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i have actually never seen hello kitty BUT!!! i did play some Nintendo ds game of hello kitty where this stupid fuck kept challenging me to a race and i dusted his bitchass everytime until i hit a tree. i think it was a deer or something
#I DONT KNOW WHAT ANY OF THESE LITTLE THINGS ARE !!!#except for hello kitty#but i heard that one u gave me is very iconic so ty#i am Addicted to watching people drink boba#i have never had coffee or boba and dont plan to since i already struggle with drinking too much pop#BUT I HAVE BEEN AMENDING THAT WITH THE DRAIN GANG OF WATER#so i dont need any more distractions#BUT!!! there is just something about pretty drinks that i love staring at#whenever im bored i just look up boba on tiktok#OR MATCHA#dont say tea after that or 3 will kill you#OOO AND THE PURPLE ONE I LOVE THE PASTEL OF THE PURPLE ONE#i just love pastel colors#i think the bobas look so shiny and cute!!! i love the roundness! the smoothness!!#getting number 1 pleasantly surprises me but also kinda not??? idk#like idk why im so pleasantly surprised like i can SEE IT#i pose just like her after commenting the most unasked for demand of a man at 3am#it's true it's real#i do that!!#ted tumbunity things
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEE😭😭😭#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinder☺️)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quick— i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinder😊#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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matching akitouya moodboards
#not 100% matching but close enough#uuuuuh i think i ended up liking akitos more bc its framed around the pictures in the abck and touyas is more obscured#also i dont like al the images i used for touyas#i shouldve put a road sign on akitos and patches on touyas#but i forgot about the sign and i couldnt find any more patches transparents#next time ill make some#no psd!! i did this with apple photo editor#and in procreate but no actual photo editing was there just arrangement#also the spiral and curved text i had to use an online generator which. SUCKS#and the headphones/camera transparents are shitty quality bc i couldnt find nice ones#ugh#i gotta do everything around here /silly#ALSO my contrast is SO OFF in akitos btw/???? what was i HTINKING#i forgot to put the matching daddy issues in the same slot </3#basically: i speedran these to avoid homework then got distracted#i could do so much better AND I WILL for my haruai ones <3#<- as if i will actually remember to make them#asdjdsfkjhfdkjhdskjdf i need to find a better site for curved text bc DAMN i cannot read that pixilated mess#akitos lyrics are from kashia and cinema with one from crazy thrown in for a certain someone#and touyas are from rad dogs and blender#touya aoyagi#aoyagi touya#akitouya#akito shinonome#shinonome akito#akitoya#toya aoyagi#aoyagi toya#toyota airfryer <3
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how do u draw so much so fast
well,
#the short answer is autism and ritalin. btw#the long answer is: i wake up anywhere between 730-0900. i draw. if i have work when i come back i go and i draw.#i go to bed anywhere between 0100 and 0230. i wake up the next day and i draw.#i dont draw fast and in fact i get distracted and/or procrastinate quite often#i just have 16 hour days! every day! i am awake for 16 hours! sometimes more depending on the general mood! [cursed emoji here]#and like! wtf do you even do at that point?? how do you fill a 16 hour day? an 110 hour week? an almost 6000 hr year?#i draw! i have been drawing *seriously* since grade 2! and i have *seriously* loved the persona series since like mid/late 2017!#for those of you keeping score at home; i am 19! 2017 was grade 7 for me! ive loved this series for almost a full third of my life!#[continued emotional rant cut for length] but this is my community and my arts been the way i interact with this community since#(looks at my blog archive) 2019 when i posted my first persona art! please dont look at any of that now tho lmao!#so i guess. if the long answer needs to be short too then the long answer is love!!!! its always been love!!!! AND ALSO STILL RITALIN!!!!!!#asks & requests#personal
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im gonna need my brain to Chill The Fuck Out pls
#i always get a little Trauma pick-me-up before i go to dads#and this time its about the time he tried to uh. kidnap me post-divorce?#so my brain is like 'hey dude. be on the lookout.'#and im like 'hey dude. 15 years ago ish. not a problem any more he aint like that.'#but my brain is very much making it difficult for me to try showering rn#like i swear im hearing the front door go (i locked it) and suddenly every car is him trying to get us (he got the bus back then)#i am going to shower because i need to. im gonna make it quick bc i still dont want to be naked and in a room by myself rn#i will prevail and i will be blasting abba and david bowie to make sure im distracted and not focused on every noise
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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD
Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!
#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone#you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run#my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point#the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer#why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up#what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation#and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other#that might be fun#also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING#but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion#but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha#ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog#one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art#gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free#ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-
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i have cramps worst day ever veifei save me save me veifei im literally writing my oneshot to cope
#corner.txt#genuinely worst timing ever sorry im just gonna complain for a sec cos my period isn't even REGULAR (i need to see a gp about that tbh)#so WHY during assignment season has my body decided to foresake me#the fictional characters are the only thing keeping me from *** rn#i literally put myself to sleep imagining a veifei scenario to distract me from the pain sfjhfgjhghgg 😭😭😭#it was low-key a banger idea but i dont think its making it onto the page any time soon unless i get a little more unhinged#its w a trope i don't even like that Much ordinarily sfjfhjfhh veifei brainrot is a powerful drug
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#all i do on tunglr is little vent posts lately#anyways im tired of being so uncomfortable and unhappy all the time#if i'm lucky i can distract myself for a little while but i always come back to it#i really really miss my adhd meds!#i just feel like a stupid dumb idiot because i can't do anything!!!!#:O mfw my disability disables me#but it really is soooo fucked#everywhere i look i see things that used to bring me so much joy but they're also big missed opportunities!#because everything just falls apart in my hands#i can't Lock In to anything#my life just never starts?#i need my independence i need to live on my own#but as a real life zombie i could not possibly hold down a job that would afford me that rn#i dont want to waste any more time but i do need a chill 3 week coma#i need to be put in a sensory deprivation tank for 4 days#i need another media detox probably but i'd still be equally unable to get anything done#i need to go live on a mountain
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fuck a baldwin queue i want an arlo queue so bad i hate having to click all that shit again every 10-15 minutes please god let me just queue up like 5 magnifying glasses at a time and forget about it for like an hour please god
#i know you can turn the notifs off but that does not in any way help me at all#bc if i dont get notifs i will forget about it#but also im SICK OF GETTING THEM CONSTANTLYYYYY#and no i dont want to just ignore the arlo function altogether either i need/want stuff from there#hell part of me even just wishes it would take like 30 minutes per item use like baldwin anyway#it would genuinely be less annoying to take longer to get plots uncovered than to have to keep clicking back every. 10. minutes.#trying to get just one item rn and like. good lord i already get easily distracted enough#it doesnt help that i have to go click more website buttons every 10 minutes. my art progress is going so poorly
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I always feel terrible asking for thing but...if anyone had some spare time to send in some prompts or soft unprompted things, that would...genuinely very much be appreciated right now.
#i'm just sitting in silent shock like#....how am i supposed to do normal things today#everything feels so heavy & despairing#im going to try and just get up and do some of the chores i need to do#and then i'll be on here later#or try to be#but um...yeah#please don't feel you have to#just some distraction would be nice#any of the prompts sot or angst or whatever would be nice#since ik not many softer connections at the moment#sorry i'm rambling i just#yeah anyways i'll be on later#also i just got cold called abt scheduling an appointment for health check#and i was so convinced it was a scam but no it was legit#phone calls stress me out#but even MORE when i dont expect it#AND when it shows up without the company name
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2 years ago i fucked up a friendship w a girl (that im pretty sure i was in love with). to this day i think of her and sometimes when i see her on the street i just wanna cry. i understand your plight very much.
yeahhh man im sorry to hear that!!! it genuinely fucking sucks and i would never wish this upon anyone. cuz like it makes you fully think about all the what ifs and i genuilnely dont think ill ever find someone like her again
#im not trying to sound dramatic im being so serious she was so fucking perfect for me#i geuss the difference is shes the one who broke up w me and i know i didnt do anything wrong#neither of us did#its just like fuck!!! you know?? like we could have been so much#serious relationships dont need to be longterm to be serious you know???#one of these days im going to get tipsy and then 'drunk' text her even though i fiully intend to text her#and then claim i was just drunk because im notl ying im just not telling the full truth#like i fully considered it last night but i knew it would be a bad idea and i know if i do it its just gonna fuck things up more#but im soooo tempted man#like i dont know what itll even do#i know inside my goal is to maybe convince her that its not our time to end but i know in reality#its just gonna make her feel guilty and push her away even more if i show her how much ic are abou ther#i just seriously wish i understood why she even did it#i also thought being back on campus would help and i mean it has for sure becuase ive had my friends to distract me#but the thing is im not enjoying anything. like im not being distracted im just being numbed ykwim#cuz the moment i leave my friends all i do is think about her#and even when im WITH my friends ill be in the moment w them and then 2 minutes later ill start zoning out thinking about her#like the worst part about this is i dont have any anger *against* her#maybe im angry about like the general situation but the anger isnt against her#and while being angry is its own kind of pain in a way it can be easier cuz at least then youre tempted to have a good time and show off#but when its like this where youre just sad at the situation like what am i actually gonna do except think about her#sorry anon im not trying to dump on you i just start ranting in the tags sometimes#sunny rambles#anon tag#asks
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I love to talk but I rly do feel like we have to be talking for a minimum of 8 hours straight before I feel like I can even begin to rly broach things on my mind or that have been bothering me a lot that I actually want to talk abt without being vague or deflecting or omitting or lying and if the conversation takes a break at any point it resets back to 0 and its still nice regardless but.
#we're all just desperately chasing each other around for a semblance of connection in this cold bleak world#but unfortunately due to the relentless crushing pressures of capitalism we also have to work so no time for that#man. sorry just frustrated n miserable now. wish i was capable of feeling close to other ppl wish i could give other ppl that connection#but instead we're just ships in the night passing by or whatever#and i have to settle with not rly being known or wanted or important in other ppls lives and its forever. btw#bc even if ppl do think they know me or do want me around or i am important to them in some way.. the specific torture labyrinth i call#home is constructed in the most elegant and precise way that im incapable of believing them to be sincere anyway#so thats all on me! if I tried harder and made more of an effort to communicate with or trust ppl i wouldnt feel this way!#but i dont so better luck in the next life i guess! this is why i dont think abt this shit bc it makes me want to kms#whats even the point man#dont even worry abt me im fine just need to fucking vent bc i dont have time to allow myself to feel anything bc i have plans tmr#so i need to go to bed early. and ill just try my best to keep distracted forever so ill never need to face how pathetically desperate#i am for any kind of emotional intimacy whatsoever and also physical contact but im not normal enough to fulfil any of my own needs#yeah well. its my life that i have to live and im the one making it this way. digging my grave and lying in it innit#its fine tho bc they make repressed fictional characters that i can project onto instead of confronting any of my issues#so ill just be here in my labyrinth doing that. while everyone else gets to see sunlight and grass and whatever#im just so tired i dont want to do this i want to pretend i dont care and dont need it and maybe itll become true. its too much for me#let me know when they need me to pilot the jaeger and drift with someone and thru our mindmelding i can finally achieve intimacy and trust#well anyway. that was embarrassing. hope it works out for everyone else#hope my flatmate gets her ideal life w our other old flatmates and finds a convenient way of discarding me from that like they want#except im going to make it as difficult as possible for as long as i can for them to get rid of me bc im selfish and want what i want so.#my obligate parasite ass. or whatever. im going to throw up if i keep thinking so thats a good place to stop and go to sleep probably#.vent#dont interact im being stupid as fuck and dont care just leave me alone thanks
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Hmmm i think I need new irl friends
#look. my crew of 7 is amazing. great. lovely#theyre all lovely people and theyre genuinely good role models#they all have their ambitions and desires. most dont party or drink or do drugs or have sex#and they all focus on their studies#but everyone is also so deeply fucked up by our families. except for one. which makes it hard to connect with him cuz he doesnt understand#and i feel like im reaching a point in which i turn to them and all i can see is their burdens. and i dont think im strong enough to help#well. mostly because im not. i dont have any power when im still on my own short leash#its been more than 4 years of the same song and dance and i dont think i need to desl with that#i think i need some space from them. meet new people#its becoming stagnant only hanging out with the same 7 people#i need....stronger distractions#this bird speaks#ah. but theyll worry.#but ah. whatever right?
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idk im glad they didn't give us any actual details about caleb and evelyn beyond belos's memories and like. fifty-sixth-hand information from masha's story so audience members not paying attention would at least know who they are.
whatever nitty gritty details the audience comes up with on their own for what happened to these two would be infinitely more satisfying to them than what the show would have been able to depict in a flashback. especially working within what's appropriate for children's television.
caleb the person isn't important to the story anymore. the MEMORY of caleb, which belos has never let himself get over in 400 years, is the important thing. and you don't need to know much about caleb for that to work. and while i loved the parallels between the wittebanes and hunter and luz, as well as the clawthornes being a descendent of evelyn, i'm glad they never confirmed it, and it remains situational irony purely for the audience.
hunter's only connection with caleb is his DNA, which also ties back to belos's feelings. him befriending luz is something they did of their own volition. it's not because hunter is fated to play out every beat of caleb's life by virtue of being his clone. similarly, while i love a good hunter clawthorne, dell taking hunter as an apprentice and eda showing care towards him in s2 are because eda is kind to children and hunter independently had passion for palisman carving. it's not because they found out they were related, because the whole show is about found family.
having flashbacks to the real caleb and evelyn wouldn't have contributed anything to the story aside from fanservice. what matters is how belos feels about them. belos's ego and the desperation to be acknowledged by his puritan community and God aside, the idea of caleb haunts his every action. not the actual ghost of caleb-i've already discussed here why the idea of caleb's ghost literally haunting belos would be a poor writing decision. belos knew the person his brother actually was, killed him, and imagined a perfect version of him that he chased after for the next 350 years.
the tragedy is that the perfect version of caleb is unattainable, and now belos can never get the real caleb back. he refuses to acknowledge that caleb may have been flawed before the influence of evelyn. to phillip, everything he thinks is wrong about caleb is because he was corrupted by the boiling isles, and that's part of the reason he starts on a quest to kill all the witches. it's also why he makes so many grimwalkers. he desperately misses that ideal version of caleb, so he makes copies of caleb and plays family with them.
and belos loathes the grimwalkers. he kills them because he hates the magic they were made with. because he hates being reminded of his brother and what happened to him. and of course, he hates the grimwalkers for not meeting his expectations of what his "ideal" caleb would have been like. it's a fluid expectation that belos, subconsciously or not, changes as he goes, all in order to take out his anger on innocent children. he seems to recognize his enjoyment of harming the grimwalkers, though it's unknown if he understands the reason-which is that the "perfect" caleb will never exist, and likely never did. phillip's brother is gone forever, and it's all his fault.
and idk maybe in the writers minds caleb was a perfect brother and baby phillip was just a possessive little shit. or maybe it's the opposite and caleb messed up a lot in communicating with phillip on his relationship with evelyn. maybe evelyn was a perfectly nice girl who was perfectly supportive of caleb and phillip's choices or maybe she hated phillip and the other humans and did convince caleb to leave it all behind. it's a fascinating piece of backstory and i love seeing fanworks that talk about it! but anything more about caleb and evelyn that the creators add in canon would give actual context to their situation that we don't need! their story has been over for 350 years and dont affect any of the other characters beyond how it affects phillip!
nothing more about these two can be said that will contribute more to belos's character that isn't already conveyed with the barebones material we got in the show. this story isn't about "forbidden love," this is about how phillip was confronted with the fact that his brother found happiness outside of him, and that someone he's been taught since childhood to hate may not be all bad. it's about how he plugged his fingers in his ears in response to this and went on a 350 year long killing spree to prove to himself that he can never be in the wrong.
basically, i wouldn't go so far as to call caleb and evelyn's backstory "purposefully unexplained," but i definitely think the story is a lot stronger as it is than it would be if they did explain it all. not every detail of a story needs to have a word of god answer as to how it all went down. sometimes adding in unnecessary detail for completionism's sake just distracts from the point you're actually trying to convey. while there are a lot of things that i wished the show could have explored in more detail had it not been shortened, caleb and evelyn's story is not one of them.
#shut up pandora#the owl house#toh#emperor belos#phillip wittebane#caleb wittebane#evelyn clawthorne#shut up pandora indeed lmao this post is way too long#the second to last sentence?#'sometimes adding in unnecessary detail for completionism's sake just distracts from the point youre actually trying to convey?'#thats me writing this post babey!#anyway yeah the whole forbidden love schtick that caleb and evelyn had has been done so much#that the show basically expects you to get the gist via background hollow mind pics and spooky halloween stories#this isnt to say the romance was necessarily dull or bad what i mean is we dont need any more info to know how it turned out#and maybe this is just the way i write stories but if the info isnt necessary for plot or characterization of relevant characters#then including it would just be indulgence#which is great for fanworks but will make an independent story bloated if youre not careful#but anyway this could also be the danganronpa enjoyer in me but i dont think you should go out of your way to explain everything#sometimes canon logical explanations for things that only matter on an emotional and thematic level... are worse
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godspeed - shayfer james // teenagers - mcr // a little life, hanya yanagihara // oyasumi punpun // tokyo ghoul // the comfort we find in our vices - eidola // a little life
#web weaving#sh#not pro sh or any of that bullshit i just needed to vent/distract myself#sh mention#tw sh#cw sh#a little life#oyasumi punpun#tokyo ghoul#juuzou suzuya#do not plan on making any more posts on this topic or intend to participate in the sh ''subculture'' so dont follow me for this#dont talk to me about it either unless were friends lol#mine
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im high n fuck it uhh ill stay 2 the left of them as much i can n i get caught i get caught ill b a shitty person n use everything as a cut me slack rn pls n just b so normal for a lil n by normal i mean high enuff i dont feel real emotions or i dont care yk
#sometimes old me is still there just not how i need in the cornered dog kinda way more so in the ill manipulate rn bc im fine n its fine#no worrying ill literally choke on their cock if it distracts lmao like dont focus on me like that unless ur gna sexualise it rn n ill make#sure u do like dont rly wanna get punched rn or fucked in the ass but if it takes some crying during sex that might happen anyway rn bc#keep getting mixed up flashbacks to that stupid apartment but its like im watching from outside of me but ik the lighting perfectly#thats the funniest part like i just mainly remember the lighting n a few emotions n like everything else is disconnect that wasnt me#but they dont need to know any of that bc not like i dont cry durin sex anyway sometimes n just go pls no keep going pls bc they go uhhh#batbaby rambles
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