#tobis-mental-health

[octobitheoctagonal]

Tw: panic attack, attempted suicide mention, drug mention

love getting invested in the most triggering programme of all time.

yes it deals with lots of my phobias and shows gory things and violence. but also that woman is gay and that guy loves the emergency call person whose mother has alzheimer’s and the other woman has a husband who came out as gay a few weeks ago and also their daughter tried to kill themselves because of girls at school. it’s just so chaotic and there are so many relationships that i NEED to see progress.

i hate it so so much but also. i can’t stop watching

[whatisr3alityy]

This also matters btw

I will start the fanfic for my au soon btw, it'll be awesome

[ilovealiceosemann]

First looks at Season Three!! 🍂🍂

[klutzyghost13]

Meme Thursday 😅

All Meme's expect for 1 are from

https://www.instagram.com/april_7_9?igsh=c3hsZ29mdmNiZ3Js

[ladykissingfish]

*Nagato walks slowly into the living room on his crutches, to find Deidara, Tobi and Itachi on the couch with their feet up, eating snacks*

Nagato: … What is this? Deidara, Tobi; didn’t I tell you both to go on that mission two hours ago?? You can’t be back already!

Tobi: We never went, Leader!

Nagato: Never went? May I be so bold as to ask why??

Itachi: They're taking a mental health day, Leader. As am I. Kisame went on our mission with Hidan instead.

Nagato, angrily: Ah?! So now you brats are not only disobeying direct orders, but you're switching around partners at will? And what on earth do you mean, "mental health day"?? We are SHINOBI. The only break we receive comes in the form of death, and you all look alive and well to me! So get your lazy asses up and —

*Kakuzu walks in with an armload of bills*

Kakuzu: Let them have their mental health day. At least it’s free. These little shits have also been pestering me to establish dental, vision, and two weeks’ PAID vacation days a year!

Tobi: And don’t forget about the fresh pastry we want in the kitchen every morning!

Deidara: And the complimentary haircare products in the bathroom, hm.

Itachi: And dango left under our pillows at night.

Nagato:

[sharkbytestudio]

Newest stickers added to my Etsy shop <3

[yellowocaballero]

going ape crazy over the latest installment in the roleswap au holy SHIT. love this akatsuki. rin with her zealous conviction and manipulative kindness. the horror of her smothering and reviving shisui for no reason. she's SO GOOD. kakashi being fully aware that what they're doing is fucked but just using it as a club to beat himself w/ rather than doing anything about it. yahiko trying to make therapy no jutsu a thing. god fucking bless

THANK YOU I LOVE THEM ALL.

Rin was really difficult to write - I think I need to write out a short story featuring her as a kid. Having a mental idea of herself when she was good is an important anchor to her life when she's bad. She has utter conviction in her team and her village, and boundless kindness for everybody around her. I think this grows warped into utter conviction in herself, and boundless kindness for those who she decides deserves it. I think she can be really interesting and unique as a villain, and I really hope to do more with her. Her convictions, ideals, goals, and dreams are very important to her - human life is not. She was idly killing and reviving Shisui for no reason at all.

Very accurate summary of Kakashi, haha. He's permanently in his Hound era and I'd say his depression is drowning him. He has no interest in improving his or anybody else's lives. The only things he still finds important are loyalty and love, but in many ways he's only loyal to the ghosts of two dead children. In Kakashi typical manner, he'd rather hate himself than help anybody.

It's almost strange - while writing it, I was thinking of him as the member of the Akatsuki with the clearest moral compass (yes, including Yahiko). But while writing I found myself genuinely asking myself the same question he was asking himself. I don't think I decided on a single clear answer. I think Rin has greater capacity for genuine goodness, while Kakashi is more likely to turn away from the Akatsuki without Naruto intervention.

Yahiko is a beautiful beam of sunshine who deserves his god complex and adoration of the masses. He's my little cutie-pie and all of his atrocities are for a good cause. Unproblematic king, the Akatsuki ARE a peace organization, never let Kakashi tell you anythhing different!

Regardless, the love that Rin and Kakashi have for Obito is very real. They're still very devoted to him. Or...like, the concept/memory/idea of him...same thing...right...

I definitely want to write more. Something weird that keeps tripping me up is the question, 'What's more interesting: outside POV of Tobi or inside POV?'. Seems like a simple question but it's actually being a big roadblock for a lot of decisions. I haven't done any writing in a long time for way too many reasons, but I have a miraculously clear weekend so I hope I'll be able to finally get something written.

[mistressoftheforest]

Toby headcanons because I’m bored:

Tw for talks of mania and sh

Toby in manic episodes is not the healthiest person to be around. When he’s manic he takes more risks and is much more easy to take to anger. Everything sets him off from a sound of a fan to just someone crying. He doesn’t like it but it unfortunately happens since he’s unmedicated. He yells at the people he cares about including his fiancée clockwork. He’ll call her mean names and tell her to stay away when angry. He’ll also ramble about things and go off topic.

He somewhat wants to get better but feels like he deserves his misery somehow. He’ll also self harm sometimes as well,just to see if he bleeds. He doesn’t feel real at times and even inhuman. Clockwork tries to help him through these episodes but they take a toll on her. They love eachother to no end and bring out the best in eachother but sometimes their illnesses ruin it. They do talk it out and apologize. Toby does get better in the future before his death.

Omg this turned into a ramble 😭

[cultist-bones]

To anyone who's having a bad day or feels like they aren't right for identifying in any way they do, I love you very much. And I'm not the only one! There will always be someone supporting you!

Whatever you want to do today, whatever you feel like you failed, you are doing everything you're meant to be doing.

Thank you for being alive. Thank you for finding yourself and being that person you've discovered.

<3

[ericsdeadghost]

Being an extrovert with social anxiety is fucking wild. I thrive off of social interaction while being deathly afraid of it at the same time.

[quendiviner]

okay in my defense. i got an idea and i was writing it. hehe

[cve-th3mvsic]

aaallllrrrriiigghhhttyyyy.

im gonna have a sleepover at my aunt’s house, and then tomorrow everyone’s going to my aunts house for a cook off or something. my dad and uncle are gonna make ribs.

sooooooooo….. i’m gonna take a lil break from my stuff. like my ipad and phone. i’m gonna take a mental health break. — gonna leave my ipad at home, have my screen time set on while i’m there so i don’t go on my phone (or at least to give myself a sense of self control), and i’m gonna bring stuff to do, like my yarn to crochet and papers n stuff to draw. no electronics.

…except for duolingo, because i can’t miss a day.

but ima try not to use my phone all day tomorrow.

let’s see how long i can stay off my phone…….. challenge: accepted.

starting: ….like right now.

kay cool ^^ bye bye ^^ for now

___

[sp00kysk3lly]

"You've met with a terrible fate, haven't you?"

[blu3bl00d3d]

Tw paranoia

I can feel it. He is still watching me. He won't let me rest. It's like he's right behind me. Everything I do is him in disguise. I am him in disguise. I swear I see him from the corner of my eye, just watching.

Everything I see is him.

My friends are him. Everyone here is him. My family is him. We are all him.

He won't leave. He will follow me forever. He is always here, watching me.

I'm scared

[chaotic-toby]

Sometimes I just sit there and realize that there's so much that's wrong with me

Like, I don't think I have enough time in the day to explain every single thing /j

I've actually been working on a PowerPoint that explains everything in detail. It was supposed to be a joke thing first but then I really got into it.

So far, I've done

- Rhotacism

- Selective mutism

- Lisp

- Depression

- OCD

And I've got so much more to discuss

[futilechildhooddream]

[ID: An image from the game Undertale. A pixel character stares into a hallway mirror. An RPG text box at the bottom reads: Despite everything, it's still you.]

I cannot explain how much this quote meant to me. How much it means to me now realizing I'm a system. It's a crazy thing to go from living your life as an individual, to realize you haven't been for a long time. To accept a reality demonized by so many: I have dissociative identity disorder. I am many. I have alters.

Yet despite everything, it's still me.

I can't put into words this feeling. Not better than this game. Even though the character doesn't have DID