#the self destruction was real
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One of the things that hurts the most about luffy and usopp’s argument before their fight is how they were very clearly having two different arguments.
Luffy was arguing from the position of captain about the ability of the ship and safety of the crew. He’d made the decision to leave the merry after seeing how hurt usopp was and knew they had to leave her behind specifically for the sake of the crew— for the sake of usopp. He tried to explain his decision. One of the hardest decisions he’d had to make. But he couldn’t get Usopp to understand. And when he realized that the argument had gone too far (thanks to sanji resetting his brain with a kick) he stopped and apologized cus he knew the crew was the most important thing to him.
Usopp was arguing from the position of a man on his last leg about his own usefulness. He and the merry joined the crew at the same time. He’d been her primary caretaker. In his mind, if the merry could be left behind, so could he. His pride was hurt, his self worth whittled down to nothing, and his time with his friends coming to an end. He shot down luffy’s apology and left because, to him, the argument wasn’t an argument. It was judgement on his own usefulness coming from his best friend.
It just hurts to realize the arguments luffy and usopp had were so fundamentally different there wasn’t any way for a peaceful resolution to be reached. Not when luffy needed his crew and usopp needed a purpose.
#the fight was one usopp knew he would never win#the self destruction was real#I just love them both so much#and they love each other#and this part of the story kills me#it’s so fucking depressing#one piece#luffy#usopp#one piece episode 235#one piece episode 236#water 7
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Have you seen my little lad?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin zixun#Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl#But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.
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you. yes you, person with rejection sensitive dysphoria. this message is for you. your friends DON'T hate you. they aren't mad at you. they aren't talking behind your back or wished to cut their friendship with you. they love you and treasure you and they are good people who wouldn't hurt you like that! ok, that's all. have a nice day.
#this is for everyone with RSD... except for me#my friends do hate me and do think i'm a burden in their lives and they do wish they had a way to let me know they don't wanna be friends#anymore but they feel pity so they never do#... this is a joke that turned too real and too dark too soon#it'll get better#anyhow this message will self destruct in-#i'm all over the place my brain is being mean to me i'll go to bed ugh#nic posts#and drowns in self pity for NO REASON#i'm going to kick my brain's butt#ok ok bye#rejection sensitive dysphoria#rsd is a bitch#rsd things
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Just relapsed after 6 months
#girlblogging#girlblogger#whisper girl#real#tw sh related#female hysteria#relatable#relatable memes#born to die#tw selfhate#tw self destructive behavior#the feminine urge#the virgin suicides#depressing shit#tw depressing stuff#depressing memes#self destruction#su1c1d3#self deprecating humor#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressive#bpd problems#bpd vent#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#mentally unstable#vent blog#vent post#mental illness#actually mentally ill
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the question is do i fill my chronic boredom with destructive decisions or with sex
#actually aspd#actually mentally ill#actually npd#clusterb#aspd#cluster b#actually bpd#npd#actuallyaspd#actuallynpd#anhedonia#actuallybpd#bpd#chronic boredom#actually antisocial#actually narcissistic#antisocial personality disorder#narcissistic personality disorder#narc abuse isnt real#narc abuse isn't real#nymphomaniac#hypersexual#self sabotage#self destructive tendencies#self destructive behavior#impulsive
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Something people who haven't read Helena Bertinelli don't get is Helena's relationship with killing. She has never killed or tried to kill because she thought executing someone fixes the world.
Huntress: Year One #4
Even initially, it was always about honour or closure or vengeance or survival, and she saw herself as pretty much damned to hell, even says it in Huntress: Year One. And she grows too, and soon leaves that murderous intent in her past though her feelings about killing remain way more nuanced than say Bruce's.
#she's was never a self-proclaimed judge/jury/executioner; just a lost rageful self-destructive soul who develops into a hero#helena bertinelli#the real gotham antihero#huntress#batman#bat family#batfam#comics#dc comics#dc#birds of prey
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World’s most nineteen year old girl
#shes angry shes self destructive she yells at her dad she knows exactly what she wants to do with her life and isnt doing shit about it#girl your problems are real and valid but its worth considering that you are suffering from ‘being 19itus’#more memes from the one piece adventures of spk#shitty edits#one piece#op#black leg sanji
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a/n: I had an awful day today and needed some comfort, so I decided to write some hurt/comfort headcanons with my comfort character Spencer Reid.
cw: Self-harm (mentioned)(It's the 4th one if you want to skip it, stay safe ♡), just generally having a bad day
☆Spencer Reid, who immediately knows that something is wrong, not only because he's a profiler but also because he just knows you so well.
☆Spencer Reid, who wraps you in a tight embrace, letting you hide from the world in his arms.
☆Spencer Reid, who is always ready to listen to you complain about what's making you feel bad.
☆Spencer Reid, who doesn't judge you if he sees new self-inflicted wounds, the only thing he asks is: "Come to me next time you feel like this, please?" looking at you with his big brown puppy eyes.
☆Spencer Reid, who rambles about the benefits of oxytocin (the hug hormone) while you two lay cuddled up on the couch, knowing his voice helps you calm down and find yourself again in that hectic mind of yours.
☆Spencer Reid, who strokes your hair while you lay on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.
#i need (someone like) him#hard day#spencer reid#criminal minds#criminal minds spencer reid#why cant he be real#i love him#spencer reid hurt/comfort#spencer reid comfort#tw sh implied#tw self h4rm#tw self destruction#tw s3lf harm#stay safe#spencer reid x you#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x self insert#sam creates#sam writes#sh
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john chapters dashboard simulator
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It's an honour to blog the end of the world with you all
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localcryptid 🔁 gaydesandpersephone
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why is everyone more upset about the cows and not the actual people he killed
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because cows offer something of value to society and cops don't
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oh my god it's not funny that he killed so many living creatures?? killing cows should be considered a serious red flag for the love of god. cows are intelligent animals. they can problem solve. they have best friends. stop memeing about this
#new zealand #cows
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Why take it out on the cows though?
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the cows were spies for the government, obviously
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well of course he used sheep
#kiwi mutuals please don't unfollow I love you I swear #new zealand
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❓️ pollsotd 🔁 hewhobecamethesun
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given the discourse it is time we settle this once and for all. vote now or forever hold your peace.
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he's literally not a necromancer, he's a scientist who discovered new elements
#propaganda
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hillo yewchewb todey I'm redickorating my necromantic lair
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you're just jealous you still have the union jack on your flag
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idk elon musk's involvement feels like a red flag
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they cut my funding I'm gonna [remembers suicide jokes only worsen my mental health] blow up this entire planet
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#the locked tomb#john gaius#I think john would appreciate the self-destructive nature and cycles of revenge in the radiant emperor#in a I relate to these characters a normal amount 🤡 way#also I don't know enough about homestuck for the perfect homestuck joke I'm sure exists. alas.#I did not check any urls any resemblance to real urls is purely coincidence. except for those I stole from my friends#hello darling rapha kenzie and meg I hope you don't mind giving you cameos when I ran out of url ideas or wanted to make a cowspy joke#in my heart nz has the laser kiwi flag by the time john blows up the world. at least the silver fern flag or something.
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Listen you gotta be healthy and take care of yourself and your chronic conditions but also sometimes i want to hold someone until my joints feel like they’ll explode, i want to place their hand on my chest to make my irregular heartbeat go even faster, i want to stay up talking to them just to fuck up my already poor sleep like i just kinda want to love someone so much that it doesn’t even cross my mind to worry about those things
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#does any of this make sense or do i just sound deranged#my b if so#posts directly inspired by lack of sleep and my heart going absolutely crazy for no reason#the heart thing is so real#it’s been acting up so often lately because my medicine schedule keeps getting a bit off which always gives me hella breakthroughs#like it feels like shit when it’s acting up and makes me feel like shit but also#wanna see if we can make it worse🥵🥵#sorry i kind of want to be a little self destructive to prove to myself how much i can love someone#and that some things can trump or are at least worth suffering through the Issues™️#actually though if this sounds weird or crazy ognore it im embarrassed#pls chalk it up to the bo sleep and heart issues instead😪😪#im gay and i like sleeping
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#martellus#krosp#girl genius#you see my vision?#i love martellus being best frenemies with a cat who can talk real shit to him#krosp really hit him with the old 'your dog would miss you' low blow argument against self destruction#keep up the good work pal a few more verbal 2x4s to the head like that and you might actually save him from his self imposed narrative
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Me when I continuously forget Usopp's beard (sometimes it's intentional because my brain is like "Oh, wait, I headcanon him as Genderfluid AFAB, let me just wub wub ah yes hehe beard gon")
Headcanon time! Usopp blurts out every thought he has when tired, which is why he isolates (big quotes on that) himself before he's fully awake. You know, for his own mental instability that he convinces is normal!
#usopp is just like me for real#sanji kisses usopp every time he says something self destructive all “HEY don't you dare insult my future husband”#art#my art#artists on tumblr#one piece#god usopp#black leg sanji#op usopp#usopp one piece#one piece usopp#op sanji#one piece sanji#sanji one piece#sanuso#usosan#usopp#sanji#vinsmoke sanji#doodles#doodle
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#too real#relatable#girlblogging#girlblogger#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#girly things#female hysteria#whisper girl#femcel#female manipulator#manic pixie dream girl#divine feminine#unlovable#please love me#i need love#im unloveable#romance#relationship#female rage#a blog for the heartbroken#bpd problems#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#depressing shit#tw depressive#self destruction#tw selfhate#mentally unstable#neon genesis evangelion
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Top 5 pictures of Janeway? this is not me trying to pass the work of collecting references for drawing onto someone else. no, it is a gift to have an excuse to present your top 5 pictures of Janeway (or Kate Mulgrew)
What an astonishingly difficult question to answer. I decided to limit myself to only the pics saved on my phone because otherwise I'd be here all night
Bonus pic (because of course):
#this post self destructed 3 times while I was deliberating#a real shame I don't have any white suit photos saved weird#went over the limit my bad. luckily I'm on mobile and limited to 10#thanks for the gift!#but also I have better reference images for character study#lmk if you're interested in those#I couldn't not add that last one apparently it's my brand#every day is threshold day
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you had a fantasy au forever ago… how does marc find out vale loves him
i for one. always believe rosquez is just as horny as it is tortured and just as stupid as it is horny. i think it’s this fraught thing where after a LONG saga of trying to keep marc safe and worrying about him (marc is captain of the guard/general!!! it’s his whole job to keep VALE safe but vale thinks about any scenario where marc sacrifices his life to save him and it feels like open HEART SURGERY…) and after trying to ease him into a more bureaucratic role as “advisor” (luca voice comma dryly. pecco already does all that. you are teaching him things a consort knows. you do realize that. it’s important to me that you’ve realized that.) by involving him on strategy and policy he i think. entirely without thinking through the emotional implications wherein. decides marc needs to get married to him. truly the only way he can make marc safe the only way he can physically keep him off the battlefield the only way he can. marriage is a political and transactional enterprise to him and he SHANT fall in love anyways so whatever. get married to marc present his most cogent military mind as unequivocally allied with him and keep marc from killing himself 8000x problem solved. the small ruthless part of him also is like. marc cannot leave me and stage a coup with our neighbors to the west if he is legally bound to me :) forever :)
(i would say they have a break up in this universe because vale is a lil insecure about marc’s ability to rule slash uccio meddlings but. it all brings glory to vale here. it’s all under his banner. that’s part of what he liked about marc to begin with… now if marc came from another noble house?? late stage royal parentage reveal??? then shit would get cwazy)
and he lays this all out to our capricorn moon queen marc marquez who sees the logic here and despite KNOWING it’s a bad idea because he is ass over teakettle in love with vale he ALSO sees this as like. the ultimate way to keep vale safe. he can contribute the same way he does now and he knows he’ll never have all of vale but at least he’ll have SOME of him… be able to produce an heir… so he says yes and vale’s like cool. chill. married as work associates. cool.
it’s all this emotional distancing/repression/denial that plays out into what they THINK is a business transaction until it’s the NIGHT OF. and they have to go in there and consummate their MARRIAGE. and vale lays marc out on their fine silken marriage bed and kisses his scarred arm and asks him if it’s okay and watches the way marc’s eyes squeeze shut when he pushes inside of him and the way he shivers when vale’s presses his mouth to the junction of his shoulder and his neck. the flex of his stomach the splay of his thighs the way he’s looking at vale like he’s something new. something that no one has ever seen before… feeling things no one has ever felt before (marc marquez may very well believe valentino rossi invented the prostate orgasm here) and THATS when vale thinks. uh oh !
#and then he can’t even self destruct that shit because he LEGALLY BOUND MARC TO HIM#actual and for real love confession comes after they have their first kid and marc gets antsy trapped at home and goes adventuring#and almost DIES. bezz carrying him back strewn across the back of his horse head limp to the side#vale does not actually say it he talks around it for forty minutes lol. marc gets the gist#motogp#callie speaks#asks#rosquez
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