#sorry for the mini vent

[loganslowdown4]

It feels good to be mentally done with something and just finally decide to erase all notes, playlists and pictures off your phone, close all website tabs, yeah—

No more burden of unfinished things weighing you down lol

[voidscarredadjudicator]

I have an important question. One that is not to take lightly in any regard... How's life been? :)

I wish I could say things are going well but honesty demands otherwise. One of those things where things started looking up and then my hopes were suddenly and swiftly dashed. The nonspecific 'personal life stuff' strikes again in full force. Things will be very different for myself and others in my life in the coming future.

I'm just tired, man. And it's the kind of tired that sleep can't fix.

[coffinbrotherr]

"You can always vent to me!" Mfers when your problems aren't just "I'm sad :(":

[timaeusterrored]

Me when I have two Halloween things to finish tonight, a chapter of college au NEEDS to be finished, and then I gotta start Vax’s b-day thing since it’s November 28th and idk why I’ve decided to do this all to myself

[yourlocalenbat]

I'd never intentionally say for someone to go kys and actually mean it

...

BUT THERES THIS ONE F U C K I N G GIRL-

[rosyhoneydew]

Against his better judgment, Tommy had actually been excited for the visit.

It had been over a year since he last saw Ron, longer since he'd seen his nieces and sister-in-law. They got along fine and all, they just got older and busier and life gets in the way, doesn't it? So when his big brother floated the idea of a stopover in LA on his way back from a business trip overseas, Tommy had looked forward to it.

Two full days to take him around, show him his city, let him see a little bit of what his life looked like these days. He'd definitely gotten overeager. He'd packed their weekend with stops in Hollywood, a proper tour of the city from the bird, and a few drinks with their friends, and Evan, of course. It'd been a while since anybody came to visit, in his defense.

They're at one of Evan's favorite breakfast spots when he starts to pick up on it.

Ron knows he's gay, Tommy had come out to his whole family a few years back, not really expecting much. A cursory this is who I am, take it or leave it was all that really needed to be said. He had been pleasantly surprised when his brother didn't so much as bat an eye. Sure, they didn't talk about it, but they never really talked about anything in his family. Par for the course on that one.

So it twisted in his gut when he noticed.

Tommy and I actually thought about taking a trip to Yosemite this fall. Maybe make a vacation out of our anniversary, Evan said. Ron had just grunted.

You should see Evan's place, Tommy had rolled his eyes, not without affection, I swear I should just move in there. Ron had cleared his throat and asked 'where the hell a guy could take a leak in this place.'

It's not a big deal, but Tommy feels his face growing hot. He feels stupid. Evan rests a hand on his back while Ron's away, but Tommy can't tamp down the impulse to shake him off when his brother makes his way back to the table.

The ride home is quiet, each of them unsure of what to say. Tommy invites Ron inside for a last coffee before his flight, but he declines. Gotta see what that LA traffic is about, don't I? Tommy nods, claps a hand on his brother's shoulder. See ya later, man. Ron's mouth tightens into something like a smile, nods once at Evan, and drives off.

He's quiet when they enter the kitchen, hands resting on the cool countertop. He feels Evan come up behind him, rest his forehead on Tommy's shoulder, wrap his arms tight around Tommy's chest.

I'm sorry.

Tommy sighs and fits his hand over Evan's. He lets himself wallow, just for a little while in his partner's arms. He's not okay today, but tomorrow he'll wake up in those same arms, he'll tell his friends at work about the docuseries Evan's been loving lately, he'll spend guy's night at Eddie's with his partner like they do every other week now. And he'll be okay.

[leosh444]

"Omggg, I haven't eaten in two days, I have anorexia!!! Look, we're eating disorder besties!"

I worked out for literal hours until I was soaked in sweat, coughing and on the brink of fainting.

I can't stand up without seeing flashes of white in my vision.

My hands start to visibly shake whenever i have to eat dinner.

It's gotten to the point where my parents have to forcibly sit me down and force feed me.

I can nearly automatically count calories of most foods.

Thinking about food makes my stomach hurl.

I go on defeceit for literal days, and then binge, then purge.

I walk around with my whole body feeling light and dazed, and my legs heavy and tingling.

My whole body hurts.

I have literal meltdowns when I go over my calorie count.

I'm not allowed to leave the table for half an hour after dinner.

I refuse a plate bigger than my nine year old sisters.

I have screaming matches with my parents over how I need to eat. (Said parents caused this)

I stay up for hours doing workouts as quietly as possible in my room until i pass out.

I tried to cut the fat off my stomach.

I watch Mukbangs and look at photos of disgusting food to avoid eating.

WE ARE NOT THE SAME, TANNA FUCKING WILDE.

[digitalclowns]

UPDATED MY TOS SO NOW I ACCEPT NSFW COMMISSIONS TOO (goodbye to my dignity) UNDER VERY SPECIFIC CONDITIONS.

ANY NSFW COMMISSIONS WILL BE POSTED IN MY NSFW TWITTER/ @/rainsnsfw

READ CARRD IF YOU ARE INTERESTED. Thank you.

You can tell I’m desperate that I got to this point, but I’m running out of all my meds and my parents took some bad financial decisions lately so. Yeah

Reshare if you can please. Thank you again.

Heyyy friends

So uhm, I am a bit in the need for money right now, as next month I need to pay a bunch of bills and I’m not gonna be able to pay for my shit with my monthly allowance of 16 dollars /srs

I’m using this as a friendly reminder to tell y’all that my commissions are open, and I’d be very grateful if you considered commissioning and/or supporting me.

My commission info: https://digitalclowns3.carrd.co/

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And if you can’t commission me, please consider liking and resharing this post

Thank you guys

[flower-zombiee]

i literally just do not understand the amount of shit fiddlestan gets in this fandom man 😭

like it’s fine to not get it or even dislike it but ppl really feel so comfortable openly hating it…?

like it’s such an inoffensive little made up ship. we r literally just having a good time. if u don’t like it there’s this fun little feature called blocking the tag that’s totally free to use

[rayllurn]

Me screaming at tdp YouTube like, “Rayllum never broke up!! They never broke up! They never broke up!!” *is getting dragged away* “Listen me! They never broke up! They never bro-“

Seriously every time I hear someone say they broke up I lose brain cells. She left because she loved him so much she thought it was the only way to keep him safe.

Even Callum acknowledges this!!

Lujanne: “So this is a thing again? You two?”

Callum: “It always was.”

It always was!!! They never STOPPED being a thing, from their perspectives.

And I get that there’s a lot of feelings about Through the Moon and that it should have been incorporated into the actual show (and I agree with that to some degree) but like…where would have they put it? It doesn’t fit in season 3…it would be an anticlimactic tag on to the big finale. It would be weird to start season 4 with it and then have a two year time skip between episodes 1 and 2. It just doesn’t fit in the canon storyline. The only thing I can think of is that they maybe could’ve imported more pieces of it as flashbacks (I would have preferred this I think, but this is the story the creators gave us and I love it regardless!!!).

[aizenette]

Is it just me who's annoyed by how the bleach fandom expects Aizen to just complete his sentence in muken to just become a villain AGAIN? To become some god? If kubo continued the story and it went in that direction, it would be ridiculously predictable and repetitive of Aizen's character in the original plot of the fake Karakura town arc.

During imprisonment in CFYOW, Aizen would most likely see the wrong in his ways as he reflects how he lost everything just because of his hunger for power.

He lost all of his positions.

He lost respect.

And he lost freedom.

If Aizen were to complete his sentence just to become a villain once again, he'd definitely be defeated by some new gen hero and be cast back into Muken for an even longer sentence because he's immortal so he can't die and besides, the hero will ALWAYS WIN. And if Aizen really completed his whole 20,000 year sentence and was released, anyone he knew would be dead by then so it wouldn't matter. It would be a new world he'd have to adjust to and it sounds horrible trying to adapt to living in it once again after so much time has gone by as the soul society would've drastically changed in that span of time.

I personally prefer the plot of the novel named 'the captor and captive's liberation of muken' where twenty-four years after Aizen was imprisoned, a character named Tanisha Chodhori becomes the warden of Muken and she liberates Aizen because she offers him redemption in exchange for his companionship to explore a new trajectory in their lives, without the soul society.

And in TCACLOM, Aizen would have a much more satisfying character conclusion than what we got of him acting all eepy in Muken in the epilogue of the original manga.

He would have freedom.

He would no longer be lonely.

He would still be the intelligent, powerful shinigami he was, he'd just be a more better version of himself.

[shlubbyart]

Hey, quick talk.

The current climate of Twitter and its impending policy changes has made the landscape for artists on the platform... unstable, to say the least. A lot of artists are calling quits (for real this time, supposedly) and moving elsewhere to continue sharing their work and making a living.

While I don't plan to jump ship unless I'm forced to, I just wanted to give a soft reminder that you can find me and my work across other social media platforms if you'd like to follow me on places that aren't Twitter/Tumblr.

I also wanted to say that I really appreciate the support I get across all of my socials. Anything from leaving nice comments to buying my commissions or merch. It's the kind of stuff that keeps me optimistic when my future as an independant artist gets rocky.

Regardless, I hope you all are looking forward to the stuff I make in the future. And once again thank you for the support. 💜

Much love from your pal Shlubby ✩

Bluesky // Cara // ToyHouse // Twitter

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I am exhausted, good heavens.

[coffinbrotherr]

I am so sorry if I am boring to talk to, sometimes I just genuinely don't know how to respond so I apologize for that

[bl0odshed]

i’m different than them. i feel like i’m looking at the world through shattered lenses

[b4relyreal]

I just feel so alone, but if i tell anyone i feel like im disregarding their own feelings or making myself out to feel like everything is worse for me when it might not even be. I just want someone to see me without me feeling like im begging for their attention.