#so far im just more anxious and thats it

[casual-eumetazoa]

finally gathered the strength to lower the dose of one of my meds that i want to quit and oh god am i anxious today after taking three quarters of my usual dose,,, wish me luck or something, this is just day one

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[theloveinc]

i don't really want to bc like. there's many reasons for me to stay but. i don't think this tumblr life is for me anymore

[waterfallofspace]

A Word-Filled Update

that no one's asking forrrr~

Sooooo, hiya~ ^^

Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)

Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3

(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)

Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)

That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.

This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.

But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~

So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.

I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)

Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~

I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!

Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.

So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~

There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3

And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~

[bitegore]

getting mental healthcare is really cool, its like asking someone to take a sledgehammer to your self-interest and then saying thank you after because it makes your life moderately easier even though you have to deal with this shit now

[anotherpapercut]

people acting like there isn't still very much an active stigma against cannibas and cannibas users is going to be my joker origin story

when i go to the doctor they still put cannibas use under the tab "substance abuse". not even just substance use. it is fully assumed that people who use cannabis, even as a prescription medication, are abusing it. just because you're friends with a couple of dumbass stoners doesn't mean that we've abandoned the idea as a culture that weed is a bad and scary and dangerous and highly addictive drug that will ruin your life if you use it once

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[burning-sol]

I know more additions will be made to the post later but for now everything is transcribed under the cut. Sorry if I made any errors! (If someone wants to tag me when new additions are made I'll do my best to transcribe everything!! I know this isn't a lot but I hope it's somewhat helpful.)

The DMs:

edenfenixblogs: Hello friend! In the interest of Jewish Muslim solidarity, I want to try an experiment! Would you be interested in participating with me? It's ok if not! I can definitely still do the experiment alone, but I would like to highlight Islamophobia as well as antisemitism. So I thought I'd ask if you're up for it. I just made a post with this exact text: I am experiencing a lot of antisemitism due to the ongoing conflict and I would like it to stop, please. And the tags: antisemitism #leftist antisemitism #i/p #i/p conflict #israel #palestine In one week, I would like to check my replies/reblogs/tags/notes and see what kind of messages I have received. My hypothesis is that I will receive some hate and some support and relatively low engagement. If you would be willing, I'd like to see what happens if you posted this exact text: (Only if it is true to your experience and you feel uncomfortable of course!!!) I am experiencing a lot of Islamophobia due to the ongoing conflict and I would like it to stop, please. And the tags: #islamophobia #i/p #i/p conflict #israel #palestine My hypotheosis is that you will receive more engagement and more support but probably more hatred. I want to be very clear: I do not want to ask anything of you that is uncomfortable with any aspect of this, please do not feel pressured in any way to say yes if you feel this would be inappropriate or generally upsetting to your mental health. If you'd like to participate, but are worried about the toll it would take on your mental health, you could make the post and immediately mute any notifications about it.

thatmuslimlady: Sure, I could do that

edenfenixblogs: My goal with this post is to highlight both knee jerk reactions from bigots as well as levels of support and apathy that diasporic Jews and worldwide Muslims are experiencing. For the whole week, I would ignore any replies or reblogs or tags or clearly related asks I get. At the end of the week I would screenshot all of the replies and post them in a reblog of my original post. Then I plan to discuss how apathy, violent support, and virulent hatred on all sides is hampering peace. I just want to talk about how to be a goood ally. You're a hero!!!!!! I would do the same for your post btw. I don't want to burden you at all or ask anything of you other than to make the post. 💜💜💜💜

thatmuslimlady: No problem!! You're a really cool person so I figured I'd do it 👍

edenfenixblogs: You're the coolest person on this whole site! It's 3am so imma sleep. Salaam aleikum!!!!!!!

thatmuslimlady: Aww thank you! It's four am for me lol. I just woke up like five minutes ago

edenfenixblogs: Hi friend! I'm planning on making the post about our little experiment later tonight. I've been monitoring your post itself for Islamophobic reactions, so I don't need you to look at that at all if you don't want! But as of the moment I'm sending this message, I have not seen anything but support on yours, which makes me very happy indeed. Have you received any hate messages in your inbox since last week? Any support messages?

thatmuslimlady: I've received support thankfully, no hate so far

edenfenixblogs: 💜

thatmuslimlady's post interactions:

reply 1: ooof that really sucks. unfortunately i don't know if there's any substantial way i can help but sending emotional support <3

reply 2: I am so sorry that you are dealing with that. I pray for peace and safety for you and your community.

reply 3: Shit sucks so bad. <3

reply 4: My heart is with you.

reply 5: I hope you have support to get through this

reply 6: We need more Jewish-Muslim solidarity. It's so messed up that lots of us (both Jewish and Muslim) are just minding our own business trying to exist in the diaspora and getting harassed by (mostly) white Christians. I've have so many convos w Muslims friends about how the majority of the people making our lives hard are not even adjacent to the I/P conflict. I have a friend who has stopped wearing a hijab and my sister took down her mezuzah. We are all living in fear.

reblog 1: #let me know if i am using islamophobic language

reblog 2: #fuck islamophobia #Muslims and Jews are cousins

reblog 3: #i can go in the notes of the offender and talk mad shit if that is needed

reblog 4: We gotta stand together!

reblog 5: Seconded! Leave Muslims alone. They're not to blame for this conflict and they've been through enough. if you blame someone for a crime because they're the same religion you're a bigot. #end of story. #leave Muslims alone #islamophobia

reblog 6: #op I am hugging you #please let me know if you'd ever like back-up #especially if this is coming from Jews - I am not afraid to issue some tochecha 👍 #< prev tag #but I whole heartedly agree

reblog 7: @ thatmuslimlady I'm here if you need asses kicked. I should mention my work shoes are steel toes.

reblog 8: #i dont reblog enough about this. #i've been reblogging about antisemitism #but islamophobia is also incredibly prevelent right now and im sure its really bad in the usa rn as well #sending all my love to muslims suffering…

reblog 9: Actually no, this belongs in the maintext: OP and any other Muslim followers, if you need back up, let me know. This is not okay and you should know that I am ready and happy to show up for you. This goes double for if this is coming from Jews or people claiming to be our allies - Islamophobia is not the answer to antisemitism, it's not helping us, and I will gladly inform anyone who needs to hear it of that. 🙂

reblog 10: ^^ What [redacted] said, feel free to message me as well

reblog 11: #islamophobia #don't be awful to each other

reblog 12: #yeah neither Islamophobia or anti-semitism is ever a solution to anything #nor should it happen in the first place! #solidarity forever

reblog 13: #islamophobia #i will deadass fight anyone actually #let us know and we'll pull up #and on a serious note op i am sending you strength and courage to deal with the bigots <3 #(not to say my offer to fight isn't serious. lmk who…

Reply from @ arabian-knight: Zionist blow your brains out

Reblog 2: The Jewish Experience

screenshot 1: #i/p #leftist antisemitism #antisemitism #jumbler #I've stopped talking about my feelings with ayone #because I'm so afraid it will push my friends away #at first I talked about it a lot but after a while I felt like I was bothering them by harping on it too much #idk if I actually was because my friends are really understanding #but it *felt* like I was #so I've basically just been pretending I'm completely fine ever since #and I'm really really not

screenshot 2: Leftist antisemitism is so insidious It is intentionally constructed so people cannot acknowledge that it is in fact antisemitism It dresses up decades-to-millennia old anti-Jewish propaganda and conspiracies in progressive language It does not allowed Jewish people to define antisemitism It leaves no room for nuance where nuance is vital It reduces complex history and an even more complex geopolitical conflict into a litmus test It sorts Jews into "Good Jew" and "Bad Jew" It denies Jews equal access to public life and equal accommodations It turns harassing and hating Jews into praxis while claiming to love Jewish people, you don't hate Jews you just hate [vital aspect of Jewish identity] and believe it must be eradicated

screenshot 3: I feel disgusted with everything I read, hear and watch I can never trust hundreds of content creators who I watched and read and liked art of It's gotten to the point I refuse to check social media for content creators I like because they might be cheering for my death I feel guilty listening to any music not in Hebrew because I don't know what the artists have said and I don't want to look I'm scared of finding any new people or shows to watch Everyday I block yet another creator who prided themselves on inclusivity and progressivism and yet doesn't offer that to Jews or Israelis I've left so many forums and discords and deleted so much social media how will I ever return from this? Will I ever be able to watch YouTube, or read books, or listen to music or read webcomics ever again without thinking about potential horrible things the creators have said?

screenshot 4: There are a million other ways that it is harmful, it's terrifying looking at the people who claim to care about the marginalized and the oppressed and knowing the majority will never actually care about you and your people when it really counts

screenshot 5: listening to people whose countries either killed jews, expelled jews, or refused to allow jewish refugees entry then go on to have very loud opinions about where jews ought to live and how it's the evil jews' fault a lot of jews began to cling to an ideology that sustains itself on the idea jews cannot be safe anywhere but in their own state. Well it's a lot, bro. it's a lot #there's another word for it 😒

screenshot 6: i don't know dude i'd think some of these antizionists who are not antisemitic would have like. acknowledged that attacking the berlin synagogue, synagogue in tunis, synagogue in melilla etc. was not exactly a le epic act of decolonization. was kinda under the impression that's where those pesky israelis were supposed to return to ?

screenshot 7: Based on my mentions the only protest to the Israeli govt that would be sufficient for some of you would be a protest suicide. The only good Jew is a dead Jew

screenshot 8: #prev tags are so real #actually you just wish that all Jews were all perfect dead victims instead of a vibrant living people #because dead victims can't object to you usually their murder as symbolism for literally whatever you want it to mean

screenshot 9: Your Jewish friends aren't upset that you're speaking out about Palestinian deaths. We are upset that you were silent until there were Palestinian deaths. Because Jews don't count. And now we know that as your friends, we don't count.

screenshot 10: #antisemitism #literally from the days after October 7th #where many marches had iconography of parachuters #and apparently no one at those marches had a problem with it… #a lot of people I thought I trusted didn't seem to see a problem with it #why the fuck would I feel safe around any of you

screenshot 11: #to be clear: yes it's very possible to support Palestinian self-determination without being antisemitic #lots of Jews in fact do this! #it's super possible and you should try it today! #all you have to do is care about Jews like you would any other marginalized group #this is apparently a startlingly tall order for some people #but it's completely doable if you aren't an antisemite 🙂 #hope this helps

I am experiencing a lot of antisemitism due to the ongoing conflict and I would like it to stop, please.

[taintedcigs]

— if you're feeling lucky

pairing: fwb!eddie munson x f!reader

summary: friends with benefit never ends well... or does it? based on this prompt by @dumplingsjinson (wc: 1.2k+)

warnings: just absolute fluff, maybe tiny angst, and a kiss, and thats it, oh and my shitty writing.

author's note: ignore the corny summary im lazy. the title has no meaning i just luv that song omfg. not proofread. based on this lovely request i got from angel @voyeurmunson i hope i did it justice i am so very rusty!!!! and the ending is rushed i AM SORRY

pleaseeee reblog to support me. ty!! mwah.

Y​​ou knew this would eventually happen. You agreed to this stupid "arrangement" knowing that this would be the outcome.

Just because you couldn't keep your feelings in check. Just because the two of you kissed hazily one night, minds filled with each other and the cheap weed Eddie provided. Like a knot that had been waiting to be undone, unraveling, so quickly, fading just as much—if not more quicker.

You should've seen it coming.

From the way your last rendezvous ended, when you accidentally kissed him goodbye on his way home. It was a simple, honest mistake.

Or was it?

The two of you had a set of rules; fucking with no feelings attached, make sure none of it got in the way of your friendship. It was supposed to be simple.

But that goodbye kiss was intimate, more than just fucking, and much more than your stupid friendship.

His cheeks burned a salmon pink, your plushy lips tainting his with something he had never experienced before; pure affection. Making him splutter, almost tripping on his way out of your house.

You barely registered what you did when he finally left, too enamored to even notice. Your son-of-a-bitch subconscious playing its tricks on you, feelings acting out before your logic can even kick in.

Stress ate away at you, but you assumed he wouldn't make a big deal of it. That this wouldn't ruin anything. He would forget this by Monday.

By the time he ignores your fifth call, and even goes as far as to avoid you in town, you start to blame your poor assumption skills. Try to ignore the insecure feelings that churn in your stomach.

Anger replaces those thoughts in an instant, because how could he just fucking end things without even talking to you?

Did he not even like you as a friend anymore?

Did one kiss really disgust him this much?

A lump sits in your throat at the unanswered questions, anxiety seeping through your skin, eating away at your organs, consuming you.

And after hours of endless anxious thoughts rummaging through your mind—and a long talk with your girlfriends where they urged you to talk to him, you end up at his door, arms crossed against your chest, wearing a scowl.

He opens the door with a bewildered gaze, your name falling softly from his lips, like a prayer, devoid of the lewdness it held than the last time you saw him. Much more affectionate, shattering your heart in every way possible.

"What is your problem?" You don't mean to go all out on him, especially when looks this good, bittersweet gaze meeting yours, tousled curly hair framing his face just in the way that has your heart skipping a beat.

"W—what?" He splutters.

You brush past him in a fury, "do you hate me now or something?" Your anger doesn't hold the same weight anymore, tone now laced with insecurity, a sadness that finds its way into your skin.

You don't let him talk, "do you realize how fucking childish this is? Ignoring my calls? Avoiding me?" He watches the way your brows quirk when you explain yourself, teeth pulling on your bottom lip worry, he wants to kiss it, your thoughts, worries away.

"That's not—"

"You could've just talked to me if—if you had any problem, ignoring me is fucked up."

Plushy lips open to speak, to explain himself, but you don't let him, fluttering your thick lashes at him, rambling on and getting more and more upset each time you spoke, tugging at his heartstrings, making him want to slap himself for being the source of your worries.

"We could've just talked this out, you know? W—we could've set up clearer boundaries and uh—" You were growing more and more frustrated, words getting mashed together with how emotional you were being.

"Will you let me—"

Again, you didn't let him speak, wanting to get it all out, knowing that this might've been the last time you spoke to him. Ever.

Your lip wobbled at the thought. "I—I just... 'm sorry, I broke the rules, okay? I—I swear it won't happen again, I don't want our friendship to be—"

"I can't be friends with you anymore!" He breathed, tone loud enough to startle you, the weight of his words taking a while to sink in.

You gulped, physically, mind too hazy to register what he said, that horrible feeling caging your chest, eating up the words that are unable to leave your lips. "Oh... uh—uhm, o—okay." You nervously nip at your nails, not knowing what to do.

"I can't do this anymore, either." He adds, pointing toward the space between the two of you, and you're unable to meet his gaze, too scared. The tears begging to be let out.

"Why—" You take a deep breath before you continue, prying your gaze from his stupid wooden floors, and back into those swirly caramel hues, now big enough to hypnotize you. Softening you in seconds. "Why not?"

"Fuck..." He mumbles, this time he's the nervous one, cheeks flushed with the prettiest pink all over. Fingertips trace against your features, settling on your cheekbones, and you let him. "Because I'm starting to get greedy, sweetheart."

Hope gnaws at your insides, the way something flashes in his gaze has you healing all over, the hold both of you have over each other is strong enough to gravitate you, yet both of you are too dumb to see it, notice it.

Until now.

"I can't just have that and be okay with it... I want—fuck that, I need more," He grumbles, desperate, a silent plea. Your mouth grows dry, lashes fluttering heavily to process it, the world stops spinning on its axis at the implication of his words.

"I need you." You can't help the way your gaze turns mellow, melting into his touch, everything you craved, and more, right in front of you.

A little taste of heaven.

Rolling your eyes playfully, plushy lips stretching into the prettiest smile, followed by a giggle—a heavenly sound he decides he can't fucking live without. "You absolute idiot," you breathe with a shake of your head.

"You didn't think to tell me that? Were you just gonna pull away? Bury your feelings away?"

He mocks a thinking face, "I'd write a few songs about it too, probably." Grin growing wider the more he looks at you, barely registering what the fuck is going on. That you even showed up at his door. That you're even entertaining the idea of being with him.

He's at the palm of your hand, and you don't even know it.

"Idiot."

Pushing a palm over his chest dramatically, he tilts his head in a manner that has you wanting to squeeze his cheeks. "An idiot you like back?"

"Unfortunately." His lips downturn, an exaggerated pout that has your smile stretching.

"An idiot I like too much that it's embarrassing," you add with a scrunch of your nose, a gesture Eddie wants to worship, want to leave open-mouthed kisses all over your face.

"I'll take embarrassing," he whispers, licking his lips before leaning in. You stare at his parted lips a millisecond longer, before pulling him by his stupid Hellfire shirt, pressing your lips hotly against his. 

Eddie only freezes for a second before his instincts take over, a groan rumbling in the back of his throat, deepening the kiss, lips parting to taste you, fully, completely. 

Only breaking the kiss once you consumed him, lazy smirk sitting on his lips, “Told ya we couldn’t be friends anymore,” he teases, that pretty dimple sitting on his cheeks. “Shut up,” you reply with a giggle, interrupting him before he can observe your features and try to drown you in compliments, fisting his shirt once again and pressing your plushy lips against his.

[honeytonedhottie]

dealing with stress⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🎀📔

in this post i'll be talking about how i deal and manage my stress in ways that work for me, and how i soothe myself…💬🎀

AFFIRM ;

if ur an anxious manifestor, affirming will be ur best friend. affirm what u know to be true until it soothes you. if ur not into the law of assumption then thats fine too, affirming can still help you. affirming to urself that everything is going to be okay really helps.

some things that i like to affirm when im going through a lot of stress are ->

♡ ik that i am in control

♡ everything is going to work out fine

♡ i am at ease because everything is working out for me

♡ everything is coming together so beautifully for me

♡ i am totally in control, this is MY reality

REGULATING NERVOUS SYSTEM ;

so we have this thing in our bodies called the vagus nerve. it regulates ur heart rate, digestion, speaking and stimulating it helps anxiety and stress. to stimulate it you can ->

♡ hum or sing

♡ gargling

the reason behind these two points so far is that because ur using ur vocal chords it stimulates the vagus nerve (see chart above)

♡ exhale for longer than u inhale (DEEP BREATHSS)

TAKE SOME TIME OFF ;

you deserve to take a break from the world sometimes. take a day or two off of school if u can, or take a day or two off of ur work if ur able to and just get it together. do some meditation, take a nice long shower and a soothing nap. some more things to do while taking some time off/time to urself are

♡ meditate

♡ journalling

something that i do when i have a lot of stress is a healing journal "dump page" so i go into my healing journal and dump whatever has been on my mind, like literally everything and just get everything out of my system…💬🎀

♡ take a nice long shower

♡ take a nap

take the shower BEFORE u take the nap. i promise it feels so good to be clean and in fresh clothes and just bury yourself under ur blankets and RESTTT…💬🎀

♡ do some yoga

♡ do some breath control

♡ talk to yourself (it actually rly helps)

RELIEVE ;

relieve the tension and stress that u feel by doing things that are strenuous. like working out or something. just find ways in which to relieve the stress and tension from your days through doing something. that way it can become a habit and it can cue ur body to know when its time to relax.

[chuuya-kisser]

THEORY TIME THEORY TIME

ok. so. first of all FYODOR FCKIN DOSTOEVSKY I LIKE U AND ALL BUT???? REMAIN DEAD??? U JESUS FR??

ANYWAYS ignoring that

so bc i adore skk to hell and back obviously im gonna explore their dynamic first

what kills me is how familiar they are with each other. they arent insulting each other in every sentence, which is still alright. and what struck me the most is how much dazai seems to trust chuuya. more so than anyone.

so far we know that dazai isn't exactly the most open person around. his entire cheerful joking persona is a facade, a fake. what you see is usually only what he wants to show you. his real emotions? ive only seen them very rarely, if at all. now look at these

the way chuuya says what he does implies that he is already used to this habit of dazai's, which is only possible if dazai did this in his mafia days, AND even then, he was open and willing enough to let chuuya see it and know that dazai was anxious. which means that even before mersault, before dazai left the mafia, he and chuuya atleast were that close that the usually closed-off, know-everything demon prodigy could show his worry to his partner, multiple times.

i think that over here, dazai really isnt hiding his emotions. you can see the shock and worry on his face and in his eyes clearly as he puts the pieces together. not only that, hes also laying out parts of his plan to chuuya, in addition to his theories. which he rarely does unless im wrong about that (its possible). he isnt worried about chuuya using his emotions and weaknesses against him, because he trusts him enough, although i think the trust between them was already shown when both of them fake-killed each other.

its easy to see the panic in his eyes, and personally i feel that this is him showing a bit of weakness, which is perfectly alright. the thing is that again, hes letting chuuya see this. I very much doubt that he would have let down his facade enough to show this to absolutely anyone else.

also the poor guy literally looks so stressed out here give him a goddamn break asagiri

aaaaand now chuuya.

now what strikes me is that even in the last chapter/s, chuuya has multiple times tried to reassure dazai that fyodor is indeed dead to try and calm down dazai's worries. this can also be him also wanting a damn break but anyways.

and these panels. while many ppl are agreeing that hes just sitting there being a pretty boy while dazai tows through helicopter debris (and i agree), and definitely chuuyas sadistic streak when it comes to dazai is showing itself clearly, its often been seen in both the official arts and animanga that whenever working together, chuuya always covers dazai's blind spots.

think about it. dazai has his back turned towards everything. if someone launched a surprise attack on him at this moment, the chances of him dodging, finding out abt it in time is pretty low. chuuya is directly behind dazai. i got this idea from another post i saw, but what if this is also chuuya covering for dazai yet again? protecting him?

anyways thats it folks maybe ill make another post on jesus- i meant fyodor soon

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Its probably a combination of things. Also I think we just hear about it more often now with the internet.

It feels like having a dog has gotten way complicated and hard in recent years, posts talking about reactive unsocialized and untrained dogs everywhere but the thing is, was anybody intentionally socializing their dogs before the past couple decades? Are humans just way more isolated? Is it the thing about how you should adopt a rescue instead of buying?

[spyder-junkie]

EARTH-24 MILES MORALES X FEM! READER

warning: cursing, drugs, angst

‘Yo?’

“Miles?”

“Where are you???”

“Are you serious Miles….?”

You shut your phone off with a huff just after pressing send on your 6th text of the hour. You were waiting at the restaurant Miles agreed to meet you at, only he was an hour and a half late, and his phone was on dnd.

Its not like this was the first time either, Miles was habitually late to important things and you were starting to become fed up with it.

Suddenly you huffed in frustration, getting up from the booth and striding out of the restaurant. Miles promised he’d treat you to dinner to celebrate an internship you received, AND to make up for the last date he was three hours late to.

“Im not sitting in that damn booth for three hours.” You mumbled, beginning the walk back to your house. You thought back to a couple days before when the two of you were planning the event.

“Im gonna do it right this time, Mami. I wont let you down, I promise.” You mocked, rolling your eyes as your pace increased.

You flinched as your phone buzzed.

‘im otw.’

That simple text somehow angered you even more.

‘dont bother. I left.” You replied just before fumbling for the keys to your flat.

You stomp into the empty apartment, throwing down your bag and taking off the new outfit you bought just for the date.

Your grip was rough as you pulled a box from your bedside table. You grated, rolled, and sealed your first blunt so aggressively that you almost dropped it.

Then you took a deep breath. You were laying in bed in your bra and some pajama shorts, hair and makeup done, about to smoke your frustrations away when you should have been celebrating with your boyfriend. It was almost laughable.

So thats what you did, placing the blunt to your lips and lighting it while letting out a deep chuckle.

____

Miles stared down at his phone before letting out a low sigh. He had just gotten back to the garage, he was pulling his suit off while simultaneously texting you that he was on the way. He wasn’t surprised that your response was quick, but he was surprised at what it said.

He knew you were upset, he would be if he was you, but he just couldnt tell you what was going on.

He was too afraid to lose you, but he was starting to think he’d lose you anyway.

He took another deep sigh, saying bye to Aaron and beginning to walk to your apartment. And when he got there, he climbed the fire escape, peering into your bedroom.

The air in the room was foggy, you were smoking, something he knew you only did when you were stressed or anxious.

He lifted the window slowly, stepping in and closing it behind himself.

He watched as your eyes flew open, looking at him for a moment before closing again. You were laying on your back, one hand behind your head and the hand holding the blunt resting on her forehead.

“I missed you, mi corazon.” Miles mumbled, trying to ease the tension. The smell of weed was heavy in the air as you took a slow drag from the blunt, eyes still closed.

“Cool.” You replied, smoke falling out of your mouth as you spoke.

“The date thing was my fault, something came up, you know how that shit is.” He said. He was waiting for the yelling and the angry frustrated tears, but they didnt come, and he couldn’t tell if that was good or not.

“Maybe I should make marijuana my new boyfriend.” You said, taking another hit and letting it trail out your nose.

“Its always there when I need it to be.” Your eyes were still closed, chest rising and falling calmly.

“Mi vida, You know Im sorry-“

“mhm.” You hummed.

“Its not gonna happen again I swear-“

“right.”

“Imma make it up to you I swear.”

He watched as you took a hit from the blunt once again. Eyes opening this time, watching the far wall.

“Miles…” She blew the smoke.

“Get out.”

Miles’ eyes widened a bit.

“Hermosa, I-“

“If I have this conversation with you right now, Im going to break up with you. I suggest you leave my room.” You say calmly.

Miles felt an immediate pain in his chest, his hands beginning to shake. He was silent as he walked back to the window, opening it and pushing his leg through.

“I love you, y/n.” He said, pausing for a moment.

“I know you do.” You reply, tapping the ash off your blunt.

[lexithwrites]

Any jegulus fluff/soft smut headcannons?

Forever and always<3

I like writing regulus on the asexual spectrum, he’s already demisexual to me anyway but I think he’s really particularly about how far he goes and with who, but most of the time sex doesn’t really cross his mind

James loves quality time and physical touch so he’s always hovering behind reg, either smiling or yapping about something whilst regulus is sipping a matcha and holding his hand

they share clothes since regulus buys oversized and James fits them

they're very lovey dovey in private and outside they keep it a bit more casual, regulus is more comfortable that way, but if someone makes james mad then he goes protective mode and holds reg's waist or wraps an arm around him

barista regulus means a lot to me but also bookshop regulus,,,james flirting with him and buying books to add to their collection? yes please

in terms of nsfw,,,reg is in charge i'll die on that hill that man knows what he wants

and as a trans regulus truther reg buys a bunch of straps for james to practise on, james potter sucking dick is truly a sight to behold

reg loves stroking his cheek and tugging his hair when he's deepthroating and james is rock hard the entire time he loves it

also t4t jegulus take turns topping, i love that kinda vibe where it's equal

they both help each other with their insecurities like regulus and his gender dysphoria and james with his adhd and how they navigate their reactions to certain things

they go for biweekly dinners at effie and monty's place, they love cooking for them

they also go for a games/dnd/drinking night with the gang, their local pub hates them all because they're so loud lmao

i feel like sex for jegulus is usually very soft and loving, regulus is an anxious guy and i feel like super rough sex would stress him out sometimes, like having to perform and be a dominating role all the time can be fun but when its not fun its NOT fun, and james just wants them both to be together and have fun and feel good

they love slow sex with lots of kissing and looking into each other's eyes and whispering how much they love each other

i do feel like they're both kinda on the ace spectrum somewhat, i saw a headcanon about ace james and i do like it, i can see the vision of them prioritising other things before sex (how i feel tbh lmao lemme hold your hand thats more intimate)

they sit and read books together and i have a hc where they're both currently bingeing lost (they like the theories and trying to navigate all the flashbacks lmao)

their flat is the cosiest but then there's some random goth decor here and there

i will die on the hill that james gets up for a run and gets regulus a coffee or a hot chocolate or a matcha most mornings

sleepy regulus is the cutest regulus and drunk james is the cutest james

they call each other bubs/bubba im sorry they just do its disgusting but its cute

[casually-salad]

cutie pox chronicles, full master-post.

welcome to my sick and twisted world.. everything will be found below.

so firstly! i know theres a couple people coming from off tumblr sites to check this out (( hi jay!!! )) so ill explain somethin real quick!

All of my comics have hand written text! now sometimes these can be hard to read, and so if you press this button ( image below ) and ive wrote out all the text in there for your convenience! make sure as well to read the body of the post and also the tags! usually i have some post upload thoughts or feelings i talk about there - some add context and some are fun!

normally i would recommend going through my archive and searching for "mlp infection au" or "cutie pox chronicles" but you wont have to do that here - but for nontumblr users if you want to check out other blogs i recommend that method.

now before reading there is a massive trigger warning: on all posts with these topics everything is tagged as "tw (topic)" and so i would recommend blocklisting ones that make you uncomfortable or understand what youre going into! triggering contents include: blood, gore, body horror, eye horror and eye trauma, child death, dismemberment, and cannibalism.

now! all posts will be in upload order, liked here with the title and the in story date ( as it changes. ) as well as which posts are single images and which ones are comics. when looking at stat sheets, the more full the better! 0% - or empty health is death, and 0%- or empty, composure is maina. alright!!!!! here we gooooo!!

The Cutie Pox. (day 0) comic

stat sheets ( day 1 ) comic?

Lillys last cutiemark. - single

first sightings -single

first nights out. - comic

how far away does a home stray? - single

lillys last mark - comic

the everfree - single

from hell and back - comic (day 0)

imbalance - comic (day 2)

finding the spark - comic

moon dancers melancholy part 1 - comic

moon dancer sheet - single

fleeting feelings - comic

helping hoof..? - comic

moon dancers melancholy part 2 - comic

freezerburnt - comic

fleeting calmness - comic ( day 3 )

dreams fall hard today - comic

princesses stat sheets - comic?

wilting lilly - comic

youre going to live with that guilt - comic

home - home again. - comic ( day 4 )

hurt everywhere you go part 1 - comic

bracing for impact ( hurt everywhere you go part 2) - comic

get well - comic

fly free canary. - comic

getting worse - comic

a storm on the horizon- comic (day 5 )

CLOSING THOUGHTS:

i really never thought this comic would get me as far as it did, seince i started posting i went from having 100 followers to about 210, thats more than double! thats insane. i wont lie i am SOOOO ANXIOUS to have such a following!!!!! usually my posts prior wouldnt get more than 5 notes but now!! almost all of them ( at least of this comic ) have over 30 on every one!!! thats just, so crazy. i hope everyone continues to look forward as i begin preparation on chapter 2, and what else i have to offer on here - i have a whole lot more story to tell and im excited to!

[twipsai]

^this is me when someone respectfully disagrees with me btw

ANYWAYS! pls dont take this as me arguing in a mean way or anything, i love Sonic a lot!!! and i like talking about it and i think you bring up a lot of interesting points!!!! so im gonna go over it all in maybe a not super cohesive way???

i wanna start by acknowledging what you said at the start, "the wording of the second bolded point echoes IDW Sonic's wording of his principles in IDW #2 that Amy swoons over" and clarifying that i was referencing It Doesn't Matter from sa1 and sa2,,, (the full lyric is "Don't ask me why; I don't need a reason / I got my way, my own way!), and the reason why i alluded to it is because i was trying to make that connection that Sonic still has the same basic principals that he did during the adventure era, but i guess i wasnt clear enough oops ^^; i honestly completely forgot that theres a reference to that lyric in idw #2 but,, uh, happy accident i guess?

ok now onto my actual thoughts

i actually wanna agree with you on that first part, cuz as i think about it its something that makes a lot of sense and i havent really been able to fully wrap my head around it -- Sonic being reactive to whats in front of him is exactly how he is!!! idk how i didnt realize that before lol

as to what you said to my first point, i think that theres a level of dissonance between the games and comics with the threats theyre dealing with, and it kinda prevents me from explaining myself with examples. this MIGHT be a reach!!!! im sorry if it is BUT im gonna compare satbk and frontiers for a sec, since we're talking about satbk a lot here (as we should. its such a good game)

(and im not sure if youre lumping in Sonic in IDW with Sonic in Frontiers? a lot of people do but. idk maybe you dont lol. for the purposes of my point i will)

i think that there are parallels to be drawn between how Sonic treats Merlina and Sage, vs how he treats King Arthur and The End. he has a lot of patience for Merlina and Sage as he realizes theres a lot more to them besides just wanting to kill him, but he'll still take what they throw at him like he takes anything else. then you compare that to Arthur and The End, and Sonic is like. ready to destroy those guys. and i think that, while Sonic is first and foremost just living in the moment and reacting to what people throw at him, i also think that theres a huge difference between when Sonic is fighting a person and when Sonic is fighting a powerful entity. granted, he didnt know that King Arthur was an illusion, but he did know he was an immortal tyrant associated with hell. i mean. the underworld

i would love to use an example from the comics showing how he does treat similar scaled threats the same way but i. cant! because he doesnt face threats like that in IDW! hes dealing with things like "the dragon is back" and "that girl has psychological issues". the only thing that comes close to the world-ending threat that we see in the games is the metal virus, and it was both a lot more complicated than typical "defeat the bad guy, save the world" that we see in the games. now, that does NOT mean i dont think the games have complex stories but if i delved into every situation Sonic has been put in then we would be here for so long. and i dont wanna do that. so yeag.

basically to sum up my points above, im saying that the reason IDW Sonic has been pretty lax with his enemies, and even tries to help some of them, is because theyre not really the same level of threats as most of the villains he faces in the games. he can deal with them fine without ending them outright, so he doesnt really have an issue with letting them live. hes just kind of easy-going and chill like that. at least thats how i see it, maybe im missing something?

also, to your point that "Sonic doesnt fight for freedom, he fights against oppression" i just. do not agree lol. i mean, hes been associated with the Freedom Fighters since 1993, but theres also some more direct reference to it in reference to specifically Sonic

the Sonic Adventure Stylebook, page 9 (translated) - "He loves freedom and hates crookedness. He is impulsive and short-tempered, but also has a kindness that can't be ignored when someone is in trouble."

Sonic the Hedgehog Encyclo-speed-ia, page 13 - "Sonic is usually laid back and cool, but he's driven to fight injustice - not in the name of the law, but for the ideal of freedom."

and then i WAS going to add more examples, but the wayback machine is down right now so. can i just say source: trust me? sorry i wish i could add more examples :( i dont wanna dwell on this "for freedom or against oppression" point too much though, cuz i honestly think its just kinda arguing semantics. as well as the fact that i feel like both things are true, i just kinda didnt phrase it well in my original post

um. and now i kinda wanna go completely off the rails so please be nice to me but im gonna say something that may be controversial,,, i am of the mind that, because IDW is canon material, then it shouldnt be seen as a different character than how Sonic was written in some earlier games, even if it seems like it. because its just as much as source material as anything else! i really just think that most "out of character" things are more akin to different facets of a character. i think that writing off all of Sonic in IDW because some things he does contradicts what he does in the games is just kinda. idk. i dont like how quick people are to do that. i mean like, i got into Sonic because of IDW, and then i went and played the games and it never really felt any different to me -- just Sonic responding different to different situations. maybe i need to do another read through of IDW! but i really dont think that writing off an entire canon comic series is a good thing to do when looking at the facets of a character's personality. that could just be me

anyways ummmmm yeah i dont really have anything else to say? i dont disagree with everything you said, but there are some things that i dont think are quite right,,, hopefully this all makes more sense than my original post cuz i dont think i did a good job articulating my points

um. idk what else to add. bye bye i hope you at least liked my drawing of a super sad alien

"sonic just wants to be best friends with his enemies"

WRONG thats only in the idw comics. extremely loud incorrect buzzer.