#triggers are so weird man
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my storytelling is unparalleled (literally nobody has noticed or even gives that many fucks)
for like idk 4 years ive had a rule that steve is absolutely not allowed to wear green. i simply will not allow it. but it’s not me that wont allow it it’s actually steve, and people can look back through years of steve drawings and only find him in green maybe like idk twice?? once??
deeply saddening, because i really like green as a color, but you know who else likes green. (it’s not my mom)
THE DEVIL FROM THE BIBLEEE (his ex)
i havent gone too deeply into everything she did because thats like lowkey spoilers but just know she very much traumatized him and now he refuses to wear green because it reminds him too much of her, to the point of just actually hating the color. im sure i’ve established this as a random little factoid somewhere along the way but idk where
but anyways he’s kept this up for years, he prefers brown or dark greyish blue. and for the most part it just says like that, until. UNTIL. a certain special somebody comes into his life
and he never mentioned it because like obviously he’s not going to make him change out his wardrobe because of a color- he doesn’t even like to talk about his ex or his ptsd. he even thought that it looked nice on him. and he loves him so much that he could finally change his mind on his aversion to the color in its entirety, because he has someone so much better to associate it with
i love writing analyses like this on my own ocs i could yap all day
#i just realized how fun its going to be when crazthyal becomes canon because he’s the same butt ugly shade of green that sharron wore#dealershipping#zombiified#ocs#doodle#art#oc#zombiified steve#zombiified cole#digital art#stray nightmare#ship#oc ship#oc lore#oc analysis#lore#matpat voice#LOREEEE#but thats NOT a theory this is fact i made them#lgbt#gay#ptsd mention#triggers are so weird man#developing your ocs past a certain point is for true soldiers bc even those oc questions posts cant help you there#zombiified sharron#literally hate that bitch but i should redraw that one pic of her and steve i lowkey cooked of it werent for the anatomy#its over a year old#okay i need to shut up and lock in bye
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Tommy: Did you know that you have rights? Constitution says you do. I believe that every man, woman, and child is INNOCENT!
Niki: Yo Chat! CHAT! WE HAVE RIGHTS!!! WE MADE IT! We made - we f**king made it. Women’s Rights, let’s f**king go, lets f**king go! We made it. We made it! That’s amazing, thank you so much Tommy Innit. [...]
I was the only woman in this recording. And all they did was talk about their fore.skin *tries not to laugh*. I just wanna let that sink in for a second. This is why I am the w- the victim. This is why I am the victim. This right here. [...]
*reading chat* “Guess you didn’t get women’s rights after all” *laughs then puts her face in her hands* Oh my god Chat. *laughs*
#Nihachu#Niki#Tommy#TommyInnit#IRL#Context: Niki was reacting to Tommy's ''Minecraft's funniest cooking show'' video#A) Can't believe she saw my joke#B) Very pleased that it made her laugh this much#Hello yes it is I; the pinnacle of good Twitch Chat humor#/j#but also /srs I make myself laugh with my jokes and I love it when they makes other people laugh too#Man Tommy in this thumbnail makes this look like a Rickroll video but I swear it frickin isn't a Rickroll#Necessary period in that word because I don't wanna get frickin shadowbanned by tumblr#I actually forgot to add that before posting frick. ruh roh.#Tumblr's so weird about stuff nowadays idk what even triggers their shadow ban hammer anymore#Subtitles#Edited#subtitles#Portfolio
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“Maybe the flash was to blame. Or maybe it’s his shrunken state that gave the looming witch the illusion of being exactly 10 feet tall.
Whatever it was, it had flicked something within. Suddenly, he was no longer a lizard. Nor a great, powerful wizard. Not even “Rick Shades.”
He was a little Gourami.
Only 12 years old. Eyes wide and unobscured. Skin smooth from the lack of scars. But most of all, untainted by the horrors.
And unlike that little Gourami, he was entirely aware of what’s coming for them. He could warn the 12 year old. Maybe save them even. Tell her that continuing this approach is a bad, BAD, VERY TERRIBLY BAD IDEA!!
…
But he couldn’t.”
My inspiration pieces: :)
#I’m actually really proud of this piece#epithet erased#rick shades#toidei gourami#lorelai blyndeff#prison of plastic spoilers#anyone else find it weird that rick didn’t butt in or made a peep during the whole thing?#I completely forgot he was there the whole time#like he had no issue doing that prior#molly even felt his little legs constantly moving in her hair#but here?#not even a ‘hello’?#not anything even after she got thrown out?#not ‘are you ok?’#no comment?#it feels off that he hasn’t said or done anything considering his character#was he so still that neither molly nor naven mentioned him?#ok granted they were both heavily occupied and distressed#is it just my angst-loving ass making a headcanon that he did a freeze response to a trigger?#probably#ok- 🥲#my art stuff#flicker’s art stuff#I have ZERO idea what the ocean king looks like so I just went with ‘squid man’
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Hey did I ever tell y'all about the time I dreamed that I had a baby daughter called Ellie that began with my finding out I was pregnant and ended on like her third birthday?
I legitimately woke up thinking "I should go check on Ellie" and then realised she was never real and when I tell you I SOBBED. I've been haunted by an implacable sense of loss ever since. Did I travel to another dimension? Wtf happened because that was insane.
#I'm not even joking when I say it felt REAL#I have this baby doll (it was my mum's when she was a kid and I have it now) that sometimes I just hold and it makes me feel better???#Did I astral project into another life?????#Was it just a really fucking intense fever dream??????#For the record I was like fifteen I have never even done the do let alone had a pregnancy scare#But yeah my little Ellie#And she never fuckin existed#I woke up halfway through planning her birthday party like baking a cake or sm and I was thinking#“I'll give her the little green cardigan I knitted”#Woke up to a silent house and was like “she's never usually quiet this time in the morning”#Then realised what had happened and started CRYING#idk man it's insane#From a psychological point of view it's fascinating but I've tried and tried to analyse the dream and?????#I always come up with something different???? I can't pinpoint the actual cause and effect of the whole thing?????#Madness honestly#And it was just a normal day too nothing weird had happened it wasn't a coma and I wasn't knocked out it was just a Dream#A very very real one#For the record I don't think Ellie had a father#I think it was just an immaculate conception that nobody ever questioned#Might have been IVF now I think about it#That would make more sense#dream#weird dreams#Ig I should add a grief trigger warning???#tw grief#one time i dreamt#Very confused and it's been like two years so wtf yeah that was... Intense#The most dream of all time#Maybe I'm just fucking insane lol but yeah
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maybe its cuz im crazy and decided to get not just my flu shot, but also my COVID and tdap booster...all at the same time....but i have been fighting a fever since a few hours after I got the shots, been having body aches and the chills like crazy, and the concoction has given me slight nausea and just bad shits man. not even the first versions of the vaccine did this to me. like im fighting demons and am having to take acetaminophen every few hours just to feel alive....
#muerto talks#beware these boosters theyll knock u on ur ass#shouldve gotten them on a friday so i had the whole weekend to recover#but im hoping im better by tmrw#a small price to pay for protection but gooodd damnnnnn#its kicking my ass man#and its so weird that it triggers my ibs????#like on top of all the other symptoms and now u wanna give me gi issues? fuck u#hate feeling this way but im hoping tmrw is better for me 😭😭😭
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26: FASHION
it is my objective belief that, when not in uniform, taka's clothing choices range from goofy grandpa to history professor. this guy would think suspenders are fashionable
#martyn art#he's a 70 yr old man trapped in a 17 yr old's body#i like to believe most of his clothes are hand-me-downs from takaaki :)#god i rarely draw shoes it's so weird ....#you draw feet and then just. hide them ig#kiyotaka ishimaru#danganronpa#trigger happy havoc#kiyotakaweek2023
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for some reason i cropped them and now i can't find the cropped versions and i'm too lazy so uh i drew this last night and my sister took pictures of it with her computer so thanks for that um gay people aaaaaa
#adam faulkner stanheight#you can't see him bc it's really small but it's there trust#eyes#hands#traditional art#my art#kenny mccormick#also for some reason i made crenny which is weird bc i don't look at crenny stuff i just think a03 is infecting me#craig tucker#i dont know what to put here#south park#bloody nose#black eye#tw blood#is blue so i don't think it's triggering but still#bruise tw#idk i just got it from pinterest man#crenny#teehee#are we cooking i think we're cooking chat
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Chapters: 13/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Sokka/Zuko (Avatar), Aang/Katara (Avatar), others to be tagged later - Relationship Characters: Sokka (Avatar), Zuko (Avatar), Aang (Avatar), Katara (Avatar), Toph Beifong, Jet (Avatar), Suki (Avatar), Kyoshi Warriors (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar), Jee (Avatar), Hakoda (Avatar), Bato (Avatar), A bunch of OCs, Long Feng, Joo Dee (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Mai (Avatar), Ty Lee (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), General Fong (Avatar) Additional Tags: Violence, Blood and Injury, War, Minor Character Death, Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Attempted Sexual Assault, Major Character Injury, Amputation, Implied/Referenced Suicide, possible major character death, themes similar to the first two books, Sexism, Racism (like has already been written in first two books), dark themes, Human Trafficking, Slavery, Just a lot of dark war-like themes, there will be a battle, Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Injury Recovery, Healing, Underage Sex, Underage Drinking, Animal Death, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Warnings each chapter, Hopefully some healing for Zuko finally, no promises, but that’s the goal, Reunions, hopefully a happy ending, Sokka gets some healing too, Non-Consensual Drug Use Series: Part 3 of Leaving It All Behind Summary:
-This is the last book of the series LIAB, please go read the other two books before this, or you will be very confused-
Zuko has been taken by the Earth Kingdom army to who-knows-where, and Sokka is determined to get him back.
But he can’t do it alone.
With Suki and the Kyoshi Warriors by his side, Sokka is headed to Ba Sing Se to find Katara and Aang so they can go rescue his fire bender.
Things aren’t as easy as he had hoped. Corruption, lies, and unknown horrors await them inside the city’s walls. None of this is helping Sokka’s mental well-being.
Hakoda and his men face a problem of their own as Azula approaches with the intentions of making it rain fire.
Sokka and Zuko will both find themselves having to reintegrate back into a life they thought they left behind, with people they hardly remember. It isn’t easy for anyone, especially when they don’t recognize the person standing in front of them.
#oh shit#how many months!?#WHO KNOWS MAN TOO MANY!!#anyway haha here we are#chapter fucking 13#THE DILF CHAPTER#it will make sense at the end#i promise haha#the dilfs are rocking it hard this chapter lol#i hope you guys do#If so let me know! Yell at me I usually yell back#in a fun flirty sexy way not a creepy weird screaming way haha#ALRIGHT DILFS LETS DO THIS WOHOOO#haha damn it 25k chapter#heed the tags#always watch out for triggering tags!#liab#ITF#zukka#Zuko#sokka
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ughhh I need to stop having mental breakdowns over little things.
#vent in tags#chat sesh with iris#vent#tw vent#I feel like everyone hates me and even you all hope I die and nobody likes my ships bc everyone thinks I’m not good enough for my f/os#and the worst part is that none of it is unfounded!!!#none of my friends are talking to me AT ALL anymore even when I start conversations#(including in text)#while they actively talk to other people WHERE I CAN SEE IT!!!#only one of my friends is and all they do is send me anti bs and go ‘omggg these people are so weird!!!’ about like anyone who ships with-#certain characters (including ones that I SHIP WITH!!! which is why I don’t talk about it other than here)#people are like ‘omggg… I hate it when men like these characters. you don’t get them and they’d never love you.’ about my f/os#which triggers dysphoria and self loathing and fear about my ships#tw suicidal ideation#<- somewhat#I don’t like anything about myself and I don’t deserve anything that I have#man. I don’t even want to be here anymore#also I have severe mental illness that has caused a lack of possibility for happiness that lasts longer than fleeting moments#I have not spoken (like aloud) to anyone other than my parents since THE THIRD!!!#I’m going to ask my psychiatrist for testosterone on Wednesday but idek if I’m gonna make it until then#probably I will because I’m too depressed to gather the energy to do it#also she might even say no or not be able to prescribe it#and this isn’t even why I’m the most upset rn but I REALLY need a win#also my mom was like ‘you haven’t given me another name so I’ll just keep calling you the name I gave you 😊😊😊.’ instead of. idk. asking me?#tw suicide#okay yeah the tag is fully warranted now#I like know how I’d do it and everything#I also had a panic attack because I couldn’t find my quilt hashtag just autism things!!!#not takeover#obviously
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I want to be working on making the goat in a dress but I am recovering from a moderate allergic reaction and should sit still for a bit, so instead, please send me asks about sewing or crocheting! Or ask for pattern links if there's anything in particular you are looking to make, I love finding plushie patterns
#the person behind the yarn#man idk what's going on this week with me but it is definitely sit still time#I am not good at Sit Still Time#idk what I'm allergic to??? unless I am Very Allergic to smoke from Canadian trees#like. what kind of trees are those. is it possibly to be allergic to smoke??#like I know it's an asthma trigger for me but not a straight up allergy I thought#it might've been the poptart I had as a snack??? maybe dinner was cross contaminated?????#I did not eat any new foods yesterday I have no idea what I reacted to#unless it's the trees??? or maybe it was stress induced and I just didn't catch it early?????#either way means I have to get back to checking my blood pressure more regularly so I can catch my allergic reactions sooner#for anyone reading this with allergies: that is almost never the way to check if you are having an allergic reaction#my allergies just interact very weirdly with all my other blood pressure weirdness#it's baffled many an allergist! but it's consistent! anyway point is do not use me as an allergy example#I am a rube goldberg machine of interconnected weird side effects lol
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Although I'm a trans man, I cannot deny the deep down very sapphic part of me from when I was younger. He still calls out to me every once in a while
#like. sometimes i play a game or watch a show where two women (or femme presenting folks) are in love and it triggers a full gender panic#i am masc but there is a part of me that still feels like the little girl who wanted to grow old with another girl#like i already know that im pan#it's like. when i feel for a woman my gender feels more fluid but in everything else i feel like a man??#what is that. why is gender so weird???#probably bc we shouldn't have reached this point as a society where everything has a a bajillion sub-identities LMAO#i am just a guy who very sapphicly loves women sometimes ig 😭#it happened when i played life is strange and now it's happening again playing little goody two shoes#honestly when i say i feel like a man that isnt even true lol i just like using he/him pronouns and looking more masc but#i dont think if myself as a man that much. hmm 🤔#ANYWAY#personal
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Having fucked up gender dysphoria ive wrapped back around and now im mad im not a girl. I dont want to use she/her that feels wrong, and i dont want people to refer to me as a woman they just need to. Know. Sometimes. Perhaps bigender or genderfluid who knows. Im only a girl sometimes
#i like men in a man way but i like women in a woman way. i think.#but i also like women in a bi man way. i dont like men in a woman way?#being bi is very important to my gender#but like. my woman gender feels aro#its all so complicated#its so hard to be a boy girl girl boy people dont like it when you do that#and its even harder when its mostly internal#id like to dress more feminine but i dont want to be a feminine man#i want to be a . somewhat androgynous girl#but only sometimes !#when i see other trans guys explore femininity i can tell its not how i feel#its all so weird anyway can i just be a girl with a mustache#and a green and purple color scheme thanks#i know i can do all of this and do whatever i want i can be a girl when i feel like it#its just. i dont know how to explore that#or how to feel about it… and explore it in a way that doesnt also trigger my dysphoria#anybody else on this forum have two genders?#diary
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#Wow. Okay ♡#I love this episode. The animation is flawless. The drawings quality is out of the world for real.#I love this episode so much I'm so grateful so much care and dedication went to this sskk centered episode.#(Refraining to talk about what 5x03 could have been)#Sorry for repeating myself but seriously the illustrations this episode are so so pretty.#I rarely appreciate how Akutagawa is drawn in the anime but when it comes with this episode I really like how he looks too.#And Atsushi that I already like a lot in the anime on average‚ this episode is just fabulous. Handsome even.#Seriously I don't know who the animators are but I want to kiss them. This art style is one I dare say I like even more than Dead Apple–#that although is obviously more detailed is just... In comparison too rough for my personal taste?#The art style for this episode is very delicate and soft and I love it tons#And the directing is just great. No weird pacing or awkward ost choice. It's neat.#The reiterated placing ss/kk on opposite sides is neat. The lightening is likeable and especially the purple scene is super pretty.#The “don't compare me to him” scene is neat. The ss/kk final scene is AMAZING. It's gorgeous and stunning and awestriking and every other–#epitome in the world. It's like the only scene I believe turned out better in the anime that it is in the manga which is saying SO MUCH.#But it's really that good!!!!! My favourite anime ss/kk scene ever.#Aaaaaahhh please let me talk about it forever it's sooo pretty and especially poignant...#The heaven-like soft yellow light and how it contrasts with the bleak stormy background. But especially their softening features...#Man that scene. okay. Akutagawa's quiet surprise!!!! That scene is. Idk. Unfortunately chapter 88 exists–#but it's nearly the most romantic thing ever.#I'll leave it at this. It's not like the bsd animation suddenly became a masterpiece and this is still an episode–#I would say I like less than my least liked k/l/k episode (Trigger animation my beloved). But in comparison with the rest of the anime–#It's really bsd anime at its peak#random rambles#Aah peoples btw I'm probably going to spam ss/kk‚‚‚‚ a lot today. Apologies in advance unfollow me now etc. etc.
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Headcanon - Halloween changed forever for those at the first Whistling Night. Teddy and Chuck refused to put masks on ever again and Ricky and Marie have a hard time being around anyone wearing one, especially if they’re meant to be a masked killer.
#Jason is still pretty good about masks since he didn’t on that night but still feels weird about them. not enough to not wear them though#the fact he has a hard time with Halloween bums Ricky out a lot. he’d love to host a Halloween party at the rink with all the costumes#but alas- masked killer is a popular costume especially the Whistling Man in Gallows Creek so he doesn’t think it a good idea#and now half the town is going to have PTSD triggers come Halloween time! Thanks Marie and Henry! /j#killer frequency#killer frequency headcanon#Roller Ricky#Teddy Gallows jr.#Chuck Brody#Marie Campbell#headcanon
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The world always needs more Thrawn angst. As in angst to other people caused by Thrawn. Hurt no comfort everybody dies. I wanna see him at his worst
#trying to write my own angst fic but i have so many ideas#like concepts for a trilogy of fics#and its kinda driving me nutty bc i have not posted much fanfic i have not written much fanfic#and ik people will not like my fanfic bc its angsty#so its kinda like. whats the point yaknow#no one wants to read a fic whete terrible things happen to good people🙏no one except me bc im weird#ah i love this character can i read about their torture?#thrawn works as a good antagonist in these ideas too its great#hmmm should i put this in the tags#eh sure whatever#star wars#grand admiral thrawn#angst#<just in case#btw if anyone seeing this wants to talk about angst puleaaasee contact me#THIS man has no written triggers and wants to hear the most awful ideas ever#images are a different story but in text im all game
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EVERY CHARACTERISTIC I LIKE IN MEN IS JUST SOMETHING THAT REMINDS ME OF MY DAD IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF
#okay to be fair he isn’t my dad in any sense of the word but idk how else to describe him#like.#‘the man who married my mom and who I thought was my dad until I was twelve and had already accepted that I hated because he abused and#neglected me’ doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue!#but I feel like it’s important to mention that I am not even attracted to him it’s not some weird misplacement of feelings thing#I think it’s more to do with the fact that I still loved him for a long time and thought it was my duty and responsibility to love him#because I thought he was my dad and by the time I was freed from that notion he had already been there to taint my formative years#so like now I just find certain traits comforting and nostalgic#I mean hey it’s better than being triggered by men who remind me of him#but it’s so embarrassing like omg. textbook daddy issues
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