#self learning

[saydesole]

Romance your life

[star-struck09]

I will think of you often and wonder where you are on this earth, but I will never reach out my hand to you again or call you and expect a response back.

[quietlotus]

“You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at itself and exploring itself.”

— Alan Watts

[azhar456]

Dear Me,

I feel you, I feel the words that you are unable to speak and they come out in the form of harsh sighs of sadness, the situations that killed you in complete stability without a single tear falling from you at a time when sadness was eating away at your heart. I fully understand the amount of conflicts you are going through between your heart’s childish desire and your clinging. With people, between the old age of your heart and your pride that prevents you from looking back, those moments that lured you to cry but you did not cry, and the disappointment that ignited groaning in your soul until you lost your trust in everyone, I understand the meaning of Your fear of people, and your look at them as if they all want to take revenge on you for actions that were not your fault, the feeling of alienation in the places that used to contain you, and loneliness in the crowds and crowds, staying away from people and not believing any kind word, no matter how sincere it is, the memories that suddenly attack you in the middle of the day, turning you into a lost woman. her anchorage, Your loss of the ability to defend yourself and your complete inability to create justifications that seem annoying to people, constant hesitation over the simplest things and endless fears of repeating old defeat and disappointment, Pity for yourself for enduring all of these events with complete calm and your mockery of the possibility of collapse because you do not have the luxury of falling and getting tired. I understand what moodiness does, which suddenly makes him the happiest person on earth, and suddenly you feel as if the earth cannot accommodate your feet, your old pictures with those who broke your heart, and your question is disappointing. Hopes "How did they get so bad?" Your struggle with yourself in order to continue steadfastness for fear of the gloating of those waiting for the moment of your fall, and the constant stubbornness in your desire to avoid people and the continuity of life, which does not care much about your sadness, the constant self-flagellation and violence as if it were your worst enemy, for your confidence, for your naivety, for ignoring messages that were revealing the truth to you. Everyone around you is bad and ugly. I may be a bad person, but at least I know about your sadness, about your collapse, your great ruin, and I know about you..

Love, Me

[raemimuse]

WAKE UP!

You are alive! Act like it. Get up. Take the shower. Make that call. Send the text. Think BIGGER. Act today!

This all will end! Why are you afraid? What are you waiting for? Go Just 100 more steps. One rep to go. Ditch Netflix. Lose your phone. Escape! Be PRESENT in this world full of distractions.

People says, "time flies". Don't let it!!

[positivelypositive]

🌻

loving yourself...

... doesn't just mean accepting yourself as you are.

it's more about accepting and loving who you are right now, while also caring about yourself enough to see if you can make things better for yourself.

self love is a journey, not a destination. keep going and keep loving yourself ✨

[wolf-saint]

What does the Elven Oracle dream of??

6/5/24 - Note to self - Digital art is difficult.

[riidethebigsouls]

It’s not your responsibility to be a version of yourself that you don’t resonate with anymore, just because people are more comfortable with who you used to be. You don’t have to take steps back in your growth or relive what you’ve outgrown just to keep certain people satisfied.

[star-struck09]

I became so much more free once I stopped caring about what people thought of me.

[azhar456]

“How difficult it is for a person to console himself.”

[raemimuse]

The "detachment" thing I uploaded earlier is so real!

I stopped caring about a certain specific person today and I that person treated me better than they used to ~

And in the evening, I was again trapped in the "abandonment" emotions which shows that I felt bad if they go, and again everything was back.

The little experiment (idk what else to all it) make me wonder like WTFFF my emotions controlled the way a certain person act with me.

I felt so wonderful like in the matter of seconds I was a different person who don't chase, but attract" and in another second I was sitting with myself alone feeling miserable??!!!

[positivelypositive]

🪴

you are here...

...to live your life, first and foremost.

it's not selfish if you think of yourself first. a happy version of you can be of more help to others than a discontent one.

making yourself feel heard and understood is the first step to spreading joy ✨

[myfriendgoo94]

Random story:

I used to date a guy (hi if you’re reading this btw) who sometimes would buy those comics you see at the comic store that are like “alice in wonderland but she has ridiculous tits and ass and it’s got writing in it but it’s mainly an excuse to look at some drawings of tits and ass”. If you know, you know.

I never had a problem with that exactly cuz like, we were dating but i believe people should be able to get their titillation from more than one place and like, he wasn’t gonna dump me for these drawings. It was not the kinda thing i would read but i wouldn’t judge him or anyone for reading them.

That being said tho it did make me feel slightly insecure. And while we were dating i could never figure out why it made me feel like that.

Well, sitting here now i tried again to figure it out. And i immediately thought to myself “well you were insecure cuz the women in those books were REAL wom—“. 😳

That stopped me dead in my tracks.

“Real women”?? They’re made of fucking paper!! A horny guy fucking *drew* them!! Never mind the fact that they had completely unrealistic proportions, they were FUCKING FICTIONAL!!!

So, i sat there for a couple minutes and just let that sink in. I considered these sex drawings “real” women, and myself a “fake” woman. Keep in mind: this was a thought i was having today, not five years ago.

Basically, i’ve got quite the fraud complex going on inside my skull, and i would *really* like to start working on that. I don’t know how, but i think at least realizing how absurd it can get and pointing it out is a step in the right direction.

I’m a girl. I’m a pretty girl. I make my money by being a pretty girl. And STILL i have these thoughts. Of course, sometimes i see myself for what i am and feel gorgeous, but waaaay too often i find myself thinking things like “the people that reach out and call me breathtaking are just being nice” or “the people who sub to my OF are just kind, charitable souls and don’t find me attractive at all”, which are patently ridiculous things to think.

So, i guess what i’m trying to say is: your brain will go to ridiculous lengths to make you feel unsure, insecure and fraudulent. I can’t really help with that exactly but what i can do is remind everyone that they should question those thoughts and examine them. Because chances are that you are valid and these negative thoughts you’re having are actually stupid as fuck.

[crackaddict55]

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No. No I’m not. I study at home.

[abrunettebombshell]

No revenge because I know you needed the love I gave you.