abuse/alcoholism

loveless is no way to live by orphan_account [Rated T, 5934 words, complete, 2021]

just kevin crying, really (+ wymack trying to be a good dad)

tw: anxiety, tw: emotional isolation, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: emotional abuse, tw: ptsd, tw: nervous breakdown

i’m so sorry, dad by grievingfortheliving [Not Rated, 1215 words, complete, 2021, locked]

The missing scene where Wymack learns he has a son

Tapes by Marmeladeskies [Rated G, 781 words, complete, 2019]

Wymack declutters and finds an old VHS tape.

Kevin’s call to Wymack at thanksgiving by @ninyard [tumblr, 2024]

it’s such a good reason as to why i could put him on the stand. like perfect kevin day trying to explain why he’d seen a dead body and called wymack before anything else? and how that phone call went as well? what if they played it?

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced murder

When team USA wins Olympic Gold for the first time… by @exy-shmexy [tumblr, 2023]

Art

like father, like son 🫶 by @deklo

wymack and lil kevin 🫶 by @deklo

Wymack and Kevin’s first Christmas by @jojen-hewitt

[1nv1s1bl3-r41ndr0p5]

vent under cut

[topics of exams, school refusal, panic attacks, sh, mental health, sensory issues, emetophobia and sui]

I'm really freaking out about exams. I haven't been able to eat properly for the past few days because it makes me feel sick due to how anxious I am. I've spent all day stress-cleaning because I know ill have a breakdown coming home tomorrow if it's still messy. I hate talking to others about how stressed I get because I always get the response "oh yeah I get really stressed too" but I know for a fact I get more stressed and worked up than them. I physically cannot stand the exam halls anymore. my mocks last year left me traumatised- the lights were loud and bright, I was sad amongst everyone, and my mental health got so bad during them to the point that I had one of my worst relapses and I attempted 7 times in the space of 2 and a bit weeks. I cant do that again. I've already been sent to hospital 4 times this school year and I'm in counselling again I really can't go back. I hate the hospital. I hate being treated like a child just because the thoughts in my head get too much. I dont know what to do because my friends always compare themselves to me and say "omg your grades are so high you don't need to worry" but I do. I do worry because I've worked so fucking hard to get my grades to this point and if I don't do well I will disappoint everyone around me. I will be a failure to myself and everyone else. I'm not coping and I won't be able to cope. I cant do this. I really can't. the school refusal is bad enough as it is at the moment, I'm being forced into school and ik if I can keep going. I dont want to be there. I cant be there. it's too much. and they put so much pressure on me to do well and I just can't do it. I had a breakdown in my RECORDED speaking exam and I had meltdowns in both my maths exam and English exam a few weeks ago. I dont know if I have the mental or physical energy to put up with the breakdowns and the exams at the same time. a girl in my geography class had a really bad panic attack on thursday and it made me realise that that's how people talk about me when I have a panic attack. the death stares I gave my classmates were immeasurable because I realised that I get treated that way, without them knowing what's going on. they treated this poor girl that way, gossiping and staring as she tried to walk to the door but fell over because she was shaking too much. thank everything my godsend of a geography teacher was there. she is so bloody kind and I genuinely teared up seeing how gentle she was with the girl. I understand the panic she's feeling. I cant do these exams. other people I know have been saying how stressed they are but they don't get it. why can't I be the "worst" without someone competing with me for once. I'm not a comparison, I'm a person who's struggling to stay alive and cope with the debilitating stress and anxiety. I just want a hug but I don't doubt that I'll be ignored again, like usual. I fucking hate my life. I wish I was dead.

[burned0utstar]

I've been lying about getting better, every time someone asks me how I'm doing I tell them how great I am, how much I improved, that I'm passing my exams and getting shit done.

But actually, actually, I have never felt more alone. I am not thinking about death but my soul is craving it. I am not hurting myself in a physical way, but in other ways that matter too.

I don't know how to explain that everything is looking better but I'm feeling worse.

I don't know how to ask for help when everything seems to go along smoothly.

[bi-snape]

I was listening to music and I started imaging Severus in a muggle mental hospital after becoming a drunk like his father (but not violent), becoming self destructive with some potions to get high, and suicidal tendencies. Like Severus no longer cares about what happens to him or about keeping secrets.

While there he meets a girl name Laura, who's there due to suicidal tendencies and abandonment issues. She becomes attached to Severus because one night Severus tells her a story about his first time dealing with some magical creature. Laura thinks it's funny and just a fake story, since then she's become very attached to him.

Severus, while detoxing, talks about the Wizarding world to a therapist and to Laura, whenever she has a melt down or is just sad. Dumbledore doesn't notice that Severus hasn't shown up for 6th year and he only realizes it when a few slytherins notice and question his absence. Now Dumbledore tries to locate him but he fails. It isn't until Severus uses magic to change Laura's hair to different colors inorder to cheer her up that Dumbledore finds out where he is.

The ministry is there obviously and they try to remove Severus but Lucius gets involved when he caught word of what's going on. The ministry is concerned over the fact that Severus has talked about the Wizarding world but Lucius has no concern since no one believes him, hell it's written in Severus's file that he's a schizophrenic (which is a lie, clearly)

Now Lucius, Dumbledore, and the Ministry are trying to figure out what to do. Lucius wants to leave Severus there, Dumbledore wants to bring Severus back to hogwarts, and The Ministry wants to place Severus in St Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries

And while they all argue Severus is having his hair braided by Laura while he happily reads to her.

This is a random drawing of Severus and Laura together

[lonelyandlostintime]

There is actually a freeing feeling that comes when you relieve yourself of the weight of worrying about the future by realising you’re not going to live to see it

[hiccupbutpurple]

Okay random OC lore drop lol (thank you @evilwriter37 for giving me an excuse lol) - imma just talk a bit about them abstractly as an intro lol!

TW: Implied but unspecified mental health issues, family issues, referenced abuse and mention of death

- So my main character is Nix. They started as Nicky from when I was a kid watching Nicky, Ricky, Dicky and Dawn but then kinda became the personification of my intrusive, random thoughts and personal experience, and deviated so far from canon I now consider them to be an OC.

- Nix is pretty sarcastic and acts as the braincell when Aspen isn’t available, they’re definitely a trouble maker and will manipulate their way into anything but is still very caring of the people they love. They tend to lash out and can forget consequences exist sometimes (leading to a lot of different trouble). They have 3 siblings (taken from Nrdd) and overall a pretty good family but also feels overlooked or outcast from that family. They especially have a lot of conflicts with their sister.

- Robin completely lacks any social inhibitions and impulse control and she’s often the driving force for plot. Her adopted family is great but she went through a lot as a young child and lost her younger sister. I want to focus a lot of her development around the concept of family and trust. Romance is also a big part of it as she has crushes on Nix and Aspen but their feelings towards her are more complicated.

- Mischa is an absolute himbo and also a thief. He also comes from a bad home and often goes overboard trying to impress the others and their families to compensate. He also lacks an impulse control but isn’t as wild as Robin (unless talked into it) and just goes along with things, so a lot of his development is about gaining his own sense of self and learning to take control of his life and decisions.

- Aspen is a loner and doesn’t particularly care about others (not in a mean way just in a, genuinely doesn’t care what’s happening way). She moreso gets dragged into things involuntary or just because she doesn’t have anything else to do. I want to focus a fair amount on her and her mothers relationship, her mother is very sweet but is definitely hurt by her child’s lack on interest in everybody and as a result can become more overbearing on the whole group.

- It’s basically just a found family, queer coming of age story with them dealing with their traumas and challenges from mental health and being queer as a short summary