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seethinglikeme · 2 years ago

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girl help i need to shit but i keep forgetting to eat 😔

#i’d say not to be tmi but this is my house #i used to have such bad problems w constipation when i was younger like it was so shitty (heh) so now that i can shit regularly #i try to shit like at least once a day #and usually it’s fine but lately i keep forgetting to eat #it’s actually interesting #i think it’s bc the month and a half i was in romania we didn’t keep a lot of food in the apartment #we mostly ate out since we were rlly close to this restaurant my mom and her friends have been regulars at for like 30 yrs #and at friend’s or family’s places since we were staying super close to several of my mom’s friends and all of my grandparents #plus since my mom was meeting up w friends a lot she’d go to a lot of restaurants #we had food but i’m a picky eater so sometimes i just wouldn’t eat it #so i mostly ate snacks which even then got boring and gross to me #so i got used to eating a lot less #plus since bucharest’s public transport is way better than where i live and it’s way more walkable i’d go out more #and like walk and shit #so i lost weight while i was there and then when we got back i got sick and threw up and barely ate for 2 days #so maybe that’s why i got used to eating less #the thing is tho since it’s summer i’ve been eating more ice cream and icey poles 😭 so u’d think tga #t even if i barely ate otherwise having like at least one ice cream a day would make my weight stay the same #but i’m still losing weight #maybe i have a tapeworm or something idk #i should probably trigger tag this #tw food #tw eating issues #tw disordered eating #tw eating #tw ed #i dont have an ed but better safe than sorry for any who do #me

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that-butch-archivist · 4 months ago

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Making a birthday cake for a friend tonight (something I haven't done for a while), and I forgot how much I love baking & cake decorating. I'll post pics when I'm done, I'm very excited. 🥰

#archivist talk #the archivist regrets starting nursing school #the archivist #the archivist is a tad stressed but also this fun thing is happening so that's just dandy #i think i might have to give up on the kitchen being a place where one can sit and eat #i never use it for that personally #not because i don't want to #it just lacks the space for it and i don't have a real dining room #(my kitchen is long and narrow)#if i can figure out a good reasonable way to re-arrange the living room such that i can have both a living room AND a small dining corner #i may do that #however given the amount of bookshelves i've got going on & all my other lusts i imagine this won't happen #le sigh #i love my apartment so much #i think if i had a small dining area/dining room that would make the kitchen perfect #and if i had a den that i could put my desk/file cabinet/all adulting work in #that would free up my bedroom to be even more coquettish & focused #and also entirely comfortable #that would change a lot actually goddamn #but alas this building is not going to change #so maybe if one day i could afford a 2 bedroom that had a den .... bonus points if it has wood floors #and those arched doorways that i so love #i would be in heaven #i have to finish nursing school so i can pay for things with less stres #and also help my siblings more #and then maybe so i can get a nice home that would be super cool #but for now i must simply chill as they say

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hunxi-after-hours · 2 months ago

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oh the TGCF ad is so good it's actively upsetting skdjdkjdd

#(exhausted thumbs up covered in blood) survived volume 2 #actively terrified for them to adapt volume 4 #thank goodness the rest of the season is adapting volume 3 #北极圈blogging #black water arc will be devastating but at least it'll be fun. I am SO excited for mr peng “has beleaguered side character on lock” yao #to give us his ming yi. mhm. yeah it's going to be SO cathartic metatextually #I've been thinking about why black water arc feels less painful than the flashback volumes beyond like the scope of the tragedy #and I think it's a lot in part due to distance #because it feels like we're watching black water arc from a distance/remove (eating popcorn) because hualian are just kinda there #observing. as one does. but the flashback volumes have no layer of remove. it's just the 杯水二人 question over and over again until you break #all things considered it was really impressive that they got volume 2 done in 6 episodes without abridging it too much #but also thank goodness they got it done in 6 episodes any longer and my nerve was going to begin to fail me

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moiraimyths · 3 months ago

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Before we call anon rude because let’s see it from their perspective, imagine getting an entire feast to eat. That can be pretty hard to start with so much that’s going on, but if they start with one thing they know they’ll like (aka one character they like) that can be the start for them leaping to other characters to finish the story and the bigger story. I struggle the same way to start book series if I don’t have at least one character that drives me to read it, it’s all about what can be the hook to push them through. Sounds like the anon is neurodivergent (just a guess) so they might genuinely not see it as rude and see it as a solution to even play the game to start with.

Btw absolutely adore the game, the complex and rich characters making them all so unique is amazing. The art is so pleasing to the eyes I love it!! I’m waiting for it all to get out at once so I don’t get too impatient. Shae however interests me the most, which routes will have the most lore for them? Will there be routes that give more lore in general based on decisions you make or do they all share the same amount? (I mean general lore not just Shae lore)

Apologies; we are not trying to accuse any asker of being rude! We are simply explaining our perspective as the developers / are trying to broadly encourage folks to dip their toes into other areas of the story outside of the main route(s) they're interested in, especially considering some routes will be made available sooner than others, and these other routes will likely contain additional scenes/lore of everyone's fave(s) regardless! We want to give each main cast member an equal amount of love (and lore) regardless of their overall popularity, so our goal is not to tut-tut anyone for having strong preferences for one character over the others, but rather to explain that you may be surprised by how much *more* you learn about your preferred characters in the other routes. That's all!

For Shae... Well, they were a foot soldier for one of the worst periods of the War. Lore wise, any other story that touches on the War will likely have content relevant to them and their experiences. ^^

#ask #clotho answers #edit/final note: we got a *few* asks on this subject and will not likely answer all of them for the sake of our followers' dashboards #but we also want to note that part of our encouragements here come from the fact that Flan/Keagan are our most popular characters by a lot #and we want to do what we can to gently nudge folks who may not want to romance the fem / nb characters into checking out their stories #despite not being into them romantically. this is half of why we have platonic routes to begin with #we recognize veterans to the dating sim world may feel less inclined to romance characters that don't align with their irl orientations #this isn't a bad thing. some people steer clear of dating sims altogether because they're aro or just not interested in romance stories etc #but the unintentional side effect of this is it has a chilling effect on developers even in the indie sphere to make less diverse stories #if Flan and Keagan are our most popular characters then they will be our most *profitable* characters in the long run #and as much as we would love to not care about money and just produce the story we want to tell #we live in a society (tm) and need to eat #if at the end of ndm's development we see that 90% of our engagement went toward the boys it is hard to ignore the financial incentive #to redirect our energy toward leaning into the 'tried and true' formula that assures we can buy groceries and make rent #basically what i am candidly saying here is capitalism is pretty bad for creative liberty unless you're already rich / able to self finance #which we are not. and currently none of the core devs make *anything* from ndm #it would be nice if it does turn a profit but that isn't a guarantee - which the team has accepted as a normal risk in game development #anyway this is getting rambly but the Point is that this goes beyond us wanting to make sure all sides of our story are equally appreciated #it is *partly* that - we do want players to experience the entirety of our artwork #but it's not just for our egos - it's so we can keep making art like this #i considered including this in the body of the post but money talk suuucks man #and i don't want anyone to think we're glaring at them in a holier than thou 'ah-ha! you don't want to play maeve's route because she's a #woman!' sort of way because i think that's a reductive way to look at things #people like what they like and there's nothing intrinsically wrong with that #but if you like that we're making a diverse story #with masc routes fem routes and nb routes #even if you don't personally want to romance x or y #it would help us if y'all play the platonic routes #we are trying our very very best to make the fem/nb routes interesting for Everyone so those stories don't get sidelined #and if you don't like them for their own sake - fair enough! can't win em all and we'll deeply appreciate that you tried anyway!

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kowabungadoodles · 9 months ago

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dumping some thoughts in the tags

#I've been TRYING hard okay #I've been trying to buy better clothes from smaller shops #but when they arrive it turns out they're cheap polyester drop ship crap #I've been trying to get more involved in the queer community and be more of a person #but the online zoom meetings were uncomfortable #the discord transmasc voice class went badly because I didn't understand how to use the bot #I booked a queer film night for me and my partner but it turned out to be creepy and churchy so we dropped out #I've signed up to steward pride we'll see how that goes #I went to a protest but it rained a lot so I only stayed for half #I've been trying to use amazon less but every time I go around my small local stores they don't have any of the stuff I'm looking for #I'm trying to be more myself and be more brave but my binders don't fit and I can't use a sewing machine #and every time I speak to a stranger or a colleague my voice goes up #I'm trying to work out more and eat less but I'm so tired #I'm trying to boycott and buy slave-free and say no to Ai and to genocide and to tiktok and disney and nestle and spotify #Telling myself I have food at home and to stop scrolling reddit and got get more sleep and to call my friends #All this therapy all these good choices all this work and so little to show for it some days #I am going back to fucking bed

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aria0fgold · 2 months ago

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WAIT!!! I just remembered something. Core memory unlocked but like-- slightly bad one. Is there long lasting damage to the stomach from being starved for long periods of time? I think my stomach got fucked cuz of that actually.

#aria rants #i was just listening to music and then sudden thought occurred to me like: ''whoa... wait a minute-- is my fucked up stomach a result #of the consequences of my actions in the past?'' it isnt as bad as it sounds-- i think-- but basically when i was still going to school #i REALLY DESPISED the school bathrooms. id go during the first year in elementary and HATED IT A LOT ever since so to make sure #i Very Rarely or Not Ever use it at all. id rarely eat. cuz my logic during then is: dont eat = dont need to drink water = no bathroom use #it was alright during elementary cuz school only lasted until 12 pm during then so i get to eat properly still (eat breakfast at home)#but it got worse during junior high. cuz id be going home in the afternoon around 3 pm? 4 pm? smth and yet-- i still continued to not eat #id eat only breakfast at home before going to school and never again unless i got Really hungry that id eat some snacks and proceed #to not drink anything at all. that continued on until senior high but its less bad cuz the bathroom in that school was Way Better #it was cleaner and less dirty so i didnt mind that one but i still refused to go anyway so id still rarely eat and drink #my mom would be packing foods for me to eat at school as a just in case i would eat em but i still didnt so id just eat those at home #the consequences of my actions haunts me even though years had gone by...

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floral-hex · 9 months ago

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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tsuchinokoroyale · 6 months ago

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What sort of leg exercises do you do to develop your amazing ass? It’s a great piece of work.

You wanna know my secret?

I have a most speedy pupy who hits me with his leash whenever he wants 2 walkies…

#I really don’t have any advice to give lol I’ve been in my dad bod era for a few years now #I used to work out a lot but then I got a gainer boyfriend and rediscovered my passion for eating good food 😂#we broke up a few years back but it really helped unshackle me from the constraints of muscle culture tbh #I eat less now and try to do senshi proud by eating nutritionally balanced meals tho tastiness is almost always my primary focus #but like I’m not interested in sculpting my body so I have a chance with people who have appearance as their top priority #I’m not personally fulfilled by exercising tho I know many people who are #the only wrong way to live life is to do something you dislike bc you think you have to ✨#that being said I probably should do a little more exercise for health related reasons I’ve been getting winded pretty easily recently 🤔

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sucktacular · 3 months ago

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Bag Enjoyer

#sucktacular sucks #hes feeling better today!!!!#unfortunately ive had to administer his medications by hand since he wasnt #eating the wet food. so im the most evil person in the world to him rn #even got up to beg when i pulled out a bag of skittles (sound like temptations bag)#but he drank lots of water and eat his dry food TWICE :D #been walking around and being himself #gonna try putting his meds in tiny gel caps and using a pill shooter #since doing it the 'hide it in treats / in food' doesnt seem to work enough rn #unfortunately for him there will be 1-2 more hand pillings before the pill caps arrive u_u #he still wont like the caps / shooter but itll be better than it is rn im sure gjdnnfjd #hes so very strong and large and wiggly #if he doesnt want something done he will push you away #hes a good boy and doesnt bite or claw or attack but hes very strong none the less fjdnjfjsn

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shatterthefragments · 3 months ago

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I’m becoming who I’m meant to be, slowly.

I’m inhabiting my body as a home as I make it such that it is a home for me.

💖😌✨

Also it’s a lovely studio! Masks required, hepa filters running, quiet area, but still near a bus route, was quiet once some of the people left (my artist was also super surprised that all of the tables were in use when they arrived at the shop too!!) and even though we didn’t chat (they put in their faq basically that they often forget to chat so bring headphones or whatever to do while they work) it wasn’t awkward or anything. It felt like such a safe space and I adore it so much :) (and it’s more local to get to than the other one that I’m definitely also going to go back to too at some point hopefully this year) (yay local queer owned covid cautious studios!!!!!)

#shatters’ tattoos #shatters’ fragments #ok time to eat something else #bc it’s been a while since my last meal even if I took breaks while tattoo #had a juice box for the first break before we drew the plant in there #and then before we did my leg while they were printing out the design I had a granola bar and water #and then afterwards I had a chocolate bar and another juice box and water #and then for the buses home I just had some water between buses but considered if I wanted a fourth juice box today but I didn’t really #but now I’m a bit hungry #today was fucking WEIRD at first #like popping in real quick to work?!?#class!! which I’m actually SUPER EXCITED for and about its great so far #and then walked around with a classmate who’s probably now my friend and popped into a bookstore #but it was super hot by then too #so I went off to get close to the studio #and had sushi in the shade of the parking lot before walking over #and trying to like. drink water and stay hydrated before going in #was definitely intimidated by how many people were in the shop at first #they said that it was highly unusual for all chairs/tables to be in use at once #(and they own the place!!)#but it’s such a lovely and welcoming space tbh #I’ve been to the studio once before for a market #but this is the first time I’ve been while it’s set up as a tattoo studio (it’s usual use)#and it’s just so good 💖#truly made my day really nice at the end #finally got to cool down quite a bit once I was sitting still and then laying down for the tattoos #(…actually I’m a little annoyed I paid $9 for coffee this morning actually but alas anyway)#and it was just. SO NICE #similar vibes but like cozier than the other shop I go to #it has less tables and its more private and accessibility is a huge thing there

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caernua · 11 months ago

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finally finished dai and trespasser

#THE MUSIC. THE WRITING. EVERYTHING AAAAAA #when i started to hear the lost elf theme in the last section i wanted to eat someone oh my god #it’s all so good but i’m in pain and i wanna cry #and it’s so strange for me bc i never played dai for long but i would watch pts like crazy when i first got into da #and i was a teenager #and it was so strange to play it and see how my opinions have changed #in short i appreciate some characters a lot more and i appreciate the outfits far less my god they’re so bad #and i used to think the fereldan npcs were eating 💀💀💀#.txt #and now i shall create an absolute cuntress of a cadash and ignore how much i wanna replay my lavellan already fjdhfj #cause i kinda rushed through it… cause i was scared i’d abandon it again….#OH WELL

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featherymainffins · 5 days ago

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Kinda wish a lot of my friends would stop demonising NPD?? Like they're always like "I'm cool with personality disorders, people with them aren't to blame for having them" or have a PD themselves, and then they turn around and go "Ugh I'm done with pwNPD, they're all awful."

The kicker is that this is ALWAYS preceded by me saying that I have a LOT of NPD traits and would meet the diagnostic criteria some days of the week (much the same way my friend has NPD but would meet the criteria for BPD some days). Like...ok... I literally just told you that I have a lot in common with people with NPD...you KNOW our mutual friend with NPD. You KNOW that he has NPD. And you look me in the eyes and tell me that you think that we're both awful????? Hello??? Fuck you???

#literally so fucked up #some people who say it and have BPD like me immediately turn around and accuse me of not having BPD because i have like 7 out of 9 of the #criteria and i happen not to have the most stereotypical ones #like I don't do impulsive behaviour in 2 potentially self damaging areas unless you count having a restrictive eating disorder #and i don't do inappropriate anger. i did when i was younger but it kinda calmed down when i moved out #and i don't really have a lot of emotional highs so people get kinda put off by the fact that I'm very introverted #like a lot of pwBPD i know are very expressive and loud. but while my emotions are intense and quick to change #i mostly experience negative ones. like I don't get much happiness. the rollercoaster looks more like anger - sadness - anger - disgust -#guilt - shame - amusement #and also...i have a lot of double bookkeeping going on? so people tend to think that I don't split?#but that isn't true; i just don't express it? like...no i do currently think that X has no good traits at all and that i hate her #i just don't say 'wow X is such a bitch and i don't like her' because logically despite feeling it and despite believing it i know that it #isn't true. yes I believe it. i also know it's untrue. so I do my best not to act on it. i used to punish myself for it as well #because i feel really guilty about it. and i try to do the same with idealisation but I'll be real I'm not very good at that one #because i feel like that is a process that is actually beneficial even though it isn't. so i tend to let it run wild.#I'm like 'Oh yeah who cares that I'm deifying X over here that's completely fine. at least I'll be less selfish.' and then i blink #and everything is fucked #anyway i got a little sidetracked

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e77y · 3 months ago

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Glad I’m starting therapy so soon after moving out ☝️ I am already feeling the helplessness and loneliness

#vent #<- slightly? not that strongly? this is a pretty chill post like. I feel pretty chill #but also :( sad #I miss my family and friends at home #I haven’t really talked to my roommates #including the one who’s been my friend since high school bc she’s been sick (?) for the past few days #and this semester is definitely going to be A Lot #I got accepted into another choir but I’m most likely not joining bc my schedule is so packed #but the main thing is #I FEEL LIKE A BABY #my parents never really made me cook or clean and I just feel kinda useless #I’m just gonna have to force myself to learn which is fine #and my parents have offered to walk me through stuff over the phone when they can #but idk I just feel really immature bc like. damn I am 20 and don’t know how to cook Anything #I’m gonna go grocery shopping either tonight or tomorrow and get some sandwich supplies and other non-cooking stuff #so we are not completely doomed lol #also I need to do laundry tomorrow.. which. I can do and have done before. but I’m still gonna call my mom for guidance 😅#idk I think the main thing that’s stressing me out is spending money on food vs. groceries #and trying to eat at least some protein and fruits/vegetables etc. while also not spending exorbitantly #bc I am SOOOO irrationally anxious about money. I hate hate hate spending money #so the whole idea of grocery shopping is just kind of filling me with dread 🥲#but I will do it bc I need to Adult at some point #I just. idk I guess most students do this and I’m being whiny about it bc I’m not used to it??#but it just feels like So Much to be taking five classes and doing a bunch of extracurriculars and living on my own for the first time!#like! ahhh! too much at once!#😰😰😰#and I need to get an internship soon 😀 and if I don’t get one this semester I need to at least get a job so I can stress less about money 😀#but I always stress about money regardless 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀 even though I have scholarships savings etc 😀😀 ocd things! 😁 (🥲)#thank god for my meds and the thought that I’ll be starting therapy in the next week or two #and also my mom for being like the sweetest wver

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termagax · 2 months ago

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i will admit i did watch that video of that guy butchering that alligator and every time he made a comment about how fatty the tail was i was like. taking notes.

#the way the tail looked when he broke it down was FASCINATING to me. the way the muscles were grouped.#idk what 🐟s looks like in there i dont think theres a realistic analogue for it but i do think its about 70% muscle tissue?#maybe more? or less when theyre eating consistently #i think they mostly stay really scrawny no matter how much they eat but when they eat better their 🐟 traits get more exaggerated.#takes a lot of energy to make new stuff #so i think it would accelerate a lot when they first leave oz and everyone is eating a Lot just because they can.#their fins would probably get bigger too #and i do think itd slow down again as they got used to consistently having enough to eat but i do think theyre just gonna keep getting More #for the rest of their life. i think at some point theyre gonna start getting 'fins' like. webbing style between their fingers and #maybe between their arms and chest. and i think their back fin is one of the main things that gets noticably a lot bigger really fast #have i mentioned before that i think give them another 20ish years and itll be so cumbersome to be on land that theyre just gonna have #to retire basically #i think about them settling on a river or lake or coast somewhere and just getting to be mermaid boyfriend #i do think theyd still drag themself up onto land especially to hang out with hog but they wouldnt go very far #theyre kind of a lazy shit anyways i think theyd be pretty content to do little tasks around the house and take sunnaps #i like imagining like a little house right on the water just stilts. so they can just pull themself right up without having to walk far #because i imagine itd be a total pain. heavy tail thats probably longer than they are tall...#but do like thinking abt them taking naps on a little dock while hog fishes. sighs.

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nomairuins · 4 months ago

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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floorpancakes · 8 months ago

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its about perspective dont look at me

#LISTEN #we used to be a real country #i say knowing tsuba was always the favoured sister series #but COME ON NOW....#i suppose they both got iconic spots #they should make clamp in wonderland 3 that is just douwata #im joking i love the variety but i want to eat up more holic content yum #unless the holic content is a weird plot twist in rei or something #if the continuation after all that hiatus time ends up being a tsuba fetch quest or making watanuki clow im going to start #punching people #and hitting clamp with large hammers #i love clamp but i have one eye open at night imagining the things that could go wrong with rei #it has to be said #this isnt what this post was about OOPS #xxxholic #i know 99 percent of the few clamp fans there are left are tsuba mains #and that it has always been this way #dont question my actions its ok be not afraid #its clamp i have beef with lol #but also clamp r so cool #but also i have beef iwth them #such is being a clamp stan #twitter repost #rambling dont mind me #**meant to say 99 percent of the holic fans are tsuba mains #makes me feel kinda awkward cause im not a fan of tsuba altho im down to give it another try later #and i feel. mixed feelings as to clamp has handled their connection #especially cause it feels like holic is the 'losing side' and was always less favoured #but thats old news by now it just makes me nervous to bring that up now i actually follow a lot more fans Lol

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