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so they have dogs now

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complicated feelings

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steve

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2 years redraws

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jackson my beautiful. my beloved. they could never make me hate you

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beautiful man who’s tattoos i forgot to draw

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steve is the smartest person cole knows, and at the same time, the dumbest

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he tried to hug him after but it only made it worse

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ugly freak

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iwant. that twink

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the birds mean nothing but the flowers do

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a burning sensation

where am i

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i’m contemplating the stories behind krakrofis’s realm

for one, where all his monsters are housed… in every possibility i’ve considered the trees, whether it be non physical forms inside (like how i assume a pokeball works) or that everything is proportionally huge and they do act as physical houses

krak can grow, it’s been canon for a few years now that he’s able to reach at least a hundred feet tall but i dont give him many opportunities to actually do that, so having things be bigger would be a good opportunity for that

having the monsters be housed in more spiritual forms over physical forms gives more opportunity to lean into the more supernatural side of their lore

in both, i think itd be nice to consider a backstory thats something about how it used to be a lot more lively of a place when he had his plant life; the realm is based on him and his own state. that would only leave for some gaps, like how that happened to begin with

in the version of the story that goes like that the majority of his citizens would be forced to leave his realm after the great death it would be the inciter for the war that the entire plot of sn surrounds… krakrofis, being the leader he was, would leave and find other places for his monsters to inhabit and live in but over time discover that having more souls under his rule would give him more power because of the power the souls give him. magic bullshit idk i can explain it a lot better in pictures. this would be the point where krakrofis is led astray by his own greed, turning from a selfless ruler into a power hungry monster.

eithymera, of course, would try to stop him from going too far. at that point she sees krakrofis as a friend, and she knows that not only is his colonization streak hurting the people he’s overpowering but also gaining more power, while good in the short term, would gain the attention of the higher gods. she knows that if they figure out what he’s up to they will take EVERYTHING from him in order to prevent him from becoming more powerful than them, and so for everyone involved she has a duty to try and stop him, even if she hates to hurt him and her own monsters in the process of a war.

of course theres a few plot holes in that story like how everything died in the first place or why nobody else besides eithymera has stepped in, but im sure that as i write more about it those will fill in and figure themselves out just like this has figured itself out as i write and ramble and say whatever bullshit comes to mind

yeah thats it theres nothing profound here just a brain word vomit

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steves sleep schedule is so fucked up tbh

he goes to sleep (or at least lays down for the night) pretty early and wakes up early, but it’s almost never very restful sleep because he’s like. physically scared to sleep but mentally he knows it’s like his only escape from the real world so he goes back and forth with himself a lot and never ends up sleeping a full, restful night

and he cant like knock himself out with a benadryl or something either because he NEEDS to be able to wake up if something happens, be it a threat irl or a nightmare he needs to escape but it only makes it harder for him to actually sleep. well

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steve and cole mean so much to me like genuinely

theyre a lot more than just “steve was mentally ill and then he met cole andc cole fixed him” they are absolutely more than that i need to preface by saying that but it means so much to steve that cole cares about him so much through literally everything

cole has seen the worst parts of him and stays, even when they were first just becoming acquainted he knew that there was more to steve than just that protective outer shell he put on and has spent so long trying to help him escape it. steve meanwhile has spent so many years with it that he’s nearly forgotten and completely lost all hope that he could be anybody aside from the “act” he puts up ever again, but cole still tries

and then as they get super close and he learns about all the terrible shit steve has done (especially regarding the cult, the murders and all that) he still stays and sees for himself that steve truly never wanted to be a bad person he’s just in terrible circumstances with no escape. even when steve himself paints himself to be an unforgivable monster he can still see past it and steve doesn’t understand why cole doesn’t leave knowing he’s constantly at risk, since steve cant always control who krakrofis deems as their next target

cole has this persistence and trust for steve that doesn’t ever waiver even after seeing every side of him, both the good and the bad and for steve it brings on a whole different list of emotions. he doesn’t understand above all else, he doesn’t understand why he chose HIM and won’t leave no matter what he sees and hears about him, he doesn’t get what makes him so special. it scares him, he knows inevitably he’s going to hurt him one way or another and no matter how hard he tries to be better for this sweet sweet boy there’s going to come a time where he gets hurt because being around him is a risk and he can’t bare the thought of that, but at the same time it gives him hope because clearly cole sees something in him that he can’t see about himself anymore, and maybe just MAYBE it’s possible that he’s going to be correct in some way that maybe he’s good, maybe there’s hope for him

idk bero

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