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《《°○Sirius Activation ○°》》
Feeling the rush of healing etheric waters flowing directly from the 7/7/7 Sirius gateway.
Filling and illuminating every fiber and cell of my body, nourishing in all the cracks and holes in my auric field and healing the physical body. ○
I send gratitude and immense unconditional love ripping throughout my physical body from the heart. 《《○》》
The more I appreciate and love my material physical body, the more I can transcend it and coalesce with the Astral plane. ◇
We must love and appreciate the body in this density order to return to plasmatic light beings of higher realms and less density.
Ascension is not about disembodiment and disconnection from earth or physical body.
Ascension is about integration and connection of the physical and metaphysical. The uniting of all of our aspects including corporeal and spiritual. ◇
》》》The Sirius lesson is awakening, healing and mastering the subconscious《《《
Learning to swim in the darkest depths with the light of the sun in your heart.
°○ The light turned on by love ○°
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Releasing Depression with Hypnosis: Embrace New Possibilities
Unlock the power of hypnosis for depression and embrace a brighter future. Depression affects millions globally, but hypnotherapy offers a way to relieve symptoms by tapping into the subconscious mind. Whether you're dealing with major depressive disorder, persistent depressive disorder, or seasonal affective disorder, hypnosis can help you overcome negative thoughts, manage stress, and boost your emotional well-being.
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#hypnosis for depression#hypnotherapy for depression#depression relief#mental health#managing depression#hypnosis therapy#depression treatment#emotional well-being#stress management#subconscious healing#boost self-esteem#depression support#Renewed Edge
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Help- I don't know what I feel ꒰(˶◞ ‸ ◟˶)꒱ - Journal Prompts
Figuring out your feelings is super important for solving problems. If you just bottle them up, they can turn into actions that hold you back.
So, take a moment to understand what you’re feeling—it can really help you move forward!
Here's some prompts
Which kind of situation have I encountered that make me think twice -> Was there any change recently (mindset etc.)
Where do you feel unsure -> What makes you feel that way
In which ways do I police myself -> is it stricter then with others
How do I feel about others -> do I put them on a pedestal; do I put - - myself down; are they "enemies"
What 3d actions does this feeling provoke is it demontivation, laziness etc.
Which mindset do I have in the situation: do I think about the past, present or future
Does the feeling appear in uncomfortable random situations (could it provoke subconscious fears and negative thoughts)
Access when the feeling feels the strongest is it with people, alone or in special places
Ignoring your emotions can leave you feeling unmotivated and low-energy, making it harder to reach your goals.
Finding out what causes is solving it to 50% because we can bring the subconscious in the conscious and deal with it and bring new abundance in our lives
#girlblogging#the subconscious is the most powerful place in our minds#like healing it is hard and a long journey but it’s absolutely worth it#pondering is so important#assessing the problems#etc#wonyoungism#girl blogger#becoming her#becoming that girl#pink academia#self improvement#dream girl#it girl#pink pilates princess#mental health#healing#mindset#self growth#self care#self love#self help#girlblog#growth mindset#get motivated#pink girl#girl things#btw me trying out different aesthetics for this blog#shadow work#that girl
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This 🙏🏻🙏🏻 I do not necessarily agree in the advocating of keeping abuse a secret from a partner. But it's true that disclosure isn't always best. If you make someone aware that you've been treated bad in past relationships, and that you've accepted it and put up with it and stayed in the relationship, then you are setting the bar (and it is a low one) to your new partner of things that can be and have been done to you with no consequence. Your experience is your own power and you need to make sure that you are bringing to light the right things to the right people
#A genuinely good man wouldn't play mind games either way#But I think of this as a good rule of thumb for overall dating and meeting new people#I have this one friend who explains in vivid detail the different times she's been cheated on every time she gets into a new relationship#and she keeps getting cheated on 😐#because subconsciously these men become aware from a very premature point that she has been and can be disrespected with no repercussion#they're getting tips#do not give them tips#narcissistic#manipulative#femininity#healing#self love#feminine energy#soft feminine#glow up#self development#self esteem#self compassion#hypergamy#high maintenance#becoming that girl#it girl#hypergamous
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I think the most healing aspect of reya’s four day shifting detox has not only been renewing my belief in the fact that shifting is real, but also healing the younger versions of myself that became “too attached” or “too obsessive” over “fictional” media.
truly believing in shifting has given me not only part of that childlike wonder for what’s yet unknown back, but the assurance that I’m not crazy for always having been so connected to things that aren’t of the 3D plane. back then, I was a kid who found comfort in the “fictional” and was shamed for having characters of comfort. and now? that little girl gets to go places she once only ever dreamed of.
that little girl wasn’t crazy or overtly obsessive. she was right. she always has been.
#sorry im sappy over this today#im really healing my subconscious on day four and it’s making me low key emotional LMAOOO 😭😭🤍#shifting#shifting blog#shifting motivation#desired reality#quantum jumping#reality shifting#shifter#shifting realities#shifting reality#shifttok#dreamer ! — ✩₊☾₊✩
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Hi guys, this is usually what a doodle page ends up looking like <3 (oh, and @ancha-aus thought you might like this! Not writing but certainly fuel to my fire lol-)
This one is New Age filled!!! (Close-ups abd Lore beneath the cut!)
1) Night and Cross!
Night is actually very clingy once he's a teen. He doesn't usually realize it, but around the castle he'll snake to be closer to his Knights so long as there's no one he needs to keep his composure infront of is nearby. Cross is the one who's not used to physical touch (when it's not Ink ofc) so Night in his personal bubble makes his heart melt but also scares tf out of him <3
2) Error and Night's Meeting!
Error was carrying his whole life on his back and trying not to get arrested for unintentional property damage at this point, so when he saw the chance to get back at his brother and prove he was strong enough? Yeah, he got that on chance instantly. And was VERY smug when Nightmare chose him. (Also, Error is wearing gloves, so less Haphephobia)
3) Dream and Blue designs!
I think these are good tentative designs! Dream probably has a more regal fit, but he likes to play up that rugged exile look- He's inspired by Archers, while Blue takes on that classic Knightly-vibe. Their equipment is mostly stolen from Night's troops or brought with them from Blue's home kingdom.
Also, Dream is approx Killer's height at this point, shorter than Cross and *much* shorter than Apple!Nightmare. (Hc that Skeletons tend to be tinier in stature thanks to weird monster beauty standards. Horror and Geno's fam are outliers.)
4) Horror and Dust designs!
Horror is naturally a very *large* monster. He's very malnourished when Nightmare meets him, but by the time he's a Knight Nightmare has made sure that's no longer the case. He actually loves comfy, simple clothes, but to play up the whole 'strong mysterious' bit he wears a more barbaric Knight's garb. He doesn't mind acting scary, it's more fun that way :]. Dust is very very small, and envies horror sometimes for his size, but his tiny stature let's him control his body and move a lot quicker. He's very much based on a rogue, and usually covers the lower part of his face w/ a black cloth, and the upper part w/ his hood or mask. Dust only removes both to bathe, eat, or relax in a safe location. (Ignore that I can't draw the stupid gaster blaster lmao-)
These last two were space-fillers, but Cross and his Borzoi (Windmill, otherwise known as Milly (Killer named her-)) and really bad first wips of Ccino! I think Ccino was a chubby, happy toddler, but lost a lot of 'weight' (bone mass? Magic?) due to stress and pressure and bad eating habits. So it isn't until a while after the Coronation that he starts to relax abd feel safe enough to eat normal meals (Nightmare used to guilt him into eating snacks together, but as his boss (and younger brother) he can encourage it more often). By the time Killer shows he's still not quite healthy, but he's better. As more weight is lifted off his shoulders, the better he is. (That 'beauty' most people saw was a more stereotypical slimness, but Killer never stopped seeing Ccino as beautiful-) I think he never looked traditionally underweight, so no one noticed, and it was only much later that Night processed it. (And maybe it's why Dream hardly recognized him later on-)
#new age au#I love showing mundane life things-#and also these designs beamed into my brain#I can't draw Ccino for anything but the others? yeag#Blue is definitely my fave. and just like every au I will draw Blue perfect the first time and draw Dust 6 billion times 😔#Horror is kinda banger too tho#makes me laugh to imagine Horror picking up Dust mid-fight out of convenience and Dust weighs nothing to him#(also this size difference is exactly why Dust and Horror fight in the non-magic training. and why Horror accidentally obliterated his#shoulder later on lmao- Dust needs to be able to dodge any enemy. Horror needs to aim for small and quick targets.)#(Meanwhile Cross is the newest and Killer the oldest and if Cross adapts to Killer then he'll adapt to the others more easily.)#oh! and Ccino w/ his arc? I think I really like the idea of a Ccino with a plump body-type. but that conflicts with my vidion of Ccino kinda#losing track of eating and being co-erced by adults to skip meals just enough to make him the 'right amount' of curvy#so when Nightmare takes over it's a habit he's so used to he hardly notices that he's doing it. but. Night picks up on it because Ccino is#almost akways with him. their relationship is very much Ccino giving his life to help Night#but it's also Night recognizing that and giving it back to Ccino along with more the moment he can#just smth smth this au is full of fit and exercized people and I think Ccino deserves some comfort and healing and positivity <3#also I am SO fond of Nightmare getting up in people's bubbles. he does it most to Killer and Ccino for obvious reasons but#god forbid a noble be talking behind his back because he *will* twist around and shove under his knight's arms or sides just to#read them the riot act or stare them down <3#and I think when he was an adult Night was... kinda like the big brother? like. not an experienced one by any means. but he wasn't *not*#affectionate then either. he was better at being serious about it and more discreet. but like#Nervous Cross escorting him in public? Night nudges his shoulder briefly with a Tendril to try and comfort him. Dust having a magic overload#? personal Training against just Night so there was no risk of harming anyone else. then snacks and tea after.#Horror is homesick? Woah look at that a scheduled trip back to visit with Crop and side-track back to Horror's village? huh?? wild...#Killer upset at all? Night will find a solution. just you wait. a cat. two cats. perhaps even a cat in a little sweater? or y'know. just a#chat or a combat?#Nightmare showed his affections but was just more distant about it.#Oh also. all four were used to tendrils lifting/tugging them subconsciously. usually during trainings to avoid them hurting eachother by#mistake in their early days. Killer misses it sometimes
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Can we get some more Jason 'Angel' Fenton ?
Also do you have a ao3?
I mainly use my ao3 account to collect bookmarks and haven't posted anything in a while, sorry.
To make it up to you, here's some more backstory from Jason 'Angel' Fenton.
Due to Amity's tendency to drift around and how that motion is based on its citizens' subconscious, the city actually got relatively close to Gotham for a brief period of time.
It was long enough for Oswald Cobblepot to reconnect with his cousin and goddaughter, and for Waylon Jones to decide on moving closer to his half sister.
It was also just long enough for Angel to be recognized by LOA operatives and kidnapped.
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Angel had no memory of who he was before waking up in a GIW lab, only briefly flashbacks to rain and wet earth and a statue of his namesake. His past remained a mystery throughout the Seige of Amity Park and the City Council's attempts to clean up the mess left behind. And while he would love to get some answers, the young mad had more important things to worry about.
Angel was a grad student halfway to a doctorate in English and a new husband with a toddler. Between all of that and his blackouts, he genuinely didn't have time to pursue his origins.
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Angel's blackouts were an ongoing problem for him. Every so often, he would 'wake up' somewhere else with no memory of the past several hours. According to Jazz and their friends, he would still do things during these blackouts, but it would be clear that the lights were on, yet no one was home.
It was more annoying than anything.
This time however, he woke up on a plane surrounded by people speaking a foreign language.
A subtle glance out the window revealed they were over the ocean, so he decided playing dumb would be the best decision for now.
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He would continue to play dumb for the next several weeks, feigning catatonia as he tried to find a form of communication that wasn't being closely monitored.
Most of the people, ninjas? In the base have elected to ignore Lady Talia's new pet including the apparent king of this weird cavernous base.
Talia herself seemed to grow gradually more concerned and frustrated with his lack of reaction. She constantly tried to get him to respond to her, calling him Jason and insisting that her son call him brother.
#Uncle Oswald#Uncle Waylon#Jason Angel Fenton#dp x dc#anger management ship#Yes Jason still gets some league training and a dip in the pits#Damian may not like having older brothers but he's ecstatic to be able uncle#The reason Jason has blackouts and amnesia is because of supply shortages when he was rescued from the GIW#the Seige of Amity Park#The Seige was in full swing and they had to prioritize critical injuries and frontline fighters#Angel did act as rear guard and protected the refugee camps and medical centers during the conflict#but no one realized another dose of dejecto might fix the blackouts#The pit did fix Angel's blackouts but he subconsciously doesn't WANT to remember his past#And Liminals' bodies respond to their subconscious#Especially when it concerns their healing factor#halfa jason todd#Halfa Jason
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Sam: "Look at me. Hey- look at me a second. I know. I know you're tough. I know how strong you are. You have every right to be proud of that. But being able to handle somethin' doesn't mean you should have to. Least of all when I'm right here trying to help. Please let me help. If not for you then for me, because I don't like knowin' you're hurtin', especially when there's somethin' I can do about it."
Me, shaking my head, fighting back literal tears: "B-but it's gonna give you another headache!"
#redacted sam#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fandom#[Sam's name doubles as a link to the specific lines i quoted btw. just for full credit/transparency & for anyone who wants to (re)listen]#Sam's deep-seated need to heal vs my inability to accept help would be a battle for the ages. unstoppable force vs immovable object#wait Sam already mentioned the force vs object thing to David during the inversion didn't he lmao 'they call /me/ Immovable Object'#he does suit Immovable a little more than Unstoppable i guess. i mean he can def be both imo but ykwim. anyways i digress#listen. i'm not a Marriage kinda guy. but good god the way some of Sam's lines make me wanna take a fucking knee and propose#i'm love him ur honor. he is comfort incarnate#can't believe i waited so long to listen to the Valentines Vampire Attack audio. it's got so much of that sweet sweet hurt/comfort#very reminiscent of their 2nd audio given all the healing he does for them & the consent checks before moving clothing and whatnot#which makes it a top favorite for me bc that's probably my most replayed Sam audio. and the one that initially hooked me#i didn't put off listening to it bc i thought i Wouldn't like it btw i just procrastinate everything for no real reason#listening to it now tho actually worked out well bc i could uh. definitely use it. so maybe i was subconsciously saving it for hard times#this post isn't a joke btw it really does hurt to hear him put himself in pain for the sake of healing Darlin' :(((#anD PAINKILLERS DON'T EVEN WORK ON HIM!!! ough man i would struggle so hard to accept his healing if i were in Darlin's shoes#like yeah there's other reasons i'd struggle to accept it too but him being in pain as a result would be one of 'em. the Guilt bro i can't#rp audio stuff#Seven.txt#(Seven blorbo-posting at 2am when they should either be doing something productive or sleeping?? more likely than you might think)
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hey so anyone want to talk about how Sky didn’t have her glasses in the arcane void the way Viktor didn’t have his brace or cane
#there was always a sign before Jayce shot Viktor 2.0 that he subconsciously thought of his disabilities#or any disability as a flaw#arcane#arcane spoilers#viktor arcane#sky arcane#like he showed us before he told us#like it was never truly about healing addicts or people with terminal illnesses or wolf men with amnesia and ptsd#it was also always about anything perceived as a flaw
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˚✧₊⁎The Power of Your Subconscious 𓂀 ——-
Ideas Worth Remembering:
1. Your subconscious mind controls all the vital processes of your body and knows the answer to all problems.
2. Prior to sleep, turn over a specific request to your subconscious mind and prove its miracle-working power to yourself.
3. Whatever you impress on your subconscious mind is expressed on the screen of space as conditions, experiences, and events. Therefore, you should carefully watch all ideas and thoughts entertained in your conscious mind.
4. The law of action and reaction is universal. Your thought is action, and the reaction is the automatic response of your subconscious mind to your thought. Watch your thoughts!
5. All frustration is due to unfulfilled desires. If you dwell on obstacles, delays, and difficulties, your subconscious mind responds accordingly, and you are blocking your own good.
6. The Life Principle will flow through you rhythmically and harmoniously if you consciously affirm: "I believe that the subconscious power which gave me this desire is now fulfilling it through me." This dissolves all conflicts.
7. You can interfere with the normal rhythm of your heart, lungs, and other organs by worry, anxiety, and fear. Feed your subconscious with thoughts of harmony, health, and peace, and all the functions of your body will become normal again.
8. Keep your conscious mind busy with the expectation of the best, and your subconscious will faithfully reproduce your habitual thinking.
9. Imagine the happy ending or solution to your problem, feel the thrill of accomplishment, and what you imagine and “feel will be accepted by your subconscious mind and bring it to pass.”
Excerpt From
The Power of Your Subconscious Mind
Murphy, Joseph
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#metaphyics#metaphysical#subconsciosnessmind#subconscious#psychology#books#manifesation#manifesting#law of attraction#energy work#feminine energy#meditation#occult#self healing#healing
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years ago Toriyama said 'i didn't really like vegeta but he was really helpful to the story' and honestly?? more of that. more of those. you don't have to like him but is he good for your story? he'll be good for your audience too, bet
#i LOVE when characters that are intended to be killed off accidentally become an integral part of the story#he changed his mind about geets too -- even once said him beating goku would never happen but then canonized it years later#the VERY definition of a character having earned it#but also I thought it was really interesting that he described vegeta as a character who wrote himself! i am injecting that into my veins#he talks about subconsciously adding him to scenes and just letting him move the pen on his own so to speak and jksfsd how fitting#not to armchair psychology but i love the idea that vegeta was a toxic part of the author that healed as he was writing him#may we all encounter and develop that oc in our lifetimes#also genuinely and truly love that he was shocked that 'someone with that hair' was popular and how often he outflanked goku in polls aklsj#rip toriyama you were always so real for it#i always love his interviews but the one that said he sought bulma's help and bit by bit became less ruthless ;^; i love they#i will never forgive toei for writing him like he doesn't respect her when she's the first person he DOES respect. meet me in the pit toei
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Subconscious Manifestation ; How the Womb connects us to the psyche of our hopes and dreams. Divine Fem Talks.
Hey! So this is a small read on subconscious manifestation, using the womb. If you're someone who identifies with your womb than this is for you. The point of this read is to help understand how to the brain and the womb come together in terms of manifesting our realities. I start off with speaking about the subconscious and daydreaming alone, and then connect them all together. Anyways I hope you enjoy this reading and if you have some questions do feel free to ask !
Subconscious Manifestation - Using the mind to connect to the psyche of dreamed realities and making them more realistic day by day.
So you daydream correct? Maladaptive Daydreamers can make a 9-5 out of this constant roleplay of characters they've created with themselves and the world around them.
However, when we spend too much time in the mind, we have forgotten how to manuveur in the body. When we're not activating our conscious brains to morph into the realities we seek. We get lost in what we think is realistic. And whats realistic is not always true. It's something we've all grown accustomed to. So heres my tips on how to process the reality you want but taking a closer look from where it's coming from.
Why did I add the womb? Because the womb carries knowledge of what we need in this reality. And working with both changes the universe's law. Which is connected to the woman. So I'll explain in detail what I mean by this, changing universal law etc.
We are the universe, we carry knowledge, abilities, ideas, things from out of this world comes into this body of ours and we as women give it life. The soul of a baby has connected itself to the womb before you known you were pregnant, and again, you give birth bring life to the world and we celebrate newness in this earth.
So your brain is the same way, it connects the soul to an idea and the idea waits for it to be birthed. When we are day dreaming, we are connecting to the universe. We are connecting to a certain part of our brain that lets out a certain arousement for the dream to even live on. So in this case, I'll ask you this... What is something that you're dreaming of? what are you waiting for? Yin energy is darkness, it is connected to the shadows, and its birth is how it comes to the light.
Now with yin energy, this is unconscious mind written all over it. The mind knows its place but you don't. You surrendered to society's stigmas on how the mind really works but have you really checked in to view that society might not be listening to whats really changing in our bodies and minds? Our minds are capable of a thousand different things. And i want to relax on this and allow others to shape their minds to a new perspective and make things different for your future.
My favorite thing about the womb and the subconscious/unconscious mind is that astrology aligns it with the moon and neptune. The womb would be connected to venus.
Both energies are necessary for growth in manifestations, but when do we draw the line?
I've embraced apart of myself that knows that my manifestations can come to reality when you just believe, however it is so much deeper than we understand.
We can go out there and do the thing, but when their is something rejecting itself in our bodies, how can we work to get these energies moving?
The womb is connected to our emotions, and our mind is the one that brings out emotion into an idea. So both come together to make a fine daydream come into fruition and our intuition (the moon) / gut feeling gives us the green light if its a good emotion around it.
What happens when the emotions are discomforting? Then the mind is also going to make it discomforting. This is the unconscious speaking through the soul, and your mission is to go through the darkest parts of the self to figure out where it leads. The ocean of layers that goes on in the psyche is a mystery on its on, but its a story waiting to be held lke a book and wading for the individual to read the book of waves it has settled into the gates of the mind. It's mission is to let you know how it is feeling in there, and grazing into the subconscious gives us the enlightment we need to push it forward to our conscious.
When a person has not faced their emotions, let alone know how to control them.. They wither away the potential of creating long term satisfactory when coming along the waves of emotions hiding in the belly.
The womb is a safe space, its sacrad voice need not be scoulded. It lets us know as women how to heal, what it truly wants, how to relieve itself from the poison and to move to its desired vibration.
When the womb isn't getting the nutrients it needs, it will fall short of having claritive dispositions. Blinding the individual with distractions and whether or not the woman knows how to deal with this contraction, she will lose hope when she is uncertain with where her energy is needed. The pain of the womb being from generations of trauma women have faced, this dire need to get the womb and the mind back on track is a need. The womb and the mind in a woman is a powerful took in attracting, and many centuries ago women from past lives where able to commence a deity or natural power towards them because cosmic energy lives through them. We are the sacred portals of divine fruits, and we've lost that along the way.
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if i saw you in heaven
Since when had the healers at the infirmary had gotten used to his presence?
There is lingering wariness in the way they look at him, even now — someone out of place, in this space of tender hands and soothing voices, a space meant to alleviate pain and undo harm. He shouldn’t be welcome here, now or ever.
And yet they tolerate him. They allow him to stay, even when he isn’t, strictly speaking, useful here. He does not aid in the healing of patients — he’s quite sure they don’t trust him that much, even if he offered — and whatever odd errands he takes up for their sakes are few and far between.
Andrei watches, instead, as the healers work their faith magic, fingers subconsciously mimicking their gestures as he feels the subtle shift of energy in the air. Over and over, their gestures repeat, a hand hovering, curved and gentle, over a wound.
He watches, focusing on their hands, and sees someone else's in their stead.
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Father hadn’t disapproved of Edain’s decision, not even once. He’d always been devout in faith, and receptive of his second daughter’s whims.
Why had he been the one who had to take up the legacy that Lady Sister could not, while Edain had been allowed to choose her own path?
Is it because it is my fault that she is gone—
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Bursting through the forest in a storm of hoofbeats, Andrei pulls hard on the reins to bring his steed to a stop. Buttermilk tosses his head, shuffling to a halt in an unnatural way that doesn’t escape his rider’s attention.
“What is it?” Andrei asks, casting a sharp look over his shoulder to check for any straggling enemies he might have missed, before swinging himself to the ground for a better look at what was bothering the horse. An angry, jagged slash along his flank, beads of blood dripping from the edge, clearly inflicted by the arrow that had missed his own leg by mere inches. It seems Buttermilk had been able to maintain his course without spooking by sheer adrenaline alone, though now that the immediate danger has passed, he could no longer hide his discomfort.
Keeping a hand firmly on the reins, Andrei raises his other. “Hold still, Buttermilk,” he says. Obligingly, trustingly, the stallion plants his hooves into the ground with a huff. The soft, white glow comes more naturally to him now, and Andrei guides it over the wound, watching as the Recover spell knits torn flesh together without a trace. He wipes away the blood that had dripped down with his bare hands — a more thorough cleaning will need to wait until after they’d made it back to the stables.
Healing magic is useful, for situations like this. For a rider who relied so heavily on his steed for mobility in combat, it would be dangerous for Andrei to suddenly lose that familiar rhythm, deep within enemy territory and facing the prospect of a much longer trek back. There’s likely the same element of pragmatism, he supposes, for all battlefield healers, no matter how bundled in altruistic ideals.
And yet, when Buttermilk turns his head to nuzzle briefly at his arm, Andrei cannot help the fond pat to his neck in return, the gentleness of his gesture a far cry from the steady fingers drawing his bowstring mere minutes ago. “Come now, you’ll have time to rest soon,” he says, remounting and giving a light nudge that sets Buttermilk to a trot.
He can't quite ignore the warmth that simmers within himself, as well, knowing that he could do more than destroy with his hands.
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Lord Chalphy’s army was marching onto Belhalla, and even though they were still too far away to see, Andrei could feel their approach through the faint rumbling in the earth, the thrum of tension in the air. His hand tightened on his bow.
Lady Sister Brigid would be among them. She, who had discarded her legacy for good, choosing pirates and traitors for her allies. And with her, Edain as well.
Edain, who hadn’t been taken by force. Edain, who’d chosen to leave.
(Was there really nothing I could have ever done, that you would have stayed? Why would you believe in everything and everyone else, but not me?)
He forces those thoughts from his mind. She’s not important to the battle. Not like Lady Sister is. As the current Duke of Yngvi, it is his duty to defend the duchy, defend his homeland, against threats to its stability.
If he must lose all his remaining family to secure Yngvi’s honor… then so be it.
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Andrei’s eyes open, ample practice keeping his breaths measured and silent as the haze of his dreams releases its hold on his mind. The candlelight had been extinguished by the last student heading to bed, leaving his surroundings in near total darkness.
That final battle, again. It is a nightmare that had never stopped, even throughout the years he'd now spent in Fódlan. Lady Sister Brigid's expression, Yewfelle's arrow, the burning pain in his chest — forever seared into his memory.
But every once in a while, his gaze strays, turning to his other sister. It might be because he'd used healing magic today. He could never be certain.
Edain looks upon the scene, resigned and passive as she watches one sibling end the life of the other, and yet she does not leave. Even when Lady Sister's arrow hits true, Andrei's life bleeding out of him, she never looked away.
Perhaps that could count as a mercy. Andrei's chest aches, now, even though the mark of the final battle had long since faded to only a faint bruise. Raising a trembling hand, he places it over where his wound had been. Takes a deep breath, and allows faith magic to flow to his fingertips.
There is no healing effect when used on the caster. At least, the warmth is the same.
If he closes his eyes against the glow, perhaps he could imagine, just for a moment, that it is her hand, and her warmth, upon his chest.
He'd been wrong, when he'd told her he didn't care about her all those years ago. Perhaps he'd wanted — needed — something like this, all along.
Would this be enough, for you to forgive me?
The faint, fading light illuminates Andrei's rueful smile. It wouldn't be, he knows. But he'd like to imagine so. Just for a moment.
andrei has mastered bishop!
#happy birthday to leon!edain and nat!brigid#blows a kiss skyward to them#➵ taking the reins (drabble)#anyway since leon has dropped edain this is the official toacanon reason andrei picked up healing#bc he subconsciously wants the approval of at least one person in his entire family
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Smth I rlly like about wallows is how they’re songs sound so sad but if you look at the lyrics they’re just sad at the beginning and they repeat parts and it’s more positive more ‘on the road to recovery’ but you don’t notice unless your looking at the lyrics which means you care enough to try to get out which means you care enough about yourself to try to feel better which is usually the meaning of a lot of the songs like FUCK man AGJGH
#thinking about Do Not Wait again#it applies to some of their other songs too!!#I forget which ones specifically but I remember there was one that was ‘sleeping with the lights on (because I miss you or smth idk) and la#ter in the song it’s ’sleeping with the lights off’ like he’s not sad anymore he’s not trying to remind himself of a memory that sucks#there’s another one that’s like ‘falling into my bed’ and later in the song it’s ’falling into your bed’#just idk IDK it’s neat#people say the first step to getting out of an addiction is admitting you have a problem but I think it’s subconsciously looking for ways to#heal comfortably#📻
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“Your subconscious wants to peel back those layers until you make a conscious decision to heal yourself”
-d.n
#spilled thoughts#personal#spilled ink#mine#spilled words#words#psychology#unconscious#subconscious#mental health#healing#positive#life#life quotes#life quote motivation#motovation#moveforward#poems and quotes#quoteoftheday#deep thinking#i write too much#women writers#freewritting#free write#writers problems#stream of conscious writing#collective consciousness#consciousness
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Our subconscious programs come from the ways we had to cope with our environment as children. These programs are how we self soothed and met our own needs during times of stress, fear, or neglect. It can be difficult to act on the changes we know we need to make as adults if we haven’t addressed the underlying origin of the behavior which stems from the program. Unless we re-program our subconscious mind we will continue with patterns of self sabotage, perpetuating cycles of shame and the illusion of powerlessness. You can change! You can stick with it! But first you must address the subconscious program at the root of the issue.
#socialdragonfly#spirituality#ascension#spiritualawakening#inner child#spiritual healing#self healing#healing#subconscious#subconscious mind#subconscious reprogramming#self sabotage#shame#selfcontrol#changeyourlife#change
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